#insidethoughts

[withinthebrain]

The way you called her babe in the middle of the game and I turned to answer just to realize it was her you were talking to this time.

[tipsytruths]

Echoes

As I sit in this bustling cafe, the clamor of laughter and chitchat echoing all around me, I can't help but wonder: Why do I feel so alone when I'm surrounded by people? It's like I'm in the middle of a crowded dance floor, but I'm the only one swaying to my own tune, a solitary dancer lost in a sea of choreographed steps. 

Surrounded, yet somehow stranded on my own island, where the waves of interaction crash against my shores, leaving behind only fleeting ripples of connection. It's like my voice dances into the air, but the words never quite reach their destination, fading into the atmosphere, unheard and unseen.

I glance around, watching people engaged in animated conversations, their smiles and laughter painting a vivid tapestry of human connection. But here I am, an island adrift in a social sea. My voice may join the chorus, but it's as if it's whispered in a soundproof chamber, lost in the void of oblivion.

Every day, I engage in conversations with colleagues, friends, and acquaintances, yet the feeling of isolation lingers like a never-ending game of hide and seek, where I'm always the one hiding, even though I'm right there in plain sight. I'm here, but I feel invisible, like a ghost haunting the periphery of existence.

Amidst the hum of existence, I remain a solitary note, a whisper in a symphony of noise, a silent melody yearning to be heard. Perhaps it's not the absence of people, but the absence of a shared understanding that leaves me feeling like a specter wandering through the crowd, seeking a hand to grasp, a heart to resonate with. 

Perhaps it's the mask I wear, the facade that conceals the real me, the one who longs for genuine connection. It's not that I don't want to be a part of this vibrant world–I do. It's just that I don't know how to bridge the gap between my inner world and the one outside.

I watch as friends laugh at inside jokes, strangers strike up conversations with ease, and couples share intimate moments. It's a vivid kaleidoscope of human connection that I can't seem to grasp. Do they all possess some secret code for belonging, a key to unlock the door to the shared human experience? I'm left feeling like an outsider, the lone puzzler piece that doesn't quite fit into the grand picture.

So, here I am, present yet invisible, speaking but unheard, longing for the warmth of genuine connection in this sea of faces and voices. The more I speak, the more the echoes of my words dissipate, swallowed by the clamor of the world around me, leaving me with an ache that echoes within, reverberating through the chambers of my soul.

But there's a spark of hope. Maybe, just maybe, there are others out there who feel the same way. Perhaps they, too, are silently navigating the maze of social interaction, searching for their own place in the tapestry of connection. And in our shared invisibility, we might find a way to become visible, a symphony of loners coming together to create a harmonious chorus.

So, as I sit here, I know I'm not alone in feeling alone. We may be islands, but there's an archipelago of us out there, waiting to discover our own unique sense of belonging. And maybe, just maybe, one day, we'll find our tribe, where feeling invisible transforms into a shared journey of being seen and heard.

[meganutriland]

The beautiful thing to say sorry, brilliant advice to let others how deeply we can be apologetic about things we did and we all need to receive the same kind respect. #apologies #sorry #breakupquotes #lovestory #tobehonest #relatable #apologize #insidelife #lovelife #reailtyoflife #listencarefully #newchapter #nobreakupthoughs #love #insidethoughts #halalmemes #youandkarma #amazingsayings #lovestories #voiceofmyheart #forgiveness #apology #womenempowerment #thegoodquote #storytime #lovequotes https://www.instagram.com/p/Cpar8T0sTQG/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[iamlessofyou]

I’ve been through

01.06.23

As what I reminisced those times that I’ve been through, on how those different emotions that spined my whole body. The more than two months on dealing and waiting to be accomplished everything. I give up everything in order to pursue the dreams that I have been praying for. On how much struggles every single day and nights that made me insane as in honestly. I also lost weight because of thinking about the outcomes gradually. That I felt sorry for myself and started to question, if I did the right decisions on wanting for more than I could ever imagine. The goals that I think out of my league, just so you know I’m not that well off enough to cater all the expenses. How much money to withdrawn before leaving here. Those secret tears almost every night inside here in my room that no one knows of what I’ve been through so far. The pain deep inside of my whole body, like you wish sometimes to just disappear for a while to release those emotions that keep on bagging inside of me. The feelings that I don’t want to feel again coz it hurts so bad. You can’t even eat well nor sleep well because of the thoughts keep on repeating that I can’t even control it. Last year was the most excruciating experience that I’ve been through so far. My mind was so preoccupied almost everyday that's why I always wanted to go out with friends to divert my thoughts but at the end of the day I still feel lost in pain again. Yes, I admit it I sometimes I lose hope coz I really don’t know until when will stop it. I don’t know how to deal the torment anymore, like I’m stack up and can’t move on to the next, if you knew what I mean.

When you were in a real situation you thought you’re prepared for all the outcomes what will bring yet in reality, you were just clueless of what’s going on. No one would ever understand the feelings that you are suffering, how disappointed you are to yourself almost everyday, because of making another big decision for your future. Sorry if this is what I want like since then He gave me this kind of mindset to follow my dreams no matter what and not to settle for less. Coz time goes by little by little. Like I think I am different from my friends the way I picture out my life coz they don’t have the same as mine. I know I'm too ambitious just like most of everyone says to me, and I can’t blame. This is me: I can’t change the way I vision myself so far enough to control it. 

I tried to find some funny videos just to feel how to be happy again, I wanted to hear the sound of my laughter again the genuine laughter. I forgot to smile to myself honestly to the point I let myself starved even though I’m hungry because I don’t have an appetite. I let to consume my emotions that turns out I don’t care myself anymore. I feel so bad and guilty for my body that most of them notice it. How my features change every time I showed up to them for only two months of being away. 

[illtemperedd]

I feel like sometimes my head spins in itself and down the rabbit hole I go.. and sometimes my brain just floats around in that chaos and I drown… and I get so engulfed in this mess that my body just follows… and there’s no way out…

#insidethoughts #feelings

[insidethougths]

"Whether you understand someone or not depends on whether or not you see the one centimeter others don't see."

-Salon de Nabi

-🖌Castiel

[shootiingstarrr]

I’m so lost

Everything is rushing through me, as if time was moving too fast. But only if I could see, that I’m falling for the past.

I feel so empty inside, swimming in an ocean of dark blue. Everything is kept in my mind, shut with some heavy duty glue.

Feeling as if the world is falling, end it and I’ll be fine. If there is a sudden change of calling, then that will be my sign.

I’m lost, please find me, I’m severely low on life. I just want to feel no more pain, even if that means losing another 10 lives.

I’m tired, I’m angry, I’m questioning “who am I”. Why can’t I live a normal life, where lemons turn into lemonade that doesn’t make me die.

So much hate, so much pain, I did it once, I’ll again. Please give me hope and purpose, for this life is restricted within small domains.

As a new decade comes, please forgive what I have done. I want to grow old and wrinkly and still have a little fun.

I wish next year, everything will change. From my style to my hygiene, even my mid range. I know this sounds weird, but this is truely me. All these poems are stuff I feared, that hopefully will flee.

So in coming days, Christmas is upon us. I wish everyone a Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Years.

[online4journaling]

i’m always afraid ima like someone with side hoes and be lonely af while they have many to help them fill their needs.

[jhababy]

I want Tropical smoothie but I also don't want to spend money so there's that

[marionbear]

It’s like rust on a bike.

It’s start off small and insignificant

But then instantly engulfs your whole body

Sometimes it hits hard

Sometimes you can handle it

But does it ever go away?

I don’t know

— M.B.

[the-archangels-scribe-0011]

What kind of writer am I?

Hello, and welcome to my inside thoughts.

simple introduction: hi, my name is Blossom and I am a new creator on Wattpad. I have just started on my journey to write and publish my work for outside feedback.

The genres I like to write are romance and fantasy. The sub-genres that I like to write about connecting to romance are mafia, royal, and wealth type romance stories.

I myself am a very logic based writer heavily focused on the details in my stories.

I love editing other peoples writing. But I find it hard to edit my own because of my ADHD which makes it hard for me to see my own personal errors but I am still able to find others errors really easily.

End note:

Please if you need help with any sort of editing DM, I am free to help and cost nothing. Plus I am always looking for a writing friend.

To find me on other social media sites and my wattpad please look at my previous posts.

Thank you for reading my inside thoughts.

[jollyfoxy-blog]

JURASSIC PARK nyc version oh huh 😂 How could I miss an opportunity to sit on something that reminds of an animal, pretending to ride it? 🐎 Actually, when I was little, me and my parents went to Crimea for a trip and stayed there for 2 weeks or so and there was a big funky sculpture of some animal made of concrete. And I would just sit on it for hours, say things or walk around, get on and off, sometimes on a head (it was enormous), sometimes on the back, flowing somewhere in my imagination, thinking of battling in great wars and leading great armies, of saving that animal or handling it...the power of imagination was FAR stronger than it is now. . . . . . . . . #dinosaur #JurassicPark #story #imagination #blog #vlog #eveningthoughts #nyc #nycblogger #parkflushing #queenspark #fantasy #storytelling #blogpost #insidethoughts #usefulpost #learnyourself (at Queens, New York)

[loudthoughtsinwriting]

Loneliness Within a Group

Recently I find myself lonely or I guess more withdrawn than I normally am when I am with a specific group of friends. I’m not sure why honestly, it could just be that I want to see what they are like without me, when they go on with their lives when I’m gone. I feel like when I see them have fun, I feel pained that they might not notice me when I’m gone, but alas, this is the price I pay for doing something that I alone want to do. I guess in a way, it is also interesting to observe them while I stay silent amongst them. To see what it is like when I was too, one of those people, talking and laughing with the whole lot of them. It’s an interesting experience if I say so myself, being with them, but not really. Maybe I’ve matured as I’ve grown up, or maybe I’m subconsciously trying to wean of their presence as I move to another place, void of the people I’ve hanged with almost all of my teenage years. I may one day regret my decision, but I have a feeling when I’m back, they will be gone, only the traces of faint memory remains. Maybe I’ll wish I could go back, but I know that my decision to go, I do not regret, but the decision to join in the festivities, I maybe would. Time will tell, but I will miss them, for they shape me, the person I am now.

[brittaye93-blog]

She asked if it was all a lie,

And I couldn't help but answer;

"Silly girl, my love was never a lie. You just couldn't look in the mirror and tell yourself the same thing."

[insidethougths]

"Be proud of all your small victories. Life doesn't have to be all about getting first place every time, or always being the best, a win is still a win, no matter how small."

- Honeyymistt

- Illustration: nalina_day

[marionbear]

My love for you was as deep as an ocean

But as the sun shined on it more,

It evaporated into the clouds

Waiting to fall again,

Somewhere new.

— M.B.