#is it common enough for people not to misread it?

[callmrmorrow]

Your angst takes are so heart breaking 🥺🥺🥺

omg please oh please tell me your thoughts on shapesmith

full disclosure, shapesmith has never been on my radar as a particularly interesting character for me, like… angst wise. but i’ll give you something because i’m nothing if not capable of making people suffer

shapesmith reminds me, oddly enough, of john doe (joker) from the telltale batman series. i played that shit YEARS ago. but there’s something about the two of them that feels the same to me, and it might be the endearing unfamiliarity with the world around them — in telltale, i think joker had memory problems — and their source of heroic action being a result of mimicking those around them. also their childish naïveté.

“my bed’s a racecar!”

hes also a silly guy. like john doe and oliver, to an extent, he has an incredibly low awareness of how the world functions, what morals really are. thats all well and complicated, but i think the sadder thing about him is that he felt this complete pull away from his people, a fundamental difference between them, and was reckless enough to follow the dream even though it cost his people EVERYTHING. its a common theme in invincible where characters follow their own paths selfishly, setting themselves apart from what’s expected of them (nolan and mark come to mind almost immediately). i think shapesmith takes a lot of blame from the people around him for the sequid invasion and while he does feel guilt, he has no clue how to repent for that in a way that is appealing to humans. unlike nolan and oliver, nobody’s teaching this guy how to be human.

even the way he interacts with powerplex is, i feel, a genuine attempt to understand him. shapeshifting into invincible wasn’t mocking him, i think he just took it very literally and was pretty excited to be able to do something helpful. obviously not helpful, because he misread it. he also seemed gutted that the police didn’t recognize who he was.

he’s not sad in this gut wrenching, overly tragic way. it’s kind of a slow-bleed pity, a knife wound ya didn’t really feel at first, where he’s so funny until you really think about it. then it’s like “oh, this guy didn’t get his dream of seeing the stars bc he got fired from nasa, nobody likes him, he doesn’t understand the world, he’s a piece of utility for the gda, and he has nobody to talk to even though there’s other characters who might get it”

like ouch! hope this suffices. a little think piece and a silly doodle just about sums up what kind of blog i aim to be

[sxkura-blxssxm]

𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎, 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚣𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚏 𝙸𝚝𝚘𝚜𝚑𝚒 𝚂𝚊𝚎.

One of my favourite topics when it comes to anime is the misunderstanding of complex yet well written characters such as Mr Itoshi Sae himself. Due to his blunt and cold nature, many people seem to assume that Sae is the bad guy and wants to purposely crush the dreams of aspiring footballers (such as Rin) however it's not the case at all.

In reality, we haven't seen enough of Sae (both in the manga or anime) to paint a solid character profile and come to a solid conclusion as to why he is the way he is. I believe football and the exposure to it at such a high level whilst only being 13 would have massively impacted his personality and he suggests this himself in his profile within the Egoist Bible. When asked 'What do you think you'd turn out to be if you hadn't met soccer?', he replied with "I'd have lived a normal happy life. My personality might not have turned out like this either.". Sae is a gentle soul, we see this in how he is with Rin when they were younger and you can tell he does care for Rin however I reckon he would have had to 'toughen' up when being exposed to the cruel reality of being a professional footballer.

Professional sports is brutal. And so is the environment in which you are surrounded by. I'm not sure in regards to other countries, but English football can have some of the most toxic and vile fans, racism is a super common occurrence. In 2020, Marcus Rashford missed a penalty during the shootout in the England vs Italy match and received an influx of racism and abuse. I bring this point up because in Season 1 of Blue Lock we see Sae is wearing black and white wristbands which is what footballers normally wear to symbolise the 'Stand Up Speak Up' campaign created for battling racism within European Football. This could suggest one of two things: Sae is wearing it to promote the campaign or Sae experienced racism whilst in Spain. Experiencing something like this can be absolutely detrimental to a person, at the end of the day professional athletes are also human beings, if it is the case that Sae has experienced this, then it makes a lot of sense as to why he is the way he is ESPECIALLY towards Rin. Why? Because he wants to protect Rin from the harsh cruel reality of professional football.

Which brings me on to my next point! Sae and Rin's relationship as of now. This dynamic is heavily misread by a lot of people, even friends who I have discussed this with have said that Sae is just cruel and hates his brother. This is just not the case. If anything, Sae is super emotionally constipated, he cares but he doesn't exactly show it in the best way and I believe that Sae is just trying to protect Rin. Yes, he can be an ass but he's just naturally blunt as is anyways. My favourite thing to mention that not many people do, is that we have only ever seen Sae from Rin's perspective and so the portrayal of Sae is biased to Rin's feelings about him. During the fateful night where the brothers 'fought', I believe it was fully shown to us from Rin's perspective alone, Sae's dialogue and attitude is how Rin perceived him at the time which to us looks like: cold, cruel and bad. In reality, Sae had been through a lot in the four years he'd been away from home, he was only a baby himself and went through so much. When we see Sae in that scene he looks tired and Rin does ask if he's lost weight, this alone backs up that we saw the fight through only Rin's perspective. The whole point of me ranting on about this is because I don't believe Sae would have straight up told rin "You're not necessary in my life anymore", he cares about him too much. I think because of the shock that they aren't sharing the same dream anymore and Rin's refusal to see that Spain has drastically changed Sae and his personality, he paints Sae in a cruel way in order to try and dissociate his feelings from the situation. It's common knowledge that Sae didn't view that night as a fight and instead just saw it as Rin being a rebellious teen. I think it would be interesting to see how that encounter went down from Sae's perspective.

I literally adore Sae as a character, he is so real. He is the perfect representation of what professional sports can do to a person, but some of y'all wanna hate on my glorious king. I will literally defend this man to the end of time.

Dividers from: https://rxttenflesh.tumblr.com/post/677807751539425280

[tharizdun-03]

everyone gets heaven sent wrong. youtube essays will describe it as “a masterpiece that explores grief,” but it doesn’t really. sure, the abstractization of the theme is there to contextualize the mood of the story, but it doesn't actually explore grief in any specific manner.

there’s little examination of emotional fallout, no real psychological depth, no attempt to reflect the social or personal dimensions of loss. the portrayal of grief is flattened into a metaphor—the doctor hitting a wall for two billion years—and that's intentional.

this common interpretation actually causes people to misread the episode. like here, fullfatvideos describe the doctor hallucinating clara encouraging him to fight and win as a beautiful testament to their love and how she's always there to pick him up.

but that's the complete opposite of the intended effect. clara specifically told the doctor not to be a warrior, to not "win," to not hurt himself over her. he’s twisting her image to have the girl he loves the most tell him what he wants her to say.

in fact, hell bent directly contrasts his imagined clara with what the real one says when she realizes what he’s done (which isn’t encouragement, but horror). the doctor doesn’t process his grief. he doesn’t get better. he gets worse. he twists her memory to betray her wishes.

he's not healing—he’s mythologizing. the story turns grief into performance, presenting the doctor as an ideal: the solitary hero who never gives up, who endures beyond human limits. but that’s not a story about processing loss. that’s a story about refusing to.

on its own, it actually lands better as a story about persistence rather than grief—the draining, repetitive effort of clawing your way forward with no clear progress. that lines up more with how it feels.

but even then, it’s stylized to the point of detachment (because that's what the doctor is doing). it’s about the concept of struggling, which is why it abstractly fits grief, but could just as easily be read autobiographically as moffat’s experience as showrunner.

and that abstraction—while effective—also makes it easy to project onto. i think that’s part of why it gets picked up as this grand, universal statement on grief. it’s vague enough to seem profound, clean enough to feel “serious”, and emotionally restrained in a way that flatters a particular kind of viewer.

the doctor doesn’t cry. he endures. he outsmarts. he wins. and for a lot of people, that feels like emotional depth—because it’s presented with enough slow motion, voiceover, and gravitas to seem like it must mean something profound.

and it’s also why a lot of fans like this one but dislike hell bent (if you love both, you’re good). because it appeals to fans who idealize “pure” sci-fi. fans who resent the show when it centers women too much, or gets too political, or dares to be camp or comedic.

for them, this is the dream: one man alone in a gothic castle, solving a puzzle, stewing in stoic, masculine pain. the woman is dead. the feelings are controlled. the story is self-contained. it’s “adult,” but not actually mature.

but that version of the doctor—the invincible, lone genius punching through time—isn’t the real doctor. it’s who he wants to be: the doctor as myth. hell bent interrupts that, pulling us back from the fantasy to someone who broke everything because he couldn’t let go.

when people call this the best episode of doctor who ever, it’s worth asking: best at what? what kind of doctor who is this? it’s broad and professional enough to feel like a perfect episode, and open enough to support whatever interpretation you want.

moffat specifically wrote it to be a crowd pleaser, with a tone that appeals to everybody. it's everyone’s favourite episode. and of course, that is what it is. it is a professional and perfect episode—that’s the appeal.

in fact, it’s probably, on a pure executional level, the best episode there’s ever been. it’s a technical showcase first and foremost. fifty-five minutes of television with everyone involved executing at the top of their game.

and that’s part of why it appeals so strongly to a certain kind of fan: the ones who want doctor who to be “serious” and “clever,” without the mess of something more difficult. it’s self-contained, self-justifying, and built to be admired rather than interrogated.

except it's not. it’s my second favourite episode of the entire show, but it doesn’t actually work without hell bent (my actually favourite episode of the entire show), which is what allows it to be interrogated.

because despite everyone loving heaven sent but not loving the follow-up as much, despite people calling it moffat’s masterpiece—it’s hell bent that’s the masterpiece. and it’s necessary. not just as a follow-up, but as a challenge.

it reframes everything the doctor does not as noble, but as obsessive. it takes the fantasy that he endured because of love and reveals it as denial. nothing about heaven sent is him overcoming or processing anything. nothing good happens and he only gets worse.

it only looked like a victory because we were watching the story he told himself. heaven sent isn’t actually about anything truly profound on its own. it only becomes meaningful because it’s the middle of a three-part story. so it only tells part of it. hell bent tells the rest.

[ozoraslegend]

About "light" and "darkness" in Digimon

If you are a member of Digimon fandom long enough, you will know a fact: there're lots of fic crossover between 02 and Frontier.

This is not weird or surprising. First, 02 and Frontier are both in the Seki quartet, the first four seasons of Digimon franchise. And going against common negative opinions of a part of fandom about these two seasons, 02 and Frontier do get quite a good love from many fans. They also do have many uncovered, contradicting, or just curious-inspired parts, so fanfics are just being numerous!

And interestingly: 02 and Frontier both get quite same treating from fandom because they are somewhat similar outsidely. The characters are "flat" and " bad stereotype". the plot is "messed up", and the two seasons "don't have deep messages". Of course, these are false ideas, but 02 and Frontier have a specific between-line writing that is difficult to understand and sympathize. I really don't blame the fans to misread!

02 and Frontier has characters both known for particularly tight group dynamics compared to others, and both groups are known to be somewhat "chaotic" (and, affectionately, “very stupid”). With 02, that is from lack of planning or being too airheaded. The Frontier gangs, on the other hand, can and will cause trouble and will be very proud of it. And somehow escape it perfectly, of course.

So? Basically, "Takeru would hate Kouichi because of him being the Warrior of Darkness. 02 group would be wary about Kouichi (and Frontier gangs because of that as well (especially Hikari too)." is a (in)famous trope in crossover between 02 and Frontier. Let's debunk it.

First, this is out of character of Takeru. People tends to forget that Takeru is a polite, respectful and carefree person. If someone tells him "Hey, there's a Warrior of Darkness!", well... He won't react so boldful. He is actually very infamous for keeping his emotions inside, so unless he saw something really pissed him off, I don't think he will act too angrious. Takeru never blew up at anyone without some kind of good reason; it’s just that the level of his intensity was unnerving.

Takeru will pretend he has it together and has everything under control. He won't show any of his negative feeling, instead, he would investigate and find out the truth himself... while dodging questions and his own emotions. He simply handles everything with a “yeah, okay, sure! :)” attitude. Except when really needed, Takeru... rarely do things that are easily to do to solve problem, but passively deal with them when they run to his face. So if he completely snapped at Kouichi for no reason besides him being darkness-associated, that’d be really out of character.

And beside, Takeru is a quite social and generally nice individual, who treat other kindly! I don't really get how others can misread his personality in another way. Let's move to the next point.

Second, Takeru doesn't hate darkness, or have a black-and-white-morality. The thing is that Takeru himself says that he's not going to inherently hate anything darkness-related on sight (in 02 episode 34):

Takeru is pretty clear about what exactly he hates earlier in that episode:

Trying to change the world with that power...Trying to conquer the world...It's unforgivable!

Basically, he hates people who try to toy with darkness to play God, “create sad lives” like BlackWarGreymon with it, and do things that resemble Devimon in Adventure (like “dabbling” in the powers of darkness much like the Kaiser would later).

But in regards to darkness itself, you can find a proof three episodes later that Takeru is pretty understanding of the topic (02 episode 37):

...so he’d probably treat the twins with a lot of respect.

So while Takeru would probably hate Duskmon if he didn’t know more about what was going on behind him, that's obvious, if he actually learns about Kouichi’s situation and background, not only would he be very likely to sympathize with Kouichi and advocate on his behalf, he’d also probably fly into a murderous rage at Cherubimon for exploiting the powers of darkness to make Kouichi suffer! And because that kind of topic really pisses him off, he might even get more pissed off than Kouichi himself is about it.

Actually, these kinds of tropes just throw all character development of Takeru and turn him into a flat character. Takeru also would become a writer, and you can't think that he just skipped all nice characters with darkness-themes.

And mentioned that, Ken and Kouichi are usually being simplified to be just as the same as each other. Although they have many similar features, like "thoughtful, perceptive, very in touch with feelings, VERY assertive, resilient, strong in heart, and kind out of choice even when doesn’t have to be", but they are different individuals. In a language level, Kouichi uses the "ore" assertive pronoun while Ken uses the "boku" more gentle one.

In conclusion! Takeru would be the one to clarify with the Frontier gangs to make sure that Kouichi isn't dabbling in the powers of darkness for the others' sake. And then he'd become the most vicious protector of the twins. And the rest of the Adventurers would just follow his lead since Takeru and Hikari with their sensitivity to the balance of the world.

[lariumbreon]

Succubus HRT - Week ???? - Borderline Aftermath

In an effort to listen to my therapist, to better help myself, and to help possibly enlighten and educate people. A lot of Succubus HRT is contextual to my own personal struggles with borderline personality disorder, ptsd, hypersexuality, and my suicidal tendencies. A very not-fun blend of mental issues. A lot of this was meant to stay in private journals. But as I started to draw more, I felt like presenting the art publicly might also help others struggling in the same or similar ways. Make no mistake, I am making progress, and I am doing better. But sometimes it gets hard. Sometimes guilt from previous episodes take hold. Sometimes PTSD takes the wheel and I relive the pains that caused the episodes all over again via emotional flashbacks. Living like this, is often an inescapable waking nightmare. One small miscommunication. One small mistake. One small misread of a mundane sentence. One unexpected minor change in the dynamics of a relationship with someone. It's enough to send me into a spiral. Of course the bigger triggers affect harder. Unkept promises, lies, being used. All these triggers often leave open wounds that don't simply heal. If not resolved, or if someone simply just doesn't care, what starts is a near bottomless decline into various degrees of mania, depression, anxiety, and so much more. It gets even worse when the person who triggers it simply tries to ignore it, or act as though it's wholly my fault for feeling hurt and the episodes I have afterwards. That doesn't happen often, and I've since found the strength to not be friends with those who have done this to me.

These episodes can last weeks, months. I get incredibly paranoid about every interaction, as if I might slip and fall onto spikes at any moment. Or that the masks might slip and the person I'm speaking with will start to scream about how they hate me and want nothing to do with me. It's a constant battle with intrusive thoughts, false memories. I often spend nights crying having fabricated arguments in my head, catastrophizing until I pass out from the pain. Abject isolation and me spending a night ghosting nigh everyone I know and love in one last self-destructive episode is a common grand finale of the spiral. An episode can take place over weeks, months. For some people they just go about their lives, while I hold on to a small hurt that collects, festers, and explodes outward seemingly out of nowhere. To them, they're doing nothing. But to me, even just being shorter than usual in their replies feels like claws on my heart. So I lash out. Causing constant and irreparable damage around me to relationships and those in them. It's as if existing with BPD gives me a constant AOE Ring of Fire that causes friendly fire damage.

"People with Borderline Personality Disorder (and those like them) are like people with third degree burns over 90% of their body. Lacking emotional skin, they feel agony at the slightest touch or movement." - Marsha Linehan

Very few quotes have ever felt or spoken as true to me about living with borderline as this one. It best encapsulates how I feel when episodes happen. Like my whole body exists as an open wound, and every small trigger causes inexplicable pain throughout my brain and my heart. Which has often led to my struggles with addictions to pain pills and the like. The worst part, is there is often no perfectly right way to engage with me. Episodes will happen over the smallest things. I cannot guarantee I won't struggle. People with borderline, we struggle often, and greatly. What we struggle with cannot just simply be fixed, or even helped. But with patient and understanding hands, we'll pull through okay in the end. Fragile, handle with care.

[st4rbe0m]

𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑ FIX THIS FIXER UPPER - YJW

🍀 now playing - fixer upper from disney's Frozen 🍀 contents - frozen au, from the fairytales collection - click on my masterlist for Hoon's version!! implied cheating (cuz of the hans fiance), light angst, emotionally constipated jungwon, implied kissing 🍀 wc - 1.1K 🍀 a/n - kristoff lowkey underrated as hell icl, might make a part 2 :p

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We're not sayin' you can change him 'Cause people don't really change We're only saying that love's a force That's powerful and strange

The ice in your heart is spreading and not only you, but even Jungwon is acutely aware of this fact, as his fingers dig into the reins of his reindeer. He knew as soon as you emerged from your older sister’s ice castle, shivering uncannily, that something was wrong. Not that shivering in July was anything odd - not with the predicament Arendelle was under. But it was the way your eyes were downcast and you were clutching your chest that sent a sense of emergency through him, and he knew only his adoptive grandfather - the Elder Troll would have the solution to their problem. The way the reindeer’s eyes would flit back to him, questioningly, made him remember how he was breaching all of his rules of getting close to others just for this princess - a princess who was already engaged, nonetheless. 

You were unimpressed as he stood in the middle of the clearing in the woods, surrounded only by some moss covered rocks. All your years of isolation did have you a bit clueless about the world around you, outside the vast castle that often seemed like prison than home. But you knew for a fact that moss covered rocks wouldn’t be able to thaw your heart. That was until the rocks began rumbling eerily, and tumbled down all at once, grindingly as they morphed into little creatures about a foot tall near yours and Jungwon’s legs. Several pairs of eyes blinked at you both, and then broke into a cacophony of voices and exclamations. “Jungwon’s back!” “Jungwon’s back and he brought a girl!”, were the common phrases being gleefully yelled by the trolls around you.

Jungwon and you were similar in the way you both were raised, in the sense of your shared loneliness. While being shut away in the palace due to your sister’s powers made you desperate for any sort of experience, Jungwon’s childhood with the trolls made him averse to people. But you both craved a little bit of love. And up till now you believed you had found it in the princely fiance you had waiting back for you at home. “Oh, I’m so happy to meet you dear! Gosh, we thought Wonie here would turn into a rock himself the way he hasn’t met anyone in all these years we’ve had him!”, said a troll with a kindly, motherly face. From the fond way she spoke about him, you could tell this was the troll that had adopted the role of being Jungwon’s mother. “Sorry, what?” you puzzled yourself. And the trolls who had obviously misread the situation seemed to understand this too. 

“Come on dear, I know he’s not the best, but he’s just a bit of a fixer upper!”. “Is it because of his cat-like tendencies?”. It seemed that the trolls had begun a musical recitation of all the ways Jungwon was a bit different than the rest, and Jungwon just stood there absolutely mortified. 

“I bet it’s because of the way he always has twigs in his hair!”, “But you’ll never meet someone as sensitive and sweet.”, cooed a smaller troll. “He’s socially impaired!”, a gruff voice cut in, fondly ruffling his hair, “But a fixer upper is nothing love can’t fix!”. 

And between the voices singing and the way your amused grin grew larger, Jungwon cried out with a large cry, “Enough!”. This made the trolls stop mid-movement, shocked at this outburst. “She’s engaged to someone else!”, he explained with a huff of his breath. 

Blink. Blink. 

The trolls gathered in a circle amongst themselves, the little snowman you both had managed to befriend along the way joining in on the shenanigans for no reason other than entertainment.

“So she’s a bit of a fixer upper too, I see”, said one of the trolls, and immediately the one opposite him replied, “She’s gotta be fixed up too!”, the rest agreed. Discussions in hushed whispers continued, still agreeing that the best way to fix these fixer uppers was with each other, until the smallest of the lot cut in with his nasally voice and a wink, “And by the way, there’s no ring”. The flurry of moss-woven blankets and the crowns fashioned of sticks was hurriedly put on the both of you, happening so fast that Jungwon couldn’t stop them. And just like that you giggled at the way he stood opposite you in the pit holed into the ground, the way his eyes widened in surprise. The giggle caught his attention, which made his gaze soften. He had indulged himself enough, but couldn’t bear to stop. The glowing gemstones made your complexion seem more ethereal than normal. The pit was rather small, and he was backed into his heels, your toes touching the tips of his snow boots. He was absolutely enraptured. In true love almost. It seemed that something possessed the both of you, the way he bent his neck just to be a little closer to where your lips were, soft and inviting. And you couldn’t find it in yourself to move away, any thought of the man you’d just met before you'd set off on this adventure with Jungwon disappearing from your brain. Sure he was wonderful. But you’d only known him for a day. But Jungwon, whom you’d known for a week now, still had so many layers to him that you wanted to peel back individually and unravel to learn. His eyes are dangerously low on your face, and you’re not any better. The trolls harmonizing behind you were counting down to when the thread holding you both back would just snap. Then, it did. He smells of pine, you thought, and he was losing his mind in the strawberry in your breath that he was sure he could taste if he just moved half an inch more. The sharp pain in your heart was so intense it had you buckling at the knees, making Jungwon deftly catch you in concern. Clutching your chest, a heavier rolling sound of stone made you both look to where the Elder Troll, who was awoken by the thrumming of magic, had appeared. Explaining the severity of your condition, and how the ice in your heart would have you frozen to death made Jungwon nervous. He couldn’t even fathom losing you like that, irregardless of how short of a time you’d known each other. He was sure that for you, he was ready to brave any snow storm. “And how do we stop it?”, he asked urgently, ready to do anything to have the cold in your heart to melt and for you to be better again. “Only an act of true love can thaw a frozen heart.” Grandpabby said reverently. And Jungwon could almost feel his own heart freeze in a painful squeeze as you uttered your fiance’s name in a breath of cold air.

[dramaticallytotal]

I definitely want to know what alejandro was thinking at that moment, especially when it happened again afterward 😈

Six? Six! How had he not known about these six gilipollas!? Alejandro prided himself on his observation skills, I mean, how else was he supposed to find out other people's weaknesses without them? (Other than with his nonexistent hacking skills. Of course there was always bribery for information but it was so much sweeter when he found out a weakness on his own by good ol detective work or by being so charming that the weakness was told to him). So, how did he miss all these boys hitting on his teammate? Not that he could blame them, mind you. Noah certainly had the smarts to be intriguing and make a conversation worthwhile. The way he debated made his eyes shine with life, and his usual smirk would morph into a small, genuine smile. This was especially true when he spoke about books.

You could always tell what was happening in a book that Noah was reading because he became so expressive. It was such an interesting transformation to see. So it was easy for Alejandro to see why these boys thought they could approach Noah. What baffled him is that Noah responded! Though, from what was revealed, it was a misunderstanding on Noah's part, which was admittedly adorable of the resident snark, considering he was normally the first one to figure something out. So perhaps Alejandro had done or said something that Noah had misinterpreted, that made him make such a "joke" during the Jack the Ripper challenge.

To others, it was probably seen as just that, a joke, but to Alejandro, he could hear the underlying bitterness and mistrust. Maybe it was just because Alejandro had made the shorter male maneuver through the lasers in Paris like Noah had explained, but he just had this feeling it was something more. Perhaps Noah thought he was punishing him for calling him "out" in Germany. Though the bookworm's way of calling out was just straight up asking Alejandro why he threw the challenge. Of course, he denied it, but Noah didn't seem to believe him. He also didn't comment even if he didn't so Alejandro thought they were all good.

Apparently not.

That was why he had fully planned on confronting Noah after the challenge, only for everyone to see some punk (literally to everyone else and figuratively on Alejandro's end) hitting on Noah. Alejandro could understand why the punk, who he later learned was named Ezra, had hit on Noah. He had eyes after all, but the sight had made his blood boil for some odd reason. Perhaps it was because he knew his amigo could do better than some boy who had stormed after a kidnapped Duncan without stopping to think he should call someone and without a weapon since the mob thought they could save their former castmate. The plan lacked common sense and actually thought, and Noah valued intelligence. Clearly, this hooligan lacked such a quality despite his insight and thoughts on the novel, Good Omens, which Alejandro had also read and had been planning on talking to Noah about.

He could handle Ezra... but five other boys, including the Brit!? How was he supposed to deal with five unknown entities! They all were obviously not good enough for Noah. They made him cry for Christ's sake! Noah did not deserve to worry himself to the point of tears and an anxiety attack. The boys were deceitful in their intentions (hypocrite) when they should have been upfront in their attraction to Noah. He deserved to know he was desired. That his thoughts were adored, his heart cherished, and his soul worshipped.

That was just Alejandro's opinion, though.

So how dare these worthless worms make such a proud man such as Noah waste tears on them. He vowed then and there to protect his friend and show him he was trustworthy. Obviously, Noah, who seemed to have a penchant for misunderstandings, had misread something Alejandro had said or done and this was the perfect opportunity to fix it!

Thankfully, when they got to stay in Greece, Alejandro managed to keep Noah by his side by debating and discussing their favorite Greek history moments and myths. It was a wonderful couple of days spent having stimulating intellectual conversations and trying local cuisine. It was something Alejandro liked despite his weak stomach and something that Owen was surprisingly good at finding. The butter donkey was good for something, but it was not a surprise that the something he excelled in was food related. Alejandro claimed their hang out was good for the team morale, and this would not be seen as suspicious. He counted the experience as a win.

The Area 51/52 challenge went by and though they stayed in Nevada, they didn't stay in a town or anything, they stayed in the plane so Alejandro didn't need to protect his small friend. But then they went to Australia. His team won, which was great, and the fact Chris let them stay in Bendigo was another plus. He had overheard Chris talking to Chef (you would think he would have learned his lesson) about their stay originally. It was supposed to be in Mildura, but as some sort of secret apology for embarrassing him too much on TV, Chris decided to switch their stay to Bendigo since Noah supposedly had always been fascinated with the place and had spoke of it a couple times when he worked for Chris.

It was weird and a little disturbing to know Chris actually had a heart and a conscience.

Overall, Alejandro was having a great time, and so it seemed was his team, especially Noah. Maybe that's why he let his guard down and let Noah hold their table outside the restaurant they had chosen while the rest of the team went in to order or use the restroom. He wanted to slap himself for being so stupid because by the time they went back outside, some boy was talking to a flustered Noah! It was like time started to move in slow motion as Alejandro watched the boy give Noah a kiss on the cheek. It was only when the boy pulled back and smiled at Noah that Alejandro felt he could move once more. In fact, he didn't think he had ever moved that fast in his life, and yet he still didn't reach his friend until that fiend left him with a wink! How dare he! HOW DARE HE!

Noah had been in a daze the entire afternoon after that, and no amount of teasing from Duncan or Izzy would snap him out of it. It was just another thing that had Alejandro's temper rise. That was it. That was the last boy that would be added to that so-called harem! Alejandro would make sure of it! From then on, it was like you couldn't find Noah without Alejandro. He was always there by the bookworm's side, whether they be deep in discussion or simply existing next to one another. Alejandro claimed he liked the peace and quiet that came with those times so anytime Noah wanted to read, Alejandro was there for him to lean on.

What Noah didn't know is that this worked as a natural deterrent to any boys that saw him and thought him cute because it looked like he and Alejandro were a couple. And the small number of times they weren't together, Alejandro would appear out of thin air and gently manhandle Noah somewhere else while being slightly more touchy than usual. It was something Noah had started to get used to, so he gradually thought nothing of it. Whenever he did this, Alejandro would stare at the boy who had been about to approach Noah with the biggest shit eating grin.

It wouldn't be until the wedding challenge that Alejandro realized he had the biggest fattest crush on Noah. It would also be that challenge that Alejandro nearly cried at the beauty of Noah in a wedding dress and tux jacket. Little did he know that Noah's International Bookclub members also nearly weeped at the sight.

[doomed-silly]

Gonna be controversial real quick

Mikan Tsumiki is not as bad as the fandom makes her out to be and im tired of pretending she is

(Photo is meant to be silly I promise lmao)

Before I get interrogated or dismissed I'm talking more potential than anything but also the base character and how she was set up and what she could've been

My biggest problem is when people just go "she's just a fan service character!!!!!!" First off... ok she is the main fan service victim... you're not wrong... but I also think reducing her to just that is really reductive

First off I wanna talk about her design. I've seen a LOT of hate towards her design and it's not perfect but also I don't think its bad I'd argue it's a bit above average actually

Can't remember who said it and also it was a while ago but during a redesign they said she'd keep her hair up and away so she's not reminded of her trauma through bullying (Bullies cut her hair hence the uneven hair cuts), and personally I think that's a huge misread of her character. (If anyone knows who I'm referencing this is not shade or hate just the example I think is easiest to use for my character analysis!)

Mikan is an extreme case of a fawning abuse victim. She's been HEAVILY abused like to the point if she was a real person I'd actively go into shock hearing about it. I should also say though I don't think she's fawning in the traditional sense more so in the sense she can not stand to be ignored. Any attention is better than none. During her breakdown in trial 3 she's actively begging for forgiveness and in her panic talk action says "please draw on me" which just shows (to me at least) that shes willing to under go harassment and basically mental torture to keep people from disregarding her. I do think part of it though is traditional fawning.

Anyways that's all to say I don't think a character who has gone through so much and is such a people pleaser to the degree she's actively ASKING people to torment her would go through the trouble of hiding the results of it. Bandages could be a counter point though I'd count that as more of a health issue (probably cigarette burns or something she would give medical attention to since we do know she would treat herself which is how she became so good at nurse work). Out of anything I think Mikan has become almost oblivious to how awful the things she's gone through are since she can actively talk about it in a pretty casual way which is pretty standard for a lot of trauma Survivors although mikan is an extreme case. Which is to say i think she'd look at her burns, chopped hair, etc and kind of just see it like we'd see our closet and not really derive any pain from it (my personal take I do have other ideas but this is long and I can't write a thesis omg)

I don't have enough knowledge on nursing dress code in Japan to comment on her actual clothes though. In the states scrubs are common place but I know different countries have different standards.

A lot of redesigns I've seen also take great lengths to cover up any sort of skin mikan shows which 1. Yikes purity culture and 2. Showing skin is not inherently sexual. I mean. Danganronpa team are freaks for all the CG's they did of her and I get it makes sense for her character but they could've done something way more appropriate since the characters have the minds of when they were teens and it's all weird. (And when I say it makes sense for her character yeah she wants attention and whatever but they did not have to make it THAT. Have her like fall in a mop bucket or something that's embarrassing she's an SA victim too omfg)

Anyways moving on from her design I think dumbing her down to fanservice is also missing what she had the opportunity to be. Because on the face of it sure she went through trauma and is now a meek paranoid timid girl which is a weird trope men like, BUT it doesn't end there because she starts showing a different side to her trauma that I feel like a lot of trauma representation doesn't get to into which is the cycle of abuse. She actively started being a nurse because she wanted to have people rely on her and be weaker than her. She's fawning but underneath it all she wants in a way revenge.

I also think that her arc in trial 3 was an actually really good pitch too. Mikan gaining her memories back and remembering junko remnants blah blah puts the final piece of the puzzle down. Mikan goes from being a door mat and meek and timid with an underlying want to be in control and be the person people have to rely on and to have power over these people, to starting to get more comfortable and sociable, before she's hit by the motive and completely nose dives into her worst self who's exploitative, cruel, and obsessive.

I think she's also the best candidate for the plot point they were revealing (one for what im talking about this paragraph and also just cause it shows how insane their memories must be to turn mikan into her despaie self) because mikan doesn't care about despair to her it's all about love. She finally found someone who "loves her unconditionally" and accepts her and all her flaws etc which we know isn't true based on DR3 but in her brainwashed state it is true. She's hit her lowest point where she's completely succumbed to the abuse and taken it as love and doesn't just have the subconscious want to be in control but is actively feeding that desire (from the small clip we see of her remnant self vs seiko)

Now this isn't to say all of this is explored perfectly or written well enough to give mikan the "good character" badge. I love danganronpa, but i think it kinda writes itself into a corner with having such a large cast. Some characters just don't get the time they should. My take is mostly based on what I see the creators were trying to do with her. That's also why I say she's not just a fan service character because when I look at her in the game I see the building blocks they just didn't finish the project. I think if they really fleshed out the character regression it'd be genuinely really good. I mean danganronpa is not a masterpiece by any means so it's also like would kodaka/team danganronpa be able to write that? Who knows! I also saw what they were trying to do though

Mikan is also id say? Arguably one of the most controversial characters? Which I'm not invalidating she's my favorite danganronpa character but I also play the game and im like.... ok was that necessary. I also just get annoyed at people disregarding her character and calling her just fan service. Which ironically is what creators do with fan service characters lol (I'm also not gonna say anyone's wrong for being uncomfortable with the fanservice they wrote her into tho it makes me uncomfortable)

I think mikan is a really interesting character not as she's shown in game but as a character stufy of trauma which I think is why I'm so drawn to her and all that

Also her execution is ass and I hate it

Toodles!

[surviving-narcissistic-abuse]

It really is incredible, as someone who was on this site since 2009, to witness how the "narc abuse isn't real" community has silenced entire groups.

They were entirely silent on this issue, until the very first forum dedicated to helping survivors of narcissistic abuse- r/RaisedByNarcissists- became a popular subreddit in roughly 2013. From that moment on, the #1 goal of this community became silencing abuse victims by any means possible, and when that didn't work, it became manipulating the conversation to reframe themselves as the victims, not perpetrators, of abuse.

First, it was simple run-of-the-mill abuse minimization, denialism, and apologism aimed at posters. "You called your own mother (who beat you) a cunt in your post? You clearly aren't innocent." "You sound like a difficult child, I would have been tempted to hit you too." Things like that. These comments got very quickly removed, and moderation tightened enough that soon the abuser community realized infiltrating the sub directly was pointless.

So then they looked to other places their propaganda could gain a foothold- and of course Tumblr, famed as a site to give a voice to the voiceless, was the prime target. So then, in a few waves, with varying degrees of success, they tried some new tactics.

First was attacking the idea that any narcissistic traits are bad at all. "You can't say we should try to be nice to people, we can't help being this way." "I can't help it if I think everyone else is shit and I'm the only person alive who isn't a phony." Not coincidentally, this happened during a wave of autism acceptance advocacy, where "don't judge autistic people for misreading social cues" posts were common; the propagandists saw an opportunity to capitalize on these.

Next was pushing the idea that there is no difference between narcissism as a trait and NPD. Every arrogant, greedy bastard is actually someone with NPD, which means they can't help it, so you calling them a narcissist is hurting people with NPD and contributing to the stigma. In other words, they went from "we can't help being mean" to "everyone who is (insert narcissistic trait) has our disorder, so you shouldn't be calling people (insert narcissistic trait) at all."

Next was pushing back on the idea that narcissistic abuse is real, which is a natural escalation. "There is no such thing as a subtype of abuse, all abuse is the same, the only acceptable descriptors are physical, mental, and emotional" was the assertion here. While the accusations of ableism had been present from the start, around this time is when you could really see it start to get weaponized, to the point that just mentioning one was abused by a parent with NPD was enough to get accused; "why do you need to mention s/he had NPD unless you're trying to paint us all as abusers? Ableist POS!"

Also note: as the culture of Tumblr shifted to allowing more casually violent speech, death threats and suicide bait towards "ableists" became more acceptable as a result, and the abuse apologism increased exponentially.

This phase also continued to push the two previous claims. You can't call people a narcissist as an adjective, because that harms people with NPD. Similarly, you can't have an aversion to those traits, because that harms people with NPD, who just can't help being this way; this makes you ableist, and means, retroactively, that you deserved the abuse. Claims that "narcissistic abuse is actually just reactive abuse* caused by people being ableist to PWNPD" spiked, especially towards people who were children when they were abused by their parents with NPD.

*A form of abuse wherein an abuser will push their victim well past the breaking point to make their victim snap, then claim the victim is the real abuser; I'm sure that after reading this sentence alone you can see how easily coopted it is by abusers who claim their partner/child was actually the abuser and putting them in just this situation.

It had come full circle: a group of people who had been abused as children in a particular pattern were now being told they should have been abused, on the basis of their reaction to trauma offending people who don't like the term for that abuse. People with NPD were using the victimization of people discussing narcissistic abuse as a tool to further abuse them and attempt to subdue them. They had become another group of abusers.

This wasn't the end, though, as the claims continued to evolve to include the infamous, "actually, NPD is a trauma disorder," a claim that would subsequently be used (as with every other claim in this timeline) only to erase and downplay the abuse that RBN community had endured. Now, it wasn't enough to just claim that they "couldn't help it" and that their critics were ableist, but they had to also add the claim that not only had they too faced abuse, they had faced even worse abuse! Such abuse, in fact, that no matter what abuse was inflicted on an RBN community member, it would never be as bad as what this PWNPD had received. No matter how badly they abused someone, they would always be a bigger victim, and in turn, any victim who spoke about their experience of victimization was victimizing them, was being ableist, deserved their abuse, and deserved to have their trauma weaponized against them.

If you step off of Tumblr, everyone outside of a few pockets of enablers of narcissistic abuse knows that narcissistic abuse is real. Psychological experts, victims and advocates all know it. It's only Tumblr that has been so captured by this propaganda.

[ellemaru]

Simon "Ghost" Riley General Headcanons

A/N: This is just headcanons that have popped up in my head or whatever but I'm trying my best to keep it lore accurate/based off of lore. There will be some mentions of abuse, mental health, substance abuse (alcohol and drugs) and body dysmorphia due to how his character is.

General Appearance:

Starting with appearances, I think he's 6'2-6'4 and weighs 200-230 lbs (189-195 cm and 90-104 kgs).

He has prominent muscles, but they aren't Arnold Schwarzenegger huge but still large enough to the point that most people are impressed.

He has short, blondish hair where in the winter, it darkens to a light sandy brown if he doesn't go outside.

He had more of a fair and cool undertone but after spending time in the Middle East he darkened up slightly.

Everyone he knows always debates whether his eyes are green, grey or hazel but he personally thinks they are hazel with a light blue on the edges.

His nose is slightly hooked but is also kind of crooked from the front due to it being broken a gazillion times.

General Personality:

As proven previously with the "Alone" mission, Simon is a pretty funny guy.

I feel like there's a common misconception about him that he's super serious and cold and has no emotion but that's FAAAAAALSE.

When he's not on duty I'm a firm believer he acts sassy with the others to be funny.

He obviously knows that there's a time and place for everything but he also knows when a joke or sarcastic comment is needed to lighten the mood up.

I feel like his enhanced ability to read the room kind of stems from him having to always observe and walk on eggshells with his dad in the past.

Like if he misread his mood he could've potentially gotten hurt, leading to Mama Riley defending him causing her to get hurt too but that's for another post.

Back to the humor I feel like a lot of times he's just unintentionally funny like he'll say something, and because of his delivery people laugh and he just sits there confused like "???? I didn't make a joke"

100% a workaholic with no work-life balance because who needs that when your job is your life!

Once the guy starts working, he ain't gonna stop until he says so.

Super observant, he notices the fine details so if you think you can cut corners around him? You're mistaken.

Simon is moody af but that's definitely heightened by his kinda crappy mental health.

General Family:

He hates his dad.

Did I mention he hates his father?

For sure a mama's boy but not in an "I was my son's first girlfriend" kind of way.

He looks up to his mom like crazy and still has an emotional attachment to her from when he was young due to his father being emotionally, physically, and mentally abusive to him.

Anytime he comes back from a mission, has a rough day, or just needs advice on a decision or life he ALWAYS calls Mama Riley.

She's literally his rock because he sees her as someone who is steadfast and strong who goes based on the facts and how she takes things for face value, similar to Simon. I think this also gave Simon an admiration of single mothers and women in general since he grew up with more of a perspective from his mother than his father.

He loves Tommy to bits and pieces, and they were hands down partners in crime back in their teenage years before Simon enlisted.

If you go around Manchester, you can still see some of their graffiti tags on different things.

When Tommy became a drug addict, Simon was there for him from day 1 till he finally got clean.

A/N: This isn't much but if y'all want more I can work on another that's more detailed! Requests are always open so leave some suggestions on things you want to see!

[oogaboogaspookyman]

Few things to note that i feel like is flying over people's heads...

Uzi caused a second core collapse, the same way Nori described

There's probably evidence of the church being FOUND underground in Copper 9, not BUILT. The evidence seems like a gag and i might be misreading things but it's there

Doctor Chambers did NOT show up today, instead an intern named Mitchell grabbed his uniform (i feel like this is common)

I learned it was Tessa herself who killed Doll in the cave after destroying the patches. THIS MEANS TESSA LIKELY KNEW WHAT WAS GOING ON AND FRAMED UZI FOR IT...

Oh yeah about the second core collapse! Nori had her brain "scrambled enough to have a kid", and her memories returned at their own pace. What about Uzi this time?

Nori almost HALF-IMPLODED the planet in her time. Just sayin' because knowing Liam this might come into play as an ending for Murder Drones...

Aaaand that should be it! Murder Drones lore is CRAAAAZYYYYY got dayum

[stellaluna33]

So, uh... words mean things.

Here's what "leading someone on" means: KNOWING that someone is romantically interested in you and KNOWINGLY acting in such a way that encourages them to think their feelings might be reciprocated, while KNOWING that you don't actually want them.

Here is what "leading someone on" does NOT mean: Being friendly. Being UNAWARE that someone is romantically interested in you. Thinking that you MIGHT be interested in someone but changing your mind. Being confused. Being a person that someone else feels attracted to.

I cannot stress enough that the behavior depends on the person being AWARE and acting INTENTIONALLY.

It is a thing that occasionally happens, unfortunately. Maybe they are flattered by the attention and it makes them feel good about themselves to be wanted. Maybe they enjoy feeling like they have power over someone. But you must also understand that misunderstanding or misreading other people's actions is SO COMMON, and while it hurts to be rejected, that doesn't mean that that person intended to hurt you or "wronged" you in any way! Your attraction to someone else does not equal any kind of obligation on their part.

[amysubmits]

Do you think a woman that has been in relationships previously that were abusive (physically, verbally, financially, emotionally or any one of the above) can ever truly submit? Or is that self-protection wall just too much of a barrier to this dynamic? The D/s dynamic is so appealing at first consideration, bc she would want to build that deep trust and have that open communication, find that place of safety that she never had.

But then her mind jumps even quicker to those thoughts of “I’m not enough”, “I’m not wanted” “I’m not desired”, the downward cascade is endless and so she hits the road for self-preservation.

In your opinion is that insurmountable?

So, disclaimer - I'm no mental health professional, just a traumatized ND person who has had psychology and therapy as an interest and hyperfixations several times in my life, and who has 5ish years of being in therapy as a client.

I wonder what you mean by 'truly submit', to be honest.

I think most people (not just women) have experienced at least a little abuse at some point in their life...and I think literally all people have experienced at least a little trauma. And abuse and other causes of trauma can definitely lead people to be unable to let go of control and/or to trust. So, I think abuse can make submission harder. I think abuse and trauma are really common causes for specific hard limits. For example, if someone had been verbally abused as a child and told they were stupid, that may have a really direct correlation with why they might make verbal degradation a hard limit. Or it can be a more vague relationship. Maybe they weren't outright called stupid or verbally abused, but they were emotionally neglected and part of that meant they were never told good things about themselves, but were criticized frequently. So they have low self esteem as a result of having their shortcomings highlighted but not having their strengths highlighted - this may cause them to be unable to tolerate being verbally degraded in a BDSM context. Different causes, but essentially the same trauma and outcome.

On the other hand...sometimes abuse or other forms of trauma makes people people-pleasers who are prone to fawning or freezing. They may have the same internal beliefs that you mentioned - I'm not good enough, I'm not wanted, etc - but rather than that leading them to avoid submission, it may make them submit in ways they shouldn't. For those people, submission may be harder because they will try to submit when they should be setting limits. These people may be misread as deeply submissive, but if they are agreeing to what their dom says out of a trauma response and not out of a true choice, then IMO, that is a big problem. So anyway...I think abuse can make D/s or BDSM hard. It can pose challenges that have to be navigated very delicately. I think it can (and should!) result in hard limits being set. Do I think it impedes 'true' submission? I don't like that 'true' word as I think it's often used to mean unhealthy things. But I don't think abuse keeps people from D/s or BDSM generally speaking. To me, submitting does not mean having as few limits as possible. Submitting means being as open and honest and vulnerable with your Dom as you can be given the amount of trust that you've built together - and submitting in the ways that you've agreed to and that are healthy for you to do so. What is healthy for one person may not be healthy for another. Being the best submissive possible is a totally personal, individual thing.

That may mean that you never submit in certain areas. If you have financial trauma, you may never submit to financial control, for example. That can be being the BEST submissive possible because it means you know your needs enough to advocate for not having your trauma triggered and that is being a great submissive, helping your dom protect you from harm. Where for someone else, learning to submit in that area might feel like their best submission. It's totally individualized.

[self-loving-vampire]

Maybe I'm misreading but I feel kind of weird about the "forcemasc exists, here are examples from conversion therapy!" thing because as a transmasc it's like, okay, are you also going to acknowledge that forcefem can be part of conversion therapy, or...? Like your tags about "isn't foremasc what they do to GNC AMABs generally?" Are completely correct, but I feel like I would get destroyed for saying the same thing about forcefem. If we can acknowledge that forcefem has a whole culture around it with an origin that isn't conversion therapy surely we can see that forcemasc is similar?

Yeah I think I reblogged a post about that a couple of weeks ago that mentioned it in the context of like, being forced to dress up for family photos and the like. I don't think that's actually controversial to say that's a thing that people are forced to go through as well?

I'm pretty sure that was a common feminist talking point when I was growing up, even. It made conservatives really mad when anyone at all did not conform to the norms of their gender assigned at birth, even if they were completely cis.

This is evident enough from looking at christian parenting guides. For example, in "Bringing up Girls" known christofascist and child-beating apologist James Dobson comes out explicitly in favor of gender essentialism and argues (with use of some old-timey neurosexism) that not raising children in accordance to this view is doomed and harmful, and that deviations from it are aberrant and artificial. "Proper" boys like guns and violence and "proper" girls like flowers and babies.

And as a result, he concludes that there is a moral imperative to raise everyone AFAB to be feminine "ladies" (who are also sexually "pure", of course) and to counter any assertiveness they might have picked up from the fallen and overly feminist modern world.

Unsurprisingly, conservatives want people to conform to what was assigned at birth, regardless of what the assignment was and deviation gets punished.

We all know about transphobia, for instance, but even among cis people, those who deviate to their role experience more bullying, abuse, and sexual violence. Sex pests may also preferentially target women who violate gender norms.

(As an aside, this is why the argument that it is "femininity" itself and not GNC behavior that gets punished makes me feel like I'm losing my mind. Ditto for arguments that "pickmes" and "tomboys" are somehow privileged misogynists.)

[unionizedwizard]

literally have to go by gino irl because my actual name is too complicated for most people and nobody has ever heard of it (understandable, 90 years old southern italian grandpas seem to have a monopoly over it for some reason), nobody ever pronounces it correctly (fair enough, i refuse to add an accent [é] to help with that because It's Not How You Spell It) and most people here misread it as a feminine name (linguistically sound assumption) and so it's a Whole Thing. anyway i know you're all thinking "oh, trans people picking the weirdest oldest names ever for some reason" but NO! this is the masculine form of my birth name! this is literally Just My Name! i was named after a specific southern italian woman who also happened to be married to an equally southern italian man with THE EXACT SAME NAME, just one letter off, for some reason, so it couldnt possibly get any more historically accurate. and THEN my last name is a relatively common (male) first name so it just adds to the confusion and people just tend to think my last name is my first name and then nothing checks out ID wise and i give headaches to receptionists everywhere. sorry..... :(

[ryuichirou]

I do remember how Azul one of two housewardens to be top so he can literally be ship with all but Kalim. Same goes to Kalim. Now I want to see a headcanon of Azul and Kalim with the other housewardens relationship besides the mentioned like with Azul and Idia.

The fact that you keep that in mind, Anon! I myself keep forgetting about it omg, Azul, Kalim and a bunch of bottoms… and if we’re talking overblot boys, it’s just Azul and some bitches 😔 What a flower garden.

This is a fun ask. I’ll try to talk about every possible ship that isn’t usually mentioned in our blog or mentioned very briefly. Well, minus Azul/Malleus because we just talked about them a day ago lol And Azul/Riddle because we have some posts about them too.

Looking at the list… it’s mostly Kalim/everyone huh lol

Azul/Leona. It’s difficult to picture them this way, but if they were to miraculously end up being a couple, it will 100% be out of mutual benefit. Plus, Azul would use it to prepare his revenge because he isn’t over the whole sanding contracts thing. Leona knows that, and he fully expects Azul to try to backstab him sooner or later. It’s giving “Scott Tenorman must die”, somehow.

Azul/Vil. This relationship either would end after one hour or would survive surprisingly long. They have a lot in common whether they like it or not, but Azul is too fake for Vil’s liking, and Vil doesn’t mince his words which Azul doesn’t like because Vil isn’t as easy to bully as Idia. Still, Vil enjoys how hardworking and dedicated to self-betterment Azul is; and people in the press would probably consider them to be quite a striking couple… still, they would drive each other insane lol

Kalim/Riddle. It’s like they’re speaking different languages. It’s super difficult for them to understand each other because both of them are kind of impulsive in different ways. But when they have fun, it’s good! Riddle’s inner child really thrives around Kalim whenever he relaxes a little bit, but that always ends with Riddle being super nervous about all the rules they broke. Kalim is chaotic and irresponsible… even though Riddle really loved riding the carpet with him :( They wouldn’t break up though because Kalim would misread Riddle’s attempts at having the talk with him and understand it as something completely different. He likes Riddle a lot! If only he relaxed and had fun more often :)

Kalim/Leona. If they miraculously end up together because of how oblivious and positive Kalim is and because of how passive Leona is, they could end up dating for years… Kalim is that force that takes Leona’s sarcastic comments literally and does whatever he was being sassy about, and to Leona’s shock, somehow he ends up going along with it. How did that happen again? Maybe this is how they ended up dating.

Kalim/Vil. Even if they start out like a couple, Kalim will end up being mothered by Vil. And this isn’t the kind of overprotective and through-the-teeth mothering that Jamil does: Vil-the-mom is strict and very focused on discipline, so I think both of them would experience a cultural shock lol Vil knew things were bad, but was it that bad?... Similarly to Kalim/Riddle though, when it’s time to have fun, they enjoy each other a lot. They dance and sing and Kalim even manages to make Vil laugh… but the rest of the time it gets kind of miserable for both of them.

Kalim/Idia. I want this for Idia, to be honest. I genuinely want this for Idia. This would be such a shitshow though because Kalim has zero understanding of how Idia works; pardon me for a clichéd comparison, but it’s like putting an excited loud puppy in a room with a sheepish scaredy cat. But actually, I think Kalim is smart enough to ask Idia to teach him how to play videogames one day, and even though he would be horrible at it, he would have so much fun failing miserably that maybe… Idia’s heart would melt a little… and then instantly cringe.

Kalim/Malleus. Shameless. Well, Kalim is pretty innocent about it, but Malleus is shameless. He is very satisfied with all the attention he is getting. Everyone around them? Confused and mildly scared, wondering if Kalim even knows what’s going on between them. Kalim? Super excited to have 1000 dates with Malleus, give him all kinds of cool gifts, dance with him and feed him a lot of yummy ice cream. Malleus responds very well to this kind of treatment, so Kalim would go all-out! They would either end up being a power-couple (Kalim would still be very oblivious…) or break up after a while because while Malleus enjoys attention, Kalim just isn’t as reactive to his flirty provocations as he would’ve loved… plus he has too many friends >:(