#im trying to eat well so i have more fat for the estrogen to do its magic with

[cuntftmtf]

You're a year off T and you've come so far! You've given up on being a man entirely and accepted who you are as a woman. As a set of curves and a tight hole. As a baby factory.

Who knows where you'll be a year from now? Maybe you'll have started taking E to feminize yourself further, adopting a deep dedication to plumping yourself up. Not to make yourself fat, perse, but just to provide plenty of fat for the E to distribute as it sees fit. Your tits swelling, getting fat and full, hanging heavy on your chest. Your ass jiggling and swaying behind you, your hips rocking back and forth with every step you take. Just a slight softness to your belly, a layer of protective padding over your womb to signify just how fertile you are.

And another year after that? Your hips even wider, a beacon of femininity and fertility. Your tits absolutely massive, hanging heavy off your chest, covered in pale blue veins and swollen, engorged with milk, leaking from darkened nipples. And that soft padding over your womb giving way to a rounded belly, a child growing inside it. A man's child. A real man, more man that you could have ever hoped to be. A man who saw your curves and knew he had to breed you on the most primal, instinctive level there is. You carry his child and your body will carry the marks of motherhood for the rest of your life.

Another year after that? Perhaps pregnant again or maybe with silicone stuffed into your tits to make sure they stay as big as they were when you were pregnant. Who's to say? But I can tell you that your future looks bright.

god fuck anon i hope you're right... i really did give up on the idea of being a man, now its time for my body to catch up and become exactly how you described, i need it so so bad

[olde-scratch]

psst hey. chimera!laios. you want it.

(reblogs >>>>>> likes)

(ignore that i didnt add fleshy colors to his hands and i forgot his knuckles on one of them shhh)

my friend @gltchghst and i came up with a chimera!laios for a falin/laios roleswap au that i wrote a oneshot for (link here) (eventually u should check my prof in case i turn it into a series of connected oneshots).

where falin gets chest feathers, laios gets a happy trail. why? well. laios is an adult. and IM an adult.

sketches in read more along with notes about chimera!laios. spoilers, obvi.

did i lowkey trace the sketch of falin ripping her shirt because i couldn't be bothered to make the pose myself? yeah. ive never drawn that angle or pose before and i didn't wanna burn myself out trying to figure it out. im not trying to hide it so its fine.

i was gonna do a little simplified anatomy sketch for it but cannot be bothered so instead have bulletpoints

where falin has feathers, laios has fur. idk if thistle just gave falin feathers or if he combined her with another animal, but laios i think would be happy if we did two monsters instead of one + another basic trait. we ended up using dungeon rabbits, the blades of which you can very faintly see hidden in the fur on his forearms in the second image.

the red dragon itself does not actually have wings, which would technically make it a drake. (eastern dragons are technically wyrms, which also exist.) however, wings are cool, and dragons are supposed to have wings. thistle has wings on his eye of the magician dragons, and those are red. so its basically the same thing.

chimera!laios is significantly bigger than chimera!falin. falin herself isn't as tall as laios, but there's also the fact that falin has magic on her side. she has feathers to make herself appear bigger than she is. this all very much seems to play to falin's strengths, since she is a magic-user. laios, however, is a tank, and this is apparent in his bigger stature (falin's like 35 ft i think, i imagine he's 5-10 feet taller and much bulkier) and the red dragon hide across more of his body which we know is extremely tough.

falin has magic. she has Magic. HELLO. laios gets to breathe fire. ITS FAIR OKAY. laios isn't made to breathe fire so i imagine that it also severely impacts his ability to talk (rather than him being extremely disoriented or just a puppet) by causing burns on the inside of his mouth (and probably the remaining human portion of his throat before it turns into dragon). he also probably couldn't breathe the fire very far, since he does still have a human mouth, but he can also use the wings to fan any fires he does cause. modern problems.

falin has more estrogen in her body than testosterone and isn't a front-line fighter. laios, however, is Male and exercises A Lot, so his fat stores will be empty looong before falin's would have been. on top of nourishing a bigger body, he also cant eat without causing pain to himself due to the open burns on the inside of his mouth. someone else come up with a concrete way to redo the curry scene, maybe tire him out and feed him some medicinal herbs before they freeze him. mf ain't fighting for long.

laios has horns because same reason as the happy trail. my friend and i are into men. if u don't like it make your own chimera!laios design. this is for Us.

yeah this entire thing is just us 'rule of cool'ing chimera!laios and doing our best to use logic to justify it. keep scrolling.

the shirt in the second image is falin's shirt, and i think that even though they are rather similar, falin's shirts might end up being too short for laios. does this mean he got abducted with his entire everything out? no, i think either falin grabbed and salvaged a pair of his pants from their stuff (maybe the extra shirt was one they shared or maybe it got got by a dungeon creature?) or they whipped up/found him a pair of shorts. i think canonically falin borrowed marcille's underwear but i don't think anything they have is fitting laios.

maybe its because im biased considering laios is one of my favorite characters but my friend enabled me so i think laios would be capable of more destruction than falin. she's meant to use magic to locate delgal (tho she isn't often seen doing it to the extent id expect her to be), but i think laios' method of searching would be to pick up where thistle can't and use physical search-and-rescue to find delgal instead of more magic. thistle wont let him leave any more than falin, so this point is moot, but yk. i think laios' ability to destroy would also do more to symbolize thistle's growing desperation to find delgal and his willingness to destroy what's in his path to do so.

maybe soon ill redraw the falin and thistle interactions to do laios and thistle instead, but i know that i do want to draw some wish fulfillment art where thistle gets a nice big hug. it probably wouldn't be as comfy as falin's, and laios has weapons on his arms, and also laios would be really sweaty and gross with no feathers to act as a buffer, but no one said thistle had to enjoy the hug.

[bean-in-space]

So we be vibing in the dumps at the moment, which I do not appreciate. It is either due to my new birth control or due to general health frustrations and anxieties or both! Possible smidge of work frustrations and anxieties in there as well. I'm pretty sure it's at least partially the birth control, but also I found out today that my cholesterol is worse than it was last year, and it was already verging on concerning last year, so it's officially in the "bad" zone. I don't think that it should be; I can't see any way that my eating habits are worse than they were previously, we've been trying to eat more veggies, and I've been eating oatmeal for breakfast for the past like 2 months or so. Like, I could be doing better, but I also thought I was doing better than average and therefore shouldn't have a "bad" cholesterol result over 50 points higher than it was last year???

But also. I don't think I should be spiraling about this as much as I am. This is a theoretically fixable problem. Objectively, my goal is in two parts. I want to improve my diet while maintaining a healthy relationship with food. After a mild panic over how the fuck I'm going to do that when most vegetables are yucky to me, I have come to the conclusion that I simply need to make salads with chopped apples, perhaps also adding some chopped nuts in there for, idk, whatever nuts are good for. Protein and fiber and healthy fats, I think? I am maybe going to have to do a food diary, which conceptually I hate, but if I can just add a small list of regular meals to the app and then actually bother to measure out my portions, I should be able to make it work. My main issue is that a lot of the suggestions for lowering cholesterol involve excessive amounts of bean consumption, and I am neutral at best towards beans. Beans and lentils are both really chalky imo and it's just not a texture I enjoy. Cold beans? Cold lentils? Disgusting. Therefore, every bean or lentil salad recommendation is starting from a point of "I do not think I will like this food" which is kind of a problem. Gonna try to just add more whole grains and shit instead, which like. I also don't love whole grains but we will try to make it work.

Part of the spiraling also includes the fact that my moms side of the family does have a history of high cholesterol and heart problems. My great aunt had her first heart attack in her 30s and died of complications following heart surgery. However. We can make plans for this. There are medications that can be prescribed to lower "bad" cholesterol. We try more advanced diet changes first, and if they don't work, we talk to a doctor about taking one of those medications to get ahead of things. This is also a situation in which the food diary will prove useful, as I can point at it and go "this is what I am eating. This is the best I can do without hating eating, so we can either put me on these medications or put in a feeding tube. I'm frankly fine with either option."

I hope you enjoyed me writing out my whole ass logical climb out of a thought spiral. Fun fact, I am eating an entire bag of edemame as my dinner tonight because the only options my body gave me were that or kraft mac and cheese and we don't have any kraft mac and cheese.

So anyway. I get to download a food tracking app. And I get to keep an eye on my general mood levels to see if they get worse, because I have had a SERIOUS drop in hobby interest recently and it's pissing me off. Did not go to craft night tonight because simply no willpower. If it turns out that it is the birth control, find a plan C because plan A was the combo pill and that made my migraines worse and increased stroke risk, and plan B is what we're doing now. Plan C might be to remove the whole system. Gotta leave the ovaries though because prescription estrogen is not happening, due to the afformentioned increased stroke risk.

Im like, not getting fuller from the edemame. That's very rude.

[riceangle4-blog]

“Can intermittent fasting help with amenorrhea?”

Is the “Dutch test” a good marker to use in peri and menopause? Is fasting a good approach to amenorrhea? Snack options between meals? And, do you recommend zero carbs?

Get the answer to these questions in this week’s Q&A with fertility specialist Dr. Fox:

Dutch test

I am a 52-year-old perimenopausal woman. Had a hysterectomy a year and a half ago. Also hypothyroid. I have been trying to research about peri and menopause and how I should approach it. Is the “ Dutch test” a good marker to use?

I have been doing the keto for a month now, do I check my thyroid more often? I hear that it changes when you implement this diet. I did IVF at 40 and was hyperstimulated. Does this put you into menopause sooner?

Thank you, Tania

  Dr. Fox:

Hello Tania,

I don’t know about the “Dutch test.” It is sad to me that people are having to resort to such home testing modalities as this Dutch test in order to guide their doctors. I would tell you not to waste your money. If your ovaries were removed with surgery and 98% chance even if they were not removed, you will need estrogen supplementation/replacement. It is my opinion that all women in menopause and even a little before the need to start estrogen. For average ovarian function women, I am starting estrogen supplementation in the 43/44 age range on average. Find a hormone friendly physician to discuss it further.

It is actually good that the uterus is gone because now you do not need progesterone supplementation. Progesterone is a negative metabolic hormone. Without added estrogen, your metabolic system will suffer and you will gain weight and be less healthy. Yes if you have hashimotos type hypothyroidism, the antibody load may dramatically decrease on ketogenic approach and you may need less supplemental thyroid hormone.

Lastly, no – IVF with hyperstimulation only utilizes eggs that were going to disappear anyway during that particular cycle and does not reduce your egg count faster than normal. Best of luck…

Fasting with amenorrhea

My daughter has not had a regular period for five years. She tried BCP three times and was not successful and now we have no interest in going that route. She has seen gynecologists and endocrinologist and everything looks ok. She is 22 now. Her health history has involved a lot of antibiotic/laxatives and stress. She has a few autoimmune disorders (psoriasis and possibly thyroid). She has tried to go the natural path with Dr. Jolene Brighton as well. My question to you is: Do you think fasting is ok for her? She has a very normal weight. Normal BMI. She has been intermittent fasting with bulletproof coffee but we have been discussing a cleaner fast. What is your opinion?

Thank you for your time, Michelle

  Dr. Fox:

Michelle,

It is hard to comment on the amenorrhea. All things cannot be “OK” if amenorrhea or severely irregular cycles are the norm? If her weight is normal, my guess is that she suffers from physiologic stress-induced ovulation dysfunction. Stresses, we have alluded to in other answers but primarily center around, over exercise (aerobic), nutritional stress (hypoglycemic spells, or anorexia, bulimia, starvation weight loss, fasting), sleep disturbance or sleep apnea, to name a few. So as you can see, fasting would fit the category of stress, thus making the cycles worse. One other very significant stress signal comes from caffeine. There are no other people on the anti-caffeine bandwagon with me, but this is a huge problem for our population. Caffeine and amphetamine/cocaine have very similar effects. She probably needs estrogen as well but this is hard to sort out without more extensive interaction through history and labs. I am not a huge fan of intermittent fasting for females. Only in those that are dramatically overweight who are primarily seeking big weight loss. Hope this helps…

Snacks options?

If im hungry between meals what are my options to snack on? And im only eating two meals a day?

Gloria

  Dr. Fox:

You need to be eating every three hours at least 150 calories. Two meals a day creates stress and works against you. Snacks have been covered elsewhere on the website but should be absolutely no carb and high fat. Bacon, cheese, boiled eggs, meats, unflavored pork rinds are all good snacks. Look further on our low-carb snacks guide. Thanks…

Do you recommend zero carb?

In some of your videos, I’ve heard you say “as close to zero carb as possible”. I did an all meat (ribeye, ground beef, and eggs) diet for six weeks and loved it, and was wondering if that’s something you’d recommend for someone trying to get pregnant (after failed IVF).

Guinnevere

  Dr. Fox:

Maybe I should qualify that. Our recommendation is high fat, modest protein (correct amount for weight, 1-1.5 g/kg ideal body wt) and non-starchy vegetables. If you eat vegetables, you will get some carbs. In my experience, unless you are in a severe insulin function category, you can tolerate nonstarchy vegetables. The further north of BMI 40 you get, the fewer vegetable carbs you could tolerate. So if you don’t fit the worst case scenario, we tell patients for normal servings of one or two vegetables per meal, they can ignore those carbs. The zero would apply to all other foods. In reality, this sets the threshold under 20 g per day that everyone agrees produces solid ketosis. Hope that helps.

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[askemilydeanyo]

I don't get turned on anymore. I haven't in a few months. I am 21 female, I do smoke alot of pot which I heard doesn't help. I can't figure out why Im like this? Is it possible my past relations made me this way? My last significant other was like this they were not really into sex and they didn't make me feel very wanted in that aspect.

Hi! Thanks for your question. There are certainly a handful of things that could be causing this.

To start, yes, smoking pot doesn’t always help. Like any one (or combination of) drug(s) affects people differently, marijuana is no exception. For the bulk majority of my pot-smoking career I would experience intense euphoria after smoking and my sex drive would spike drastically. I loved having sex with myself and with partners and was so fully engaged and intertwined in the experience that I considered this to be some of the most sensual sex I ever had in my life. After going some time without smoking and then picking it back up again, I found that smoking caused my sex drive to dramatically decrease. I was no longer sexually interested in my partner while high, less interested in my partner while sober, and found that when I was high I became incredibly self conscious. It was an extreme contrast from the experiences I had in the past, which left me feeling pretty jolted for a while. Crazy how things change, huh.

On the topic of pot, I am curious if there are any other drugs that you are taking. SSRI’s have been proven to drastically effect sex drive, as well as medicine for epilepsy, ADHD, blood pressure, anti-psychotics, pain management, AND birth control. 

So the first thing I want you to consider is if you are taking any of those drugs, and how often. If you are, I would suggest contacting your doctor, setting up an appointment, and addressing your concerns. Most health professionals acknowledge that libido is a vital part of our lives, and will make accommodations accordingly. If they don’t, you might need a new doctor. *

Another thing to consider is what birth control you are or are not on. If you are taking hormonal birth control, like oral contraceptives or a hormonal IUD, they can and often do effect your sex drive by lowering your testosterone levels. If you are on a hormonal birth control, go to your doctor or gynecologist and have a discussion about potential other options. I know that the copper IUD and condoms are two solid options! It’s all about finding what works for you.

* If you are in Louisville, Kentucky, message me again and I can connect you with my lady doctors. They are seriously a dream team and are some of the most helpful and understanding women I have ever encountered in my life.

Something I also seriously consider would be doing a full blood scan. These can typically be done through your primary doctor or gynecologist office. For perspective: I was on one birth control for 7 years that I felt worked just fine with my body. Suddenly, my prescription changed to a generic brand and my body reacted terribly. I became depressed, my skin, body changed, and sex drive changed (negatively) amongst many other things. It was so bad that I actually thought I had developed bi-polar disorder. When I mentioned this to my doctor she suggested that we look at my blood levels. These tests revealed a huge spike in my estrogen that was caused by my ‘new’ birth control. Needless to say, after switching methods I successfully confirmed that I am indeed not bi-polar, and realized the huge role that synthetic hormones have on my body.

Doing a blood-screen will also give you good insight into your overall health, which plays a massive role in your sex drive - which leads me to my next point, being your diet and activity level. Do you have a balanced diet? How often are you exercising? What are your hobbies? I could go on and on, but what I’m getting at is how generally healthy are you? If you find that you spend a lot of time sedentary, or eating high-fat, high-sugar, high-carb food, this could play a huge role in the decline in your libido. 

To address your last concern, totally, it is definitely possible that your past relationships have affected the way you view sexuality. When humans spend large amounts of time with people it’s easy to become accustomed to their ways. We start to use the same lingo, share the same beliefs, shop at the same places - the list goes on. If you are in a romantic relationship with someone who didn’t openly or frequently express their sexual desires to you, it makes sense that this is what you became accustomed to. However, that being said, it should not have a substantial overall effect on your sex drive as a whole. What about solo sex?

Are you masturbating? If so how frequently or infrequently? Do you ever look at other people and become sexually aroused? Do you have sexual fantasies? Did you used to have a more vibrant sexual past and it just recently became dull within the past few months, or did you feel a gradual decline for a while? There are a lot of things to consider, and it is important to assess whether you are not feeling turned on towards others or turned on in general. How much sexual attention are you giving to your own body?

Additionally, there are plenty of life factors that come into play. You mentioned that you smoke weed. You mentioned that your last relationship wasn’t exceptionally sexual. Have you recently started a new job? Are you overwhelmed with school? Did you recently move? Are you having a tough time in a friendship? Are you happy with the way you look? Are you living in a new environment? Sometimes these things take the forefront of our attention and sex becomes less important. This is just part of the ebb and flow of life. Sure, in a dream world we are all balancing school and work and a social life and our sexuality equally and proficiently, but that just can’t always be the case, so the less important things take the back seat. Consider what other external factors might be occurring here and you will probably gain a bit of insight.

So here is your homework in a nutshell: Figure out if any potential medicine you are taking is effecting you. Consider testing your blood levels. Incorporate more activity into your daily life as well as nutrient-dense meals. Make sure you are sleeping enough. Make sure you are practicing self love so that you feel sexually attractive to yourself, as well as potential partners. Explore fantasies that you have perhaps left in the background of your brain and see if these elicit exciting sexual feelings. Watch some porn if you watch porn. Read some books on sex if you like to read. Talk to friends, see if they have been in a similar funk. Google some stuff. Read some forums. Consider seeing a sex therapist if these feelings don’t subside. Try to set aside time to masturbate, even if you aren’t necessarily in the mood. Try to reconnect with your body in a way that you might have in the past. But most importantly, delve into all the facets in your life and see if there is any one thing you can pinpoint, and if you find it, tweak it. You know what’s going on inside of you better than anyone else.

Try not to put too much pressure on yourself to have a high sex drive for the time being. Some people just don’t - and if you don’t now, that’s not to say you won’t for long. Like I said, it ebbs and flows. I am a self-identified sex freak and there are times where I go weeks, even months without having sex. It always comes back. Tap into yourself and find what works for your body, your mentality, and your emotional-mental-sexual self. You’ll find the answer there.

Xx

[phyrgon]

i have 2 followers that 99% sure are are bots both them are fitness bots for some capitalist things but thats the thing, i don’t think i have talked about fitness before, about working out this will be first time i wear a 12 pound weighted vest essentially everywhere because it’s more comfy, but that also means i expand more energy relevant to that, and use equivelant extra strength (9-10%) and i like running, push ups, squats, dumbell curls, tricep curls, etc. i also like hiking, all while wearing extra weight, as well as freestyle dancing and i did really like how pokemon go allows me to benefit by how much i like moving around and i have been trying to healthily gain fat on my body (since away from parents where 95% of my intake was red meat...not a fan of red meat) though me going through puberty isnt helping me (im growing heavily and using the energy to do that aswell) i’ve been wanting to get a chin up bar recently and it is true that i used to use fitness as a coping method to the point of over exercise (body eating itself and muscles disintegrating) and hadn’t exercised a year before on estrogen, and then the longer on the more i felt like ok with being a buff, slightly more masculine then androgynous (based of stereotypes...im not changing who i am to fit what im expected to fit) transfeminine genderfluid person. i don’t think i talk much about relating to characters like undyne or rainbow dash either i also don’t really search fitness related things (so not like checking out my cookies or whatever that sites have...i ussually search psychology things) so my thoughts have started on the delusion, that these bots are on the same frequency my brain is on and therefore able to listen to my thoughts or they have trackers in this house, or they can hear me talking to gf in skype