#im turning 21 i cant even have a margarita

[strawberry-muffin-crisis]

got roped into a month-long sugar detox

can't even put honey in my tea

sobs miserably

[freesomebodybyluna]

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[wigglytuph]

Fiiiiiiiine since you won’t fuckin do all of them have some RNGed ones instead. 11, 19, 36, 48, 70, 106, 125, 135, 142, 148, and kiss my ass

THANK U GARNET IM NOT ANSWERING ALL 150 QUESTIONS DHFJFNJFNF

11: what does the last text you sent say?Its a keysmash fhcjfnjf AND THE MESSAGE BEFORE THAT WAS JUST ‘ME’…. A SCHOLAR….

19: do you like bubble baths?Tbh i lose interest in baths after a while and i dont even have a tub to take them in. But i like bubbles so i guess sure

36: have you ever liked someone and never told them?If i have i cant actually think of when i did. I told my online crush animallover55 that i wanted to be her boyfriend at the tender age of 10 when i had only known her for like a week or two so.

48: ever been drunk?No but when i turn 21 and get my own margarita all to myself im gonna be gine

70: name of your best friends?BEST BEST BEST friends cuz itherwise this list would be a mile long. Isabewwa, nowah, sawa uwu

106: ever broken someones heart?😬 ya and i secluded myself for like a week i felt so bad

125: do you believe in true love?Absolutely!!!!!

135: dumbest lie you ever told? OK ITS ACTUALLY SUPER EMBARASSING BUT /PLEASE/ @MUTUALS ASK ME TO TELL U BECAUSE I DONT WANNA JUST OUT MYSELF LIKE THIS BUT I DO WANNA EXPOSE MYSELF TO MY FRIENDS (and yes all my mutuals are my friends even if we dont talk i lov u mwa)

142: favorite month?December cuz christmas or october cuz birthday

148: what’s your favorite quote?“The first thought that comes in your head is what you were raised to believe. The second is your truth.”

[deartaylorloveannissa]

@taylorswift, thank you so much for writing “Gorgeous”! This song could not have come at a more perfect time in my life. So I’m 21, and I’ve never ever had a boyfriend. I’ve never even come close I don’t think. It’s a huge insecurity of mine because I’m constantly thinking and wondering what is wrong with me. Why am I always overlooked and why do I never get a second thought? I’ve come to notice this last year, that the guys I’m interested in are either taken or LIGHT YEARS out of my league usually the latter being the most common. If a guy ever is interested I can NEVER tell. Speaking of which, I’ve recently stumbled myself into a situation that I’m having trouble reading. So I started going to happy hour every Wednesday with this group of 4 guys, one of which, let’s call him Garry, I’ve always thought was really cute but unfortunately has a girlfriend. In just a matter of weeks, this weekly gathering turned into a really really close friend group who talks and hangs out most everyday and it is my favorite thing. A couple of weeks ago, Garry messaged me around 9:00 or 10:00 at night about a paper we both had for a class we have together. We ended up messaging til 5 in the morning. It was all very harmless, getting to know you talk but it always amazed me how he would continue the conversation every time I thought it was over. It was very fun and I honestly missed that thrill of messaging someone. But of course, in the back of my mind, I’m like this guy has a girlfriend of a year in a half, one who he mentions all the time and even refers to her family as his in laws even though they’re not even close to being engaged. So I had to keep reminding myself that he’s just being a friend getting to know another friend. Another week goes by, we only talk in class or in our big group message. But then on Wednesday after happy hour, I’m in my class and he’s out shopping with another guy from our group and messages me “hey I wish you were here, shopping with ____ is like shopping with every female in my family at once” and of course this made me laugh and smile but I was also a little thrown off from the “hey I wish you were here” part. It was probably harmless on his end and he didn’t mean it like how I would’ve wanted him to mean it but again, I CANT TELL!

On Friday, we all went out for 2 dollar margaritas and me being a little tipsy asked the group “hey am I too much of a bro that y’all and other guys can’t find me attractive?” And I asked that because all of them but 1 (who’s gay) has a girlfriend but yet I’m the only girl in our friend group. And they told me “Annissa, absolutely not, you’re beautiful and you’re so cool” and then Garry said “Annissa, you have nothing to worry about. I know that I would want someone like you who’s fun and has a good sense of humor and doesn’t get offended or freak out anytime we say or do anything”. I said “aww thank you” but I what I really wanted to say was “okay then where’s your girlfriend? Is she not like that? Is she not the kind of girl that you want?” But I didn’t. Maybe an hour after that, when it was just us two at the table, he brought it back up again telling me that I had nothing to worry about and started to tell me a story about something in his past but we got interrupted. He then messaged me a few seconds later and asked me if I would like for him to tell me that story later which I of course replied yes to. Much later in the night when we were all kind of drunk, one of our friends was having a really tough time and it sparked this really deep heart to heart between all of us that definitely made us grow stronger as friends. It was honestly incredible. Now, I’m not a big sharer of my problems and our conversation was mainly focused on the friend going through a tough time so I didn’t say much. But when I got home, I received a message from Garry saying “hey... I just wanted to let you know.. that I think you are a wonderful person and I love spending time with you... please let me know if you ever wanna talk because I never want you to feel down about yourself”. That honestly made me cry and feel so good. But it also confused me... Does he have feelings for me in any kind of way or is he simply just being a really really good friend??? It’s come to the point where I think about him a lot. He’s really cute, he’s so nice and he’s hilarious. As of right now, he has a girlfriend so I’m definitely not going to do anything. I know he would never be the kind of person to cheat because he once at happy hour lectured us about how he doesn’t condone cheating. He’s just a really good guy and this is driving me crazy! “YOU MAKE ME SO HAPPY IT TURNS BACK TO SAD, THERE’S NOTHING I HATE MORE THAN WHAT I CANT HAVE” I just can’t tell if he likes me. Am I reading way too much into this simply because I’ve never had a boyfriend and I have little to no experience on what this is like? What do you think?? Lol I apologize profusely for this long message. It’s just been bothering me for a few days now and I just felt like I needed to write it down. Thank you so much for everything Taylor! I love you forever and always, to the moon and back!

PS IM AM PUMPED FOR THE READY FOR IT MUSIC VIDEOOOOOOO! 😘💕