#is it my fault

[blossompoet]

Life lately...

[fullcollapse-mp3]

what is it about me that makes ppl hate me after like six months of knowing me. what did i do.

[birch-trees-are-amzing]

me: hey mom is this day good for an appointment? (trying to find a time and date that will work for both her and me)

mom: yes do that and I will take you there :)

**2 days before**

mom on the phone with my dad: I scheduled a thing at the time ((my name)) has an appointment.

me: Mom that is not going to work, I did tell you in advance and also worked on the date with you

mom: >>:(( I'll have your dad take you! mom is now angry at me?!??!?!

[thoughtdaughter2010]

"Keep listening to the mixtapes they made you

Overanalyze every single word you hear

Was this a sign that things were going wrong?

No, no, you were the one that cared too hard, not them"

- Dandelion Hands

(How to never stop being sad)

[catsforthewin]

What Are You Afraid Of?

I'm afraid of big crowds I'm afraid of being alone I'm afraid of anxiety I'm afraid to talk to people I'm afraid of how I eat I'm afraid of how I behave I'm afraid of feeling sick I'm afraid of letting everyone down I'm afraid of not being good enough I'm afraid of coming off as obnoxious I'm afraid of the world I'm afraid of myself I'm afraid of feeling sad and depressed I'm afraid of the cashiers I'm afraid of public transportation I'm afraid of people throwing me away I'm afraid I might've already thrown myself away I'm afraid of hurting and feeling like I shouldn't be I'm afraid of messing up I'm afraid of not feeling more grateful for things I have I'm afraid of tripping where everyone can see I'm afraid to pick deliveries I'm afraid of being laughed at I'm afraid to order food I'm afraid of how I think daily I'm afraid of all the self harm thoughts I'm afraid of how lazy I am I'm afraid of how inconsistent I am I'm afraid my best isn't enough I'm afraid I don't try enough

I'm afraid …of all of this and so much more, my brain

"I'm just so afraid and lost and I don't know why anymore"- anxiety

[thatonequeerk1d]

You don't make me that happy anymore

[mightnotfeelrealbutitsok]

!! You don’t !!! know how !!! much I feel I love you still !!!!

[imarriedmybodypillow]

But my thing is why does my never get the location right when I do give it to them??

me: hmm time to google something

google every time: can i PLEASE have your location PLEASE 🥺🥺🥺 I need to know where you live so BAD 😫😫😫😫 Where do you fucking from?????? 😩😩😩😩😩😩

[t1mmytim]

*Right before going to bed in Chapter 4*

Introducing Tututim my very original and very cool soulsona.

[corviiids]

i want devices that are functional and hardy and i want them to last and fuck the rest of the shit i dont need. my ds and 3ds can lie in sleep mode for months if not years and i can pop them open and they've still got two or three bars left. my old phones in high school could go days without a charge. if i leave my nintendo switch on the floor for a few days doing absolutely fuck all nothing i will turn it on and it will cry to me mother i am dying. i am dying mother. and i tell him he'll never be half the man his brother was and he can't hear me because he's dead

[viktorpartner]

if i had a nickel for every time Viktor died i would have 2 nickels... WHICH IS WAY MORE THAN I'D LIKE PLEASE STOP KILLING HIM

[fattfemme]

There’s this one fic I keep checking and I commented on it like 2 years ago and then they never updated it

Me checking on one of my beloved ao3 fics that hasn't been updated since 2017

[nameless-4]

There’s something fundamentally wrong with me. I hate it so much, I hate myself so much, but I just cannot control what I’m feeling

How many people would hate me, look with disgust at me, if they found out?

[koifish-komeiji]

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[toll30]

I don’t get it I tried to be nice and I am just made to feel awful maybe it is my fault maybe I have done something wrong maybe they love me less idk why I am feeling like this I hate it