#inter$ex nsft

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Just saying cowboys deserve head from pretty tboys.

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YESSSSS. That’s so so so right and perfect, and you put that better than i’ve seen yet! <3

I hope it’s okay for me to use this as a prompt for a big disability-related digression, because this moment massively taps into why stucky means so much to me, as a disabled person whose awesome partner is also my carer (and who is also disabled, so I am also theirs :-) ):-

[tw discussion of ableism (inc. ableist relationship abuse) follows; putting it behind a cut as a result, and also because it is loooong]

Our spectacularly ableist society is really really shitty at recognising that a carer/caree relationship can also be an emotionally healthy, functional, and awesome romantic or platonic relationship between people who actually love and respect each other. Relationships like mine (kisses and outrageous flirting while they push my wheelchair; laughing and joking and geeking together to help me through a panic attack; them helping me to stand up when i can’t do it alone and that turning into a prolongued and somewhat nsft kiss; them choosing me my cutest and snuggliest pyjamas to wear for very non-altruistic reasons, etc.) aren’t supposed to exist. In nearly all mainstream storytelling, they don’t. Even though in reality, we are everywhere.

The MCU never goes as far as to actually give us that kind of relationship between Steve and Bucky at any point, even platonically, because the MCU is, as we know, ableist as shit. But it inadvertently hints enough towards it that I and other disabled fans can fill in the gaps ourselves. (I say inadvertent; I think Sebastian at least absolutely does get at least some of this, as his performance shows. Chris too.)

By the time of Sarah Rogers’ funeral, Bucky has probably (definitely) been praised to the sky for years by well-intentioned but ableist people for being Steve’s friend, for even giving him the time of day. Enough that of course Steve is prickly about it; he’s been experiencing ableism since he was a small child and trusting abled people is hard when you’ve been through that. (And I note that this is precisely what still happens now, it’s not exclusive to the 1930s. I have a horrifying (able-bodied) ex who was praised so much for being with me at all that it directly fed into us both never questioning how he actually treated me. This is sadly not uncommon. The kneejerk praise of abled people for deigning to choosing to be around disabled people is partly why we are abused at such a high rate (it roughly doubles the lifetime risk for each person), and how that stays invisible and there’s even a cultural assumption that if an inter-ability relationship goes bad it’s the disabled person who’s at fault.)

And you can well believe that Bucky hates it every time he’s treated as a saint for being there for Steve, that he hated it when he was 9 and Steve was 8 and some grown-up told him what a kind and generous boy he was for hanging out with the Rogers boy. And he hates that it causes Steve to doubt his love and affection and respect, he hates that Steve ends up suspecting that Bucky’s showing him pity, rather than wanting him in his life for his own sake. Bucky knows Steve’s worth, knows how wonderful he is. Wishes he could get that through to Steve for fricking once. I bet he and Sarah rather bonded on this.

And my Gods, Sebastian gets all of this so beautifully into that moment of performance. The exasperation, the love, the reticence.

The whole “that little guy who was too dumb to know when to run away from a fight” scene in catfa is awesome to me because Bucky is explicitly making it clear that his love and loyalty to Steve began at the point where Steve was disabled, and that it hasn’t changed in any direction since he ceased to be so. It was always love; it was never pity. Whatever Steve’s physical state, Bucky has his six just the same.

And this is all another reason why I love and feel so seen by fanfics in which Steve is Bucky’s carer in the 21st century, why I feel that makes so much more sense than what we actually get in the MCU, and why I fiercely reject the attitude that that’s an intrinsically codependent and unhealthy and infantilising/”babying” (ew) way for their relationship to go. Apart from anything else, Steve is so much less likely to be a problematic or infantilising carer because he was disabled for over half his conscious life, because he remembers being disabled, because he remembers Bucky being a good and supportive and respectful carer to him. And now it’s his turn to enable and strengthen Bucky, but also to make sure that he knows he doesn’t have to do it all without help and he’s not lesser for what he can’t manage, or can’t manage yet. His turn to remind Bucky that he’s loved for himself, and that caring can be part of that and that that’s fine and natural, but that pity doesn’t come into it.

And you can be absolutely certain that anyone praising Steve for being Bucky’s friend (and possibly partner) in the 21st century would get short fucking shrift. i can’t imagine any of the other people in Bucky’s life (Sam, Ayo, Natasha, Clint, Shuri, T’Challa, Thor, Sarah W, Bruce, maybe even Tony... let’s face it I’ve gone a bit canon divergent here because fuck Endgame ;-) ) being other than scathing of that ableist bullshit either.

I’ve been obsessed with these two seconds of this movie since I saw it for the first time, and huge props to Sebastian Stan for putting in these tiny gestures that have such huge impact and give so much insight into Bucky’s character and headspace, and it totally works in a 100% platonic way of course but allow me to OTP. He opens his mouth to start talking and aborts it, can’t get the words out, and then that part annoyed, part proud, part self-deprecating head shake. Damn it, Steve, you think I don’t know how strong you are? Why d'you gotta make things so hard? You’re such a fucking punk.  You’re not an obligation. What do I gotta do to get it through your thick skull? Seeing you hurting is the worst thing I can think of. This ain’t altruism. You’re the center of my Goddamn universe, can’t see the stars for the sun, and you’d think I’d’ve outgrown that by now, but fuck if the older we get I don’t fall harder and harder. Inconvenient as all hell. “The thing is…” Christ, I really gotta spell this out for you, Stevie, huh? Fine. You’re the most frustrating little shit, y'know that?

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yes I will spank your cock till both your cunt and it are completely swollen and tender.

yes I’ll pepper kisses all over your cunt afterwards telling you what a good boy you are for me and how handsome you look legs spread like this.

might even leave a few bites over your thighs.

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I am such a possessive asshole. No one else should’ve gotten to have him. He’s mine, no one else deserved to call him theirs.

Only I pull him apart the way he needs, only I know every inch of soul, only I get to touch him and make him fall to pieces in my hands. Because I know how to put him together,

No one else gets to call him pet names, he’s mine. He’s my angel, my darling, my sweetheart. He’s my whore. No one else gets to have him like that, ever again. No one deserved to have him like that before either.

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Being a switch is wanting to fuck boycunt and be fucked by tdick.

I have no further comments.

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Assume everything I reblog and post is about my boyfriend, because it is. Happily committed and he owns my soul.

last updated: (9/28/24: about me & DM policy)

general info:

Hey I’m Nathaniel, most people call me Nash. I’m not new to kink nor to tumblr but I’m new to being more active. I’m here to just talk, mostly a lurk type of guy honestly, but I’m probably a chronic reposter.

about me:

- 27

- I’m intersex, I was born with mostly male parts. I identify entirely as a man. Please do not ever refer to me as anything else.

- Bisexual, leaning changes but currently men leaning for a long foreseeable future.

- Hypersexual

- ADHD

- A hard core switch, but I always feel better domming. I’m a good pleasure dom!

- my muse: @ryans-planet (his tag is #mine mine mine go check it out I love him he’s my sweet boy)

- White

- Insanely southern, yee haw an’ all

- I fucking love numbers, I’m sorry if I talk about it

send asks, If I don’t get to it automatically it’s cause I’m just a busy guy and will get to it as soon as possible.

DMs are open to mutuals, I have a partner, and am in a committed position. Please keep things friendly, he will know and I will not hesitate to cut ties. Thank you.

also just for context please don’t tag anything I post with sapphic or wlw. I am a man, I struggled greatly to feel like a man considering my situation even though I outwardly look like one. I do not feel comfortable with that. Otherwise feel free to interact I do not mind!

Majority of my post are mlm, I’m sorry yall my weakness is a cute boy.

Kinks below the cut !!

Kinky Motherfuckers:

favorites are in blue

likes are in green

open to is in purple

You can assume giving and receiving for anything unless specified otherwise

Choking

Nipple play (especially receiving)

Intox (weed and alcohol only)

Anal play (giving)

Bondage

Blindfolds

Impact play

Gun & knife play (if you don’t feel confident or comfortable with this I do not mind, I get it)

Public sex

Breeding (no pregnancy, just like yapping)

Praise & degradation (not hardcore degradation)

Pet Play

Somno (would like to receive and give!!)

There’s probably more sorry, horny bastard is one of my nicknames darlings.

Hard Limits:

Ageplay (I will block you, don’t fuck with me)

Raceplay (same thing, fuck off)

Scat

ForceFem

Misgendering

Piss

Hard drug intox (unless previously stated)

Miscellaneous:

Names/Titles

Completely okay with sir, boss nearly every dominant name. I’m good with good boy (by good I mean I will groan) and handsome. I ain’t into feminine terms for me. Just please don’t.

Genitalia

I have a vaginal canal, it is nearly invisible because my cock is there and it takes up a large amount of space. We can ignore it, I’m okay with certain people touching it but I’d rather that be a personal built up thing. Call my cock what it is, a cock. I’m good with anything just don’t bring up my female organs.

DNI

- minors (please go enjoy outside I live in the country go roll in grass)

- Detrans blogs

- Zoophiles

- Zionists + Nazis

- Sapphic only or Men DNI blogs

- Conservatives (just cause I’m southern don’t mean I fuck with yall)

- ED/SH blogs (I’m in recovery, just would rather not)

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bro just fuck me with a strap already don’t piss me off it’s been a long week

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wish I was smoking a cigarette while a pretty boy fucks me. But alas we can’t have everything we want.

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I need to suck tdick righhht now or im gonna combust

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Oh and I beg to drink his blood. And to breed him full of my pups so that he’ll give me a good litter.

Also to be allowed the honor of making him cum.

He owns me, I may be the top and the sadist. But the scratches down my back and my shoulders show my boys control.

I’m an absolutely rabid wolf for him. I’ve sunk my teeth into him and I have no plans of letting go.

Yeah sure I’m a dominant.

But I also lay in bed and fuck my hand and groan that he owns me and my cock and cum is his.

Mutual ownership.

Our leash pulls both ways.