#is it misophonia or just a normal amount of rage

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normalize earbuds

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Misophonia sucks so fucking hard and no one anywhere ever wants to talk about it. Literally the only people I've ever had listen to me about my Misophonia are other people with Misophonia. So fuck it, Misophonia Awareness Post or something, I want to vent.

Allow me to describe what it is first for all the lucky people who aren't fucked over. Misophonia is likely an Audio-Processing Disorder (Potentially some form of Synesthesia) in which certain sounds trigger a fight or flight reaction. Trigger sounds can vary and sometimes after long term exposure it can create a reaction to the visuals associated with those sounds. It is possibly genetic, there is no known cause, there is no known treatment, there is only suffering and ways of generally kind of reducing that suffering. When I hear people chewing I am filled with a rage that can only be described as "Bordering on a primal desire to Kill." and there's nothing I can do about that. A family member or friend takes a bite of something crunchy and I have to sit there and exist with thoughts of pounding their fucking skull into paste with my bare god damn hands and then afterwards I have to go back to "being normal". I have to just pretend that didn't happen, I can't do anything with those emotions, I can't put them anywhere, I can't talk about them with anyone or gain any understanding or sympathy from others for having them.

When I see someone chewing food anymore it's borderline impossible for me to remain in the room with them for any more than a few seconds because the mere sight of them chewing makes me physically ill and inspires in me a sense of deep disgust and panic that I could never ever hope to describe.

I tell people about what it's like and I get one of four reactions :

"Oh I think I have that too" With a weird amount of curious excitement at the concept of having a fun new quirky thing to mention in conversations. This means that they don't have it, and they'll then proceed to list off a couple different things that literally no human being likes to hear and how much that thing "annoys them". This makes me want to kill myself.

"Wow, Yikes." Through a grimace. This means I was too open about how it makes me feel and they now think i'm a either a freak, liability, time bomb, or over-dramatic, and will do everything they can to avoid the subject in the future so that I can't make them uncomfortable. This makes me want to kill them AND myself.

Immediately eats something really loudly to set me off as a "joke". This means that they're an obnoxious piece of shit that I have to try my absolute hardest not to beat to death with my bare hands. This makes me want to kill them, if that wasn't already obvious.

"Oh. So that's what this is called." This means they have it, and we can both engage in a brief period of mutual trauma sharing that helps us know we're not alone, and that our curse is unfortunately shared with others. This makes us both somewhat melancholy, and kinda ruins the vibes until something fun happens.

And then we get into the "How do you make the pain stop", and good news! You can't. There is no way to make it stop. But you can make it hurt less with ✨Spending Unbearable Amounts of Cash✨

You can buy a billion different types of earplugs that will all do great at muting the world but always leave you incredibly unaware of the world around you and leave you fucked in-terms of listening to media.

You can buy normal headphones that will kind of work but never mute the world around you anywhere near enough and vaguely frustrate you constantly, but hey at least you're a bit more accessible! Try combining these with a combination of rain and static noise playing at all times in the background for an extra layer of silence :)

You can buy ANC headphones that cost infinitely too much money and are almost always built to break so that they can farm cash from you in repairs, but the ANC is so useful despite not working perfectly that you can't really exist without it so you're gonna spend 200+ dollars every couple years because you don't have a choice, and spend every single day 24/7 wearing hot heavy over-ear headphones! Use the Rain and Static Noise combo with this as well for the best ANC effect.

And inevitably, all of these options will give you hearing problems, potentially make you aware of new trigger sounds, and always leave you a step behind everyone else when a conversation happens. Pro-Tip : For when the sounds are really intrusive and you're on the verge of a breakdown, Combine ANC with Ear Plugs and the R&SN background audio to basically kill noise in it's entirety for a little while :)

AND NOW WE GET TO THE PART WHERE I SAY WHAT THE FUCK CAN YOU NORMIES DO TO MAKE OUR SUFFERING LESS FUCKING CONSTANT.

Listen to us. Don't ostracize us for experiencing emotions we can't control and don't mean or want to act on. If you can, try your best to do the trigger noises quietly, and try your best not to do the trigger visuals in-front of us. We know it's not something you can control entirely, but if you can make the effort to make our lives suck less, we'll really fucking appreciate it.

And if you try to get back at us during a fight by eating something really crunchy to abuse our disorder for your benefit, I swear to god I will hunt you down personally and subject you to the most violent and painful torture I can manage before killing you and hiding your body somewhere no one will ever find it so that your loved ones never have the closure of knowing if you died or if you're still somewhere out there. Thanks for reading even though I know you didn't because the length of this post is frankly unhinged and i'll probably only get like 2 likes at best.

[misophoniainternational]

Accepting Misophonia Don't Let Misophonia Take Over Your Life Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about grief. Misophonia is a tough condition to live with. It takes over our lives, our relationships, and it isolates us. We often feel as though we have drawn the shortest straw. It can be tough to look at others – perfectly normal and able to sit on a bus without bursting into tears. Each and every day we are faced with triggers and unfortunately, they seem to get worse with time and exposure. I have lost a lot of people in my life, and I have experienced grief in its rawest form. After sitting across from my grandmother, her hand in mine, as she took her last breath, I knew I would have to learn to adjust. Misophonia is not different from this. You have lost something - the chance to live your life trigger-free. Despite your desire to push it away, you must face misophonia. You cannot repress your emotions. You must find a way to come to terms with it, accept it, and live your life. I understand that this can be one of the most frustrating situations in the world. I have had my fair share of moments, where I have dashed off to the restroom and cried as much as I could. I have kicked the brick wall in an attempt to quell the rage. I have left classes, family dinners, and other important situations to go home to my bed and stay there. I have avoided my life for days and at my worst – for weeks. I admit that I have depression that makes misophonia worse. However, I would have gladly lived most of my days in a state of depression than with the triggers of misophonia. Sometimes I still feel this way, but it’s not as often. The reason is that I now understand, that like any chronic illness, any friend who slips through the cracks, and any life-altering, unchangeable event out of our control: Misophonia causes grief. I firmly believe that in order to live a fulfilling life, we need to understand that there is currently no cure. Instead of taking from that hopelessness, we should know that our lives and their meaningfulness is not measured by the amount of days without triggers. This disorder may have a hold, but it is not our life. We are important and we need to understand that this grief should go through the same stages as any other loss. Denial and Isolation Denial can come in different ways. People with misophonia may at first believe that they are just ‘hyper-sensitive’ or that it’s their fault. It is also no secret that misophonia often leads to self-inflicted isolation. Anger It makes sense to be angry with misophonia. It is a life-changing, existence-altering condition, not to mention the rage that is associated with the trigger itself. Bargaining Sufferers may try to find help in ways that have a small chance of working. This can involve using therapies that have either not been tested or approved. Depression Since misophonia is an isolating condition, it is not surprising that sufferers have increased sadness and feelings of hopele

[misophoniainternational]

Accepting Misophonia Don't Let Misophonia Take Over Your Life Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about grief. Misophonia is a tough condition to live with. It takes over our lives, our relationships, and it isolates us. We often feel as though we have drawn the shortest straw. It can be tough to look at others – perfectly normal and able to sit on a bus without bursting into tears. Each and every day we are faced with triggers and unfortunately, they seem to get worse with time and exposure. I have lost a lot of people in my life, and I have experienced grief in its rawest form. After sitting across from my grandmother, her hand in mine, as she took her last breath, I knew I would have to learn to adjust. Misophonia is not different from this. You have lost something - the chance to live your life trigger-free. Despite your desire to push it away, you must face misophonia. You cannot repress your emotions. You must find a way to come to terms with it, accept it, and live your life. I understand that this can be one of the most frustrating situations in the world. I have had my fair share of moments, where I have dashed off to the restroom and cried as much as I could. I have kicked the brick wall in an attempt to quell the rage. I have left classes, family dinners, and other important situations to go home to my bed and stay there. I have avoided my life for days and at my worst – for weeks. I admit that I have depression that makes misophonia worse. However, I would have gladly lived most of my days in a state of depression than with the triggers of misophonia. Sometimes I still feel this way, but it’s not as often. The reason is that I now understand, that like any chronic illness, any friend who slips through the cracks, and any life-altering, unchangeable event out of our control: Misophonia causes grief. I firmly believe that in order to live a fulfilling life, we need to understand that there is currently no cure. Instead of taking from that hopelessness, we should know that our lives and their meaningfulness is not measured by the amount of days without triggers. This disorder may have a hold, but it is not our life. We are important and we need to understand that this grief should go through the same stages as any other loss. Denial and Isolation Denial can come in different ways. People with misophonia may at first believe that they are just ‘hyper-sensitive’ or that it’s their fault. It is also no secret that misophonia often leads to self-inflicted isolation. Anger It makes sense to be angry with misophonia. It is a life-changing, existence-altering condition, not to mention the rage that is associated with the trigger itself. Bargaining Sufferers may try to find help in ways that have a small chance of working. This can involve using therapies that have either not been tested or approved. Depression Since misophonia is an isolating condition, it is not surprising that sufferers have increased sadness and feelings of hopele

[misophoniainternational]

Accepting Misophonia Don't Let Misophonia Take Over Your Life Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about grief. Misophonia is a tough condition to live with. It takes over our lives, our relationships, and it isolates us. We often feel as though we have drawn the shortest straw. It can be tough to look at others – perfectly normal and able to sit on a bus without bursting into tears. Each and every day we are faced with triggers and unfortunately, they seem to get worse with time and exposure. I have lost a lot of people in my life, and I have experienced grief in its rawest form. After sitting across from my grandmother, her hand in mine, as she took her last breath, I knew I would have to learn to adjust. Misophonia is not different from this. You have lost something - the chance to live your life trigger-free. Despite your desire to push it away, you must face misophonia. You cannot repress your emotions. You must find a way to come to terms with it, accept it, and live your life. I understand that this can be one of the most frustrating situations in the world. I have had my fair share of moments, where I have dashed off to the restroom and cried as much as I could. I have kicked the brick wall in an attempt to quell the rage. I have left classes, family dinners, and other important situations to go home to my bed and stay there. I have avoided my life for days and at my worst – for weeks. I admit that I have depression that makes misophonia worse. However, I would have gladly lived most of my days in a state of depression than with the triggers of misophonia. Sometimes I still feel this way, but it’s not as often. The reason is that I now understand, that like any chronic illness, any friend who slips through the cracks, and any life-altering, unchangeable event out of our control: Misophonia causes grief. I firmly believe that in order to live a fulfilling life, we need to understand that there is currently no cure. Instead of taking from that hopelessness, we should know that our lives and their meaningfulness is not measured by the amount of days without triggers. This disorder may have a hold, but it is not our life. We are important and we need to understand that this grief should go through the same stages as any other loss. Denial and Isolation Denial can come in different ways. People with misophonia may at first believe that they are just ‘hyper-sensitive’ or that it’s their fault. It is also no secret that misophonia often leads to self-inflicted isolation. Anger It makes sense to be angry with misophonia. It is a life-changing, existence-altering condition, not to mention the rage that is associated with the trigger itself. Bargaining Sufferers may try to find help in ways that have a small chance of working. This can involve using therapies that have either not been tested or approved. Depression Since misophonia is an isolating condition, it is not surprising that sufferers have increased sadness and feelings of hopele

[misophoniainternational]

Accepting Misophonia Don't Let Misophonia Take Over Your Life Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about grief. Misophonia is a tough condition to live with. It takes over our lives, our relationships, and it isolates us. We often feel as though we have drawn the shortest straw. It can be tough to look at others – perfectly normal and able to sit on a bus without bursting into tears. Each and every day we are faced with triggers and unfortunately, they seem to get worse with time and exposure. I have lost a lot of people in my life, and I have experienced grief in its rawest form. After sitting across from my grandmother, her hand in mine, as she took her last breath, I knew I would have to learn to adjust. Misophonia is not different from this. You have lost something - the chance to live your life trigger-free. Despite your desire to push it away, you must face misophonia. You cannot repress your emotions. You must find a way to come to terms with it, accept it, and live your life. I understand that this can be one of the most frustrating situations in the world. I have had my fair share of moments, where I have dashed off to the restroom and cried as much as I could. I have kicked the brick wall in an attempt to quell the rage. I have left classes, family dinners, and other important situations to go home to my bed and stay there. I have avoided my life for days and at my worst – for weeks. I admit that I have depression that makes misophonia worse. However, I would have gladly lived most of my days in a state of depression than with the triggers of misophonia. Sometimes I still feel this way, but it’s not as often. The reason is that I now understand, that like any chronic illness, any friend who slips through the cracks, and any life-altering, unchangeable event out of our control: Misophonia causes grief. I firmly believe that in order to live a fulfilling life, we need to understand that there is currently no cure. Instead of taking from that hopelessness, we should know that our lives and their meaningfulness is not measured by the amount of days without triggers. This disorder may have a hold, but it is not our life. We are important and we need to understand that this grief should go through the same stages as any other loss. Denial and Isolation Denial can come in different ways. People with misophonia may at first believe that they are just ‘hyper-sensitive’ or that it’s their fault. It is also no secret that misophonia often leads to self-inflicted isolation. Anger It makes sense to be angry with misophonia. It is a life-changing, existence-altering condition, not to mention the rage that is associated with the trigger itself. Bargaining Sufferers may try to find help in ways that have a small chance of working. This can involve using therapies that have either not been tested or approved. Depression Since misophonia is an isolating condition, it is not surprising that sufferers have increased sadness and feelings of hopele