#is from quebec and has French songs lol

[fairy-ganj-mother]

I listen to so much music by french artists already that spotify was able to make *3* playlists for me and not even include songs that I had thought of... now remembering that I had a belief that french producers were the best like 4 years ago lol

[stabs-cake-with-salieris-dagger]

Recently I've made some interesting and surprising findings about mor that seem lesser known in the fandom (or maybe I just don't dig deep enough) Also I accidentally hit ctrl z while almost finishing up the post that I spent the past hour or so typing and it deleted most of what I've typed......... with tears I retyped everything again SIGH (resulting in me not proofreading any of this) 1. So I remember seeing somewhere that says mor has both Mozart and Salieri's compositions, which I thought it was false because it's all Mozart as far as I know. Until one day I actually looked at the credit a bit closer and found this:

This is the music that plays before victime de ma victoire. Mozart wrote fortepiano variations at 17 years old of Salieri's aria, so they really just used Mozart's version of Salieri's piece from one of his most popular operas???? It made me kind of mad but also this felt like a meta commentary considering it's associated with victime de ma victoire scene. It's a self aware song where Salieri is regretting, trying to come to terms of what he's done, and 'predicting' his failure. It serves as a commentary of the whole Mozart and Salieri matter beyond the scope of the show and ends in "J'ai perdu pour l'Histoire (I lost for history)." In this case it does feel like Salieri is being pushed aside in one of the worst possible ways, and I really wish some of his music could have made their ways into the musical properly. 2. I found a Playbill article talking about mor being in the middle of being adapted into English for Broadway in 2012...... which honestly I'm really glad it failed because I don't have faith that it'd be good. There's already the example of tdv, and the way they talk about it just doesn't seem... great, such as “bring shape and focus to the musical for American audiences” and "When the French write musicals, a lot of their songs are written like pop singles placed contiguous to each other, while on Broadway, it's necessary to have a storyline and a semblance of relationship.” Pop French musical isn't everyone's cup of tea and that's of course normal but the way it sounds like they're going to really Americanize it and rewrite it majorly and by storyline and relationship I take they mean needing musical motifs, reprises, and such. Just makes me feel they should just write a whole new musical?? And maybe it's just me but the tone sounds a little patronizing too? Though I do wish they could have released the cd and dvd in North America just because I'm Canadain lol Also curious if there was a time staging mor in Quebec would have been viable. 3. I spend too much of my time watching mor clips, but I've somehow never looked at performances pre proshot until recently. There were a few changes in the ~2 month (if my memory serves) between premiere and first proshot made to vivre a en crever that surprised me. First 2 screenshots from this video, and the rest from this one.

First of all, no handshake at on se reverra???? It's giving 2 bros chilling in the hot tub 5 feet apart cuz they're not gay

This is a little hard to see but Salieri is kneeling beside the wall as Mozart departs and it had me screaming ;; I know Laurent did kneel but I didn't know it was a thing in the French tour. This video gives a sliiiightly clearer silhouette of him kneeling but he's also blocked by Cavalieri.

Constanze running up to grab Mozart and refuse to let him go really had me by surprise and it's so heart breaking ;;;; I've been debating whether I like this better or the one that they ended up using where she just reaches out to him from the bed, because it kind of changes the tone of the scene.

Anyway thanks for reading if you've gotten this far. There's so many analysis posts I'd like to do but I simply don't have the energy to.... but if anyone wants to talk about analysis I'm more than happy to ramble lol

[bisonaari]

Rambling about the finnish language because I have thoughts. They probably won't make a lot of sense, but it's mostly for me hahaha

First of all if you haven't downloaded the app Drops, you should!! It's super fun to learn vocabulary so far, and the interface is soooo cute!! Idk how effective it is on the long term, but it can't hurt to practice more hahaha.

Then this should have actually been first but whatever lol. I'm having so much fun learning the language. I hadn't felt that since I started learning japanese in 2006, and I've tried maaaaany more languages since then lol. I'm genuinely looking forward to my duolingo everyday! Every time I understand a new word in a song or an interview or something it's like my brain has solved a new puzzle and the SEROTONIN I SWEAR

Finnish has started to sound familiar for me now? Like earlier today I was watching an estonian/finnish comparison video and when the guy started speaking estonian I was like "oh yeah I def recognise the intonation and a few words, but that's it". Then the other guy started speaking finnish and my brain had a moment of "OH!! I know this!!! This is our stuff!!" Like I don't even feel that with spanish, and my spanish is better than my finnish by a LONG shot lmao. (It's still shit though I'm like three years old toddler level lol)

Idk I wanted to say something else but I'm just so so so happy a a a a a

OH YEAH also I'm a dumb fuck and since my third language is japanese I've hard-wired myself into pronouncing stuff the japanese way every time a language is nor english nor french, and it PISSES ME OFF. Because I KNOW how to pronounce the sounds but my brain is like oh did you mean [japanese sound] lemme fix that for you NO I KNOW WHAT I MEANT LET ME SAY WORDS GDI

So here is a list of stuff that I need to deprogram

from japanese

U pronounciation. In japanese, u is like a y/u mix and it's so hard to undo once you start doing it URGH

Soft-rolled r. Rolling r hard is kinda bad manneers in Japan so I never really forced myself to do it

L/R confusion. Since it's the exact same sound for both in japanese sometimes I just L my R or roll my L it's so silly hahaha

From french

T/D stridulation. It's pronouncing t as ts and d as dz instead of a hard t or d. It's only found in quebec french and it took me A BILLION YEARS to learn when I moved here, and now I have to undo it???

Ä/A distinction. Already said it, but it's more of a matter of accent in french so I need to stop using them interchangeably

Learn to fucking read y/u and ö/o GDI BISON IT'S NOT HARD

Stress of the first syllable. Almost impossible for a french speaker BUT I SHALL PERSEVERE

From both:

THERE IS NO GENDERED PRONOUN IN FINNISH STOP THINKING ABOUT IT THEY DO NOT EXIST STOPPPPPP

Thank you for reading my scrambled mind lol. I'm training for another department at work and it's a lot of info so my brain is about to leak from my ears, and it shows in my writing lmao

[sga-owns-my-soul]

Getting To Know You Tag

thanks @colonelshepparrrrd @hearteyesmcgarrett @stargatelov3r and @frankthesnek for the tags!!

1. 3 ships: mcshep (shocker!) jess/nick from new girl (forever screaming about them sigh their first kiss kills me) annndddddd i'm going with ronon/woolsey bc i can't stop thinking about it and i need someone to go insane with me about them

2. first ever ship: honestly no clue 😂 i was actually just reminded the other day about how i super shipped donatello and april from tmnt when i was like.... 5? 6? so maybe that? idk my memory is too shit for this question 😂

3. last song: i'm currently listening to bad guy by we three, which is on my john sheppard playlist and i'm a little obsessed with it (i'm just obsessed with bad boy john sheppard sigh)

4- last movie: i never watch movies lol i think it was bon cop bad cop? it's a movie about a murder on the quebec/ ontario border and a french cop and an english cop have to work together to solve it. it was a good movie! my partner grew up in quebec and wanted to show it to me and i spent the entire time thinking about how well it would work as a mcshep fic

5- currently reading: i am not currently reading anything but i've been reading too much mcshep fan fic as usual so i guess that?

6- currently watching: house md bc im incapable of not obsessing over doctors committing crimes

7- currently consuming: energy bc im walking to work

8- currently craving: a fucking break!

i have no clue who has been tagged and i'm too lazy to look so open tag to anyone who wants to!

[burntblueberrywaffles]

"I'm not from the US" i ask you 5 and 16

And sending you kisses because you're a cutie pie 🌹🕊

Thank you for the ask beloved! 🫶🫶

5-favourite song in your native language?

Ok so I’m not sure how to answer this question, bc if you ask me my favourite song *in french* the answer WILL ALWAYS be La lumière by Pomme 😌😌 but if we’re talking "my native language" as in QC French specifically, it has to be Les étoiles Filantes by Les cowboys Fringants, which is simply such a beautiful song 🥺🥺 (I actually love it so much I recently did an English Lyric video with the translation bc I think everyone should listen to this song even if they don’t understand french, guys just trust me on this and give it a try 🙏🙏🥺🥺🥺)

16-which stereotype about your country you hate the most and which one you somewhat agree with?

Ohhh this is a good question 🤔 this one also has different sets of answers if you go by "my country" as in Canada, or as in "Quebec" which is not a country but should be whoop bc we have such a different cultural identity - gonna go with the QC version of this question bc idk what’s going on in the rest of Canada lmao - one stereotype I definitely hate is the French thinking we’re "dumber" or that we "don’t speak real French" bc of our accent and dialect 😒 SHUT UP THERES NO SUCH THING AS REAL FRENCH WHEN THE LANGUAGE EVOLVED AT THE SAME PACE IN OUR RESPECTIVE COUNTRIES 😤 and just bc we have more snow than you doesn’t mean we’re somehow lacking in technology???

Trying to think about a stereotype I’ve heard that I agree with is harder LMAO ig that we love poutine? Not the case for every single citizen of course but Poutine IS banging 😌😌😌 legit it’s a huge safe food for me, cause going to random restaurant where none of the menu items look appealing, you know the poutine will always at least be eatable LOL

I SEND YOU KISSIES TOO 🤭🤭❤️❤️❤️

[brainshock-alpha]

tag game from @firethekitty :) thanks for thinking of me!

last song: give it up for the love song of all time, "this must be the place (naive melody)" by talking heads

favorite color: the whole turquoise-blue-purple part of the spectrum... absolutely godlike selection

currently watching: VERY SLOWLY working through wayner's sonic adventure subathon vods. i just put it on while i do cardio lol. but it's fun

last movie/tv show: genuinely straining to remember the last movie or episode i watched to completion lmao. is it rocky.....??? i watched rocky 1 for the first time a while ago. i enjoyed it!

spicy/savory/sweet?: sweet... i'm just a freak for dessert's and treat's

relationship status: single. c'est la vie

current obsession: i guess it's pokemon! still got swsh on da brain 0:) but recently i've been overcome by some kind of fey mood and started drafting a one-shot for a pokemon ship that--i checked--has One Single Work for it on ao3. So That's Good .

last google search: "tabarnak" lol. turns out quebec french has a lot of church-related swears! this one is, i gather, about as severe as saying "fuck" in english... but the funny thing is, quebec french also has "fuck" as a loanword, where it's not actually that offensive anymore! language is beautiful

tagging: @amphyrre @boyfrillish @nightwere-mojo @pastryglitch if any of y'all are interested! and as usual anyone's free to just lift this if they want lol

[rebelsandtherest]

How do you think the Hamilton musical was received by the FACE family??

Hmmm interesting question. I'm going to do this pretty quickfire:

France: Gushed about the show to Alfred, despite its coverage of some tense times between them, but secretly was not fond of the portrayal of Lafayette. However, the stage version of his well-loved marquis grew on him exceptionally quickly (though he wouldn't admit it) and for months after seeing it he found himself bobbing his head along to the song stuck in his head, only to curse and stop when he realized it was from Hamilton. He has the album saved on Spotify but never tells a soul about it.

America: I mean, obviously he is a huge fan. He has the entire thing memorized within weeks. He was there when the first songs/bars were debuted at the White House at a state dinner. Everyone else thought it was a joke, portraying Hamilton as a hip hop enthusiast. Alfred thought it was the most genius thing he'd heard in decades. He sat up straight and listened, transfixed, and was a bit shocked when no one else at his table seemed to take it seriously. I say he has the whole thing memorized, but he actually doesn't. He has only seen and heard Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story once, ever in his life, which was on the day he saw it for the first time on Broadway. It drudged up centuries of loss for him and he spent the entire song trying to hide his ugly crying/stifled sobbing in the box seats. He's seen the show many, many times since, but has always walked out before the finale, to save his emotional sanity.

Canada: Overall loves it, adored the portrayal of George III, and agrees with Alfred that the application of hip hop was both innovative and a TON of fun. In the year or so after it hits it big, he occasionally finds himself drawn into a sing-along with Alfred as they cook, work on cars, build a new shed, etc. Alfred claims he can sing all the parts in one go, and Matt's heard him try, but it sounds less breathless and more intelligible if Matt jumps in as a second voice occasionally. Critiques Alfred's "hillbilly" French accent when he attempts to sing Lafayette's parts. When Matt saw it for the first time, in the middle of the theater, in the middle of the show, he texted Alfred: 'caught a bullet in the neck in Quebec' lol pretty sure that was me bro' . Smiled for like half an hour as he felt his phone buzzing with Alfred's enraged responses.

England: Everyone expects Arthur to detest the musical, not only because it is so unashamedly, patriotically American, but because he doesn't understand hip hop particularly well. However, Arthur is astonishingly, if understatedly complimentary upon seeing it on Broadway. Alfred eventually asked him point blank if it offended him in any way, and to Alfred's eternal surprise he said: "Your patriotism is tiring, of course, but put in such quick, witty verse, it's quite irresistible—don't look at me like that—he's a once-in-a-century lyricist—if not once-in-several-centuries." Later, when the show premiered on the West End, he would comment to friends that "the portrayal of King George is perhaps one of the funniest fucking things I've seen on stage in the last half century. I'd pay for tickets again just for that. I couldn't stand that man."

[newsies-and-the-nutcracker]

Newsies but it’s French (Canadian)

Inspired by that one post about German newsies (the movie). I’m heavily bilingual, so I don’t really talk the same way as those in Quebec. I’ll probably be laughing at a lot of the subtitles lol. Honestly, I’ll probably still laugh even if it’s how I talk, bc everything is funnier when you translate French to English.

Act two will be out soon.

~ santa fe (prologue) scene ~

Instead of “be a pal, Jack!” It’s “Be nice, Jack!” lol

“Look at me, I’m standing! Look at me, I’m running!” idk whether to laugh or cry-

~ carrying the banner scenes ~

“Who rang you?!” WHY IS FRENCH SO STRANGE

‘Pickings’ is now ‘fish’

“Long as pigeons don’t mind paying-" hmm ok

“Wese as free as air.” What happened to fishes?? Did you waste it on pickings???

Okay they’ve used both ‘small’ and ‘pretty’ for ‘what a fine life’ now idk what to think

“Cheeky Boy Loses His Time For Nothing.”

“This boy is full of riches!” h-how did you get that from bottle-

A bunch of big shots / big vegetables??

“I’m ignoring it, my sister. It’ll end up well by raining.” I CAN’T

“A trick to keep me awake” yeah coffee is a trick-

Why did they change ‘88 degrees’ to ‘30 degrees’ ????

“No, idiot, that doesn’t make a headline anymore!”

“... all the pigeons that we find.” What is it with them and pigeons?? HOW DID THEY GET PIGEON FROM SUCKER???

Again with the pigeons...

Also apparently newsies are now called ‘the sellers’???

“Look at this! A new!” a new what weasel?? weasel a new what???

they cut out the ‘with his shoes on’ part of Jack’s insult-

~ the bottom line scene ~

“And when Nunzio gets nervous, I don’t have a pretty head.”

“Exactly, fool.”

“Even after having stepped in mud, everything will go right!” I mean, it’s already not all right if you’ve stepped in mud-

“The bottom line” is now “can make all the difference” and idk how to feel about that either-

that’s it. Wasn’t much happening in that song.

~ that’s rich scenes ~

“Not at all! I said he heard it here. And it’s true.”

“Save yourselves!” I like that better honestly

Did Snyder just call the cop ‘mister money’??

“Where’ve you been keeping yourself, my child?” awww

“Your friend is all an artist!” I mean, i guess?

“I’ve never known anyone who has a talent!” pfft-

“Boys, lock the doors and sleep here!” that sounds vaguely threatening

“I’m doing alright for myself, my friends” why do French people call everyone their friends?? I’m in 10th grade and my teachers still call us their friends-

“Seems whatever I touch… turns to gold.” alright so I’ve heard that line isn’t for the innocents (aka me lol) and idk but I don’t think that’s what they meant-

THEY CHANGED RICH TO UNBELIEVABLE NOOOOOO

They really changed it to “and scotch from scott”-

“But I’ve got no luck. They’re nothing but idiots.”

“Hey, my dear, it’s you I’m talking about!”

“Now, listen, my friend.” there it is again-

“To lose it with youuuuuu-”

“You are not rich!” absolute savage

~ i never planned on you / don’t come a knocking scene ~

“Re-hello” why french. just why.

“At least be polite!” srry miss medda

oh so now you use fools for suckers alrighty then I see how it is-

“I find girls kind.” uhh that’s nice-

“This love is not blind but idiot.” why am I even doing this?

~ the world will know scenes ~

“You want to calm yourself?” awww it doesn’t make sense when Tommy Boy looks down anymore…

“Hey, Jack. You think always?”

This is actually a common expression, but it’s still funny. “Ah, gee” or other things like that is is “Good blood” lol

Davey’s “I don’t know!” (the first one) Is now “I’m ignoring it!” you’re welcome

“YES!!” does no one know how to say ‘yeah’ in french?

“What’s it gonna take to stop the machines” ??

“See, the world ignores!”

“Pulitzer takes away our voice, but we’ll give him the deaf ear!” I’m confused-

Ohh I thought it was a different word. It’s “Pulitzer raises his voice but we’ll give him the deaf ear!” Which still doesn’t really make sense compared to “Pulitzer may crack the whip, but he won’t whip us!”

~ watch what happens scene ~

“Can’t you see it in my eyes?” “Yeah, agreed.”

“The wagons” are now “the trucks”

“This is important, dear lady, don’t mess it all.”

“I’m totally ignoring what I’m doing!” same

“Write on these young boys.” I-

“These youngs will take life on the page.” nice

“Jack Kelly is ready to take on the monster Pulitzer.” I love it.

~ seize the day scenes ~

“... Are we?” “No question! No!”

“And the Queens?” not just queens. THE queens

“Now is the time to seize the chance.” *disappointed sigh*

“That’s lamentable.” wow race

“They have to work very hard to win their bread… and help their parents!” Jack feels very strongly about that

“Hey! What’re you doing? Look!” yeah the background comments are funny, but they’re even funnier in French-

“THE STRIKE, THE STRIKE, THE STRIKE THE STRIKE THE STRIKE THE STRIKE THE STRIKE THE STRIKE THE STRIKE THE STRIKE OHHHH THE STRIKE!!”

“Very good, Jack!” I can’t why do they sounds like proud parents-

“Go, sirs!” before they all rip the papes lol

~ santa fe scene ~

“The captain Jack just wants to close his eyes and go!” why do they always put ‘the’ in front of everything?

“Why should we live and die here?” the real question is wHY WOULD YOU CHANGE THAT??

“And the dates to faaaaaaall” what

[spnfanficpond]

June 2020 Angel Fish Awards

(New Angel Fish design by @slytherkins!!)

Every month all of you fantastic writers work your asses off to post some truly incredible stories. Our Angel Fish Awards are the way for all of us, as a community of writers and readers, to lift each other up and give praise to those who have captured our attention and deserve a few kind words.

The monthly Angel Fish Awards are peer-nominated, meaning ANYONE IN THE POND CAN NOMINATE ANY POND MEMBER’S FIC. While the Pond was founded to support the Guppies, everyone in this community deserves to be showered with love and feedback, and we hope that by opening this up as a Pond wide system, we’ll be able to share the love as far as it can go.

NOTE: WE’VE BEEN HAVING OCCASIONAL PROBLEMS WITH ASKS GOING MISSING. Please use the Submit button when submitting your nominations and make sure you’re signed into Tumblr or your URL won’t show. (If the form asks for your name and email address, then you’re not signed in.) If you like, you can also send a message to Michelle @mrswhozeewhatsis or Mana @manawhaat to check and make sure we got your submission.

Be sure to read through this whole post as people who were nominated more than once only had one tag activated for tumblr tagging purposes!

WITHOUT FURTHER ADO, HERE ARE JUNE’S ANGEL FISH AWARDS!

Nonimated by @thegirlwhorunswithwinchesters

I Thought You Were Going To Die (oneshot) by @fun-and-fandoms

My nominations for the month wouldn’t be complete without a little bit of angst. Though this one isn’t just that. If you’re easily triggered by mentions of depression and its symptoms, this one’s not for you. But it’s an important topic and I will always encourage any creator who uses their art to remind people it’s okay to talk about it. (Note from Kale, this was actually submitted in May but I missed it.) 

More to Me (oneshot) by @becs-bunker

No spoilers, but I’m so glad this ended the way it did. So sweet <3

Help  (oneshot) by @blushingjared

I came across this fic and was immediately intrigued. Then I started reading and I was captivated from the first sentence until the very last. The author did such a good job with setting the scene and painting the right picture.

Talking Bodies (oneshot) by @ne-gans

This AU-Sam is such a huge weakness of mine. That, in combination with this dangerously filthy masterpiece, is nothing short of perfection.

Nominated by @focusonspn

Into The Woods (series) by @amanda-teaches

So well written, interesting plot and great development. The chemistry between Y/N and Dean is also amazing, and I loved how this mini-series could be so easily part of the show. Totally worth reading.

Nominated by @thoughtslikeamindfield 

Stranger Than FanFiction (series) by @cherry3point14

The premise is similar to the film Stranger Than Fiction – a story about a story being written about you – and it’s just as hilarious. Also, Cherry Pie is still one of the funniest writers in this corner of SPN fandom.

“You’re not supposed to move your head if there’s someone trying to murder you, probably…”

No, I wouldn’t think so, but lollllll

“You’re being insane, out loud.”

Omgggg

“It tried, oh, how the door tried to divert her attention from the unknown men who could be terrible, rule-breaking influences on her. However the door was only wood and she was a stubborn woman made of free will and limbs—a woman who refused to be deceived.”

“Your hand is on the doorknob before the mention of your limbs has finished rattling around your head.  Realistically you don’t want to encourage the voice by doing what it says. After all, the voice’s ultimate goal seems to be killing you.”

BAHAHAHAH omfg you guys

I need to stop quoting from this bc I probably seem insane to those of you who haven’t read this, so stop being judgy buttheads and go read!

Nominated by @flamencodiva

The Choice (series) by @superfanficnatural

A couple of things. 1) this is an amazing fic that highlights Dean unwillingness to let himself go until it’s almost too late. and 2) the smut in this is hot hot hot hot! not for anyone under 18 years of age.

Mert has a way with words and can literally pluck you into one and make you see it as it comes to life in your head.

Mine (series) by @holylulusworld

Lulu has an abundance of different stories she tells and this one is my favorite of her ABO’s at the moment. (although I love all of them) I think this one deserved a mention. I am glad she joined to Pond so I could help nominate and spread her amazing work!

One Night at a Time (series) by @crashdevlin

Another great fic by Cassie! This one shot full of Angst, Smut, and if you squint just the right amount of Dean fluff. She has a way of capturing your attention and putting you in the world as you read.

What He Lost (oneshot) by @jensengirl83

This short story by Brandy is sure to rip your heart out. she leaves just a bit of hope where you think there is a chance only to crush it completely with the ending. This one is sure to bring you to tears if you are looking for the most delicious angsty story to read.

Nominated by @risingpheonix761

Down The Rabbit Hole (oneshot) by @dontshootmespence

So, this was hysterical. XD I love crack fics, and bad smut in particular, and this one hits the spot. (I’ve also learned several new horrible euphemisms lol). The ending, though? Golden!

Nominated by @myinconnelly1

The Affair (oneshot) by @holylulusworld

I love how well all the characters are portrayed I truly hate everyone except the reader! Well done!!  

Red Riding Hood - or how you ran into a wolf... (oneshot) by @holylulusworld

I have nothing to say about this. I will simply allow the puddle I have become to speak for me. 

Last Omega On Earth (oneshot) by @holylulusworld 

This was a great entry in the ABO world. and we need more of this and more like !!!!! Great work!

My Beta (oneshot) by @holylulusworld

I am a greedy little bitch with this fic.  I think I've read it 3-4 since i first read it this month!!!!!! READ THIS FIC!  

Third Period (oneshot) by @fictionalabyss

Some truly inspiring smut.  Inspiring to change my panties. 

Gods of Twilight (series) by @thecleverdame​

I think i posted this fic in my rec before, but it is so amazing and intricate that i can't stop gushing about it.  Fucking awesome. 

Apple Pie (oneshot) by @bad268​ 

The amazingness of this is great, check this guppy out!

Deal (oneshot) by @bad268 

Comedy at some of its's finest!!! 

Confession (oneshot) by @idreamofplaid

THE FLUFFFFFFF!!!! I don't read straight fluff.  So get the tissues ready.

Fallen (series) by idreamofplaid

My therapist has told me i'm not longer allowed to talk about this fic during our sessions.  So instead i shall now talk about it here... *pulls out soapbox* ahem... *gets pulled away with hook*

Memory (oneshot) by @idreamofplaid

This fic is older, but i love it so much.  I recently went back and reread it, and the angst and reconciliation in this fic are heartwrenching.

Home (oneshot) by @emilyshurley

My dentist bill the month was higher than normal, due to the new cavities caused by this fic.

Imperfectly Yours (oneshot) by @emilyshurley

Cuteness overload as you get Dean's perspective of Home ^^

Second Hand News (oneshot) by @emilyshurley

Alright listen. I am a glutton for punishment.  And this fic, I asked for.  Also i had it set within one of the universes we now own.  That all being said, reading this was like a dose of my own medicine and it fucking hurt.

Honesty And Lies (oneshot) by @crashdevlin

This was super dirty, and great.  Totally recommend. 

Nominated by @deanwinchesterswitch

The Classifieds (oneshot) by @talesmaniac89

This is rip your heart out and stomp on it angst right here. So well written, but so, so heartbreaking.

So Much More Than Perfect (oneshot) by @imagineteamfreewill

This fic is one of the sweetest things I’ve ever read. It made me tear up a bit, but who doesn’t love Dean being the most protective, most adorable dad ever?!

Nominated by @mariekoukie6661

Dear Dean (series) by @smol-and-grumpy

It’s one of those series that makes you wants more after every chapter. It’s a brilliant story.

Left Behind (series) by @kittenofdoomage

It’s the only John Fic I can read over and over and over again. Its hot, the plot is awesome! And it makes me wants more each and every time I read it.

Not Much Left (oneshot) by @impala-dreamer

I think Beka tries to kill her readers every time she writes smut… or she just tap into our mind what we want or what we fantasize about. Every single time I’m speechless by her talents!

Yes Professor (oneshot) by @impala-dreamer

It’s a Misha fic, there’s no one who write Misha the way Beka does!!!

Owe You One (series) by @supernatural-jackles

It’s such a great series! The friends with Benefit and Mechanic!Dean… I just love this so much and I don’t have words to describe how good this one is!!

Flirty In French (oneshot) by @fictionalabyss

This is brilliant, and I know its an old one, but from someone who finally decided to read more and from someone who is from Quebec, this is absolutely brilliant! The flirty french pick up line are so hilarious!

Nominated by @moosekateer13

Watching for Comets (series) by @holylulusworld

This fic beautifully captures the song that it was inspired by.

It also showcases things that when things are meant to be.

I’ll will all fall into place.

Please Trust Me (oneshot) by @holylulusworld

This fic beautifully emotionally captures what it’s like to have trust issues.

Nominated by @fictionalabyss

Last Call (oneshot) by @impala-dreamer 

It was everything we needed and wanted.

Culinary Exploits (oneshot) by @impala-dreamer  

Too utterly ridiculous not to get a mention.

His Omega (oneshot) by @iflostreturntosteverogers 

A sweet little comfort fic of Dean being utterly perfect caring for his Omega. Carrie also pulled off keeping this gender neutral, which isn’t something I see a lot of, and probably something I’d struggle with, so hats off to you, babe.

Poison (oneshot) by @supernatural-jackles 

YES omg i feel this on such a level. I’ve gone through that shit myself. A friend who lets you down so profoundly but then acts as if you’re the most toxic person in the world.  Nothing feels as good as letting go of that shit and moving on to better things. This was beautiful, and perfect, and TRUTH.

Amara (oneshot) by @impala-dreamer  

This one hurt. It really hurt, but it hurt so good that I’m left wanting more.

Take Me Now (oneshot) by @sorenmarie87  

If Dawn doesn’t continue this, I’ll riot.

Stuck On You (oneshot) by @kittenofdoomage  

I rarely read a fic this long (I just don’t usually have the time) but it looked too interesting for me to scroll past, and it had me completely captivated. I needed to know what would happen as if I needed air, even though I could guess how it ended, I needed to read the words. Phenomenal.

Thank you all for the awesome work and great feedback!

These are not actual awards! This system is set up so everyone in the pond has a chance to share the love and promote a fic/author that has grabbed your attention. The more people that participate, and the more everyone remembers to submit their own fics after posting, the better this will be :D

THANK YOU ALL AGAIN, KEEP UP THE AMAZING WORK, AND AS ALWAYS, HAPPY WRITING!

[lattelesbean003]

1-50 for the asks lmao (if you feel like it, but you don’t have to lskdjfls)

1. What’s your sexual orientation?

I’m lesbian! 🏳️‍🌈

2. What are you obsessed with right now?

Uhh, I’m really into Haikyuu!! again. I’m still kinda obsessed with Marvel though lol.

3. Ever done any drugs?

Only prescribed drugs.

4. What piercings do you want?

Ohh, so many. I want three piercing on the lobes of both my ears and a couple cartridge piercings. I’ve kinda thought about a nose ring? But I’m not sure. As a start though I need to get over my fear of needles and actually get my ears pierced.

5. How many people have you kissed?

None.

6. Describe your dream home.

Okay okay. I want a one or two bedroom apartment in Montreal, Quebec. (NYC would be the dream but hahahhhh way too expensive). The kitchen would have dark cabinets with a white counter top, a nice deep sink with a movable faucet, obviously a dishwash and stove, a pretty big stainless steel fridge, a stainless steel microwave, and a toaster. I’d have a nice, big, comfy couch in the living room. There’d be lots of plants (I love plants), and a little table by a window for a ‘dining’ room. Bedroom would be big enough to fit a double or queen bed. Oh! I’d also have bookcases everywhere cause I love books and manga lol.

7. Who are you jealous of?

There are a few fanfic writers that I’m jealous of just cause they’re really good at writing and my dumbass feels inferior and bad about myself. It’s one of the things I hate about myself. I get insecure wayyy too easily.

8. What’s your favorite show to binge?

Right now, Haikyuu!!. I binged it pretty quickly and it’s turning into a comfort show for me lol.

9. Do you watch porn?

I have before, but it makes me uncomfortable.

10. Do you have a secret sideblog?

I do have a blog that I run that I haven’t told anyone about.

11. If you could teleport anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?

Florence, Italy. I wanna go back so baddd.

12. What’s one of your fantasies?

Living a good and happy life and not feeling insecure about literally everything

13. Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced?

No I wouldn’t. Exposing my chest to anyone makes me very uncomfortable. Also, the idea of nipple piercings is very bizarre to me but hey, you do you boo.

14. How would you spend a million dollars?

I would buy way too many books and clothes lmao. Also food. If I didn’t set aside some of it for college, I’d spend it on dumb stuff like that.

15. Are you in a relationship?

No, but I wish. I’d love a girlfriend.

16. Do you follow porn blogs?

Nope!

17. Are you angry with anyone right now?

I’m not angry with anyone, just feeling insecure about my relationship with a couple people cause my brain is stupid.

18. What tattoos do you want?

I want a full sleeve tattoo! Idk what the art would be, mostly because I haven’t actually thought about it toooo much because tattoos involve needles and pain and those are two of my biggest fears. (Failure takes the number one spot though.)

19. If you could change your name, would you? What would you change it to?

Oh uh, idk man. I’ve never thought about it. I’d just stick with Jen.

20. What is something you’re obsessed with?

For fandoms, Haikyuu!! right now, but I love sweet things way too much. Also, bread.

21. Describe your best friend.

Tall, adventurous, takes no shit, smart

22. Tag someone you think is hot.

@ms-bookdragon ;)

23. Who are five of your favorite bands/musical artists?

I mostly like specific songs, rather than one artist. Here are my top five at the moment:

Piano Man / Billy Joel

My Love Will Never Die / AG, Claire Wyndham

Toss a Coin to Your Witcher / Samual Kim, Black Gryphon (I like the remix more than the original)

Dance Monkey / Tones and I

The Sound of Silence / Disturbed

24. What are three places you want to travel?

I really want to go to Quebec (and I might be able to this summer!!), Japan, and Greece. (I also wanna return to Italy).

25. Describe your perfect Friday night.

Sharing lots of laughs with friends.

26. What’s your favorite season?

Spring! I don’t mind winter if it snows, but where I live it mostly rains and it’s annoying lol. We’ve only had like, four dry days since the new year.

27. What’s your pet peeve?

LOUD CHEWING OMG I CAN’T STAND IT. Also when anything scraps against metal. Makes me cringe and tense up like nothing else.

28. Who is the funniest person you know?

A gay guy in my chem class. Also my neighbor. They both have very weird senses of humor but I appreciate them lol.

29. What’s the most overrated movie?

Avengers: Endgame. :3 (I will forever hate that movie lol.)

30. Tag someone you want to talk to but have been too shy to message.

Oh god why you gotta do this to me. @voxofthevoid. Ahh he only knows me from my main not my sideblog. 😭

31. Do you like paper books or ebooks better?

Paper books don’t hurt my eyes as much. I don’t think I could read a paper version of a fanfic though.

32. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick?

Oh oof, uhh none of them? They’re all kinda shitty worlds lol. 

33. If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like?

Lots of button-ups and sweaters. Jeans, converse, scarves, nice dresses and skirts. I don’t have a specific wardrobe, I mostly buy whatever catches my eye.

34. What’s your coffee order?

Depends on my mood, but I mostly buy ice caps at Tim Hortons. Sometimes a french vanilla. At proper coffee shops, I buy a latte or mocha. I can’t handle a normal latte yet though, so it’s normally a caramel latte or something. At Starbucks, I typically buy a caramel frappuccino. When it’s cold, a mocha latte. (The peppermint mocha is yummy.)

35. Do you have a crush on anyone?

Nope, kinda wish I did though. 

36. Do you still have feelings for any of your exes?

Nope! I have on ex and mostly avoid him lol.

37. Have any tattoos?

No, but as I mentioned above I’d love a full sleeve tattoo.

38. Do you drink?

Nah, I’m still underage, alcohol is gross, and I’m not popular enough to be invited to parties.

39. Are you a virgin?

Yis. Still haven’t gotten my first kiss too.

40. Do you have a crush on any of your mutuals?

No

41. How many followers do you have?

On this account, tumblr claims 39, but it’s actually 24 lmao. I have a joint account with another person that has over 1000 followers though.

42. Describe the hottest person you know.

She has a long mousy brown hair, a bunch of ear piercings, really adorable dimples, and a very nice smile. I’m like 99% she’s straight though.

43. What’s your guilty pleasure?

I indulge too much in junk food. 

44. Do you read erotica?

Yupp. I mean, if you count fanfic with sex in them plus the occasional doujinshi.

45. What’s the worst date you’ve ever been on?

The one date I’ve been on wasn’t too bad, but the dude I went out with thought we were a couple after the one date. I feel kinda bad because I led him on for two weeks, unsure how to break it to him that I discovered I was gay soooo.

46. How many people do you follow?

100, but like over half of them aren’t very active.

47. If you could marry any celebrity, who would you pick?

Hmmmmmmm. I don’t have a specific crush on anyone, but maybe Sebastian Stan just cause I wanna be his friend. He’s too old though lol.

48. Describe your ideal partner.

A girl (obviously), who’s could drag me to social events, but also enjoy a quiet night at home. Funny, encouraging/supportive, kind. Also lots of cuddles. I love cuddling and hand holding, plus cheek kisses!! Ahhh

49. Who do you text the most?

Two of my irl friends. They’re both great. I also text the person I have a joint blog with.

50. What’s your favorite kind of weather?

A warm spring day. The sun isn’t too hot, the grass is a lush green, and there’s only a handful of clouds in the sky. On the flip side, if I don’t have to go to school, I love snow. Walking around my neighborhood when it’s totally quiet and peaceful is one of my favorite things to do.

[keikigoodbetter]

The long-prophesied Life Update Post™

Well folks, I know I’ve been pretty absent for a longass time, so here are some various things that have happened/are happening in my life right now:

Sent my little brother off to college at RPI. So proud of him!! He’s also in the Army ROTC program (which is how he can afford to be there lol) and seems to be very successful and happy. It’s very strange being at home without him

As is tradition, we hiked a 14er for his birthday before he moved out. This year we did Mount Princeton, which was definitely not my favorite peak we’ve hiked

We left a few days before P had to be on campus and took a family trip to Quebec City before dropping him off at school. It was the most incredible experience, and I absolutely adored the city. If I spoke French I’d move there in a heartbeat. We only spent a few days but we saw so many beautiful things and met nice people had lovely weather to explore the city in. Maybe I’ll make another post to tell you more about what we did and saw; it was amazing!

Took the semester off from classes and have been working 3-4 days a week. This summer was kinda crazy and really kicked my butt. Things are starting to slow down a little bit with the autumn weather but we had some management changes so it’s still more demanding that I was expecting it to be by October. That’s ok, I like the environment and my coworkers and pull in decent money, so I can’t complain too much

I’ve gotten to see lots of friends in the last few months, which is very nice. I’m putting in the effort to not end up so viciously lonely the way I did last autumn. Still on my own a lot, but it’s been good to see people periodically

Our garden grew wonderfully this year, and we got to harvest so much! Beans and peas, especially, and we had successful peppers for the first time ever haha!

Heard about Ben leaving As It Is and got v sad. Gonna miss that dude :(

For whatever the hell reason, Alice in Wonderland was a recurring motif in my life throughout August and the start of September. Like, to a bizarre extent. It showed up everywhere. So I decided to lean in and am gonna be the Mad Hatter for Halloween, I think

FINALLY got around to reading A Court of Thorns and Roses (which @hontohaunter recommended to me months ago oops) and loved it! Can’t wait to get into the series further

My hair, which was stick-straight my whole life, is starting to get very curly. It’s freaking me out

Went with @e-nticinglies to a show at Tracks over the weekend, where the dj pair was called Fleetmac Wood and only played dance remixes of Fleetwood Mac songs. The theme was “gold dust disco” so everyone was all done up sparkly and it was amazing. Had such a fun time!

And now my two most important pieces of news:

I got tickets to the Hella Mega Tour next summer!!!!!!!! Paid far FAR too much for the seats I got, but that’s ok because FOB/Green Day/Weezer/The Interrupters?!! Together??!!! Legit cried when I got my hands on tickets I’m already so excited to go. And...

I’M GOING TO ACL MUSIC FESTIVAL NEXT WEEKEND AND THE CURE IS PLAYING!! I’m literally losing my mind! I’ve never even been to Texas before, and gonna spend several days in Austin with one of my best friends. It’s gonna be so fun! :D AND I’M GONNA SEE THE CURE LIVE I JUST DKSLADSFKLJJ

So that’s that on that. My life has been kinda busy but not too busy. I promise I’ll be on here much more now that work is settling. Missed y’all and I love each one of you so much <3 Happy Spooky Season, babes!

[1112lw]

Every question!!

SDFFSDFG DAM OK SIS

LONG POST AHEAD IF U LITERALLY WANNA KNOW ME PERSONALLY JUST READ THIS LMFAO

1: Name: Arche/Jupiter, my close friends know my real name so!

2: Age: High school has just been done so try to guess

3: Fears: Heights, oral presentations, the dark

4: 3 things I love: Drawing, men- concept art n stuff like that

5: 4 turns on: Oh here we go- uhh thighs, messy hair? when they give u The Look or when they. say things i will not talk about here HHGBDF n uhhh Arms 👀👀

6: 4 turns off: weird macho attitude, overly confident bullshit, being selfish and fuckboys in general

7: My best friend: not sure what this means but my bff is named Daphnée n i love her and ive known her my whole life so 

8: Sexual orientation: homosexuale

9: My best first date: :))))))) as if

10: How tall am I: sigh. I’m 5″4

11: What do I miss: sometimes i miss the feeling loved ig

12: What time were I born: 12:19

13: Favourite color: pink!

14: Do I have a crush

15: Favourite quote: My senior quote!! “if what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, I’m telling you I’m immortal”

16: Favourite place: well? my room ig? I like my yard too

17: Favourite food: ugh ramen,,,korean dishes are TASTE as fuck but i also like classic ass spaghetti so like lol

18: Do I use sarcasm: does it look like i dont

19: What am I listening to right now: dr.phil LMFAO

20: First thing I notice in new person: Hair and eyes!! also how they laugh

21: Shoe size: Like. a 7-8 in women’s 6 in men’s 

22: Eye color: Hazel/Golden yes bitch let me be special

23: Hair color: it’s either dark brown or golden brown idk

24: Favourite style of clothing: bruv its either kpoppie fuckboy or uwu skirts pastels

25: Ever done a prank call?: no i have anxiety

26: Meaning behind my URL:

27: Favourite movie: rise of the guardians and HTTYD

28: Favourite song: Comeback Home (BTS cover)

29: Favourite band: looks in the camera i dont know nan molla huh

30: How I feel right now: I’m fine im hungry

31: Someone I love: shoutout to my babeys in my server ily

32: My current relationship status: Single(tm)

33: My relationship with my parents: theyre fine ig just a bit tired

34: Favourite holiday:

35: Tattoos and piercing I have: Ear piercings? that’s it

36: Tattoos and piercings I want:

37: The reason I joined Tumblr:

38: Do I and my last ex hate each other? I sure hope not?

39: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? A bit ig?

40: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? Literally no

41: When did I last hold hands? Like last Friday

42: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 20 minutes

43: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? no i havent shaved in like months

44: Where am I right now? in my room, in quebec, canada

45: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? bitch i sure hope my friends would

46: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? fuck my ears 

47: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? yeah

48: Am I excited for anything? yeah? yeah

49: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? ig? always

50: How often do I wear a fake smile? just at work tbh

51: When was the last time I hugged someone? not long ago i cant tell but my friends r cuddle monsters so 

52: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? i havent kissed anyone so 

53: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? lemme think uhhh no not rlly im not dumb 

54: What is something I disliked about today? i woke up n i thought i had school lol

55: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? oh john cock i want to be ur best friend

56: What do I think about most? i daydream 24/7

57: What’s my strangest talent? uhhh i can put my thumb behind my hand?

58: Do I have any strange phobias? trypophobia, if thats “weird”

59: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? depends on what the video is, mostly behind

60: What was the last lie I told? idk answering to my deadname

61: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? online

62: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? I slightly believe in ghosts? also aliens GOTTA exist so 

63: Do I believe in magic? i think!

64: Do I believe in luck? yeah

65: What’s the weather like right now? very pretty i filmed a video outside!!

66: What was the last book I’ve read? L’Étranger d’Albert Camus in french class

67: Do I like the smell of gasoline? yes my dad’s a mechanic

68: Do I have any nicknames? a lot a lot

69: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? bitch @ my birth #neverforget 

70: Do I spend money or save it? i have 40$ in my name right now

71: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? no

72: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? yes highlighter

73: Favourite animal? cats or otters

74: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? FBISDFD NO WE DONT TALK ABOUT IT

75: What do I think is Satan’s last name idk he can have any last name he wants!!!

76: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? everytime i start hearing “waiting for you anpanman” or “i just wanna go home” 👀👀

77: How can you win my heart? aaahh. be a twink. b fashionable. b funny. cheesy. pls romance me like a npc in the sims 2

78: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? s(he) died smh

79: What is my favorite word? cunt is SUCH a satisfying word

80: My top 5 blogs on tumblr? oh great uh honestly cant be fucked 

81: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? please have brain. PLEASE

82: Do I have any relatives in jail? i sure hope the fuck not?

83: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? either invisibility or mind reading

84: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? ahaaa “what are your intrusive thoughts”

85: What is my current desktop picture? my lesbian sims getting married LMFAO

86: Had sex? no

87: Bought condoms? no

88: Gotten pregnant? NO

89: Failed a class? i think yeah maths last year

90: Kissed a boy? :(((

91: Kissed a girl? no

92: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? no

93: Had job? I have a job rn so 

94: Left the house without my wallet? yeah when i go to school

95: Bullied someone on the internet? define bullying?

96: Had sex in public? virgin squad

97: Played on a sports team? yeah

98: Smoked weed? no ew

99: Did drugs? no ew

100: Smoked cigarettes? NO EW

101: Drank alcohol? yep 

102: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? no i’d die

103: Been overweight? i’m twig

104: Been underweight? i think i was underweight when i was young? i was very Small

105: Been to a wedding? yes very long boring

106: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? bruh. everyday

107: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? probably?

108: Been outside my home country? ONCE

109: Gotten my heart broken? TWICE !

110: Been to a professional sports game? yesss canadians game!!

111: Broken a bone? no

112: Cut myself? not technically 

113: Been to prom? SOON SOON SOON SOSOSNSBFSHDD

114: Been in airplane? once

115: Fly by helicopter? i am not rich bitch

116: What concerts have I been to? noneeee- WAIT NO MARIE MAI

117: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? not sex but for the purpose of pretending i have a penis yes plenty

118: Learned another language? yeah!! i learned english, i almost learned spanish and i’m trynna learn korean now

119: Wore make up? i try!! but i’m not super good

120: Lost my virginity before I was 18? not 18 yet but it’s goin that way

121: Had oral sex? as if 

122: Dyed my hair? i wishhh

123: Voted in a presidential election? I WISH THE ELECTIONS R ONE MONTH B4 MY BIRTHDAY 

124: Rode in an ambulance? nope

125: Had a surgery? yes at a week old 

126: Met someone famous? i think yes but i was super small

127: Stalked someone on a social network? define stalked?

128: Peed outside? yes

129: Been fishing? YES

130: Helped with charity? i think? we do volunteering so 

131: Been rejected by a crush? not directly

132: Broken a mirror? no 

133: What do I want for birthday? boyf......boy..boyff

134: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? oh man uhh maybe 2-3, i dont know their names yet honestly

135: Was I named after anyone? MY DAD NAMED ME AFTER A FUCKIN CLIENT HE MET. as for my actual name now I named myself after my fav video game character. lit

136: Do I like my handwriting? yeah!!

137: What was my favourite toy as a child? bitch hot wheels

138: Favourite Tv Show? hells kitchen,,,,judge judy,,,anythin like that

139: Where do I want to live when older? honestly i wish i could just live in japan or tokyo, or new york? but i will most likely end up in montreal 

140: Play any musical instrument? i used to play the clarinet last year!!

141: One of my scars, how did I get it? the one on my knee, i scratched my desk with my knee 

142: Favourite pizza toping? my dad makes AMAZING sea food pizzas,,,

143: Am I afraid of the dark? a lot

144: Am I afraid of heights? A LOT

145: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? idk prolly? im a bit of a goody two shoes or however u spell it

146: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end: dont we all

147: What I’m really bad at: organizing my anxiety n shit i get overwhelmed

148: What my greatest achievments are: finishing high school 

149: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: honestly has to be that time someone dug up my vent post about being dysphoric to try to say i hated myself with some dumbass DySphorIa Is SelF HaTRed argument

150: What I’d do if I won in a lottery: pay my parents’ debt off, buy 284223$ of BT21 merch, pay my whole college/uni and transition

151: What do I like about myself: idk i like how i literally do not give a fuck anymore and ive learned to love myself instead of trynna care

152: My closest Tumblr friend: @peptobismol-official​ @ace-landofthesun​ @dorkalisious​ and ana but idk her @ anymore :((( ana pls

153: Something I fantasise about: we dont talk about that

154: Any thoughts on the paranormal?: lit. please stop crawling in my ceiling !

ok now that u know my whole biography. go doxx me ig. bye bye

[ramuma]

❤ tag game :~) ❤

thank u @rebelfinn for tagging me!! B^) i’ll always do these u kno me too well lmao 😂💐💐

rules: answer all 20 questions and tag 20 people 

Nickname: my Greatest Pals call me gabija or namie ;^) but i’ve also been called gaby, gabe, gabs, + nam. 

Zodiac: sagittarius!! the best.

Height: 5'3" / 160cm

Time: 11:39

Favorite Band/Artist: idk! alina orlova ofc, and fleetwood mac ?? oh and nicole dollanganger of course how could i forget An Icon. 

Song stuck in my head: it keeps alternating between silver springs by fleetwood mac and ‘who lives who dies who tells your story’. All Week!!!! lmao 

Last movie I saw: incredibles 2, actually recently! i rarely go see movies but my sister took me & our younger siblings to see it 

Last thing I googled: autism forums i think 

Other blogs: like,, my other blogs?? i have some! one is just for venting and emo stuff lol, & i have one for witchy stuff. :-)

Do I get asks: some! times! would lov more lol 

Why did I choose this username: wanted something more aesthetic.... more lithuanian...... ‘ramuma’ is 1 of my favorite songs and it was open so!!!!!! my brand was born. 

Following: 485! yikes

Average amount of sleep: six hours ??? average

Lucky number: i like 66 

What am I wearing: blue + white striped shirt from my grandmother, the very soft blue shorts i slept in, & a gold cross necklace i also got from my grandmother! :^) <3 everythin i lov is from her

Dream job: reclusive poet......... or a director

Dream trip: i want to go to quebec and france! and iceland. lots of places i want to visit, but i think somewhere french-speaking is my Top Priority rn.

Fave food: ....bread. any kind of bread. bread with raisins. baguettes. rye. juoda duona? powerful. 

Play any instruments: i can play the harmonica pretty well haha

Eye color: brown

Hair color: also brown B) but i dyed it blonde and then blue so Right Now its dark brown at the top and greenish-brown at the bottom lol

Describe yourself as aesthetic things: maybe very old very boring books, handwriting so messy its undecipherable even to me, abandoned houses, running with a dog through a field, and baking bread, + sunshine!!! love sunshine. excessive use of + and &. 

Languages I speak: lithuanian, english and french are the ones i’m best at right now! my spanish and russian could be better!! 

Most iconic song: dancing queen by abba B)

Random fact: i used to hate clowns and bugs but all the clown and bug positivity on this website has really changed that and it feels very nice to go outside and no longer fear clowns and bugs! i love them and seek them out. 

i dont think i’ll tag anyone bc i dont think i have any mutuals who would want to do it 🤔🤔 but if u do, then i tag u!!! congrats!! ♡♡♡

[labelleangel]

Tag of Basic Information ~ okie dokie so I just saw I was tagged in this and it's like 3:30 in the morning and I can't sleep (plus I saw this video on sleep paralysis and it freaked me out) (plus I'm on my phone which makes things tough) (and thank you Emily for tagging me I'm too tired to search up your username rn but thank you ily bae) ABC tag AGE – 18 BIGGEST FEAR – probably being disliked or being a disappointment/a failure. Also clowns, fuck clowns. I used to be extremely scared of spiders and I still am but I'm able to kill them now CURRENT TIME – 3:39 am but will probably be after 4am when I finish this DRINK YOU LAST HAD – Water EVERYDAY STARTS WITH – Coffee, a pb&j, and a clementine FAVORITE SONG – I have a lot but I'm gonna try to keep it brief. Any Disney song, My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion, Evermore by Josh Groban, Ride by Lana Del Rey, a shitload of Beatles songs there's too many to list, Monkees songs, and songs from Newsies, Joseph and the Technicolor Dreamcoat GHOSTS, ARE THEY REAL? – Bill Nye and other scientists say nah but I've seen a couple things that make me think "shit, probably" HOMETOWN – ive been told it's a stereotype that we're bitchy and I don't doubt it. But we're hipster af I feel IN LOVE WITH – My dog Angus, Leo DiCaprio, speaking french and anything french related (if you're from Quebec or France hmu let's communicate a bitch is tryna become fluent) and nature. JEALOUS OF – People who are straight A students easily and people with clear skin KILLED SOMEONE – Shhhh LAST TIME YOU CRIED – idk probably yesterday MIDDLE NAME – Lindsay NO. OF SIBLINGS – one ONE WISH – to be able to speak all the languages of the world fluently PERSON I LAST CALLED/TEXTED – My homegirl Gillian (love you boo) QUESTION YOU’RE ALWAYS ASKED – I used to be asked if I was in college when I was still in high school but now I'm in college I'm not asked that anymore lol REASON TO SMILE – Emily had a FANTASTIC list so mine would probably be similar to hers. LEGGO: sunrises and sunsets. The beach. A walk through the woods on a sunny day. Snuggling up with a pet. Snuggling up with a person. Seeing a loved one for the first time in forever. Disney movies. Romance movies and fairy tales. Hearing something in a language you're trying to learn and being able to understand it. Finding seashells on the beach. Traveling to a new place and seeing the landscape change. Confiding in someone and having them listen to you. Intellectual and deep conversations. Concerts. Unity when tragedy strikes the world. Love. Being in love. Being in a great big lake and floating on your back and closing your eyes. MUSIC. A GOOD ASS PLAYLIST FOR ANY OCCASION. EMPHASIS ON LEARNING A NEW LANGUAGE. There's so much more of any of y'all wanna discuss messaging works lmao SONG LAST SANG - Love Potion °9 by i forgot TIME YOU WOKE UP – 10:30 am UNDERWEAR – none cus I'm in my pj's VACATION DESTINATION? – I'm trying to get to Quebec this summer but I love traveling in general. I'd honestly go anywhere WORST HABIT – picking and peeling the whites of my nails off and probably being messy when it comes to my room YOUR FAVORITE FOOD – I LOOOOVE SPAGHETTI AND JUST PASTA IN GENERAL ZODIAC – Leo BOLD tag ~ listen, a bitch is tired so I'm just gonna put yesses next to them if they apply cus I'm still on my phone and I don't think I can bold anything → appearance: I I am 5′7″ or taller- yes 5'8"
I I wear glasses
I have at least one tattoo
i have at least one piercing - yes, my ears
i have brown eyes i have short hair
my abs are at least somewhat defined- i have a couple bumps near the top but they're not totally "defined" i have or have had braces -yes I hated them 
There is something I would change about the way I look - yes I'm trying to get my hair cut into layers soon → personality: I My Hogwarts house is: Gryffindor Hufflepuff - gryffindor af (lowkey used to be in ravenclaw but it's a long story and now I'm in gryffindor) Ravenclaw Slytherin 
I am an introvert 
i like/love meeting new people - yes yes yes
people tell me that i’m funny - maybe, but it's mostly me telling myself 
i enjoy physical challenges -sometimes
i enjoy mental challenges -It depends 
i’m playfully rude with people i know well - yes but I try not to be too mean 
i started saying something ironically and now i can’t stop saying it - yes its awful someone help 
There is something I would change about my personality -yup → ability: I I can sing well 
i can play an instrument 
i can do over 30 pushups without stopping
i’m a fast runner - I guess???
i can draw well - i have sketches all over the place 
i have a good memory 
I’m good at doing math in my head 
i can hold my breath underwater for over a minute - I can hold my breath for 9 hours
i have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling 
i know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch
i know how to throw a proper punch - yes thanks to my brother → hobbies: I i enjoy playing sports - yes i love playing soccer and baseball and volleyball and just being active 
I’m in a orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else
i have learned a new song in the past week
i work out at least once a week - I try to
i’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months - yes cus volleyball kept me in pretty good shape and now that's over idk what else to do with myself 
i have drawn something in the past month
i enjoy writing - yes and the best gift you could give me is a journal
Fandoms are my #1 passion
i do or have done martial arts → experiences: I i have had my first kiss - yes
i have had alcohol - yes
i have scored the winning goal in a sports game - yes
I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting
i have been at an overnight event -yes
i have been in a taxi 
I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year - I should've added hospitals to the list of things I'm afraid of, but thankfully no i haven't been to the ER lately
I have beaten a video game in one day
i have visited another country - Canada ig??
i have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts - One Direction yo → relationship: I I’m in a relationship 
i have a celebrity crush - basically any cute actor but it always comes back to Leo DiCaprio 
I have a crush on someone I know 
i have been in at least 3 relationships 
I have never been in a relationship
i have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them 
I get crushes easily - same as what Emily said, i get infatuated but i don't get crushes super easily. But if i like you i god damn like you A LOT
I have had a crush on someone for over a year
I have been in a relationship for at least a year 
i have had feelings for a friend → my life: I i have at least one person i consider a “best friend” - hey gilli and Teags (and my follege besties OF COURSE) where you at 
i live close to my school my parents are still together -yep
i have at least one sibling - yes
i live in the united states -yes
There is snow right now where I live
i have hung out with a friend outside of school in the past month - I hung out with friends in the past two days actually 
i have a smartphone - yes it's what I'm using to painstakingly type all this out on 
I have at least 15 CDs 
I share my room with someone → random shit: I i have breakdanced 
i know a person named jamie 
I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce 
i have dyed my hair
i’m listening to one song on repeat right now 
i have punched someone in the past week
i know someone who has gone to jail -yes but I can't say who
I have broken a bone 
I have eaten a waffle today 
i know what i want to do with my life - mostly, I just hope it all works out
i speak at least 2 languages fluently - IM FUCKING TRYING. IM TRYING SO DAMN HARD. IMMA GET THERE SERIOUSLY IF YOU ARE A NATIVE FRENCH SPEAKER HIT ME UP!!!!! 
i have made a new friend in the past year - @ All the friends I made at college you're all the bomb Okay so now imma tag @squiinty and @plurth and @natsukashiiii I legit copied and pasted @yixingding 's post and re-wrote everything (iPhone probs) and it's now 4:05 am lol but this was fun my Leo ass loves talking about myself so I invite literally anybody to do this too and THANK YOU EM&M FOR TAGGING ME ITS SO FUNNY I SAW THIS AT LIKE 3:30 IN THE MORNING I MISS YOU BOO

[viranlly]

#FINDCHRISTMASHERE: Why Victoria is your next Holiday Destination

in partnership with Tourism Victoria

Behold! The season to eat, drink and be merry is upon us! Everyone has their own holiday season fantasy - for me, I still want to somehow get into a wrong flight and end up in NYC a la Kevin McCallister sans the two crazies running after me - obvs!

This year, I am lucky enough that my Harbour Air flight took me to Victoria so I got to experience a very festive, yet relaxing Christmas there (which came 2nd on Conde Nast Best Small Cities in the world, btw!). You know what, I tooooottaaally get it! 

Victoria feels especially cozy and jolly around this time of the year. First of all, they don’t kid around with their Christmas lights. Whether it’s street lights, store displays, or alley ways, every corner of downtown Victoria is literally lit up. They obviously light up the entire parliament building with a LOT and I mean A LOT of lights.

Upon my arrival, just like everyone who knows how to live their lives properly, I was looking for fine coffee and food. We made a stop at Nourish in the corner of Quebec St. An extremely charming two-level house turned into coffeeshop, restaurant, and bar with cozy common area where people can work and hang out. It just so happened that the lovely Jordan was in town that day so we had to do a little tête-à-tête, and a cup-o-latte. 

Habit, Discovery, and Hey Happy are also fabulous options for coffee! 

With caffeine in our system, we made our way to the newly opened Superbaba for some deliiiiish Falafels, loads of hummus, and deep-fried eggplant - my friend Dallah spent countless hours perfecting every dishes on the menu and I have to say, I’m very pleased with everything! 

Some of my other favorite food stops: Fish Hook (Get the smoked sable fish fish and chips), OLO, Bodega for some spanish tapas, and Agrius (duh!).

Believe it or not, we somehow still had room in our 4 stomaches for some treats from Fol Epi: butter tart, kouign amann, and oh some canelle too - lol, yup, all of ‘em and nope, I ain’t sorry.

The sad thing was, it got dark at around 4.15PM, the great thing tho, remember when I said the streets got all lit up? Ya, you’d have plenty of time to enjoy the chirstmas lights around. We took a stroll around Johnston street for some light shopping and enjoying the surroundings, made a stop at Market Square before getting around Chinatown to explore the infamous alley ways. OH did I mention that Victoria also has some of the best vintage shopping scene?! (Hello gorgeous glasswares!!!)

A day full of shopping and eating pastries surely was exhausting! We finally made it to cocktail hour(s)! Started of with some small bites, a martini and a sherry flight at Bodega, we then made our way to Clarke and Co for some more food and a negroni.

Matt from the bar suggested we go to Veneto, a couple blocks up the street. This is another thing I really appreciate about Victoria, the downtown is walkable and everything is within 15 minute walk from each other. In addition to the festive lights, Victoria has a fantastic food and beverage scene, especially the beverage!

Veneto was bustling with people lined up to sit at the bar that night, unfortunately. So we decided to head to out next destination: Little Jumbo! Tucked in a building on lower Fort street, this place has been local’s favorite since they were open couple years back. Whether you’re in the mood for some original and seasonal cocktails, or something classic (more martinis please!), the team got you! Oh just make sure you check their gin list, you might find a surprise or two there ;)

For our nightcap, we visited a place we’ve been itching to go since their opening was announced: Foxtrot Tango Whiskey. The mood: 1950′s Chateau Marmont. “Oh Toto, I don’t think we’re in Victoria anymore” was the exact thought passing through my mind as we’re flipping the folded newspaper menu.

The drinks: Some of the most delicious cocktails I’ve had - Black truffle old fashioned, and my favorite: Duck duck goose - Foie gras washed Vieux Carré. Pardon my french but these cocktails are bitchin’

FTW is conveniently located behind the Fairmont Empress where we stayed this time, so yea, the walk home was a literal breeze.

Speaking of, if you haven’t heard already, the Empress just finished their multi-million dollar facelift and being reintroduced in the summer this year. Everything about the hotel is STUNNING. The lobby is beautifully decorated just in time for the holiday, and let’s not forget the crystal chandeliers, made with over 250,000 pieces of crystal. How’s that for fabulous?!

Another thing you have to do while you’re in Victoria, at least once in your life: the champagne afternoon tea at the Empress. Picture this: a glass of veuve, tiers of delicious sweet and savory treats (Yes, they come in tiers), and selections of 22 classic and exotic teas, while live music is playing and you’re overlooking the harbour! It surely is an afternoon to look forward to. Oh, they also just launched their holiday menu!

If you’re feeling extra festive, the place is to be is the Twelve Days of Christmas at Butchart Gardens. This Victoria’s classic establishment gets their extra festive remix every year on December 1st to celebrate the holidays. By festive I mean, LIGHTS - everywhere! and I mean EVERYWHERE! The garden is set up according to the song and it is beyond adorable!

I had yet another incredible time in Victoria and now my expectation on holiday decor got up a notch (I’m looking at you streets of Vancouver HA!). You have to come visit here sometimes soon! And yes, coming here for the holiday is highly recommended!

#ExploreVictoria

Happy Holidays err’one!

[aishiterude]

11/19/2017 2:24 pm A thank you letter

Dear S.

I don’t know if you’re ever going to see this. I don’t know if I’d ever tell you this now. I needed to write this before all my memories become faded over time. I needed to write this because since I’ve been holding on to the memories of you. my memories have become hazy and gotten to the point where I’m remembering wrong information. This isn’t a post about trying to get back together. I understand you want to move on, and I have to respect your wishes.

This is a post about me thanking you for everything that you’ve done for me. The fact is that there was so much I took for granted. It took me a break up to fully appreciate your being, character and personality. 

Thank you for being patient, loving, kind and unconditional with me. For the times that I was being stupid and you putting up with my fits. For teaching me coping methods on how to better my emotions. For teaching me on my manners and respect for others. For teaching me about empathy and sympathy. For teaching me on how to love, when I didn’t know what that was. Thank you for being there for me when I needed you. You were there for me during my darkest times. Thank you for being there for me when my grand mother passed away. Thank you for helping me patch things with my brother when we weren’t talking for a year. Thank you for helping the family become closer. Thank you for making an attempt to become part of my family. Thank you for dealing with my anxiety and panic attacks. For being a shoulder to cry on when I couldn’t keep things in. Thank you for being proud of me every time something good happened. Especially during that time where my mother called me a disappointment, and I was at such a low point. You cried with me. Thank you for being my biggest fan at one point. Thank you for being my first kiss, my first love, my first girlfriend. Thank you for being with me through many adventures, from “going to Quebec”, to Niagara falls, festivals, Ottawa, Calgary, and all over Toronto. Thank you for going through my phases. Thank you for being interested in me. Thank you for calling me handsome when I don’t believe it myself. Thank you for showing your dedication and loyalty to me by wearing that promise ring I gave you until it wore out. Thank you for the times that you paid for dinner and going out when I didn’t have a job. Thank you for cooking dinner and having warm arms to go to. Thank you for being there when we were raising Bella. Every time I look at her, I think of you. Thank you for choosing me when there were others who caught your attention. Thank you for putting all your love to me when we went through a roller coaster of a relationship. Thank you for spending hours on end of watching Naruto. For trying to like the same things that I liked. For doing all of the “Firsts” for me. For making my first relationship so sappy and romantic that it holds the standard for everything. Thank you for showing me how to be selfless, something that I needed to learn. Thank you for showing me that I need to be honest with others in a nice way, not a blunt way. Thank you for your lectures on how to be better as a person. I didn’t appreciate it at the time but fuck that has really impacted me. Thank you for trying to stop me from swearing, I still swear but thank you for attempting. Thank you for trying to teach me how to swim. I’m still pretty shit at it but, at least I can float LOL. Thank you for showing me your culture and making me apart of that. Thank you for the free coffees and french vanillas earlier in our relationship when you worked at Tim Hortons. Thank you for making me believe in love when I was over 10000 km away in the Philippines, I mean long distance almost killed us but I’m glad it didn’t. LOL thank you for calling me cute even though I had such SHITTY haircuts. Thank you for the food you always brought to my room and helped stock my closet. In addition, thank you for trying to make me eat healthier. Thank you for showing me that you don’t need money to be happy or to do things to make you happy. Thank you for doing things even though you didn’t want too. Thank you for changing your name on league to a couple name with me. Thank you for letting me win in Mario Kart sometimes. Thank you for taking me as your date to events. Thank you for letting the CN tower be such a memorable place for me. Thank you for taking care of me when I was sick, for when I was drunk as fuck, and even when I was high. Thank you for helping me when I was raging in league, I know it was tough hearing me complain non stop. Thank you for listening to my boring day, hearing my rants, and helping me with my conflicts trying to see a different perspective. Thank you for going to the Against the Current concert with me, I know you didn’t know any songs but you still went with me because you wanted to experience that. From your little cute notes, to your birthday scavenger hunt. From the many gifts you’ve left me and many special occasions we’ve been through. Even being there for the last episode of How I met your mother(one of my favorite shows). Thank you for showing me your being, every part of you. Thank you for putting up with me for all this time. I’m so thankful that you and I were so determined to make us last. It just tears my heart that I ruined that. Thank you for the second chances. Thank you for sharing such wonderful moments in my life with me. Thank you for being apart of who I am today. Thank you for the 3 years and 6 months. Thank you for being there for me when I was suicidal even though I broke your heart you were still there for me. That just shows how much of a mature person you’ve been and are still continuing to be. You’re someone who still teaches me lessons to this very day.

Thank you SYK. 

Ps. I’m pretty sure I’m leaving some stuff out but, if I do remember It’ll be in my heart and kept there forever.

C.