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prompt response to: andreil trapped in a small space scenario
As much as all these late night practices aided Neil in strengthening his form, some nights he felt so incredibly drained of energy that by the end of them he almost cursed his own resolve.
Neil let out an exasperated breath as he tucked his helmet under his aching arm and trudged; zombie-like into the empty locker room. Kevin followed, taking long, agitated strides and muttering something unintelligible under his breath as he disappeared into the showers without sparing Neil a second’s glance. Neil didn't have the energy left to satiate Kevin’s relentless appetite for grief. Not in the moment, anyway.
Neil’s body felt like cotton candy, soft; pliable, limbs worn pink and sore. Neil was halfway to his locker when he heard Andrew moving behind him. Neil peeled his gear off carefully and stuffed the majority of it into his giant locker before slamming it shut and turning on his heel to look at Andrew, who was slumped against the lockers on the other side, hands shoved deep in his pockets, pale hair wild and eyes bleary from a crucial lack of sleep.
“Go and shower. You fucking reek.” Andrew prompted. It had been a long day for them all, Neil could sense Andrew mirroring his own exhaustion.
“Yeah. I’ll make it quick,” Neil promised, before breaking into the slightest smirk. “I mean, unless you want to help me out.”
“Help yourself,” Andrew replied, dully.
Neil knew better than to take offense to that as he merely shrugged and made a beeline for the showers.
“Offer’s on the table if you change your mind. I’ll keep the stall unlocked.”
Neil showered as hurriedly as he could, knowing that Andrew would be waiting. The hot steam from the shower abated the stinging pain that reverberated through his sore bones and he felt himself tilting his head back towards where the force of the water was most concentrated. Newfangled bruises bloomed along the back of his elbows, the bottom of his left knee, across his inner wrist. He didn’t pay them much heed. Every injury he garnered on the court was a testament to how far he had come, how far he would go. They hurt less when he thought about them that way.
They reminded him he was alive.
Neil dried his hair off with a towel before pulling his clothes back on, rather clumsy-handedly. By the sounds of it, Kevin was still in the shower. Neil headed straight for the lockers. He frowned when Andrew wasn’t within his direct line of sight. He could hear shuffling coming from the storage room towards his left.
He wandered in to find Andrew attempting to keep a stack of old exy racquets from toppling over each other in what could have turned into one completely unfortunate domino effect.
“Scavenging for scraps?”
“Your helmet,” Andrew muttered. “You ruptured your chin guard. I was checking if they had any replacement parts collecting dust here.”
“Any luck?”
“No.”
“I’m just going to put it on Kevin’s tablet,” Neil replied. “He aimed that last shot at my jaw on purpose.”
“MAYBE YOU SHOULD LEARN TO DODGE LIKE ANY COMPETENT STRIKER WOULD!” snapped an irked, disembodied voice from the distance.
Sometimes Neil forgot how thin the walls here really were… Maybe Kevin just had the ears of a vampire bat, to have been able to hear them over the gushing of the water.
“MAYBE YOU SHOULD MIND YOUR OWN FUCKING BUSINESS!” Neil roared back, scathingly, before rolling his eyes and slamming the door closed behind him. Andrew stared at him, dead-eyed. “What are you doing?”
“What? I want to relish in dissing Kevin in relative privacy.”
“You’ll lock us in, idiot.”
“I didn’t—“
“These hinges haven’t been oiled in years. They’re flimsy.” There was a sudden, unspoken urgency in Andrew’s voice at that final word that made Neil’s insides twist. “Okay,” Neil said, hand curling around the door knob.
He turned at it and—shit. Was Andrew about to be proven right? He gave it a hard yank and then another, and then a couple more for good measure. At this point, Andrew took a step forward, nudging Neil hard enough from waist to shoulder that he stumbled and felt his spine meet the cold expanse of wall.
Andrew then maneuvered to inspect the door himself.
Neil’s insides caved in on themselves. The storage room was tiny. Smaller even, than an average walk-in closet. Not to mention it was brimming with a maw-full of junk. It was also crowded and dark and smelled like an abundance of dust.
There was a dull bulb that flickered like an eighties horror film in the top right corner of the closet and Neil was half convinced he could hear something skittering behind the shelves. It wasn’t exactly the most pleasant of ambiances, but he knew better than anyone that there were worse places to get trapped in.
Andrew had now taken to straight up kicking at the door and pounding his fists against it hard enough that Neil could feel the vibrations in his teeth.
“It’s no big deal,” Neil said, gently. “Kevin will get us out.”
“Kevin—“ Andrew snapped, his pupils blown wide as he turned to meet Neil’s gaze. “Probably thinks we’re hooking up.”
Neil wanted to say that Kevin wouldn’t abandon them, but then again, he wouldn’t put that kind of an assumption past Kevin, especially when he was feeling frustrated.
Andrew’s head snapped back up. “Do you have your phone on you?”
“It's in my bag,” Neil pinched the top of his nose. “Outside.”
“Shit.”
Neil watched Andrew for a quiet moment. His heart beginning to pound in alarm. He took in the wild, emancipated flicker in Andrew’s eyes, the calamity in his tone of voice. His gaze was capering everywhere like cat’s eyes to lasers. He looked as if he was imagining every wall in the room closing in on them all at once. “Andrew,” Neil’s voice was the barest suggestion of a whisper.
Andrew’s eyes flickered up to meet his, he was attempting to keep his lips tightly pressed together but there was a prominent strain to the curve of his mouth. His expression feral and bottomless; a consequence of the fear that was threatening to take over.
“What.”
“Are you claustrophobic?”
Andrew said nothing, but the torrent in his gaze was confirmation enough.
They had to give up after fifteen solid minutes of incessant banging against the unrepentant door and every cry for Kevin falling on deaf ears.
Andrew was beginning to look very pale and his breathing had grown ragged.
There was a tremor of misery rising up Neil’s throat as Andrew slumped against the door with his knees pressed into his heaving chest.
Neil was not used to Andrew making himself so small, it set something alight within him. Andrew compensated for the inconvenience of his height by having an overwhelming presence—the sort you’d do better facing head on rather than just flat out ignoring. If it was even humanly possible to ignore.
This… This was terrible and new.
Neil could taste iron at the back of his mouth, thinking back on one of his worst memories of Andrew.
Even back then, lying defeated on bloodstained sheets, Andrew hadn’t tried to make himself scarce. His nonchalance, his disdain, his fear for what might’ve happened to Aaron… It had been an ugly cocktail of emotions (or a brittle lack there of) but it’d been larger than life. Neil could still feel the sheer animosity rolling off of Andrew, stiff and defensive and horrible.
His laughter had been a warning.
It had been so loud it had taken up the entire room.
Neil looked to Andrew again.
He remembered Andrew facing his fear of heights on their rooftop: Andrew’s knuckles, whitened from a hindered blood flow, the slumped ridges of his shoulders, the way he stared down at the ground, as if the ground would erupt from beneath him, extend its jaws and swallow him whole.
“You know,” Neil began, crouching down next to Andrew. Neil felt the need to keep talking. “When my mother and I were on the run, I spent a lot of time in compact spaces. In closets, airport bathroom stalls, beneath motel beds. Mom would ask me to stay extremely still and close my eyes as tightly as I could. She wasn’t very good at consoling me, I don’t think she even knew how to begin with; but she would ask me to turn the world off, like it was that easy to just wield my brain like a switchboard. To hone in on a single, conquerable thing.” Something nauseous crawled its way up his windpipe, something he’d once mistaken for fondness. “See, she said when it comes to entrapment, helpless animals thrive in the little victories.”
“You are a study in helplessness,” Andrew sucked in another strangled breath.
Neil continued. “She demanded I find something to clutch onto. It could be anything. The rancid smell of a cigarette, the sound of her voice, or something physical that I could touch,” Neil’s eyes met Andrew’s with intent, awaiting certain affirmation. Andrew picked up his gaze instantly.
But only if you let me...
Andrew managed a small nod.
At this, Neil let out a breath he didn’t even know he was holding to begin with and wrapped his hands over Andrew’s, which were busy digging into the soft material of his track pants over his knees. Andrew’s fingers were cold, limp. Neil brought their entwined hands towards his mouth and blew at them, gently. His breath warmer than the temperature of the confined room. “It’s not about finding your happy place or some unhelpful bullshit like that. I think it has more to do with cognitive response, we breathe subconsciously, right? So if you just find something else to focus on, your body naturally complies.”
“Shut up.”
Andrew’s breaths sounded sharper now, shorter. His fingers dug into the skin of Neil’s palm before clutching for the back of Neil’s head. He dug his fists into his hair and pulled, every gasp hissed in between clenched teeth. It hurt, but watching Andrew crumble in this way hurt more.
“It’s okay,” Neil insisted, pressing slow, breathy kisses to every single one of Andrew’s knuckles. “Just focus on me. Look at me. Everything else is just everything else. Andrew,” Neil said. “Look at me. Nothing else.”
“I thought you were nothing.”
“That’s right. I’m nothing. It’s easier to concentrate on my nothing, right?”
“God. Stop talking—“
“Tell me what’s happening. How difficult is it to breathe? Can you feel your heart rate escalating? Do you feel clammy?”
“I’m going to kill Kevin Fucking Day.”
“I’ll help you dispose of the body,” Neil replied, approvingly, before resting his forehead against Andrew’s and closing his eyes for a brief moment. He could feel Andrew shaking against him.
“My fourth home,” Andrew said then, in between harsh, heavy breaths. “It was a game.”
“What—?”
“Get locked in a dark broom closet and search for the key.”
The words were distorted by a familiarly casual lack of concern. The sort that drove Neil to his wit’s end.
Neil felt a sudden pang of unbidden rage whorl up inside his chest. Now he was imagining a young Andrew. Probably no older than ten, locked within the dark confines of some asshole’s dusty old broom closet, utterly afraid and completely alone. Another onset of pain, the kind of pain that was more than just physical and Neil could feel clogging up his brain. It was beginning to get volcanic. Neil felt his nostrils flare as his grip on Andrew’s hands tightened, just slightly. Their fingers were now slick with sweat but Neil couldn’t care less.
“They should pay,” Neil’s voice was hoarse, throaty. It was as if a knife was growing within his stomach, large and serrated. “For what they did to you. They should all pay. I want to tear—“
“It doesn’t matter,” Andrew’s voice was still ringed with panic, but strangely enough, his gaze had become more solid; rapt on Neil’s own.
As if reminding Neil of the reach of his own apathy mattered more than the fear rapidly possessing him, voice a faultless escaped breath.
“I don’t care.”
“You never do,” Neil replied, tone still frantic despite half-assed attempts to throttle the fury. “I’ll just have to amp up my own contempt tenfold—for the both of us.”
“Fucking junkie.”
“What can I say? I’m hooked,” Neil said, the corner of his lip tugging up to form a grin that left him rather surprised by himself. So hopelessly hooked. Andrew didn’t look too amused, Neil could feel his pulse racing at his wrists, beneath the press of Neil’s fingers. “Hey, hey. Stay with me now. We’ll get out of here. It’ll be okay. Breathe, okay? Try to breathe.”
Andrew did so, all the while staring Neil down begrudgingly.
“I hate you.”
“You really outdid yourself with that. I mean groundbreaking revelation.”
“You’ll break my percentage meter.”
“Before you take another shot at breaking me? Sounds unfair.”
There was a look in Andrew’s eyes at that, one Neil couldn’t exactly place. It was something conflicted; at war with itself. It sank into Neil’s skin.
Andrew’s grip on Neil’s hair finally loosened as he untangled one of his hands from Neil’s in favor of fastening it around the nape of Neil’s neck and reeling him towards him. “Yes or no?”
“It will never be no,” Neil waited for Andrew’s lips to engulf his own. He watched Andrew inhale (his breath still wary but less labored than before), watched his eyelashes flutter shut and then the unparalleled heat of Andrew’s mouth.
The kiss was a hard, steadying press like a paperweight. An affirmation of trust. Andrew was letting Neil knead the tension out of him. Neil kept his movements gentle even as Andrew’s tongue hungrily scaled his throat. Andrew’s other hand left Neil’s to venture underneath his shirt and Andrew pressed a hand flat against Neil’s stomach, where the scarring was at its coarsest. Neil sucked in a shivering breath at the destabilizing touch. When they pried their lips apart, Neil brought Andrew close until their chests were pressed flush against one another. He could feel Andrew’s heart beating against his own, every cataclysmic breath. Andrew’s pupils were wide and there was almost a certain brimming exhilaration within them. Neil netted his fingers in the soft expanse of Andrew’s hair and pressed a kiss to his temple.
“Block out all those rotten memories. Burn them. We’ll make new ones.”
“Oh?” Andrew said, dryly. “Is that your attempt at an assurance?”
“That’s a promise.”
“Careful,” Andrew drawled. “That’s still foreign dialect for a pathetic little runaway.”
“It’s your language,” Neil replied. “So I’ll learn it.”
At this, Andrew blanched.
Only this time, Neil had a feeling it had nothing to do with panic.
Neil awoke to a jolting pain riding up his left ankle, Andrew’s face pressed into his neck and Coach Wymack looming over him with an incredibly dangerous look on his face.
“I swear I will kick the shit out of you until you whimper,” Wymack imposed.
“Coach!” Neil cried.
“I know I said I don’t care what you maggots do off court but bedrooms exist for a reason,” Wymack grumbled. “Next time, use them. Now, would you care to explain to me what the fuck you two were doing cooped up in here? Keep it PG, yeah?”
“It isn’t what it looks like,” Neil snapped, cheeks flaring. “I shut the door too hard and locked us in.”
Wymack’s expression changed, albeit marginally as his gaze dropped to Andrew. “Is he—?”
“He’ll be fine.” Neil reassured, with a small sigh. When Wymack shot him a doubtful glare, Neil immediately remedied his phrase. “Not my flimsy definition of fine—Genuinely fine.”
For a moment, Wymack said nothing, before clearing his throat and looking Neil square in the eye, expression hardening once more. “Wake him up, get yourselves freshened up and get the fuck out of my sight.” He said, pointing at Andrew, who was still curled up against Neil like a cat.
“Yes, Coach.”
He turned on his heel to leave, before halting abruptly. “And Neil?”
“Yes?”
“Thank fuck you were with him.”
Neil felt a prickle of something sad stab at his throat, but he nodded.
“Get plenty of water and some grub in your systems. Don’t think I’m letting you off easy. It’s gonna be a grueling day ahead.”
“Yes, Coach.”
“Don’t ‘yes, coach’ me.”
“Yes, Coach. Er— Alright?”
Wymack groaned audibly, stared up at the ceiling like what-will-I-ever-do-with-this-good-for-nothing-little-shit before skulking off. Next to him, Andrew stirred.
“You’re awake,” Neil said, softly.
“Keen observation,” he responded, voice still groggy like early morning honey.
“Wanna get the fuck out of here?” Neil asked.
“Wanna get the fuck off of you,” Andrew said, pushing himself up and off of Neil. He was a little wobbly as he rose to his feet and had to extend an arm up against the wall to keep himself upright.
He stared at the door blown wide open and the barcodes of light pooling in from outside. Stray voices floated up from the foyer. Neil pulled himself to his feet and stretched to work out a kink in his neck.
Andrew was out the door before he could finish.
Neil followed him out, equally eager to be free of the dry smell of mold exposure and cardboard boxes.
Andrew turned to him, expression unreadable. Neil halted just in time to keep himself from walking straight into his back.
“I will say this once and once only so listen closely if you care to hear it.”
“Hm?”
“You know I don’t care for useless sentiments,” Andrew said. “What you did, I won’t forget it.”
Neil felt something warm and unnamable bloom behind his ribs. Neil didn’t think Andrew understood, or maybe he understood perfectly and just didn’t want to admit it. Knowing Andrew, it was probably the latter. Either way, Neil didn’t require an acknowledgement or a worthless show of gratitude. He hadn’t done it out of courtesy, he’d done it because he couldn’t bear the thought of what might’ve happened otherwise. Couldn’t bear the thought of watching Andrew fall victim to the weight of his past. Time upon time again.
“It was nothing.” Neil replied quietly, but he hoped Andrew heard the underlying notion within his words.
It was everything.
Andrew’s face was a blank canvas while Neil’s was a mosaic of abstracts.
“You don’t have to say it like that.”
“I know.”
#tfc#tfc fanfic#andreil#the foxhole court#neil josten#andrew minyard#andreil headcanon#andreil drabble#tfc fic#all for the game#the raven king#kickfoxing#coldsaturn#nora sakavic#prompt response#my drabble#aftg#foxhle-court#imnotapipedream#kevin day#otp: a pipe dream
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You were supposed to be a side effect of the drugs. (The Kings Men, Chapter I.)
↳ Happy Belated Birthday Viktoria @imnotapipedream (3.8)
#the foxhole court#andreil#imnotapipedream#andrew minyard#tfcedit#neil josten#i hope you had a great birthday!#hopefully this week is off to a good start for you#i know already screamed to you about your fancasts but#your fancasts lead to me find so much wondeful footage#like the keys and the eyes i cant#have a wonderful day and wonderful rest of the week!!#i hope you like it
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🌞 ~YOU ARE A RAY OF SUNSHINE~ 🌞 Send this to 8 people who deserve it and make sure you don't break the chain ❤
:’’’) aw omg thanks cutie !
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imnotapipedream replied to your post “andreil icos!au”
yes! pls make it a fic :D
i definitely will! i just need to flesh out the entire story so it also fits in the whole butcher/moriyama thing, but once i do that, i’ll start writing!
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about the fox!andrew au, it's written...well a little bit of it is written, just search the fox!andrew tag :)
i can’t seem to find anything in the general tumblr tag, do you mean OP’s tag?
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I have a prompt for a fic that I'd die for the chance to read.It's basically time travel au (Like after the events of tkm, andrew or neil would wake up and it would be a year earlier but he would remember everything that happened throughout the year)
Ooooohhh, that is an interesting idea. I’ve never written time travel before though, hmmm. I’d have to think about the logistics of it, methinks, let me stew on it...
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Hi, I love your depressed neil fanfic a lot and I hope you'll continue it because it's 👌 so👌 good👌👌👌
Tysm! I have part three halfway written so itll be up in the next few days if everything goes to plan🌺
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@imnotapipedream Thank you for the info! I'm super excited to read about young Jeremy. I'm just so lost with this Simon thing, and if it isn't explained in the books or in the extra side stories that take place after the series I really might lose it haha. This is the kind of thing that keeps me up at night.
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i'm soon gonna switch to my tfc url but i was wondering if u have any trustworthy tfc blogs 2 follow adsfaldkfjlk i only follow u and nadja (that post tfc)
im so late im sorry!!! here are a few of my favs, but I’ll open up my follower list so u can see the rest! @spanglebangle, @badacts & @petalloso are a m a z i n g writers and the ppl im closest to on here so they’re a must! other amazing writers: @frostandcoal @emmerrr, @ilgaksu, @palmettofoxden, @annawrites, @bramlouisgreenfeld, @wilsherejack, @cigarettesmokeandexyracquets, @agapantoblu, @philosophium + more but ive forgotten rn sorry!!some more great ppl: @m1nyards, @jostenacious, @neilminyards, @aminyarrd, @xjosten, @neilskey, @andrewsmolyard, @andrewjminyvrd, @ajsminyard, @allisonjrenyolds, @nickyklose, @strikingneil, @imnotapipedream, @hemminicky, @aymmidumps, @exyfexyfoxes, @exybee, @snappleeducated, @a-kingdom-of-foxes, @berry-muffin, @thiccboyd, @robincross, @aelin, @neljostns, @dailypalmetto @kevcnday, @wesawbears!
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hey do you have any aftg blog recs?
hi yes im the Worst this has been in my inbox for like a week,,,
here are some of my favs!
@allisonreynoldsofficial ★ / @reneewalkerofficial ★ / @ravenvsfox / @bramgreenfclds / @boydsten / @exybee / @an-drewminyard / @neilabramjostn / @jeanmoreaue / @danwildsofficial / @dadwymack / @foxesbettingpool / @foxesrefuge / @foxes-evermore / @badacts / @kevinday / @ailadermctt / @imnotapipedream / @nickyklose / @nickyhemmick / @broship-addict / @kickfoxing / @damnwilds / @pipedream / @bluemoreau / @requiemofkings / @theordinaryvegan / @stayneil / @cigarettesmokeandexyracquets
and so many more but im too lazy lmao
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hey i rlly love your writing sm!! could you maybe do an andreil one for this prompt: imagine person A knowing person B hasn't been eating properly for the last few days so person A makes them a proper meal from scratch that they can both eat together to make person B feel better? thank you!!!
[Thank you for the lovely prompt & I apologize in advance for the Angst™.]
Neil wipes a bead of sweat from his temple with the back of his wrist and bares his teeth. He’s got that acute glimmer of feral aggression behind his eyes again, Andrew observes, dully.
The sort of expression often native to a prowling jungle cat attempting to intimidate a potential threat into premature submission. Andrew can’t help but see it as a phenomenal waste of energy, getting worked up over a stupid practice scrimmage, at Kevin Day of all short-fused idiots.
No matter how close Andrew allows Neil to get, he will never be used to his exhaustive thirst for victory.
How many more goddamn exy-obsessed morons do I have to babysit in this lifetime?
Across the court, Kevin’s got a firm grip on his racquet as he glowers behind the netting at Neil as if through the barrel of a gun. It’s a late fall evening and the sky is a patchwork of pink-gold clouds, the moon sits a shrivel of a crescent in the rapidly darkening distance.
Andrew watches his teammates with his characteristic lack-of-character, expression neutral as he remains stationed in position, racquet balanced on his shoulders like an afterthought.
He can hear Nicky whinging to Matt about something inconsequential Andrew doesn’t care enough to inquire about, Renee and Allison have been exchanging subtle glances across the court for two-and-a-half hours now.
During their last sparring session, Renee mentioned in passing that she’d found another sparring partner in Allison. “She wants me to teach her how to fight. Says she wants to be prepared for anything. It’s like she doesn’t trust the world as much after everything that happened with Seth and Neil’s consequent revelation. It’s sad but I think it’s awfully brave of her, don’t you?” Andrew had merely blinked at her, unamused, before grappling her into a headlock she hadn’t seen coming and raising a knife to her throat. “Oops,” he said. “You’re dead.”
It isn’t until Andrew hears Kevin strike that he notices the hesitation in Neil’s jaw just as he slams the ball with lethal force and his knees buckle. He stumbles not even half a second after and Dan grabs ahold of him before he can crumple to the ground. Andrew feels his heart skip a couple of paces just as Wymack blows his warning whistle, calling a timeout. Kevin gawks in mystification for a moment before breaking into a disapproving scowl.
“The hell was that, Josten?” Wymack snaps, striding over to Neil and crossing his arms over his big chest. “I’m fine,” Neil grunts. “It won’t happen again.”
“You’re right,” Wymack replies, with a smile that’s at least two-fifths deliberate condescension. “It won’t, because right now you’re about as useful to me as a vegetable. I’m benching you for the rest of today.”
“Come on, Coach!” Nicky shouts, jogging up to where everyone is now crowding around Neil like he’s some kind of a helpless dog they all accidentally ran over with their cars. “Let’s just call an early mark. Please? We could all use a break!”
“I don’t,” Neil spits, balling his fists to his sides; eyes rapt on Wymack’s. Idiot. Wymack shoots a steely glare right back at him. “You play in peak condition or you don’t play at all. I won’t tolerate this half-assed bullshit. You hear me?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Oh, I think you do. Now go pick a cozy corner to sulk in and don’t return to my court until you’re bleeding stamina or I will knock you flat on your ass myself. Do I make myself clear?”
“But—“
“I said,” Wymack’s tone becomes dangerously taut. “Do I make myself clear?”
At this point, even Nicky shuts his trap and takes an obedient step back, his expression pleading at Neil to do everything within his power to not trip on the Coach’s last nerve.
“You’re being unreasonable,” Neil growls, lowly. Nicky shakes his head in exasperation, just as Dan smoothly interjects, “I think what Coach is trying to say, Neil, as that you seem a little under the weather today. Maybe rest up a little and take it easy for the evening so that you’re better equipped for practice tomorrow?”
“Yeah, man,” Matt chimes in. “We’re just worried about your health.”
Andrew brings his racquet down and leans his body weight against it, still watching quietly from the sidelines. Renee shoots him a concerned glance and Andrew pretends not to notice.
“It’s insulting,” Kevin cuts in, with eyes only for Neil as he crosses the distance between them and parks himself merely inches from where Neil is standing. Andrew can’t say he envies Neil. He knows firsthand Kevin’s tendency to invite himself into one’s personal space whenever he gets cranky. “You’re insulting us all. I don’t know what the fuck’s been going on with you, but you better get your shit together because your breakdowns have no place on the court. Now do as Coach says before you waste any more of everyone’s time.”
Kevin and Neil spend a solid minute exchanging mind-imploding death glares at one another before Neil caves. He doesn’t look happy about it, but he flips Kevin off, turns on his heel and trudges off the court. Andrew watches Neil carefully. The fight is slowly pilfered from his shoulders and he lets his chin droop against his neck. There is something volatile about his defeated posture as he ambles right past the stands and towards the showers. Wymack turns to Andrew, expression irked but knowing.
“Goodbye.” Andrew says, before casually trailing after Neil.
“There isn’t enough whiskey in the goddamn world to put up with you ungrateful asshats on a daily basis,” Wymack mutters, under his breath before blowing his whistle again. “That’s enough dilly-dallying, maggots! We can practice without Tom and Jerry for now. Drop the long faces and give me forty-five laps. We’ll reassemble then. Go, go. Fucking go.”
“Crowdpleaser,” Andrew mumbles, coming up behind Neil.
Neil looks up at him without meeting his eyes. “Agree to disagree.”
Andrew joins Neil in the shower and they kiss until their mouths are numb and then Andrew drives them back home. They’re barely halfway through the door when King Fluffkins trots up to them and curls himself, not unlike a clingy toddler, around Andrew’s boot. “Get your cat off my foot,” Andrew mutters, at once. Neil shrugs off his coat, shuts the door behind them and smiles faintly. “And deprive him of cuddles? That’s abuse. Plus, he likes you.” Andrew groans and has to peel the feline off himself as he cradles King Fluffkins in his arms and deposits him on the couch next to a lazing Sir Fat Cat McCatterson. “Do that again and I won’t hesitate to turn your furry ass into a winter coat.”
King Fluffkins looks unfazed at this remark, but a short laugh escapes Neil.
Andrew will never admit it, but Neil’s laugh sends a jolt of spring warmth up his spine. The kind that wedges itself in between shoulder blades and seeps into his ribcage. It is so full of raw, fleeting feeling that it fills every gap inside Andrew to a brimming point.
Andrew sourly notes Neil hasn’t laughed like that in a week.
“What did we discuss about threatening our cats at every given moment?”
“Your cats.”
“Right. Whenever they piss you off they’re my cats.”
Neil follows the cats’ bad example, dropping dead on his back on the lounge room sofa and allowing the pests to crawl up onto his chest. Andrew empties the litter, brings them fresh water and fills their bowls to the top with food before wandering into the kitchen.
The weather grows worse within the span of the hour. The rain is loud as fuck outside. The wind droning on like the hum of a distraught choir. He chops a fresh batch of mushrooms, carrots and green bell peppers. He separates all the vegetables and leaves a stockpot of water to simmer. The oven is preheating. He cooks in mindless silence, all the while wondering why Neil isn’t venturing in to watch him like he usually does. There is something upsetting fizzling beneath his skin, like an itch he can’t scratch. He has this shitty gut feeling—hot and incendiary; an interloper awaiting recognition. He spends longer than intended in passive contemplation and his stockpot begins to overspill.
Andrew lowers the temperature of the gas and yanks the lid off the pot, swatting the steam away as if it were a school of flies.
He finds cooking less boring than he finds most activities in his daily life. Bee says it’s because cooking is an act of creation, which makes it a common stress reliever. People feel better about themselves when they’re creating.
Andrew doesn’t know about that, but it’s a layman’s job to follow a recipe.
There is something vaguely satisfying about it, he thinks. Cooking is meticulous and straight to the point. It doesn’t take thinking if your hands know what to do and your mind’s prone to estimate. If the recipe demands half a slab of melted butter he won’t add a pinch more or less. He’s fairly adept at following instructions and doesn’t feel the need to experiment.
If nothing else, cooking is a way to pass the time and is vital to survival.
Eventually, Neil does float into the kitchen, looking jaded. Andrew keeps himself busy with seasoning and pays him no heat. “I’m going to bed,” he says quietly. Andrew halts, grabs a wooden spoon and dips it into the pot nearest to him, still hot off the stove. “Come here,” he replies. Neil joins his side as Andrew blows softly on the liquid before holding a spoonful up to Neil’s mouth.
“Taste.”
“I’m not hungry.”
“Taste.”
Neil pouts a little, but obediently leans in and takes the smallest sip. “Mm,” he nods. “What is it?”
“Hot and sour soup.” Andrew says.
“Will it taste better off of your lips?” He leans in questioningly but Andrew neatly sidesteps, leaving Neil fumbling. “Sorry,” Neil remedies, quickly.
“I didn’t mean to—“
“You’ll consume it directly first.” Andrew answers, in lieu of an explanation.
“It’s really good. I’ll uh… Have some tomorrow if there’s leftovers.”
Neil is about to turn when Andrew wraps cold, gentle fingers around his wrist. “Dinner will be served in ten minutes. Go outside and take a seat on the dining table.”
Something dire flashes in Neil’s heady blue eyes. “Andrew—“
“Don’t argue with me.”
It’s a full-fledged three-course assortment of homemade meals and Neil stares at it like it’s making him nauseous just to look at it. To Andrew, it smells heavenly: steaming hot-sour soup and chicken à la king with a side of sweet potato wedges. Andrew feels a pang of something irritable inside his chest. He doesn’t quite care whether Neil likes it or not. He isn’t allowed to be a baby about this. Not any fucking more.
“Eat,” he prompts. “Eat or I will force feed it down your gullet, yes?”
Neil sighs and begins to scoop an insufficient portion onto his plate, rather halfheartedly. Andrew snatches the spoon from him and begins to serve Neil himself, making sure to get an equally ample portion of each item available before helping himself.
“You will explain as we eat.”
“What?”
“Drop the clueless act and stop being this pathetic.”
When Neil merely blinks at him Andrew scoots closer to Neil in his chair, making it creak in protest against the wooden floor as he grabs Neil’s chin in his hand. He lowers Neil’s head and allows his eyes to bore into Neil’s. He’s lost every remaining morsel of his patience. “Do you take me for a fool?”
“No.”
“You’re treating me like one.”
“I’m not trying to. Fuck. Everyone’s just constantly on my ass about everything all the time and so what if I have a bad day or two. Am I not allowed the privilege—?”
“Fuck everyone,” Andrew’s voice is dull and combustible. “Do I look like everyone?”
At this, Neil lowers his gaze to Andrew’s lips, back to his eyes and something within Neil’s own softens.
“Of course not,” he replies, voice more subdued now.
“I’ve had enough of your mopey bullshit,” Andrew says, letting go of Neil’s chin.
“Explain.” Andrew demands.
“It’s not a big deal.”
Everything inside Andrew knots up like curdled milk. There is a visible tension in Neil’s shoulders that is no doubt going to escape in a torrent; without a moment’s notice. Andrew doesn’t even have to prepare himself for it. He just wants to face it headfirst.
Andrew draws his mouth into a thin line. “If you lie to me again I won’t sit here and tolerate it.”
“It’s not something you’ll want to hear.”
“I don’t care,” Andrew snaps. “Tick tock.”
Neil takes a deep breath and lets it out through his nose and the words tumble out of his mouth like bullet shells. “I know that it’s naive but I thought he wasn’t going to be a problem, at least not for the foreseeable future. I will keep playing Exy until there is none of me left. That’s the deal. That’s how it goes but there are things I can’t control—if something happens to me? Something that makes me incapable of playing and—and then, he’ll turn the Foxes into collateral damage in my war.” Neil glances up to meet Andrew’s unflinching gaze. “Ichirou,” he says, the name sounding like a strained chord on a busted up guitar. “He flew down for a meeting and paid me a visit on a whim. He said things. He fucking—“ now there’s a keen rage seizing him. “He fucking threatened your life!”
“He’s threatened my life before.”
“Exactly! He’s made his point. I get it. We get it. This time, he was doing it to taunt me, to remind me that we’re all ultimately just pawns on his sick little chessboard. He’s screwing with me.”
Andrew leans calmly back into his chair and says nothing, waiting for Neil to calm down. At this point, Neil is seething, his breath choked out in rattled gasps. He’s got a white-knuckled grip on either end of the table.
“That wasn’t something I could stand. Listening to that bastard pompously claim all the things he could do to you, count off the ways he could make you disappear without a trace. Why should I have to put up with this crap? Why do I have to keep living beneath the Moriyamas’ shadow? Sitting there, listening to him recite what he’s capable of—hurting you. It reminded me that I’m still the Butcher’s son, that I should be raining hell down on anyone who even thinks of touching us—Touching you.”
Neil is shivering now, his words coming out in escaped sobs. His entire body’s a wreck. He’s a wreck.
Andrew’s stomach twists as conviction stronger than anything Andrew’s ever felt burns in Neil’s voice.
“Do you remember what I told you?” Andrew asks, promptly.
“I—“
“What did I tell you?”
He watches the muscles work under Neil’s clenched jaw.
“To bury Nathaniel in Baltimore with his father.”
“Neil is your only truth from now on, or have you forgotten?”
“I haven’t.”
“You cannot object what is irrefutable.”
“I won’t let them, Andrew. I can’t… Because that would be pathetic.”
“If there is a single part of you that is still Nathaniel, I do not want anything to do with it. Are we clear?”
Neil is at an utter loss of words before he attempts to gather himself, something unsteady flashing in his eyes. Andrew does not care if his truth is a harsh pill to swallow. Neil will learn. This is the man he chose to protect, the man he sleeps with, the man who is his.
Another irrefutable truth—Neil Josten; not some phantom burnout son-of-a-killer.
“Are you digging him back up?”“No. What’s dead is dead.”
“Good,” Andrew won’t admit the relief his words warrant. “I want you to remember you said that.”
“It’s just—“ Neil sighed. “I haven’t been able to eat or sleep since talking to him. I keep seeing your dead body at my feet or— or worse and I feel like throwing up. It’s that same, ringing sense of dread all over again. The dread I felt when Riko threatened you, before I made my decision to go to Evermore. All I can think about is the need to eliminate the threat. I want to kill him.”
“Don’t be irrational.”
“I can’t just let him get away with this.”
“That is exactly what you’re going to do. Neil,” Andrew says. “Yes or—?”
Bright eyes sharp as stained glass. “Yes.”
Andrew takes Neil’s hand in his own and presses it to the side of his neck, just beneath his jugular vein so that Neil can feel Andrew’s pulse beating underneath the skin there. “Not to indulge your creepy neck fetish or anything but,” he cups his own hand over where he’s holding Neil’s. “I’m here.”
“Whenever—if anything happens, I’ll still be here.” Andrew says. “Nod if you understand.”
Neil lets out another shaky breath and nods slowly, eyes steady on Andrew’s. Watching him unravel on his bad days is always somewhat of a stale realization. There is a part of Andrew that thinks it isn’t fair. When did things become this critical? Before… He wasn’t feeling unless he was feeling empty, the only time the world felt real was when he was standing at the edge of it, staring down at what could quite possibly be a bottomless death. He never used to know what to do with his hands, not until Neil had reminded him, anyway.
“They’re your hands,” cigarette lounging lazily at the corner of lips chapped stupid, eyes so wide they could be confused for open sores, hair ruffled in the wind.
He’d wanted nothing.
Now he is surviving on that very nothing, cultivating a life from every breath that leaves nothing’s lips.
Careful what you fucking wish for.
Neil’s fingers are warm as they curl up to grip the back of Andrew’s neck. He still looks shaken, furious; as if he wants to turn the world on its head and fight it. There’s still an unkempt tenseness to his posture. Andrew hates it.
“I don’t care,” Neil announces. “I don’t care if they kill me. Ever since I was born I’ve been ready to die if it comes down to it. That’s the philosophy I was raised on.”
Andrew reads the implication on his face even before he has to make it clear.
“They can’t have you.”
You think it’s cute throwing my own words back in my face?
“Still playing at rabbit?” Andrew says, after a pause. “You know better than to waste energy fretting over shit that you can’t control, or have you not learned anything?”
“My learning curve’s a horizontal line, remember?” Neil replies, a suggestive hint in the twist of his lips.
“Coincidentally the position you’ll be lying in your coffin when I’m done with you.”
“Death kink or neck fetish. Which one’s weirder? We should ask Nicky.”
“I hate you.”
“Me too.”
“I mean it.”
Neil’s fingers against his skin. Alive, alive.
“That’s what I love about you.”
Andrew scoffs and pushes Neil’s hand off before turning back around in his chair. “Your food will get cold,” he mutters, tone finite.
“Okay.”
“The next time you skip a meal you can sustain on whatever the cats are having.”
“Thank you.”
They eat in the sort of silence that swells over a small town after it’s been ransacked by a hurricane but still left standing. It’s a dizzying, electric sort of silence. The sort you can feel in your bones. When they’re done, Neil helps clear the plates away and they pad up to their bedroom.
King Fluffkins follows as Sir Fat Cat McCatterson continues to doze in his delegated spot.
“That was the best dinner I’ve ever had. I’ll starve myself all the time if that means you’ll cook for me more often.” That dark look in Neil’s eyes has dissolved into something clearer as he rolls over onto his side and begins to press kneading kisses down the side of Andrew’s jaw.
“Shut up.”
“It’s true,” Neil’s words are muffled against Andrew’s heated skin. “You know last week, Nicky was treating all of us to dinner and he asked me what my favorite dish was and I told him I didn’t actually know. Dan and Matt totally freaked out.” Neil’s hand stills over Andrew’s cheek for a brief moment. “My mother never used to cook. I know how to whip up your standard meals. Enough to keep me going. Omelettes, sandwiches, breakfast burritos. You name it. I’ve pretty much got microwaving down to an art form too, but I’ve never eaten anything like… This.”
Neil leans over and presses a soft kiss to Andrew’s lips, the kind that spreads out like the petals of a flower.
“It tastes like real home food,” he smiles against Andrew’s face before gently meeting Andrew’s unwavering gaze.
“You can touch me if you want.” Andrew’s voice is hoarse.
Neil looks slightly hesitant as he lets one of his hands gently slip beneath the hem of Andrew’s shirt.
Andrew closes his eyes at the contact. Neil’s touch is respectful, delicate, debilitating. Andrew’s skin is fever-warm against Neil’s cool fingertips. Andrew doesn’t want Neil to be able to detect the shortness of his breaths but he can bet Neil feels them.
“I’d like to extend my compliments to the chef,” Neil says, fingers faltering along the waistband of Andrew’s sweatpants. “Properly.”
Andrew grunts a quiet affirmation and Neil slides down, pulling the covers over his head.
He pushes the covers away in quick retaliation.
Eyes intent on Neil’s.
“I want to see you.”
#tfc#tfc fanfic#andreil#andrew minyard#neil josten#the foxhole court#aftg#aftg fic#all for the game#andreil headcanon#andreil fic#andreil drabble#the raven king#kickfoxing#coldsaturn#nora sakavic#prompt response#my drabble#foxhle-court#imnotapipedream#kevin day#otp: a pipe dream#welcomehomeneil
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It is me again and I think it was fic formatted and I'm pretty sure it was Neil with anorexia or another restictive ed. Thanks for looking into it anyways ❤️
imnotapipedream - maybe anon meant this http://anactualfairyqueen.tumblr.com/post/160174331256/andrew-had-noticed-at-first-the-lack-of-appetite
foxes to the rescue!!
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Do you ever get a little sad that a good amount of the fox hole court blogs aren't very active & the author just kind of disappeared? :/ I mean I totallly get why they stepped away but it just makes my little heart ache
I mean, it’s a pretty small fandom, all things considered, but I know what you mean, a bunch just stopped blogging. But fear not, a lot are still very active. Hahaha
Check these out:
@pjpedream @ravenvsfox @damnwilds @imnotapipedream @alvalez @hemminicky @hemmick @callmequeenbae @c-e-d-dreamer @audreil @aronminyards @nathanielwesninksi @neilswesninski @exy-king @badacts @exychamp @reneewvlkers @nickyklose @kickfoxing @hemmicknicky @sixinchrainbowheels @coldsaturn @queenkevin @exyfexyfoxes @minyarrd03 @whimsyalice @goddamnminyard @lastaled
Aaand i got carried away but yk hahaha also there are more on my blogroll (minyard03andrew.tumblr.com/blogroll)
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tagged by @exyhell (thank you!)
APPEARANCE:
I am 5′7″ or taller
I wear glasses
I have at least one tattoo
I have at least one piercing
I have blonde hair
I have brown eyes
I have short hair
My abs are at least somewhat defined
I have or have had braces
There is something I would change about the way I look
PERSONALITY:
My Hogwarts house is: Gryffindor
I am an introvert
I like meeting new people sometimes
People tell me that I’m funny
Helping close friends with their problems is a big priority for me
I enjoy physical challenges
I enjoy mental challenges
I’m playfully rude with people I know well
I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it
There is something I would change about my personality
ABILITY:
I can sing well
I can play an instrument
I can do over 30 pushups without stopping
I’m a fast runner
I can draw well
I have a good memory
I’m good at doing math in my head
I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute
I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling
I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch
I know how to throw a proper punch
HOBBIES:
I enjoy playing sports
I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else
I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else
I have learned a new song in the past week
I work out at least once a week
I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months
I have drawn something in the past month
I enjoy writing
Fandoms are my #1 passion
I do or have done martial arts
EXPERIENCES:
I have had my first kiss
I have had alcohol
I have scored the winning goal in a sports game
I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting
I have been at an overnight event
I have been in a taxi
I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year
I have beaten a video game in one day
I have visited another country
I have been to one of my favourite band’s concerts
RELATIONSHIP:
I’m in a relationship
I have a celebrity crush
I have a crush on someone I know
I have been in at least 3 relationships
I have never been in a relationship
I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them
I get crushes easily
I have had a crush on someone for over a year
I have been in a relationship for at least a year
I have had feelings for a friend
MY LIFE:
I have at least one person I consider a “best friend”
I live close to my school (/job)
My parents are still together
I have at least one sibling
I live in the United States
There is snow right now where I live
I have hung out with a friend outside of school in the past month
I have a smartphone
I have at least 15 CDs
I share my room with someone
RANDOM SHIT:
I have breakdanced
I know a person named Jamie
I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce
I have dyed my hair
I’m listening to one song on repeat right now
I have punched someone in the past week
I know someone who has gone to jail
I have broken a bone
I have eaten a waffle today
I know what I want to do with my life
I speak at least 2 languages fluently
I have made a new friend in the past year
tagging @andrewminyarrr, @clubbingattheclub, @still-waiting-for-godot, @imnotapipedream, and @polliniaa if you want to do it <3
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do you have any tfc blog recs? :)
hi!! i’m actually in search of new tfc blogs to follow, too. i’m sorry, i’m probably not the best person to ask about this as i’m kinda quiet in the fandom. so if anyone has people/blogs they want to add to this, please feel free?
my favorite tfc-centric blogs though are these lovely people: @evil-diabolical-oops @badacts @minyavd @unkingly @spanglebangle @exysexual @flammenmeer @imnotapipedream
#answered#anonymous#forreal tho i'm in need of new people to follow as well#tfc is the only fandom i always feel at least 90% satisfied with seeing on my dash nowadays#foxhole court#the foxhole court
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