#irrelevant but the fact that the color spotify chose for these lyrics is reminiscent of a green apple rather than red bugs me lol

[lord-montgomery]

i heard this song yesterday and these first two lines have been driving my sizzy brain crazy since, so i'm gonna dissect them okay? okay

apples are representative of a lot in western culture. evil and sin and strife--satan tempting eve; eris sparking discord between aphrodite, hera, and athena; the evil queen compelling snow white--but also somehow healing and knowledge--apples for teachers, apples to keep doctors away. i think about simon being kicked out because of his evil, sinful existence as a vampire. about him carrying the mark of cain on him, the mark of the first murderer in judeo-christian mythology. in many ways he is that apple. and it's tempting, but it's also not necessarily that ostensibly awful part of simon's applehood that feels so forbidden to izzy. because taking a bite of simon would delicious, special, and filling in a way that she's avoided for so long, in a way she's denied herself. and of course she bites, because that's what you do with apples, even knowing the consequences of strife aren't far behind.

twilight is change. it's the shift from life to death. it's bruised and beautiful. a brief, untether-able moment that's filled with potential and longing. in a lot of ways, twilight is the line simon walks.. the vampiric rhythm of existing in the night vs. his ability to walk in the sun, trying to hold onto life while being very much dead. and izzy meeting him there feels like something so significant. it's her telling him to stop covering his face to hide the fangs he couldn't control. but it's also more than that. because there is brevity there. if the twilight represents the time they have together in tmi, it is just what i described above--fleeting and dear with the impending night ready to pull them apart. it's something isabelle feels anyway given her insecurities, but it's also something that becomes evident and tanglible, this drop into the dark months before the sun begins to climb it's way back into the sky with simon's return.

and kissing like the sun... even in the twilit dark, they give each other these glimpses of peace and hope, izzy bringing life to simon in more ways than one, and simon, despite his tough relationship with the sun, consistently holding it up above izzy on the days when her own life gets darker than she deserves to handle alone.

anyway yes, in case you were wondering, i did definitely add this song to my auxiliary sizzy playlist