#is it annoying to some of the people i rb from? yeah probably. but im having the time of my life

[erythristicbones]

tagging posts that remind me of my OCs as said OCs has got to be the best self-indulgent thing ive ever done

[pastriibunz]

Heyy

I just wanted to thank you for the amazingness that is the KDIH/Kai Drew-niverse lol. You inspired me to use script format instead of the pain that is book formatting and it's, like, the first piece of work I've actually been proud of lol.

So yeah, thanks for being an inspiration, even if it's just to a socially awkward, musical obsessed little creature haha

okay, this made me almost cry. had to take a bit to recover from it (2 days)

genuinely, thank you for reading. i’d love to see what you wrote :]

honestly, i. i can’t believe im a “big” (if you could even call me that) enough creator in the hatchetfield space to inspire people. i can’t believe my fics are “well known” enough to help people discover a writing style they like better. i cant believe KAI is “big” enough to the point she’s inspiring people.

if you told me a few years ago that people like my writing, my goofy ass character, and there’s a community of 20+ people who enjoy my content and wanna see more of her, i’d fucking laugh in your face. this is all wild to me.

i’ve never thought of myself as a source of inspiration, honestly. i just always had an affinity for writing and plotting out stories in my head. so hearing people say they like her, and having people tell me that KIHF (more specifically NMK) helped inspire them to write their own hatchetfield oc inserts, their own oc-centered nmt eps, it just. makes my heart swell. i promise you guys that if you tag me in that stuff, i see it. i don’t interact because i just. truly don’t know how to respond.

people ask me for advice, sometimes. people ask how i got people to care about kai. and my answer is: i truly don’t know. you all are wonderful people who could probably write so much better than me, and yet. you stayed to read my story. and i really can’t thank you enough.

but. i do have some advice: be annoying about your work. post every thought, and maintag everything until you can’t anymore. people might block you, but you’ll also find those who really care. make your friends read your work. have them be a test audience. have them point out stuff you could work on. have them rb and advertise for you. it worked for me.

and, hey. i wouldn’t mind being apart of your audience :]

sorry for getting all rambly on you, anon! asks like this just make me really happy. i’m glad i could inspire you :]

[drdonogood]

Sorry not sorry ik im in an absolutely shit mood already, so this is only me being more heated than I reasonably should be I am aware- But holy shit so many of you people in the Jekyll and Hyde fandom are *miserable*. Like a lot of you are flat out dicks. Please go outside and realise an adaptation not being to your absolute standards is not a reason to be horrible to people who like it. AND not a reason to spread misinfo and grasp at straws for some "Moral Fault" that straight up isn't there 😭 idgaf argue with a wall. You Are Not Morally Superior or Better or More Mature Than Someone For Not Liking a Certain Adaptation. Do me and yourself and favor and just block me and block tags you don't like and leave ppl aloneee and stop being so passive aggressive- Don't even yap at me for this post I just don't wanna see y'all at all. I don't even wanna open the JnH tags sometimes because it does more harm than good on a bad day.

Stop beefing with teenagers. Stop being nasty to people. You have every right to not like any adaptation for ANY reason (or even no reason at all!) And even post about how you don't like it in your own space. But PLEASE learn how to be respectful and learn that not everything you don't like has to have some kind of moral issue😭 and stop whining about TGS being popular. You people sound like toddlers throwing tantrums. You can't control what people are into, and I'm sorry, but Thing Being Popular isn't an excuse for you to be a miserable dick to people who like it. Honestly, I can kinda get where the frustration comes from, but have some emotional dignity and take a chill pill. It's not that serious stop bitching about it.

Ik im biased cuz. Obv I RB a lot of TGS and obv I enjoy it a LOT (im gonna be so real here mostly because I dread opening the regular JnH tags (which DO tend to be a bit more baren. Honestly, just how it is in a small fandom 🤷🏻‍♂️)) and that's probably the biggest target of this stuff- But I'm an og book fan first and foremost. And TGS fans are a million times nicer and just more tolerable to be around than annnnyy of you ppl complaining about TGS fans (also 90% of TGS fans are *also* just regualr JnH fans who also like TGS- there is no split between y'all stop acting like there is 😭 I still have fantastic conversations about the original book and other adaptations with ppl who are mainly TGS fans) It's also just generally not that hard to enjoy the company of people who have different JnH preferences than you. It's also rlly eye opening to new perspectives. Like you genuinely don't HAVE to do this, but it IS fun. And it's not that hard to be nice and respectful 😭

Also, 10 seconds away from making a Rachel defense thread because that's the biggest thing that bothers me about the spesific brand of TGS misinfo. Ppl saying she's wrong and a bad character or badly written for doing the thing that is explicitly stated as bad and wrong. Or ppl ignoring or not getting to her depth and development and then turning around and saying she's a flat and stagnant character- CHRIST the most frustrating and idiotic thing to watch go down- Do you understand how stupid this makes you look???- And god forbid a female character be complicated and make bad choices and do annoying things and have bad coping mechanisms that they need to work through. TGS is a story that has a lot of Not Nessisarily Bad People Making Bad Desisions. "Character is badly written because they do ____" No, actually, have you considered that maybe this character just makes terrible choices like ppl do IRL???? Man, honestly, this bit can even be directed at some TGS fans, not just ppl who hate it lmao. But I DO know a lot of y'all r young and don't rlly get it yet and that's ok for now 🤷🏻‍♂️ anyway yeah sorry about this post I'm just rlly fed up with thissss.

[thewickerking]

everyday i wake up. i find a mutual in law whos blocked me. like whyyy i dont even do anything on this website. some ex muts too like what. i feel like i have very little internet presence outside of talking to specific internet friends on like. discord like what do i do on TUMBLR that makes ppl want to hardblock me. i swear i was blocked less by mutual in laws on my old account where home.stuck was one of my top tags (im an ex hs fan for context i do not support it and actively hate it) like ??? i KNOW im overthinking this its literally tumblr who cares and i laugh abt it a lot but idk it bothers me like im not fixated on it pleeease dont think im that terminally online or anything i think im just mental illness 👍

like idk idk i put a huge amount of energy into how im perceived bc it matters a lot to me that people around me like me ..like irl i will buy food for people i despise bc i want ppl to have positive associations with me soo bad . this isnt like an "ohhh im such a nice person how dare u not like me im so nice" thing bc i absolutely can and will be an asshole and im constantly walking the line between "im overly self confident for fun" and "i genuinely think im better than everyone and will say it" and like a bunch of other stuff i dont have to list all my flaws to make a point (<- almost did but decided againist it)

anyways idk idk!! im so likeable irl which again sounds very egotistical but is literally true like im not afraid of confrontation or anything but im friendly and honest and ppl generally enjoy me being around which is something ive worked sooooo hard to make true and like. idk mutual in laws are people i see around and i like having little friends in my phone ! mils feel like classmates u see around but dont talk to much and the idea of that like. category (is that the right word..) of people not liking me is genuinely upsetting i literally dont have anyone in my entire school who doesnt like me or like. feels more negative abt me than positive or neutral (to my knowledge at least..)

like idk i feel like im going in circles and i genuinely am not super invested in this it isnt consuming my every waking thought or whatever its just frustrating and im a bit paranoid people are talking shit about me and like........ i am fine confronting issues people have with me like if theres a genuine issue pleeeeease talk to me abt it i would rather be confronted with an issue of mine out of nowhere then be blocked but most of the people who have me blocked probably have for things that arent objectively bad but annoy them like spam rbing or whatever (i dont think i spam the dash or mass rb from ppl but idk i might to some ppl) but i dont knowwww and its driving me off the walls <- will literally stop caring abt this in 5 minutes and it just thinking about it really hard rn and making my self feel worse by overthinking but also feeling better by talking it out instead of letting it fester

anyways sorry for the lack of read more im on mobile :( but like yeah im just talking it out ill feel better and more normal when i post this bc i just need to tell people things even if they dont matter just to have them out there and feel real or smn idk. i dont really get why it works but it does so yay ^-^

[bluewinnerangel]

*knock knock* 🚪👀 may I...uh... contribute to your wonderful Kiwi analysis? THAT WAS SO MUCH FUN TO READ btw!!!!! Ahhh I love your excitement and enthusiasm it really makes me feel the same <3 two things (not very significant but just wanted to add): the lyric “I think she said, ‘I’m having your baby’” is so interesting to me in the context of how it’s sung. “I think she said” sounds so... like you said a lot throughout the song... petty and somewhat falsely nonchalant BUT THEN “I’m having your baby” is SCREAMED at us so hard I’m like ah ok thank you for spitting in my face my dude. So maybe it’s like “this is supposed to be something I don’t know or care about BUT I DOOO AHHHHHH”. Also, the lines, “when she’s alone she comes home to a cactus in a black dress, such an actress”, “she sits beside me like a silloette, hard candy dripping on me till my feet are wet” sound super...dark to me. Black dresses are worn at funerals. Silloette could be a ghost. “Hard candy” could maybeee be blood (that’s a stretch but anyways). It’s literally haunting him these thoughts of her. He’s lgoing crazy from imagining this ghost or whatever. (*cough cough* maybe that’s how they want him to feel... haunted... unable to escape...driven to madness) Anyhow, I don’t analyze much but I wanted to throw in stuff I thought of while reading your awesome analysis. <3

Hi! Thank you <3 Yes feel free to contribute, for the kiwi devotees there's all kinda tiny additions in asks today (I try to tag everything #kiwi ) and the rb tags of the analysis!

Anyway yes to dark Harry tho although I don't mention it a lot, with Harry there's definitely this LOOK AT ME BEING HAPPY YEY LET'S DANCE AND SING WERE ALL FINE EVERYTHING IS FINE all our friends are going to die and i want everything to end i know you dont give a fk about my nightmares anyway also can that woman just fuck the fuck off and i might be smiling now but im crying later and YYEEYY KEEP DANCING!!!

Some see that as fake and annoying and it just rubs them the wrong way, I think it's relatable honestly. It's just you gotta put your happy mask on (like everyone at work anyway, in general most of the time, it's not limited to public figures like him whatsoever). So yeah for sure he's gone dark dark before and probably will continue to (floating dumpster fire I'm looking at you that's not gonna solely result in sugary watermelons i don't think) do so, and I think it's very much possible these lines are meant a whole lot darker than what I mentioned in the analysis. I just usually don't wanna highlight it to much because it's a very tiny step to take a tumble and fall into a deep dark putting rocks in your pockets hole and I'm just not too comfortable going there. So I usually just leave a tiny trace of it in the analyses and then people can pick up on it if they want to but I just kinda hope they don't honestly. It's all interpretations anyway. Hope he's ok, that's all.

(of course another link to the kiwi analysis)

[piano-boo]

was waiting for you to rb the ask game :) anyway archon, support, glaze lillies

Archon:

Well as you said in your ask, war is a no, obviously. I feel like a nation of justice would be weird. eternity would give stability, but would get really boring. contracts would be interesting, because there would be people always trying to get around them, but also a lot of people would comform to the rules. freedom is interesting, i think i'd be too indeciseive though. so it'd probably be wisdom

Support:

since, as said before, i am way too indecisive, im going to do my favorite and least favorite from each vision.

Anemo: kazuha, obviously, he just seems really nice and i really want him. i have to say venti, only because i like everybody and i don't want to put a child as my least favorite.

Geo: Zhongli! he's funny and also pls give me your shield i need it. Im sorry gorou, but you're like, slightly annoying

Electro: RAZOR!!! he's my main so im gonna pick him also he's adorable. fischl, i know barely anything about you and you refuse to come home so-

Hydro: i know you hate him, but tartaglia is funny orange man so. kokomi, i just feel like she's slightly overated...

Pyro: Bennet. im biased cause he's on my team. diluc, i don't hate him, he would probably be nice but yeah

Cryo: Eula!! i really wanted her but didn't get her :(( Aloy only because she kinda sucks

(wow this post is getting really long I'm so sorry)

Glaze Lillies

OST? Probably the inazuma one, i just really like it and it has some tradition instruments and its just really cool.

[yibuo]

UMMM I would love to know what exactly happened with xnine too if you know??

i didn’t know how to answer this without hating on long danni but... that’s not possible when you’re talking about xnine

CORRECT ME IF I’M WRONG IN ANY WAY @ DIMPLES AND CFANS

tldr ceo addicted to producing survival shows realizes boy group is incapable of feeding her fat rabbit because of her OWN mismanagement and throws them away (literally? probably not, maybe, idk)

HOLY SHIT THIS BECAME RLY LONG IM BEGGING KEEP READING TO WORK LO LOL LOL

long danni= wjjw company ceo

wjjw=company that xnine, xz, r1se, etc are under

huo mala: fat company rabbit that WILL give u nightmares goodness gracious thinking about him sends chills down my spine

alright so long danni (ldn i will refer to her) & ee media along w/ tencent and sm made the survival show x-fire... the premise of xfire was that 16 contestants split into two different teams (white and red) and then at the end it would boil down to each team having 4 members and the winning team would debut as a group called xfire...but wait...the group’s name is xnine? so out of red team (peng chuyue, baishu, xiao zhan, xia zhiguang) and white team(wu jiacheng, gu jiacheng, zhao lei, and guo zifan) white team won...and they unofficially debuted as xfire..went abroad to train yadda yadda yadda and then a few months later, TELL ME WHY LONG DANNI DECIDES TO RELEASE POLLS TO LET FANS VOTE IN 5 MEMBERS INTO XFIRE TO CREATE XNINE! ldn PLEASE if u wanted to rig the show you should’ve decided in the beginning what was the point of making the teams and the fans fight against each other...

so yeah xz and crew weren’t actually supposed to debut according to show rules...i mean i’m glad they debuted obviously bc x9 is x9 but ee media and frickin ldn couldve handled this better...like every member except chen molerat is amazing and great but....WHY DIDNT MaNAGEMENT NOT BLATANTLY RIG THEM INTO THE GROUP

but also thank u ldn for also letting us get to know the 4 guys who were added n not chen molerat <3 but like DO UR JOB PROPERLY

anyway the polls were RIGGED obviously thanks ldn what did u expect out of making POLLS, and xiao zhan, peng chuyue, xia zhiguang, yan xujia, and chen z*** were added to the group to create xnine...talk about rigged when chen z*** the molerat lookin turdface misogynist was added... anyway at the time he wasnt known to be problematic but ya the whole rigging thing caused a whole rift esp when x9 debuted bc there were fanwars and death threats initially but xfire did well because it was one of the (if not only) survival shows at that time and x9 debuted w/ a good response etc

then they got moved to wjjw (still owned by ldn thanks ldn) and wjjw is known for hoarding artists and not promoting them (THEY HAVE LIKE 45 ARTISTS BUT WERE FORMED 3 YEARS AGO MAKE IT MAKE SENSE) and not being promoted properly was EXACTLY what happened to xnine. as idols what they needed was music promotions, variety shows, etc stuff to get them as people out there but this genius ldn decided to promote them through stupid zodiac dramas like super star academy (to promote xfire finalists) and oh my emperor (which was an xnine drama). now i haven’t watched OME, but SSA gave me enough brain rot and gunk for me to not watch OME. (the only person who could act was baishu), and the story was SO BAD. nevermind the acting, because the boys weren’t initially slated to be actors, but the story was horrible, girl without superpowers suddenly becomes white cult goddess at the end??? WHAT???????? why didn’t ldn just promote them normally !!!!!! are they an actor group or an idol group???? I LOVE XNINE, THEY ARE TALENTED ARTISTS !!!! and eventually some went into acting (xz, guo zifan, gu jiacheng) BUT WAS THAT THE TIME DLFNJNF and then they just kept getting sent into random dramas and movies as random side characters instead of being able to make music and promote????? i’m sorry i’ve been stuck on using dramas to promote x9 for a while because that’s such a SILLY IDEA *vigorously shakes head* 

ldn knows how to do survival shows but she doesn’t know how to promote her artists thanks ldn. xnine has so much talented, we know xiao zhan is a great singer, but other main vocalists like wu jiacheng, zhao lei, and peng chuyue are amazing as welll, here’s me plugging this video of zl and pcy performing their self-written song on produce camp because it’s the most beautiful thing ever

-oh yeah somewhere in here insert chen molerat getting outed as a pedo misogynist cheater by his gf who still has the audacity to have xnine in his weibo name because xnine starting to get popular gtfo rat lookin ass i WILL barf, when we say ot8 xnine we mean xnine w/o chen toadratass but sometimes ppl think it’s xnine minus xz which is untrue-

they also have talented rappers (gu jiacheng yan xujia) and dancers (xia zhiguang guo zifan) like xia zhiguang can end me with his spinning flying kick thing and i WILL let him 

so YEAH !! TALENT that went to waste because wjjw gave them weird random hiatuses and kept pushing them as actors??? seriously what is with this actor stuff...so that’s why they debuted in 2016 and have very little discography to their name because wjjw just gave up...trying to promote them GOD thank u so much ldn for ur incomptency <3333 xnine had members in diff stages of life (ranging from xz who was born in 91, to yan xujia born in 2001, they were all close tho soo cute) and wjjw really was like nope we’re not gonna try to promote yall’s dreams of becoming singers on the stage because they couldn’t add 34783473 pounds to fat huo mala’s weight

so ya a lot of people are like omg wjjw hates xiao zhan!!! ya no they hate all of xnine but now xz is bringing enough money to make huo mala even fatter so good for huo mala i guess /s

also rumors and any bad media? lol wjjw doesn’t care they do a shit job at handling bad things too WHAT A WELLROUNDED COMPANY

OH ALSO TALK ABOUT HOW THYE HAD 3 DAYS TO PREPARE FOR A CONCERT???????????? WHAT????????? wjjw u mfs

anyway to summarize my rants above wjjw did  a SHIT job of promoting xnine as idols when the boys worked so hard and wjjw kept tryna push them to acting bye (some of them can’t act and literally don’t WANT TO ACT HHHSFLNF), wjjw is also horrible at letting all of the xnine members shine when as i mentioned before, they’re ALL TALENTED!!!! and then they just gave up on xnine somewhere in 2017-2018... ok anyway so is xnine disbanded? no although some may say their last concert in dec 2018 was their last concert ever they’re not disbanded

xiao zhan , gu jiacheng, and guo zifan went into acting

wu jiachang is focusing on his music etc (he was actually the first member of xnine i came across when i watched the collaboration/cyzj in 2018...yes carats this is That wu jiacheng!!!) MAN CAN SING

peng chuyue, zhao lei, xia zhiguang, yan xujia all went on produce camp 2019 (aNOTHER SURVIVAL SHOW BC THEY WANTED TO BE ON THE MF STAGE BC THATS WHY THEYRE HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE WJJW) along w/ fellow labelmates zhou zhennan and zhai xiao wen ... and everyone but peng chuyue made it to the final 11 spots and got to debut in the group r1se...UNFORTUNATELY ALSO UNDER WJJW HELP SEND HELP

if they’re in r1se does that mean they quit xnine? no! they’re in both that’s just how survival shows work it’s kind of weird

peng chuyue recently released a song and it’s really good and you can’t not tell me that it’s gay here it is

anyway xnine hasn’t disbanded!! the X玖少年团 (xnine) in the non-r1se members’ weibo names say that loud n clear!!! and when the r1se members from xnine won produce camp 2019, they all made xnine signs SO XNINE IS ALIVE and they do keep in contact!!

why haven’t we seen blatant public interactions btwen xiao zhan and the xnine members? because some frickin annoying xz solo stans/xfx claim that the other members use xz for popularity (HELLO??????? IN WHAT WORLD DOES THAT MAKE SENSE HALF OF THEM R LITERALLY HIS KIDS BUT OK) 

anyway in conclusion wjjw doesn’t know how to promote any of their artists, thus screwing over xnine members and making them go on a group hiatus where they focus on acting/singing/r1se for r1se members but they are very much xnine as of now !!!

here’s some REALLY GOOD RESOURCES to follow xnine bc as an ifan it’s mf hard

-xnine slideshow

-xnine faq

-xnine eng sub channel by yuer

-all of that content i listed above was made/subbed by one person and she is the queen of uhh...xnine international fandom outreach (????) how do i word it but she’s been subbing and spreading xnine long before xiao zhan’s popularity skyrocketed so go follow her for updates and memes here

-xnine intl fanbase twt and tumblr

-and here’s this twt account with dumb pics of xnine because why not

also i’m pretty sure there’s a wip video explaining x9′s history being created (by yuer because queen) so when that’s posted i’ll rb this and post it here

also here’s this video dragging wjjw

[viridescent-lament]

someone paying an absurd amkunt of attention to my recent rbs may have noticed all the art i rbed is tagged with inspo and favorites. and that is because. i can look at so many things i love in all this art. and look at my art and realize i cant even begin to mimic that. i cant compare. 

im going to back up because theres a bit more i think. just a dump of things that have affected? my mood

a few days ago. i look at my face. i see bumps. i am very concerned (im supposed have a clear face because thats one of the few consistent compliments on my face thats the one measurable thing that i liked about it -)

i do a mask or two (a rare event, and a different maskni havent used before) it doesnt gok away. but while im looking. i realize i dont hate my face (at the time). i recognize several things that arent bad and some that are neutral. from this point on ive cokntinued to do an apricot scrub but those bumps remain (they were there befoe school but i suspect wearing a mask all day has worsened it.)

i work on an art piece for a few days. i am not happy wiuth it but it doesnt look bad.i post it before school.

now that im finihed with that piece i need something to do during school. i crochet. made a coaster in one bus ride to school, another between classwork, and most of one during a mostly free period, which was completed on the bus. (to be fair. its 5 rounds and described as quick to work up)

the first i give to my teacher before school. she is nice about it. notably, i offered it to a teacher i had last year first, who mentions she still has a doily i  gave to her last year, and she thinks of me when she sees it.

i gave the second to my art teacher. he is very nice about it, which is not unusual but always makes me :D

also during art. i work on a pinch pot and recieved positive feedback relating to it beijng a square and alsl me adding orbs to the corners. notably. i placed the pot on my friends desk and said something along the lines of 'i crave [feedback/attention]' (dont remember exact wording)

i try to finish the last coaster in last period to give to my teacher but fail. i do give it to my friend while we're in the bus and she has a very sweet reaction (involving gasping and compoiments and i noticed her staring at it for awhile after)

sometime after that on the bus ride i think about how nice positive feedback is and vaguely wish my friend from last year who always had an extreme good reaction to gifts and kind acts was still here.

the art has not had any feedback beyond the requester/my friend (who is the requester). thats not too bad but i dont rb it to main bcs i want to post the speedpaint first.

i start working on getting the speedpaint up. i need a song. i ask my sisters while we r outside about songs i can use. the twins are alsok planning 'celebration days' for mema. we end up singing and they stol and say my voice is good. a bit more singing and me being embarrassed and sinking to the floor with my hands covering my face at one point. i have been convinced to join them in singing a song for mema.

at this point i was excited. i am critical of my voice and have not sung much since third grade choir (i auditioned the next year but did not make it, which was discouraging for a small child).

next day. another apricot scrub to maybe get those bumps off. excited messing around with twins in morning. printing out pictures of myself at emmas request. and printing song lyrics. mema is mowing outside. i begin to practice. i doknt hate it. i stop and drink water. i try to memoripe lyrics, although i donot get ti the end. considering posting my singing on blog. twins go swimming. i take a small break. post speedpaint. 

twins come inside w kai. they are all in a bad mood. i try to start again, slightly nervous/embarrassed to sing in front of people. 'im a little pitchy' 'yeah you are' - kai. kais always like that but. emma also says its not good. notably emma is never like that. i dont really care cuz its obvious shes in a bad mood even without avas reassurance. 

ava convinces me tok play tea party. kai clinks spoon against ceramic cup and it hurts my ears. i tell her to stop and she does. kai tells me to go off my tablet. i cokntinue with the internal justification 'its overwhelming to focus on them only (not exact words)'. ear still hurts from cup clinking. small snarking between kai and i. twins and kais voice eventually becoming more and more irritating. i leave tea party.

later twins trying to get my attention and i answer aggressively and they say nevermind. internally i amthinkung that this isnt even overstimulation/bad noise (cant remember word for that) just me being annoyed at them for no reason. 

speedpaint has recieved no attention. i shoukdnt care but am slightly disappointed. i try going through open tabs to rrb things. all the art is amazing. i tag everything as inspo and favorites, because its all amazing. i keep noticing littke techniques that each piece does. two handle lineart color differnces better than i did on that request. one has a sketchiness to the lines that adds to it. one has beautiful flowers that i could never get. i think about improving. i dont know how. i cant figure out how to learn. and other self depreciation.

that self depreciation continues with my singing. i cant do it. im not good at singing. i cant memorize the words. etc. mema is out of the house and i try practicing again. i cant get myself to sing. i eventually tell twins i cant do it. 

throughout this. i try to listen to music. watch videos. something to blockbout the noise and get the right noise. nothing works. currently settled on a song that almost does it.

theres alot of internal emotion that i dont know how to describe. 

logically i know myart didnt get nktes bcs it was posted while my friends were offline. and art not getting notes is one thing thatas nkt even a major part of this. but.

i am disgusted by my face right now. i doknt know whats wrong with it. i dont know whats wrong with my body.

ive been thinking about cutting my hair. i like how it looks now. and have recieved a random compliment from somebody i dont know at school. who said i could really pull it off. but. i want to experiment. ill probably come back to this style. but i want to try some stuff.

[oflgtfol]

people literally posting about having anxiety attacks or relapsing with their diseases and yall are fuckig reblogging it to get off on your Intellectual Satisfaction like literally shut the fuck up i hate you people so much

hey can people stop fucking making blogs dedicated to reblogging posts that say dont reblog. ok. i want to fucking punch you right now