#is it wrong to say it causes a bigger effect that me?

[familyagrestefanblog]

I don't know why, but it's really annoying me that they didn't use Sabrina's old Miss Hound design in Illustrhater. I know, I know, "the episodes must be able to be watched in any order or else the channels will not air one of the currently most popular kids cartoons. Blah blah blah (as if)"

But Illustrhater is so obviously meant to be watched as episode 2. And its fine, it works WELL as episode 2! They literally bring up Hawkmoth in the beginning and how they know nothing about the new Butterfly of which they then later find out hides their name and gender from their victims. And Marinette's whole behaviour in both her identities is fine enough explained by being episode 2 of the season.

But you cant tell me I could watch it after Werepapas. No that doesn't make sense.

I'm fine with giving Alya and Nino talking to Sublime's mom as former akuma victim for a scene a pass because that served their sub plot well when they can quickly talk to 2 victims and not just one. It's not ideal but I get it and it's not like her inclusion involved some story-breaking dialog. It's fine.

But don't ask me why Sabrina's outfits is rubbing me so badly in the wrong way. I can only try and explain it by me being annoyed that they didn't use the character model for Sabrina with her OLD Miss Hound design in the obvious episode 2.

Cause they HAVE that extra model and didn't use it despite that actually breaking continuity for a bigger character (than Sublime's mom, who doesn't matter).

Or maybe I'm annoyed that not using the old design raises the question now of WHY Miss Hound's inclusion for that little scene was so important that it was worth causing continuity issues. I'm gonna take a shot in the dark and say that not for ALL Miraculous holders will the story make a big deal out of them getting a new design.

Then why did you include Sabrina in episode 2 when you could have put anyone else in that spot and only have her show up after episode 4?!

How was that a problem? I would have understood prioritizing putting Sabrina in that episode 2 moment if it HAD been her model with the old design. To get more use out of it and to give yet another hint for the VERY OBVIOUS EPISODE 2 to be episode 2!

I'm just so annoyed at it. THOSE are the continuity errors I actually care about, not Sublime's fucking mom.

In general, I do believe that the season is supposed to be watched in the order we were given. That watching the episodes this way gives you the right emotional journey. That obviously Werepapas takes place after Illustrhater and Sublimation because that makes sense character wise even if it on paper doesn't matter WHEN Adrien's grandparents arrived. Or that Daddycop will obviously take place before the following episodes were Sabrina will now have her new civilian design, even if the big event of the episode can vaguely be placed anywhere.

I don't care about some minor MINOR characters' continuity. I don't care that Adrien's grandparents obviously should have shown up earlier than several months after the s5 finale. I'm cool with episode 5.

I wouldn't even have cared for the Antikuma effect not being explained at all in its first appearance in Sublimation (which btw HAS to be the first appearance because that's how the characters are treating it which is RIGHT to happen in episode 3) if the second appearance right afterwards in Daddycop had served as a better real introduction. But I guess being TOLD that a holder needs to detransform and transform again to go back to normal is supposed to be enough because now we know all the functions on paper.

That's the things that annoy me. But something about Miss Hounds continuity issue in Illustrhater just takes the cake for me.

[tellthemhowihopetheyshouted]

i am doing a bad job of blocking out taylor swift, i listened to poets to and from class and im watching an album reaction. im trying to figure out where the line is. a lot of senior swifties still seem comfortable with discussing theories about who songs are about and i feel conflicted now

i want to do the right thing, but i feel like im standing half in and out of a door way, and now that i know something else exists beyond what i've always done, it feels wrong and almost impossible to go back to what i was doing when it made me feel so guilty and embarrassed before

doing that feels like eating too much cake, or more than that like eating beef, or driving just to drive, it makes me feel better in the short term, but interlaced with it is the knowledge that it's going to, over time, fuck up something bigger than myself yk?

still firmly in my swiftie morality/identity crisis,

Quinn and co

[vickyvicarious]

This morning I am horribly weak. My face is ghastly pale, and my throat pains me. It must be something wrong with my lungs, for I don't seem ever to get air enough.

It's never stated exactly where on her throat the "pin-pricks" are, but though Mina claims they started out tiny, by the time a week had passed they'd gotten a bit bigger/more noticeable. Now, she did say she'd call a doctor about them if they didn't heal up soon, and then didn't seem worried about them when she left Whitby, so it seems likely that they healed up fairly soon after Dracula left town. Lucy knew they were there because Mina expressed worry over them, and she dismissed it.

Lucy also had a habit of looking at herself in the mirror from time to time. If the marks went away and then returned I feel like she should have noticed, instead of just attributing everything to her lungs with no mention of other possible causes for throat pain. So, it leaves me three options, all of which feel deliciously creepy:

She no longer looks in the mirror. (May not think anything of it, may just feel ill and not have the impulse - however, even more things that she doesn't understand are going on with her now. It would be a perfectly reasonable time to try and stare at herself, take in how pale she looks, how tired, try to figure out why. To practice a cheerful smile for Arthur. If she's stopped entirely, I feel Dracula is responsible.)

She sees them in the mirror but doesn't think anything of it. (Observing relevant details but unable to connect them or notice the significance. Definitely could be an effect of Dracula feeding on her. Somewhat supported by a future scene.)

She looks in the mirror but doesn't see the marks at all. (Even more explicit/deliberate hiding of evidence from her eyes. They're vampiric in nature and just as vampires can't be seen in mirrors neither can the marks they make. Very fitting with how Dracula tries to gaslight/confuse his victims about what's happening to them. Also would be a nice creepy moment in a visual adaptation.)

[nicka-nell]

What do you think about Iwa as bodyguard of reader who needs a personal bodyguard 24/7 at her side cause of her rich dad and Iwa who gets mad at her bratty attitude because she's always running away? 🤭

Hi & Oooh interesting! I like it! I wrote a little scenario about it, I hope you like it. 😇💚

Behave - Iwa as your bodyguard

Pairing: Iwaizumi x reader

Note: Iwaizumi as bodyguard, slightly nsfw-ish, mdni

You should be in bed… quiet, under your damn blanket and not half-naked in that short black dress sitting on a guy’s lap, making out with him.

God, how Iwaizumi hates it when you behave like such a brat. That you sneak out of the house, knowing full well that this is the easiest way to get his attention. The most effective one on top of that. Because Iwaizumi’s blood is boiling. Why do you always do this to him? It’s like you’re trying to make his job as difficult as possible.

“What the hell do you think you’re doing here?” His voice is low and dangerous as he pulls you away from the stranger by your wrist. Without even giving you the chance to reply, Iwaizumi wordlessly drags you out of the bar, shoving you in the passenger seat of his car. “You’re coming home with me whether you like it or not. End of discussion,” he adds firmly.

“Why are you like this? I’m not allowed to have fun with other guys? Should I die as a fucking virgin?” you whine and watch him roll his eyes before shutting the passenger door. Iwaizumi walks around to the driver’s side, taking a moment to compose himself before getting in and starting the engine.

“Look, brat, it’s my job, my fucking responsibility, to keep you safe.” There’s a slight tremor, a roughness in his voice that goes beyond just a professional concern. “And believe me, those guys? They’re not safe.” Damn brat… why do you always make things complicated… Iwaizumi thinks as his grip on the steering wheel tightens, his knuckles turning white.

“Doesn’t answer my question.” You roll your eyes again and turn towards him, even if he tries with all his might to look at the road and not at you. This wrinkle between his brows is getting bigger. Oh, how cute and sexy he is when he gets angry. “Or are you perhaps jealous? You want me to give you head?” You tease him, knowing full well that this will make him furious.

Iwaizumi’s grip on the steering wheel tightens even more. His veins are visible on his skin, as he exhales sharply, trying to keep his composure. “Damn it, you’re impossible,” he mutteres under his breath.

Even as he tries so hard to look at the road in front of him, Iwaizumi steals a quick glance at you, noticing how tipsy you are. Pretty... but no, that's not the point. You're drunk, so arguing with you in this state is pointless and the last thing he wants is for things to escalate further. So he tries to make it clear to you one more time that you should stay quietly in your passenger seat and stop saying such lewd things.

“Look,” Iwaizumi says more softly but still with a firm voice that left no room for debate as he focuses back on the road. “You’re drunk and not thinking straight. We’re getting home first and then you’ll sober up and we can talk about your behavior.”

“Talk? Or do you want to tell me that I’m a naughty girl and what I’ve done wrong by fucking me senseless?” you smirk and lick your lips, eyes fixed on him, before your fingers find their way to his crotch. Painfully slow, you start stroking the fabric of his pants.

Iwaizumi's breath is caught in his throat as your fingers brush against his crotch, sending a surge of electricity through his body. He can feel himself reacting to your touch, his cock pressing against the fabric of his pants. His jaw clenches harder, trying to suppress the desire growing inside him.

“Stop,” your bodyguard growls, his voice low and strained.

Iwaizumi’s eyes darting to you briefly, then back to the road, the mix of annoyance and lust swirling in his mind. Fuck, why is she touching me like this? Am I really that weak? He thinks.

When he took the job as your personal bodyguard back then, your father had strict rules. Your safety has top priority. He must always be by your side or nearby so that he can react in an urgent situation. He must keep you away from shady men or scandals, and he must always remain professional. No relationship, special treatment or similar.

It would be easy if you hadn’t grown into such an attractive woman over the years, if you weren’t deliberately swinging your sexy ass past him in the tightest clothes, and if you weren’t so damn rebellious. How often did he fall for your “you can come in” when he knocked on your door in the morning to pick you up and you were only standing in front of him in a towel? Brushing it off your body as you looked back over your shoulder into his wide eyes. You always smirked at him in a naughty way and slowly picked up your towel with an “oops”. Oh, how much he wanted to lock the door, grab you by your hips and ram his cock into you with full force. And you knew it.

“You’re playing with fire, brat,” he warns you, his voice deep and husky as he stops at a red light. “If we keep this up, you’ll get burned.” Despite the danger of giving in, Iwaizumi can't resist leaning in closer. So close that you can feel his breath on your lips. His hand comes up to cup your cheek, thumb stroking your lower lip as he suddenly pulls you back into your seat.

“Behave,” He commands dangerously and strictly. His eyes pierce yours before they wander hungrily down to your soft lips, eyeing your body. “Or we’ll both regret it later.” He adds, knowing that his resolve is crumbling. He was only seconds away from giving in completely. From pulling over to the side of the road, flipping the passenger seat backwards and pinning you beneath his body. From sealing your provocative grin with his lips and turning you into a moaning mess.

“Regret it? Behave? Oh, Hajime, now I’m so afraid. What will happen if I don’t… behave?” You whisper boldly and lean towards him again.

Iwaizumi’s eyes darkens with a mixture of frustration and lust as he meets your gaze. Your smirk make him furious, but it also ignits something primal within him. He can feel his restraint slipping away, even more than before.

“Or I’ll show you exactly what happens when you push me too far,” he growls, with a low and dangerous voice. Damn it... you know exactly how to get under my skin, he thinks. He can’t take his eyes off you. His surroundings, the red traffic lights are entirely forgotten.

Iwaizumi’s hand moves from your cheek down to your neck, fingers wrapping around your skin just enough to make you shiver without actually hurting you. However, the touch is possessive, almost claiming.

“You think this is a game, brat?” Iwaizumi continues, leaning closer so his breath mingled with yours again. “Keep pushing me and you’ll find out just how serious I can be.”

Despite the warning in his words, there is an undeniable desire behind them. A promise of something more, something forbidden, if only you keep teasing him like this. For a second, you’re both silent. Iwaizumi fights against the urge to pull closer towards you, having his way with you right here.

“Pushing you sound lovely. What can a tame lion like you do anyway?” You tease as you lift your fingers to play with the buttons of his shirt, pulling him slightly towards you.

Iwaizumi’s eyes flash dangerously as you continue teasing him. You really don’t know when to stop... or maybe you do know and just love driving me insane, he thinks. No, he’s sure you’re doing this on purpose.

“Tame lion?” Your bodyguard echoes mockingly. “You have no idea what you’re getting yourself into, brat.” Leaning in close until his lips were mere inches from yours, Iwaizumi raises his hand to glide his fingers over your collarbone before stopping at your throat.

“Keep pushing, and I’ll show you exactly how wild this ‘tame lion’ can get.” He whispers darkly. But you counter directly, with a purring “just empty words.”

Iwaizumi’s eyes darkens further at your words, a mix of anger and desire swirling within them. He leans in closer, his lips almost brushing against yours. Just before your lips can touch, he halts and stares deep into yours with those dark eyes of his. You feel your heart beating rapidly against your ribcage and don’t even notice how you’re holding your breath.

“Empty words?” He whispers back harshly. “You’ll see.” Just as he’s about to close the last gap completely and claim your mouth with his own, a car honks loudly through the tension-filled air. The light had turned green, and an impatient driver behind you made their presence known. Both of you flinch at the sound.

Damn it. Not now… Iwaizumi thinks. With a frustrated growl that vibrates deep in his throat. Iwaizumi pulls away from you, but not before giving you one last intense look. A silent promise that this isn’t over yet.

“We’ll finish this later,” he mutters under his breath. And so you did...

[love-and-war-on-cybertron]

Chromedome/Rewind/Human!reader Polybliss

This was just a quick thing to get an idea out. I have more planned for these guys, but some fluff is good for the soul.....

"So small." Rewind murmurs at the small lump of soft gray metal. They squirm in his arms and he adjusts his hold carefully. Swerve and Ratchet are off to the side, discussing Typical Protoform development and hypothetical effects of a human carrier on said development. Chromedome is knelt by you, speaking softly and brushing your cheek with the back of his digits. You were a sight of beauty to the two Mechs. exhausted, hair sticking to your face, dark circles. Beautiful. Glowing. The carrier of their "Little Bean", as you had called it upon first sight.

The silent question between the Minibot and the larger one was the same: What next? No one had been sure of what was to happen. Your dual Conjux, Chromedome and Rewind, had been a bigger mess after Swerve rattled off everything he had seen from consuming Human media. Everything that could go wrong, and no human doctors to help. At least Ratchet had SOME experience with humans. He had scanned your vitals and kept and eye on you. Assigned a drone to follow you around through the whole pregnancy and for a few more weeks after this.

"So small." Rewind repeats, looking up at the kneeling Chromedome. He isn't ready to hold them, too afraid to drop the little thing. The littlest thing he had ever seen. More than content to watch Rewind hold them and cooing as it slowly began to take a basic form. Two arms, two legs. the vague shape of bipedal creature. Would it look more human or cybertronian? Would it…. survive?

"Let me hold the baby I just spent 20 hours pushing out of my body." You call from where you lie on a modified medical berth, hooked up to a few monitors. With your little gray bean in your arms, you tilt your head, holding them to your chest. Cheek smooshed to the top of their head. You look like an angel to your Conjux. Chromedome rests a digit over your legs. Rewind continues to coo and cup his servo against the baby in your arms.

"Who do you think they will look like?"

Swerve looks over, "Should take basic shape pretty soon. Usually they take strongly after the sire but-"

"Too much unknown." Ratchet says passively, preparing an energon supplement for the little scrap. Comotion outside the medbay door has the medical officer snapping his helm to it, grumbling. Rodimus slips in, barely able to hide the crowd behind him. Ultra Magnus follows.

"Well let me be the first to congratulate the happy little family." He says with as much energy as he tackles everything. He leans close, trying to get a look.

"I have some exercises to help strengthen your little bitlet develope cable strength." Drift adds, going on about how to aid the bitlet's development.

Chromedome huffed before whispering, "Who let the hippy in?" You giggle.

"We came to give our congradulations and see if there was anythign you needed." Magnus steps around Drift, "As well as find what news we can share with the crew, they're getting rather unruly."

"Also came to suggest names. Have you considered Minirod?"

"Perhaps Wing?"

Magnus is quick to grab the captain and Drift, dragging them out with an apology over his shoulder. Drift and Swerve get back to work, Firstaid checks you over and gives the all clear. As he walks away, he activates the privacy screen, leaving the three of you turned four.

You hear an odd metallic sound and look at your baby. "Oh… well that doesn't narrow it down."

Chromedome and Rewind look down and see the little bean in your arms has taken on a Visor and face mask.

"I dunno, I think I see some orange." Chromedome leans close, looking over you.

"Sure that isn't red?" Rewind sits on the berth, perfect place for you lean against.

"Is this going to cause some drama with you two?" The question is semi-serious, but you knew how much they loved each other. Side by side for an amount of time you could never comprehend.

"Well we need to make sure the little thing gets the best looks." Chromedome chuckles as Rewind goes off about Altmode bashing.

[eyesore-boi]

You say too late to start,

Got your heart in a headlock.

You know you're better than this.

Sorry but did someone say ISWM × Mouthwashing crossover? >:]

Mouthwashing got me in a bit of a chokehold rn, ans what do i do when i'm in new fandom chokeholds? Think of how it overalaps with my other fandoms yeah that's normal :]

But for real i cannot be the only one seeing the parallels bettween ISWM and Mouthwashing: Both take place in space, deal with the themes of isolation/insanity, making the wrong choices when you think it's right, having a hero/villain complex, just to name a few. So figured i'd illustrate that here with redrawing one of the Mouthwashing scenes with Engineer!Mark and The Captain instead, replacing Jimmy and Curly! :D

BY THE WAY- I am NOT saying that Mark is as bad as Jimmy is, even if i do see some overlap in their characters, mainly wanting to remain the noble hero in it all, and making terrible choices but believing it to be right. The difference between them though is that Mark genuinly thought he was doing the right thing, but just didn't have enough true knowledge of the situation to realize he was wrong, and when he does, he is genuinely crushed and feels regret and guilt for what he did, wanting to truly right the wrong, wanting to take responsibility, by following someone else who knows better (The Captain) even if his trust in them was shaken. Jimmy is...not. He knows the bigger picture, but still makes choices just for his own benefit, constantly hides behind the hero persona even when it's clear he's not, "knocks down" people he believes are/were higher then him rather than following along, never truly takes responsibility and....let's face it done worse crimes then Mark will ever do- Just wanted to clear that up :]

Also can you tell i've been thinking bout Mouthwashing a lot with that little character analysis i am very normal :]

But uh one more thing is that i am really damn proud of this piece?? Like- The posing took me minute but think i got it across well, was fun drawing my Canon Captain design again since it's been a while, and hOLY SHIT I DUNNO HOW BUT I LOCKED THE FUCK IN FOR THOSE FLAME EFFECTS H O W -

But yeah uh anywahs that's all, may do some further pieces in the future, mayhaps with the Invincible II Crew interacting with the Tulpar Crew...maybe....but till then if you excuse me *chugs some mouthwash*

Also have some alt. versions with no text and the original sketch cause why not-

[brainscrems]

I’m so fucking sick of ADL apologia. They’re not “trying to play nice and avoid targeting by the regime” THEY ARE ACTIVELY ENCOURAGING TRUMP AND HAVE BEEN QUIETLY SUPPORTING HIM FOR FUCKING YEARS!!!! The ADL, when faced with a choice between two candidates, a nazi who will let israel get away with whatever war crimes it wants, and a woman who’s not a nazi, has a jewish husband, is a big supporter of the jewish community, and hinted that she maybe, might hold israel accountable for war crimes, decided neither was the best option. Oh, except they also gave an award to the son-in-law of the nazi during that election year. For the fellow jews who see this, ask yourselves, when was the last time you saw the ADL criticize the republican party platform at all? When’s the last time you saw them call out the growing threat of nazism on the far right? When’s the last time you saw them point out the terrifying similarities between action and word of the republican party’s rhetoric towards immigrants and that of the nazi party’s rhetoric to jews? When was the last time the ADL talked abt systemic antisemitism that doesn’t fit their bs narrative of “the left wants all jews dead, while the right says some bad things sometimes but they mean well”. And, also ask yourself, “When was the last time they used their name as the largest jewish advocacy organization to claim that a nazi who just gave a nazi salute, has spouted nazi rhetoric for years, and also gave that nazi salute while giving a speech that sounded like it came right from adolf hitler’s own fucking mouth?” Cause i don’t remember the answer to those first few question, but I sure do remember the answer to that last one.

This is not a defense of left-wing antisemitism. As a leftist jew I see that shit day in and day out and it’s driving me fucking insane. I know what we’ve faced this last year and a half. This is about the ADL being unreliable and actively harming jewish interests. Cause let’s now talk about what the ADL DOES actually say about the left. Cause, yea, leftist antisemitism is fucked. Yea, the ADL calls it out. Yea, the ADL gets it wrong sometimes, and that would be expected of any organization. The issue here, is they’re getting it wrong ALL the time about the right, because they don’t bother to call it out at all. I posit they just throw spaghetti at the wall when it comes to leftist antisemitism and then they see what sticks. Their internal guidance, from an outside perspective, is it’s fine when the right-wing ethnonationalists in control of the government do a nazi salute, but when leftists do it to be edgy cunts to weaponize jewish trauma for their political causes it’s bad. Let’s be clear, they’re both bad. But it’s the difference between violent edgelord trolls and someone who actually wants to be the next hitler. What’s worse? The ADL thinks the college kids are a bigger threat than the people in charge of the entire US government. This is a systemic issue with the ADL.

Now, why this matters. The ADL has been slowly moving this way for a while. It just REALLY stepped up since october 7th because it gave them fertile ground to push what they want. But this isn’t new. The ADL has been tarnishing its reputation w goyim by overeprorting antisemitism on the left, and thus alienating even the more moderate left, and underreporting on the right. If the only people outside out community who have any trust in the ADL are republicans fascists and centrists who enable them, the people who it never bothers to call out, how can they continue to effectively represent us at all? The left thinks everything they say is bullshit because it’s boy who cried wolf with them. They call out everything bc they want to discredit the left. The right thinks they’re great bc they would probably let them get away with a sieg heil. This leaves us with the largest jewish advocacy organization in the US being only trusted by either nazis, or people who refuse to wake up and smell the fascism.

So. If we, as a community, want our voices heard we MUST disavow the ADL. We have to discredit them. We have to say they don’t represent us. Because. Keep in mind. 80% of jews voted against trump. The ADL knew it would look like this because they know what the american jewish community looks like. Yet, still, withheld endorsing the candidate who was, again, running against an actual nazi when it might have swayed some of the right-leaning jews. They did, however, EFFECTIVELY endorse trump by giving his son-in-law an award during an election year. Yk. The one that helped him in his first term to enact his shitty racist policies. I can’t think of any reason for this except that they wanted trump to win but knew an open endorsement would lead to a complete loss of faith from the jewish community. So. I’m here begging you. Stop buying their fucking bullshit. Their interests are not yours. They have abandoned us so they could have a president willing to let israel do whatever it wants without consequence. They have chosen to provide plausible deniability for an open nazi, as anyone who does a nazi salute while giving a far-right nationalist speech is. Do not trust them. Do not quote them. Do not donate to them. There are other jewish organizations and we should start trying to get their names out there to goyim. They ARE sometimes right about leftist antisemitism, but their motivations for calling it out are political, as evidenced by the passes they give the right. If you want our voices to be listened to on this issue start quoting other jewish orgs instead. They are less well known, but we have so many in the US. We, as a community, need to disavow these pieces of shit willing to give cover to nazis. For the sake of our credibility and for the sake of waking up the nation to the nazis we have in power.

[fiercestcorpse]

fragile things

"wen ning is a knife" - a wen ning playlist about violence, personhood, and autonomy.

Rain in Soho - the Mountain Goats No town more barren than our town No haven safer than the one they tore down No greater love than to lay my life down for a friend No sweeter pleasure than to see the credits clear through to the end

Rabbit Heart (Raise It Up) - Florence + The Machine This is a gift, it comes with a price Who is the lamb, and who is the knife?

Munich - Editors People are fragile things, you should know by now You'll speak when you're spoken to

Haemoglobin - Placebo How'd I ever end up here? Must be through some lack of kindness

Zombie - The Cranberries When the violence causes silence We must be mistaken

Cross Your Fingers - Laura Marling Oh, I jump into your grave and die And on my word you'll give up your whole life for me And you'll be reborn, bigger and stronger and less alive

The Killing Type - Amanda Palmer But I would kill to make you feel I don't mean kill someone for real I couldn't do that, it is wrong But I could say it in a song

She's Lost Control - Joy Division And a voice that told her when and where to act She said, "I've lost control again"

Me, I'm Not - Nine Inch Nails I feel it coming apart Well, at least I tried

Rose - A Perfect Circle So no longer will I lay down Play dead, play this Kneel down Gun-shy, martyr, pitiful

Alive Again - Marianas Trench I walk around like I'm alive again But I know it's just not the same

Big Bird - AJJ And I'm afraid of the mob mentality That makes otherwise normal people go blind

Placebo Effect- Siouxsie and the Banshees With your empty containers Another corpse ornaments your waiting room A placebo effect reversed

Blind Dumb Deaf - The Cocteau Twins [lyrics aren't important. just vibes]

Creature Song - The Mountain Goats I remember the burning in my body And the buzzing in my head And yeah, I do remember your voice Smoothing over my only choice

On The Wire - Sisters of Mercy I don't sleep So I don't dream So I don't wake up frightened

Disorder - Joy Division I've got the spirit, lose the feeling Let it out somehow

Square Hammer - Ghost Hammering the nails Into a sacred coffin You call on me for powers clandestine

Sowing Season (Yeah) - Brand New Time to get the seeds into the cold ground It takes a while to grow anything.

[hwanchaesong]

━⁠☞🍽️ Eighth Course: If you squint, you'll effectively recognize the facts that everything about his new girl is... disgustingly similar to your image. Talk about serving it in a silver platter. 🥢

🎧: Olivia Rodrigo - Deja Vu

wc: 838

genre & warnings: angst, flashbacks, hints of betrayal/cheating, cursing, lovers to exes, Lia of ITZY is featured here, etc etc

a/n: this is a part of The Sour Restaurant series. if y'all want, you can read the other album inspired fics of other groups here.

You almost laughed at the man who was standing on your porch, looking like a poor child in need of assistance.

"Choi Jongho, what the fuck are you doing here?" you asked incredulously, crossing your arms in annoyance at this ridiculous situation.

He pouts at your aggressiveness, not used to this kind of attitude of yours towards him.

Normally, you'd be so sweet and nurturing, kissing his pout away and cooing at him, asking him what's wrong. But he guesses that disturbing your sleep and knowing that you still haven't forgiven him are good reasons for your change.

His silence further vexes you, raising your eyebrow along with your voice.

"Jongho, I asked you a damn question. Answer it! What are you doing here?!"

"I missed you." he mumbles and you nearly didn't hear him, but you did.. and you are absolutely, insanely furious at his audacity.

He comes barging in your life, causing a cyclone, then he leaves you in the middle of the storm, and he returns like nothing ever happened.

He's treating you like some kind of motel, and it's very disrespectful on your side.

"You missed me? Why? Did your new girl dump you?"

"No, but she resembles you so much that I can't help but remember you through her."

Lame. Lame fucking excuse but you somehow understand it.

Why?

Because you saw how she's basically you, a twin perhaps.

When you and Jongho broke up, which was a nasty one, it left you incredibly shattered. You were basically shaking as you picked up your pieces and tried to glue it back together so you'll be able to function like a human being again.

But you also went into the stages of grief, the worse one was the in-denial part.

You were about to throw your phone on the wall, an action that you will definitely regret later but your friend, Lia, thankfully stopped you from doing so.

"No! Y/N, calm down!" she yells, pinning you down on the mattress and doing her best to comfort you.

You let go of your phone, from your palm it landed on the sheets and Lia's eyes went over to it. Realizing that you're stalking Jongho's social media account.

She shakes her head in disappointment but she can't exactly blame you. She knows what you're going through and she's willing to take care of you until you can stand on your own feet again.

"Lia!" you wailed in her arms, bags in your eyes and hair turning greasy for not showering the whole day.

"I-I see his new girl and it's m-me! If he wants a girl like me then I'm here! Why does he need to look for others!?" you shouted and cried and she stayed there to listen to your rants.

Lia scans the phone again, lulling you into sleep and she can't help the cringe on her face.

Jongho's new girlfriend does seem like a clone of you.

Same hair, same facial features, same physical attributes, heck even the way she dresses.

If you are the standard that he's keen on keeping, then why would he leave you alone at the end of the altar while he meets other girls that will inevitably bring him back to you.

You do not, cannot, and will not accept such bullshit.

But that was back then, when you were too naive to realize that the world is a large place to explore. You had to be the bigger person, no, not forgive but you'd rather forget, and you did say to your family and friends that you wish Jongho well.

Now though, that he stands in front of you, all you could think of is how you should've wished him hell instead.

"Oh you've got to be bullshitting me, Jongho." you chuckled, tone full of mockery and irony, "I'm not dealing with this, I'm done with you."

Before you can shut the door on his face, he puts a foot in and it accidentally gets caught in the middle. You winced and almost apologized but you held yourself back, in the back of your head, he somehow deserves that pain.

"Ow!" he grumbles, but he straightens himself up in a mere second, "Y/N, please. We can talk this out."

If you hear one more begging, you think you'll have to choke yourself.

"Jongho, the 'talk' you're saying has been long overdue." you smile, truly infuriated, "Well then, go have fun recycling our routine to your new relationship."

You slammed the door, locking it— locking him out.

You have spent lots of sleepless nights thinking about the things that he's doing with his new girlfriend, the one that he easily replaced you with.

You have thought about them eating at the restaurants that you frequently went to, watching the movies that you have recommended to him before, singing their hearts out during late night drives.

It's maddening, and now that you're only starting to get some rest, you are not gonna allow him to ruin that.

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[gotskamstuff]

I'm gonna be honest here, words cannot describe how much I hate that Rudison thread on Twitter and how resentful I am to that person for creating it.

The whole thing is narrating fans speculations and rumors as ultimate facts on what happened to Rudy and Madison behind the scenes when in reality NO ONE knows what happened between them for certain and what angers me the most is knowing that these are exactly the type of things that make both of them (especially Rudy) even more distant and cold and detached from the show.

I might be dramatic but this shit could've singlehandedly made things catastrophic for the show, there's no way it hasn't reached them or anyone from the cast/Netflix... like, 18 MILLION views and 80k likes is insane and I know for stuff like this Rudy would lose his mind.

I honestly can't stand when the "fans" act like this towards Rudison, they're always crying about how much they miss them and how they wish they could go back to what they were and then they purposely go on social media doing and saying things that they know damn well Rudy and Madison can't stand at all, it's almost as if they do it on purpose…and then act all surprised when the two of them get uncomfortable on camera.

What good is this gonna do to them and to the show? It's only gonna make things 10 times worse and much more hostile, the only thing this helps with is creating an even bigger fracture and a more uncomfortable environment for them and the rest of the cast/crew.

If Rudy wasn't leaving the show already maybe he will now, 'cause a shit like that going viral to 18 million people AND COUNTING, I know is gonna make him (and Madison) mad.

I'mma be honest, I truly hope they sue for that thread (especially since the account is now monetizing from it with the blue check) 'cause it ain't normal how easily people think they can say and do whatever they want behind a screen about people's personal lives without any repercussions (‘cause news flesh Rudy, Madison and their partners are people whose mental health also matters).

Spreading fan speculations and rumors as real facts and creating such a malicious image for the both of them to MILLIONS is insane.

We always say "omg they're so immature" but to be honest Rudy and Madison have been far too patient for far too long, people constantly say the most deranged things to them and their partners (including friends and families at times) without any consequences...it's not normal.

On the long run shit like this inevitably has consequences on their mental health and their relationships and there’s gonna be a point when they’re gonna be TOO fed up and can’t deal with it anymore, don’t act surprised then if they leave the show, y’all did this and seem pretty happy while doing it.

That thread created such an unpleasant atmosphere right before the release of the new season and attracted so many negative reactions towards them that I honestly don't understand how anyone who calls themselves fans of the show, of Rudy or Madison can be giddy about it.

Play stupid games and win stupid prizes... don't act surprised if Rudy leaves OBX or if they don't look at each other in the face during promo when some "fans" do THE MOST to add fuel to the fire.

It’s less than 2 months since the release of a season that we've waited for almost 2 years and the fandom should be filled with excitement and positivity talking about the story and theorizing about it, yet everyone is doing the most to ruin it focusing on the wrong stuff (which are sadly hard to ignore when the consequences effect the show hence all the fans).

I hope by the time the season comes out y'all will have calmed your tits with the malicious gossips, bunch of Regina George wanna be.

[cumulo-stratus]

“You Do This Everyday?”

Pairing: Spencer reid x Male! Youtuber! Reader

Description: y/n has a pretty popular cooking channel and one day after y/n doesnt edit out spencer givving y/n a kiss when he gets home the fans go crazy wanting a video where you bake together so you make a vid answering questions while making a fall recipe

Warnings: possible swearing, fluff, spencer being a clueless little pookie <3

Flufftober day 12: cooking together

A/N: I saw a fic with he idea of spencer x youtuber reader and i loved it so here we are. i think this idea is so cute and has so much potential so i hope i do it justice <3 Enjoy!

The last of the afternoon light streamed through the windows of Y/n and spencers kitchen, and theirs laughs rang out loudly through the otherwise quiet apartment. Y/n had put his weight on spencer- his face stuffed into his spencers chest trying to muffle his laugh. When the laughing finally died down to giggles y/n lifted his face and said 

“spence- spencer we need to redo the intro!” 

“But we’ve done it 2 times already!”

“yes- and well do it a third and a fourth if you dont stop laughing whenever i start talking!” 

The loving bickering was only that- bickering. Spencer didnt mind doing another take, and another one, if it meant he got to see y/n laugh again he would do it 10 times. His attention was pulled back to reality by his boyfriend counting down, starting again.

“3, 2, 1, rolling. Hello ladies, gentlemen, and rats under chef hats, i welcome back to my channel- I hope your having a funky fun day becasue in todays video im going to be making minestrone soup- but with a twist! i read your comments- ive seen the requests, so today my lovely and beautiful and handsome boyfriend will be joining us!”

Y/n motioned for spencer to come into frame and he shuffled in while his boyfriend did jazz hands around him for special effects. spencer giggled at his boyfriends antics while he introduced him.

“everybody this is spencer- hes my boyfriend, and today he’s gonna help me make soup. And yes we will eat it for dinner afterwards!”

Y/n trailed off and stayed silent for a couple seconds for editing later before giving spencer a kiss on the lips- silently thanking him for participating in the video. 

“okay- now i need to start with the veggies- can you grab them out the fridge please?”

“of course m’lord!” spencer used a joking tone as he pulled all the bags labeled “for soup” and dropped them unceremoniously on the counter, eliciting a chuckle from y/n. After taking the vegetables out of their bags and setting them back on the counter, y/n went back and started the camera. Spencer giggled as y/n began to speak. 

"Okay so we're gonna start by cutting our veggies- but, and especially because my boyfriend over here is a bit of a germaphobe, we're gonna wash them first, thoroughly.”

spencer chuckled at this while his boyfriend poured the veggies into a veggie spinner that he had gotten him for christmas. After washing he brought them back to the island infront of the camera and said “Just like that- poof! clean veggies” (definitely thinking of the audio and just like that- poof! lola’s gone. wrong- im right here you fucking brusell sprout!) 

Spencer looked at y/n confused and asked "wait but- why'd you say poof? You washed them right here?!"

Y/n started giggling and took Spencer's hands in his and said "Spence- lovey I washed them off camera and then I'm gonna edit it to look like they poofed clean" spencer looked down for a moment before looking back up causing y/n to burst out laughing as he said “oh. i gués that makes sense, sorry..” and gave y/n a peck on the lips. Y/n pulled out the knife block and set it on the counter, starting the camera. 

“Okay so im gonna have spence prep my veggies and then I’ll cut them into peices about the size of my thumbnail, or a little bigger.” spencer nodded, understanding his job and started by peeling a carrot. not five minutes in of him cutting and peeling, and of course while you were filming a quick shot of you guys cutting the vegetables- did he cut his finger! y/n wa focused on dicing the onion when he heard a loud yelp from his boyfriend next to him. His headshot up looking at his boyfriend, concerned. 

"What's wrong love?" 

"I cut my finger" Spencer had the most doe eyed, helpless look on his face as he held up his finger, which was now streaming blood. Y/ns eyes knitted in concern for his boyfriend and he walked over, dabbing the blood with a dish rag. 

"Oh my poor baby- here lemme help you."

Y/n left a small peck on his boyfriend's hand, leading him over to the sink to wash it off. Spencer just pouted as the cool water splashed over his finger. Y/n chuckles before getting a bandaid from the first-aid kit in the kitchen, and gently placing it on Spencer's newly cleaned finger. 

After cleaning up the blood, and confiscating Spencer's knife and peeler. 

The couple then took a couple minutes to regroup, and finish the vegetables, before filming the rest of the video.

While y/n put away his camera and turned down the burner under the freshly made soup, Spencer flopped down onto the couch sighing and said "you do this everyday?" Y/n chuckled at this and to flopped down on top of Spencer, giving him a kiss on the cheek and saying "yup- and I still have to edit out all the clips of you just laughing" y/ns tone was teasing while Spencer's became defensive as he spoke in his defense, "hey- I don't do it for a living, you do! You know I'm a terrible cook y/n.. speaking of I think I deserve another kiss for that cut I got on my hand earlier.." Spencer trailed with a smirk. His boyfriend sighed in fake resignation and leaned for a kiss, holding back a laugh as their lips met. 

The End 

[lost-in-time-marie]

I find myself thinking tonight about human touch. There’s something written in the biology of a human to want touch, to need it, to be healed by it. The infants in the NICU that get held, a gentle hand placed on the head, one finger too large for them to even grasp, get better faster, grow bigger. You’d think I get some personal pleasure in making a mockery of biology the way I insist upon breaking its rules. But like so many biological behaviors and inherent drives, this too has become a twisted and corrupt thing for me.

I don’t like to be touched. I don’t remember anymore a time if I did. When some blaring catastrophic alarm wouldn’t go off under my skin at an unexpected grasp, a tap on the shoulder, a graze in passing. Even if I wanted the touch, or thought I did, if I had a crush, if I loved them, even if in a relationship with them. I would still feel the wrongness of it like a weight sinking in my chest.

I’ve learned to grow accustomed to certain touches. The familiar ones, akin to me or some effect of time and depth with me. Of course, the most difficult always remains with romantic love. There’s people I’ve loved with my whole heart and it didn’t stop the ants that live under my skin that can’t stand the feel of theirs. I’ve only known three men in ten days shy of 27 years that could touch me. That I didn’t have to bear, that I didn’t have to hide the grimacing, that didn’t cause that jarring screech to a halt. So far, I’ve lived to see two of them wither away and turn into something foul and rotten, until the skin shrinks away once more.

I can’t figure out what causes it, where the pattern is, what rules it follows. I’ve wanted to be in a loving relationship with people, but I couldn’t stand for them to touch me, and I could never grow accustomed. The three men that cause the anomaly couldn’t be more different, maybe a certain type or set of features here and there, but nothing significant. When I first meet them, there is something inherently familiar, comfortable, easy.

I’ve only met the third recently. I only met him for the first time less than a week ago. That was my worst fear, my biggest risk on this trip. I didn’t care about navigating the airports and all the flights and connections. I didn’t know if when I got there he would feel like a stranger, something foreign, something wrong. I didn’t really have a plan for what I would do if he did, maybe just pretend or run home early. I was hedging a bet, putting a lot of faith in that feeling in my chest when we would talk on the phone. It’s the first time I hear his voice and yet I’ve known this sound.

I look up to see him for the very first time in the airport. I’m staring down at my phone on purpose, because I don’t know what to do with my searching eyes, barely balancing the teeter-totter of unease and excitement inside me. He says something about finding me. I look up and I smile. And he is so familiar. I know him, I recognize him. And relief pours down in a rainfall from the crown of my head, soaking all the way to my toes. I feel self conscious, nervousness falls a blush on my cheek, but not because of a wrongness or strangeness. There’s a touch of something familiar, a curiosity at the yet unknown, excitement about all the possibility. And there is nothing wrong about it.

Funny, how that’s the part that scares me the most. I don’t know when I got so afraid to want things, not exactly anyways. But it is the first reflexive kick of my brain, the stone I turn in my pocket just for the comfort. If I don’t want it, if I don’t hope, it can’t hurt me.

~K.

[flowery-laser-blasts]

What’s your theory on why Shego specified no cloning in her contract. Like on one hand it’s basic sense and on the other hand you have to wonder what could have happened to make it something she needs in writing.

OH I'VE BEEN WANTING TO TACKLE THIS ONE FOR A WHILE NOW BUT I KEPT ON FORGETTING TO WRITE IT DOWN! HERE GOES!

Shego's zero tollerance to cloning has to do with 2 factors:

1. Individuality (I'm not sure if I'm using the right word here but bare with me for now, I still got a cold and my brain power is at a low) 2. The Wegos 1. Individuality / who's the original? Looking at the Mauler Twins from the tv show Invincible as an example, it's very easy to see why Shego does NOT want to be cloned. It's very difficult to convince an identical clone that they're a clone; you share memories, physical attributes, character, etc. It's literally duplicating another being. She's head strong. Let's say that memories don't apply but character or ego, remains, that way Shego's clone would STILL keep her foot down pledging that she's the original even if gaps are missing "It's a stupid side effect of that stupid cloning machine of Dr. D!" could be an explanation the clone would give. Shego has a very dominant and strong personality so she would brush that off. Even in the SiT:Past episode. When Shego meets her future self, she dismisses the Supreme One as a 'clone' at first glance and doesn't even bother to listen to her right away. Only after a few minutes Shego comes around and follows the Supreme One's instructions: Shego doesn't want to listen to her future self because from her point of view; She (The Supreme one) is not her (Shego) and thus lesser in opinion. Having that said, if you put a few Shego clones in one room, you'd get an all on fight. She can dish out snarky remarks but hates receiving critique; and as one knows, you're your own worst critic. "Uhm... Obviously, you're the clone. I mean, look at your hair." "What? What's wrong with my hair?" "It's obviously synthetic" "Oh I show you synthetic! When I smear your cakey make up all over the floor!" Chaos would errupt and there might be a big chance that all the clones at one point might turn against Drakken for creating this mess in the first place; because all of them would agree that this wouldn't have happened if Drakken just respected the NO CLONING clause! But I hear you thinking: "That doesn't matter because Drakken wanted to improve the (Kim) clones, remember? He said "My Kim clone will be engineered with the lightning fast reflexes of a king cobra…the invincible strength of a rogue elephant… and that killer instinct of… Commodore Puddles" so character or memories wouldn't play a part in it. Shego's clone would be obedient and a killing machine!" YOU'RE WRONG; THIS AN EVEN BIGGER INSULT TO INJURY. IMAGINE YOUR BOYFRI-- BOSS TELLING YOU: "Yeah I want to make a copy of you but it has no mind of it's own and it is way stronger and more powerful than you could be to take down a teenager. Oh, while I'm at it; a lot of yous! That way I have an army." Uhm, HELLO? That's just asking to be beaten up! NO one is better than the original!

2. The Wegos The Wegos have no cloning power but duplication. They can cause a lot of trouble within a short amount of time. I imagine that sometimes the Wegos used their powers to cause mischief; Use their duplications to get out of superhero meetings or bedtime. I have not yet 100% figured out whether the Wego duplications are controlled by a hivemind of the original or if they can act individually upon creation. Again, looking at for example Duplikate from Invincible or Splinter from The Boys they both are superheroes that seem to be sharing a hivemind with the original. If the original is destroyed so are the duplicates. I also have a headcanon (but not entirely worked out and it might stray from the canon) that the Wegos are actually 1 person. Being the youngest, he used his duplication power to keep up a permanent twin so he wouldn't be lonely and overseen by his older siblings. But going back to it: There could be a chance that in her hero days, Shego has seen Wegos injured and may have had some troubles being unable to find the original ones (only finding out after the duplicates disappeared). It is one thing to see your little brother hurt, let alone a whole legion of little brothers. It might've been a scary sight to maybe also see her 'brother' get killed multiple times, even if it was just a dobbleganger.

So that's my take on the whole no cloning thing. :) Hope this answers your question!

[lyca-universal]

Retrospective on Kappa and Siren's first meeting (2/2)

This post will be a continuation of that one :

Now Let's Continue!

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5. Caring for someone

Just after this lighthearted interaction, Siren reveals to Kappa that he was not what he expected. It's a sensitive subject for him, causing him to act very vulnerable again (my poor baby).

And what happens next is something that I didn't notice so much when I first read it, but now it feels really precious and powerful.

Kappa gets upset and we see him and we see him turn his back on Siren.

AAAAH the gentle touch on the cell bars I’m melting-hum, sorry-

So we see Siren trying to comfort Kappa, realizing how upset he made him.

Everything about this moment feels great and so SO right, so let me expand on why that is ^^

On one hand, Siren is just so caring and gentle. When he tilts his head slightly when he says "hey", it melts my heart. But most importantly, it puts him in the position of being the one to comfort someone. It's something he feels he hasn't been able to do his whole life, with everyone doting on him and worrying about his welfare and HIS only.

Interestingly, Siren's "thank you" here feels like a parallel to Kappa's thanking people for complimenting his scales when he doesn't like it but feels bad saying it out loud 🤔

But anyway, going back on track !

Siren has always been the one taken care of, but has rarely had the opportunity to take care of everyone. Not to mention the guilt he feels for being the one to stop the curse from happening while his people suffer, yet he feels unable to do what he "needs" to do to stop it. A very complicated and difficult situation.

Kudos to the author for showing such complex emotions and dynamics. Because on the surface it would be like "Siren is loved by everyone and treated like a hero, how could that be hard to deal with?" when in fact it is and the story illustrates it. This makes Siren feel even more isolated in his feelings, with really no one who seems to be able to understand or relate to him and his struggles, let alone see them (but more on that in a post about their second meeting, now GOING BACK ON TRACK)

The thing is, Siren has SUCH a caring, protective side to him. And here he's able to show care for someone and be in the position of being the one who comforts the other for what really seems to be the first time in his life. And it all feels really natural, spontaneous. Without any sense of guilt between them. Siren really needed to have someone to comfort, to showcase, maybe even realize that part of him.

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On the other hand, we have Kappa showing how upset he is and how angry he is with Siren. But don't get me wrong :

That's such SUCH a good thing for me !

Let's put some context back here : Kappa is the Beacon, he's used to people seeing him for their own benefit, hardly like a person, more like a figure/object to be used. The first hours of his life he was literally yelled at for not doing things the way they were expected while he was a literal TODDLER.

Imagine the effect it must have had on such a young child. How messed up it was. But more importantly, how it forged him into not valuing his own feelings at all.

Back to the current scene. He's actually LOCKED UP in a dungeon. He's facing the prince of a cursed kingdom who has to kill him to end the suffering of his people. The guy is much stronger and bigger than him. He has a deadly weapon, but he can do whatever he wants to him without much effort. Considering his prophecy, he doesn't seem to have any reason to go easy on him.

YET, in the span of a few words exchanged, he's in a situation where he's upset, and this guy crouches down and apologizes to him for scaring him.

He’s not even apologizing because he must kill him. But he apologizes for scaring him, for hurting his feelings. For something as “trivial”.

We went from a guy who was like "you have to kill me? okay, fine, I don't want to resist because I don't want to upset you" to "you scared me and were insensitive, I'm angry >:(" xDDD

But not only Kappa was able to express his feelings, Siren valued them and responded to it. 

Despite the situation he's in, we see him feel safe enough to express his feelings and be angry at the guy who was supposed to KILL HIM. We see him feel WAY safer and more comfortable than he felt around people in castles who didn't have to kill him, all while he was swimming free.

Poor baby's bar is under the ground about the care and attention he deserves from people, especially people he's bound to by a prophecy. Yet, not only did our amazing Siren set no expectations for him, not only did he not blame him for anything, he even APOLOGIZED for upsetting HIM. Thus showing him consideration he likely barely had in his life. 

They need to get to know each other better, they haven't bonded yet. But these few interactions convey how comfortable they are with each other and how their interactions bring so much to each other, something they barely had and brings them positive emotions.

Last note to conclude that part, I find it cute how Kappa's tendency to cross his arms whenever he’s upset at Siren remains 150 episodes or so later. It’s really cute xD

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6. The right thing

Afterwards, Siren mentions that he's going to free him. This seems to take him by surprise.

I guess he knew that Siren wouldn't kill him, sure, but there was still a prophecy, and he had nothing to gain by freeing him. Listening to him, Kappa goes back to his vulnerable expression, which expresses how he feels like acting for himself isn't even something to consider.

I find it very telling that the first thing that comes to his mind is "don't the other sharks want this?" as if what HE wanted was off the table. Which was true most of the time, unfortunately TwT

But for the first time in his life, someone is talking about acting for HIM and HIM alone, with nothing to gain. Not even that, choosing him DESPITE supposedly having more to gain by killing him now.

But he doesn't seem to be fully aware of it, doesn't trust it yet. I think at this point it's really hard for him to believe that anyone would ever do that for him, let alone a prince from a cursed kingdom who supposedly needs him DEAD. "Even if you're serious" is really telling in this part.

It might sound like something Siren said without thinking, and then he would immediately retract his words, realizing that he's still the Beacon and he can't possibly do that.

But that doesn't happen, on the contrary, Siren even doubles down on his statements with genuine confidence :

First, their physical proximity in this scene. Siren casually puts his face close to Kappa's. And the way Kappa reacts, he seems surprised, but not as uncomfortable as when people casually make physical contact with him and drag him around.

He seems surprised, but not bothered. It was probably unintentional on Siren's part, he tends to get close when he is caught up in his emotions. But it just feels right, again because their interactions feel respectful, on a similar scale, like two equals. Kappa isn't looked down on or tossed around and stuff like that.And it's so funny that the time he got that respectful treatment was in a FREAKING CELL xD

(Lil anecdote : when I first came across CS's image, it was from scenes in the dungeon in Season 1. So I had no idea what CS was about at that point. I knew that one of the characters was imprisoned, but I really didn't know which one. Because from the picture I came across, they both seemed so cool, and the prison always felt more like a hanging place than a literal, you know… dungeon xD Again, I think it was really telling.)

But now let's focus on what Siren actually says and how important it is. Not only does he express his confidence that he will be able to escape, he also expresses his commitment to doing the "right thing".

People who rely on the beacon usually put their burden on one person and expect the beacon to be a miracle solution, they wouldn't consider another option most of the time. Siren comes across as someone who is deeply guided by his morals and would rather find the way to make the "morally good" decision, even if it ends up being difficult. This is not common, not at all.

It's clearly not something Kappa is used to seeing in someone, and Siren deserves a lot of credit for that, imo.

They both bring something that the other deeply needs. Kappa needed someone to bring him this kindness without expecting anything in return, as everyone in his life does. But it also works the other way around. Siren needed motivation to act on his own, to realize what he was capable of. By acting for someone else, he's also acting for himself. He's not burdened by his bad self-image, by what his people expect of him, by his guilt, he's really thinking about standing up for what he thinks is right.

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7. The name reveal

And then we get to the scene where Kappa tells Siren his name. Again, I love this moment.

Kappa is first addressed as "the Beacon". When he asks to be called Kappa, his request also implies that he wants to be considered a normal being, not a divine being.

His name is very symbolic to him, it often feels like a big deal when he reveals his name and wants to be addressed by it. In other words, he's asserting himself as a person and going against what he feels he's supposed to be, aka a tool to fulfill prophecies. But sometimes he just doesn't share it because it's clear that with the way people treat him, it's not even worth considering.

But with Siren, it felt really cute

It was a heartfelt moment. The way I interpreted it is that Kappa didn't have to ask to be treated like a person: he already was. And it was one of the really REALLY rare occasions where he was treated as a person without having to ask. So I feel like the fact that he was able to share it so confidently and easily is really a testament to how trusting and comfortable Siren makes him feel. And I think it also shows that he is starting to have positive feelings about him despite the whole situation. And Siren, being the absolute sweetheart that he is, immediately went through with it.

Not only that, but it makes him blush once again. Because that's what's really important to him, getting to know the name of the person he’s developing a crush on. And gosh that’s so sweet, I’m so soft for them.

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To expand on the whole "name reveal talk" before moving on, because I find it interesting: In other cases, some people who used to call him "Beacon" will evolve and use his actual name, like the amazing queens Nee and Krilli. But there are also cases where characters, similar to Siren, have already considered Kappa to be his own person, and the name reveal also felt like a way to make it "official", and they immediately went along with it. It's those two sweethearts :

And then there is Neth xDDDDDD

But she's a QUEEN so it's ok for her. (Nethimir is a freaking goat I love her so freaking much).

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8. Last thoughts

THEY ARE SO FREAKING CUTE AAAAAAAAAAAH

Kappa blushing for the first time, he probably realised Siren actually was attractive without the giant deadly spear on his hands xD Meanwhile Siren being a cute mess xD

Something we can notice in retrospect, I think, is how smiling Kappa is overall in this chapter. Yes, he was really scared and his current situation sucks. But the way he was all soft and smiling at the end is way more than he used to be. (Because our poor boy's life SUCKS)

I also really like this moment :

The fact that Siren actually THANKS HIM for handing him the spear. And look how happy our boi is 🥺

Again, it may not seem like much at first. But we're talking about the guy who got yelled at as a baby for getting a prophecy wrong. Yeah, I know I've said it countless times, but it's just a little reminder of how fucked up our little boy really is xDD

Bringing back this scene. Kappa felt as a BABY that if things got bad, it’s because HE did something wrong and was responsible. 

Here, he might have expected to be considered responsible for not dying. And not only this guy spared him despite his prophecy, he's thanking him for something as trivial and handing him his spear back.

Then Siren leave the dungeon

I think it was implied that Kappa didn't immediately have a crush on Siren. Which makes sense, the situation didn't leave him too much mental space to see the guy who was supposed to kill him as a love interest. HOWEVER, he does seem to be smitten, smiling already. And we know that no one has ever been this nice to him before.

(Well, except for that damn golden woman I want to talk about sometime, don't worry, I won't forget that wonderful being with a V-name who will be immortalized in my heart).

I would like to end the retrospective with this moment, which for me is a good summary :

Mucku is the best and asks the right questions.💞

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That's all for now! I had so much fun revisiting all those moments, I really like how well their relationship is built from the beginning. Needless to say, I really love them xD

Thanks for reading ! 🩵🧡

[zane-wanna-sleep]

I saw the time-travel concept lately and then be like 'BUT WHAT IF—! So here sumthing even me myself don't know what it is (no plot, no story line, just sum piece of my mind)

Part 2 , Part 3

⚠️: death

“ He.. –he's dead ”

And that's how the whole world stopped, sound turned itself off into high pitch echoing in Jake's ears.

The prisoner better not lied when he said that 'cause if he did Jake would be mad than grief. So he asked again “ Say that again, say the truth ”

The prisoner cried and through sob he said again, “ I told you! That's the truth, the kid is died! ”

No interrogation can bring more any information from this recombinant and he didn't want to hear any more either. Jake stepped back gesture other na'vi to lock prisoner up again and would let the judging be Tonowari's company. He felt.. numb

The Toruk Makto sighed deeply as he walked away, let his mind fly somewhere else in his memory of old days they were happy and safe in forest, had no idea what will happened. And just enjoy their normal days back then, with Spider be around them.

How could he tell this to his children? How would they react to this news? How could he even face them again after this and what he has done?

..

.

And their reactions weren't different from what he expected, Neteyam froze lost in his processsing thought, Kiri cried, shout, yell along with Lo'ak who wasn't much difference from his sister and Tuk, oh his baby Tuk, she was all confused but can understand that her brother Spider would never come back. And they can't go see him again also.

Then it's happened, Neteyam started his words, his hash and full of dreadly hatred words, “ I believed you, even though I always knew I shouldn't have ”

He spat as if there's venoms in his thoughts “ You said he would be okay, weren't you? ”

His sharp amber eyes stabbed Jake

“ And the next thing you say about him after that day is... This?? ” ow that's hurt, really “ What you going to do now? Forget it and continue this living like nothing has happened and our brother just died ”

“ That's ENOUGH! ” Neytiri shouted instantly after his last sentence and everyone went silent, just for a moment though, and before the kids can open their mouths to continue their protest, she beat them “ Don't talk to your father like that, what's wrong with you, Neteyam you've never be like this ”

That's boiled up Neteyam's blood even more but this time it's Lo'ak who answered back then Kiri who calmed her sob and let out her rage, Neteyam join in again try to used all reason to make his mate understand. Tuk was just cried she didn't know what to do or who she should seek comfort from until Neteyam calm himself, not his mind, a little enough to scoop her up to whisper reassurance.

“ Then we will fix this ourselves, we'll take a revenge for him ” Lo'ak announced his purpose with his most serious face and his kids quickly agreed, ignored Neytiri's protest completely, which sent shivers down to Jake a bit

There're shout and shout and yell and cry and shout again, that's a chaos and he wish everything was not real, that everything was just another very, very bad dream of his and he will wake up soon. Wake up to see his family happy with Spider again.

The chaos endded with Tonowari's warning he totally forgot that it's late at night by now and they're bothering other villagers by their loud voice. He apologized and tried to wave off the Olo'eytan's concern about their situation, it may not effective due his exhausted, wet-tear face but at very least the bigger na'vi willing to leave them, for now though.

When he turned back to looked in their marui, his heart fell when he couldn't find any of his children insight and let out a long breath he didn't know he was holding when noticed they're just made a dog pile in the corner, though when he or Neytiri try to get closer Neteyam and Kiri would give them a dreadful glare, Lo'ak would slightly hiss and Tuk whined softly. His mate said when he tried to assure Tonowari they've tried to sneak out, thankfully they at least still sleep in the same marui as him tonight after everything.

That's hurt him, a lot, he want this bad dream to its end so that he can pulled them into his arms again. So he made up his mind, if they need their time he he would give them as much as they need. Jake let exhausted get over him and dragged him to sleep, or please be awakeness to peaceful day.

And yes he had to wake up, the sun shone brightly hurt his eyes forced open to meet familiar ceiling he didn't doubt at first but when he stepped to outside he saw forest surrounding him and others marui on tree nearby

Jake froze there, what is happening here, he had went insane or this is another dream of him being in delusional??

“ oh Mr.Sully, ” the voice said differ from some he heard just not long that called him Olo'eytan and there's only one person who called him that, “ I came here for Lo'ak and Kiri but uh.. am I disturb you? If so I can leave ”

Jake took a deep breath before looked down, his breath hiccup when he saw the boy, and...

What in the world happened here

Spider looked young, he of course young you skxwang hes a kid, too young for him. Looked like a 10-or-so years old, Jake wasn't sure but he sure that this isn't right, Spider is sixteen, almost seventeen, for Eywa's sake.

So why is he looked like this can some one please explain?!

But with that innocent wide eyes of Spider, he couldn't scream his heart out for any explanation.

[okkalo]

midnight celebration

bonten sanzu x reader

genre(s): fluff with a bit of angst and suggestion

warnings: fem reader, reader and sanzu share a birthday, reader shorter than sanzu, slight suggestion

found out me and sanzu share the same birthday and kept thinking of scenarios

you felt insane. the clock struck midnight and here both you and your boyfriend were in the kitchen, sanzu in a suit while you in that silk dress he bought you last week, both singing happy birthday to each other. you guessed it was a side effect for dating someone like sanzu because deep down you enjoyed the feeling of insanity.

“happy birthday to us.” you both finished the song in a not-so-much harmony, goofy grins on both faces as you both stared at each other with the same lively eyes despite the time of the day. after finishing off the prolonged last note, sanzu pulled you in by the waist, letting one hand explore your waist covered in the thin silk while the other tilted your jaw to give a perfect angle for the slow and indulgent kiss he meets your lips with. your smiles are still matched, making the kiss somewhat sloppy, but you couldn’t care less as you ran one hand up his covered bicep and your other hand stayed glued to his chest. even after you separated from the kiss you kept the smile on your face before turning to the convenience store paired with empty wine glasses that sat on the counter.

“y’look so pretty, baby.” sanzu whispered out, angling his face so his lips landed on the crook of your neck while his hand stayed wrapped around your waist. you tilted your head to the side, easily giving him more access to your neck while your hands busied themselves with opening the small container of the cake. he continued to trail kisses on your sensitive spots before you could give a reluctant nudge to get his attention back, to which he, just as reluctantly, slipped away from you. you then slid him his own wine glass while you held your own, something you insisted on including merely just to scoop the cake with—something you’ve seen on tiktok that just dirties more dishes when at home but you found it cute nonetheless.

he gave you a soft nudge, signaling you to go for the first scoop, to which you immediately listened to. though the scoop was as satisfying as you had watched, you proportioned the small cake wrong, taking far too big of a scoop and leaving a sliver behind for sanzu.

“you just took the whole damn cake,” sanzu, as dramatic as always with you, muttered with furrowed eyebrows. “bet that’s why you wanted to do this glass thing, just so you could take a bigger scoop and leave me with nothing.” despite his over dramatic speech he let up a small smile at your giggles that bounced off the kitchen walls.

“enjoy the small piece.” you further teased after recovering from the fit of giggles that was caused by both sandy’s dramatic behavior and lack of sleep. sanzu’s smile immediately dropped along with his jaw as he sent you a glare.

“yeah, right. i know i didn’t go to that sketchy ass store for you to steal the cake anyways, so share,” you let another giggle slip past your lips before walking over to him with your filled wine glass and resting your back to your chest, a way of forfeit. soon after, you scooped a smaller piece of the cake up with the fork and lifted it above your head, waiting for sanzu to take the first bite. at lack of movement is when you turned body over to give him a confused look.

“the first bite is yours, baby,” you further say while motioning the fork in your hand.

“oh, i get the princess treatment today?” you let out a snort at his question before giving him a nod. you watched as a smile filled the gap between his scars and his eyes flitted to the fork to indulge in the first bite. you watched to see his reaction to the cake after he had taken a bite, skeptical of the cake that came from the ‘sketchy store’, which is really why you gave him the first bite.

“well? how is it?” you questioned at the lack of his reaction, causing his eyes to drop to you. instead of answering, he instead dipped down to meet you with a kiss. you gave a little sound of surprise at the sudden kiss before moving back and breaking the kiss.

“would rather have you,” he mumbled, already chasing after your lips before you can even open your mouth to question his actions. a small smile made its way on your face at his voice before giving in and meeting him for the next kiss. you set the glass and silverware aside, now using your empty hands to throw around his neck while his kneaded the silk cover at your hips. the kiss started slow but progressively got faster as more desire coated both of your lips. it was when sanzu’s hands had gone up to undo the tie of silk ribbon around your neck when his phone loudly rang, effectively ruining the moment.

you both separated from the kiss, sanzu sending you an apologetic look before it quickly turned to one of annoyance while fishing his phone off the counter. you could only offer a small sigh before resting your head against his chest in hope you would be able to continue after the phone call. though, much to your despair you felt his fingers that had been rubbing your back still, a telltale sign that he had to leave. you let way for a heavier sigh, wanting him to know of your annoyance even if it wasn’t his fault. you broke away from his gentle grasp, walking back to your shared bedroom to change into something more comfortable and reasonable at the hour of the night.

it was after you had changed and brushed through your tangled hair when sanzu creeped into the bedroom with an apologetic look. he usually would be annoyed at the inconvenience, though with it having happened so many times he couldn’t help but feel sorry for you. he knows you deserve better. but in hope that he could somehow reason you to continue loving him, he mutters a soft apology while pulling you into a tight hug, leaving a kiss on the crown of your head. he gives you a kiss, one he’s surprised you return back to him, before walking out of your shared apartment, leaving you behind.

severely unedited thanks for reading!