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▪︎ IPKKND Ep 178 : Desperately in need to hear him say the words she needs to hear

You can see Arnav stuck between feeling extremely restless (wanting to run to see if she's ok) and feeling paralysed (by the possibility of finding her in an awful condition or worst, de-d).

He's struggling to hold his tears while panicking.

The acting in this scene was incredibly good !!

He recognized Khushi's voice, not sure if he was having an hallucination or not. But he then, sees her in the mirror of his car.

He finally he can breath again. He was suffocating since the moment he thought she went in that ambulance. He thought he was about to lose the love of his life, his breath of life, the only person on this earth that makes him feel so much more alive !

"Do you even know what I am going through?" She knows EXACTLY what you're going through. She IS going through the same sh't SIIIIR : the attraction, the feelings, the fire, the love, the worry, the need. These two are simply two stubborn fools still not admiting they are so in love with each other !

Both have the same reaction when they thought they lost each other. They also express both their possessiveness during those moments and the entitlement to act the way they do toward each other is even more obvious now !

One major difference is that Arnav is far more tactile. Khushi still doesn't dare to openly touch him as if he's hers even if he's indeed already hers (she just don't know lol, He had even reproached her (of course with insinuations) for her passivity regarding what she could do with him; he reproached her for not being active with him…).

Khushi decides to behave just like he did when she got so worried for him not long ago. She is asking why it matters to him. Khushi already knows he cares. She wants and needs more. She needs to know how deep are his feelings. "Why do you care?"

There is a major difference between the first time he admitted that she matters to him and this second time. Just like the last time, he stops before confessing his love. But here, his reaction is different, her stops I think for a different reason. He stops, but almost reluctantly this time.

Let me explain :

The first time (ep124), he almost revealed his feelings (when it was announced to him that Khushi got engaged), he stopped because he just didn't want to admit anything until she did. That's it, he was being childish and stubborn. He already understood he fell in love but refused to reveal to her the depth of his feelings.

This time, he was going to put his feelings into words willingly, betraying the fact that he now admits and accepts his love for her. And it suprised him. He's suprised about how easely this time he was about to confess.

He isn't afraid, scared, furious anymore of letting her know she won, and therefore to admit to himself he's ready to accept her control over him, her capacity to control him.

He's now more open to the idea of accepting that the stuggles he had over accepting his love for her, was always a matter of losing against himself, and not really about her winning over him !

He hated the idea of telling her that he loves her before but now he wants to. He's ready. And him being ready to confess means he's ready to ask her in marriage !!!!

As I wrote before, almost losing her for good (that something terrible might happen to her safety OR her deciding to close her door for good) ALWAYS brings him back in the right track, he always end up having more clarity in what he needs to do next. The fear of losing her always wakes him up !

And at this point, he doesn't want to really try to hide it from her, he's waiting for the right moment.

Khushi is angry. Not only he came running to scream at her but he still can't confess, he won't tell her how much she matters to him. Khushi isn't waiting for a "I love you" type of confession, she wouldn't dare to expect this much from him even if it's what she wants to hear deep down. But she wants him at least to admit his feelings. She's frustrated. So she decides to ignore him completely, she knows it annoys tf out of him hahahaha !!

Arnav KNOWS why she's angry.

Khushi is getting impatient now, he acts like her boyfriend even in front of people while he still can't gather his courage to just tell her she matters to him. "Enough !"

"-Are you out of your mind? Why are you wearing bangles you know aren't of your size ! Damn it, if something would've happened then? What if you would've cut your ve'n then? -So what?!"

He knows she has valid reason to not confess anymore. He wants her to know but he's struggling to pass that last final obstacle. It's understandable, he used to be so scared of admiting it to even himself and now he has to tell her.

He wants to find the right time to confess to her.