#istg i have like three more sections to write

[mondothebombo]

so i’m suffering from some serious writer’s block but the next chapter of when you think you’re all alone is so close to being finished.

and since i’ve kept you all waiting more than long enough, please enjoy a snippet from the next chapter to tie you over while i force myself to finish it :)

(btw this is just a portion of the next chapter, not where it actually picks up)

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Epilogue Part One… Repercussions (Snippet)

Before the pirates made his fights even more unfair than they already were, Jay was able to somewhat defend himself in the beginning.

Sure, he never actually won, but he could at least hold his own.

It didn’t happen often, but on days Jay had even just some of his strength, (these days were few and far in between), he could fight back.

And when he did, he learned pretty quickly that he had to fight dirty.

Not like a ninja.

Like a pirate.

And pirates don’t care about honor, or dignity, or treating your opponent with respect, or any of the values and morals Sensei Wu had taught him.

No, the only things that mattered to them were winning and how much of the loser’s blood the winner could spill in the process.

(Jay lost a lot of blood on the ship, it’s a miracle he survived, really.)

The point being, Jay learned to fight dirty, to go straight for where his opponent was vulnerable.

He had to, to survive there.

He guesses that technique he was forced to adapt is just as hard to forget as everything else.

At least, that’s what he’s telling himself to feel better about what he did to Lloyd.

[lesbicosmos]

bored and procrastinating being productive so im doing this instead‼️

1. how did you find out about merlin?

either during or just after lockdown one of my friends had started watching it and was on about s2 and told me id like it. i started it and then binged it too far and she finished it like at least a month after i did

2. do you have a ship? if so, when did you start shipping them?

i have more ships for this show than any other show ever icl everyone's so in love with everyone else. like most people i was shipping merthur from the very start and also started shipping morgana and gwen at like episode 3. they're still my main two but i love mergana, mergwaine, mercelot, gwencelot, pergwaine and freylin (even tho they were only in one ep they were so sweet😭) and literally all the other main ones. this show turned me into a multishipper istg

3. what's your favourite episode/two parter?

much like 90% of the fandom, a servant of two masters is my favourite episode ever. but also some of my favs are the poisoned chalice, the moment of truth, the lady of the lake, goblin's gold, the sword in the stone two parter and also diamond of the day, no matter how much i sob every time

4. what's your favourite scene?

oh god too many. merlin trying to kill arthur and failing and gwen thwacking him round the head with a jug is up there icl. any scene in the early seasons where arthur and morgana are being so siblings. the entire section of the s4 finale where arthur's enchanted. the magic reveal. there are so many i can't list them all

5. what's your favourite quote or interaction?

it's probably gotta be "i don't want you to change. i want you to always be you." from the finale i think. but so many others - "you're the only friend i have and i couldn't bear to lose you", "he is your destiny and he is your doom"/"she is the darkness to your light, the hatred to your love", also every time merlin is sarcastic and anything dragoon ever says ever.

6. how do you feel about the ending?

gay fan brain is screaming in agony but vaguely more stable brain thinks its good. nowhere near perfect, i think it was too fast and there needed to be more time where arthur knew about merlin's magic and we saw him dealing with the mental battle. but on the whole i think it was pretty good, the performances in it are amazing and it still makes me sob every single time. i do also love the open ending with the time jump!! it's like they gifted us fic bases on a silver platter

7. what's your favourite headcanon in merlin?

i love the idea that there were characters who knew about merlin's magic but never said anything, especially gwen and gwaine because you cannot tell me those two didn't already know. in fics i love when arthur knows and has been struggling with figuring out what to do for a while but in canon i think he was just too dumb lmao

i also love the headcanon (which is basically canon let's be real) that basically all of the servants and guards and anyone who ever met merlin and arthur just Know abt them and treat merlin like arthur's mistress

8. do you have a favourite merlin fic?

again too many i can't choose one

it's like The merlin fic rec but i LOVE and like the cycle of the year we begin again by katherynefromphilly

there are three i read the other day that i'm just in love with, all magic reveal fics and all by the same author. i love the writing style and characterisation so much 😭 in some sad way i already knew, something immortal and revelations by loser_angel

a sweet magic reveal rewrite of the end of the poisoned chalice - what most likely probably actually happened by TrebleMaker07 (can you tell ive been binge reading magic reveal fics recently)

gotta get a crack fic in here, this one's the knights playing gwen or merlin abt things they've heard arthur say - the servant or the wife? by diabeetus

and it wouldnt be a sarah fic rec list without the sapphics, so here's a really sweet morgwen au one i love, a little piece of home by doylefan22

this just turned into me recommending a bunch of my bookmarks but i love merlin fic writers so much ur all amazing

9. what is your personal headcanon for post-s5

if we're saying canon happens here, im a big fan of arthur returns from avalon for merlin. not for the country or for some big thing, but for merlin when his need is greatest because he's the only thing left of arthur's albion

if we're ignoring the canon ending, i love the idea that arthur lifts the magic ban and makes merlin court sorcerer. it's a common one but i can't help but love a fix it where everyone's happy 🤷‍♀️ i think gwen would know about arthur's Feelings for merlin and vice versa and would be fine with it, with either her and arthur staying together as a marriage of convenience or they're poly, either way i just need those three ruling camelot together

10. what's your favourite character?

morgana. partially because it's katie mcgrath and im very in love with her but also bc i just generally love mildly fucked up female characters. i can't say i entirely love what the writers did with her storyline in later seasons but she's so interesting as a character and she deserved so much better and i just wanna give her a hug

close second being merlin himself because who doesnt love him😭 i also just wanna give him a hug. every character in this show needs a hug wtf

Merlin questions to do when you’re bored

1. How did you find out about merlin?

2. Do you have a ship? If so, when did you start shipping them?

3. What’s your favorite episode/two-parter?

4. What’s your favorite scene?

5. What’s your favorite quote/interaction? (ex | merlin: “how long have you been training to be a prat, my lord?” | arthur: “i love poetry” merlin: 😀)

6. How do you feel about the ending? 😉

7. What’s your favorite headcanon in merlin?

8. Do you have a favorite merlin fic? Please share 😍

9. What is your personal head-canon after s5? (Ex: arthur dies and merlin waits for 1500 years | the roundtable lives | merlin becomes court-sorcerer)

10. What’s your favorite character?

That’s all!! Tell me if you want more!! Answer in the reblogs!! Or comment!! Or anywhere!!

[abittersweetsongforyou]

fanfic writer appreciation post

i was tagged by the lovely @yasminaselamrani @sonderthroughthestreets @hidden-joy and @nbrook29

if you’re a writer

a fic that you’re really proud of: my childhood au - time my change me, but i can’t trace time is probably my proudest accomplishment it’s the only long form thing i’ve ever written so i’m immensely proud of it and i really put my soul into it

a fic you were nervous to post: probably bad habit 1. because it was the second part following up brennas and no one wants to have to follow brenna lmaoooo she’s so brilliant and 2. because it was M and id never written anything like that

a fic you wish had more kudos/hits/comments: i don’t really care about kudos, any kudos is a compliment really but i guess my childhood au because that’s my baby

one of your favourite trope to write: i love most tropes sjsjsjsj but friends to lovers is great, established relationship, fluff i mostly just like happy tropes

another ship you haven’t written but you would like to: mmmm i guess if i had the talent for it even/isak but idk i don’t feel like touching them, robbe and sander are two characters i feel like i’ve lived in so i really only like writing them

one of your abandoned wips you never finished but wished you did: i have a lot of fucking wips, so fuckin many i had a multichap planned out where Sander and Robbe went to the same university and Robbe wrote for the student magazine in the music section and sander was in a band but i figured i’d never get it done before the show ended so no one would care about it, but who knows maybe i’ll write it anyway

another writer you’d love to collaborate with: collaborating is fucking hard dude, but in my dreams? probably @tsjernobyl and @foxsake5 because their vibes are immaculate

if you’re a reader

a fic (or more) that you love to reread: okay fuck so i reread fics probably every week, usually every three days so honestly just go check my rec list, all the ones i reread are on there

tag an author you always love reading: i’m tagging more than one because i don’t follow fuckin rules but i always to love to see @nbrook29 and @foxsake5 in my inbox

recommend a fic to your followers: once again, not listening @tsjernobyl wrote the most amazing dirty dancing inspired summer holiday fic and it’s the fuckin best and she worked so hard on it

and @wlwharrys just wrote the most fun e rated fic of my dreams and she’s so talented so go fuckin read it

tag an author you’ve discovered recently: i wouldn’t say discovered but two of my favourite authors in the fandom are ivy_seas and berrevy their stuff is on another level istg

spread the love

tag someone who inspires you to write: ugh so many people, as previously mentioned berrevy and ivy_seas are like a level i aspire to be at theyre incredible, brenna @yasminaselamrani was one of the first multichap fics i read in the fandom and i was so impressed by her, @sonderthroughthestreets motivates me so much and her stuff is just lovely and makes me want to write

tag someone you’ve admired forever: @dearrobbe was another one of the first writers i read when i joined the fandom and when i met her in the ael server i quite literally panicked ahshshsh she’s amazing and does such wonderful videos on her channel and deserves all the praise. i also really admire dottori who writes crazy good fics they always fill me with joy and they’re just such great character studies honestly i’m in awe

tag your writing supports and loves: all my babies in the writers block server @womenstan @thenerd10 @sonderthroughthestreets @genjasafin and on tumblr @tsjernobyl @nbrook29 and @hidden-joy you’re all so 🥺🥺🥺

i think i’ve tagged everyone i wanted/needed to tag but id love to see everyone do it @birthdaysentiment @dagcutie @sander-klaas @sanderxrobbee @mijnlief @winestaiinedlips

[onrainynights]

alright I know it's been almost a whole day but I'm finally gonna read some more, and of course liveblogging round three:

lol at mish scaring jensen over the phone

tvitvjrescjoddbadhh I had forgotten about thinking out loud now I have to go stab something what the fuck

email? oh no immediate anxiety, whyyy things were so happy literally one second ago how are you so good at changing the tone of the entire scene in a split second wtf

and even the anxiety ends with a smile from me. the talent you have to make me feel things, I swear

empathy-personified. so true. ugh. I hate this. (read: I love this)

I can feel the set-up for the inevitable angst and I. don't. like. it.

dad!jensen is so good. like. I love it so much. thank you for this content.

hell yeah danneel put him in his place :D

wow at the firework imagery, and just the imagery in general in that while fourth-of-july section. just wow.

clif is such an icon

once again with the whole changing tone at the drop of a hat thing. I love your writing so much, seriously.

oh, mish... heart breaking just a bit. angry mish always makes me sad :(

oh no ominous envelopes

“They probably want him to die pretty” wow this actually fucking destroyed me, thanks

"I’m still the CW’s bitch, man" oof

oh no the adr

NOT KAREN AGAIN. ugh fuck off karen

LAMP that's so fucking funny and unexpected thank you oh my god

love love LOVE your portrayal of the crew and jared lmao

oh ok lemme just fucking cry

by the way my browser keeps crashing while I read this and I'd like to think it's because your story is just too powerful

talky-hole. you. are very good at writing entertaining drunk people

hhhhhhhh I hate you I'm not ready for all this angst :'(

jensen nooo :'((((

jj 😭

ahh so bittersweet

you better fix this istg

"blow over soon enough" lmao

hahaha fuck you

I don't have words for how much the angst is destroying me. that drunk phone call fucked me up

fuck you and fuck the song I can't do this

ok fucking finally this sounds like maybe fixing things

that. ending. was. beautiful. the cw could never

ok wow what an experience reading this fic. it was great. thank you. sending all the love <3

“No doubt … endings are hard, but then again, nothing ever really ends, does it?”

- The Plot: The End -

(based on true events)

With Supernatural about to end after fifteen seasons, Jensen has high hopes for the finale, and for the future. So many exciting things lay ahead of him, and he can’t wait to experience it all with the people he loves most in this world; but thanks to 2020 and the greed of the CW, he begins to realize that all his hopes—might actually be hopeless.

Read the final addition to the epic Cockles romance: The Plot and fall in love with Misha all over again though Jensen’s eyes.

Art by the kind and talented @liart-ez​. Follow them on Instagram at LiArt_Ez to see more of their beautiful work!

And a special thanks to @profoundfangirl​ aka @deanandishareamoreprofoundbond aka, Vi for beta-reading this fic and making sure it is as good as it possibly can be!

Enjoy!