#in honor of tfs Tuesday

[m00ngbin]

Here's these of Teru and his failure fever. Except this might just be him with the flu because I forgot that his failure fevers don’t really make him snotty. So. Yeah. Flu? Maybe. I had the flu two weeks ago and ykw he can have the flu too

[davisexplainableart]

January 9, 2023 - Overweight Eagle TF:

So apparently, today is "National Save the Eagles Day".

Since it's TF Tuesday, I decided to honor today by becoming an eagle myself.

(Also yes, I know that the Wolf Moon was last Friday, but I haven't had time to create anything for that)

[rulette]

hi hi everyone! name’s alice or steal (any pronouns, pst)! im so excited to be here!! im welcomin to my lovely and messy boy jinwoo or joey yoon aka the youngest son of the yoon family! he’s ur typical i-dont-want-to-conform-to-my-family rebellious son who needs a little lovin’ even tho he can’t give it. like this post if u would like to plot! i’m avail on ims and discord (salty#3480)! hmu!

( BIO, STATS )

23, nov 23, 1998

sag sun, cap moon, aries rising (yeah hes a fking mess)

currently a first-year law student at snu’s law school

got sent to america to study at the age of 14 and attended hs in palo alto (yeah he’s a rich kid obv)! 

he graduated as valedictorian! got a bombass resume from being an intern at a law firm, president of speech and debate club and member of the nsda honor society, and track athlete (he legit had no time to do anything)

moved back to sk and got accepted into hanbit university, graduated ofc but this time... w a little extra money (too much actually) and prestige cus of his family and got into snu’s law school

he did it this all with no motivation of actually being an attorney; only did it becus he grew accustomed to his family’s goals

realized during uni that this isn’t what he wanted at all! he went thru the stereotypical rebel route of destressing himself: partying, drinking, smoking, kissing and fucking boys and girls. did all of that shit during his uni days

he knows hes insanely smart but honestly he acts so dumb

his outgoing self gained him a lot of connections; he reached out on his own and became a socialite of his own. his ig is popping and everyone knows who he is and hes living life like a crazy rich mf

his parents didn’t like it ofc cus why tf is he socializing instead of studying? he didn’t care tho and he got away with most of it since he is indeed the youngest child

now he’s a law student and does he want to do this? no he doesnt. but will he try to get out of it? honestly he really can’t LOL!

very wishy-washy w his siblings... he either loves or hates them? but he feels like they’re wayyy too serious 

personality-wise he is an uncommitted and very very outgoing person who honestly has no filter. he is generally rly blunt and doesn’t like tip-toeing around people, plus he flakes a lot so why would he stay?

generally in a lot of friend groups and nobody rly knows him on a personal level, everyone just thinks he’s a crazy party-goer who blacked out on a tuesday night

his parents don’t rly control or monitor him beside his studies; even if they are strict, he still somehow slips out, so he is very good w his words (his life goal is this anyways

somehow is not snobby or bitchy as people expect him to be (he walks around with rolex and hangs w rich people so ofc he’ll look snobby) so he is easily approachable but that doesn’t mean he’ll want to stay

on the inside tho, he’s so emotionally constipated that all he knows rly is how to joke around and be funny. ask him to see a therapist? he’ll laugh and walk away

hates dating cus commitment so he goes unlabeled often. does the typical “its not you, its me” but really he just wants to leave

now for some plots! but very few cus its late as hell LOL

fwbs/crushes/friends/exes/enemies ofc!

an on and off ex ... i love angst... the most angst the better? the more toxicity the better? they know that jinwoo is annoying to deal with but they just keep coming back

A BEST FRIEND! the ONE friend that he talks and goes to! the ONE person that he ACTUALLY stays with LOL

childhood friend that he talked to before he moved to hs!!! they lost contact until he came back and is just “??? who r u” cus they realize jinwoo isnt the golden retriever elementary best friend they knew before

this is hard but... romance lol?

an ex-classmate that he used to share answers with

I WANT COUSINS!!! FAMILY MEMBERS!! 

[unordinary-analysis]

Episode 138

When I clicked on this episode I was so happy

More *clap* Tuesday *clap*

Honorable mentions:

Tf kind of ability did john use at the end. Was that another student’s or did he just use Blyke’s ability but used differently? I really need to familiarize myself with how the whole ability thing works haha.

But that ability John used was sick :o

^^ one went straight through Blyke’s knee

    I feel like this episode just happened really sudden because it was only last episode that Arlo was like, “you’re the strongest,” and now just like that Blyke is shown that he’s not. I don’t know it just seemed like ‘wow this is happening already. I’m not unhappy. I got so excited when i saw blyke then tuesday. And there was cecile and john last chapter collecting powers, so it wasn’t totally sprung upon us. I dunno I guess I just felt like i missed an episode.

    So now the only topic i can really speculate about and analyze (this episode was very straight-forward it’s not like i can analyze a fight lol).

Tuesday’s motives

    Oh wait nevermind I went back to episode 133 it’s pretty straight-forward, John didn’t want Blyke unmasking him like he said he would.

    Welp.

    Too lazy to delete this...

Forgive me for not doing anything this week, I’ve been working recently on a research page which is just me documenting little facts about anything and everything in the UnOrdinary world. It’s taking a while, but soon I’ll have like an encyclopedia of UnO stuff so yeah I’m excited to not have to go digging for info in the whole comic.

    I have a post planned to go up once I finish that and another theory in progress so hopefully one of those will be up soon

    Oh who am i kidding nobody cares kjsdnfjsehrf haha

See ya monday

[outoforderaro]

oh hey, decade list anon, i didnt really forget about you, i just slept through most of tuesday and now thought about it. let’s do some listing. 

Music: A tough category bc finding what applies is tricky.

Shape Shift with Me - Against Me! (2016)

The album is just wholly good, of just wanting to belt along with everything. “Dead Rats” is my pick for fave, tho tbh it’s whichever im listening to atm. Ive changed this like 5 times ngl

Hozier - Hozier (2014)

hozier hozier hozier. everyone knows this blues-y guy. fave track: “It Will Come Back” (i took take me to church out of the running on purpose) 

Brought to Rot - Laura Jane Grace & The Devouring Mothers (2018)

i got ljg across my one per band rule, shh. “Apocalypse Now (& Later)”

Come of Age - The Vaccines (2011)

Wetsuit is the fave

Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys - My Chemical Romance (2010)

Na Na Na (Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na)

CLPPNG - clipping. (2014)

Body & Blood. ty jacob for getting me into them, i wouldntve found them by the daveed diggs from hamilton connection

Death of a Bachelor - Panic! at the Disco (2016)

Don't Threaten Me with a Good Time. a P!atD almost had to make it

Racine Carrée (2013) - Stromae

tous les mêmes. ty frankie!

The Human Condition - Jon Bellion (2016)

Morning in America   

Racine Carrée - Stromae (2013)

tous les mêmes

1) my keyboard started acting up again in the middle of this >:c but just for a bit, and 2) there’s really not a lot to say about music. Music good! Honorable mentions to Mother Mother’s O My Heart, which came out earlier but i discovered recently and loved, Pierce the Veil’s Collide with the Sky where listening to stuff like A Match Into Water has been less relevant (good thing!) and Moses Sumney’s Aromanticism which isn’t top fave music, but which i obvsly love and support

Video Games:

Stardew Valley (2016)

Such a charming farming game, and a great one to play if you just need to have a nice time watering crops, giving gifts, or fish. Also a good one to play while listening to podcasts, though the music and sound effects are nice. When i first got it I got sucked in and played all night, oops! I’ve got 422 hrs in this. Lots of mods out there, including a good gender neutrality one, and also just got a big update, and part of it was giving a platonic roommate option so im a v happy queer 

FTL: Faster Than Light (2012)

A spaceship roguelite, with real time with pause, where you must fight through sectors of space because you have the necessary knowledge to take down the rebel flagship. I’ve heard it described as like “surprisingly, a star trek simulator”, as you acquire alien crew and react to emergencies. A lot of fun, difficult at first, and i really want to get their second game, Into the Breach.

Pokémon Sun (2016)

Aside: Pokemon HeartGold was released in 2009? so my first game was almost in. Pokemon Sun is a lot of fun, and makes tons of quality life choices in particular. Like no HMs! and there was much rejoicing. First game I filled my pokedex in (helps that it was just the regional it tracked tho. And i filled my dex in heartgold but with an actionreplay helping out to make anything available). SOS battles are a great way to shiny hunt tho i wish there was a way to stop them (ik there’s status but it can wear off or not stick). I have like 400 hrs in? sometimes i leave it on, but im sure it’s all the breeding or slow battle tree while doing other stuff.

Undertale (2015)

This was under consideration for music too. The characters are really great and why it’s so high. I’ve never and could not mentally, emotionally, physically do an evil run. how dare you even suggest

Fallout: New Vegas (2010)

surprised this fits in. A long time fave, love exploring the irradiated Mojave, listening to oldies and HOLD UP turns out i Do know who tf wayne newton is (after justin was like this is where Duck’s name is from) bc he’s in this game? not as Mr Las Vegas, but Mr New Vegas, the DJ of the radio station. ok weird wiki times lol.

The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time 3D (2011)

remakes count, right? LoZ is really good and this is a good one! Nm to say?

Transistor (2014)

This game is really gorgeous, and the music is great. It’s a cool cyber future with a mute singer and a talking sword, fighting robots, and playing with a robot dog, what’s not to like? 

Terraria (2011)

A sandbox world that you can rearrange and craft stuff in, same genre as Minecraft, but with NPCs, much more boxes, probably more crafting and gear, and one less dimension. I’ve put 208hrs into this

Kerbal Space Program (2011, 2013, 2015)

So it got a beta release, then onto Steam Early Access, then out of beta in those years respectively. It’s a physics simulator of starting a space program and often failing in fun ways! Getting to space is hard! Landing somewhere from space is also very hard. Turns out it *is* rocket science. 176 hours and my best accomplishments are satellites all over the place and landing on kerbal’s /second/ moon. I landed a probe onto the mars equivalent too. V moddable game

Universal Paperclips (2017)

Browser game that looks like a very basically designed clicker game, where you play a productivity-maximized AI in a paperclip making machine, so you make all the paperclips you can. All Of Them. It’s a fun one

[iconic3ileen]

#transformationtuesday Should really be transmuted Tuesday cause I took all that doubt and built the woman I am today. • I used all the fear based belief and turned it into manifesting a life for me and my tribe. . . . What you put out -words, thoughts, vibes, work, energy, you most definitely receive back. • just a message to my wombmen continue to create and celebrate who tf you are! Your body is beautiful. Your mind is beautiful. And your spirit is unmatched. Please flourish and honor yourself 🙏🏾✨ As always shine’on em💛 • #itslit #2018 #mompreneur #mombod #bestlife #love #selflove #awareness #bodypositive #consciousness #throatchakra #newmoon #innerg #nyc #model #nycmodel #uk #la #muse #browngirlmagic #natural #locs #dfw #nola (at Dallas, Texas)

[quaintlouise]

#thequinneffect

I spent the morning of Quinn Harper’s birthday angry.

I'd been thinking about how to make the significance of my contribution to #thequinneffect worthy of the importance of Amber in my life. That's not shade at/on (which is correct? I don’t really care, do you? Lololololol. Be Best.) anyone else's participation, it's just that Amber and I share a bond born of tremendous grief. Loneliness. Loss.

We both know that pulsing sternum when people remind us of God's plan.

Thanks, random coworker/neighbor/third cousin on FB who has an affinity for minions (???). But God's plan for this chapter of my life is so sad/hard/cruel that I haven't yet had time to reconcile with all that seeing as this death/diagnosis/devastation hit me three days ago, or three weeks or however long it takes for me to understand, or never understand, or until FMLA runs out.

We know the confusion and sadness at the disappearance of loved ones you'd never imagine would leave your side. The annoyed satisfaction when loved ones act as poorly as you would have predicted. The friends and family who stepped up beyond belief and the acquaintances who did the same and became family. We also know the loneliness that descends once you realize those loved ones need to deal with their own BS that continued or began during your crisis.

Anyway, I was angry at the world. Angry that the Ruszkowski’s have been denied the type of family that seemingly everyone else gets. Angry that my little girl will grow up without her twin. Angry that I got cancer. Angry about the heartbreaking cruelties that leave mothers with empty arms and children without the arms of their mother to hold them. Angry that instead of pinning ideas for Quinn Harper’s first birthday party, Amber is instead bravely trying to find ways to honor her daughter's sweet soul while managing her own sorrow.

I grew surlier as I walked past the windowless steel door at the OBGYN, the one they usher you out of when things go terribly wrong.  

I’m sorry to tell you I have very sad news.

The heaving sobs subside a bit when you are hit with the fresh air from a door you didn’t know existed. Best to keep the waiting area free of the weeping formerly expectant parents, I suppose.

I'm sorry to tell you that you have cancer.

We’ll need to fill you with poison...just enough not to kill you; poison with ingredients of mustard gas and platinum. Then we will take your breasts, uterus, ovaries, fallopian tubes and cervix. You’ll need thirty rounds of radiation on those fresh scars. This might keep you alive. There’s also a special pill you can take that will shut down all the rest of your estrogen production! This may be the hardest part of treatment. Surgical menopause at 38 is gonna f with your head. There is no way to relieve the symptoms. Antidepressants might help. Oh, I see you take some. Wow, you’re on a lot of meds. Perhaps that’s part of your problem.  

Nah. My problem right then, on Quinn's birthday? Was the gynecological nurse who read my chart, looked me dead in the eye, and said

I’m not sure what you’re here for?  

Me neither, lady. Me neither. But actualllllllly the surgeon (y’all referred me to) built a cuff (TF? Can they come up with a better word?) down there so my insides don’t fall out and this is the place you go to get that looked at?  Also, thank you for the offer of the lap gown, however, I’ll just leave my skirt on and take my panties (old maternity underwear) off. Oh? Oh yes, thank you for correcting me that it is a breast gown I’ve turned down. Fitting!  

It was an easy walk across the street to get another blood draw after a full round of bloodwork three days earlier.  

Your white count is low. I’m sure it’s nothing to worry about but we need to check that again and call me this afternoon for results.

Awesome.

I asked if I was going to be one of those rare cases where the chemo causes leukemia. The neurologist deadpanned that I was funny.  

I proceeded that day to my psychiatrist and managed to overwhelm her with all my new diagnoses, calendar of appointments, and general complaints of apathy, mania, obsessions, rage, malaise, guilt, forgetfulness, indecisiveness, impulsiveness blah blah blah.

She upped the valium.

I drove around for a while. I sang sad and angry sounds at the top of my lungs in the car. I contemplated buying a pack of smokes.

I pulled into Little Flower and felt hopeful that just sitting in a pew listening to the quiet would spark something.

The door was locked. (When did they start locking church doors???)

I wept. I stood in that parking lot scattered with cars and I wept tears of just pure despair.

But then I looked up and I saw the prayer garden. Circular, with small benches surrounding a statue of Our Lady. Or maybe it was St. Therese. It doesn’t matter. Behind it was a small labyrinth with instructions to enter with an open heart, meditate while walking the labyrinth, and exit it with a peaceful thankfulness. I sat on one of the benches to try and clear my head. I figured I’d pray the rosary and then it occurred to me that it was Tuesday. Of course.

The Sorrowful Mysteries. Eyeroll. I couldn’t get glorious or joyful? Something uplifting? (See what I did there????)

I said my rosary. I was cold (wearing a skirt, remember) and weepy and feeling like I was too screwed up to get it together to honor little Q.

But something happened as I fell deeper into meditative prayer (I know, I know, who am I?).  A peace fell upon me at the fifth mystery.

Woman behold your son. Son behold your Mother.

The sun at that moment hit my face. I looked up to the sky and saw the moon as the clouds swirled.

I smiled. Took a deep breath. Because it was then that I knew.

I knew that it was in the arms of the Blessed Mother where Quinn Harper is safe and loved.  

As am I.

As is Amber.

As is my Bridget being my earthly life to end.

As are all the motherless babes and the babeless mothers.  

A droplet of rain glimmered in the brief warmth of the sun as I entered the center of the labyrinth. I felt hopeful. I turned to exit the labyrinth and saw my body cast a long shadow through a row of boxwoods in the shape of the cross. Make of that what you will.

Rather than me doing something to honor Quinn that day, she helped me. Helped me acknowledge some of my grief, helped me find solace in prayer, helped me look for other ways to find peace when the obvious path of day drinking alone at the View lost its appeal when I remembered you couldn’t smoke in bars anymore.

I blew Quinn a kiss and made it through the day.

However, I knew I wasn't done and I left my heart open looking for a way to pay it forward.  

On Saturday I received a text from an old friend that I hadn’t talked to in a while. The kind of friend you can not talk to for a while or months or years but is still family.

He and his husband had signed up to be foster parents and had been (long-term? permanently?) placed with two little girls, 3 and 4. Sisters.

And then I knew. I knew how to pay it forward in honor of one little girl to two others that so desperately needed it.

That night I sent a Target delivery of cabbage patch dolls, coloring books, crayons, fruit snacks, juice boxes, cereal bars, pajamas, cuddly blankets, bath toys, kiddy spoons, forks, bowls and plates, goldfish crackers, pudding packs, mini muffins, peanut butter, honey, uncrustables, raisins, bubbles, a bubble machine, bigger kid sippy cups, shampoo, tangle spray, string cheese, mandarin oranges, mac and cheese, smoothies, pull-ups, wipes, fridge magnets, Rapunzel, Cinderella, peanut butter crackers, and stickers.

I felt joy. Joy that these little girls had warm beds and a loving home. Joy that my friend had been gifted this experience. Joy that a contentedness had befallen me as I felt my contribution to #thequinneffect was complete. Joy that even though I knew all too well that contentedness is temporary, so is sorrow.

For years I've been saying "When I start my blog...". I think this is it. Post #1. Could be the first of many, could be the last. Whatever, I did it.

Thanks, Q. I owe you.

[phillipdrummond]

thankful to @milesbonny for making this all possible/connecting my guy Def-I and myself/TFS with an amazing school @vista_grande_hs that serves its community and students in unique ways. An honor to be rocking alongside Def-I and co presenting as @next_level_usa alum talking about #healingpowerofhiphop #hiphoped #hiphoptherapy #hiphopdiplomacy #therapeuticbeatmaking and performing original music for students at the school and the community. FREE! ・・・ TAOS come out and join us @taoscenterforthearts on Tuesday, Nov 2 for the Healing Power of HipHop with @def_i and @todaysfuturesound This event will kick off TWO DAYS of beat-making workshops here at school 🔥#communityschool #experientiallearning FREE, family-friendly event sponsored by @vista_grande_hs …Proof of vax or negative COVID-19 test results required for entry (at Taos, New Mexico) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVihH3Dvlwy/?utm_medium=tumblr

[drv3imagines]

🔥It’s my party and I’ll cry if I want to…🎂

Rantaro Amami * How…how…howhowhowhowhowhowhow * Amami.exe has stopped working. * And he’s back to having a mental freak out. * How could he forget?!?!?!?? * He was sure that- * As soon as he check’s his phone he realizes his schedule for yesterday and your birthday definitely clashed. * He can’t quite speak for everyone else, but you’re HIS s/o, he HAD to remember your stuff! * To make up for his mistake he takes you out that night. He asks you to get super spruced up and he will meet with you later to take you to the most expensive restaurant he can afford. * Of course money is not everything, and he has to bring his late birthday gift to try and fix everything. * (Spoiler, it was a bracelet to match his, one he carefully embroidered with your name and ‘I love you’ in the inside.)

Korekiyo Shinguuji * He. Feels. So. Bad. * Birthdays are really important, as cultures all over the world celebrate them to commend the celebrated’s success in evading death. * He would not go unpunished for this matter, but right now he intended to mend your broken heart. * He knew that materialism wasn’t going to get him out of this one, but why would he settle for a dozen roses when he could settle for a dozen of you instead– * That wasn’t humanly possible, but he could instead flatter you by creating an entire day dedicated to you–even though technically you already have one and he missed his shot. * He cries silently to himself as he prepares the festival in your honor. * With his connections he is able to gather nearly 100 people, all ready to worship you like the deity you are. * In the center of the festival is a shrine with little trinkets he thought would best represent the wonderful person you are. * …if you find this endearing, and not creepy af…well your day certainly has been made~

Kaito Momota * *insert a string of curses* * *pause* * *insert more curses* * Way to go Momota, you forgot your love’s birthday. How are you gonna get outta this one? * Offer to sleep on the couch for starters… * Maybe a movie night? No too lame. * Stargazing on the beach? Nope that’s, like, every Tuesday… * Sheesh what’s a guy gotta do to- wait– * While you were moping (in your pity party music video) Kaito rushes up to you and immediately rushes you off to his car. * “Where are we going Kaito?” * “It’s a surprise~” * “I hope it isn’t too far, I hadn’t even had lunch yet.” * “Oh well in that case we had better get going…” * During the long drive, Kaito kept you occupied with a game of Ispy, that is until he asked you to blindfold yourself before reaching your destination. * “Okay, now watch your step…careful…and a short step down…and we’re here…” * You remove your blindfold…and honestly…you’re speechless. * Let’s just say Kaito’s connection with the astronauts pays off substantially. He was able to borrow the ‘Moon Room’ which was designed to the tee to act as a replica of the real thing. Even better was the picnic spread laid out before you. * Two birds, one stone~

Kokichi Ouma * He forgot it on purpose because celebrating your birthday on your birthday is wayyy too lame! * That’s why his super duper surprise party is awaiting for you this evening, but shhhh you’re not supposed to know ;). * Even though you were skeptical, you decided to play along and get ready. * As soon as you’ve gone off to prepare for your ‘special day’…. * OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!! * WTF OUMA?!? THE GREAT POWERFUL KING CAN’T FORGET HIS BELOVED’S BIRTHDAY! THAT IS AN ULTIMATE EPIC FAIL! * Now he’s completely stressing himself out trying to get the best last minute party of the century planned for you because of his big talk. * He figures the best way to get people there in such a hurry was to lie~ And who better could pull off such a scheme other than the Great King~ * … * The turn out was more amazing than you expected. Maybe Ouma really was telling the truth about that weird trend… * However…one of your friends’ comments struck you odd… * “I’m really sorry to hear that your goldfish died… I lost a close pet once too, so I know this situation is a little tough for you. But you’re not alone.” * What the actual- * “Happy birthday, babe! Pay no mind to them, because I’ve got you the best cake money can lie- I mean buy! Eat up~”

Shuuichi Saihara * He…forgot… * But…but he couldn’t have…it must’ve been a mistake! * Are you sure your birthday was yesterday?? * Oh no…nonononononononono… * He’ll make it up to you. * He– Okay, breath. Nothing is going to be solved by making you more upset than you already were. * He just had to trust in his sincerity to resolve the issue. Saihara knew this mistake wasn’t something you could just overlook by saying sorry, so he did all so you could feel loved. * On the side he used his detective skills to pinpoint and question your friend’s absence (he could at least account for himself because of his investigations, but that was still no excuse). * By the end of the day he has worn himself out, which is not what you wanted to happen at all. * So to resolve both of your ordeals you settle for calling in some take out food and fawning over a recently released detective novel series.

Kiibo * Well he has a pretty valid excuse as to why he didn’t show up to the party, he was malfunctioning due to a nasty little prank Ouma pulled on him. * He still feels guilty for missing your party though, especially since no one else showed up. * While part of him wanted to reach out to the Internet for help, the other half told him he needed to decide for himself what to do. * It only seemed logical to reorganize the get together and invite the same people over. It is scientifically just after all, an experiment cannot be decided after only one trial. * It must be tested over and over again before it can be decided. * So that’s what he does. * He continues to throw you a birthday party hoping that eventually one of these trials will yield a different result… * After day five, you decide that it is time to give up. That and he was running low on cash and throwing all these parties was the reason behind it. * Even though no one else came to celebrate with you, Kiibo faithfully stuck with you until the end. * His gesture definitely hadn’t gone unrewarded and you properly gifted him with three uneaten cakes and a couple of unopened presents. At least you got free parties from this experience.

Gonta Gokuhara * He could do one of two things: cry or be a man and own up to his mistakes. * And a real gent owns up to his wrongs! * He apologized profusely and promises to take you on a really nice romantic evening to show how sorry he is…but right now… * He insists that he helps you out even more by figuring out why your friends did not attend. * So you two go around town (breaking down doors and taking names…lol jk) rounding up the invitees who were no shows. * The first didn’t go so well, since some of your friends have never met Gonta…his appearance can be very frightening… * The results of your mission: one friend had a valid excuse… a handful were going to throw you a make up party and the others were ✂️ from the squad. * Gonta fulfilled his promise and made your evening worthwhile for his terrible mistake. And you were certainly not disappointed :3.

Ryoma Hoshi * S E L F - L O A T H I N G I N T E N S I F I E S. * How tf did he forget? * He didn’t have a game or practice or anything to do yesterday???? He literally had no excuse???????????? * Gahhh! * He’s dying on the inside, but practically reduces his human classification to a step stool for being such a lame boyfriend. * But it’s even more lame to whine about and not take action. * He practically gave everyone who didn’t come the bird and primarily made the day all about you. * His pride and joy, a gift from life even…apologizing for all the bs he had to put up with in the past (albeit could have been avoided if–) * His pampering doesn’t stop with just being your personal butler, he does extra favors for you as well…like baking… * P L E A S E D O N ’ T B U R N ! ! !

[fair-fae]

I wasn't close to Josh and fortunately wasn't working when it happened but it's still so hard to be here. Multiple people were trying to help him and holding him as he died and talking about how he was turning blue and his mouth was bleeding and his jaw was clenched and his eyes turned glassy. They tried CPR. They tore his shirt open to get his pulse and he had none by the time emergency services arrived.

One of the servers who had once been his roommate was throwing up as it was happening. He called last night like every Tuesday night, though this time sniffling, to ask what tips he made Monday night. No one had counted the tips Monday night.

A girl here he was friends with keeps blaming herself because she argued with him about an hour before it happened. She left sobbing, deactivated her Facebook, and wouldn't answer anyone's messages. She was too upset to come to work yesterday. She's here today though none of us expected she would be. Another girl had been dating him recently, her best friend works here too, they're both upset.

Our newest worker (the coveted of all the bisexuals) got her job here because her grandmother was Josh's landlady. Her grandmother just happened to be eating here yesterday. She knew Josh had an ambulance called but not the outcome and asked how he was doing. One of the servers who had been holding him as he died explained he passed. She teared up.

Another server had been working that night and his girlfriend he'd been living with tried to pick a fight with him when he got home (tf bitch???). He broke up with her. He was upset we were even open yesterday and spent his break drinking at the bar across the street. A man at one of his tables at dinner complained, loudly in front of guests, about the speed of his service. He apologized and said he'd be right there. The man waited about 30 secs before coming back and proclaiming, loudly in front of guests once more, that he wanted a different server because his was "a fucking loser."

Monday night after what happened they closed the restaurant down, which meant turning some people away. One man whose reservation we could not honor after being informed we had a serious medical emergency with our staff told the hostess, "Well that sucks for us," and whined about how there was still staff here and we were ruining his plans.

It's hard to watch my work family go through this and then have to turn up to work the next day to a job where they have to suck up to people who berate them. Why are people such dicks? Do they not realize people in customer service jobs are humans with lives and feelings? That's nothing new obviously but it hits really hard right now.

There's grim reminders everywhere. Scratching his name off the schedule, finding people to cover his shifts. His mother calling crying to help coordinate a memorial service. Idk fam I don't love being here right now.

Mood at work today is awful and bizarre. Co-worker in his 30's passed away in the building last night during his shift. Things are weird today.

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Appropriately-timed roleplay toys and easy convention exclusives for our favorite Karate Bugmen surface this week, along with a dinosaur that’s literally  a big deal. New and old Nendoroids capitalize on the popularity of a show’s second season, and I take a look at bad guys both big and small. Gather round for Tuesday Night Toys.

New Stuff: September Fool’s Day

Last year I lamented that Tamashii/Bandai hadn’t come out with anything in celebration of the time-honored Kaixa Day, 09/13. Well they’ve apparently learned their lesson, as they’re preparing a release of the Complete Selection Modification Kaixa Gear, with a site that’ll go fully live with pre-orders on that delightful date. Or at least that’s hopefully what will happen, and it’s not all some…misunderstanding.

In other specialty Rider news, the upcoming Tamashii Nations exclusive SH Figuarts was revealed, and not terribly surprisingly, it’s Kamen Rider Joker. They’ve been milking the Shinkocchou Seihou W mold pretty well recently, and this late-series legend is an easy repaint of the base mold, and quite popular to boot. I’m sad he’ll be an exclusive since I’d love to have one, but that just means I’ll keep an eye out for any on the aftermarket. I should probably grab a W as well, at some point.

Oh, speaking of, as posted earlier this week, Eternal is getting a great-looking new SHFSS figure as well (check out that *posable* cloth cape!), and will be a webshop exclusive, sadly.

Chronicle Collectibles has another something for the truly insane toy-collector: A 1:5 scale figure of the T. rex from Jurassic Park. Yes, you read that right. They’re only making 100 of these, it’ll cost $4,500 shipped, come in a big crate they have to cart down to your home or business, and they even point out that you might need a friend to help lift it onto the included stand. I’ll always just love that insane-level stuff like this exists.

Wishlist: Newer Game

I ain’t even gonna pretend I’m not happy about New Game! getting a second season, and it’s been a cool one so far, with more dramatic situations to put the characters through in between all the relatable office-job stuff. In line with the series’ success, Good Smile is reissuing their Aoba Nendoroid (it originally was release before the series even came out and proved just how successful it was) as well as the first of her office mates, Hifumi. 

Hifumi looks fine and all, she comes with Soujiro and the little text-message plates are a cute idea, but she’s hardly my favorite character, and I’m trying not to overload on Nendoroids these days. So her and Aoba sit firmly in the window-shopping category. However, I’m mainly hoping this leads to them doing their other co-workers, very specifically the character who is pretty much just me, Hajime! Because come on, how unfair will it be if the toy collector doesn’t get a toy?

 On Desk: Galva Bloks

The Transformers The Last Knight line has seen some hiccups in getting newer waves into stores, leaving some people concerned as to whether they’ll get a shot at some of the toys they’re actually wanting. Stuff like Cogman and Nitro Zeus are still up in the air as to full retail reach, but I did find that Leader-class Megatron I’d been wanting! I’ve had my eye on this bad boy since he wowed everyone at Toy Fair, and he does live up to my expectations.

He’s big, and feels solid. The paint on him isn’t quite as nice a wash as it looked back at Toy Fair, being more of a dry-brushing effect now, but overall the toy still looks cool. He’s also doing well for gimmicks, which is always nice. He’s got the big cannon that springs out from the jet cockpit on his arm, and the included flame effects can plug in. These are such a cool addition, effect parts on Transformers are an incredibly rare thing. Plus they use standard 5mm pegs, so you can use them with any other TFs that have places you can plug them in. He’s also got the face rotating into battle helmet mode via a switch on the back of his head, and it’s pretty cool, especially with the horns compressing in along with it. Overall there’s enough going on with him to make him feel like the bigger, more complex toy he is.

The transformation is similarly strong, hitting that sweet spot of complexity without being frustrating for this size class. The way the legs work is a bit unintuitive, and the cockpit/cannon can be annoying until you get everything tabbed in, but for the most part it works. Going back, I really like how effectively his wings and bits compress into his backpack, it’s impressive how little space they end up taking up. Anyway, the jet mode is HUGE. Like just the wingspan and length of it is kinda crazy, even for a Leader-class figure, and it gets even *longer* with the flames attached to the back. Be warned if you do plan on displaying him on a shelf like this, he’s going to take up quite a footprint.

So overall, he’s a big, solid figure, which is what you want from this size class, and he looks as cool as he did initially, which is a good thing. I’m really glad this guy started coming out in my area. Now I just need to track down a Nitro Zeus for him to pal around with.

I did also end up grabbing one of those Mega Construx Skeletor figures, and he’s as delightful a distraction as I could have hoped. I do love Mega’s getting to this point where their building-block-compatible mini-figures are really just tiny action figures, and the posability on these things outclasses many ‘real’ figures. They’re like Mini-Mates without the stupid style. Skeletor’s a great desk-size dude, and he even comes with a staff built out of a few pieces. I can’t see myself getting many more of these, depending on what licenses come out, but you know I had to get Skeletor, at least.

And that’s everything, everyone! See you back here next week, and I hope you have fun!

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I forgot so here’s a Master Post

10/12: Thursday

OK. ummm so according to twitter this was a day i woke up in the middle of the night due to loud people in the street which never makes me happy, then I went on my phone until 3AM and yee. Still not happy about SR and my friends so I felt bad in that regard. I went on a run that morning and then must not have done anything substantial until I FINALLY turned in my OFII form so I can leave the country when I want to. Then on the way back a catcaller said something to me but idk what he said so its fine. Went to the store and got new skincare products and expected them to make me break out but as of Oct 19 we güd :-) 

10/13: Friday

Oo Friday the 13th how spooky. Went on a run and a guy wanted me to take his picture at like 8AM while im literally running past him and I said no and I’m glad i Did because a big part of this journey has been learning how to say no to boys, people, opportunities, etc. Like sure you should be open to shite but no I’m not going to say yes when I know I’m just going to feel stupid. Made a super large finsta post ab how I’m doing with weight loss and fitness and stuff and honestly felt really good about this day. 

10/14: Saturday

Literally no day, feeling, morning, instant has ever felt worse than the one I experienced the MOMENT I woke up on this morning. Was in that twilight zone in between dream and reality and heard a woman speaking in a cooing high pitched voice. Dreaming me interpreted it as my mom talking to my cat. Started thinking about it for a bit and realized that my mom (and cat) is thousands upon thousands of miles away and that I a) wont see her for another two months and b) am out in this foreign ass country all alone. CRIED SO HARD. I’m not kidding that was such an awful feeling the only thing worse that I can imagine is if there was no possibility of seeing my mom again. Yikes how awful. And from then on im pretty sure I was just sad. Stayed inside most of the day aside from my daily run and yee.

10/15: Sunday

Danielle finally came home so i had SOMETHING to do *eyeroll emoji* except im jk cuz i know there’s shit i can do. I went on a run and then met danielle for cwoffee at starbs where we “studied” for our phonetics midterm. There was a 5/10k for breast cancer that morn so in honor of it I ran 5k which was impressive for me cuz i aint ever run that far continuously. Actually ran like 3.5 miles. Went home and went grocery shopping, got some EgGpLaNt like a real fancy mofo and some salad mix but I got spinach, arugula, and a chard looking ass leaf and the arugula SUCKS but I’m making my way through it. Kept on missing home and LA and everything/one but yeet.

10/16: Monday

69 days out. Went to my 8h30, took my exam, was fine, went to my next class, was fine, went home, was gr8 i love going home haha. Then I went on a run and ran quite a lot! another 3+ miles and then decided to look at the botanical garden for once since I run past it like actually literally every day but had never been in. It was okay, really flat and not that like idk diverse like the CV Botanical Garden. Formatted the SHIT out of my calories spreadsheet so it looks awezum now.

10/17: Squad Tuesday

I hate tuesdays aka my long days but we did it boys. First class, w/e, then I had a meeting for my courses in which I got them squared away, then i had to talk to the other UC coordinator ab my time here and ended up fucking crying lmao. So annoying. Anyway, my next class was fine, got complimented af about my speaking which was lowkey very nice to hear and god damn i miss positive affirmation. Then I went for a run on the school’s track since i dont have time in the morning or after class, ran 12 laps and walked 2 but idk if its a regular track and my fitbit was doing the bs thing where it doesnt work unless i restart my phone which is so annoying. Then had my third class which was fine then my fourth which was unbearably long and I was literally watching the minutes go which made them go slower so I’m not gonna do that anymore but I do have a nice collection of drawings from every tuesday. Went home, took shower, made din, bed.

10/18: Wednesday

Woke up feeling depressed which might be the norm now, instead of wallowing I got up and ran tho even tho I was planning on just doing it after class which was good and actually ran quite a lot once again, over three miles. Got ready for school and then went. 1st class was fine, midterm next week, second class was fine, midterm next week, went home woo and binged on banana chips. Got ready for bed and was laying in bed on phone when I started being able to hear a mouse. Freaked me tf out, and basically did what I could to prevent them coming in but ended up actually trapping one inside and every time it moved I would be wide awake so i got like 0 sleep last night which was kinda shitty. MAde me super depressed this morn but I’ll save today’s details for todays post!

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Congratulations to seniors Kiya King and Dejae Parks who were honored prior to Tuesday night's basketball game against TF South as part of Senior Night. Best of luck in the future, Kiya and Dejae! http://ift.tt/2j3lJts

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Congratulations to seniors Kiya King and Dejae Parks who were honored prior to Tuesday night's basketball game against TF South as part of Senior Night. Best of luck in the future, Kiya and Dejae! http://ift.tt/2j3lJts

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Congratulations to seniors Kiya King and Dejae Parks who were honored prior to Tuesday night's basketball game against TF South as part of Senior Night. Best of luck in the future, Kiya and Dejae! http://ift.tt/2j3lJts