#imagine just one ftm who's a regular guy. just one

[sophrxsynes]

remember back in the rcdart era of tumblr when drawing fetishistic hyperfeminine caricatures of trans men with huge tits and hips and snatched waists and womens lingerie and makeup and pussies out got you ran off the site. now it's completely encouraged and is the default way people portray trans men and if you have a problem with it suddenly you're the monster. normal pro trans website great allyship

[rainytomorrows]

Raphael x Reader | Trans tape

I have Bayverse/2012 in mind right now, but I'll try and write it so that it fits more than that. I realize they have computers.  PLEASE just pretend whatever version you’re imagining doesn’t have personal computers. Anyhow, I'm writing a trans reader (FTM) for this one. I apologize dearly for my lack of truly neutral readers lately. It's been hard to find the inspiration to write in general. Enough of the excuses though, trans comfort! (2,283 words)

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It had been an especially empty day in the lair. They’d saved the world yet again, and the consequence was an absolute lack of things to do. Even criminal activity was generally low enough that it was being handled. Everyone was grasping at straws trying to figure out how to spend their time. Obviously, the one to actually solve this was Donatello. Leo’s idea was to simply train non-stop, which no one could honestly say was helping. Mikey had tried to host movie nights and so on, which worked for a good couple of weeks until everyone was tired of that too. Raph hadn’t proposed much, as working out was his only real idea other than fighting crime. He wasn’t at all into the idea of sharing the weight room as a form of entertainment. That, and no one seemed as interested in crochet as he was.

All of this led to the genius idea. They needed something more expansive, and more independent. Donnie figured part of the problem was everyone being unable to do much of anything on their own. He got to the building, collecting the necessary parts over a span of a month or so. He was surprised he got it done so quickly, but that made sense knowing him.

He dragged everyone into the living room, where he’d set up a corny curtain, and stood in front of it like he had some major announcement. “So, in light of how bored we’ve all been for the past couple months,” “You’re giving us a computer?” Mikey shouted out, receiving a slap to the back of the head. The other two scolded him for interrupting, pointing out how hard it is to get computer parts and such. That’s when Donatello clears his throat, speaking up above them. “I actually am, but. Not just one” He states in his regular awkward tone, dropping his overdone curtain to reveal not one but three computers.

“I already have my own, but, I thought we all needed our own way to wind down and have fun. I built you all computers,” He goes on, stars already in Mikey’s eyes. “Of course I encrypted them, so I’d still be cautious, but unless you go around posting about us we should be safe.”

That was about a month ago now, Raphael had been enjoying the computer more than he’d admit. While he wouldn’t tell anyone, he had been going on a lot of blogs. Particularly for working out and music he enjoyed. Though, he quickly learned that he couldn’t just be honest on workout blogs. He was a good deal stronger than the regular guy, and his workout routine simply didn’t make any sense. He’d become a niche sort of celebrity on a couple of workout blogs, but not in a good way. Everyone was aware of him, the guy who kept lying about his workout routine for no good reason. He’d post a question and get responses like “We’re supposed to believe you’re just, lifting a good 900lbs? Casually? Fuck out of here man”

Anonymity did not save him from the first couple of times he asked questions honestly. It took him changing his username and profile picture, which saved him for a good while until someone stalked his account and realized he was the same guy who put forth the famous set of posts that got him excommunicated in the first place. That was the second time he was forced to change his photo and username, this time deleting all of his previous posts.

One day, however, he finds you online. He recognized your username, as you were the only one to try and help him when he’d posted initially. While you didn’t believe him either, you figured it wouldn’t hurt to simply answer his questions. You’d spoken with him back and forth when he posted on blogs for music you both liked, the same even going for various other blogs he was on. Such as, while he would never in his right mind admit it to Leo, he occasionally saw you when visiting the Space Heroes fan blog.

This goes on for a while, and he’d return the favor for you as well. You mostly visited workout blogs as you’d wanted to pass better. It seemed like every time you posted, he had a response.

“Good workouts for the chest, back, and shoulders?” Near immediate response from Raphael. As much as the rest of the community didn’t seem to like him, his advice always seemed to do well for you. When the two of you started to get along after his second time changing his account, it didn’t take a long time until you asked if it was him.

(BigRed4 Is online) Y/N: Hey, can I ask something? BigRed4: Sure, what’s up? Y/N: Is this RippedRed64? BigRed4: … Y/N: I knew it! Y/N: I do have to say I like this username better BigRed4: What gave it away? Y/N: Aside from your favorite color clearly being red? Y/N: You’re on the exact same blogs, Y/N: And you type the same. He didn’t talk to a lot of people besides his brothers, being recognized like that was a strange feeling. Entirely against his instincts as a ninja, though nice to have someone who liked him enough to recognize him through his interests and typing styles. He stared at the screen for a good minute, before finally deciding to respond.

Y/N: I was starting to miss you! BigRed4: Wdym? Y/N: “Wdym” my ass. We had a thing going!

He could tell you were joking, you did that often when he’d respond and message from his last account. The two of you did seem to help each other out when most other people online didn’t want to.

You started to message him more and more regularly, it went from the majority of your interactions being through other’s posts to simply DMing each other when you’d thought to. Sometimes about your shared interests, sometimes discussions on your workouts. Day by day, it became more and more personal. You’d talk about the weather (though he couldn’t see it, and would have to pretend), how your days went, the regular.

That is when the original major miscommunication happened. Raph noticed you started to go offline a lot more, and your posts slowed down. He didn’t want to pry, but admittedly he was worried.

BigRed4: Hey man is everything alright? Y/N: Yeah, why? BigRed4: You haven’t been posting. And you’ve stopped messaging as often. Y/N: Awww did you miss me? BigRed4: Answer the question Y/N: Fine fineeee

He kind of liked how you interacted with him- if that was a normal way to phrase things. He didn’t feel antagonized- and when he messaged you in his regular blunt way he seemed to be met with patience and more jokes. It was like you clicked- as if you just knew when he was and wasn’t mad. You knew how to make sure at the end of the day, he wasn’t angry. Whether or not he started that way.

Y/N: I got kicked out, I’ve been a little focused on moving.

This surprised him- were you ok? Upon questioning you explained the situation. Unfortunately- or fortunately for you both, you had assumed he knew what ‘trans’ meant. You were vague enough with the description that he’d assumed it was slang for being a mutant. You explained that your parents weren’t supportive of you being trans, to which you responded that you were born this way. You got kicked out and were in the process of getting and moving into an apartment. Somewhere closer to your job, as well. In hindsight, Raphael recognized that what he did was wishful thinking. That when you said ‘born this way’ you didn’t mean you grew up as a mutant, you weren’t really the same as him. But, that didn’t matter at all when it ended up not mattering one bit to you.

Y/N: A good majority of the posts I made on the workout blog were the workouts I was doing in order to pass better, since I can’t get surgery or hormones. BigRed4: I get you

Raphael thought you meant you were a mutant- and that you meant you were trying to pass as human. When you spoke about the trans community, he thought it was some underground group of mutants he wasn’t aware of. You spoke more and more, dumping more and more gas into the fire as it continued to get more and more misconstrued. Raphael had you convinced he was just another trans guy.

Raphael eventually offered to help you move in, once he’d been fully convinced you were a mutant. You thought this would be dumb, that you shouldn’t invite strange men over, but truthfully you were in a very bad place at the moment. You decided fuck it, making sure you have self-defense weapons on hand when he visits.

BigRed4: Hey, I’m at the fire escape Y/N: Why are you at the fire escape? BigRed4: I don’t fit through the door

Raph was joking, assuming you were too. As you usually did. He couldn’t just walk in! What you weren't expecting was the fucking unit that showed up at your window that night. You walk over, making eye contact with him. Both of you immediately drew the same conclusion: ‘This is not what I meant.’

He turns to leave, realizing what happened, but you open the window and call out before he can. “So uh, you’re BigRed4?” You ask, to which he returns to your fire escape and nods.

“You uh.. You pass well.” “No, I do not” “Look at you! The goal is to be a guy- right?

This causes the both of you to pause and think for a minute. “You are trans- right?” He gestures to himself as if it’s obvious. “Why aren’t you scared?” he asks suddenly, crossing his arms over his chest. Your eyes seem to hold the same sentiment about you he loved online, you seemed to just know how he worked. “Well, now I’m just confused. ARE you trans, or was this entirely you thinking this was a- whatever you got going on here?” He didn’t answer, which was enough to satisfy your question. “I don’t think we have the same idea of being trans,” you laugh a little, breaking the tension that had been building. “Come in, it’s cold out.”

It took a while, but eventually, you had explained to him what being trans ACTUALLY is over a cup of tea you made. It was all resolved pretty soon, and he upheld his promise to actually help you move in. Which was loads easier, now that you knew he really wasn’t lying on all those blogs. It had you thinking a lot- WAS he still lying a little or could he actually lift all of that? You set that aside- instead awarding his help by putting on a show you both liked and bringing snacks to eat with it.

You became quick friends, and started to hang out very regularly. While you already were, it was different now. What might have been an hour-long conversation over some website was now regular hangouts. Helping you work out, watching a show with you, or even just being there while you both did your own thing. One thing it would take years to admit, was why he didn’t introduce you to his brothers for such a long time. He would tell you it was for their safety, as he still wasn’t sure what your intentions were and everything. But, you seemed to think he was so cool. A good part of him just wanted it to stay that way. He wanted to be special- and not outshined by his brothers.

You seemed to have a particular shine about you, something that set you apart. He supposed that wasn’t saying a lot, since he didn’t meet a whole lot of people, but you really were something. He seemed to always be welcome over if it was a bad day, or if he simply told you it was a bad day because he wanted to see you. Which, by the way, wasn’t fooling anyone. It was fun for you to watch him huff and puff about something that clearly didn’t happen, so you never told him how obvious it was.

Being kicked out started to look like the best thing that could have happened. After long days of work, you’d come home to Raph. Who, more and more each day, became one of your best friends. Your walks home even seemed safer- though that was because Raphael had begun following your path and clearing it when necessary. The same reason he seemed to show up at your fire escape minutes after you arrived home every time. You had your own way of trying to protect him too, whether or not he knew it. You’d begun searching for any posts regarding him. He’d told you about how he needed his identity to be kept secret. So, that’s what you did. Any time you’d seen some post talking about ‘ninja sightings’ or ‘mutant spotted’ you’d bully them into oblivion. You felt bad, but you cared for his safety. You’d try to be nice when you could, but you simply found that it worked a lot better when your response was just ‘Are you insane?’ or ‘This is CLEARLY edited, look at the background’.

Either way, you both dearly valued each other. It was as obvious as the sun in the sky, even if neither of you would tell the other about what they did to show it half the time.

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I hope you guyys enjoyed ! You have a owmderful day. Life is good. Have a good day/nightm and a great life!

[beelspillowpet]

If your requests are open and your willing to, would you be able to do the brothers reacting to a trans MC? 👉🏻👈🏻 preferably female to male, but either way is fine! Sorry if your not comfy with this type of request >~<

Anon, just because you were afraid that I would turn down your request, I am going to PROVE to you how much it doesn’t bother me I'm going to do the 7 brothers AND the side characters. Because you BETTER BELEIVE we have a cast of supportive people!! Yessir!!!

I myself am the twin sister of my late twin brother, who was also FtM! I’ll be using his memory as inspiration, if you do not mind? Thank you for requesting this!

~

Lucifer

At first he presumed you were just not girly. He didn't really mind your behavior or way of dressing, so long as you got your tasks done on time and were on your best behavior.

When you cut your hair and stopped wearing that nail polish (despite Asmo’s pleading) he still thought nothing of it. You wore pants, and started trying your best to drop hints, and thankfully, Lucifer isn’t an idiot.

So what you’re telling me is that we’ve made you uncomfortable when referring to you as a woman? If that is the case, MC, then we would be more than happy to refer to you as anything you request. You only need to say the word.

He is dedicated to making sure you’re happy and comfortable here. He and his brothers may be demons, but they aren’t heartless. They were once angels too. He goes through the process with you, if you were shaky or unsure of what to do in the past. If you want HRT, surgery, need a new wardrobe, he and his brothers will be the first to provide. Whatever to keep you happy in your skin.

Mammon

Oh. Honestly speaking, he’ll still love you regardless of what form your body takes. He liked the way you looked, but secretly he can’t wait to see how you’ll look after you transition.

Before we even get to that point though, it takes a lot of hint dropping for him to get it. And even then, he has to go and ask the others what you’re trying to tell him. Of course he gets picked on a little bit for it, but once he figures it out he’s really happy you were comfortable enough to tell him.

Hell, he might get a job just so he can help you be able to afford all the things you’ll need to properly transition. Some of the details make him blush quite a bit, and if you’re uncomfortable with touches or any signs of affection during your process of transitioning, he will politely refrain from making his human uncomfortable.

He’s taking you to Majolish and you are going to get your ENTIRE wardrobe redone. Courtesy of The GREAT Mammon! You should feel grateful that he’s working this hard to make you happy. I mean c’mon, he LOVES you! He can’t wait to love you more after you’ve become the man you always were deep down inside.

Leviathan

He does notice that you act different from other women. Not that he minds it, not at all. His Henry is still the same old Henry. Just a little bit different. He’s a little bit different too, there’s nothing wrong with that. Right?!

It’s when you start preferring to be called Henry as opposed to your birth name, do the cogs start churning in his brain. He would have suspected at first that maybe you just were very good friends with him and loved TSL almost as much as him.

He’s seen a few heart-warming anime about it. Specifically one about a girl becoming a boy, and the struggles he went through while attending school. The title wasn’t too important to him, but now that he had a reference for what you were dealing with, he was a bit happy. He just wanted to wait until the moment was right to bring it up to you. Perhaps his Henry was really a Henry after all!

When the moment comes, he’s proud to say the least. He throws his arms around you happily, and promises to be there by your side every step of the way. He’s not exactly rolling in money, but an Otaku finds a way. The Lord of Shadows is your best friend ever, and he can’t wait to see the before and after pictures of your full transition!

Satan

It started with a book you read with him. He didn’t fully comprehend your situation, but he knew you didn’t act like normal girls. It reminded him of a character in a book he read a few weeks ago. The guy didn’t really act like a girl.

While sweet and thoughtful, this character didn’t hit the nail on the head in some ways. When talking over the book with you, you explained just as much to him. The energy was there, but it was backwards for you. He picked up on it immediately.

So what you’re telling me is, you understand this characters struggle with themselves, and can relate to it. But something about it is backwards? A little smile appears on his face as it fully dawns on him. MC, I think I’ll be able to assist you in any way you need.

With Satan’s wonderful connections across the entire Devildom, it wasn’t long before you were getting some of the best treatment possible. The prices seemed a bit scary, but he assured you everything was being taken care of behind the scenes. If you needed to worry about anything, it would be the tiring, long process to come with transitioning. He’ll be sure it goes relatively smoothly for you, though!

Asmodeus

Oh he gets it immediately. Darling why didn’t you just say so in the first place?

He’s dragging you back to your room, rambling the entire time about how he can’t wait to take you out and go shopping. He puts together a devious little page to gather up donations and the like to support your transitioning. His fans would be HONORED to pitch in, right?

In the mean time, he stops pampering you with makeup and his other routines that you used to tolerate for the sake of being cordial. He still pushes for the nail polish, since gender is simply a social concept and he’s ready to crush it into dust any chance he can get. But it’s not about him, it’s about you.

Soon your room is painted a new color, your dresses and skirts and frilly outfits are tossed out for more appropriate attire for your sex, and he’s taking photos for his Devilgram page to show everyone how beautiful you are, even while going through the long process!

Beelzebub

You and Beel got along fabulously. He seemed astonished that a female was interested in all these manly habits he indulged in. He heard from some of the guys on his team that you were interested in playing Fangol. As evidenced by how you always showed up to his practices and games, no matter if they were home or away.

He figured you were just a really big fan of sports. But then you even started working out with him, and giving him suggestions and tips on how to get even more out of his workouts at the gym. You were really passionate about this.

Let’s not kid ourselves, he probably does not pick up on any of the signs. You have tot ell him, and you have to tell him firmly. You are a man, just like him. When you do tell him, however, he’s eager to help you transition. Imagine having another guy in the house who loves Fangol as much as you do!?

He isn’t much aside from emotional support through the transitions, and he coddles you when you have those bad days. If you want to eat something, he’ll rush to the kitchen and cook you a full meal before you move an inch. You’re allowed to lay in bed today. Let him handle the heavy load of work for you.

Belphegor

Oh wow, look at that. He picked it up almost immediately.

I mean, there’s no way a girl would act the way you do, right? Dress the way you do. Be the way you are. He doesn’t care though, and just wants you to be happy. If that means you transition into a man, then hell, he’s on board with you.

He may be a lazy bastard, but he knows when it’s time to get up and work hard to get something. That was what he was like as an angel, anyways. Working at Hell’s Kitchen is the worst, and you hear him complain about as much, but he smiles and assures you that it’s all for a good reason.

His final gift to you to apologize about the Incident, is money. Now at first glance it seems like something Mammon would do. Probably. In reality though, this is the money that will be going towards your HRT. He doesn’t know if you want to fully transition or not, but if you want that top surgery, he can help pay for that too. He’ll do anything to make sure you’re happy and healthy in your own body.

Diavolo

It really is a house of men, isn’t it?

He’s glad though, truly, that you were comfortable coming to him about it. Don’t bother ever opening your wallet to pay for any therapy, medication, or surgery. As the Prince of the Devildom, he would be more than happy to get you doctors of all sorts to help you. No questions asked!

It might be a bit overwhelming at first, but the news is exciting. If the Prince accepts you so readily, it gives you hope that other demons will as well. Pretty soon you’re going through your processes, and Diavolo couldn’t be happier to see it happening.

You really is a wonderful guy, and he’s glad he’s getting to experience the changes you take in your life. 

Barbatos

To say he didn’t suspect this would be an understatement.

Ever silent and respectful though, he never spoke a word of it. You are probably uncomfortable with people assuming it, even though it’s true. An insecurity that humans seem to deal with, although unfortunate.

However, when the news is broken during a meeting between you, Lucifer, he, and the Prince himself, a smile creeps on his face.

He’s happy to hear that you are so comfortable speaking about this sort of thing. He knows it must be tough, having hidden your true feelings for so long. He prepares a delicious tea with small treats, to celebrate your coming out, and transitioning.

Simeon (and Luke)

Oh dear. God loves you, still. Don’t worry about this. He doesn’t see you as an imperfection.

They assures you constantly that you have their full support, and that will never change. You are not broken, you are not unwanted, and you are not strange. You are a regular trans man in their eyes, and they will defend you on that.

Simeon almost takes on a fatherly role to you, wanting to make sure everything goes as smooth as possible. He probably has done a bit of research in preparations for your transition, and all the nasty little side effects that come with it are worrying him.

However, once it’s all over, Luke and Simeon are glad you came out on top. And my, what a handsome man you make!

Solomon

He figured, but didn’t want to assume. I mean, who the hell is he?

He’s got a few spells for this though, make it quick and painless. One wave of a wand and POOF! Woman no more!

Oh but that’s probably dangerous. The shifty bastard. You would much rather do it the regular way; and not have your insides and outsides shifted around by some crazy sorcerer.

He doesn’t protest much, but that does suck. Hehe. Oh well. You can count on him to support you through it all!

[somniabundant]

For the character thing: Skov :)

Duuuuuuuuude. I’m about to go off

Sexuality headcanon: okay I think that Skov is pan. He just has chill, carefree vibes and I feel like while Proko doesn’t want to label his attraction in a way that he picks something ambiguous, Skov doesn’t want to label his attraction in a way that he’s like ‘everything! Everyone! I am open to possibilities and I do not care what you identify as as long as you are hot!’ And I love that for him.

Gender headcanon: listen. Listen. My guy is ftm trans and I will fight you in an alleyway if you tell me I am wrong. I will stand by this until the day I die I swtg he is trans and it’s beautiful and his boys support him and it’s wonderful and I’m so proud of him (the fact that typing that all out is making me emotional...) Anyway in another timeline I was Skov and therefore this is true, thank you for coming to my Ted talk.

Just kidding, I’m not done yet. Skov is a trans dude, but he’s also pretty chill and very secure in his identity. He knows who he is and really found himself after he joined the pack and their support means a lot to him. Because of this, he’s able to experiment with his style and wear eyeliner n shit and sometimes borrows Proko’s skirts and drives his expensive-af car in an electric blue miniskirt with fishnets like the king he is and I love that for him. He’s out here destroying gender norms, just a dude being hot and wearing a skirt and still being a dude and he’s an icon and I love him. I could keep going for a while, but let’s move on...

A ship I have with said character: ngl I stole this from a thread between @prokopenkokavinsky and @non-mortem-somni-fratrem they showed me the possibilities and I got hooked. Gansey/Skov. Idk why the idea of this is so appealing to me, like before I was just here for shipping him with Swan and K but now I’m like dang him and Gansey, that’s the kind of out of the box thinking I wanna see. Can you imagine?? Gansey just has no idea how to deal with him and he’s blushing all the time because his boyfriend is so hot and confident and he /wishes/ that was him, but at the same time Skov brings it out in him and Gansey is more adventurous when they’re together and it’s wonderful :))

A BROTP I have with said character: okay so like. Totally ship Swan/Skov in a non platonic way, but I totally see them having an epic bromance as well?? Like they just know each other so well and they do SPORTS together and they got that jock bonding going on for them and they’re so bro together the rest of the back just rolls their eyes at how dumb they are. But then at the same time they’re totally in love more than bros (romantic or somewhere that transcends labels) and they cuddle every night and are like absolute soulmates and it’s beautiful.

A NOTP I have with said character: hmmm. I actually had a lot of trouble coming up with one because I feel like he works with everyone, but I’m going to have to go with Blue/Skov. I feel like maybe they hooked up once and it was fine like they had fun, but then afterwards they mutually decides to never do that again because it was kinda weird and they’re still chill with each other, but they don’t mess around or anything, just platonic pals.

A random headcanon: there are so many... I legit don’t know where to start... okay okay a couple days ago @prokopenkokavinsky and @townpunk and I were just going off on a thread about him so I’m just going to list some from there and then a couple other random ones. First off, he has electric blue hair, I’ll fight you on that one too. Also, he def has a sugar addiction like blue sour patch and monster and just candy and energy drinks galore, he’s got that gamer aesthetic but he spends most of his time playing soccer instead of video games, though he and Swan do play Xbox together sometimes. Ngl I’m not sure where this one came from but I feel like he smokes weed?? Don’t ask me more about this I’ve said it before but I know nothing about drugs I literally don’t leave the house I’ve never been to an actual party all of the stuff I write is completely imagined so like I have nothing else to say about this, but he smokes weed and he also lets himself go wild in every way at K’s substance parties and the regular ones. Another one from the thread: he has ADHD and has a bunch of stim toys and the boys carry some around with them at all times to make sure he always has something to keep himself occupied with. One that I just randomly decided on is that he plays electric guitar and like he’s not that good at it, but he likes it cuz it’s loud and he just has fun messing around and half-assing songs and stuff. Also, this is just my thought, but his actual name is Jacek, but in America aka at Aglionby he goes by Blake. Okay I feel like I should cut myself off before I just keep talking forever but yeah those are a couple...

General opinion over said character: I mean I think you already get the gist... but yeah, he’s an icon and I love him and I want us to meld and become the same person, I very much look up to him XD

[zippiestdraws]

Choking Curiosity Ch 16

Michael Myers x ftm reader

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Danny flips through his collection of pictures of you on his camera, picking apart his subject critically.

“This is so not fair.” The ghostface whispers to himself vehemently. “What does Michael see in a guy like you.”

He angrily drops his camera to his lap, not seeing an answer. “Why would he spare you, huh?” Michael’s never spared anyone. His unspoken words hang in the air of the darkroom at the Haddonfield Times office building.

Danny smiles too sweet and too wide.

No matter, you’re simply the collateral that will lead him to Michael, just a loose end to cut when you’ve done your job.

*** You bleached the floors until the house reeked, throwing the windows open and crossing your fingers for a stiff breeze to blow through. You’ve been avoiding Michael in your own home, which is steadily growing more aggravating because he sure isn’t avoiding you.

You snort. The bleach smell must have irritated him, because it looks like he finally cleared out of the house today. You don’t care whether or not Laurie catches him anymore, you’re still pissed about what he pulled the other day. Like all the shit that happened between you didn’t matter.

Ironically, you’ve been giving him the silent treatment and he doesn’t seem happy with that at all. He’s become an insistent pest in response, starting to pettily bully you just to get a reaction, like holding things out of your reach or blocking doorways, and at one point, even barging into the bathroom to flush the toilet while you were in the shower.

Taking your post at the deserted checkout counter with Quentin, you pick up one of the fresh papers that caught your eye while you make idle chatter.

HALLOWEEN CANCELLED?! In big block letters across the town tabloid ‘The Fielder’.

“Dang, I hope not, Halloween is one of my favorite holidays.” You comment, flashing the front page to Quentin.

“I wouldn’t worry”, he scoffs. “They don’t cancel trick or treating for anything around here.” He grimaces briefly, knowing he really means anything. “Not that I would mind though.”

“You don’t like Halloween?”

“Eh, I’m not a fan of horror movies.” He stares into the distance as you put the paper back. “They make it hard to sleep.”

Usually you would rib your old friends for being scaredy-cats with your favorite flicks, but it doesn’t feel right in this anymore.

“Oh, by the way, Dwight’s back.”

“Really? That’s cool, I feel like I haven’t seen him in forever.” It would be nice to get together with him as a friend again, you got along well with everyone he introduced you to.

You make a mental note to try harder to develop healthy friendships with people who aren’t mass murderers.

***

It’s autumn, so the regular cafe that you meet up with Laurie smells more strongly of pumpkin pie than their usual coffee. This time you see Jed hovering over Laurie’s papers spread over the table and it stops you in your tracks. Something about him puts you on edge, but when he spots you his smile holds no venom this time as he waves you over emphatically.

“Hey there, doll, what took ya so long?” Jed bumps shoulders with you as you take a seat warily.

You chance a look up at Laurie as you stumble over telling him you just got off work. She looks as serious as she usually is when you talk about Michael, but you think you catch her left eye twitch in annoyance.

“Laurie’s helped me gather the facts, and connecting what we know gives us a pretty strong case” He looks over his notebook with the back of his pencil in his mouth for a beat and then smiles. “But, we’re going to need something undeniable if you hope to convince this town’s deadbeat police department.”

You gesture to the camera he seems to bring with him everywhere with a nod.

“You want a picture-”

“Ha! More than that, ba-” Laurie slams her empty coffee cup on the table loud enough to make him look at her.

“He wants a picture with his mask off.”

You and Laurie stare at each other, both of you knowing that something like that would be impossible. Jed talks on, either oblivious or ignoring the tension.”

“He’s come back to the house before, so it shouldn’t be hard. All we have to do is wait for the next time.”

“And how are we supposed to get his mask off? And on top of that, you won’t be around all the time to snap a picture” You ask, irritated at his disregard for the fact that you live there.

“Well we could work that out, I mean, you’ve survived an encounter with him before so-”

“You plan to use (Y/n) as bait?” You’re glad you aren’t on the other side of Laurie’s glare, but Jed doesn’t flinch.

“He seems really insistent on doing it alone, but really (Y/n) I was hoping you’d let me stick around- It’s for your own safety, you know~.”

You shake your head instinctively. You don’t trust Jed, but you have been rethinking your living situation.

Jed continues to lay it on thick, so you excuse yourself and tell Laurie you’ll call her later if you think of anything and ignore the pointed stare you get from him.

***

You chose the hard way, but Danny didn’t mind. He hid unnoticed, shadows on the black of his costume while you were exposed by the light of the house through uncurtained windows.

He’s seen Michael in the house, it’s only expected you’d deny him entry when you came to share your little lies at the coffee shop. He can imagine that Laurie would sniff you out as a rat if he wasn’t already keeping her busy.

It’s funny really, he thinks. How you play so innocent with everyone, but you oh so weren’t. Danny plays with the idea in his mind, what would you look like if everyone were to find out, hmm?

Oooh, and what would you do to keep that little secret from getting out?~

[writing-hound]

Tiniest glint of Hope:

Reading: Daddy!Protective!Pansexual!Hamish Duke X Little!Trans!Reader (FTM)

Warnings: Hard/Soft Core Fluff | Profanity | Soft Violence | Slurs (Fag, Queer, Etc.) |

Summary: Hamish and Y/N Have never met before in their life. Maybe in class, but that doesn't really count considering he is your professor. You liked Professor Duke in a way that isn't appropriate for school. But who's to judge you? As the weeks went by, A few male students have been picking on you; they were hearing rumors that you were a girl and now wanting to be a guy. What happens when they get too physical?

Word Count: 2443 words

Abbreviations: Y/N = Your Name | Y/E/C = Your Eye Color | E/C Eye Color | Y/L/N = Your Last Name

A/N: If you want more content, comment below! I love to hear from you guys!! I might make another part to this, so watch out for it in the near future!!

I have been in this class for a while now. This was Ethics, one of the classes I just got signed up for because I had some free room in my schedule. And boy was it the best decision of my life. The only problem was that there were a couple of boys in the class who liked to harass me. One time they even tried lifting up my shirt to see if I had tits. Which I don't, since my parents saved up for me to have top surgery.

Best day of my life.

Now, I sit in Ethics, listening to Professor Duke talk about things I don't really understand, but I jot down the notes anyways. When The professor turned around to write something on the white-board, something was thrown at me. It hit me on the left side of my head and I gave a very low, very quiet growl out of reaction.

What was their problem? I thought as I picked up the waded piece of paper and read it.

Dear Loser, You will never be a guy. Signed, real guys.

I rolled my eyes and crumpled it up again, glaring at the small group of boys that are a few tables away. That made them all laugh.

"Ms.- er, Mr. Y/L/N? Something you want to share with the class?" Professor Duke asked, his face showing mild curiosity and concern. I shook my head. "No," I said in a quiet voice. I never liked being called on, especially in class.

Professor Duke gave a shrug, and resumed his lecture. I sulked in my seat until the bell rang for class to be over. As soon as it did, I was up and out of my seat and heading for the door. When I reached the hallway, I looked around to see if anyone was there.

Coast being clear, I leaned against the wall for physical and emotional support. I wanted to cry. It was too much. The paper was still clutched in my shaking hand as I thought about it. And the more I thought about it, the more angrier and pissed off I got.

Suddenly, hands were on me. Boisterous laughter carried through the halls as I was dragged into the boys bathroom and shoved up against one of the walls. Whoever it was had ahold of my shirt and my glasses were knocked off, making the figures fuzzy.

But I can only imagine who it could be, based on drowning in cheap cologne and testosterone. I tried to scream, but a hand was over my mouth.

"Scream and you'll get hurt," One said gruffly.

"Hey, boys, shall we see if this 'man' has tits?" The one holding me asked the others. I began to cry as I tried to kick at my captor. I bit the boys' hand, and he gave a yelp as he drew it back out of reaction. This gave me enough time to give out a scream before the boy popped me in the face with his palm. When he did that, I felt my nose bleed, it running down my 'Doctor Who' shirt. By this time I was hyperventilating, my lungs refusing to bring in air.

I needed my inhaler.

"What did I fucking tell you, you fag?" the boy hissed in my ear. "Fucking queers thinking they can do whatever they want, and whoever they want-" The boy raised his fist this time, intending on hitting me, but was stopped as the bathroom door opened. I didn't see anything except a blurry figure, but the voice sounded so familiar.

"What's going on in here, boys?" Professor Duke asked. "I really hope you're not picking on Y/N."

The boy holding me dropped me real fast. "No, we were just showing this fa- I mean, we were talking to Y/N ," He said. I took a deep breath as they backed away and past the Professor.

As they left the bathroom, Professor Duke rushed over to me where I was heavily leaning on the wall trying to bring air into my lungs. I fumbled for my backpack, trying to get my inhaler out, but my hands were shaking too hard for me to grab ahold of anything. My shallow breaths quickened as I tried to breath, fear taking hold of me and making my breathing worse.

I'm gonna die.

Professor Duke's hands found mine as he looked at me. "Hey, it's okay," He said quietly, taking my bag and sifting through it to find my inhaler. Once he found it he helped me use it, taking two deep breaths.

"T-thank you, Professor D-Duke," I stuttered out, my heart beginning to stop racing in panic. The professor gave a shrug. "It was nothing," He said, giving a sweet smile. "Did you need me to walk you to. . . somewhere?" He asked.

"No, i-it's fine-" I cut myself off as I heard the bathroom door open. I jumped at the sudden noise, flinching. Professor Duke noticed and faced the person who was there, standing in front of me protectively.

"Oh, hey Hamish," The person said. He was tall, had dark, short hair, and had that goofy aura around him. Other than that, he was a blur without my glasses. This person obviously knew him well enough to be on a first name basis.

What if he's gay? The thought came fully formed in my head, and I pondered it.

"Hey, Randall," Professor Duke said, which I almost missed. "What are you doing in the bathroom?" Randall asked. "Isn't it a bit too, unsavvy for your taste?" He joked.

Obviously Randall hadn't seen me yet, considering how small I am compared to Professor Duke. "Um, I was helping out Y/N. Some guys took her- I mean, them in here to do... I don't know what," He replied, stepping out of the way so this Randall person could see me. Randall's eyes widened as they saw me.

"Dude, you gotta wash your face," Randall said, stating the obvious.

"Thanks, Sherlock," I mumbled sarcastically. "Anyone seen my glasses? They were knocked off and I can't really see without them," I asked the two. Both guys started to look. Professor Duke found them outside of the bathroom on the ground. "Here," he said gently, holding them up for me to take the gold blurry shape I knew was my glasses. My glasses looked like those ones my grandparents wore, and when I saw them in gold, I had to take them. I didn't care how I looked, I loved them that much.

Finally being able to see, I looked at both my Professor and his friend Randall. Randall was kind of cute, in that goofy, puppy sort of way.

I turned around and began to clean myself up. I first did my nose, which didn't take long, and then I started to wipe the blood off of my shirt.

"You guys don't have to be here," I said, not looking at them, but through the mirror. "Thank you for coming to my aide, Profe-" I was cut off by Professor Duke. "Please, call me Hamish," he said.

"Okay, Hamish, thanks for coming to my aide, but you don't have to be here puppy guarding me." I finished, not looking up and focusing on my shirt.

Hamish and Randall both gave a laugh. Once it had died down, Randall said, "Let Ham take you home, it will be much safer for you,"

Hamish gave Randall a look of 'why did you do that?' and looked back at me. I could have sworn there was a glitter off hope in his eyes.

I gave it some thought. I want him to walk me home, but at the same time it would be a big waste of time for him...

"Ah, what the hell," I finally said. "You can walk me home, I guess," I almost didn't catch the smirk that Randall gave Hamish, and in return, Hamish's glare. I gave it no thought as I grabbed my bag, tossing my inhaler into it, and walked out of the bathroom with both boys in tow behind me.

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On the walk to my housing, things were quiet.

"If you don't want to walk me home, I get it, you can leave," I said, anxious thoughts making me think I am a waste of time. Hamish stopped, causing me to stop as well. I looked over at him.

"Hey, I want to do this. If I didn't, trust me, you'll know," Hamish said. We continued walking in silence, until this time, he broke it.

"Do you always get bullied like that?" Hamish asked.

"Yeah, most times though it's notes, rude comments, or drawings. It was never like that, though." I responded. "That was a first," I joked uneasily.

"What kind of notes? Like the one today you were reading in class?" He asked, this time there was a hint of a growl. Weird.

"Yeah, I still have it for some reason-" I pulled out the wade of paper and handed it to Hamish, our hands brushing for a moment. He read it and as he did, his hands curled into fists. "Fucking idiots," he seemed to growl.

I saw his eyes flash a light blue, then back to his regular blue-grey. I think I'm smoking too much weed, I thought as I quickly looked away. "How long has this been going on?" Hamish asked, crumpling the paper in his fists.

"For a few weeks now. It was whenever those morons heard that I had gotten top surgery-" I cut myself off. "I don't think you really want to hear about it," I mumbled, looking away and picking up my pace.

Hamish easily caught up to me, his long legs eating up the distance fairly easy. "No, I asked. What's 'top surgery'?" He asked, genuinely curious.

"Well, uh, top surgery is when a, um, girl like myself doesn't want breasts anymore-" I gave a sigh. "I'm bad at explaining things," I said. "It's like... reconstructing your chest to accommodate for what you want," I said, looking down at my shoes.

"I think I got it," Hamish said. "You don't want to be a girl anymore, right?" He asked. I gave him a nod. "Yeah. It never really felt right," I said, giving a smile. "I don't really care what people call me really, if they knew me as a girl before, and they slip up and call me 'her' or 'she', I wouldn't care. It's just how people disrespect me, like those boys, that bothers me," I said.

Hamish looked at me with soft eyes. "I promise that it will never happen again," I scoffed. "What will you do? Walk me everywhere?" I asked, jokingly. "I don't think that would be wise, considering that you are a teacher and all, kids will start talking,"

"Let them talk then," Hamish said, strolling to a stop. I stopped in front of him. "Why do you care so much about me anyways?"

Hamish seemed torn in telling me something. He finally gave a sigh, opening his mouth. "Well," He started slowly. "What if-" He cut himself off and rethought what he was gonna say. "What if I liked you?"

"Are we speaking hypothetically? Or reality?" I asked. "Cause I highly doubt reality," I scoffed. Hamish didn't laugh. "Oh, you're actually serious-" I sat down on a nearby picnic table, looking at the guy in front of me. "What makes you like me? Hypothetically speaking, of course," I added.

"Well," Hamish said, sitting beside me on the picnic table. "I like your quirkiness," he said. "I also like that you are a lover and put people before yourself," I couldn't help but laugh. "Yeah?" I asked, looking at the blond boy sitting beside me.

Hamish gave a nod. "Yeah," he said, looking back at me. "You don't mind that I am trans?" I asked him, our faces inches away from each other.

"No," He whispered just as he closed the gap and kissed me. I was stunned for a minute, thinking that this might be just a dream and I'll wake up. Hamish seemed to notice my hesitance and began to pull away. I quickly pulled him closer and kissed him back. Hamish smiled and we moved our lips in sync with each other. After a moment, we pulled apart.

"Where did that come from?" I asked, not looking at Hamish. He didn't say anything as we both sat there, not knowing what to say, and if we did, not knowing how to say it.

"Would you like to go on a date with me?" Hamish asked. "Like, go out to dinner or get a drink?"

I looked at him with a smile. "Sure, why the fuck not, right?" I said, laughing. We both got up and continued to walk to my place. Halfway there, somehow, we ended up holding hands. As we reached the door, Hamish and I stopped. He faced me as I stood there, not wanting to go inside alone.

"Well, I guess this is goodbye," Hamish murmured softly. I shifted my weight from my right foot to my left awkwardly. "Yeah, I guess so," I said, looking down at my shoes once more.

I felt fingers lift my chin up so I could look Hamish in the eyes. "I also guess this is goodnight," He whispered. I only gave a nod, unable to trust my voice. Hamish bent down and placed his lips on mine softly. My breath hitched as he bit my bottom lip.

I stood there, with my Ethics professor, kissing him goodnight. What a wild thing to think about, I thought as I kissed him back. Pulling away, I looked into his blue-grey eyes as he looked into my Y/E/C eyes.

"I'll, uh, see you tomorrow, Hamish," I said, backing up and running into the wall with my back. I dug through my pocket and got out my keys. I swiftly got them in and unlocked the door while Hamish stood there watching with an amused look. I walked inside, but turned around and gave him a smile.

"Good night, Y/N," Hamish said in response as I looked at him. He turned and walked away, so I closed my door. I hit my back against it, sliding down the grain of the wood as I thought about today's events. Did I really kiss Hamish? I asked myself, touching my lips with the tips of my fingers.

I gave a squeal in delight as I sat there.

I kissed Hamish Duke.

It finally dawned on me that he might actually feel the same way as I feel about him.

[kissimirrit]

Sorry if this is weird but! I noticed you really like seeing Killua as intersex, and it got me curious about different types of intersex conditions. How do you see Killua? And would it be okay if I wrote a fic about him being intersex, or would that be crossing a boundary as a non-intersex person?

omg omg omg omg omg omg omg this is the best day of my life!! yes u can write about intersex characters omg i would be HONORED!! (and i would love to proofread or sensitivity read it or whatever it is so i can correct mistakes about variations if there are any!)

so forewarning: i’m only one intersex person. i do not speak for every other intersex person in existence. what i take offense to or am not bothered by– other intersex people may feel differently. we are not a monolith or a hivemind.

OK !!!!!!!!!! WITH THAT OUT OF THE WAY (i’m very excited to talk about this :D)

there are many many intersex variations the body can take! and many ways you can interpret killua as intersex!!!!!! i personally like to be self-indulgent and see him as having a type of androgen insensitivty syndome like myself. (CAIS 46,xy) i can also easily imagine him with klinefelter’s or another variation with low androgens and/or high estrogen, but that’s my take! there are so many different variations of intersex!

 intersex variations can occur in many ways, affecting primary (genitals), secondary (breasts/skeletal/skin/etc.), hormonal, and chromosomal aspects of the body.

i’m most familiar with androgen insensitivity syndromes (mild, partial, complete, ...etc?) because that’s what i have, but i have a better understanding of other intersex variations than what dyadic people would have because, y’know, i’m intersex lol.

but first here are some things you should NOT do:

do not: write him as a “hermaphrodite” or really use that term at all. it’s a slur against us. there is no case in recorded human history of a person having both working sets of genitals or reproductive organs. that does not exist and if i see it, i will hit someone. this is fetish bullshit.

do not: make up your own intersex variation. this happens all the time and a majority of the time it’s fetishy and ostracizing. it spreads misinformation about intersex people and our bodies.

do not: imply that someone can become intersex/medically intersex by transitioning or going on hrt. you cannot become intersex, it is something you are born as. your intersex variation can make itself apparent later in life, like in the case of PCOS or other hormonally-based variations, but it does not appear out of nowhere or because of medical intervention. it’s something that was always there.

do not: just write about how an intersex character hates their “condition” (a lot of us dislike viewing our bodies as a “condition” or as something that needs to be fixed. because for most of us, it doesn’t. our existence isn’t a condition.) and wants to be “normal”. this is ostracizing for many of us.

do not: conflate being trans/nb with being intersex, or imply someone can be “cis nonbinary” because they’re intersex. this reason, and also #2, is why i personally don’t like stevonnie from SU. yeah they were the first intersex character i was introduced to in media and i’m thankful for that... but it’s very clear they were sorta intended to be “physically nonbinary” which.... :/ doesn’t sit right with me. it’s very clear that their being intersex was meant to validate the fact they’re nonbinary. (a lot of other intersex people i’ve met are sorta split 50/50 on stevonnie being good representation, we all feel differently about this.)

do not: focus on our junk. there are a lot of intersex variations that do not affect our junk at all. i will strangle you.

do not: use an intersex character as a soapbox for your own views regarding intersex people and whether or not they should be excluded from certain spaces. these are intracommunity issues and concerns, not at all a place for dyadic people to insert themselves and their beliefs.

do not: have the intersex character glorify “corrective” surgery and choose to have it. some intersex people end up going this route, but many of us are against it and again, this is not for dyadic people to insert themselves in. (if a TRANS intersex person ends up having a “corrective” surgery so they can align themselves more with their identified gender, this is 100% completely different and totally ok.) (it’s also ok if an intersex person chooses to get surgery to reconstruct their bodies after undergoing a “corrective” surgery in infancy that they did not choose.)

here are some things i encourage you do:

please: name a specific intersex variation! if you’re writing a character as having CAIS– please mention it, or make it obvious! talk about how the character lacks androgen receptors! if you don’t want to mention a specific variation because you feel like it would break immersion, then make it somewhat clear or follow a pattern for a specific intersex variation! a good example for this is luca from astra lost in space: his specific intersex variation isn’t mentioned, but it’s very obvious he’s written as having klinefelter’s/47,xxy!

please: write about how an intersex character loves themself! too many intersex people have to read about how characters like us hate themselves for how they’re born, and how they deal with the dysphoria surrounding their variation. to see a character who has already dealt with this in the past and has already moved onto the point of loving themselves is a breath of fresh air!! you’re allowed to write about the internal struggles or dysphoria an intersex character deals with, a lot of intersex (and even trans! we have many parallels) people will relate to it, but 90% of the small amount of representation we have already deals with this. use your discretion.

please: if the character is also trans/nb, write about how being intersex can intersect with this! do your research!! for example, a CAIS FtM person (me lol rip it sucks) cannot go on testosterone because it is immediately converted back into estrogen due to a lack of androgen receptors. how does a character cope with this? (i “detransitioned” but other cais ftm guys find other ways to deal with it)

please: talk to actual intersex people! a lot of us are happy to answer genuine and thoughtful questions. you can also go to reddit r/ask_intersex to ask questions if you feel confused about something and can’t find answers online, or see things that seem to conflict with one another. i’m frequently on the ask_intersex and the regular intersex reddit making posts or answering questions. (don’t ask “how do i write intersex characters?”, just listen to us and ask specific questions if you need certain things answered.)

things to keep in mind:

for a lot of intersex people, depending on our variation, it can affect how to navigate gender identity. for some of us, we feel like the binary of “cis” or “trans/nb” doesn’t really fit/apply to us, because we feel isolated identifying between this. this isn’t the case for every intersex person, but for me and many others– this is how we feel. gender identity when being intersex can be complicated, and sometimes some of us just choose to identify as intersex and nothing else.

understand that all intersex people are different, and we all have different experiences and opinions! but as a dyadic person, please understand that sometimes it’s not your place to insert yourself in certain intracommunity discussions (like whether or not PCOS, hypospadias, or just gynecomastia are intersex variations. a lot of us recognize them as such, and leave the door open for them if they choose to identify as intersex– and those with these listed variations may feel otherwise about themselves and not identify as intersex. these are intracommunity discussions.)

many intersex people take HRT. it’s not a trans-only thing. an intersex man with a mild or partial androgen insensitivity syndrome might take testosterone, or an intersex woman might need to take estrogen because she can’t produce any. there’s a variety of reasons.

[callsignbaphomet]

So I’m just gonna get right to the point. I love playing Skyrim, I love playing as my OCs in Skyrim. I especially love modding the living heck out of this game while playing as my OCs and pretty much living vicariously through them.

However, as much as I love this game IT IS SEVERELY LACKING IN LGBTQ+ CONTENT AND THE OPTION TO MARRY SOME CHARACTERS OF THE SAME GENDER AND ONE INSTANCE OF AN MLM COUPLE THROUGH A LETTER BECAUSE THEY’RE BOTH DEAD AF IN THE DRAGONBORN DLC IS NOT ENOUGH FOR MY QUEER ASS!

So what to do? Mods! It’s 2020 and a lot more people are openly accepting and open-minded, right? So finding LGBTQ+ mods should be a lot easier, right? Eh.........no. I’ve spent several days trying to find mods to make my Skyrim playthrough as queer as I possibly can make it, specifically for my High Elf OC who is trans (FtM), very effeminate, has a none muscular body and build and very gay. I think now, after several days of research, tutorials, testing and an endless amount of headaches I think I have the mods to make my play through true to how I imagine and have written this character as.

Bare with me for a few seconds, I promise I’ll get to the point and this is worth reading. I’m trying to get as much information in this as possible.

Disclaimer:

This mod list is only for the PC version of the game. Look, I’m super, super sorry but basically over 95% of all these mods are exclusively found online and even if they ARE on beth.net they aren’t used at full capacity from what I understand. Believe me, as a mainly console player, it breaks my heart that I can’t include the consoles for this list.

I won’t be linking to just Nexus. I’ve found a bunch of mods outside of the Nexus that are reliable.

I’ll only be working with the Special Edition version of the game. It’s the one I have and am playing on.

I will NOT be covering female body replacers. At freakin’ all. There are literal dozens of mods covering this. There will only be ONE and it is for very specific reasons only.

In my little venture into finding these mods I came across a lot of homophobic, transphobic and downright disgusting comments within the Nexus. I also found out a lot of queer mod authors were driven out of the Nexus because of said homophobic people. This is what happened to Vector and also why SavrenX refuses to upload anything other than weapon, item retextures to the Nexus. Nexus users and community overall is very homophobic and toxic so I’m very sorry if you see or read something upsetting. I advice you avoid the comments (known as posts on Nexus) tab as to avoid seeing some vile shit. Ignore them and don’t engage them ffs, they just want a reaction out of you. There’s no correcting these assholes much less educating them. They ain’t worth your time. Just report and move on.

The majority of the mods linked in this post have been tried by me, if I haven’t tried them out I’ll say so. Again, I’m learning as I go along and believe me this hasn’t been an easy task to find all of these working mods.

No, I won’t be searching or uploading any ports, texture, mesh or mod edits I myself have done. I ain’t confident in how well I may have or not have edited the mods and more importantly that’s as bad as uploading art that wasn’t done by you. Sadly, you’ll have to do these changes yourself. I’ll try my best to link tutorials. Also don’t go and harass the authors for a port or an update ffs.

I’ll most likely be editing this list as I learn more.

Yes, I will leave links from adult sites. A lot of these sites pretty much force you to sign up in order for you to download their content. It’s fine, just make some random account and you’ll instantly gain access to the mods. Just know there’ll be nsfw images, gifs and videos everywhere in these sites.

While I will be referring to male characters a lot of these if not all can also cater to non-binary characters too!

No, I will not be covering sex mods. I have no intention of adding them to any of my load orders and I really don’t care to. You’re on your own for that category. Try Lover’s Lab.

*Body Mods/Replacers/Races:

Schlongs of Skyrim (aka SOS). Not the only choice out there but the most current and fully working one. Pretty much mandatory for a bunch of mods so might as well have it, ya know?

Tempered Skins for Males. Was known as Better Males; pairs up beautifully with SOS. Super amazing work if you ask me.

Shape Atlas for Men (aka SAM). This is literally the god king of all male body replacers. Want a twunk? This mod will do it. Want a regular Joe? This can do it. Want a bear of a man running around in Skyrim? Yeah, girl, this can do it. Ever since I discovered it I have been obsessed with it! HOWEVER, the full working mod is only available for Old Skyrim, maybe for Legendary Edition but I’m not sure. Vector said he had plans to port the full working mod to Special Edition but confessed he was having issues with the scripts. Also afaik Vector’s last updates on working on the mod were back in late 2016 so I think it’s safe to say this beautiful mod will never be seen running on SSE. Sadly Vector just up and left the modding scene somewhere in 2018. It none of our business but from what I read he faced a lot of homophobic harassment from people not liking his body mod or giving him shit because he didn’t want to make a female body mod. He even faced harassment from our very own community.

Not all’s lost though. Some of the amazing modders in Vector’s site have made a working version for SSE.

SAM Light, SAM Morphs for RaceMenu, SAM SE Vanilla Armor Refit, SAM High Poly Conversion, SAM Light Texture Add-on, High Poly Head

The Ultra Femme. Title should be super self-explanatory. Super good if your character is really femme or non-binary or trans. I haven’t tried out this body myself and I’m not entirely sure whether this is compatible with SE or not. RefurbMadness has a lot of mods hosted in her site and still has some in Nexus that are being hosted by the site’s Care Taker. I’m actually gonna link a few later. I honestly suggest going through her site and reading up everything. She’s pretty clear when it comes to instructions, the only problem is she’s not exactly clear on whether her mods are compatible with SE or not. Maybe it’s written somewhere in there, I’m still new to modding and need very clear descriptions (you kinda gotta talk to me like I’m 5 when it comes to mods). I need to check more of her content and test a bunch of things. She also has armor and clothing mods.

Milkdrinker Male Texture and Slim Male Body for SoS (<3<3<3). Both by the same mod author. Sadly only available for Old Skyrim but the only reason why I linked it is because both mods are super easy to convert to use for SSE. Sweetie, if I managed to do it, you can do it too. Watch this, or this or this or try to Google it and see what comes up. Personally I tried the Slim Male Body and it was pretty good. Unfortunately you’d have to refit all the armors to fit either body yourself.

Transgender Race and NPCS SSE. Like I said before I wasn’t going to link or talk about any female body replacers except for one. This one! Look, there are a few out there but they’re extremely transmisogynistic and fetishistic and use a lot of outdated and transphobic language plus they’re mostly sex mods so I will abso-freaking-lutely NOT be linking them. Anyway, the people behind this port are back to working on this mod and have plans for adding transgender men. As of now the mod only has transgender women. They can’t add more genders due to the engine limitations and FYI they used “race” in the title because this isn’t a body mod, it’s actually a race. This is one of the few mods that won’t play well with SoS.

There IS one more body or better said, race, I tried but I really didn’t like it. Mod worked as it was advertised but--well, whatever, it’s for personal reasons that I didn’t like it and it depended way too much on a lot of more mods and it bloated up my LO something fierce so for that reason I ain’t gonna link it. Mod’s called Femboy if you wanna give it a try yourself.

*Extras (edits, armors, clothes and more):

Enhanced Character Edit SE. Tl;dr this is like RaceMenu but on steroids. It offers way more sliders and because of this it has fantastic potential to mold your character’s body to your personal liking. I used this instead of RM for my High Elf I mentioned earlier. He has a more “delicate” frame and is much thinner than my other OCs and this mod did exactly what I’ve been trying to achieve for a very long time now. Works like a charm.

SSE Luscious Locks for All - Unisex KS Hair. Makes it so that male characters can use all the hair options that comes with KS Hairdos SSE. Guys with long hair! Yummy! <3

Oooooooorrrrrrr you can just install ApachiiSkyHair SSE which has a bunch of long hair options for men to look fabulously yummy! This is the one I’m using.

Femfeet Redesigned SSE Port For Everyone. Look, it’s a foot texture mod, that’s it. Works with Better Males aka Tempered Skins and SoS, so yes, your guys will have pretty feet. Load this AFTER you body mod of choice.

Apachii Divine Elegance Store. This store has so much to offer. Really beautiful clothes and armors, exceptional jewelry, wonderful accessories aaaaaand your male character can also use the nails that are offered by the mod. So if you want your male character to have some stunning and colorful manicures done this mod offers it. They also offer actual claws that also comes in different colors so you can have both styles. Look, imo this is a must for femme male and enby characters. Your guys are going to look beautiful!

Immersive Jewelry - Earring for Male Characters. This enables Immersive Jewelry earrings to be wearable and visible on male characters.

Light Elven Armor for Men, Light Glass Armor for Men, Light Daedric Armor for Men. Tired of women being the only ones to get skimpy outfits? Ja, me too! Here’s some of the armor mods RefurbMadness ported to SSE before she left Nexus. There’s more available for Old Skyrim but you’ll need to convert them over to SSE yourself.

Slof’s Lair. Slof has a collection of skimpy armors, some accessories and even modern clothes (if that’s your thing). They have a link to their Nexus profile on their page but instead of adding all the links I just figured to leave the link to their site so you can check everything they have to offer. I haven’t tried any of Slof’s mods myself though I’m super interested in the Just For Men collection of mods and the Goth Shop (chill, it’s mostly Tera armors without the need to download that massive Tera mod).

Tera Armors Collection - Special Edition. And here’s that massive mod I previously mentioned but it’s actually a really good one. I’ve tested this out on both pc and Xbox One and it looks gorgeous on both!

The Well Dressed Mage. Not exactly skimpy but kind of revealing. Idk, these look lovely af and I wanna try them on my Altmer. Maybe someone else will want to try these too.

Modular Bandoliers and Pauldrons for Males. Pretty simple and to the point. Haven’t tried it since it wouldn’t go with my elf’s more refined bitchy tastes.

Bad Dog’s Skimpy Clothes SE. Some skimpy outfits for guys that were converted over to SE apparently not too long ago.

Bodyslide and Outfit Studio. So none of the stuff listed above is to your liking. That’s where this comes in. Thing is you actually CAN convert female armors and clothes for male use. So download the armors and clothes you wanna use and throw them and the body meshes you use into Outfit Studio. I myself am still learning how to go about doing this and the tutorials out there are kinda hard to come by. Try this video. I followed it and managed to convert a female outfit to fit on a male body I was using. Still need a lot of practice though but am working on it.

As far as makeup goes you can edit the colors of your character’s eyeshadow, eyeliner, cheeks and lips but with ECE or RaceMenu you can edit the colors further. May need to do some extra hard tweaking some choices though, not gonna lie. If I find a much better option I’ll post it.

I’m currently trying to find how the heck to get male characters to wear heels or if there’s a mod that has it. Like, that’s the last thing I need to make clothes complete. I’ll get back to this when I find it.

*Animations:

FNIS PCEA2 - Player Exclusive Animations (Dynamic) SE. So you got your character, you’ve dressed them and done up their hair and all that and to this point it’s all come together perfectly...until your femme male/enby character or your butch female/enby character starts walking and standing idly by and the poses and animations are completely and utterly wrong. Why is he walking like an angry gorilla? Why is she walking like a Victoria’s Secret model down the walkway? Can you switch their animations?

YES!!!

PCEA2--and yes, you will need FNIS to get this working--allows you to make animation changes to only your character. You can even add and/or remove which animation packs you want your character to use! I’ve just barely begun testing this mod as well as adding some specific packs for my Altmer and the pretty female idles works like a charm for him. I downloaded FNIS Sexy Move SE to try this out on him and see if it works but according to Fore it should work as long as you installed everything correctly and ticked the appropriate box to activate the animation pack you want. I’m not entirely sure if you can customize the choices given by each animation pack, probably something as simple as deleting the animations you don’t want and leaving the one you do want. I’ll have to test this further.

*Gameplay and Voices:

Simply Gay Letters. Simple and sweet little mod that adds some letters in certain places all over Skyrim tying certain NPCs to other NPCs. The hinted at couples are all the mod author’s headcanons so if that bothers you I suggest moving on.

Queering Skyrim - Blueflower Necklace. Basically it stops female NPCs from showing interest in your male character when wearing an amulet of Mara. Queering Skyrim - Lavender Menace Necklace does the exact same thing but for female characters.

Same Sex Perks - A Lover’s Insight - Agent of Dibella - Allure. Y’all remember Confirmed Bachelor from New Vegas? Remember how no Beth game has put it in their games again but are totally adding some lazy attempts to include us LGBTQ+ folks? The author has a pretty clear and easy to understand description of the mod in the page. There’s also Gay Insight - A Lover’s Insight Tweak which does the same as the other one but much simpler. I guess it’s up to you and your tastes when it comes to which one to use. I myself am using Same Sex Perks since it adds other perks.

Player Voicesets for SSE - Custom Voice Version. I downloaded this but I haven’t installed it yet. If I understood correctly this lets you change your character’s voice to any of the in game voices. My advice? Go into the page and read everything.

PC Head Tracking and Voice Type SE. The reason I haven’t installed the previous mod is because I have THIS one installed because of the head tracking but it also comes with an added voice feature so this might clash with the other one. I still need to test whether they do the same thing or not.

Skyrim - Player Re-Voiced Series. CaseyTheVA was kind enough to make a bunch of voices for your character. Just your character. I’ve tested these on Xbox and they are legit really freakin’ good! They seem to have added a lot more since the last time I checked. Unfortunately these are only available on beth.net or for Old Skyrim on the Nexus. You could just download them from the game’s mod page and remove the files and upload them back into the game using whatever mod manager you use. I did this with Cheat Room. Or you can port them yourself from Nexus. Honestly the quality alone is worth all the trouble.

[silly-litttle-writer]

Let's have a talk guys 👌

So I've recently started rewatching Danny Phantom and I adore that show. I know about the FTM theory where Danny was actually born female but is a trans boy and I honestly really like that theory. I want to believe it's true even though there's a 99.9% chance it will never be and that he's simply a regular cis boy and there's nothing wrong with that, I still adore the show either way. The reason why I believe the theory is because of the simply fact is that it gives me hope, that a small meekly trans boy such as myself can be something better. If Danny was a trans boy then he is seen as simply a boy (at least most of the time except for the occasional sass from Paulina but that's probably her being a bitch), that he's not afraid to tell people and proudly that he's a man. It gives me hope that I can do something greater than I ever could imagine. I mean come on he's so confident and cool in his ghost form and he's seems so much happier. It gives me hope that one day I can be that confident and satisfied with how I look and who I am as an individual. I know it's stupid but it gives me hope that maybe I'm not just some small nerdy trans boy.

[jamieisaac-blog1]

My not so easy but not so terrible coming out story...

I would imagine the amount of Trans individuals who have un- supportive parents/family members is over half of the Trans community. Some may choose to stay at home and fight with their parents that this is who they truly are, some might leave home and never look back… and some… may not have a choice. They might be kicked out of their homes and expected to fend for themselves to find food, shelter, hygiene facilities/products and a stable source of income… that my friends, was my experience about 2 months after I came out to my parents as Trans… Now, it wasn’t as bad as you could probably imagine. Unfortunately for some LGBTQ+ it can be way worse. Luckily for me, it wasn’t all horrible. I laughed a little, I cried a little at times but I made some awesome friends who I shared memories with that I’ll never forget. So basically how this all started was I came out to my mom as FTM Transgender on June 26th, 2016. At first she seemed okay with it, in fact she set me up at appointment with a therapist that works with LGBTQ+ to help me on my way to Transition. Only a about a week later she started questioning me if I was really Trans. She said she did some research and she said I didn’t fit the “criteria” to be Trans which is total BS. She also made me watch a YouTube video about other Trans males getting gender reassignment surgery. I actually found the video quite interesting but my mom kept questioning me if I ever wanted to get those surgeries and if wanted to “manipulate my body like that” and at that point I was uncomfortable thinking about it, nevermind talk about it with my mom a week after I came out. I’m sure most Trans guys know that you don’t have to have any surgeries and/or HRT to be Trans… at least I hope they know. Anyways so on August 29th, 2016 I was kicked out of my house at 17. I was on my way to Guelph to see some friends but I also had a Therapy appointment before that. My mom and I had a family meeting with my dad, my aunt, and my mom’s best friend a few months prior to basically warn me that if I don’t do the list of chores my mom gave me to do everyday (keep in mind it’s summer and I worked a minimum of 3 shifts a week in another city which I had to get to myself), stop sleeping all day (I was severely depressed at that time) and don’t stop “misbehaving” than my mom will kick me out. For the record, I’m not a bad kid by any means, in fact I barely left my room let alone my house if I didn’t have to work. I just refused to be my mom’s maid while my 11 year old brother won’t even clean up his dish after dinner. Anyways, my mom got really mad at me that day for missing that appointment (accidentally) and she told me to not come back home and sent me the website link to a youth homeless shelter in Guelph. So I went there and ended up staying there from August 26th to November 4th. While I was living there I started Testosterone on October 25th, 2016 at ARCH Clnic in Guelph. It was literally the best day of my life. Unfortunately, the youth shelter kicked me out on November 4th, 2016 because I wasn’t going to school enough and they “couldn’t give me the help I need with my mental health. For the record, my highschool kicked me out for the same reason which I’ve heard a lot of kids had the same problem with that same school so it wasn’t just me. So after I left the shelter and the school, I was put into a school that has about 20 students and you did your courses out of booklets at tables with more than one person at each table. I ended up not going very much 1) because I was struggling with my mental health and trying to find a stable living situation and 2) because I didn’t like how it wasn’t structured like "regular” highschool is. So instead of changing schools in the same year AGAIN, I decided to just wait until next year to go back to school which I now have to do 2 extra years of highschool because I’m short 10 credits. As I was trying to figure out my school life, I was also trying to find a place to rent. I slept on some of my friends couches for about a month and then I subleted a room with 4 Straight Cis Females and with being a Pan Trans Guy, I would of prefered at least one other queer person. Eventually that lease ended and I had to move again. Now I’m living with one other roomate (who is also a Trans male), 4 cats, 3 hamsters and a dog and I couldn’t be more grateful. I’m now enrolled at a new highschool, where I’ll be for the next 2 years, I have a plan to graduate, I have a plan for my post- secondary education at the University of Guelph, I’m getting promoted at work soon and I’m almost 9 months on Testosterone. My mom and dad are still not very excepting of my Transition and I try to avoid talking to them at all times but I’m hoping one day they will realize that this isn’t a faze and this is who I really am. My story was long but there was a point to it: Yes, life can throw you curve balls and put you in situations that you don’t want to be in but if you believe that you can get through it, talk to the right people and ask for help if you need it than you can mostly definitely reach your dreams and get to where you want to be. Sometimes you have to walk away from the people that hurt you most… even if its family. Being Trans isn’t easy, it’s sometimes hard to be your true self if people don’t accept it but it’s your life and you can make anything of it so if your in a situation you’re not safe in (either from others or yourself), walk away and get the help you need to be your authentic self. Thanks for reading! ~ Jamie

[catastrophizinglife]

TransWa??

This is an interesting post (from an actual person on my FB friend's list, and not some link to god only knows where) that makes a guy like me stop and think...

The wording of this post actually had me slightly confused as to whether this individual was born male or female, and of course I had to ask for clarification assuming full well that I'd most likely get about a million lectures (from the wonderful world of gender benders) but I didn't (yet.)

Most transgender people I’ve come to know online (don't really know any in person that come to mind, currently) get atrociously, and unnecessarily angry when you ask them questions like "what kind of junk have you got in your pants?" or "Were you born male or female?" I mean these (most, not all) transgender people pretty much bark at you from atop their giant (pink and blue - depending on FTM or MTF status) soapboxes, and try to belittle our "simplistic," "backwards" and, "ancient" ways of thinking. "How dare you ask me that!? It's none of your business!" And they go on to claim that "people like me" should just accept them for who they are.

Now here's the problem with that... If the junk in your trunk is meaningless, and pointless, and shouldn't be discussed, pondered, or imagined because it's not the meat that makes the mack, then why the hell are you "trying to live life" in a gender not assigned to you at birth? Why would you MTFs care about women's clothing? women's makeup? Fancy french manicures and up-doos if the sex didn’t matter? For years, women (not men) have broken their backs (sometimes quite literally due to heels) to do one of 2 things either own the fact that they have boobs and rock-em well, or try to fight and claw their way out from under the metaphorical glass ceiling (and all other boxes MEN try to keep them in.) They did that. They continue to do that.

But here YOU come along with your PENIS yeah, that's right, ya do got one bro, and try to take their spotlight for your own personal desires. With your oh-so-wishy-washy, and pompous attitude. Wouldn't be so bad if you didn't have that "I'm entitled" attitude, like the world owes you something. Like you had to work through years of inequality and housewife-hood. Guiding Light, As the World Turns, The Young and the Restless weren't made for YOU, they were made for the oppressed women in this country (because women couldn't work outside the home, it was a woman's job to care for the home and the children and the husband. Hollywood catering to slaves in the home was the very LEAST they could do for women.) It was the Women's Rights movement that pretty much paved the way for blacks (even helping (however accidental) black men get the right to vote before even themselves were granted that right) and gays, and now YOU. Yes the YOU I'm referring to is the T in LGBT (or as most of the "I'm politically correct when I have to be, and not when I don't have to be” individuals would point out, you need to tack on about a million more letters to that, to actually be inclusive.) Trans people are just a "blah" to me. I try not to be judgemental toward them (I too once wanted to be a woman) and for the most part (this post notwithstanding) am successful in being kind and respectful toward them. It's when A) "they" (sounds prejudice right? LoL) it's when they get that "I'm offended if people don't know how I expect them to treat me" mindset. Bitch, I'm a gay man. I was born one, and I'll die one. It ain't my business to know how you think I should be treating you. (And FYI, most of the T's that throw a stink are just in a phase. No, it's true. Even if they're already taking hormones, or just dressing in ladies clothes, they're going to eventually (for whatever reason) come to realize that they're fine just the way they are. Be mad at me, but I speak the truth.)

So why then do we (as a society) have to one day use a different set of pronouns, and a different set the next to address people? It is my humble opinion that we shouldn't have to. I am not your daddy and I shouldn't have to walk on eggshells and get grilled every time you wake up with a sudden chemical change in your head that makes you want to be a girl today, or a boy today. In fact, ya only got one mommy and one daddy in this world, and they're the only ones who should have to do that sort of bending back and forth to accommodate your mental instability, not the whole rest of society. The world does not revolve around you, so quit trying to piggyback on MY RIGHTS as a gay man, or HER RIGHTS as a lesbian.

I mean, it was fine when the T was a small manageable figure. It was okay when I (or many of the other little gay boys out there) dressed up in their mother's or sister's clothes and makeup and pretended we were girls. The good parents let their children live out their FANTASIES, and the bad parents beat them into submission (I was raised in a homophobic, black-phobic, pretty much everything-phobic household). Some of us even went on to live out our fantasies of being born another gender by performing in bars. This came to be known as drag. In either case we all eventually came back down to Earth realizing that we are who we are, and that there's nothing wrong with that. Now I'll admit, some, not all transgender people, actually live their lives in the role of a SEX they were not born as, always wanted to, and always will 'til the day they leave Earth. Those are the ones I will grant "expected" proper pronouns to. Those are the ones who are actually trans. But this guy, the one who posted this picture, he is not trans, and like I said, he, like all the others, came back down to Earth after he played out his fantasy. He is now content being a man, as he was born.

Anyway this is just me soapboxing (join me, wont you?) In closing I'd just like to say this: The "regular" trans people have (however unknowingly) opened the door to not only confused "I'm a girl, I'm a boy" gay people wanting everyone to bow down and serve their allusive junk, but straight people are gender-bending now too. And THAT IS ANNOYING AS FUCK! I bet you the first transgender individual didn't foresee that happening. I guess I personally don't get it. I mean, I understand a gay guy and a gay girl wishing they had been born with different junk, but it goes way over my head why any straight person would ever want to live life in another sex. I mean, you FTM straight people, do you really think that a gay guy like me could ever wanna bone you? Seriously? You were born a girl who likes guys, and want to be a guy who likes guys??? What planet are you from? Who's your doctor? I needs ta get me one-a-doze yo! You make not a bit of sense and are a mockery of my community, whose only purpose seems to be to set us back a few dozen years.I love the show Shameless, but that whole gay guy & trans guy storyline just isn’t reality.

Anyway, I invite logical, thoughtful comments, but get rude wid me n u gonna get cut da fuck off yo lol

PEACE