#is all teehee hahaha no one take this too seriously

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tf2 star sign headcanons

Aries: Soldier and Heavy

Taurus: Engie

Gemini: Merasmus 

Cancer: idk sandvich??? maybe?? scout’s ma?? Bruppy?

Leo: Scout and Saxton Hale

Virgo: Sniper and Administrator

Libra: Archimedes

Scorpio: Spy and grey mann

Sagittarius: Demo and Zhanna

Capricorn: Miss Pauling and Engie’s grandfather

Aquarius: Medic

Pisces: Pyro (and balloonicorn) 

Their elements-

Water Signs: Spy, Grey Mann, Pyro, Balloonicorn, bruppy, sandvich, Scout’s ma

Fire Signs: Soldier, Heavy, Saxton Hale, Scout, Demo, Zhanna

Earth Signs: Engie, Sniper, Administrator, Miss Pauling, Engie’s Grandfather

Air Signs: Medic, Archimedes, Merasmus

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Since you wrote that ficlet of Teddy and Max, I can't help but think how Terry might die from secondhand embarrassment watching Max's cringe fails in Hollow Point. How Max functions daily with one brain cell and survives might be interesting for Teddy to uncover though...lol. This pairing cracks me up so much hahaha. Oil and water, kitten and dog.

Teddy probably loves all things artsy and deeply thought provoking, meanwhile Max has up to two thoughts per day and is satisfied watching infomercials and B movies. At least Max is funny and hot!

I must be the only one on Tumblr who doesn't think Max Parrish is an idiot, teehee! I don't think they let you do his job if you really were stupid. I think Max copes with the reality of his work: violent crime, a lot of destitution by not taking anything at all seriously. I'm sure he can think deeply, but infomercials are more relaxing. And he gets Teddy's interests but he doesn't want him hanging around the broody, artsy types too much. They wallow in his boy's misery. And I can see Teddy falling for someone like Terry McCain too, who reminds him of all the tensions and violence and fear and deep feelings but Max is so good for him because he's like: "Yes, but we can also do nice things instead. Meet people, have a barbecue, go dancing. Here, let's go do this indoor climbing trial thing." Does Teddy even know what fun looks like, come on! Maybe watching telenovelas with abuela or writing. It's all escapism. He needs some actual fun. Enjoying being in his own life would do him good!

Of course Teddy would still need to process his entire childhood but Max needs him to know that that's just a part of life. Going to the arcade or pulling silly faces in a photo booth is also part of life. Stand up is also part of life. But I do think he could really listen to Teddy if Teddy wanted to share a story or memory with him.

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Thought I’d upload some more rp stuff since it’d probably be important for Giorno’s relation to everyone in our au for you guys to know, particularly the three sisters and Dio.

This is when Joseph and Avdol talk to the twins about Dio, the rest of the group already knows, takes place shortly after Shanna apologized to everyone for kinda being a...bitch. Writing is from an rp between @kazekothestrange and I for our au. No pictures to accompany it this time, I’m tired and hungry. :c

Dio in our au is a little different from canon. We wanted to have some JoJo antagonists to have a chance at redemption. Those two ended up being Dio and Pucci. We really wanted Mudad to actually be a thing in our story, see what would of happened if Dio was actually able to find someone to love instead of lust after, (look we all know Dio is a horny bisexual vampire lmao) and basically, see how that could affect his character, if he had something more to care about than trying to become essentially the ruler of the world. We also made him a little smarter and had him be a frequent traveler who would only settle down in a country for maybe a year before going to another one. So hes not in fricken Egypt the whole time.

Hopefully that summary will give you guys an idea! If you’re not a fan of it, that’s ok! Your opinion is valid! You don’t have to read the rp excerpt! For those who are, enjoy~

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Kazeko: JoJo, please. *she gently scolds him, having taken note of their insistence that their hand holding was nothing*

Joseph: Whaaaat?

Kakyoin: *he laughs, covering his mouth. what a weird, lively group*

Avdol: *he blinks in surprise* Jotaro....has a girlfriend?

Shanna: I'm his girlfriend!?

Rose: Pfu!

Jotaro: ... *his face turns red and all he can do is cover it with his hand to hide it, mumbling a few curse words*

Joseph: Ok, fine, fine, she's NOT your girlfriend!

Shanna: I'm not? :c

Holly: I think WE'RE confusing them now! Teehee~!

Jotaro: *he grumbles louder, tightening his grip around her shoulders*

Avdol: Ahh hahaha, s-sorry.

Kazeko: A-anyway! Mr. Avdol, what did you find out? Anything at all?

Jotaro: ... *letting out an exhale and thanking her mentally, he lowers his hand*

Shanna: *ahem* ....A-Anyway....Kakyoin, you better come hear me play, got it? If we're gonna be friends, you gotta hear me play at least once~!

Holly: *she smiles, glad the kids seem to be getting along just fine now*

Avdol: I will admit, I did get quite distracted, the Kujo library actually had some old folklore studies that I couldn't put down! As for the photo, even with the aid of my flames, it was still too dark to see anything.

Shanna: Hm? A photo? *she looks over, abruptly distracted from her conversation with Kakyoin and the other teens for now* Maybe I can take a look? I got hawk eyes!

Rose: I thought you had musician ears?

Kakyoin: *he perks up again* Video games-??

Shanna: Hai! Every little secret, collectable, route, ending, none of them escape me!

Avdol: Well...I suppose it can't hurt. *he hands the photo over to her*

Shanna: *she takes the photo and stares intensely at it* Hmm....

Rose: So...?

Shanna: *Suddenly, she lets out a gasp*

Avdol: My word! What do you see!?

Shanna: NOT A DAMN THING!

Kazeko: Ahaha... *she laughs good naturedly, sweatdropping*

Joseph: Oh well. *he sighs, shrugging* Maybe we'll need a microscope or something.

Jotaro: Microscopes aren't the same thing as magnifying glasses, old man.

Joseph: Well it's worth a try anyway!

Shanna: Mm, but there is one thing I must say....

Avdol: Oh? So there was something you noticed??

Shanna: This guy, he... looks REALLY familiar to me... why do you have tasteful nudes of him?

*Suddenly, everyone else but Rose and Shanna gain a look of shock that is quickly replaced by a serious look, Shanna recognizes Dio!?*

Joseph: You do?! *he puts a hand down heavily on the table, shaking the tea set* Where from?! Was he somewhere around here?

Kazeko: *raising from her seat slightly, she puts her hands on Joseph's shoulder* C-calm down JoJo, you don't need to pressure her!

Jotaro: *amidst the commotion, he looks down at the petite brunette in surprise. how could she know Dio? Even he didn't know the guy existed until yesterday*

Shanna: *she blinks multiple times in surprise* Ah- I can try to rack my brain around for some answers, its been some time since I've seen him.

Avdol: Please, anything at all will be of help!

Holly: Shanna-chan....*her eyebrows upturn* How do you know this man?

Shanna: G-Guys, you're kinda pressuring me, give me a moment to think, ok?

Rose: Shanna let me see. *she takes the photo and her eyes widen as well* He....Shanna, this is no mistaking it. This is HIM.

Shanna: Right!? There was no way it couldn't be! Is he some kind of a model now?

Rose: Shanna and I were acquainted with him when we were in our early teens.

Shanna: Hahaha! Yeah! Didn't he think we were orphaned or something and tried to take us in? Something about our teeth!

Avdol: Wh-What...? Do....Do you two have any idea just who this man is...?

Shanna: Sure I do! Hes a rich guy with a redhead spouse and has a son!

Rose: What was his name again....Dio?

Shanna: Yeah that's it!

Joseph: ... *he can feel his blood run cold. he feels simultaneously sick and like putting a hole through the wall behind him. this guy... Dio... so he's just been living carefree like that? He even has a family? Did he manipulate them?! How many peoples lives has he entered without them having a clue who they were dealing with?*

Kazeko: Wh... no... really? Wh-When? Where?? *she clasps a fistful of her cardigan, suppressing her nerves as best as she can*

Kakyoin: *his eyes widen. they really knew him so casually...? The man who brainwashed and sent him out to commit murder?*

Jotaro: *the raven haired male is equally speechless. he knows very little about him, but from what he's heard... these two are lucky to be alive*

Avdol: Wh-Why were you in contact with him in the first place?!

Shanna: Oi oi, calm down guys! I don't know what is suddenly up with all of you! Again, this was back when we were in our early teens! We were still living in Germany then! We've moved since and he probably has too!

Rose: You see, our parents wanted us to learn more about responsibility, so we ended up taking up baby sitting. We took care of his child for him while his wife and he went out at night.

Shanna: Yeah, we did it for him many times too! For some reason it was only ever at night though?

Avdol: *he looks worriedly at Joseph and Kazeko. Should they tell these girls the truth about him? Should they even get them involved in the first place?*

Holly: *she glances around at everyone in the room. She too, is unsure about letting these girls know the truth...*

Joseph: ... *he unclenches his fist* ... Girls... that man. Dio Brando... he's not what you think.

Kazeko: JoJo... *honestly, she's not surprised. even if he's calmed down over the years, he's still the straightforward one*

Shanna: *she raises an eyebrow* What do you mean by that?

Rose: Hes just a night owl with a family though?

Avdol: That’s... rather, he’s more like-

Joseph: He's a vampire. *halfway through Avdol's statement, he says it anyway*

Shanna: ....PAH! HAHAHA! Good one old man! You had me there for a moment~! *she grins and closes her eyes in a smile* Honestly, don't do that, you scared me for a second there~!

*none of their expressions are any less serious. it doesn't look like he's kidding*

Kakyoin: *he looks down and starts fidgeting with his hair. he knows all too well how true this is*

Rose: ...Err...you guys can drop the facade now...

Shanna: Eh? You guys are still at it? *she reopens her eyes* Come on, we're 17. We know vampires aren't real.

Holly: Papa-

Kazeko: ... we wish they weren't-

Joseph: I know it sounds like fairytales and nonsense, but I'm not trying to scare you. It's true.

Shanna: ....This joke has gone on for quite long enough, don't you think? *annoyance is becoming present on her face. Looks like the twins won't just believe words*

Avdol: Mr. Joestar... we can later. Ok?

Joseph: They deserve to know, Avdol.

Avdol: I'm not saying they don't. *he closes his eyes, threading his fingers together* I'm saying that another time is better. When we have proof to give them. Jotaro didn't believe us either, at first.

Shanna: *she leans in to Rose, mumbling* Oi...I feel kind of disrespected here, they're still at it-

Kakyoin: I- ... if I may...

Rose: *she responds in an equally quiet voice*  I understand. Let's just let them have their fun for now.

Kakyoin: I... Rose-sama. Shanna-san...?

Shanna: Oi oi Kakyoin, you better not be joining in on this. Seriously, if we're going to talk something scary and more realistic...what about Aka Manto~? *she smirks*

Rose: Hey let's not, you scare me everytime you talk about it.

Kakyoin: I am serious. ... that thing you pulled out of me, Jotaro? ... He put it there.

Shanna: Really Kak...? *she looks disappointed, but by the looks on everyone's faces...* Wait.... you're... actually serious?

Rose: Did....Shanna and I miss something important while we were getting Holly?

Kakyoin: ... Hai. *he nods, running his fingers over his bandaged forehead*

Joseph: Dio is out there somewhere, brainwashing people and sending them after our family. He's been trying to wipe us out since my grandfather was alive.

Shanna: Ok whoa whoa whoa wait....you are...gonna have to slow down ok? Explain it slowly in detail one at a time, because Rose and I haven't had a single bad encounter with this guy...

Rose: I apologize Mr. Joestar, but we're going to need something a little less...blunt maybe?

Avdol: Mr. Joestar, maybe the way we explained it to Jotaro will be best for them too?

Shanna: Jotaro, you knew about this as well??

Holly: *she fidgets, she doesn't like this topic coming back up, but maybe it... could keep these girls safe*

Jotaro: They told me about this as soon as they pulled me out of jail.

Shanna: Damn-

Joseph: Right... *he taps the photo on the table* See that star there? Does it look familiar?

Shanna: *she picks it back up to take a look at it* Now that you mention it...that looks like your birthmark, Jotaro...

Rose: Jotaro has a birthmark?

Jotaro: Mom and JiJi have it too.

Joseph: Everyone in the Joestar family has one.

Shanna: *she lowers the picture* If you...don't mind....

Holly: *she moves her hair out of the way so the twins can see the birthmark*

Joseph: *he pulls down the collar of his shirt as well*

Rose: So it really is true....then, does this mean Dio is related to you?

Kazeko: ...Not exactly...

Shanna: Thank you Joseph, Seiko. I know that was a bit rude.

Avdol: His body below his neck, doesn't belong to him.

Shanna: You have officially lost me.

Rose: What do you mean... doesn't belong to him???

Joseph: From the neck down, his body is my grandfather's. He cut off his head and used his body as a means to survive!

Shanna: What the fuck, I'm STILL lost!

Rose: Wait wait....there’s no way that is possible.

Joseph: I'm sorry girls, you're gonna have to suspend your disbelief.  ... look at that scar on his neck.

Rose: Pardon me, Mr. Joestar. But his hair is covering alot of it...I see a bit but tattoos are starting to become popular these days.

Shanna: Yeah...don't you think this is a little far fetched-?

Joseph: No, I don't. My grandmother saw him killed right in front of her.

Shanna: What...?

Avdol: *he threads his fingers together* Ah, but our spirits, otherwise known as stands, are pretty far fetched too, wouldn't you say? To the wider world, our gifts are seen as psychic powers.

Rose: Stands...?

Avdol: The spirits that follow you and fight for you? They are always by your side, and are the very manifestation of your fighting spirit, otherwise known as stands. I was born with mine.

Joseph: I know it's hard to believe, but everyone here is wrapped up in 'far fetched'. Hell... I don't doubt a whole lot these days.

Jotaro: ...You're right. Life's been fucking us over for a couple months.

Kakyoin: *he averts his eyes guiltily, having been a part of that*

Shanna: Oi, Jotaro...can you vouch for all he’s saying? *shes looking at him out of the corner of her eyes. This is all very hard to believe, but if Jotaro can vouch for it, then...*

Jotaro: ... *he sighs, taking her hand under the table and threading his fingers between hers* ... I believe them.

Shanna: *she sighs* I guess I got no choice then. I mean...we have been witnessing some pretty weird ass shit ourselves lately.

Rose: Avdol...you said you were born with your, um, 'stand'. Jotaro, Shanna and I didn't get ours until a few months ago.

Joseph: For Jotaro, it's because of Dio's awakening. But he's been out for a few years, so your stand was kind of delayed... Anyway, I don't know why you two got stands.

Kazeko: It could be your relation to him, somehow... or maybe an impactful life event?

Avdol: Or maybe even you both were born with them, but were late bloomers. I'm sorry, but we can't say for sure.

Shanna: I see... *she looks a little down about them not knowing the answer to this*

Holly: Ah...I..wouldn't worry about it too much! You both happened to get stands for reasons we may not fully know, Avdol-san said it's a gift, so be thankful for being granted psychic abilities!

Shanna: Y-Yeah, you're right. Sorry, I let things bug me too much.

Jotaro: *he gives her hair a pet* It's ok. You've got Earth, no matter how it happened.

Shanna: ...*a slight smile appears across her lips. She remembers how Earth even tested her when she first fully appeared, to deem her worthy enough to wield her. Maybe because of how destructive Mother Earth could truly be if commanded to be*

Rose: If I may touch on a rather...recent topic...*she glances at Kakyoin, worried that this will make him uncomfortable* You called that thing a...flesh bud. A mind controlling device?

Avdol: *he nods* It was implanted on him by Dio himself, as you know, it was attached to his very brain and mind controlling him to attack Jotaro. I don't know the details of how it happened, but Kakyoin is....VERY lucky. He shouldn't of been able to survive the removal. Not even the world's most skilled surgeon could remove it. Attempting to remove one will cause the flesh bud to go in you and try to take control of your brain as well. One wrong move during the removal could result in an instant death as well. Kakyoin had a year left to live at most if we left it in him. ....But Jotaro was the one who removed it, despite all odds and danger.

Rose: *she looks shocked at all this new information suddenly thrown at her. It wasn't just mind controlling, it was also a matter of life or death with Kakyoin*

Kakyoin: ... *he quietly takes a sip of tea. he's grateful.... really, incredibly grateful. but he's still processing Jotaro's decision.. he could have easily left him to die to preserve his own life*

Jotaro: ... *he gives Shanna's hand a squeeze* /... sorry I didn't think it over. I... panicked./ *he tells her telepathically, not wanting to admit it to anyone else* I just did it before I knew I would.

Joseph: Either way, I'm proud of you. *he smiles confidently at his grandson*

Shanna: /That's... just like you. You really are such a kind person, Jotaro./ *she tightens her own grip around his hand*

Rose: Avdol...if it's ok to ask...how do you know so much about the flesh bud?

Avdol: I've witnessed other people with the flesh bud before and could not help them...and I almost became a victim myself.

Shanna: What!?

Kazeko: *gently, she places a hand on his back. she knows it was a while ago, but still, it can't be easy for him to think about*

Joseph: It happened four months ago.

Avdol: *exhaling, he places his elbows on the table* It happened back in Egypt, I was returning back to my house, where I did my fortune telling. It was nighttime. And at the top of the stairs stood him, Dio. I was...terrified, but somehow, also calm? His charisma, beauty, and power was overwhelming...he said he heard that I had special powers, and wanted me to show him. It was then and there that the flesh buds appeared. Immediately, I knew I was in danger and ducked out the window. I ran away, I didn't dare stop. I knew the labyrinth like the back of my hand, and was able to make my escape. I was lucky, incredibly lucky.

Rose: I...I'm sorry. That must not of been easy to talk about... thank you for telling us.

Shanna: Avdol....

Avdol: *he shakes his head* Joseph, Kazeko and I together have been trying to locate Dio's location. You kids need not worry about this.

Shanna: O-Oi oi, we're not kids.

Avdol: *he chuckles* Apologies. Teenagers.

Shanna: Hmph-

Kakyoin: ... Avdol-san... I'm glad you escaped. ... /I never want anyone else to go through what I did-/

Jotaro: And you've been at this the last four months?

Joseph: Right. Well, Kaz only joined us this month.

Kazeko: I couldn't let them face this problem, just the two of them, having known Joseph so long. ... Not that I'm the most useful ally. Hehe... at least I can heal.

Rose: You don’t have a stand?

Kazeko: No... I'm afraid I don't.

Rose: A medic then? *she smiles solemnly* We’re in the same boat. I have a stand but...shes not really meant for combat.

Kazeko: *she smiles, feeling a bit encouraged* That's right. I don't exactly use conventional medicine, though.

Rose: Oh...? What do you use?

Kazeko: Um, while you're suspending your disbelief... it's called hamon. A breathing technique that generates energy comparable to the sun. At base, it can be used for combat or for healing. I... never really got the hang of the former.

Shanna: Ham? You use ham?

Kazeko: Ah-

Joseph: *SNORT*

Rose: I see...*she rests her head on the table* I can’t even do that. I have to use medical supplies...

Shanna: .../I’m still upset with her but I’m starting to kinda feel bad;;;/

Kazeko: No, hamon. ... ah, but I can't do everything with it. medical supplies are still very useful.

Rose: Uuuuuuu.....

Shanna: Ah-

Rose: * her head shoots up* Ah! Knives! I’m good at cutting! I’m not TOTALLY useless!

Shanna: Oi oi! Why are you getting competitive! You were just depressed!!

Kakyoin: You fight with knives? *he tilts his head, intrigued*

Rose: I, ah...actually took out a stand user with one.

Shanna: SHE FUCKIN CHUCKED IT INTO HIS THROAT

Joseph: *he whistles, impressed*

Rose: Ehehe...

Kazeko: *her eyes widen*

Kakyoin: That's... very impressive. *he blinks, covering his mouth. that's kind of scary, but also kind of hot-*

Rose: I am also very knowledgeable of the human body. I know where all your weak points are, and the best places to torture someone. I know how to keep you alive while also putting you through immeasurable pain. You know, you want to avoid places like the head and stomach, but places like the arms and some of the back...legs....fingers and nails are especially perfect for-

Shanna: She wants to be a nurse, please don't think shes a psychopath oh gosh PLEASE don't.

Jotaro: She's not crazy. She just knows creepy shit.

Kazeko: O-of course not! *although, she does look a little intimidated*

Joseph: Damn... sounds like you'd be good in a fight even without stand combat.

Kakyoin: *ok VERY scary. but still hot-*

Rose: I also know Judo...but my sister is much better at that sort of stuff.

Shanna: Hehe! I took kendo and I'm a black belt in karate, and as I've already said, I used to be a street fighter!

Rose: Please stop bragging about being a street fighter, you're a noble-

Avdol: *ahem* Back to the topic at hand....is there anything else you wish to know?

Shanna: *she shakes her head* ...Well...actually...Joseph, I have two last questions for you. How do you know hes a, uh- vampire? Also....are you certain that his name is 'Dio Brando'?

Joseph: I know from what Granny told me, and from records I got from the Speedwagon Foundation. I don't know what you might call a creature that sucks blood, dies in the sunlight and can walk up walls, but I call that a vampire. And, yes. I'm positive his name is Dio Brando.

Shanna: I see....thank you.

Avdol: Were you...close?

Shanna: He was... kind of like a second father figure to Rose and I.

Rose: *she nods slowly* Gomen, we'll try not to let our personal feelings get in the way of anything...

Kazeko: ... I'm sorry, you two... it's better this way than if he'd actually hurt you, though.

Joseph: *he sighs* This was... really unexpected. But if it helps, you don't have to get involved with us. We just made a stop to help out Jotaro.

Kakyoin: You... said he had a family, too? ... I'm sorry, having met him, it's.. hard to imagine.

Rose: Yes...a wife and son.

Shanna: His son's name was pretty uncommon so I never forgot it. It was Giorno Giovanna.

Joseph: Not Brando?

Shanna: No- maybe he took his mother's last name? I'm sorry, I don't really know anything else.

Joseph: I see... ... I understand if you don't want to tell us. But do you remember his wife's name? It might help.

Shanna: D...Deli....I only remember the first part. It's silly, but I remember uncommon names better than common names.

Rose: She was a redhead though, and their son looked almost exactly like Dio. Except for the eye color.

Kazeko: I see... so... Delilah Brando? Or maybe Delia?

Shanna: I just remember it was D-E-L-I. Her hair was a little short, only about shoulder length since I last saw her. I believe she’s Italian.

Avdol: Thank you. Even if it's hard to remember, every little bit of information helps.

Joseph: I'll let the Speedwagon Foundation know. Don't worry. They won't raid them or anything. Just ask them some questions.

Shanna: *she nods*

Avdol: One more thing, you said he thought you were orphans because of your...teeth??

Shanna: Ah, I didn't understand back then, but it makes sense now that we know hes a vampire....

Avdol: What?

Rose: Shanna and I have really pointed canines, they look like fangs.

Jotaro: *he nods, able to vouch for this*

Kakyoin: I think I noticed that earlier...

Avdol: If...you don't mind?

Shanna: *she shrugs at Rose and opens her mouth, lifting a finger to pull her mouth to the side so they can see better*

Rose: *she does the same but just opens her mouth. ....Wow, she and Shanna have small mouths*

Joseph: *he raises  an eyebrow. so it's true* Huh, I get it. ... maybe those teeth kept you safe.

Kakyoin: ... *he feels a slight rush of blood to his face. he doesn't get why, but he's blushing a little*

Avdol: *he nods* He may of saw you girls as one of his own kind, and thus, your teeth protected you.

Shanna: *she lets go of her mouth* I guess it...all makes sense now. Not gonna lie it... kind of hurts...

Rose: *she closes her mouth* Yeah... it hurts me too... but we can't deny the truth.

Kazeko: ... If it helps... I'm sure he knew by the end you weren't like him. But he still cared enough about you to let you keep caring for his son.

Joseph: She's right. If you knew him as long as you said, that's probably how it went. Dio Brando isn't stupid.

Shanna: *she looks up* So you're saying... he actually did care?

Avdol: It's hard to imagine for a man like Dio but... he very well may of cared for you both in the end.

Joseph: If he didn't, you would have known it.

Shanna: I-I see...

Rose: Thank you, all three of you, for telling us this. I hope that you'll be able to find him...

Holly: *she remains silent, so even these girls may of been in danger?*

Joseph: Thanks, Rose. ... when we find him, we'll let you know.

Kazeko: ... Holly, I'm sorry. Are you alright? ... it's a lot to process, I know...

Holly: *she nods* It's just...I had no idea that even these girls were once in danger too...

Shanna: ....*she holds her tongue on them being in danger for months now*

Jotaro: *he pulls her close to his side*

Kazeko: It must be hard to hear... your life's been fairly normal up until now.

Holly: *she nods* But...hopefully...these four can be safe now. Papa, Avdol-san, Kazeko-chan...please be careful?

Shanna: *she leans against Jotaro, feeling a little better from his comfort*

Rose: ...Kakyoin-san, your face has been quite red for awhile now. Are you ok?

Kakyoin: Uhm- ah! *he blinks, his eyes darting away and to her a couple of times* I-I... I'm alright, really. ... /I-it's that obvious...? I hope I haven't caught a fever.../

Kazeko: Of course Holly. Mr. Avdol and I are here to make sure your papa stays safe. *she smiles at her softly, placing her hand on hers* You can trust us.

Joseph: Oi, Kaz, don't talk about me like I'm still 19! *he looks miffed* I don't run in recklessly half as much as I used to!

[exhoe-imagines]

Since I am in the midst of wedding planning, would love to hear what you guys think each of the EXO boys' wedding would turn out like (assuming their partners give them total control 😂)! But also an important lesson I learned: social distancing doesn't stop people from reaching out virtually to you so me time became so much more essential these days!!

teehee we’re still so excited for your wedding 🥺🥺🥺 and we had a lot of fun discussing this crackhead shit LOL – also you’re SO right. texting is suddenly blowing up and i’m like “time to check out” JKDSJFAKWE

minseok ✧ i feel like he’s a great middle ground. he’ll keep you sane and handle the stuff that you don’t have time for, he’ll give valid and real comments, but won’t be controlling. it’s very much a team effort. unless you want like a candy bar or something bc “darling, that’s a little out there.” and you’re like minseok, have some FUN. live your best LIFE. but it’s ok bc he’ll get you everything you want as a surprise and you’ll cry like “omg” and he’ll just PREEN bc YES he IS the greatest husband 😌

luhan ✧ im sorry you’re giving HIM control? u want him to go into CARDIAC ARREST??? if you want your wedding to take place in a shack with 6 people attending, then sure, by all means, give lu control. but if not, please for the love of GOD do not ask him. he’ll put in comments every now and then (for cake flavors definitely or like. his tie color or some shit like that) but if you ask him to pick between maroon and rhubarb he’ll ERROR 404: LUHAN IS NOT RESPONDING. and just stand there like a mannuquein 😳😳😳

yifan ✧ oh christ don’t do that to him, he can only handle so much LOL. he’ll defintiely tag along for everything bc he’s clingy and he wants to see the dress/tux/whatever you pick and you’re like “it’s a surprISE YIFAN” but he does Not Care. but he doesn’t know the difference between silk or satin so he’s basically no help KAMFKSFJKE. he does pull up with the hella gaudy shit tho and you’re like “yifan you cannot have GOLD CHAINS as part of your outfit” and he’s like “but babe,, the swag” 😎

junmyeon ✧ ok myeon is the MVP. he’s like Peak Husband Material. he’s picky but sweet – makes sure you get what you want but isn’t a groomzilla u feel? like he’ll send that sickly sweet smile to the dress/tux assistant and be like “my love asked for the WHITE piece, not the IVORY, thank you :)” and they’re like “o-of course mr. kim!!” and you’re like “omg junmymeoN PLS.” but everyone loves him bc he tips well and is geniunely kind when he isn’t standing up for you LMAO 😂 

yixing ✧ ok definitely another good balance one. he’ll let you know who he wants invited, what kinda traditional things are a Must Have, etc. but he’s SO SUPPORTIVE of what you want. like you can geniunely pick ANYTHING as long as he gets his like,, two small requirements. you could walk out in a trash bag and be like “i want this” and he’d tear up like “anything you want, baobei” and drop $4k to get a gucci plastic bag. deadass. and god he CRIES at the wedding bc you do SO well and keep his wishes in mind and WOW he loves u 😭

baekhyun ✧ ok he wouldn’t do a HORRIBLE job if you gave him all the control -- who am i kidding. your wedding would end up looking like a frat party. however, he do got POPPIN ideas. he will be zero help for the vital shit, but if you want some crazy shit, he’s the man. he’ll be like “ok babe don’t be mad -- i forgot to book the venue BUT i found a tiny dog tux for Mongryong so he can be our ring bearer what do you think!!” and for a moment you consider what it would be like to live in widowhood ☠️

jongdae ✧ the PICKIEST motherfucker. ik i mentioned that in the drabble i wrote you, but like i am SERIOUS. you will go to like twelve bakeries before he finally settles on some BASIC ASS FLAVOR like vanilla and you’re like “i might murder you.” but he makes sure you’re picky too so you get EXACTLY what you want and the day of, when everything is set you’re like Hol Up. this do be poppin. it’s everything you dreamed of and you DO be having to thank jongdae for his brattiness after all 😪

chanyeol ✧ honestly bold of us to assume he’d have any role in the planning bc he’s too busy teasing you over how seriously you take it all. to keep you from going crazy tho, he pulls a few pranks and you’re 🤏🏼 this close to calling off the wedding when he makes you think the decorations came in the wrong color or some shit. but on the acutal wedding day, he surprises you with a new song/dance and you realize he’s actually been taking care of something very important this whole time too ❤️

kyungsoo ✧ god you have chosen the BEST man to plan with. he’s so patient and attends EVERY appointment with you. he takes SUCH good care of you and makes sure you’re never stressed or piling too much on your plate. just a total gentleman. he’d book you a huge bridal/groom suite for the night before the wedding with white roses and all this cheesy shit and he would NEVER LIVE IT DOWN. and then when you think he can’t get any better he surpries you with a secret honeymoon trip and you’re like “god is real huh” 🙏🏼

zitao ✧ hahaha you think you GIVE him permission and he doesn’t just TAKE it? hahaha. that’s a GOOD one. prepare for the most extra reception and ceremony you have EVER seen. but don’t worry, you and tao will be the only ones who have any opinion on the planning. your friend will be like “what if you guys-” and tao’s like “did someone say something.” so by all means, tell him everything you want, bc he WILL get it for you. and on the special day he cries like a baby and you’re like AW bc u think he’s being all lovey-dovey but he’s just like “wow i did SO good” 😢

jongin ✧ wedding? did you mean an excuse for a huge party? do not, and i can not stress this enough, do NOT give him all the control. the second you do, he’s inviting every friend and family member to come help him bc he has NO CLUE what he’s doing. but it’s ok you keep them all in check and you’ll get what you want bc your manz is whipped. and when you and your wedding party get stressed, he just hands you $15k and is like “go on a shopping trip babey ily” and you’re like “maybe you’re not THAT bad, kim” 🤑🤑🤑

sehun ✧ he INSISTS on being included in every MINISCULE step. i mean EVERYTHING. and so you’re like “fine baby, what do you want?” and his mind goes blank. he truly has no opinion. no help whatsoever. you’re like “cream or ivory?” and he’s like “what’s that.” so he ends up flaking and you plan most of it – thankfully !! but when you walk down the aisle he SOBS and you’re like “ok fine you’re redeemed” 🥰

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bro.. this was a Blast. ily and ur asks and im sorry we take 100 years to answer them MFJAKLFJEAWKGJWE - admin ruby and admin jewels

🌙 SLEEPOVER SATURDAY 🌙

[inkykeiji]

hi hiii congrats on 1k!!! i love this lil event teehee—i’m an isfp-t scorpio who loves to draw, paint, sew, bake, and write. i rlly like black cats, victorian aesthetics, cottagecore-type dresses and doing my makeup. i have a sweet tooth and every halloween i dress as a goth for simplicity. congratulations again, u deserve all the luv!!! 😚😚😚💌

hello!!!! aw tysm ehehe <333

i match you with ⇢ kuroo tetsurou! (& not just because he’s ur icon + url hahaha i promise u i put a decent amount of thought into this!!) he finds you so fascinating and incredible and is endlessly interested in whatever you’re currently creating, especially since he isn’t exactly an artistic person himself. you’re able to learn a lot together and from each other, and you routinely go on fun little adventures together, whether it’s a hike, or exploring a new bookshop you discovered, or going to antique markets. you both know when to give the other space and when to offer a lil extra love and support. he also just thinks ur the cutest darn thing with ur frilly soft dresses <33 since ur both scorpio’s you’ll have to put a lil extra effort into your communication (esp on the emotional front) but it is 100% worth it and very, very rewarding <3

what you carve into your pumpkin ⇢ as an artistic person, you take this v seriously. in terms of actual carving, you guys carve two cats; one is just the standard iconic outline of a cat and the other is a more detailed kitty face! BUT in addition to this, y’all spend a few days painting pumpkins, too, all super aesthetic and pretty (i’m feeling that classic black, white & gold colour scheme). you make a huge mess in the process, but it’s a ton of fun and you get several compliments from ur neighbors n the trick or treaters!!

which halloween candy you eat the most of ⇢ tootsie rolls + reese’s peanut butter cups!

couples costume ⇢ this year ur putting a bit of a twist on ur typical goth costume: you’re dressing up as gomez and morticia addams!!! you take a week or two and make the costumes yourselves (although he is not allowed near any sewing machines or sharp objects) which truly makes them extra special <3

how you celebrate halloween ⇢ BAKE PARTY!!! omg pls you guys throw a costume party with ur closest friends & spend the whole day/night having a lil halloween themed bake-off of sorts! probably cookies (maybe even chocolate bar themed cookies omg) and to keep things semi-organized, everyone picks their recipe beforehand & brings their own ingredients/utensils. kenma, bokuto & akaashi join in too!! you (and your kitchen) end up covered in flour thanks to the lovely flour fight kuroo + bokuto start (and yes, u and akaashi most definitely put the two of them in timeout, and force them to clean the kitchen at the end of the night, but they still claim it was worth it).

clari’s 1k halloween matchups! 👻

[purplesurveys]

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surveys by mickey-mouse

[A]- On a scale of 1-10 how Athletic are you? I dunno, I want to say 5 though? I can play competitive table tennis but I’m meh at other sports.

[B]- Can you name 3 different species of Bears? Polar, grizzly, panda.

[C]- When was the last time you were on a Carousel? No clue. I don’t think I even got on one as a teenager.

[D]- Do you know anybody with Dentures? Who? My grandma on my mom’s side.

[E]- What is the closest you have ever been to an Elephant? I’ve hugged one and gotten on one - the latter not being the best thing I’ve ever done, but I was 14.

[F]- What subject do you think is unacceptable to ever get an F in? I don’t think this is fair to ask; we all have our own weak points when it came to subjects hahaha. I remember most of my classmates breezing through geometry in high school while I struggled with nearly-failing grades, even failing some of my exams altogether.

[G]- What is something cool about your Grandma/Grandpa? They didn’t/don’t share too much about their lives, to be honest. I just know my grandpa was pretty much a walking encyclopedia of random knowledge. I really miss that about him.

[H]- Have you ever played Halo? Never tried. Isn’t that exclusive to the Xbox? which we never had, so.

[I]- Do you have any idea how to build an Igloo? Well no. I’ve never even seen snow before.

[J]- Name something - anything - that is Juicy: Steak...well they’re supposed to be, at least hahaha.

[K]- When was the last time you flew a Kite? Grade 5. We made a kite for science class, and that was the last time I had ever done so.

[L]- Do you have a Library card? Yeah, but very briefly. We were issued library cards in Grade 1, but they phased it out a year later.

[M]- Have you ever used the word Moolah in place of money? Sure. I remember learning about this term from wrestling since there used to be a female wrestler from the 50s who called herself The Fabulous Moolah, so as I kid I liked using it a lot to teach my friends and classmates something new lol.

[N]- Have you ever read a National Geographic magazine? It’s possible. We had issues of it in my elementary/high school library.

[O]- What is something that makes you Original? I dunno. Am I?

[P]- When was the last time you had a Pillow fight? I don’t think I ever took part in one.

[Q]- Any idea who the Queen of England is? Sure.

[R]- Name somebody who you think deserves more Respect: Fast food crew.

[S]- In your own words, define what the word Sexy means. Embodying both confidence and charisma.

[T]- What is the most popular Tourist attraction where you live? My area (and Manila, to be honest) aren’t really top tourists picks. Foreigners tend to veer towards our beaches, like in Palawan and Boracay.

[U]- Without looking - do you know what brand your Underwear is? Nah.

[V]- Are you any good at Volleyball? I’ve never tried playing it seriously; I’m afraid of the ball LOL

[W]- Have you ever had a Water balloon fight? Yes, I’ve joined a few of them.

[X]- Do you have any idea why Christmas is abbreviated Xmas? I keep forgetting the reason for this hahahaha

[Y]- Yahoo or Google for search engine purposes? I’ve always used Google.

[Z]- Do you know what ZN is an abbreviation for on the periodic table? Zinc.

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When was the last time you spent over $10.00? On what? I bought food for my family yesterday - boneless chicken wings and a few orders of milk tea.

Take a guess - do you have more pairs of socks or underwear? Underwear. Not a big socks person.

Create a holiday - what day would it be on and what would it celebrate? Continued from last night. I don’t care too much for holidays; I do wish we can prioritize and legitimize mental health break days, though. Even just once every one or two months would be so helpful.

Have you ever smacked somebody's butt? Teehee... I have.

Honestly, have you ever stolen ANYTHING? Think hard. Of course. I’ve gotten stray ballpens before. 

Who is one person who you love but never ceases to piss you off? My mom, I guess.

Who is one person who loves you that YOU never cease to piss off? ...My mom. We have a very chaotic relationship hahaha.

Kids under the age of 13 with a cell phone; ok or ridiculous? It’s personally fine with me. I think it’s a necessity at this point.

Do you think you could you hop on one leg to your kitchen without falling? Yeah. My biggest worry would be going down the stairs, but I can always hold on to the railing.

Two wires - one destroys the Earth. You have 5 seconds to decide: blue or red? I’d wait out the five seconds, see what happens.

What is the worst thing to drink right after brushing your teeth? Idk. I’m not too fussy when it comes to this.

Are you careful with your money or does it burn a hole in your pocket? I’m so fucking bad at saving money – as soon as I realize I have more than I usually have, I tend to take it as a sign that I can spend a bit and I always end up at square one. I have stopped buying merch, which is great; but it’s been taken over by Christmas shopping so I still have no progress whatsoever with saving money.

Right now, are you wearing eyeliner? No, haven’t worn it in years.

Are you better or worse off than you were two years ago? Much better.

If Justin Bieber was your brother would you be proud to admit it? I don’t think I’d be proud, in a sense that I’d take every opportunity to say it out loud. If he were my brother, I think he would just be my brother and I would treat and see him as such...if that makes sense.

As a kid (or even now. ;)) what was your favorite playground activity? I always hung out at the sandbox. Until now I have a fascination with texture-y stuff and will play with wet sand/kinetic sand every chance I get.

Who do you wish karma would bite in the ass? Nobody.

What are the colors of the flag for the country to the right of yours? Blue and yellow.

Have you ever given yourself a Google diagnosis when you were sick? Sure.

Could you (willingly) go ten days without touching a computer? If work was out of the picture, and if I were near the sea, for sure.

Have you ever dropped anything in a toilet on accident? Yes :( I no longer remember what it was but I dropped something just a few weeks ago.

BAM! Chocolate no longer exists. Do you miss it? I’m not in despair despair, but sure, I think I would miss it.

BAM! Dinosaurs are alive! Do you want one as a pet? Nope.

What is the most annoying sound in your opinion? When cars or motorcycles loudly rev their engines. Everyone I know hates them.

Are you more mean to people when you're late for something? Hahahahaha. I definitely can be, especially when they’re being the reason for the hold-up.

Honestly, do you think you give yourself enough credit? I do now. I didn’t before and always put other people first.

Pumpkin pie, vanilla ice cream, sugar cookies, cheese, apples - pick two. Cheese and vanilla ice cream.

Have you ever been caught in a lie? Yeah - my mom found a box of vape pods in my handbag a few days ago. I found out because I discovered she had the box set on her dresser. She never confronted me about it though, so I think it’ll just be a hidden secret we’re both keeping (my secret being I know she knows).

Congrats! You just won a $1,000 gift card to any store...which do you pick? A BT21 store.

QUICK! Fill in the blanks: I wish that _______ would kiss me right now. Nobodyyy.

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3-4 Kimono Rumble: Protectors of the Country

Again, sorry for the spam.

If you want to blacklist these, you can use either the tag #kimono rumble for just this event, or #xdu event scripts for all these posts in general.

Reminder that these are copied straight from XD Unlimited itself, so any grammatical weirdness, mistranslations, and/or mischaracterizations are not my doing.

Chris Yukine: "We're here."

Kirika Akatsuki: "Pardon the intrusion."

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "The Harajuku Hills Ninjas have arrived!"

Chris Yukine: "Are you seriously talking about movies right now?"

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "Uh oh. I need to keep it together. That goes for you too, Kiri-chan."

Kirika Akatsuki: "I am eternally grateful for your words of advice."

Chris Yukine: "Man, was that some intense training or what..."

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "We watched samurai movies for two days straight."

Kirika Akatsuki: "At least it taught us a lot about the Edo period."

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "That it did..."

Kirika Akatsuki: "Our next history test should be a breeze, though."

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "That test is on modern history, Kiri-chan."

Kirika Akatsuki: "You mean it's not on the Edo period?!"

Chris Yukine: "That Guardian course was all kinds of crazy."

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "Tsubasa-san went out of her way to teach us... But then you two fainted in the middle of it."

Kirika Akatsuki: "Noise alert! Where are they--?"

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "Right in front of us..."

Chris Yukine: "Hah, we didn't even have to move a muscle. Perfect!"

Chris Yukine: "Let's do this then!"

Dr. Ver: "Haah...Haah..."

Dr. Ver: (The Noise appeared. Could that mean...)

Dr. Ver: "They're here, and they look different from before!"

Chris Yukine: "Steel yourself, Warrior Noise! You'll be Swiss cheese when I'm done with you!"

Dr. Ver: "To think they were hiding such power. This can only mean..."

Dr. Ver: "Hehehe. Wonderful. The gods must be watching over me if I'm being granted this finest of opportunities."

Dr. Ver: And now! The aspiration of I, Dr. Ver, shall begin with earnest conviction!"

Kirika Akatsuki: "Great... it just had to be that mad scientist again!"

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "Doctor."

Chris Yukine: "You shouldn't be hanging around here by yourself."

Dr. Ver: "Welcome back, everyone. I simply couldn't wait, so I came all the way here to meet you."

Dr. Ver: "And boy, was it worth it! Look at those new outfits! You look ever more gallant!"

Chris Yukine: "Yeah, the Warrior Noise don't stand a chance against us now."

Kirika Akatsuki: "We'll take them out one by one!"

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "...Teehee"[1]

Captain: "Doctor, are you all right?!"

Dr. Ver: "Of course I'm all right. And it's all thanks to these young ladies here!"

Captain: "Who are these girls?"

Dr. Ver: "Did you not see? They just cut down a Warrior Noise right here!"

Captain: "But how could these kids manage something like that?"

Chris Yukine: "Well, we did beat that Noise, but I get why you wouldn't believe us."

Captain: "We know the difficulties involved with the task at hand... And of the terror the Noise bring."

Captain: "I can say with confidence that there's no way in hell a few girls like you--"

Kirika AkatsukI: "We'd appreciate it if you didn't belittle us!"

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "We gave that fight everything we had."

Chris Yukine: "I don't give a damn if you don't believe us or not, but then where do you think that Noise went?"

Captain: "Well..."

Soldier: "Captain, we should get moving."

Captain: "Ngh! I've seen enough! All right, we're moving on to the next site!"

Soldiers: "Yes, sir!"

Chris Yukine: "Hmph... What a pain in the ass."

Kirika Akatsuki: "I'll give them a piece of my mind, next time!"

Dr. Ver: "Now regarding your reception. The government would like to welcome you as something near to state guests."

Chris Yukine: "H-Hold on now! Isn't that going a bit far?!"

Dr. Ver: "Note that you won't receive the same accommodations as a state guest since they've entrusted you to my care."

Dr. Ver: "But, you will have free rein to fight the Noise and gather info to help counter them in the future."

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "So then we're above the law. But that just means they want to use us, doesn't it?"

Dr. Ver: Without mincing words, yes. You three are currently the only ones that can fight the Noise, after all."

Kirika Akatsuki: "We came back here to fight the Noise, but I guess things are more complicated than we thought."

Chris Yukine: "His point is that we're their only hope, right? I don't see anything wrong with that."

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "Yeah, that's fine with me, too."

Kirika Akatsuki: "I guess when you put it that way..."

Dr. Ver: "I knew you would understand."

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "The alarm! Is it more Noise?"

Dr. Ver: "Yes. And, it seems to be those Warrior Noise to boot."

Kirika Akatsuki: "Let's move already!"

Chris Yukine: "Look! It's the Noise."

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "And the SDF..."

Chris Yukine: "Hey! Let us handle this!"

Captain: "Aim! Fire!"

Chris Yukine: "Are you listening?! Cut it out!"

Kirika Akatsuki: "Those attacks aren't going to work!"

Captain: "We're not done! Take aim!"

Soldier: "C-Captain! The Noise is breaking through our frontline!"

Soldier: "Aaaaaaaah!"

Captain: "Fire! Keep shooting!"

Chris Yukine: "What are you doing?!"

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "Why won't they listen to us?"

Captain: "Shut up! We can't just turn tail at the word of some brats that show up out of nowhere!"

Chris Yukine: "Fine! We'll make this quick!"

Soldier: "Aaaaaaah! Stay away, stay away!"

Soldier: "Aaaaaaaaaah!"

Chris Yukine: "Dammit! What are you sacrificing yourselves for?! You're gonna die for nothing..."

Captain: "All for nothing?!"

Dr. Ver: "Please stay out of their way!"

Captain: "Doctor! But--!"

Dr. Ver: "If you wish to continue, you shall receive an official complaint from the US government."

Captain: "Urgh... All soldiers, fall back!"

Chris Yukine: "Thanks. This'll make things a little easier."

Dr. Ver: "That's good to hear. I shall bear witness to your gallantry from a slightly safer distance."

Chris Yukine: "Looks like it's time for the main course."

Kirika Akatsuki: "It's a whole group of Warrior Noise..."

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "But with these Kimono Gears..."

Chris Yukine: "...They're no match for us!"

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "Just three more!"

Chris Yukine: "Don't let any get away! We're going to smash 'em all into dust!"

Kirika Akatsuki: "You got it!"

Dr. Ver: "Wonderful! I have nothing but praise!"

Soldier: "They defeated the Noise like it was nothing... Those girls are on another level..."

Captain: "Hey! Is that something someone entrusted with the defense of our nation would say?!"

Soldier: "S-Sir! No Sir!"

Captain: (But why can those girls beat the Noise? Why don't we have any weaponry that can do that?!)

Dr. Ver: "Dear oh dear, they've got honor, but a little more honesty with themselves would do them a world of good."

Dr. Ver; "Ah, but of course, there are more pressing matters at hand."

Kirika Akatsuki: "This should end it!"

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "Kiri-chan!"

Kirika Akastuki: "Shirabe!"

Chris Yukine: "I'll do the honors! Hope you're ready to eat lead!"

Kirika Akatsuki: "We did it, Shirabe!"

Shirabe Tsukuyomi: "Yeah, with these Gears, nothing can stop us, Kiri-chan."

Chris Yukine: "We're just too good for them, obviously."

Dr. Ver: "Haha. This is nothing short of incredible. It never gets old no matter how many times I see it."

Dr. Ver: "I knew I was right about those girls. With them, my aspiration shall be achieved... Hehe, hahaha!"

Notes:

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[pootmboo]

Two years ago Teehee

Dear Renal Raz, With surname para sure. Hahaha Nine years ago (or more), I asked my friend to ask you, for your number. She obliged and my life has changed forever. I betrayed you. I am deeply sorry for falling in love with you while pretending to be a chum. I promise, that I never had any intents to seduce you or something before or kahit ngayon, I value you so much and never in the world will I ever do that, ever. It is lily white pure. All of these years, ikaw lang talaga. I have never loved anyone. I went out with some stupid ass but those were mere futile attempts to get you over with. Wala, walang makapantay saiyo. LOL Hindi ka naman perfect. Youre not even my ideal man. Pero ewan! Hahahaha Hindi ko alam pero I always end up comparing them to you. Its not as if I was dreaming that once upon a time, we kind of had a thing, alam ko naman kung ano talaga, that were just chums. I cant really explain pero I think in a woman's life, meron talaga siyang magiging forever love, kahit unrequited, it doesnt even matter anymore, basta ganoon lang may impact yung existence of that certain man in her life, kahit na hindi naman sadya, kahit alam niyang mag kaibigan lang talaga. Pero there is always that person na parang, hinding hindi niya makakalimutan kahit na maka meet na siya ng iba. You know women, we are grotesquely made, or at least ako and a few others. At tingin ko, sa akin, ikaw yung ganoon ko sa buhay ko. The one man, whom I will never ever forget. We cannot choose whom to love and give our hearts to, or kung sino ang gusto nating isipin. Eh hindi naman kita talaga iniisip pero hindi ko alam bakit kaya ganoon, masyadong malabo for me. Mahal na mahal kita Ren. You are my first love. Hindi ako lasing at nasisiraan ng bait and not a creep (again!!) True enough, first love never dies.Hahaha Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Ang baduy, pero ganoon talaga. Nakakatawa kasi parang, am I actually doing this? Haaaa telling the man whom I am deeply in love with, that I am in love with him all this time, for nine long years.Ang tagal na din pala. Parang kailan lang. Kahit na twice lang talaga tayo nagkasama in real life, I feel like, I know you well. I feel like, we have been friends for a very long time. Because I think, we really are. I am at one of my happiest state when we are together. Kahit na nakaupo lang tayo, wala tayo masaydong gagawin. Kahit na titigan lang kita, masaya na ako. I am not a creep!!! The lights, the bright lights, I so love them. Pero I love them even more after we had a dinner sa Cubao. Ang saya, from then on, pag nakakakita ako ng mga ilaw, ikaw ang naalala ko. Pag nasa Cubao ako, ikaw ang naalala ko. Hahaha kahit na, meron din naman ako nakasamang ibang mga tao sa same place na yun, ikaw talaga ang naalala ko. Hahaha di ko talaga ma gets bakit ganito nalang ang damdamin ko. Akala ko pag nagkita tayo, okay na ako, ayun mas tumindi pa. Ang labo naman. I think this is the reason why I always end up with failed relationships. Hindi naman din maganda na I'm in a relationship while I am in love with another man. I am not blaming you. Lahat ng mga ginawa ko sa buhay ko, choice ko yun. I am just saying. I just want to be normal. Ayoko yung para akong tanga pag kaharap ka. Gusto ko chill lang. If God permits na magkita tayo sa crossroad, how I wish everything will change na. I will not fluster anymore. I can be real; no pretensions. Pero hindi naman pretend like, pretend to be someone else. Yung pretend na kaibigan ang tingin pero mahal pala talaga. Yung ganoon type ng pretention. And when you asked if we can go out and drink with Papa mikul and other chums, parang naisip ko, hindi ko yata kaya because I know theyd tease me, at hindi ko yata kaya yun. Gozzz and yes alam nila. LOL I became obsessed in finding the cure but none of the panaceas I concocted, have ever worked, in nine years. Too bad, but life as we know it, is full off odds that are most of the time not in our favor, my favor for this matter. I have done everything, beyond imagination just to forget you, I meant, the feeling. If you may have noticed, I keep on pruning you off my list, then add, then prune, among other things that I did. I was kind of trying to figure out the best way. All failed. I think you kind of had a hunch dati pa man. Kasi nga you noticed how flustered I was when we first met irl. Although I am happy pag magkasama tayo, hindi rin ako mapakali, at ganoon lang ako pag ikaw ang kasama ko. I am not conscious but I do not really want to spoil the moment. It is always good to create good memories (with important people). I have already accepted that we are not meant to be together and I am not fussed about it, at all. In the next lifetime though, expect me to be more aggressive and persistent, kidding! ( I am hoping that in the next lifetime, we will either not meet ever, or we'll end up together already, in whatever shape and form, we will be by then. Sana fish, kasi parang ang sarap mag swimming ng may kasama all the time. hahahaha desperation at its best. However, seriously, God knows how much I love you and I am happy that I have experienced this kind of love. It made me feel like I am real, that I am a human. It taught me how to accept things that I cannot change and to accept that there are certain things that I can never really do so much about, but just forget and let go. I am not sure if this is necessary but somebody told me that I need to close the certain chapter of my life na ikaw ang leading man ko sa guni guni ko para matahimik na daw ako. After nine years, I am taking this process seriously because I am not getting any younger ffs. Lmao Wish ko lang, totoo, otherwise mapapatay ko talaga siya. Hahaha Pagkatapos kong hiyain sarili ko, hindi pala din effective ito. Ttfn! :D ~J❤