#in the least surprising turn of events ever shauna does not handle it well!

[riccissance]

thinking about this in the context of the chapter i’m writing of my current fic and it’s driving me bonkers. jackie had been a girl and then shauna made her a god, and she was shauna’s god for so much longer than she was her friend.

but now shauna is back with jackie the girl and good news! no more suffering necessary because jackie never actually wanted that from shauna! but she’s asking shauna for honesty which is actually so much worse because shauna’s entire life and identity is a (not so) carefully constructed tower of lies that she can’t dismantle without destroying herself.

so what now? when the god is dead but the girl is here and she only wants what will tear you apart?

jackieshauna and sainthood is such a rich topic and it's been stuck in my head for a while now. jackie definitely has saint vibes, but i think there's an argument to be made that shauna is the saint and jackie is the god she devotes her life to. shauna constructs this elaborate shrine of punishment and shame that at it's core is a twisted form of worship. she suffers because of jackie and she suffers for jackie and that suffering defines her entire existence. the saints are all tragic, after all. and it adds another layer to their connection if shauna sees jackie as her saint but shauna has actually become the saint, just like she tried to become jackie. it's yet another form of consumption and jackie's actual body was the communion that started it all

i also love the idea of saints having visions of god while shauna gets visions of jackie