#it also doesnt help that like. everyone i know irl does not care in the slightest about any of my interests

[exiled-on-mainline]

genuinely how do people make friends. even online. all i know how to do is run up to you with big puppy dog eyes and point at The Character

[robotnuts]

heres my bitching post sorry

the main thing i didnt like was how they treated grif's character. he was so angry and i feel like some of his character got leeched out to simmons. for a season that tried to call back so much to the original, that even tried to even out the great destroyer plotline from BGC that didn't make any sense, i wish they handled grif's character with more care. like a red team member manipulating sarge to do what they want is GRIF'S mo, not simmons, and i wish grif had been the one to rally and convince sarge to come help caboose instead of simmons. i feel like the grimmons breakup was the emotional scene that hit the least for me i didnt cry about it i only started crying when the credits rolled, and thats because grif felt pretty ooc for me. which sucks as a grifhead but what can you do

similarly theres kind of a weird abuse apologia thing going on where its like. im fine with how sarge treats grif because it's so clearly like water off a duck's back and grif just manipulates sarge to get his way and rolls his eyes at him and doesnt give a fuck throguhout seasons 1-10, i can take it just as a fictionalized comedy duo that isn't taking itself seriously and grif isn't actually 1:1 like a soldier being abused by his superior irl. and then shisno had the problem of making grif go "actually this really hurts my self esteem and makes me feel bad" and makes you retroactively view their dynamic in a different light. this isnt as bad as shisno, but having sarge say "i was only hard on you because i wanted to push you to be better" made me like :/ because. yknow. if we're taking it seriously, the fact that sarge was "psuhing" grif doesnt make his treatment okay. what makes his treatment okay is that theyre wacky halo man characters and obviosuly there has to be a crazy sargeant character and its not really bothering grif that much. but :/ very minor but i thoguht id mention it

um um um. tex coming back was incredible and made me scream i knew she was gonna come back i was spoiled but i didnt expect how theyd do it. really good. they got me again with the fucking chex at the end of course they did!!!!!!!!

oh right biching. um. what the fuck was going on with wash honestly LMAO like him having his fuckign DID and talkign about his memory issues was completely made for me but his role in this season was so funny and strange WHY DOES HE HAVE A DOC TULPA OH MY GODDDD. like in my ideal world of a final season it absoltuely would have had a more filled out cast and wash and carolina woul dhave been part of the reds and blues the whole time because i want this to be my sitcom where everyone is friends forever but like. I do understand why burnie wanted to take down the cast to sarge/grif/simmons/caboose as the original four founders (rip joel LMAO).

also the stuff with tucker was so scary !!! ahhhHhh why did they send him to time prison for 10 years AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! SCARY!!!!!!!!!!!

idk ill also update this post with stuff that i loved it was really funny and i did like it overall, i need to watch it again i was tipsy/drunk for most of it and also talking about it irl so i missed some bits that my friends went crazy for and i need to watch the commentary. its not all bitching thats just waht sticks in my mind easier. god that campfire scene with the barenaked ladies song i was CRYINGGGG. it obviously felt short/rushed or whatever but like. ugh. its just a potential possible future anyways you guys KNOW in my head all the reds and blues are together on chorus forever and ever always doing their bits. i really am just glad we got more of it to watch together and got to get on burnie's wild ride one last time. thank you

[dsmsix]

I need ur professional advice on rizzing up the baddies (and not fumbling said baddie)

Oh text me the details but my best advice is ALWAYS to go for it. ask her out for coffee in campus or something. if she’s from there.

you gotta do it scared, that’s the key. I approach women all the time, and it seems like I’m confident and shit but I’m always nervous. Thing is, I’ve realized that if she says no that changes everything. I also don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t want to be with me. It might hurt, but I’ll deal w that on my own and move on soon enough. With them, the previous platonic relationship doesn’t have to be fucked after I shot my shot.

If the person is already my friend, I tell her that’s totally ok and I hope we can still be friends, that I care about her as a friend and I was just seeing if it could maybe lead to something else. It didn’t and that’s ok. That I still value our friendship, and I’m gonna bark up some other tree. That I hope things won’t be weird, that I understand if she needs space. And then I back off and it always turns out ok.

I’m saying this very generically but it’s based on actual happenings in my life, I’m not that much of an unattached whore lol.

thing is, we get so scared of rejection we don’t even try. that’s worse than rejection. trying and clearing things up with an honest talk is always the best. taking the leap, asking someone out is terrifying. rejection sucks. but not everyone will want to date us and that’s ok. loads of ppl will and we’ll find them along the way. so if she does say no, don’t let it make you feel any less awesome. cause you are fucking awesome.

That being said, she will probably say yes. take her out for lunch, coffee, dinner, a party. Have a good time. try not to be too intense unless things have been solidified (fumbled a bad bitch cause of that last year lol). be yourself, as cliche and stupid as it is.

I know you so I know you dont just wanna fuck her. My objective plan for you is approaching her irl or through text. ask her if she’d like to grab a coffee/lunch/drink with you. or if she’d like to check out [insert dinner place name here] with you. And see where things go from there.

you’re cool as fuck, smart, and very sweet. you’re a great guy and I’m happy to still be your friend. Plus I can always get you some random bitches if anything bad happens. it won’t, but if it does just know it wont be the end of the world.

fumbling her, for you, would be

• being too intense from the get go

• not being clear w your intentions and not putting your dick on the table, as we say here (as in, when you do approach her romantically, be clear about it)

• not being proactive enough after she says yes (not asking her out a second time, not communicating, etc)

• not making sure BOTH of you are having fun in dates and whatnot. if you focus only on her she will notice. do shit that will also bring the best out in you. dont ask her out to a rave, for example.

• being embarrassed if she says no. be chill. it’s fine. she’s still a cool person and you can still be friends. you have a world of women to pursue, and you wouldn’t want to be with someone who doesnt wanna be w you so you’ll get over it soon enough. ez.

• if says yes and all goes ok and you’re ever in the setting for it, and she looks at you as in waiting for something FUCKING KISS HER. do it scared.

hope I helped broski

[the-insan1ty-clause]

Pokemon XY/General

I started rewatching Pokemon XY/XYZ recently and 1 thing in particular stands out to me.

like, to start it with an example. Team Rocket follows Ash and Pikachu everywhere they go, making trouble. So this happens multiple times to the professor and his pokemon lab. TR breaks in and wreaks havoc. And technically, if Ash had never visited Kalos/the pokemon lab, J squared would never have tried to break into the lab. But the professor doesnt see it like that. Rather, he genuinely thanks Ash and the others for putting a stop to them, without even asking for help to fix any damage caused. He in no way blames Ash and Pikachu for team rocket's presence. In fact as far as I can tell, not many people at all in the pokemon world throw a lot of blame around.

And another thing. The lady who came home to her dead grandmother's house, infested with a bunch of kids and a strange pokemon. She didnt get angry, and barely even asked what they were doing there! In fact, she even changed her mind about the fate of the house because of these random kids and this pokemon who was wearing her grandma's necklace. She even decided to move in!

I just find it so Different from our world that everyone is just so... kind? And open to knew things and people! Like they are just so peaceful and trusting. Its really more of a perfect world. And the thing is, its not even like there isnt crime there. There are still evil and greedy people. But everyday people, who do every day average things, just decide to be kind. And to go out of their way for people they dont know, and likely will never see again. Then when its time to go they wave and say "goodbye, stranger. Come around again sometime."

And it also blows my mind that when it comes to pokemon especially, so much is free. Free Pokemon health care, starting trainers get a free starter pokemon And pokedex. Trainers can stay (free) at pokemon centers and get food for themselves and their pokemon. Gyms arent pay to play. Like this is some sort of welfare state or something. Its just so Utopian.

Of course, the show is more geared towards kids, so it might just be trying to teach them that they should be nice to people or whatever. But its just so odd to see. Like these are not suspicious people. They are not like us, and their government obviously does not work in the "pay an arm and a leg for everything or probably Die" way, and it really hits me whenever i notice it that its just a show. Its sad, really. That we arent better, and that this fantasy world about silly little critters just got it right, better than most people irl do.

[sillyxaly]

Damn im in the oc brainrot today

So im gonna dumb stuff without context.

Skylar was meant as my gender discovery at the time I made him while Isaac was somewhat of a self insert now that I think back. Poor boy has all my anxiety and good will and need for validation and Skylar was subconciously tailored to help him with that because I needed help with that. Skylar was without my knowledge the person I needed IRL and she will forever be loved for it my precious little daughter. I love the both of them.

But also my sona Xaly whose name I stole and who is my pfp exsists in the same universe as them just on a different planet.

I have yet to create a fully built out planet that does not have racism for some reason?? I mean Isika has racism because of literal god. Like she made it up. Its lore. Nobody knows. Its secret. I mean the celestials know but their moral value doesnt lie in messing with their fellow celestials when they play god so they really dont care what she does with her world.

The spirit of creation can be killed but it will always rise again and is nurtured by the flickering flames of desire because without creation it will burn us alive. And he™ is so gonna hate me for it but thats his problem not mine.

I have the impending urge to kill Isika's god but I am bound to my own rules and she didnt join the gang because she wouldn't fucking care so she didnt anger him™ so he™ has no specific desire to tear her apart and i dont know who else would either.

I should make death and I should make death and Mother Nature be friends and I should make death exceedingly gentle and a little sad and its basic but I will never not love it and speaking of Love i still havent made her. But Love is lesbian for Life and im gonna make them tragic and actually I need to at least wound one of them he™ wouldn't let them go.

Like yeah Solaire did the most fight but momma nature definetly joined the gang and Love would join her which sizes the gang up to FOUR. HOOORAY. Thats an actual size for once and not just a random team up of two guys who are pissed. I need more tho just to convey how much of a threat he™ actually is to everyone and everything.

Death wouldn't care too much I mean hed need the death of living things to survive so why would he care? Feathers neither. The foxfires would but she cant fight so she is at most sideline support (what if I kill her that would be tragic?) and Legends? How do Legends stand in all of this? Legends stem from stories and life and need people to exsist. To be born and to be alive. SIZE UP TO FIVE hed be joining.

And in all of this lives my sona and what does she do? Go to college. Sometimes I cant believe what im doing in this universe

Official Apology, as always, goes to the unnamed undesigned Barman who has to put up with way too much fuckery for someone I still didnt draw and who doesnt even get a mouth. How does he talk? It is a mistery and he™ will never find out because im petty and its gonna keep him™ up at night lol.

[castlebyersafterdark]

why is that bad? he's been through so much. I can't see mike complaining, in fact I see mike insisting he do stuff because he likes to and it doesn't mean will doesn't show appreciation back.

and thank you for pointing out that in times he has pillow princess energy it doesn't mean he's inactive during sex, he loves sex too much to not be participating, he's just being treated well by his gentleman haha

WOW im also learning about myself during these discussions, because i think i subscribe to these ideals in my own life but am perhaps completely unself aware about what others would think of me?

like… something about the term pillow princess suggests a negative judgement - and in fact when its used in the context of straight women in bed especially, it IS used pejoratively. As in: shes lazy, she just lays back and relies on being hot and does no work. Its definitely something people use as a negative descriptor. Same for trophy wife. In general, thats not seen as an admirable thing to be by culture. so seeing people using that same pillow princess terminology in a positive light for will is what i couldnt get my head around i think even tho i agree with your reasons why he should be pampered. But i dont think what you described is pampering! I think its just being normal? Isnt it just will behaving in a way that he (and everyone!) deserves to some of the time: being doted upon and kicking back and letting someone else do the work! So i think i couldnt see how that was a specific thing that needed labelling, because its just a normal part of being human

or am i unknowingly revealing that some people would call me an accidental pillow princess lol? I dont see that as me getting special treatment though - literally who doesnt deserve to kick back and have people do things for them sometimes? Am i missing the point? I mean, as a woman maybe its different. I have known women who want a man just to do the man jobs around the house so they dont have to, whereas im the kind of person who would be embarrassed to not be able to do things for myself. Feels like feminism taking some steps back, you know. So i can do the stuff, but sometimes if others want to help or do it instead, i let them because thats the give and take of life haha!

Yeah I think there's different connotations and usages with different people. To be honest, I've really rarely heard it certain ways used outside of kind of deep online social media/fandom spaces. Like for me, even if maybe irl a certain dynamic is slipped into, it's not like the whole thing was given a definition or terminology. It just is what it is. And I'm super versed in the history, but my understanding was from an origin in bedroom dynamics of the lesbian community? But as many concepts, warped and turned into multiple uses through colloquialisms.

And I see what you mean, the pampering/doted upon situations just being a normal part of life. I think the difference is turning it into something a little extra? Intentional behavior, not just just the standard sweetness and taking care of each other that comes with a healthy, happy relationship. I think it just depends on how you personally view concepts.

[jenoslutie]

random vent ignore this

just me or is it really weird talking about ur feelings to ur irls like i know they just dont get what i feel. like no one tries to understand my feelings when i try talking to them about things but when its literally anyone who tries talking to me about things i feel like i have to understand their feelings and help them feel better just because i care about them and their happiness but literally no one would do that for me.

everytime something exciting happens for me i gotta keep it to myself and just be happy for myself in silence because i know no one would be excited about it like i would be for them. i think its just me who loves people too hard and then gets upset when its not reciprocated. its really hard out here for me i guess.

that's literally one of the biggest reasons im so attached to nct and ive been so attached to them because after my most recent friendship breakup, the hardest one of my life, where i was being controlled in by my own best friend and forced out of things i enjoyed, nct being one of them, i realized that i was never truly happy during that time like at all. but as soon as i found my way back to them ive been the happiest ive been in the past year even through all my ups and downs (which there were ALOT of) and everytime i even see her now i realize how much happier i am now even if i dont have that many friends now, i find comfort in having the neos as my little safe haven but again, i can never talk to anyone about it because no one gets it. everyone would think im one of those kpop obsessed freaks when im literally just a girl coping with life through them.

i wish i could go back to 2020 when i was literally having the best year of my life. i was in the healthiest relationship of my life, i found nct, my baby was born, everything was just right for me. but of course good things like that never last because everything is falling apart lol...

even now, the guy im like very interested in right now, no one understands it, everyone tells me that hes ugly and i should find someone better but i find comfort in liking him. i like him cuz he actually makes me feel wanted after a whole fucking year of being single and going through countless situationships but ofc i cant say that to anyone cuz im just delusional right? no one gets it no one EVER gets it. everyone just thinks im delusional but its just how i cope with like everything in my life. stress, anxiety, literally anything, its my coping mechanism but whatever.

i cant even start to talk about my family BRUH. i can't complain about shit to my irls cuz everyone knows my family and i dont want it to be awkward but i guess its only sided cuz family does not give a FUCK about who knows me and who doesnt and is straight up just tearing me apart lmao.

on the bright side, im taking the time out for self to improve my mental health and be in a better state! ive started doing daily motivations and journaling on this app and its been helping alot. ive also started protecting my peace way harder so i literally dont talk to anyone other than like close friends lol.

ok bye i wrote like a novel here LMAO goodbye if u read this ignore it this is not who i am

[sharkszone]

@swampthingking Extra detail on how i think the monsters would play (sorry for ramblings or inaccuracy these are from my 4am section of the notes app) :

Neil - he tries to get into the roleplay side of dnd but doesnt fully understand it. So he'll sort of swap between his character's voice and his thoughts as a player without distinguishing things, leading to renee getting some super funny moments where she runs with his mistakes. When it comes to combat however, hes actually very good. He finds ways to get creative as a barbarian, and pushes himself past just rage and hit. He has a great grasp on the mechanics of the game, and can make the quick decisions he needs to in battle. He also has a track record of killing characters that really didnt need to die so unnecessarily, and making renee have to rewrite plot points.

Andrew - hes proper into the roleplay side, hes really good at putting himself into his character's shoes and thinking what would he do in that situation. The problem however is that he ended up getting super invested in reading all the books and now has a devil on his shoulder telling him to metagame. If the attention isnt on him and his character, he stacks dice until the tower collapses. He built his character to excel in combat and basically just uses the same one move when they get into a battle because "why would i need another if this way works". He gets super pissy if he is low in initiative order, like scoffing at other players and going on his phone. He also 100% holds irl grudges based on in game disputes.

Nicky - he adores the roleplay stuff; he knows everyone's backstory and goals, he's always trying to get renee to add npcs to the party, and inter-character romance is absolutely on the table (much to Andrew's dismayal because nicky absolutely targets neil for this) he gets pretty creative with avoiding combat, using charisma and charm spells instead. He doesnt really understand all the spell rules so he just kind of makes them up. He sometimes metagames but its more getting ahead of himself than intentionally trying to cheat the system. Hes the kind of bard that seduces the dragon.

Kevin - he just absolutely does not want to be there. He doesnt under the point of roleplay, and his character exists purely to stab. He wont engage with any other character, instead talks to the player. Hed probably be a rules lawyer if he learned the rules but i just cant imagine kevin enjoying dnd.

Aaron - the true rules lawyer. He knows everything you can know, in fact hes the one who suggested they play. He uses the rules to both help the party and renee, he doesnt really care as long as the rules are followed. He also takes notes for the party, he has every npc name, every mission, every item and info. Hes the player who at the end of every combat asks renee for XP, she'd never forget but he asks anyways.

the monsters play DND (feat. renee):

Renee (DM) : no ,kevin, you play dnd to be someone who isnt you.

Kevin *holding his human fighter character sheet* : when have you ever seen me wield a sword?

Nicky *still writing his bard's backstory* : how come andrew doesn't get that criticism?

Andrew *holding his human rogue character sheet* : when have you ever seen me holding knives?

*silence*

Neil : wait ... we cant be too similar to our characters? Do i resemble a dwarf barbarian?

*unanimous yes*

Aaron : well mines a woman so i think i have my grounds covered, as well as the groups diversity policy.

[hiraya-rawr]

Who would main who? Modern AU HCs

A somewhat-extension to my Modern Acting AU hcs where Genshin is a popular series made into a video game based on the actors (but you don't need to know that to read this). Now the actors have to play the game, who would they main?

HCS 1 || HCS 2 || MASTERLIST 1

Kaeya

Would main himself honestly. Doesnt even mind that he's a starter character.

Probably whaled for Character Diluc, now he's got his brother on C6 with wolf's gravestone and CRIT artifacts.

(wonders why it's so hard to C6 himself 🤔)

He's the type to show off his own build and Diluc's build on twitter and instagram

Probably sacrifices Diluc on Barbatos' statue whenever he does a 10 pull (he'd stream it too)

Has all the other characters but probably stuck with himself, Lisa, and Amber (+Diluc) just to support the starters 😌

Diluc

Gives me F2P player vibes at the start of the game 😭 He only played because he's the actor for the series

Kaeya probably had to carry him when he started.

Now he's kind of hooked. This man is loaded and doesn't hesitate to buy primogems and kits 🤩 it's a secret though

I don't think he'd main himself, it's kind of awkward for him so he uses whatever new character he gets and builds them

He's friends with Jean irl so she's probably a regular on his team tbh

Kaeya gets ignored (he says it's bc he hates him but he actually just finds it as awkward as using his own character)

Zhongli

help 😭 this grandpa does not know how to play.

As mentioned in the hcs, he only plays on set where Xiao and Hutao are there to help him

Co-ops a lot because that's the only way he can go on with the game tbh

Xiao and Hutao piloting for him like it's their second account 😔

Finds his character super useful, Xiao helped him build his Zhongli, he's smart enough to know that he only needs to long press his elemental skill for a shield

Shield = protection = no die = wait for Xiao and Hutao to defeat whatever for him

He mains whoever Xiao and Hutao left on his party list tbh

Childe

Mains himself, pretty obvious 🤨

His party can go from all of the tall women or all of the tall men tbh

Did not pull for the Ayato banner. He's scared to ever lose 50/50 to an Ayato. Needless to say, he doesn't want one ever

Hates it if another character gets artifacts better than his so he has to work on his build all over again

Will definitely put the other Harbingers on his team once they become playable

Signora didn't tell him she'll die and leave the cast :( so he was pretty disappointed when her episode was released

Thoma

Tries to have everyone on friendship level 10 🥺

Please don't ask him who he mains, he doesn't want to hurt anyone's feelings

He probably has all the characters on at least level 50 just in case they see his account, so no one feels left out

In truth, he played the starters for a while before switching to Ayato, Ayaka, himself, and geo Aether (a rare Aether main!!)

Feeds the stray dogs in Liyue and Dragonspine

Ayato

I feel like he would main Ayaka just because they have a sibling bond on set. He also has Thoma on his team!

Ayaka probably also mains him and Thoma and they do co ops a lot

Also whales 🐳

He built himself to lvl 90 and really good artifacts but he doesn't use his character as often, kind of like Diluc

But whenever he co ops with Ayaka and Thoma, they each use their respective character!! Goes with the "travel together with friends" trope on genshin

Itto

He's kind of like Childe. Mains himself and works extra hard on his build.

But he also tries to level up all the other characters!! Doesn't care if it's a 4 star or 5 star, Itto will make you shine!!

Does damage showcase of 4 stars just to prove how all of them can be super strong

[iagreewithlilithsrightsnwrongs]

i have a very nice liliava scene on my college au. on their second year, students have to choose between three mediums to study for the next 3 years. beatrice, ava, n lilith all chose painting (which is the one i chose irl btw!! this au is based on my experiences in my uni). this is fine for bea n ava who have a slow but growing friendship. lilith n ava however cant seem to get along too well, since lilith is very standoffish n cant stand ava’s carefree attitude towards her uni work.

lilith is serious. she comes from a successful family of painters, very rich and very strict. lilith actually does like painting, always has even before knowing her family business, but it turns from a hobby to a duty the moment she can speak. she needs to be a painter, she needs to master in arts, if not painting then maybe sculpture, none of that modern contemporary nonsense, the classier the better. lilith goes to the same art college her parents went to, which is in porto, potugal. the teaching is sufficient and the curriculum is acceptable, n so both parents aim for lilith to go to this uni n then master in painting in another country, possible in paris or italy, depending on how well lilith does with this one. 

lilith is cold, objective, and solely focused on her work. shes intense but manages to hide it well from the teachers as to not scare them off. she doesnt care for the students tho, they can think whatever they want. she knows who she is and who she is going to be. none of them can compare to her and this is just fact.

ava, however, only went to portugal since its her hometown n she thought it’d be sweet to study art there. shes carefree, and she goes with the flow. doesnt have grand plans, just wants to learn all abt art and meet new people and go out, live her life. lilith doesnt get that, cant get that, n so they clash n fight a lot. they have drawing class together and it is painful for everyone involved.

they do share on moment of peace during their first year drawing class, but it is brief. the moment i want to talk abt is in their second year, painting class.

their painting classroom, an atelier, is open at all times, even at saturday. ava was catching up on one painting while some classmates were hanging out n making a LOT of noise. she was kinda fed up, but just focused on finishing the painting. she takes a lil break, gets up, walks around n checks out the other’s paintings. she sits pretty close to the door, so when her classmates runs off out the door, they clash with her easel, and the painting crashes on the floor. all ava’s prayers of it being unscathed are not answered. while it fell, it scrapped along a lil table where she keeps her supplies, one everyone has, and now her painting has a long wide stroke of paint all over it. hours of work, gone. paint wasted, hours wasted. 

ava tries to remain calm n positive. she does not want to have a fainting spell or worse cry in a place any of her classmates can walk into. she puts the painting back in place and thats when she cries. she has the sudden urge to just rip it out, destroy it, n that just makes both her arms tingle n go numb, so now she’s upset abt that. she also can’t breathe properly n she’s sobbing quite loudly, sat on her stool, head on her knees, arms pathetically dead on either side of her, unmoving. thats when lilith walks in.

now. lilith isn’t actually heartless. she just doesnt have time for friendships built on actual love n care n shit, that shit doesnt help. but... as she gingerly walks in and circles around to look at ava, shes confused n a lil bit concerned. then she looks up n sees the painting and audibly gasps. ava looks up, sees lilith, they make eye contact, n lilith watches ava’s already red, blotchy, swollen, tear riddled face crumple n sob even harder. ava is so embarrassed she wants to disappear. apparently that means she has to faint so she tries to warn lilith but lilith just ends up with an armful of semi conscious ava. lilith is fucking panicking, ava is disgusting n limp n a mess and its only 11 am on a wednesday she didnt ask for this. 

still, smth in her snaps n she puts on her best soothing voice (aka beatrice voice) n tries to calm ava down (aka acting like beatrice). it doesnt work, it only makes ava more confused so she just curses n says “for fucks sake dont faint please, i’ll help you fix it. cant do it with u out like a light now can i”. that manages to calm ava down. after some breathing exercises, and some weird awkward head petting, ava is fine. mostly. 

they both look at the mess of a painting n ava just half screams half sighs n goes “welp!” with fake cheerfulness. that bugs lilith for reasons yet unknown, but she does help them both up n does damage control. “we’ll tell the teacher, hes reasonable n for all ur faults u are a very fast painter so. it’ll be fine. we just wipe off what we can n then... well maybe you should not touch it for a bit. yknow. distance yourself from it. or whatever” 

its the first time ava sees lilith so painfully awkward but earnest, making zero eye contact, but nodding seriously to the painting as if it was her own problem n not ava’s. lilith cares. for ava. and even tho her face is still very wet, she’s smiling so wide right now. it will be okay. it’s fine. she’s got this (we got this).

[barsformars]

SOULMATES AU!ATEEZ

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req: hiii, idk if you are still accepting requests, but im trying anyways. How about an headcanon of ateez as types of soulmates bonds/ which type of soulmate bond will suit them? Bye have a nice dayyyy

a/n: this one is kinda just like what soulmate aus remind me of them & what i think would wanna write if it was soulmates au and them hehet i hope i interpreted the request properly lmao

ot8 / w.c 1.1k / t.w none

seonghwa 

reincarnation soulmates au

look ik everyone has been hyping up the seonghwa's first life thing so it's my turn to talk about it

the soulmate au where one is immortal and the other is mortal

seonghwa is the latter

and you just watch him from afar everytime he reincarnates, only talking to him once he is of age

and isn't the thought of being with him from his first life to his,, maybe 100th life,, just so,,,, bittersweet

bittersweet because damn obviously it hurts everytime he goes

hongjoong

dreaming of your soulmate au

you're in every dream of his and his in yours anytime the two of you are asleep at the same time

dreams with each other in it always feel so warm and fuzzy and you're always having a good time with each other

and sadly, nightmares when the two of you are not together in the dreams

but thing is you always wake up remembering everything except how he looks like and what his name is; same thing goes for him

*cue draw&draw lyrics*

he misses you and he wants to 'draw' you but he doesnt even know who you are physically

yunho

you can hear your soulmates thoughts au

but when you make eye or physical contact, you can't hear those thoughts

so imagine the two of you are seated across each other on the train and the thoughts go like

"omg they have nice shoes"

"why are his hands so pretty"

and those kinda thoughts just keep going and the both of you are just laughing internally at your soulmate because like "honey, im your soulmate, not whoever you're probably drooling over right now"

and then "wait im also drooling over someone else right now,,,"

and then the both of you just decide to lift your heads to meet each other's eyes and suddenly everything is quiet!!!!!!

also imagine later on when youre in a relationship with him and the two of you are just sharing a romantic moment and it's like:

"come on, you have to say it out loud because i can't hear you right now" AND THEN BEING ALL SHY BECAUSE OF THE NON-EXISTENT DISTANCE WHILE SAYING SMTH CHEESY

yeosang

your soulmate’s face is blurry to you au

this can be kinda sad because you will never really know how each other looks

but i think the sweetness lies in that the feelings you have for each other is genuine and purely because of their personality and all

and of course physical attraction is still important to a certain extent but think this:

the both of you are so familiar with each other through touch and a lot of experiences that you just know exactly where his lips are so you can kiss him pretty effortlessly

you know exactly where his nose ends so you know how to tilt your heads when you kiss so as to not bump noses

AND because you just are that familiar with him, you can kind of form a picture of each other's faces in your heads, like you have a rough idea how big his eyes are, how widely spaced, what his eye shape is etc.

idk but that just sounds really beautiful to me despite all the inconveniences that could arise

PLUS its so easy to spot each other in crowds because only one face is blurred to you lmao

san

you have a mark wherever your soulmate first touches you au

you are very disturbed because like half of your body is marked

like so much so that it's definitely not like an accidental bump on the streets or smth

so you're just there thinking "who in the right mind would touch a stranger to this extent and why!"

until one day you're minding your business while walking around and someone runs up from behind you and literally just engulfs you into a hug while resting their head in the crook of your neck

and of course, because you're panicking, you turn your head back to look who the hell it was

AND how coincidentally,,, your lips made contact with their brow bone

he releases you when he realises that you were not the friend he was supposed to meet around here

and because your long sleeves rolled up a little, you see the mark slowing fading away, and it just clicks,, he was the one

"this is truly unfair, i gave you a cute little mark and you give me that big ass mark"

mingi

you see your soulmate's memories when you touch something they have touched before au

and fate is cruel because it always seems like one of you is always a little later than the other

like if you or him walked a little bit faster and reached the same place a little earlier, maybe the two of you would have met

until one day maybe one day mingi is keeping the change after paying at the cashier and he drops some coins

and you're behind him so you help him pick it up and you suddenly get flashes of his memories

and so does he when you hand the coins back to him

fate is so stupid sometimes but it's cute ig

wooyoung

whatever you write on your skin shows up on your soulmate's skin as well

and wooyoung being wooyoung, loves to share things that makes him happy and things that he wish you would try out as well

and so you can expect his own food recipes, or maybe some lyrics that he's been trying to write, or like ideas for his vlogs and all

let's be real, it's 2021, the two of you could really just share social media handles and meet irl easily but both of you just love the comfort of anonymity

and knowing that someone out there is always listening, or rather, reading, whatever you want to say

jongho

when your soulmate gets hurt, flowers bloom at the same exact location

i think this one's kinda cute even tho it can be scary at times i guess

like imagine both of you just wanting to bubble wrap each other up because

"I HAVE A PERFORMANCE TOMORROW YOU CAN'T GET HURT"

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN ONE OF YOUR BUTT CHEEKS IS BLEEDING, HOW AM I GOING TO SIT NOW"

STOP BITING YOUR LIPS I DONT WANT FLOWERS ON MY LIPS"

i think it is the beauty of taking care of someone as much as you would take care of yourself or reversely, taking care of yourself as much as you wanna take care of someone else

[princemick-archive]

Can you please make a list of the drivers and tell what you think about each of them. Only if you want to, but I am curious. 😽

...alright, okay, whole grid under the tab ya'll also if i say I hate someone rn and I start saying I love them tmmr dont be surprised my brain does that sometimes

charles: I genuinly like charles, seems like a good person w an insane amount of talent genuinly enjoy watching him drive a lot, one of my favs on the grid.

carlos: ......I am a culer. I do not like this man.

max: I, ugh, I love fanon max if that counts for fucking anything, irl max makes me uncomfortable but I get it, he has a weird charm but yeah just no. also dont really enhoy the way he races so that also doesn't make up for him being a dick.

checo: I dont have to much of an opinion on him but I like how respectful and kind he seems to be all the time. also incredible driver!

lando: listen ya'll okay..........I used to simp, I dont like him a lot rn, he just gives me bad vibes, he just feels to much like a 15 yr old gamer boy and I do not enjoy that. I like him w max and dan a lot tho

dan: BABIE BOOYYYYYYY. one of my favorite drivers on the grid, incredible driver, fantastic human. my favorite in my hyperfixactions are always the optimistic flirty lil bitch and that him, he is just so wonderful he makes me very !!!

lewis: king, one of the best to ever do it, style icon. yeah just, I mean its lewis, pretty high maintenaince man who gets what the fuck is going on in the world and isnt afraid to say it.

george: I dont like care about this man at all, he doesnt give me good or bad vibes, he exists, he looks like he wouldnt know what I meant if I would ask him to hold my drink as I go to the bathroom

esteban: noddle man who jsut seems genunly kind. I really like him, dont know to much abt him but the bit I do is just him seeminly being a good and kind person who just a lil dramatic and I love that for him

nando: stupid old slut man who I despise deeply (affectionate)

pierre: I hate how attracted I am to this man but hes an incredible driver and the way he carries himself is just, so hot. so uh, thumbs up.

yuki: I dont feel to much abt him but he seems wonderful and kind and I genuinly think hes an incredible driver and I hope he gets to show that more this season.

lance: no real opinon, rich boy, kinda shit driver, who doesn't seem like to like driving. eh. other people deserve that seat more.

seb: *holds gently* my beloved little idiot man I love you so much you stupid lil freak. he needs a haircut.

val: yes

guanyu: funky lil fashion man who goes zoom well. thumbs up.

nicky: look at lance opinion. Just like him a bit more because he genuinely seems to enjoy driving and is actually pretty okay when you look at his junior career.

alex: wonderful man! he is so good so soft so kind, I like him a lot he just gives off such good vibes.

kev: a whole man and a half whos completely fucking insane and exactly my kinda guy for that, love him so wonderful so supportive.

mick: I..........d-do u even want me to start. litteraly my favorite person on the grid for so so so many reasons. the way he holds himelf, the way he is socially aware the way he has so much pressure on him and is still able to have fun and live a life and do what he does and be kind and he so incredible, the way he cares so muhc about everyone on his team and helps out and makes sure everyones okay i just.....I love him but I need him to break and go mad schumi please and thank you.

alright, feel free to disagree or try and convince me otherwise in my asks im open for change unless its abt mick, if u dont like mick the fuck r u doing on my blog fr.

[probably-haven]

after binge reading i have come to a new revelation: I’m not a fan of most Xiaoven fanfics

Don’t get me wrong, I love the ship and its one of my favorite to think about.... but most of the fanfiction for the ship just- doesn’t sit right with me for a number of reasons. 

Disclaimer: these are personal opinions from my own taste and are in no way an attack against any authors out there, because frankly fanfic authors are great and not like i could do better lol. As these are personal opinions, I acknowledge here and now that a number of people disagree and that they are under no obligation to change their opinions in any way as it is not and never will be my intention to tell others what they should be thinking That said- read at your own risk if you want- meh, anyway-

time to share some opinions that have been on my mind lately

The biggest reason.... is how they handle Xiao. And I don’t even mean mischaracterization because Xiao is such a complex and yet simultaneously simple character that as long as you’re somewhere in the range of “Xiao vibes” it’s really hard to write him out of character because of his complexities. What I mean is something that i actually completely agree with as being accurate to his character. In nearly every single fanfic I’ve seen, there is some element of idolization that Xiao has for Venti, or for the sake of reference, Barbatos. He tends to think himself beneath Barbatos and/or indebted to him, whether that be because he’s an archon, because he saved him, or simply because of Xiao’s tendency to dehumanize(yes i see the irony in that word usage) himself.  This by itself isn’t an issue but its often how this trait of his is treated.

Imma just list a few ways I’ve seen this be handled within Xiaoven fics. - It isn’t handled, it’s just there and accepted as a part of who he is in the story - It isn’t handled but his trait is treated as source of humor within the story - Venti(and others) roll with it (finding humor in it, just cant change it, encouraging it, making jokes about it, etc.) - Venti takes advantage of it(whether accidentally or purposely) - it’s actually addressed(by Venti or someone else or the narration- can go a number of ways, but just- even a brief reference to the fact that its not a good mindset fits in here) - savior!Venti(Where venti disagrees with it but the way it’s written gives off “god among mortals” vibes- like he’s just being humble and truly is above him in reality) - its the focus of the story  - not directly addressed but shown to be destructive.  - they chose not to not include this in the story’s characterization of Xiao(just saying that this is valid ahead of time) Theres others but i have a lot already.  Note that I tend to read more ‘serious-toned’(idk if that makes sense) fics so that may skew my perception

Now there’s a few that i have issues with on their own- both instances of it not being handled, Venti(and others) rolling with it, Venti takes advantage of it(purposely(and without good intent)), and savior!Venti. Xiao not only has this trait, but he is unfamiliar with what is normal in relationships or emotions as a result of isolation and inexperience. He is also either not aware of or not concerned with what is considered strictly “healthy.” Combining these makes for a rather dangerous combination and just accepting it as “oh he’s just like that, it’s who he is” or making it out to be something funny- It’s not wrong or bad by any means necessarily, and I could still possibly enjoy it to an extent depending on a series of different factors, but its- not as often.  Even in the case where I do enjoy reading it however, I would still feel uncomfortable sharing it with or recommending it to others because in the first instance it feels like normalizing a destructive and dangerous mindset, and in the second case it does the same while simultaneously making a joke of it. It’s the same deal with Venti or other characters rolling with it, but that’s probably gonna be mentioned later too. Not to say that this is a “wrong” way to handle it, that it makes the fic bad, or that authors even are normalizing anything by doing so, just that in my specific instance- not a fan. 

I’ll get to the others when i talk more about Venti, but for now: It’s the focus of the story. I think I saw like... 2? where the story was like- focused on this and why its a problem which- power to them, address those real world problems like a boss- but also i wouldn’t actively seek it out or anything- like, good job, but doing so just leaves it open neutrally for other factors to decide how good a story i think it is. 

not directly addressed but shown to be destructive. You’d think i wouldn’t like this- but frankly in fanfiction not everyone wants to address every character flaw verbally because it can through off story, narration, dialogue, and general flow to do so. This can be with an event, an action, a dialogue, a mere comment, making it actually fit into the it’s actually addressed category except that its- subtle enough to make its own category. plus i live for show not tell- in everything- its a thing. im- very much a fan of when the fics do this but the subtlety is easy to miss and its not common so- 

It’s actually adressed- doesnt have to be a lot- just mention anywhere or imply anywhere that maybe idolizing someone as a god and savior and being in a relationship with them while having little knowledge of standards, emotions, relationships, or healthy behaviors in general- maybe isnt the smartest idea in the word. (”Call me Venti, not Barbatos” by itself is not enough to fit in this category tho as a note)

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Now lets talk about Venti...

uh.... those who have followed me for awhile will probably already know this but... I have a lot of opinions on Venti and a pretty- “niche(?)” perception of his characterization that isn’t shared by a lot of others- so I don’t actually read as much Venti fanfic in general as you might expect because I often end up disagreeing with how writers portray him, which again, in no way is their characterization wrong, but- “their perceived truth” conflicts with “my perceived truth” and by extent so does the characterization, though neither is any more correct than the other from an objective point of view, if that makes sense... but anyways now that that’s said, moving on before this becomes a philosophy lecture, as fun as that would be for me.  I’ll try to keep my “perceived truth” out of this for the first bit. 

Venti’s response to this: 

He rolls with it: this depends on the mood of the fanfiction. If they dont put a lot of stress on that trait of Xiao’s it totally fine but if the trait seems to be a major part of Xiao’s character, it seems like normalization once more. (more on this later)

he takes advantage of it purposely: if its an AU or something and Venti’s like a villain(i saw a few) then- villain venti isnt my cup of tea but i have no qualms. If they don’t portray Venti in a negative light while having him take advantage however that’s a bit uncomfortable to read for me because it feels like normalizing taking advantage of that mindset as well as the mindset itself. However, i did see a number of instances of Venti using it as leverage for like- self care- which i definitely have no qualms. Xiao: [insert probably destructive idolizing statement about being indebt] Venti: How bout you pay me back by actually sleeping for once smh or other variations are okay and depending on the vibe are actually a really fun dynamic as long as it doesnt turn into romanticizing or normalizing it, y’know?

Venti accidentally taking advantage of it.... I love angst- and in most of these theres a sense of guilt when he realizes- and i just think thats a lovely way of addressing the dangers of such a mindset for both sides. As long as it doesn’t keep repeating to the point of romanticization its totally cool to read in my eyes(not irl ofc). If Venti never realizes he accidentally took or is taking advantage it feels a bit like normalization, and if he does but just- doesn’t care thats- a rip.

savior!Venti...... i- i hate. the story giving off vibes that Xiao’s mindset is technically correct while Venti oh so humbly tells him to treat him as an equal like the wonderful and charitable person he is.... i just- no. of course thats over dramatizing it- I think the main thing that gives it this vibe is when Venti doesn’t seem either concerned, surprised, uncomfortable, or otherwise have a negative feeling towards Xiao’s mindset. Just- it makes the whole thing weird in my eyes when Venti doesnt really seem to have his own reason to oppose the mindset idk- 

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fact time!

Venti is the god of freedom. His backstory is freeing Mondstadt from a god’s tyrannical reign. His origin is a windsprite, just another breeze bringing changes for the better. His form is a nameless boy who played an instrument and then died, thus failing at his only dream and only ever accomplishing anything because of the help of others. He slept for a thousand years after the archon war to avoid putting Mond under the rule of yet another tyrannical god. He only even became a god because Andrius chose to let him. He wouldn’t have even had that chance if the nameless bard had survived, he’d remain just another wind while his friend ascended to godhood. Venti sacrifices his own power for his people’s freedom. 

now that I’ve laid out a number of canon facts, time for opinions:

Venti has little to no desire to be seen as a god. He thrives in, comes from, and emphasizes a lack of superiority in quite nearly everything. The first Ragnvindir, who canonically turned his back on Venti after Decarabian’s fall, likely did so because one- he anticipated power would corrupt and Venti would soon become just another tyrannical god, two- he suspected Venti used the nameless bard in an attempt to rise to godhood, or three- idk insert other possibilities to acknowledge again that i could totally be wrong.

Look me in the eyes and tell me Venti wouldnt trade godhood for his friend in an instant. His godhood was only granted to him because his friend died and could easily serve to constantly remind him of what could have been and what he lost. Venti takes no enjoyment from being seen as superior and in my opinion, I feel that it could actually make him largely uncomfortable when his divinity and abilities as an archon get involved-

also self promotion for my favorite posts- check out #archon war era venti if thats interesting to you

so anyway Venti rolling with it or making jokes about it just doesn’t sit right with me.- 

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Okay! enough talking about that mindset!

idk- i have... a few/lot of other gripes and stuff or just things that kinda throw off the vibe for me but that’s the main one plus my general personal pickiness when it come to Venti fanfics- but this has gotten long enough already- 

idk i just felt like rambling about it and i haven’t done a long post in a while so-

again, I love the ship and its actually one of my favorites- just the fanfic isnt my thing..... that doesn’t mean i don’t still love it and come up with a whole ton of brainrot and ideas on it tho lmao

[jaekaicx]

calamity trio playing minecraft

because i said so

marcy

look theres no way marcy doesnt canonically play minecraft i will fight you on this

he knows basically everything about the game

crafting recipes: memorized

redstone: mastered

farms: built

hotel: trivago

theyre a very well rounded player, but theyre best at redstone and building

hes made plenty of huge elaborate mega bases decked out with auto farms, fancy storage systems, a hidden entrance or four, and anything you could imagine

semi competent in pvp, but great at pve

somehow memorized ALL of the potions

traps trAPS TRAPS TRAPS-

has pulled many all nighters working on projects on the server

always forgets to sleep (haha just like irl), so theyre constantly plagued by phantoms

has tried streaming multiple times with various degrees of success

can parkour

anne

marcy got her into the game initially, but she ended up genuinely liking the game

just ur average minecraft player

she likes to explore a lot, but also tends to die a lot, a bad combination

cant remember any of the crafting recipes for the life of her

steals borrows lots of stuff from marcy’s farms (they dont really care)

likes to interact with the villagers a lot

she convinced marcy to help her renovate several villages

keeps every pet she lays eyes on, theres a whole building dedicated to all of annes pets

surprisingly good at pvp; refuses to touch redstone

“lol whats an organized hotbar?”

“anne please im begging you just fix up your hotbar” “no”

hates the nether with a passion

can parkour

sasha

marcy and anne forced her to join their server (they regret it sometimes lol)

the resident griefer and prankster

he grinds for days just just to get the best equipment

yells at eight year olds on hypixel, has been kicked and nearly banned multiple times

almost a pvp god

dabbles in redstone to make traps, but thats all he can do

has a dog army, still building up her numbers

has a hidden base with multiple hidden rooms and vaults (had to look up many youtube tutorials)

has a nether base, its basically his second home

exploits villagers for mass profit

anne eventually convinced her to at least give the villagers a decent living space

cannot parkour

extras

the three of them team up in 3v3s bedwars and demolish all the other teams. marcy does bed defence, sasha goes after the other teams, and anne does a little bit of everything

sasha would probably win in a 1v1v1

sasha continues to curse at children on the internet while anne tries to stop her

they voice chat a lot while playing, but its theyre either screaming at the top of their lungs or its complete silence. theres no in between

anne gets sprig onto the smp and he spends the first few weeks getting constantly trolled by sasha

polly knows better when she joins, she and sasha have brutal prank wars

everyone knows better than to get marcy into a troll war, even sasha

marcy tries to get maddie into minecraft, but shes too appalled by the inaccuracies in the potions

sprig and ivy like to play games on hypixel the most

renamed their server “the therapy smp” after amphibia

[skipps-writes-for-gojo-satoru]

A short thread I found about Gojo's character that helps shine a light to how caring he is:

https://twitter.com/musikawu/status/1376984416485007363?s=19

Also, I actually just realized this recently after rewatching JJK that Gojo got super attached to Yuji really quickly. Gojo not only got very angry on his behalf but went out of his way to ask Nanami for help in caring for Yuji when he's supposed to be the strongest sorcerer. And at that time, Gojo made it clear to Nanami that he didn't ask him to do so due to Yuji's potential as a vessel. Gojo asked Nanami for this favor as an adult who wants to see the growth of a young man. Gojo was very precise in telling Nanami that he was looking not at Sukuna and Yuji's power, but at Yuji himself as not only an individual, but a child that needed nurturing and care. Before Yuji's death, Gojo had already even made preparations to have Yuta take care of Yuji cause he knew something might happen to him- even more development is that despite what Gojo says about himself, he's aware of his own flaws. What he appears to be on the outside is nothing like what he truly feels on the inside. He doesn't delude himself into narcissistic behavior that makes him unable to ask for help. He asks for help willingly and of his own accord- Yuta couldn't even fathom how the strongest sorcerer would face a problem he couldn't solve on his own, but Gojo does. Gojo is smart enough to know he needs to rely on others to move forward, and relying on someone means putting a certain amount of trust there. Gojo puts just as much faith in other people as he does himself, and the interesting part is that while it's more admirable to go out of your way to protect someone else, Gojo never brags about that. He only "brags" about things that will annoy the other person, but really he is only saying a commonly known "truth" in order to rile people up. It may sound like bragging- which it sort of is- but Gojo saying he's the strongest is not a lie. Him saying "I alone am the honoured one" is not necessarily a lie either. People don't call him the Strongest for nothing.

In fact, even more interestingly enough, besides Gojo, who includes Geto when people talk about the "strongest?" Despite being the definite "strongest," Gojo is the one who constantly says "We are the Strongest," not the other way around. He's also mature enough to recognize and point out other people's strengths, such as Mei Mei's, saying she is too strong to cry.

If Gojo truly was a narcissist, he would have mentioned everything else he's done for people, like stopping Megumi's sale to the Zenin clan and getting the Fushiguros financial aid. He could brag about being persuasive enough to save Yuji from execution or even saving Yuta from execution- Yuta becoming a special grade sorcerer soon after Gojo saved him is something you can easily brag about- but Gojo doesn't brag about his personal achievements at all- not in the way that demands respect from others, at least. Gojo only "brags" to tease others lightheartedly and to tick them off a little- and I don't think the demeaning things Gojo says to the higher ups can be used to show he's a narc because *many* people in Gojo's position would have said (and done) much, much worse things.

Also, when Yuji died, Gojo had become so emotional that even Shoko, who had been there since Gojo's youth, had commented on how unlike him it was. People irl really thought it was because Gojo couldn't use him as a weapon against the higher ups anymore, but reading how Gojo had told Nanami that he saw their relationship as an adult and a child makes me think differently. Something very important in the Light Novel is when Gojo tells Nanami that his students, because they are sorcerers, will soon have to "face the evil intentions of sh*tty humans." Not only sorcerers, but "every person has to bite into that bitterness, know what it means to give up, and pile up despairs to become an adult." People like Gojo and Nanami, Gojo had said, are capable of withstanding and releasing the "poison" that runs through the heart. However, the youngsters are more sensitive in that age, and "one poison could destroy their hearts" (I'm sure Gojo was thinking of Geto as he said this). That's why he wants to leave Yuji in the care of Nanami, "an adult who understands other people pain." Not that Gojo is unable to understand pain, but in the earlier events of the Light Novel as context, Gojo is faced with a mother who is mourning the loss of her child. While Nanami tries to gently comfort her and secretly find information on the cursed spirit at the same time using vague words, Gojo's words are straight forward and to the point, which startles the mother. It's not necessarily a bad things, however- Gojo's words had ended up allowing the mother to see her situation as it was without delusions, a tough love situation, so to speak, and the two were able to confirm their intel to be correct. It was Gojo who helped her to heal quicker by allowing her to realize her problem through his cutting words, but I'm sure Gojo realizes his "bad personality,"- which isn't really so bad in some cases- isn't for everyone. Gojo is very aware that people react negatively to his behavior, even if he is unable to understand just how deeply they despise him (*cough* Utahime) In that way, Gojo shows he cares very much for Yuji's mental growth, even in that short period of time, by entrusting his care to Nanami, who he comments would do a much better job than be could.

Therefore, I think Gojo might actually get attached to people more quickly than it might seem like. He also thinks very deeply and no matter how he acts, he's able to recognize others' strengths and acknowledge his own flaws- this is a key part of his character because he doesn't delude himself in his position as the Strongest. To those who think Gojo sees himself as a God, he is far from that behavior, and he is self aware enough to know that people need more to grow than just power and strength. Unfortunately, it seems most people either despise Gojo or are too enamoured by his looks to see past the surface of the more boisterous and childish part of his personality. That's likely the main reason he finds it hard to commit, too.

(More ranting 😭. There was this reddit post saying Gojo's narcissistic enough to be a more evil villain than Sukuna, that he would actually end up becoming the villain- like really??? And so many people really agreed that he's incapable of feeling true emotions that it's absurd. I really can't believe they even think Gojo has a God complex. Someone with a God complex, like most of the other disorders, wouldn't be able to admit their own flaws, let alone ask for help! The fact that Gojo even admits to having a "bad personality" is another tell against that. Sometimes I wonder if people are just projecting, but I also realize it's hard to differentiate between being an ENTP and being a sociopath because of how- on the surface- they seem so similar! But if you just dig a little deeper to look at their roots, they are so completely different it's a wonder how you'd get confused in the first place)

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OH I COULDN'T AGREE MORE 🤔 anon here spitting FACTS. Yeah alot of people think gojo's a narcissist with huge ego but that ain't the case at all as explained above. I mean he was put on a pedestal since birth he gotta have some ego in that but that fact doesnt blind him. yeah sure he's the strongest but just one line "I'm the strongest" doesn't mean he's bragging it may sound like it but he's just stating facts he is indeed in fact the strongest in the jujutsu society. He knows he can't do everything on his own I mean why did he even become a teacher in the first place? Becuz he wants to make the next generation of jujutsu sorcerers stronger! No one asked him to do it he himself wanted to be a teacher even though at time he sucks at it.

He genuinely wants to do good not just for himself but for others as well. As interesting as the concept of Gojo becoming a villain it will never happen. Don't judge a damn book by it's cover even if it's a very attractive one hes just such an interesting character its shame most people don't see that.

[maschotch]

Okay I saw your Hotchreid opinion, and as someone who DOES love Hotchreid, I also totally understand your take! (And yes I know I probably need therapy and I defs have father issues but moving on)

I could never see Hotchreid done in canon. That would be gross and ick and wouldn’t work. I have no like for that and do not want to see it done.

However, I love it in (certain fics) because it’s not normally what I’d gravitate towards, but it has this weird sense of safety attached to it for me. I think it’s partly because Hotch and Reid are very respectful towards each other, understand (to a certain extent) what they’ve been through. They’ve both dealt with change in a similar way, their backgrounds as abused and neglected children make them more similar than different, and they have this ultimate trust in each other. Spencer knows that Hotch understands him when he tries to get his attention in Revelations, Hotch confesses to Reid about his divorce issues with Haley.

I dunno, i think it’s a ship based on a lot of mutual respect, and a kind of unspoken of bond that is totally different from any other relationship they have with others on the team. Hotch has a way of seeing right through Reid where others don’t (or they refuse to look properly *cough Gideon cough*). I also think the love between them (however you want to see it like platonic or family love or whatever) it’s a lot more hidden than any other relationship again. It’s not in your face like Morgan and Garcia. It’s subdued.

So that’s just my VERY LONG take. Take that as you will!

Will!

that makes a little more sense to me. thinking about it as something thats not really for canon but just as a little thing on the side to enjoy is understandable. i guess i can see how that would be sweet.

still not my cup of tea, but it helps me understand a little better.

yeah the reason why i looooove talking about everyone’s relationship with hotch is bc its not really something thats explicitly said. he shows how he cares in very different ways, which is one of the reasons why i love him as a character.

his relationship with reid specifically is so so special and something i havent actually touched on yet so im gonna expand a little lol. i like them for the same reason i like hotch garcia.. but i think its more onesided. i think hotch is very aware of how spencer works and what he needs, but i dont think reid knows nearly as much about hotch. i think that partly for the same reason i think jj doesnt understand him: it’s the teacher after school. he’s an authority figure and its some level of respect to not analyze them and pick them apart. (which now that im thinking about it why only the characters with authority issues are able to get to know him--they’re not as worried about respecting him as a superior, but they’ve each learned to respect him as a person. which makes it easier for them to follow orders and stuff: bc they trust him). so its not that reid doesnt care about hotch, i just think it takes him a long time to feel comfortable analyzing him like that.

id also like to admit that im not above a little dabbling in unhealthy content. i have my own little things that i would never advocate for irl or even suggest in canon but still just like to think about.