#insane scene.....oh mariko the woman you are

[maxanor]

SHŌGUN (2024) Chapter Ten: A Dream of a Dream

[fightingglamour]

pov: ur a girl who hates on other girls n i roll my eyes at you bc i believe in empowering & supporting other women n who they wanna b, not tearing them down. go off queen, be one of the boys (ew). – task: my audiobiography

pussy riot - princess charming everywhere i go, i become the ceo. sorry, bro, bought myself and made myself a throne. i’m a gentlewoman, even let you wear my coat. if you need a saviour, just call me princess charming and i’ll be yours.

i’m baby - lil mariko i may be baby, but don’t think i’ll hesitate to end you. and if you make me cry, i’ll snatch your eyeballs straight out of your skull, okay? baby, i’m crazy.

girli - matriarchy kiss me ‘cause we don’t have to be sorry for the way i love a woman and her body; you and i make our own matriarchy. when we touch, we fuck to fuck the patriarchy.

blondes - peach prc call your boyfriend, play him this song. tell him he did nothing wrong; you just decided you prefer blondes.

slut money - zand i’m a hot bitch so i capitalise on that. i wipe my tears up with my slut money.

audalei - little miss misogyny you’re not a girl’s girl it’s clear to me, cater to his world and i don’t hate you i just wish you weren’t little miss misogyny.

everybody supports women - sofia isella everybody supports women until a woman’s doing better than you, everybody wants you to love yourself until you actually do.

she calls me daddy - king mala she might be your girl, but she’s calling me daddy.

devil - slayyyter no sugar, all spice, and i never play nice but i’m known to entice stupid boys all the time. you all act the same: you get burned, i get blamed. baby, let’s play a game, watch me drive you insane.

oral hex (spell on you) - bludnymph i make that cauldron bubble, double double toil she trouble. i did what i always do; i put a spell on you.

pink paper - scene queen i’m an icon, big boss, major. i roll my weed with pink paper.

religion - zand it’s because she fucks just like a god. not to be too dramatic, miss, that angel puss is galactic shit. psychopathic, pornographic both angelic and satanic, but i gotta fucking have it.

chrissy chlapecka - i’m really pretty i’m really pretty, you wanna kiss me. oh, yeah, i’m perfect from my head down to my kitty. it’s a pity, you want a quickie? oh, that’s so tricky, i’m so busy ‘cause i’m pretty.

[spring-emerald]

oooooh you made me discover a new song!!!! gosh one sentence it's hard....hhhhhhhhh "i'm not wasting your time, i'm not playing no games, i see you". THANK YOU IN ADVANCE

Hello, @finnthebunneh! Wow, I’m glad to have helped you discover a new song. :D Also, I made your request a part of my actors au series (while the cameras roll) because it fits the direction i’m going for, for that particular story, so I hope you don’t mind. Though, i suggest reading through the previous fics in this series (to provide more context) here and here. Also, the Valentine’s Day scenario referenced here is this fic. You’re welcome, and thank you for sending an ask!

The thing about Akihito is that he never learnshis lessons. Or wait, no. He shouldn’t sell himself short like that, because hedoes. He really does, at least on most things. Like the sciences, much to thesurprise of people. But that’s not the point because for some lessons, whichcan be argued as the more important ones, well… it has a tendency not to stickfor long.

Case in point: he’s falling, yet again, for aperson who is in love with someone else.

Oh, he knows its karma. There’s no ‘probably’ inthat sentence. What with all those hearts he’d broken, when he knows for a factthat they’re only cover ups- shallow replacements for the person he reallywants but can’t have.

He’d long since accepted that Natsushima -while hewill undoubtedly still accept him as his friend- will never really return thekind of love he wants to have from him. But there’s a part of him that aches atseeing his best friend pursue someone else, put an effort that he never didshow anything and anyone before. Its why, unknown to Natsu, Akihito sought outTomoyuki.

Misery loves company and all that shit, after all,right?

Honestly, it was only supposed to be just that.And maybe see for himself that he’s doing much better than someone else sinceAkihito is aware that he and Tomoyuki are in the same boat.

But he had underestimated how much of himself hewould see in the other man.

Indeed, Akihito is the one doing better thansomeone else when it comes to pretending to be alright, because this Tomoyuki personis just barely holding on. But seeing him like that didn’t make Akihito feelbetter. At least he’s had years of practice with Natsu. But this guy? This guyhad been given a lot of hope since he was a kid probably, and when all that hadbeen swept away by someone else, he’s just left heartbroken and fumbling andlost.

After the confrontation where he let slip pastsome deep dark secrets, he knows there’s no way he can just ignore this guy orthe sense of kindred spirit he’d felt.

They formed a tentative friendship after that.

Tomoyuki’s awkward around him, conscious of the wayhe acts and the things he says, especially at the beginning. Wary about Akihito’sintentions, like he couldn’t believe that Akihito really wants to be hisfriend. But Akihito takes it with a stride and understanding. He’s used topacing himself with other people anyway.

Slowly but surely, Tomoyuki warmed up to him, tothe idea of them being friends, until one day, Akihito knows that they just are.

Tomoyuki, as a friend, is different. He’s a lotmore than he lets on. People think he’s this goody two shoes, but Akihito nowknows that he’s not just that. He’s snarky, and dorky, passionate aboutliterature the way Akihito is passionate about the periodic table of elements.

What started as banding together because of similarcircumstances became an unlikely friendship.

For Akihito, it’s also an unlikely attraction. Iteven started off with harmless thinking. Because knowing what he knows nowabout Tomoyuki, he wondered how Mariko have not noticed this, how come she didn’tfall for this? Tomoyuki is a great guy and he’s not hard to love.

The thing is, Akihito doesn’t stop thinking that. Buthe doesn’t dare ask himself about what it could mean.

Then Valentine’s Day happened.

Natsushima won’t shut up about his surprise andplans with Mariko, and Akihito usually doesn’t mind. He can say that nowsincerely, (because his heart doesn’t throb anymore, he doesn’t ache, like howhe used to and he’s suspecting that the presence of a certain snowflakehas something to do with this), but it’s also starting to drive him insane. Hehopes that Tomoyuki isn’t experiencing the similar fate from Mariko, and thatthe woman had the decency to gush about it with her girlfriends instead.Although, she doesn’t really know what Natsu is planning, does she?

Dammit.

The moment Natsu left, finally, he grabs hisleather jacket, rides his motorbike to their university and waits for Tomoyukiwith a plan to take him away.

Although honestly, the outing had been more forhis own benefit than anything else, and if he happened to help a comrade alongthe way while he’s at it, then no one will doubt that he’s really got a kindheart.

And one that falls fast too, apparently. Becausehe knows that that moment, was the moment that the seed of affection he wasn’taware he’s actually nurturing had already taken root, and the awareness hadbeen very much like a sprout breaking out of the soil to have its first tasteof the sun.

Akihito thinks then that he’s in trouble.

—–

Saeko-sensei, theirdirector for this taping day pulls the two actors aside. “So, Kuroo-kun andSawamura-kun, we’re going to be filming the admission scene.”

The Daichi nods,while Kuroo settled for humming, as a stylist is still busy taming his hairinto submission.

“I’m pretty sure you alreadyknow the emotions this scene demands from your characters, and deliver.” Shepats both of them on their shoulder and heads back to the director’s chair,while the stylist finally deems Kuroo’s hair ready to film and they too taketheir positions in front of the camera.

Kuroo waggles hiseyebrows at Daichi, earning him a grin before he schools his expression andturns his back on him.

The AC says theirspiel, claps the clapboard and the cameras start rolling.

Daichi stomps with ahuff but Kuroo quickly catches his wrist, halting his advance.

“Tomoyuki, wait!” Kuroo effectively injects some desperation in hisvoice. Akihito can’t let him leave likethis.

“I don’t appreciatebeing made fun of, Akihito,” Daichithrows his arms down, losing the hand holding him in the process. “So stopwasting my time with this nonsense, or whatever this game is that you’replaying.” How can Akihito do this? Had hebeen planning this all along? He thought they were friends.

Around them, some ofthe stylists that are watching the scene unfold on the small screen gasp softlyat how Sawamura-san’s eyes were perfectly conveying the hurt and betrayal in hiseyes, completely captured by the cameras.

Kuroo grabs one ofDaichi’s arms.  “I’m not wasting yourtime, Yuki,” he says the name with alilt of affection. “I’m not playing no games.” He steps into Daichi’s space andcups his cheek. “I see you. And I’m telling you that I like you. More than as afriend.” Akihitio won’t make the samemistake. He won’t stay silent this time. He’ll take his chance, and he’ll provethat he deserves it. Because they also both deserve a shot at happiness.

Daichi’s taken in bythe sincere hopefulness and studies Kuroo’s face, his eyes, for signs of a lie,for a hint that this just one big, tasteless joke, but he finds none. He frownsin confusion and shrinks in hesitation. He swallows. Tomoyuki isn’t ready for this. God, he wants to believe Akihito rightnow, but… isn’t he in love with Natsushima? And Tomoyuki… He loves Mariko. Hedoes. Right?

Daichi’s breathing quickly,then shakes his head and pulls away from Kuroo’s hold. He can’t do this right now.

“I- I can’t… I’m- I’msorry.” Still shaking his head, Daichi blinks back the tears that arethreatening to fall and leaves Kuroo alone.

Kuroo stays there, runsa hand over his hair in frustration, grits his teeth and kicks the pavement. This is what you get for everything Akihito.He breathes heavily. No. He won’t letit end like this.

“And CUT!”

Kuroo loses thetension on his shoulders and goes up to Daichi and gives him a high-five,before they go over to the small screen to review what they’ve just shot.

“Great take, you two!”Saeko-san says with a wide grin. “Damn, it was so natural. Good job, you guys.”

“Thank you, Saeko-san.Though, Kuroo-kun did really well. He was so effective.” He bumps theirshoulders and throws him a dimpled smile.

“You flatter me,Sawamura-kun. Though I must say, your eyes really brought their A-game today,”he replies with a chuckle.

“Whatever,” Daichirolls his eyes.

Kuroo means itthough, and just watches on as Daichi converses with Saeko-san about the scene.They seemed natural, she said. Well, maybe they were, because Kuroo thinks hewasn’t completely acting back there.

Akihito isn’t the only one in trouble. Kuroo seemsto be too.