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review: hajimari no kyojin (osaka 6/1)

so. hello. i usually write up my butai thoughts as, um, 100+ tweet threads in the immediate wake of whatever i just saw, but this time around i thought i'd work them out into a proper report, of a sort. if you, too, have seen this show already and want to talk about it... please. any time. always.

about reviewing: this is my very favorite 2.5D franchise, ever. but this is also a review, not a cheerleading exercise, so not every single thing i have to say is unrelentingly positive. having said that, i respect kinoshita, wada, suga-zachou, and the staff at large more than just about any creative team in this corner of japanese theater fandom so like. i'm not here to drag, lol.

about spoilers: i talk about the plot elements covered but try to avoid spoiling any of the fun production surprises. :) happy to do a more spoilery play-by-play later if folks are curious.

about length: i just checked and it's 2400 words im so sorry.

without further ado...

first of all, i admit that based on the preview clips i doubted, and i was swiftly taken to task for doubting. IM SORRY WORRY-SAN i trust u implicitly and i should have known better. after the major changes in shinka no natsu, i was concerned that bringing back the revolving stage and the original opening theme would feel stale/regressive. it did not. while they did bring back the revolving element they also extended the stage backward and added a second level behind a full stage height projection screen – the second level was used to do some neat staging for flashbacks/parallels and the screen was used to, how shall we say this, up their projection game in a major way, which i frankly did not think was possible. i will not spoil the details but it was pretty great, on a purely technical level.

i also realized that a lot of the repetition – opening with the bike scene, bringing back the original opening credits music, the staging, etc – is the "look back" over the last couple years that i'd expected to come this fall. they are very obviously already preparing for the end – you could think of this as part one of their last show, with the fall as part two. the show opens with a restaging of sixth grader hinata seeing the little giant on tv for the first time – then the current karasuno team take the place of the tv and hinata joins them for a team jog. "karasuno, fight!" "oh!" "fight!" "oh!" only then each character calls out their signature line from the show so far. "uchi no renchuu wa chanto tsuyoi" / "mou tobenai karasu nante yobasenai" / "murabito b mo tatakaemasu!"

and haha. let me tell you. BOY, DID I FEEL THINGS. a lot of things. i think yachi got me the worst but they were all real bad. (i have so many feelings about yachi's story and what a beautiful job saitou ami did with her character on stage. god. ;_;)

the theme of this play was the role of captain – what makes a good captain, what a captain does for the team, and how to step into those shoes when the captain is gone. the johzenji match is fun, but here, in a sense, it exists more or less to set up the wakutani match – (re)establishing daichi's importance so that his absence feels like the gut punch it is. and fully settling the weight of that responsibility on ennoshita's shoulders, as both daichi's substitute on the court and the captain-in-waiting.

with that in mind, the rival schools: imo it wasn't strictly necessary to cast full teams for each school – each match got its own dedicated act, and unlike, for example, nekoma/datekou in karasuno fukkatsu (which had a similar story structure), there aren't really any individual characters on these rival schools who have a role as such other than terushima and takeru. (you know, the captains. see above. XD) so in theory one could get this done with, like, one actor for each captain and then an ensemble cast playing the rest of the team across both matches. HOWEVER, having all those bodies allows them to do super cool stuff visually, and why force yourself to create the illusion of a full team if you don't have to? i.e., /i/ sure am not complaining, isn't it nice to have $$$ to achieve the max vision of your choreographer. XD

i also have no doubt that the kids playing these other characters are doing whatever they can to create a character within the ensemble, and i suspect there's plenty for repeat viewers to pick up on, esp during say the johzenji match (see below). however for the first time viewer following the main flow of the story it's more or less a very large ensemble cast.

the johzenji chaos was well expressed, haha, there was so damn much going on all the time that i hardly knew where to look. (i've also seen opinions on j-twitter that that diluted the impact and i can see that too – it worked for me as a "funny" match that didn't cross the line into comic relief, but ymmv.) i thought the final scene with misaki would pack more of a punch, but i fully expect them to cry at daisenshuuraku so that might fill in the last 10% that's missing rn.

wakutani are another Good Dance Team. one did get a sense, stylistically, of fukurodani- and nekoma-lite with johzenji and wakunan, respectively – i assume that was intentional. mirroring the cats vs owls match, as it were. yanagihara rin's takeru was like… scary?? i had to rewatch those episodes this weekend to see if i'd just forgotten something, but no, stage takeru is not so much reliable middle brother as scowly quiet tough guy. he looked like a kyoutani tbh, and looking at the kid actually cast for kyoutani, one wonders if someone in casting mixed up some paperwork or something. having said that, yanagihara was great at being the character he was, i enjoyed what he did on stage. i'm just not sure that character was takeru. XD (edit: ok having just rewatched, i have to revise this somewhat, i think a big part of my impression was due to being too far back to properly see his expressions the first time around -- up close he was much smilier, and bc i was thinking about it i noticed some nice details like him going over for a family hug afterward.) otoh big post-match scene – all of wakutani, actually – was really good. v effective, i heard sniffles around me.

during this match, johzenji reappeared dressed as takeru's family: FUCKING HILARIOUS omg, everyone involved has clearly learned how to do this right wrt blocking, the very fine line between comic relief and intrusion, etc, after the, er, shaky shousha to haisha experiment of kuroken doubling as oikawa's fangirls. seichou shita na, errone.

also, some great wire work for hinata and takeru – you could tell kenta is really comfortable up there these days. the first time the wires came into play one of the women behind me went "UWO!" which, when a japanese theatergoer makes a noise out loud, that's a true sign something's impressive. XD

nekoma vs fukurodani: Yeah, That Happened. it is a testament to how well done karasuno vs wakunan was that i didn't just spend the entire time screeching BRING BACK CATS VS OWLS because fjkdajfkdlsfjd KYAA. another good staging moment – they used mirrors to create the effect of two full teams playing at a crowded gymnasium, it was brill. i won't spoil some of the fun details but vvjakdlfjdf. and tbh i think the best performance of the four was probably shouri's?? not that this is news but istg idk how someone so soft offstage does THAT on stage. is it this "acting" thing you speak of.

new bokuaka: i mean it was clear some of this material was meant for yoshimoto kouki and i did kinda miss him – i appreciate higashi-san's pinch hitting and he did a solid job. but. ah well. HAVING SAID THAT. fucking "michi wo tsukurimasu yo" i mean we should all be grateful it wasn't kouki and yuuki or it would have just been a fucking fanfic on stage. it was still bad and i don't even go here. XD

and last but not least, arita ushiwaka kenji: not exactly the world's most natural line delivery but that's fine because, i mean, he's ushiwaka. and his physical presence was perfect. which was about all he was called on to do in this particular show, ahaha.

now, for karasuno. and specifically, for my son, kawahara kazuma. remember what i said approximately a thousand words ago, about captains and captains in waiting and stepping up to the plate? (or onto the court, as it were.) ennoshita's story was the heart of the wakutani match and kazuma carried the second act. he was. so. good. he had good material to work with, of course, but he made it even better. i was saying to a friend that in retrospect i think this is one of the very very few parts of the series that actually played better and more emotionally affecting on stage than in the source material (as opposed to differently good/differently affecting). in the manga/anime, you can only see what the paneling or the frame shows you, and those initial paneling/framing choices are focused on the drama of CAPTAIN DOWN. but on the stage, daichi goes down… and off to the side you see ennoshita freeze. and from that moment on, for kazuma, it's go time. he doesn't let up until the end of post-match scene in (here) the locker room – which, jesus, that scene. it packs ten times the punch it does in the anime. because of kazuma.

sorry if i sound like a crazy person here ahaha. but like. like, imagine you have been acting since childhood, you've studied dance with famous choreographers and innovators, you had a main role in The Franchise That Changed 2.5D as a teenager, you've done a solo album, you have a serious history in performing arts... and you get cast in what was initially the smallest role of the entire karasuno team. and you take it! and pull your weight! kazuma was a team player for three years and he deserved this chance to let his actual skills shine so much. ;_; because i don't necessarily think he would have been better in any of the other roles than his actual teammates – but i do think he is a much better actor than several of his actual teammates. and he finally got the opportunity to show that.

anyway, when it came time for curtain calls, the applause swelled noticeably for kazuma – a louder ovation than anyone except kagechan and kenta. and one of those people clapping her hands off, say in row 20, just a random row choice, was definitely tearing up at the same time.

IN OTHER KARASANEWS. kt-san. LIVE IN PERSON KT-SAN BACK IN THE ROLE HE WAS MEANT FOR cries into my hands i love him daichi-saaaaaaaaaan. very occasionally his delivery reminded me he's a model not an actor, if you know what i mean, but like, for the vast part it didn't matter because he is naturally such a perfect fit. have i mentioned i love him.

new suga: mmmmm. he looked and moved fine but his line delivery did not convince me. tbf it's not like suga has a huge role to play in these matches so 1) it's not a huge deal 2) he didn't get much chance to get into the character. either he'll get better or he won't, and if he doesn't it's not going to sink the next play or anything. he seems like a nice enough kid, i wish him well!

kageyama tatsuya: still can't yell and enunciate at the same time. loved that they brought back the archer analogy from shinka no natsu though!! it was one of my favorite things about his kageyama, and it's nice that it's something he "owns" instead of imitating/inheriting from tatsunari.

tsukishima & yamaguchi: miura kairi continues to get even better, i'm so pleased. <3 also, i love love love that they still use the musical motif from shousha to haisha for yamaguchi's jump float serve. it was the same in shinka no natsu, it's the same here. THE TSUKKIYAMA WAS REAL CUTE, great detail work before and after the serve as well as after tsukki's block(s). as for tsukishima, much as they brought back kageyama's archer imagery, they brought back tsukki's fancy katana kill block. (they didn't waste kondou shouri, either, i'll leave it at that.)

last but not least, MY ACTUAL SON AND FEELINGS TWIN, SUGA KENTA: ok like. to set the scene here. i have mad respect for this kid and also love him to death as a human. i think he puts more thought into this production than anyone else in the cast – he is practically worry-san's AD. and he clearly has a lot of real deep thoughts and feelings about the source material. so deep in fact that it took a while for me to come around to his hinata because while, for example, tatsunari's kageyama could have walked straight off my television screen, kenta went down to the manga and built hinata up from there. he didn't have a choice – he's nothing like murase ayumu's voice. all too often we, and i include myself here, think of the two dimensions in 2.5D as anime, rather than manga... but just as there's a big gap between the two dimensions of animation and the three dimensions of live theater, there's as big a gap again between static black-and-white drawing, and movement and color and sound. and when i looked at kenta's hinata as something created solely from furudate's art style, it all slotted into place for me. (naturally, ymmv.)

it also took kenta longer than some of the others, i think, to portray all of what he wanted to. shoen hinata was pretty yelly, and pretty single-register yelly. hinata is a yelly character, of course, but the balance between that hinata and Serious Match Hinata was out of whack at first. this got better and better with every show. and then—

his encounter with ushiwaka here. was IT. it was what i was looking for all this time. his delivery of hinata's big line there was like – i think maybe i clapped my hands over my mouth, unclear, bc it was like the final missing piece and i was so happy. kentaaaaa. ;____;

part of me wonders if this is what kenta's always had in his head but maybe couldn't get his face/voice to express the way he wanted it? OR, IT'S KENTA, SO MAYBE IT WAS ON PURPOSE and his previous Serious Hinata was meant to be like, just a feral hunger child whereas this is the kid who experienced the heartbreak of losing to seijou. i would love to ask him tbh. XD

anyway, my son, after five plays continues to grow in his portrayal of this character. kenta is the heart of gekidan haikyuu in so many ways, and i will be at their graduation show if it kills me.

(breathes out) i think that's. everything. a best setter award to anyone who read this far, and feel free to ask if there's anything specific you want to know about? i will be seeing it again this weekend for daisenshuuraku and will be sure to report back on who cried, etc. all hail volleyball stage the end. 🏐

[floralkittygambler]

Return of The Thing

Sort of. By thing, I mean me. But I love this movie and the meme. Ok, context for this post: - Where I’ve been - Why I left - Whats hip happening -  Where I’ve Been:

Long story short, I’ve had real life matters to deal with. Firstly, my entire household contracted COVID. Well, *almost*. We’ve been through constant testing, quarantine zones, and had the ambulance up numerous times. My parents and 2nd oldest sister were hit the hardest. My 3rd oldest sister was positive and asymptomatic. Now something none of us could predict that I would be completely COVID free despite my compromises. Despite that I was in close contact with them all, including the 2nd oldest who contracted it first and accidentally being coughed on a few times lol. I went through the exact same testing and yet nothing. No symptoms. No presence of COVID. And I took no precaution to isolate from my family as I presumed in our small house we’d all get it, so I was more preoccupied with caring for the sick. Ultimately, I’ve either gotten off scott free this time or there’s a chance I may actually either be highly resistant or even immune. Even then, I WILL be having the vaccine as and when my family are eligible. And we all still follow regulations set.  I’ve also had other real life obligations, much of it either mundane fixing up my living circumstances to more personal matters. Overall, I have been extremely preoccupied.

A mini update, the stray cat Big has been in our porch a lot more in recent times due to the snow as well as being even more affectionate. And Queefster passed away after a good life and a full tummy. Why I Left:

Aside from COVID, business, and my own health declining, I’ll be blunt. I left because of how disgustingly toxic most fandoms are nowadays, but Hazbin is one of the WORST for it. That includes harassment, death threats, mocking MI and triggering an ED. In fact, I’ve even seen others get rape and death threats. So yes, even if YOU are a decent fan, collectively most of you arent doing any favours. Even some critical blogs seem to be overtly catty in ways no one else seems to pick up on under this ‘look how blunt I am’ look and it’s just... You dont have to be a prick to have your say, to be honest and to disagree with the trending. That’s a few on and off of tumblr, and no one I follow anyways. 

In regards to my ‘sensitivities’ - two things: 1) Of course trauma is going to hurt, 2) Im fully aware of kids doing and receiving much of this, which hurts MORE. I have my own lil squids and Im worried of them eventually having to deal with this shit. And no, no one SHOULD have to put up with such rude and poor behaviour. Agree to disagree doesnt live in some people’s realities, but by God harassment and bullying seems ok if YOURE doing it or enticing it. That ISNT ok. Even if it seems like nothing to you it could kill another. I certainly will not take your shit. 

On huskerdust I STAND by my words. It’s fucking creepy and there is sexual harassment and obsession. And there are large triggers. I will not go into detail here because Ive done that dance before and I’ll be refining it again. YOU may like it, however it triggers my very real traumas as well as those in my bloodline. Be respectful and keep that shit away from me. And for goodness sake, parents PLEASE dont raise your children to behave as such online. And no, being anon isnt actually fully anonymous. Also to send hate and threats anon is not only traceable but also cowardice. Grow a pair and find a hobby. I avoid my traumas for the most part. I will not allow you to weaponise or diminish my own or others experiences for your fictional based gratification. Likewise, if it becomes canon, I’ll just make an AU where it is not. Simple. You can hate it but Im not your personal circus so go be toxic elsewhere. IF you like HD and follow me, honestly... Youre probably better to unfollow as I am deeply and passionately against it and stolitz, and valvox, and am very vocal on that. Dont mistake my traumas and discomfort as a personal attack - and dont personally attack me over it either. And before anyone claims homophobia, no. This is nothing to do with sexuality. You arent the victim. If you love these pairings with your soul to the point of a ‘stan’, then youre best off unfollowing because I really am too old for extremists and rabid fans more crazed than the infected in REC. Also I never used to hate angel but now... Fans behaviour is abhorrent and hes so over saturated that I honestly really dislike him now. Doesnt mean you have to hate him too, but just bloody respect that angel isnt loved by all, he can be triggering to some as well as toxically enabling [incl. past addicts], a vile homophobic gay stereotype and just overall a lack of knowledge and respect of sex workers as a whole. When you know a lot of the ins and outs and victims, it’s hard to overlook. I respect your triggering ships by avoiding that mess. Respect others.  The problem with Viv - and I will elaborate in the future - is that your audience is often a reflection of your work and it’s message/presentation. And most of the fandom Ive met are awful. Honestly, though lonesome I find more comfort keeping distant from fandoms because yall often extremely toxic and petty. Perhaps others have had better experiences than I however Im drawing a line in the sand. For MY sake. I’m annoyed with virtually anyone I sense great potential in that becomes wasted. Im angry at Viv because she can do so much better but is blocking HERSELF. This is from a creative and business mindset. When someone has potential that gets wasted - especially creatively - it burns me. Im just passionate on artistic fields. It doesnt mean I hate them. I hate the waste of full potential.

I’ll state things here people disagree with but encouraging harassment, hate or just being an overall cunt just aint on- It’s like people charade as being this fair being but its all bullshit. Self improve and sod off, I do NOT have time to parent you online. 

And obviously there are RL duties I must fulfil. Some in which I will need the publics assistance for if you can spare it. Overall, Im just... Fandoms behaviour generally disgusts me. Disappoints me. We SHOULD be better than this. It’s like listening to bloomin incels rant on fuckin chad or some bullshit pill theory instead of looking to improve themselves too. Honestly... I do mostly acknowledge my own flaws and faults and try to improve each day. It just feels fewer folk see that in themselves and do the same. And that’s coming from an old cunt whos far from fuckin perfect. Also, my fuckin laptop broke so I waited a week for a bloke nearby to fix it. What a fuckin lifesaver, he’s the real mvp!

Also Also, one of you did privately apologise and I appreciate that. I certainly hope we agree to disagree and continue to grow as people on our separate ways. Trust me, I dont forget small acts like this. Even the trauma that caused and the aftermath, please dont think I dont appreciate the apology. However you’re also entitled to know that the forgiveness and healing side may take longer for me due to various factors that occurred - much that few are aware of, including yourself especially. I wish you well and safety.

Hip Happenin Now:

Still busy but slowly visiting. I’ll reply and reblog soon, be patient please. Ive still many things to sort which take priority as well as other things. Im trying to get money n shit for a future and whatnot. Health issues are strong in the blood rn and Im spending extended time with both Big and the other pets to keep up harmony, especially now that Big is accepting slowly that our porch is a welcome shelter for him and he’s free to leave and stay whenever. Trust me, overloaded isnt even the word. Im prepping shit early this year and from now on. Also, my God Ive been dealing with more physical issues as well and had to play doctor. May even need medical interference but holy shit I could never see this coming. Still... It’s... An experience- If you could call it that. Staying more active and healthy. Cat’s nearly clawed my eye out in my sleep (to which I can only presume Billy got too close or hyper) but it’s fortunate placement so Im alright. Most of my body is in pain to the point of absolute normality at this rate. And I plan to make space for a better altar. Future of the Blog: 

Errr, it’s my fuckin space so it’s whatever I want really. Ill still have my Viv rants (ie, pros and cons of her work, HH/HB, other shit like that) however I just really dislike most the fandom at this point as well as the poor management and lack of professionalism and attitudes of staff. It’s just draggin me down and making me ill. I also want to showcase more of MY work (from redesigns to projects to some dumb 2am shit), cosplays, fashion, hobbies, spiritual practises - MY. SHIT. I feel like Ive strayed slightly. But I WILL be honest. And damn well will it upset people. And if it does and I’m genuinely ding something wrong/harmful - guide me patiently. Educate me. If it’s like this HD shit where Im not only allowed my opinions but justified on my traumas or mocking my disabilities or features, then just yeet yourself elsewhere. Also some of my gaming shit too. Getting to know folk who interact with my stuff and just... Create my space. For me. Something hopefully others can enjoy. Something that can function as a bit of an art portfolio as well. Critiques and whatnot.  But I will continually not stand for anyone’s shit or poor handling of serious matters. You will not cause me to doubt and invalidate my experiences like you have to others.  For now, Im tottering but slowly returning. For those who I previously and daily interacted with, I will get back to you. And Im sure you’re patient and understanding of my situation - it’s appreciated. But in terms of any fandom, more so if it’s known to be as hostile, I’d rather keep a healthy boundary between us. That’s for newer folk. Perhaps we may bond further and you’re welcome to try, however I do feel far safer not getting involved into other people’s shit any longer. I will put anon back on but any toxic shit will be reported as well as compiled so at least I have a reference on the actual toxic nature of fandoms. Likewise, Im slowly getting there but god theres a lot of fuckin work. So much that not even my closest friend has heard too much from me until recently. I’ll be returning to the grind for now as I have duties, as well as many demanding felines for my attention. Alongside some physical medical concerns which require additional care, I’ll be popping off now.  Im thankful for those who have checked in on me. I will reply shortly. Take care

[pinwhale]

@geeselord tagged me in this so i feel obliged to do it lol

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up. 

eek uh centuries - fall out boy, D.A.N.C.E - Justice, Emperors new clothes - p!atd, Patron Saint - Regina Spektor, Animal - Neon Trees, Gasoline - Halsey

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? 

a mcelroy tbh

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. 

“Excellent adhesion and great for renovation work” - some builders guide lol

4) What do you think about most? 

Friends and random story ideas

5) Ever had a poem or song written about you?

Yep

6) Do you have any strange phobias? 

Not really? I mean, heights arent great but thats just rational.

7) What’s your religion? 

¯\_(ツ)_/¯  I dunno probably none

8) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

Walking somewhere/lying in the sun with friends

9) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

ive never had one tbh

10) What was the last lie you told? 

“ im not a actual homestuck anymore “ but hey i can dream 

11) Do you believe in karma? 

I try to

12) What does your URL mean? 

it was.. meant to be a pun. like pinwheel but pinwhale. idek i just want whale in my url

13) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? 

greatest strength is action under pressure, greatest weakness is like not being able to function when it is slightly loud around me

14) Who is your celebrity crush? 

i dont get crushes that easy so ive never had them on celebrities.

15) How do you vent your anger? 

Crying music/singing exercise ranting. if its at a certain person im likely to let them know why i am angry lol.

16) Do you have a collection of anything?

dirt rocks leaves and cool paper for art stuff

17) Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

i mean, there is always room to improve. but compared to who i used to be? hell yeah.

18) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

I hate so many sounds omg. pencils writing comes to mind tho. sound i love is piano/good violin.

19) What’s your biggest “what if”? 

what if i could undo the stuff i did when i was younger

20) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? 

Yes.

21) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. 

Left: Water bottle, Right: Vapodrops

22) Smell the air. What do you smell? 

Nothing my nose is so blocked rn

23) What’s the worst place you have ever been to? 

uhh place i hated most was this country house where i was isolated with nothing to do for days. 

24) Most attractive singer/s of your opposite gender? 

What the hell is an opposite gender

25) To you, what is the meaning of life? 

Just, experience? If that makes sense?

26) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? 

I have been avoiding it

27) What was the last movie you saw? 

i dunno what the name of it was it was a Tarantino movie my brother was watching

28) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

i like, skinned my face off when i was 11 when i faceplanted off my scooter going full speed down a hill.

29) Do you have any obsessions right now? 

coding is my forever obsession. nerd wise i love taz and su atm.

30) Ever had a rumor spread about you?

SO many, mostly hilarious tho

31) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? 

Probably? I dont let it effect my relationships with them tho

32) What is your astrological sign? 

Capricorn

33) What’s the last thing you purchased? 

Icecream for Neil

34) Love or lust? 

Love

35) In a relationship? 

Nothing romantic

36) How many relationships have you had? 

Like, one?

37) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

Kill em with kindness/trying to remember they are 99% likely to be just as awkward as i am

38) Where is your best friend? 

who fucking knows the boy is never where he is meant to be and its great

39) What were you doing last night at 12 AM? 

dying due to sick

40) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? 

i hope so

41) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? 

Save the dog??

42) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid? 

a) maybe? id probably do it but in theory i wouldnt want to. b) spend them with friends having adventures and writing messages c) yeaup. 

43) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? 

I dont really have a song like that? im on top of the world by imagine dragons can or best day of my life can get me in a happy mood but i kinda have to be in a positive mood before hand anyway.

44) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? 

Trust, Honesty and communcation

45) How can I win your heart? 

good fucking luck. if its in a friendship way then just talk to me and you probably already have it lol.

47) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? 

To change who i was and strive to help others.

48) What would you want to be written on your tombstone? 

“ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  welp”

49) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word “heart.” 

like, souls and bravery and stuff like that.

50) Basic question; what’s your favorite color/colors?

The orange/pink sunset cloud colour and bluey green.

51) What is your current desktop picture? 

My brother has it set to a car thing

52) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? 

Trump.

53) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on? 

hmmmm probably cliche middle schooler garbage like who do you like lmao

55) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? 

i have this memory of being at the top of the hill with gilda and a few others like, yelling into the wind? Id want to do that again.

56) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? 

My main bad experiences have shaped who i am. But i guess id want to erase memories of transphobic shit that has happened to me so i dont have to think about it

57) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

no thanks

58) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? 

Europe

59) Ever been on a plane? 

yep! when i was like 4/5 i got my face painted on one it was the best

60) Give me your top 5 hottest celebrities. 

i?? dont understand attraction that much??

there i fucking did it i got there hell yeah

[mizushiba]

About dig deeper? Boo, u know u can't post this shit cause im like "please all"? So, please, all? Or like, the ones you really wanna.

I hope you know that now you have to do it too so I hope you're happy with yourself ❤️Eh the things I do for you -Do you prefer writing with black or blue pen? - black definitely-Would you prefer to live in the country or the city? - Country if I could order like groceries and shit online and someone would bring them to me, if not then city-If you could learn a new skill, what would it be?- I always wanted to play the drums but I have shit music "sense" so it's almost impossible -Do you drink your tea or coffee with sugar? - 2 spoons of sugar -What was your favourite book as a child?-Doctor Dolittle and His Animal Family-Do you prefer baths or showers?- showers-If you could be a mythical creature, which would you choose?- fuck hmmmmm is an orc a mythical creature?-Do you prefer reading paper or electronic books? - electronic, I focus can't focus on paper, my dyslexia got a lot worse recently -What is your favourite item of clothing?- at this exact moment my new socks with pink panther -Do you like your name? Would you ever change it?- I am not really fond of it, I like names like Alex or Max that are pretty gender neutral -Who is a mentor to you?- no one rn, the last one turned out to be a big piece of shit, so I'm avoiding "mentor" type ppl rn-Would you ever want to be famous? If so, what for?- sure, for game concept arts? Maybe-Are you a restless sleeper?- I could sleep through a war probably, but I'm having troubles sometimes to fall asleep but when I do I sleep peacefully through the night -Do you consider yourself a romantic? -Fuck yea but like not for myself? Idk if that makes any sense -Which element best represents you?-??? Water??-Who do you want to be closer to?- guess ;)-Do you miss someone at the moment?- no? Maybe some of the people from my class that I don't know if I will ever see again -Tell us about an early childhood memory.- I remember that me and my cousin (2months older) had a tree house at my great grandmother place, tbh it was juts a piece of wood put between arms of the tree so there was a place to sit on, but we spent there every free moment for few summers -What is the strangest thing you have eaten?- I'm really had to convince to try new things so I don't think anything I ate falls under "strange" category -What can you see outside your bedroom window?- playground and further a next block of flats-What are you most thankful for?- fuck of I know,-Do you like spicy food?- not my favourite food but I'll eat it-Have you ever met someone famous?- a few book authors that can be considered famous in this country -Do you keep a diary or journal?- I tried for a few times,but failed within a week -Do you prefer to use pen or pencil?- pencil it weirdly is more durable-What is your star sign?- Aries -Do you like your cereal crunchy or soggy?- love the crontch -What would you want your legacy to be?- what legacy lol, on a serious note I would love to make at least a one mildly successful game -Do you like reading? What was the last thing you read?- sure, Komornik- Michał Gołkowski-How do you show someone you love them?- the whom? Idk I think you can catch me do selfless things for them-Do you like ice in your drinks?- only fresh, not the one that was for like a week in the freezer and next you can almost taste said freezer in your drink -What are you afraid of?- I really really really don't like the idea of zombies it fucking freaks me out, tbh mostly the cannibalism part of it-What is your favourite scent?- I used to like smell of oil paint but now I hate it, my now top is mint? I dunno 🤷‍♀️ -Do you address older people by their first or last name?- I'm the most polite thing, even if someone tells me to address them by their name I would still go sir/ma'am -If money was not a factor, how would you live your life?- I would definitely live in bigger house, bc now my room is so small I can nearly fit stuff there, and maybe buy new clothes? That's fun-Do you prefer swimming in pools or in the ocean?- pool all the way -What would you do if you found $50 on the ground?- look around if someone is looking for it if not then take it-Have you ever seen a shooting star? Did you make a wish?- I did not-What is one thing you would want to teach your children?- how to be independent-If you had to have a tattoo, what would it be and where would you get it?- I have a tattoo even two of em, one is purely ascetic and second one is a way of saying goodbye to my archery times-What can you hear right now?- whole LP4 by Ratatat on loop for like 3h now-Where do you feel the safest?- in my bed-What is one thing you want to overcome/conquer?- I need to fucking stop to be afraid to make mistakes -If you could travel back to any era, which would you choose?- Ancient Greece ?-What is your most used emoji? -👌-What is your favourite season? Why?- anything but summer,-How would you spend your ideal day?- I would love to play and overwatch game where I'm friends with the whole team,( nothing more"creative" comes to my mind rn)-Describe yourself using one word.- tired -What do you regret the most?- at this moment I can't think of anything, I did some stupid shit like lost money for nothing or forgot about stuff but nothing major -Invent your own word. What does it mean?- who thinks of questions like that???Lucky I had A LOT of free time Have fun ;)