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rennyji · 7 months ago

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Death2America

I cannot shake off feeling my parents, in StupidWays, are still trying 2 paint me as “the bad guy.” I feel somethings now telling them what’s wrong, whileThey nod heads 2moveOn, & in spirit of family counseling, complete apathy, cuz theyFeelJustified.-indicativeOfTroubledKidShow-

-I’m having trouble recalling/keeping track of things, simple as keeping phone on me, 2cover aVariable, b/c of brain hackers/meds. I feel like in aHaze. On an unrelated note, I feel grip of what’s like tentacles enveloping me/at veryLeast thought blocking me.(physical sensation)-

- when brain hackers do something “with me,” or we do something at same time, I cannot process what I’m doing and “visual” looking ocd symptoms occur because I don’t “know” not doubt, what I did the first time-

- I’m feeling someone’s tiredness, petty laughter, and gestures, for lack of a better word-

- I’ll try to keep iWatch on me to cover all variables. Maybe it has a mic that someone can listen into. Then I don’t have to get irritated for not having my phone on me during an inopportune and abrupt conversation where parents instigate.-

- Dad had phone in his master bathroom during 2:15 PM and 2:20 PM on 4/4/24. He claims I’m “accusing” him of things, a burst/eruption type/child whining reaction/, when I ask him where my tea set(for green tea, weirdos!-Japanese stone style).-

- my parents & troubled kids show are out to get me. They want to make me come off as a hoarder when I’m drugged 4 the truth & brain hacking is occurring. I buy things, usually innovative things that are always made in China, like a rotating swivel clamp on keyboard tray.-

- because they’re one of a kind and took a lot of searching to find, I’ll buy more than one if in case they never sell it again. Sometimes I buy things that look like a good idea.-

-Japanese stone green tea set, looked like good aesthetically stimulating way 2 drink tea insteadOfCoffee. A little bell & whistle 2 make tea more attractive. But then something happens like sedation, & I stop caring to pursuing interests or come down to Y bother w/tea?& forget.-

- then on a day like today, where I wasn’t being insomniac, I get “motivation” 2 take out tea set which I suddenly “remember” at a time when I cannot think/remember. I don’t get the methodology with this, or Y troubled kids show behaves secretly. They no they’re wrong&want2hide.-

-the next evolution of troubled kids show mentality is probably square out or clear out the kinks in the family and go “ta da” look what we did. You realize, after all this, it’s time for goodbyes all around?!-

- with the troubled kids show, This is like 18 yrs ago when I was innocent, and they undecided 2 show how good I am, and then plan2 tell me afterwards. The eyes of The God makes me see ur stupidity. When will you repent or acknowledge a method, tech, thinking that doesn’t work?!-

- U fools in orchestrators are so h*ll bent on making me in2 some1 who has 2B mind controlled 2 saying “I love you” or as a frustrated child who doesn’t laugh, u don’t realize I’m preoccupied w/ur stupidity. Now those on phone are asking it’s okay 2 laugh, right? EffectsOfLibel.-

- & then people investigating troublesome show keeps having me trip in2 a delusional state, where they’re talking 2 selves and gettting mad at me while I’m paralyzed. When the tentacles reach, I’m some1 else’s interpretation. Thanks mom/dad for letting USA harvest my organs.-

The thing astonishing me is my dad, after bathroom argument closes door & locks it when I leave him. He asks me if I’m accusing him (like we’re in court) 4 asking where’s my stone tea mugs. I ask my mom and she gets irritated. Not an ounce of remorse, just spite.

- when ur parents have nerve 2 say they feel worse than U, when U find urself in trouble, always know its a blatant lie. Its nastiest thing they can tell me, when I’m experiencing this nonsense w/ stalkers, the school, the growing strange Albany like youth, army, govmt…

-I’m receiving therapy/meds 4 talking about truth & b/c prissy Caucasian’s w/ sticks up a*ses, in coming up w/ protocols over simple action, want 2 do their side projects. While that, I’m hearing demonic songs in head. What kind of delusion is that? Let’s Make the ill sicker?-

- these retards have so much data to come up with random cr*p to spread their horny a*s ideas, their uncleanly ways (literally telling people it’s ok to be a slob getting poop on hands or scratching bulls because of random itch, which shouldn’t happen if u shower)- nasty retards-

- idiots in orchestrators no my respect, 4 not letting a rosary be thrown carelessly, or not letting a Bible hang from a table. 4 that, U want 2 use profanity 2 make it seem like I? Need 2 let loose & live a little? 4 this outright defiance, believe there is a h*ll.-

- my parents don’t know the depth to which this occurring and the troubled kids show and everyone else manipulates two immigrants for their side projects. You think this would happen with an adventurous British blonde or the stereotypical angry black woman? -

- & my parents are taking 2 selves, saying things that hint at or start off w/1 word like: how much more do we have to take?!(Dialect expressions) 1 word my dad slipped inReference, his hiding of face, snowballing of his forceful:then controlled movements, all indicate problems -

- the orchestrators hate God so much, after several opportunities 2 escape, they now want 2spread their lazy/excessively horny/unkempt , disrespectful to God & others type, behavior thru symbol of my face 4their antichrist. RestOf U Just looking4excusesToWatUConsiderLettingLoose.

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retarded mom&dad start another nonsensical conversation from 7:50 pm or 8 pm, till 8:20 PM on 4/4/24. 1 of their wiseEndIdeas 2makeMeLookCrazy, or 2 doubt a troubled kids show theme, or promote the theme 2 make me come off delusional. Retards I wouldn’t hesitate 2throw inJail.

STUFF THAT WASN'T IN TWEETS. What that random argument was about? Nonsense. It's the kind of thing that happens to get me riled up, to justify someone else's instigation and my response to it. Over a teapot, who said what, what was said, and then however I will manage with the corner kitchen space to put two water heaters. Now what could you people be hearing and seeing. The angry shizo raising his voice while you're watching him in a delusional situation. Sick F*ks all around. But ur so sick, it's not going to sick in. Moving on, as this is no longer worth my time, that's the kind of thing that happens in my situation. Every day, every month, every year, year after year. America's problems are NOT my problems, when you couldn't respect my dignity - forget as a native citizen - as a human being. Never define/restrict my potential. Never charter my life, you sick demented f*ks making a delusional situation more delusional. Now I have to worry about watching tv and the individuals on the other end buying into propaganda/stupid ideas. Was the F* is it to you any of you whether I laugh or smile. Your planes are falling/bridges are collapsing, and this is why. Because of your h*rt feelings cr*p. Pull the d*mn plug on this nonsense. You make sh*t nice by wrapping it around in nice wrapping paper doesn't mean I want your sh*t. Move on with your lives, rip this d*mn thing off like a bandaid. Never bother me again. A bunch of weirdos see me naked in multiple ways, and you think I'm a prostitute to continue doing it after.

To the orchestrators: Take your illusion mind control cr*p, your fake thinking style, your hallucinations, your augmented reality cr*p, and never come near me again, not in 10 years, a century, a millennium, a millennia after. The amount of your controlling nature bull sh*t when I figure out ur crap in hours, days, or months. 18 years or more. godlike mental faculties, physical augmentations, such powers are not yours, but they are what they are. powers are powers. Integrity, or at this point, DIGNITY is priceless. Get lost. I waited quite a bit of time to say this objectively. What do you call that f*tards?! Cuz Oh I'm the guy who's been mistreated, and then mistreated for show, and now I need all your reassurance or approval. Just writing it sound like a b*tch. Go on with your lives. Try avoiding a day without shooting, then bother with tv camera people nonsense. Not another day. I don't want this to be fixed if it ever required fixing to begin with. I'm happy the way it is. Get lost, wipe my mind, do whatever. Never come near my family or me. Middle age and these retards think I want to hang out with old men, teenagers, and be a brother to a nation that F*ed me over. Is that better orchestrators? Did I...say what I really feel...deep down he hates us-no sh*t! Get lost! While you look at me with fake puzzled looks? What is my expression? Do I need to punch a wall to make a point? This endless "he doesn't mean it" "he's angry" , all to just drag this out one more day. Why the f* do I care if you say hello or look at me. Get lost! To a bunch of ... how do I say this nicely ... citizens of the um America's ideals...I don't want to encourage your random hype interest in me with forced smiles. Take a hike and turn th*s prostitution of a brown man off.

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