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me vibing to the absolute, most broad spectrum of music humanity can conjure
#this is normal...right :')#electroswing#my little pony music#Go_a#Ukrainian electrofolk#every sad song you can imagine#death metal#Barbie#little richard#taylor swift songs go so hard too#full blues#marching bands#piano playlists that last for hours#country songs <3 🤠#bread#bongos#South and North Indian styles of music#god dang man I love music#“POP” OF COURSE!!!#many many musicals#i cannot even list all the ones i listen too. Legit
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अगर तुम कहो तो मैं ख़ुद को भुला दूं
agar tum kaho toh mai khud ko bhula doon
तुम्हें भूल जाने की ताकत नहीं है
tumhein bhool jaane ki taaqat nahi hai
if you ask me ill forget this whole world
but i don't have the strength to forget you
#just sad af today#desi tumblr#desiblr#bollywood#desi academia#desi tag#hindi song lyrics#old bollywood#indian academia#desi dark academia#song lyrics#shah rukh khan#preity zinta#madhubala#dev anand#aishwarya rai#loml
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Sometimes Anuv Jain's "aaye na teri yaad unko" hits really different than the other times.
#anuv jain#indian music#Spotify#Spotify India#gul#hindi songs#singer#music#apple music#gaana#favorite songs#songs#therapy#sad songs#writers on tumblr#writerscommunity
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mujhe ghar jaana hai, lekin main ghar par hi hoon
par agar ‘ghar’ aisa hota hai, shayad main beghar hi sahi?
#forever dreaming about the love they sing about in this era of bollywood romantic songs#desi tumblr#desi tag#indian#hindi#urdu stuff#feelings#sad thoughts#lol i feel like shit#i have crippling anxiety
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my grandma is watching all the sad videos of india losing on tik tok jdhdjdkf
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Desperately in need of someone who can hug me.🫂
#desi teen#desi things#growing up desi#desi dark academia#desi humor#desi shit posting#desi memes#indian aesthetic#india#desi aesthetic#huge butt#harry styles album#harry potter#harry 1d#sad songs#sad poem#sad poetry#sad aesthetic#why tho#please#rosa b99#b99 fanart
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i cant be the only one that doesnt think Azriels singing voice would be the raspy kind. I genuinely think his voice is gonna be melodic af.
#not soprano melodic#a full deep melodic voice#like traditional middle eastern or indian vocals#or like trad gaelic vocals?? yknow?? like the sad elf fantasy songs lol
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Dekhi soniyaa...dekhi sonjyaaa...aapaa milange jrur ve....
#music#love#lyrics#who is she??#where is she??#with whom she is for now#💀💀🙂🙂#🎶#tumblr#songs#indian music#punjabi#sad#romantic#pyar#desi#Spotify
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indian chill ambient lofi song.
#indian lofi#lofi#lofi songs#lofi indian#indian lofi mix#hindi lofi songs#lofi hindi songs#indian lofi hip hop#lofi music#lofi hiphop#bollywood lofi#lofi radio#lofi beats#lofi songs hindi#lofi hip hop#hindi lofi#chill lofi#night vibes hindi lofi mashup songs#lofi song#bollywood lofi songs#lofi bollywood songs#indian#lofi love song#india#lofi bollywood songs mashup#indian songs#indian music#lofi mix#sad lofi#indian hip hop
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how can i remember it
i can never rid of it
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New Song Teaser Out #BEKHABAR
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sometimes a song can carry your soul on its back instead of attack it with hammers. thank you Jalebi Baby by Tesher x Jason Derulo slowed remix and FUCK YOU bts 🖕
#bts pain ended. now jalebi baby is my best feiend#mypost#WHAT is it with indian songs ELEVATING my soul. the whistle they add to the song. like in haanibaraak babu (?)#mighta spelled wrong#anyway stream Dangal songs#and jalebi baby. holy shit im Rejoiced#NOT listening ro nostalgic sad painful bts songs again💪💪💪 (lying)
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Just realised that my dancing skills are at par with guy in background from 3:05-3:12 in khwab ho tum ya koi Haqeeqat song
#bollywood#sad but true#songs#aesthetic#dance#skill issue#kishorekumar#indian cinema#india#desi#dev anand#khwab#poetry#hindi cinema#hindi#realization#reality
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ZOHRAJABEEN LYRICS - B Praak x Jaani
Hey Tumblr fam!
I just post the latest hit song lyrics "Zohrajabeeen" by B Praak and Jaani, and I'm completely obsessed with it! The lyrics are so soulful and meaningful, and they really speak to the heart.
This song is a beautiful blend of melody and emotions, and B Praak's voice adds the perfect touch of intensity to the lyrics penned by Jaani. The music video is also stunning, featuring gorgeous visuals and a storyline that will leave you mesmerized.
If you haven't already, be sure to check out the song In Hindi "Zohrajabeeen B Praak Lyrics" on bio. The site offers a great breakdown of the song's meaning and interpretation, which is sure to deepen your appreciation of this powerful ballad.
Overall, I highly recommend giving this song a listen - it's definitely one of my favorites of the year so far! Let me know what you think in the comments below.
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Madhubala (Mughal-e-Azam, Barsaat Ki Raat, Mr. & Mrs. '55)—The Venus of India; heart-throb of all who saw her; responsible for the sexual awakening of every single desi lesbian I know (including me!) And my god, she is breathtakingly beautiful. Look at the subtle grace with which she moves, and that smile - the kind of radiant smile that can make you laugh with sheer delight, or cry because of its hidden pain. Those wild curls! That Cupid's bow! The way she tilts back her head and smiles at you with mischief dancing in her eyes! She has a way of looking at the camera that makes you feel she's sharing a private joke just with you; it's something about that quizzical twist of the lips and eyebrows. As an actress, she is inimitable; she seems to effortlessly inhabit roles ranging from a heart-broken courtesan to a laughter-loving socialite. Fun fact : she's had quite the fan following in Greece! Stelios Kazantidis even wrote a song as a tribute to her.
Ingrid Bergman (Gaslight, Casablanca, Notorious)—Where do I even begin with Ingrid Bergman? I fell in love with her with her astounding performance in the 1956 version of Anastasia -- the best Anastasia movie in large part due to her wonderful and touching performance. She's got this amazing, fascinating intensity to her in whatever role she's in. She commits 100%, and she's got this light in whatever she's in that's stunning. She's utterly convincing no matter what she plays, from an amnesiac possible lost princess, from a nun, from a woman taking her revenge on the town that wronged her, to light romantic comedy. She's never missed in any role I've seen her in! Also she became quite the MILF.
This is round 5 of the tournament. All other polls in this bracket can be found here. Please reblog with further support of your beloved hot sexy vintage woman.
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Madhubala:
An icon of Bollywood, who was well known for her beauty and has continued to inspire performances and songs into the 21st century. She was at times described as "the number one beauty of the Indian screen" and "the biggest star in the world".
SHE IS EVERYTHING AHHH. JUST LOOK AT HER SMILE-
She's been nicknamed the Marilyn Monroe of India and was one of the highest paid actresses in the Hindi film industry (the term Bollywood did not exist yet) during the 1950s. Also an extremely talented dancer and singer
SHE'S JUST SO STUNNING, like seeing her eyes IMMEDIATELY CAPTIVATES YOU, THE DANCING, THE BEAUTY!!!!!!!!! She worked in Bollywood for over 20 years and passed away at a sad early age of 36, BUT THE IMPACT SHE HAD WAS UNMATCHED!!!!!
That sassy sideways glance she does always has me WEAK AT THE KNEES. And when she's making silly faces at the camera to mimic someone ahhhh my gay little heart <3
Ingrid Bergman:
God, she's fantastic. She's both beautiful and a compelling actor who's more than capable of putting the whole movie on her shoulders if necessary. It's worth noting that while her beauty is conventional, she was seen as refreshingly "natural" with more eyebrows and less makeup than many other leading ladies of the time. She's well known for her role in Casablanca, but in Notorious, Spellbound, (both available on archive.org ) and Gaslight (1944) she shows how immensely capable she is.
I mean...she's Ingrid Bergman. I feel like that should be enough, you know? She's physically beautiful (her eyes!) but watching her is like a transcendent experience. Her voice, her expressions... beautiful woman, beautiful actor.
I'm a gay man but even I understand her appeal. I'll watch any movie she shows up in. Gorgeous woman.
Just try and watch her movies without sighing wistfully, then get back to me!
Choosing 1-3 movies where Bergman was at her hottest was agony because, of course, she was always at her hottest. Not just because she was beautiful but because she was absolutely willing to go up against the bs women in Hollywood were constantly dealing with. When exiled from Hollywood for having an affair with Roberto Rossellini, not only did she refuse to apologize at any point, but she went on to say that Hollywood's films had grown stagnant and boring to her. Though she said she appreciated her time working there, she wanted to try new, different techniques (hence starring in Italian neorealist films, working on stage, and acting under directors like Ingmar Bergman). She was not afraid to chase after her artistic ideals and go outside the box regardless of what society had to say about it. From her first movie to her last she killed it. There's so much more to say about Bergman's career and life, but I've already written five million words so I'll stop at that.
ion words so I'll stop at that.
One of the most incredible actors I've ever seen on film. Her facial expressions are so intricate and poignant that I cannot look away. I'm either ace or straight, but damn she made me question that.
SEVEN TIME OSCAR NOMINEE QUEEN. Girl also PULLED, having affairs with famously hot men Gary Cooper and Gregory Peck IN ADDITION to her three marriages...sexy
She has a very natural beauty to her, and she's from Sweden!
She left Hollywood and only became more beautiful. You could drown in her eyes. She can look innocent AND like she's seen it all. She is effortlessly elegant. She's played Joan of Arc (automatically hot) AND was in the movie that coined gaslight as a term. And where would we be without that!
She was known for being a breath of fresh air on the movie scene at the time with her windswept hair, dreamy smile and soulful eyes. I have loved her in every movie I have seen her in - she was just magnetic!
Where do I even start. There's a neighborly quality to this beautiful, talented actress that makes her hotness one of a kind and her looks impossible to forget
With a career spanning five decades, Bergman is often regarded as one of the most influential screen figures in cinematic history. Known for her naturally luminous beauty, Bergman spoke five languages – Swedish, English, German, Italian and French – and acted in each.
She's hot, don't get me wrong, but I've always found her very approachable, like she could easily be a member of my friend group
A lot of the time hotness in a movie is just about words and framing. "You're the most beautiful person here" [vaseline lens] well I sure hope so because that's who you cast. But when, in Casablanca, they call Ingrid Bergman the most beautiful woman in the world... they were not fucking lying. And such a dynamite actor too!! I'd only seen Casablanca up until last year, and there she's confined to love interest. But in Gaslight she was maybe one of the most incredible actors I've ever seen!!!! Goddddd shes so fucking hot and cool.
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Love's Bullshit.
Summary: maybe love wasnt bullshit after all.
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Word Count: 5225
Warnings: a tinyyy tiny bit of angst, pining, unrequited feeling but requited in the end, sad rhysie poo healing but we dont really get into that. uh i think thats it? let me knowif theres more i need to add <3
A/n: let me tell yall, when i wrote this i think i had watched some pasta videos and helped my mum clean up some green veggies lmaoo, so Y/n's thoughts are just me yapping lol.
rhys would be happy i finally wrote something fluffy for him lmao
I LOVED WRITING TIS SM OML I HOPE YALL LOVE READING IT AKFJHDFH
(im sorry im back to my p.s bs again cus thank you to my wifey for, again, helping me plan this fic out and also this fic is again based on an indian song 😭)
anyways, enjoyyy🥹🤭
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It had almost become a ritual, standing around the coffee machine and waiting to grab the two cups of coffee.
It was a ritual, stalking back to the office with two cups of steaming coffee in her hand.
It was a ritual, trying her best not to blush when her boss smiled at her, his fingers brushing hers as he took his black coffee from her hands, a soft thank you slipping past his lips, his attention already focused on the screen of his laptop.
Y/n did not know how she hadn’t yet told him she loved him, but whatever force held those words captive in her chest, she thanked it every day.
Today was no different as she made her way into the elevator, nodding to the others who filed in after her with a small smile. Silence filled her ears, only broken by the ding of the elevator doors as it opened to let a couple of employees out onto the second floor. Y/n leaned back, sighing as the doors dragged close again, her head resting against the shiny metal as her eyes fixed themselves on the little panel above the door.
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Ding.
Y/n walked out, subconsciously searching for that familiar figure of her boss. The final floor of the building had been turned into a huge office for the CEO and the owner and his two best friends who helped manage the place, so it was not hard to find him, standing hunched over the huge mahogany desk as he scribbled something in a file.
She moved forward, lips stretching to accommodate the smile that spread on her lips without permission.
"Good evening, sir."
His head rose, the black rimmed glasses perched on his nose caching in the light. "Good evening, Y/n." His violet eyes tracked her movements, an easy smile on that full mouth.
He turned around the moment she set his coffee on his desk, attention already flitting away to focus on more important things.
It irritated Y/n to no end that he would not even try to talk to her- or anyone, really- unless it was related to work.
"Uh, have a good day, sir."
He nodded, and Y/n took that as her que to leave. She walked towards the desk that Y/n occupied. Being the CEO’s secretary, he wanted her close by in case he needed anything. Thankfully, the two managers were too busy with their own work to look at the blush that covered Y/n.
Time flew by as she settled down again, forcing herself to stop thinking about how those eyes would shine from up close, and started typing away in her laptop, her surroundings fading into nothing.
The next time Y/n stood to stretch her back, it was already dark outside the huge glass walls, and she leaned back, her back curving before it finally popped. The other two men that worked on the top floor, Cassian and Azriel, had already left half an hour ago, after bidding Y/n and Rhysand goodbye.
Relieved breath escaping her lips, she turned to find herself alone with Rhysand, who now sat with his back straight. So straight that Y/n was concerned that it would hurt him.
Something was wrong.
Before she could inquire, the elevator doors slid open, and the loud clicking of stilettos filled the silent atmosphere.
She’s beautiful.
That was Y/n’s first thought.
Long, straight light brown hair, almost bordering blond, the woman stalked straight up to the rich dark wooden desk, ire blazing in her eyes, anger seeping from every pore in her body.
Y/n should have left, she knew she should have.
But she didn’t, even knowing she would regret not leaving when everything seemed fine.
Rhys, eyes wide, stumbled to his feet.
Y/n had never seen that man ever stumble.
"Did I not tell you to stay away from me?"
His mouth parted, and Y/n watched with bated breath to see what would happen.
"Hello to you too, Feyre d-"
"Call off your stalker."
Fingers of ice skated down Y/n’s spine. Stalker?
His eyes hardened, jaw clenched. "He isn’t a stalker."
The woman let out an incredulous laugh. "Oh? Then what is he?"
"He’s there to protect you-"
"And what is he protecting me from? The trees in my backyard?"
Y/n swallowed, eyes flitting away. The elevator was near her, but it would draw attention. But it was definitely better than standing and watching the two like a creep.
"Feyre…" It was dark, but Y/n knew that Rhys glanced at her frozen form. "Let’s talk somewhere else, please. You’re making a scene-"
"No. I’m not going anywhere with you."
He released a frustrated breath, and Y/n finally got herself moving.
She grabbed her purse and hurried towards the elevator, hoping he did not think that she was judging him. Even as hard as she tried to be quiet, her heels clicked, and she froze, panic seizing every muscle in her body as she felt his eyes on her.
Swallowing, she hit the button on the silver panel, and the doors slid open, thankfully revealing that the elevator was still on their floor. As soon as she walked in, she hit the button to close the doors continuously, then pressed the button to the ground floor.
Idly she watched herself in the glass in the back of the elevator, her eyes travelling over her own figure.
Hmm. Pretty, but not as much as that lady.
It was clear that Rhys and she had something together. If not now, then before. And with the way Rhysand’s eyes had lit up with love but also sadness, she knew it was romantic.
Eh. Never really stood a chance anyway.
The elevator finally stopped moving, and Y/n walked out to greet a few lingering employees, who smiled and nodded at her. She smiled too, her mind already wandering to what she would eat for dinner. Maybe she could just get takeout-
She couldn’t.
Ugh.
She groaned as she remembered that her car had broken down the day before, and she’d had it towed to a mechanic shop, who had taken one look at the old, run down vehicle and said it would take them at the very least one week to fix.
Uber it is.
As she walked towards the exit, Y/n shoved her hand into her purse to grab her phone, but everything that came into her hand was not in the shape of that specific piece of rectangle.
Please. I don’t want to go up there again.
Pausing a few feet away from the automatic sliding doors, she peered into the little black purse, and sure enough, she could not see her phone.
Great. Just what I needed.
It didn’t have to be a big deal, Y/n told herself. She would just run up through the stairs, quietly grab her phone and leave.
Sure, you’ve got the energy and bones to run up twenty five floors.
Maybe she could just ask someone else to order a cab for her and she could just take her phone tomorrow-
It was Saturday tomorrow. No office.
Sighing, Y/n turned back, only to find the elevator doors opening and the same clicking of stilettos that had heralded the arrival of that pretty lady. And sure enough, when Y/n looked up from her purse while still cursing her own existence, the woman was walking towards her.
Y/n watched in awe as she stalked past her and out the automatic doors without sparing the countless onlookers a single glance, as if they all were a mere insect and she the god.
If Y/n was being honest, she envied her confidence while also respecting her for it. Y/n could only wish she was that good at being self assured to not trip and faceplant in front of everyone.
Y/n watched till the lady got into the back of a shiny white Audi and drove away, and only then did Y/n remember why she was still in the building.
She hurried into the elevator, her impatience mounting everytime it stopped on different floors for people to get on and off, but by the time she reached the top floor, she was all alone in that metal box. Her heart beating in her throat, she tried to walk as quietly to her desk as she could and snatched off the little device that lay beside her office laptop.
"Y/n?"
She had just turned around to sneak back to the elevator, trying not to look at the silhouette of her boss who stood gazing outside the floor to ceiling glass windows when he called. The low timbre of his voice made her freeze midstep, then glance at him as she brought her lifted leg to rest next to her other one.
"Yes, sir?"
He said nothing for a moment, and Y/n looked around, unsure of what to do. Just as her eyes came to rest on the elevator, it left to go down.
Y/n eyed the metal doors with disappointment when Rhysand asked her to come stand next to him.
She obeyed quietly, the only sound in the silent office that of her of her heels clicking on the marble floors.
He remained quiet when she stopped next to him, his dark blue eyes that bordered on looking like violet under a certain angle of light fixed on the glittering city beneath. Y/n too turned to gaze out of the huge windows when he refused to let his attention move.
It was beautiful, the city. Tall buildings lit up with lights on the inside, their glass reflecting light coming off of large billboards, the red and white lights from cars speeding by blurring together in a beautiful scenery of night, complemented by the full moon that hung amidst a sea of stars.
"It’s beautiful, isn’t it?"
Y/n blinked, coming out of her reverie and taking note of her surroundings again before replying. "Yeah, it is."
He sighed after a moment, glancing at her. "Have you ever been in love, Y/n? Do you believe in it?"
Y/n glanced at him, taken aback by his question.
"I- I guess so. I am currently in love, if it matters."
He nodded, his lips tilted up slightly at the corners.
"Does he know?"
"He… no. And I don’t think I will tell him." A pause, then- "what about you? Do you believe in it?"
"No. Not anymore. It’s bullshit and all it does is hurt people."
"Oh…" Y/n mumbled, not knowing how to respond to that.
He glanced at her uncertainly, then dropped the topic.
"You must have questions."
Y/n met his eyes that glittered like sapphires in the darkened office, then shook her head. "I don’t think I should have questions, and even if I did, I won’t ask them. You have a right to keep your private life private."
He nodded, his eyes unwavering. Y/n could not for the life of her figure out what he was thinking, so instead she focused on her own faint reflection on his black rimmed glasses.
Is there something in my teeth?
He took in a deep breath, looking away.
Nah, there’s nothing. Thank god.
"What did you come back for?"
Y/n blinked, then perked up. "Oh, my phone." She lifted the thing and waved it. "I thought I’d leave it and collect it on Monday, but then I had to order a cab, so-"
"Cab? Why? What happened to your car?"
"Ah, it broke down yesterday. It’s at the mechanic’s. It will take at the very least a week to get fixed, so." She shrugged.
"Well, if that’s the case, let me drop you off."
Y/n’s eyes widened, and she shook her head as if trying to dislodge his offer. "No, sir, please. I can go by myself-"
"Never said you couldn’t." he mumbled, a hint of a smile on his face as he began collecting his phone and keys from the drawer under his desk, rummaging around for whatever it was he needed before straightening.
"Sir-"
"Come."
With that, he began stalking to the elevator, leaving Y/n no choice but to hurry after him.
He ignored all her protests and didn’t even let her get off on the ground floor when she decided that she was going to get a cab nonetheless, and grabbed her hand to force her to stay still.
Of course, the moment his skin touched hers, she froze and then quietly followed him to his black Mercedes in the underground parking.
The ride to her home was mostly silent, the quiet only broken by his deep voice asking for directions and her mumbling when to turn.
If Y/n was being honest, she did not know what to do with herself. She was in a car with her boss who she was in love with, the one who she’d just witnessed get accused of stalking his lover- ex?- and then he was ready to answer her questions about his private life and-
She knew her mind was going into overdrive.
Calm down. He'd think I’m a weirdo.
And him thinking she was a weirdo will just not do-
He probably already thinks I am a weirdo.
Y/n sighed quietly, then told him to stop under the apartment her parents had left her. It was one of the finer things in her life.
"Thank you for dropping me off sir, you really didn’t have to do that." With that and a word of goodbye from Rhysand, Y/n turned to step out of the luxurious vehicle, then stopped.
She did not have time to debate whether offering him to follow her would be a good idea because the damning words were already spilling out of her lips.
"Would you like to stay for dinner sir? Let me cook you something as a thank you."
He smiled, then nodded and asked her where he could park. She directed him to her usual parking spot because her car was not occupying the space.
She cooked her special pasta that night. It was something that her friends always begged her to make whenever they were over and it was also very easy and quick to throw together.
The two of them made friendly conversation throughout the time he stayed over, with the night ending with Rhys asking her to be a part of their friend group that included him, Azriel, Cassian and Rhysand’s cousin.
As surprising as it was, Y/n shyly agreed, considering she hated socialising as much as she hated mushy vegetables.
"Perfect." Rhysand grinned as he stood at the door, ready to leave. "I’ll text you the address for the dinner next week. I can’t wait for you to be a part of us."
With that, he left Y/n to herself and her thoughts.
That night, she fell asleep thinking about Rhysand.
She knew she could never have him romantically, and that was okay.
As long as she became friends with him, it was all that mattered.
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Y/n stood, watching the horizon twinkle with golden lights and hints of colour, their reflection in the river between hypnotising.
In the past months, Y/n had gotten closer to Rhys and his friends. They almost were the family she never had, the sibling-like bond they shared cherished beyond expectations.
Somewhere along the two months, Y/n had stopped focusing too much on how much she wanted to be with Rhysand, and yet, she knew she began to fall for him even more than she already had. Worse still, she now had more time to focus on all his little habits and quirks now that she hung out with him outside of office hours.
"Y/n. I think you need to get over whoever that asshole is, you know."
Y/n blinked, turning to face Rhys as he came to stand against the railing next to her.
"What?"
"You know, it’s been a long time since you told me about him. And if you’re still not dating, then I think you need to either tell him or forget him."
Y/n sighed. "It’s not that I don’t want to tell him. I know he would never love me back."
He nodded solemnly. "You said it yourself then. He would never love you. You might as well find someone new to love."
When Y/n rolled her eyes and turned back to stare into the dark waters, he tried again. "At least tell me who this love interest of yours is. Maybe I can knock some sense into him- or her, if you’re into that. I’m tired of seeing you be painfully single."
Y/n shook her head with a rueful smile, wondering what his reaction would be if she actually told him who this ‘love interest’ was.
Since Rhys had asked Y/n to be a part of the friend group, he had managed to get out a confession from Y/n about this ‘mysterious daddy of yours’. His own words, not hers.
He would try to find out who this guy was, he was adamant even, but every time Y/n would manage to escape without revealing who she was head over heels for. She had a relationship with Rhysand that was very precious to her, and she was not interested in jeopardising that.
It was better to just go on a date if it meant he would stop trying to get her to confess.
"Alright. I’ll go on a date."
Y/n could see him perk up. "Really? Let’s find you a guy. It will be so fun."
Y/n offered him a smile before he slipped away, then let the smile drop.
Having grown up without a real friend due to her social anxiety, Y/n cherished the friendship she and Rhys shared.
Initially, she had thought that becoming friends with him would be the best thing to ever happen to her. And it was, but it was also one of the most hurtful things she had gone through.
Being able to talk to him whenever she wanted to, being able to do everything she had ever wanted to do with him, yet not being able to love him the way she truly wanted was a curse in itself.
Sighing, Y/n told herself to stop thinking too much and walked away.
The next two days went by uneventfully, but then the third day, of course, Rhysand had to disrupt Y/n’s peace as she tapped away on her laptop, Cassian hot on his heels.
Those grins on their faces never meant good.
She raised a brow at them, eyeing Cass as he climbed on her table and settled down, pushing away the files in his way.
"Can I help you?"
"Yes, actually." Cass giggled before a word could escape Rhys’s mouth. Rhysand brows rose. "What do you think I should do for Nesta on her birthday?"
Y/n blinked, then leaned back in her seat, scratching her head. "Hmm. She likes to read, right? There’s a new book store that opened recently, it's very big and beautiful. She would love to go there. Make a day out of it. Take her there, then maybe a coffee date and movies-"
Rhys cleared his throat with a pointed glare at a very serious Cassian, who nodded at every word out of Y/n’s mouth and pulled out his phone to note down what to do. "We were here for another thing. Remember?"
Cassia grinned sheepishly and nodded, putting away his phone.
Rhys turned back to Y/n then. "You know, I recently got in contact with an old acquaintance from college." Y/n waited for him to drop the bomb on her, because there was no way he looked so serious just because he wanted to tell her that.
"I set you up on a date with him."
Y/n was rendered speechless. She did not know what to do, what to think. It was like even her mind had stopped working.
Just amazing. This is perfect. The man I love is acting like a wingman. What more could I have asked for?
When she remained silent, Cass and Rhys exchanged an uncertain glance.
"Uh, he’s well off, he’s good looking. He drives a BMW I believe, and-"
"Hmm. Just let me know the time and address."
Rhys blinked at Y/n, surely taken aback by the lack of emotion in her monotone voice. "I- okay yeah but-"
Just then, her phone rang. It was the receptionist. Y/n smiled, thanking every being she could think of for this distraction. She had plans of lunch with the girl who was like a friend too, and so it gave her the perfect escape.
But as she excused herself and all three friends went their separate ways, she could not help but feel someone's gaze on her. And sure enough, as she turned after entering the elevator, she found Rhys studying her, his gaze intense as it met hers.
But the eye contact was cut short as the doors slid closed, and Y/n sighed, blinking away the prickling in her eyes.
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She did not want to get dressed, but she also did want Rhys to stop bothering her about her love life, and so she had pulled out her favourite dress from the back of her closet and put it on after taking a shower.
She had just finished putting on some mascara and blush when the doorbell rang, and Y/n paused, staring at herself for a moment before deeming that enough makeup and standing, making her way out of her room. Surprisingly, at her door stood a grinning Rhys.
Y/n was taken aback. He hadn’t informed her of his arrival.
"Hey Rhys, what are you doing here?"
"Why? Are you not happy to see me?"
Y/n rolled her eyes, turning away to go to the kitchen, leaving him to close the door.
She grabbed a glass and filled it with water, then handed it to him when he followed her into the kitchen. She then turned and leaned against the counter, crossing her arms across her chest.
"So. What brings you here?"
He put away the glass after drinking half of the liquid inside, raising his eyebrows playfully.
"What, I can’t come to see my friend without a reason?"
Y/n just watched him, not buying his lies. When he refused to speak more, she sighed. "Rhys, we both know I am not believing the shit you’re spewing right now, so just tell me why you’re here."
He exhaled, leaning his hip against the counter opposite Y/n. "I just wanted to check up on you. You didn’t seem too excited to go on this date."
Y/n unfolded her arms, looking away from his concerned gaze perusing her form. "How can I be happy about going on a date with someone who’s not the man I love?"
"Then tell me who he is Y/n, I could set you up on a date with him." Gone was the friendly warmth he usually talked to her with.
"I can’t Rhysand."
"Why not?!"
"I just- I just can’t, okay? And anyways, I’m trying to move on."
"Who is he?"
"Maybe today I will go meet that friend of yours-"
"Who is he?"
"-and fall in love and I’ll forget him-"
"Tell me who he is-"
"I can’t."
"Why not?"
"You want to know who he is that badly? It’s you, Rhys! It’s you."
His eyes widened, his lips parting as he stared at her. "You- what?"
Y/n refused to look away from him, cursing herself for shedding that one traitorous tear. But then she turned away. "I’m running late. He must be waiting for me."
With that, she walked out the door, ignoring his calls of her name.
Love really was bullshit. It just hurts people.
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The two hours she spent with George- Greg? Gregory?- went by too fast. She did not even remember what he said. She could not stop thinking about Rhys and how she had confessed to him before coming to meet with the homo sapien in front of her.
He wanted to talk about himself, which Y/n did not mind one bit because she could not for the life of her listen. He was happy to yap and did not realise Y/n was zoned out the whole time he sang praises of himself, and was all too happy when Y/n paid for herself and then bid him goodbye, his eyes already fixed on a blonde across the restaurant.
Y/n did not want to go home yet, not knowing whether he left or not, so she decided to go sit at a beach near her home. It was empty at this time, most people either at home or out partying. It was a Saturday night after all.
Y/n felt like she had control over nothing. Since the day prior, all she could think of was how she wished she was prettier and had a chance to be with Rhys. She loved herself and her appearance, of course, but she could admit, she was nothing compared to that lady who had stormed into the office that day, telling Rhys to call off the stalker.
Y/n had never had any hope from the beginning. She had known that her feelings could not be anything but a crush, even if she wanted them to be more. Rhys was simply too good for her, and she was not above accepting that. She might have been delusional, but she wasn’t delusional enough to think he could ever return her feelings.
"I was waiting for you."
Y/n froze, suddenly aware of the sand grains between her toes, her heels discarded next to her, knees pulled up to her chest.
She did not respond, simply because she did not know how to. Now that she had been pulled out of her thoughts, she could hear him walking towards her, his steps cushioned by the shifting sand.
She decided to focus on the wind in her hair, on the soft, soothing melody of the water.
He settled down next to her, and she could not help but notice that he sat a little too close to be casual and friendly.
He said nothing for a long moment, and Y/n decided that in this moment, she could pretend to be his. She could pretend that he was hers and that they were madly in love. That he did not track her down here somehow and that the two of them were simply having a date night out.
"Her name is Feyre."
Y/n glanced at him from the corner of her eyes, unsure what he was talking about.
"She’s Nesta’s sister. That was how Nesta met Cassian, to be honest. She and I had been dating since we were in college."
It clicked for Y/n then, who he was talking about.
Tall, pretty, gorgeous hair and eyes. On top of that, a pretty name too? A jackpot, honestly.
As soon as that thought occurred to her, Y/n willed herself to stop thinking and just listen to the storytime by grandma Rhys.
Grandma Rhys??
All that was left was a rocking chair and some knitting needles and yarn.
He’d rock that fit too.
"She and Nesta… they grew up in conditions that were less than livable. Their father had lost his business and traumatised by the losses, he started staying home. Feyre had to work to keep the family going. She got to go to college because of scholarships."
Instantly, Y/n wished she could just give the lady a hug. But instead, she laid her head on her raised knees, turning her head to watch Rhys as he spoke.
"I had grown up in a filthy rich family, getting everything I wanted at my beck and call. Back then, I was smitten. Knowing what she had gone through, I wanted to provide for her. I took over my father’s businesses, began my own. Just so I could give her the lifestyle she deserved.
"While I was busy trying to get her to stop working… She wanted to provide for herself. It gave her a sense of independence, I understand that now. Having to depend on others before made her want to have freedom, and me trying to get her to stay at home made her feel suffocated. It led to a lot of arguments, more than was healthy. It upsetted me. I always wondered why she did not want to rule the empire I brought to her feet."
Y/n blinked, wondering what she would have done in that situation. Would she also have left Rhys?
"Eventually, she left me. Yet I could not bring myself to let go of her, always concerned about her safety for some reason. That’s when she came to the office, remember?"
Y/n did. A little too well.
But still, her heart hurt for him and her. She understood both sides, and she wished the two had just communicated better. Y/n knew they had loved each other a lot, it was clearly visible on their faces. At least on RHys’s. And from the way Rhys talked about her, Y/n could not help but like her too. She sounded like a nice person, someone deserving of someone as awesome as Rhys.
Even if that would have made Y/n’s chances of being with Rhys zero, she wished they had stayed and worked through their problems together.
He sighed, then turned his head to look at Y/n. "Do you know why I’m telling you this?"
Y/n shook her head, lifting it from her knees, trying to crack the tiny cramp.
He smiled. "I… while you were on that date, I sat and thought about it. Maybe it’s time for me to move on too. And now that I’ve acknowledged stuff I was too scared to before, I think I am ready."
His eyes held something so soft, so vulnerable as he gazed into Y/n’s eyes.
"Look, I don’t know how to say this without sounding like a complete creep and like an asshole, but I’m hoping you won’t judge me, but it’s fine if you’ve changed your mind and-"
"Just say it Rhys." Y/n laughed, already feeling like she knew where this was going.
He sighed. "I… do you want to go on a date with me?"
Y/n grinned. Flustered Rhys was something to cherish. "Sure, why not."
He perked up. "Really?"
She nodded. "As long as you actually want this and I’m not a replacement for Feyre-"
"You’re not, I swear! I’ve been feeling different towards you for some time now, I promise-"
"I believe you."
He blinked. "Really?"
Y/n nodded, and he relaxed, resting his head on her shoulder.
"This was easier than I thought it would be."
Y/n giggled.
It really was easier than expected.
Maybe love wasn’t bullshit after all.
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