mentioned before I havent felt any tangible significant benefit from meds yet which is fine bc it takes a while to kick in but one small good thing i have noticed so far is even when I get little sleep I feel less tired when I wake up
I don't feel completely incapacitated and in need of being in bed all day, fighting off the urge to nap, to recharge.
I also 1. actually get "Sleepy" now... instead of just feeling very hollowly "Tired" and like i Should be going to bed to try to sleep even though I don't feel like it, because it's about time to be doing that I guess, leading to tossing and turning for 3 hrs before finally succumbing to sleep.
and 2. I actually doze off. Instead of forcing self to try and initiate sleep...this has only ever happened during my rare Naps where im so tired that sleep puts me down by force. Never in actual night time sleep setting... im like dropping my phone and struggling to stay awake sometimes now. At night!!!
None of this is in any of the results I've seen for the medication so i dont even care if its some weird placebo somehow 😭 im jst glad its happening
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ibuprofen isn’t enough i need everything below my ribcage removed
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sometimes i get obsessed with thinking about law turning rocinante’s death into an act of martyrdom. into “he died to take down doflamingo, he died to protect the will of d., he died knowing i would finish it for him. he died trying to be good. he died a saint for a righteous cause and what kind of ungrateful monster would i be if i didn’t take revenge for him.”
because otherwise he has to face the truth that rocinante did not care about any of that when he was dying, he died so that law could be free. but then thinking that it was all for him would mean putting more guilt on his shoulders than he already does, so he has to reframe it as something else so he can keep going at all.
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It's wild to me that people can be out in the sun, especially warm or hot sun, and not only enjoy it but also not feel sick and in horrible pain from it.
Like people just go outside when it's 80f+ and don't instantly feel like they will perish!?
What do you mean sunlight makes you feel happy when it hits your skin? You don't experience searing pain that feels like you set your exposed skin onto a hot grill?!
It must be really nice for all the people who can get happiness from the sun. It could never be me, but I'm happy for the rest of you.
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I’ve been having an absolutely banging month. I’m on schedule for my final year submission. I got shortlisted for a nationwide design competition and everyone has been gassing me up ever since. Nothing but praise on all my work, no notes. Then I started getting into climbing and the instructor was baffled by how fast I learned the knots and how I could already climb F6 in the second session. Then I started indoor bouldering and everyone I talk to is blown away that I’ve only just started climbing. It’s like I’m on an IV drip of serotonin. This is what absolute monarchs must have felt like
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