#initial thoguhts at 5am

[saritagiovanna]

I honestly don't know how to feel right now....sick to my stomach is probably the best way to describe it. Puking? Yes, I want to puke. I'm writing this just a little after 5am on November 6, 2024. Our country is huge, there are clearly millions upon millions of people who didn't want this outcome. I live in NJ, a blue state. I've always voted with the left, always voted for women's rights, human rights, lgbtqia rights... Now I feel like all those rights are going to be stripped away. I feel WORSE NOW than in 2016. We lived through 4 years of the horror, this time it's going to be far fucking worse. I am in such a flight mode right now. For the first time in quite a long time I am seriously thinking of breaking the glass of my emergency escape plan and fleeing the country. I have dual citizenship with France. This means I can live and work anywhere in the European Union. I don't know how that impacts my husband, he was born and raised in NJ. I know that this is such a privileged position I'm in since not many people have this emergency escape card. I don't know, though, what I'd do for work...I speak English and what I lovingly call my Spanglish. I have worked in one field for the past 16 years, I have a decent salary with a unionized job (a rarity these days...and who the hell knows what's going to happen with that). I only have a BA (in Psychology). Even with all of this, though, there is only so far I can run. This affects the entire fucking world. Fascists everywhere are celebrating today and will rise to power everywhere. Fuck I'm terrified. I didn't want this, millions upon millions of people here didn't want this. I don't know the answer. I feel like I'm living in a horrible alternate history timeline where the Nazi's actually won. In reality, they waited and made plans over the years...and now their experiment has succeeded... I know this sounds like a really bleak mentality but it's where my head is at right now. As Crowley so succinctly screamed.... "We are FUCKED"

usa what are you doing :|