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really starting to feel like a bear in a cul-de-sac y'all
#im so tired#im trying so hard to communicate better and more clearly and work on delivery and tone#and to be graceful and offer grace and be supportive#and be aware of others needs and moods and lack of regulation skills#but fuck if it doesnt feel like its all going wrong and its all for nothing#cause im still just a bear in thie coty trying not to maul anyone by accident
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please let me join the dance conversation since it's the form of art i am actually the most interested in. i've been dancing as a kid for 6 years, and i don't mean to say that that gave me any type of authority in the domain, but it did leave me with the slight ability to recognize a good performance (or whatever makes a good performance to me, personally) and a great appreciation for valueing dancing as acting, like you said. too often i've seen dance ranking videos from actual life-long dancers who value technical skill above anything else. even if they take into consideration the facial expressions, it doesn't hold much weight and that always lowkey pissed me off. because when i am watching a performance, i care way more about the emotional delivery rather than the technical one. of course, this is not to disregard skill, because emotion without skill just ends up messy. good enough to appreciate as a form of authentic self-expression, but still messy, and mess won't make you a good dancer.
i've really enjoyed seeing you say dancing and acting have a mutual component since i've always felt that way too but never knew how to put it in words. two groups that come in mind when thinking about this are blackpink and itzy, i have no idea how familiar you are with them so i'm sorry if the following come across as foreign to you. but i gotta say, regarding bp, i think there's always been discourse over lisa vs rose as the best dancer. technically, everybody knows lisa is miles ahead, and i have to say she has decent stage presence and some pretty nice facial expressions too (taking into consideration how limited bp's concepts have been so far). rose, on the other hand, has a certain style that appeals to a specific audience (which i am not a part of, her lack of body control is so irritating sometimes) but i can see why some would find her charming. i would say her stage presence is decent too, but i can't help but choose lisa over her, and not just because i'm biased. but because in order to be a true dancer, you need the right balance between technique and emotion that gives your performance that star-value and appeal. and let's be real, kpop is really lacking in that "true dancer" department.
another dancing discourse that goes on is in the itzy fandom, where fans are pitting yeji and chaeryeong against each other. their techniques are quite different but they are each very good in their respective style. now, i've seen people call yeji the better "idol dancer" since she has better developed facial expressions, and chaeryeong the better "overall dancer" since people value her technique more. and i'm just like, no. emotion makes or breaks a dancer. everyone can learn technique, but emotion is hard to fake, and when you do, the non-authenticity is very much obvious.
that's why i love san as a dancer. he might not be the most technically skilled, but he is skilled enough to hold his own. and his way of living in the performance, of just letting every feel of the song wash over him and show the audience 110% and more - nothing compares to that, no amount of technicality. stage presence is something you just have, and no matter how much you train for it, you will pale in comparison to a natural.
wow, this is really long so thank you if you take the time to read it all and respond. english is not my first language and sometimes i'm having trouble finding the right words to get my point across exactly how i think of it in my mind, so i hope the message is delivered accurately, haha :D also, i must add i love the way you talk, your speech has a flow and a uniqueness to it you don't find everyday. and we love a developed vocabulary<3 may i ask how old you are?
thank you for the compliment, thats very sweet of you! english is my native language and i have spent just as much time, if not longer doing academics as i have doing performance work so at this point ive developed a very specific style. thereâs a joke that theatre design is 90% communication and only 10% design, and itâs not wrong. it helps that i like to talk and my brain works very fast sometimes.
im glad you took the time to write this out! and don't apologize for your english, it's excellent and very clear. you are correct i know very little about blackpink and itzy but i would likely agree with you, dance is equal parts emotion and technique and that is my preference in idols as well. but i donât think that the kpop industry needs to have âtrueâ dancers, though. yes it is fun to watch those who are technically and charismatically gifted in dance, it is only a portion of the experience that they market. also i think we lose a bit of objectivity in kpop because all idols are required to dance, but i dont think ive seen one recently that's a legitimately bad dancer. even the âworstâ dancers that i can think of are still leagues better than the average person on the street, but we see them as âbadâ because they work directly alongside peers who are legitimately gifted and have a passion for dance as a form.Â
it's interesting to hear you say that everyone can learn technique but emotion is hard to fake, because i hear a lot of dancers say that. i think this comes from a misunderstanding of what exactly acting is and how it works. i would argue that a statement closer to the sentiment that you (and many others) are trying to get is ânot everyone can do both at the same time.â the average person is no more predisposed to acting then they are to dance, because acting is a skill that can be taught and exercised in the same way dance can. sure, there are people that have a higher latent ability, but if you put in the work, you can learn. why do you think there are acting classes and schools and conservatories? you can get a doctorate in acting if you really want to. the thing about acting is that in order to be good at it, you have to both understand and be able to implement the correct postures for mimicking human emotion. this is an insanely complex task when you get down to the brass tacks of it. just think about your face and body posture for a moment. why are you sitting/standing in that particular way? why is your face in that particular expression? what do you think your posture is saying to someone who is observing you? how would you change it if you wanted the person to start a conversation with you? if you wanted them to leave you alone?Â
thereâs also a general assumption that acting comes from a place of genuine or authentic emotion, and this is the fault of modern âmethodâ film acting. i have a very long thesis about how much i hate method acting and i can make a separate post about that if people are curious. but suffice to say, acting very rarely comes from a âgenuineâ place. it may be informed from a genuine place, but by nature it is not real. thats what makes it acting. and i think dancers seem to be under the impression that showing emotion while dancing has to come from the dancer personally feeling those emotions, when thats not the case at all. this criminal fancam is a perfect example of exactly how good taemin is at putting on a character for a performance. you can very clearly see him drop character after the main camera cuts, and pretty much any concert footage shows this as well.
now, being able to do both a complex system of physical movements with your body and also control the minute details and timing in your facial muscles and posture? thats pretty fuckin hard. not a lot of people can do that, it takes just as much practice as learning technique does, just not in the way that people might think. but it is possible.
#jaehyuntrack#kpop questions#oh and also im 25#it says in my bio lol#i have SO MANY opinions on authenticity in art and performance i could literally go on for hours#im of the opinion that no art is truly authentic because if it was it would never reach an audience#this is a NUCLEAR grade hot take in contemporary art school trust me i have been in so many arguments at the pub about this#anyways if people want to hear more about that then let me know i guess#holy fucking shit i write so much i hope that the people reading these actually find this interesting#im assuming that people are reading these; i do not blame you if you do not#this is very long#and full of me dumping my opinions everywhere#im not gonna tag this as kingdom because its not really about that but maybe i should make like a general kpop opinions tag or something#for people to blacklist so they dont have to see my text walls#thats a later problem#kpop analysis#text#kingdom asks
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Symphogear, EP. 6
Last Time on Grand Theft Auto:
Tsubasa recovers from the worldâs gayest coma as Hibiki trains her mind while putting aside such silly concepts as âthe love of my lifeâ and âliterally being with my girlfriend.â After cooling Mikuâs paranoia with her brand new washboard abs, Genjuro prepares the team for a pizza run across the city to deliver a dangerously hot pizza pie named Durandal. Chaos emerges as the delivery is intercepted by a rival pizza gang, lead by the nefarious Gremlin known as Yukine Chris. But, before the pizza could be claimed, dedicated pizza deliverywoman Hibiki not only steals it back, but eats it, harnessing the power of the pizza and unleashing cheesy pasta based chaos around the location.
Ryoko is so into it that she taps into her superpowers and protects Hibiki after she passes out. The delivery is considered a failure, and no tip is given.
And so, the journey continues...
Meanwhile, in this weird, tricked out mansion...
Chris meditates on some water metaphors of her own.
âthat pacman colored freak took only touching it to activate a cheap ass french sword that gave her weird demon powers and its taken me YEARS to use this dumb stripper outfit and the funny cane that goes with it, what the FUCK man, what even is my lifeâ
âmaybe... maybe honeybaked hams ARE that powerful...â
âNO! turkey is the superior meat! itâs healthier, lower in fat, and way more tasty! fuck you! iâll get my goddamned revenge!â
Chris begins musing about Fineâs motivations to capture Hibiki; during these, weâre treated to some brief image flashbacks of Chrisâs life.
Suddenly, those jokes about food are a lot less funny.
It doesnât take a genius to put two and two together as to why this young woman is helping a strange nudist dominatrix spread alien terror across the city of mumblednoises, Japan. She doesnât really have many an option on the table. Itâs either help the weird kinkster with her plans, or die.
Despite everything, she has a high opinion of Fine, for the same reasons someone might have a high opinion of a television show if it were the only show they were ever exposed to. She is deeply afraid of being alone again, because she has lived through such misery that the very thought of existing out in the cold again terrifies the shit out of her.
The Sun rises casually amidst Chrisâs thoughts.
âah shit. it just hit me. i literally have spent the entire night standing here instead of actually going the fuck to sleep. goddamnit.â
On such a devious metaphorical twist, Fine stands behind her as the Sun rises.
âyeah, jokes on you. i couldnt sleep for shit either. turns out, all nude, no blankets? in japan? real bad idea.â
âthats why i decided to GO GOTH, babey! whattaya think? do i give those witchy vibes, huh? real âblack magic womanâ santana hours? feeling cute, gonna head out with the girls and summon satan in the woods kinda aesthetic looking shit? come on, be real with me. does this not look baller?â
âyou look like morticia decided to go to the grocery store to buy some wonder bread, but other than that, its a step up from your usual pussy out attitude, so sureâ
âyou know i decided to get some brain cells on loan from Brain Cells R Us, and ive been thinking this solomon cane stuff is solomon lame. i dont need this dumb oversized harry potter cosplay prop to get shit done. also, murder is... sorta bad? im still trying to get the brain cell stuff down.â
âi can punch just as good as goody two shoes if not better.â
âlol go do it then champ, im gonna go cut down a forest of trees nowâ
And so, they both just kinda... stand there.
âQUACK, NEXT SCENE, QUACKâ
Meanwhile, Tsubasa is rapidly trying to rehabilitate herself from her wounds like walking like a madman, her IV drip presumably filled with Taco Bell brand Doritos Locos Tacos super spicy nacho cheese. Taco Bell: Live Mas.
âim gonna clear every fucking taco bell in your goddamned memory, kanadeâ
âthink outside the bun! wait, what? that was a taco bell slogan? ah fuck it, im dead. what nerdâs gonna try and correct me?â
âi would, kanade. i am that nerd.â
Tsubasa is hell bent to try and understand Kanadeâs simple philosophy of helping others selflessly. Unfortunately, when Kanade died, she took all the brain cells between them in the process, so coming to this epiphany is a work in progress.
âlisten its a fucking miracle you are 1. alive and 2. able to have your blood run on the garbage melted plastic taco bell tries to dupe people into believing is cheese so why dont you just lie down and think of better franchises to eat fromâ
âno! you dont understand! taco bell is a franchise of the PEOPLE! their meals are cheap and filling and- and the chicken quesadillas are of good quality for their price! i promised kanade- my vow to the death. taco bell... ergh... now and forever... i-â
âwait. my gay senses are tingling.â
Itâs Hibiki, probably running track with Miku.
âoh yeah... her... i should probably apologize to her. about trying to kill her. and then letting her almost be kidnapped. and just giving her a general hard time about something that wasnât explained to her in the slightest for months. sheâs a good bean.â
Tsubasa proceeds to never canonically apologize to Hibiki throughout the entirety of all 4 seasons of Symphogear.
Look at em run. See, itâs a metaphor, because they havenât communicated yet and theyâre running from their problems! But theyâre running towards Tsubasa, who is part of the representative problem these two share! Clearly literary genius.
Itâs like someone went halfway into writing an NTR plotline and went âmaybe this isnât a good idea to market our songs on.â
Hibiki is still thinking about her Hellshake Yano moment with Durandal. Mainly how she nearly killed someone with it. Hibiki is very starkly in the âkilling is bad, and wrongâ camp of morality, a trait currently unique to her that sheâll wind up teaching literally everyone else she meets one way or another.
Some could argue the L stands for Lydian, and theyâre wrong. It stands for Lesbian.
âthat was one hell of a run, hibiki! im pooped! why dont we go to the locker room and call it a day, have a nice shower and just get some dinn-â
âthis is the last straw.
i clean your plates. i cook your food. we eat, shit, shower, and sleep in the same FUCKING area, and this is how you repay me? huh? you think being your wife is easy shit, hibiki? half the damn time youâre running off like clark kent having food poisoning and the other half ive gotta babysit you, the emotional equivalent of a preteen clown, to make sure your life doesnât self destruct harder than Atlantis sinking into the ocean. im done! i am DONE. im reopening my tinder, im slamming my ass BACK into okcupid, and im gonna date some CUTE ACADEMY GIRLS that treat me BETTER than this ABSOLUTE BETRAYAL OF HEART AND IM NOT CRYING I SWEAR ITS JUST THE SWEAT IN MY EYES AND HIBIKI HOW COULD YOU-â
âoh yeah, sure! hey, lemme just do a few more laps, ive just been feeling judgmental about myself and my figure, you know? gotta push myself further...â
âo-oh yeah, sure. no worries, ill wait for you. love you too, hibiki...â
The girls bathe together, as good friends typically do.
âhey you ever notice the showers here have like, weird psuedo-luxurious minipools to bathe in? like, how rich is this school?â
âwhoever made this place is either rich or a pervert. or both, probably!â
Miku remarks that Hibiki has changed since sheâs entered Lydian, in a manner most unheterosexual.
âoh FUCK you really DO have washboard abs now! ohhh my god.â
âdamn, those abs were heavenly. letâs get pancakes later.â
I wonât screenshot it but something to note is that they actually wear each otherâs corresponding underwear colors (or even, if you want to examine more closely, each otherâs underwear). Hereâs an equivalent scene to give you the mental image.
This is the face of someone who knows what they want and already have it. Such is the power of Kohinata Miku.
Meanwhile, Genjuro comes back from the funeral of the guy the Americans filled violently and with impunity.
âyo that all black look looks baller. i should borrow that look... id look pretty gothy in it.â
âryoko i sympathize with your sharp, fashionista eye but this was for a funeral, i was paying my respects to the dead. thats the usual dress code.â
âdidnt know they updated that. i remember back in my day, we just went in white garments and chanted in latin!â
âshit was fire. literally. lots of funeral pyres.â
âlmao ryoko buddy your larping sessions arent actual historyâ
âhey dont shit on larping around me. i used to be a professional larper while i was majoring in acting. helped really sell my career when i had to pretend to slay the Dark Lord Jyarloen atop the mountain of skulls in Hargobor after my family was killed by the Dark Army. asshole.â
âhaha yeah, larping, thats cool yeah, i do that
i...
i larp.â
âoh yeah? you wanna join my larping session sometime then? weâre gonna do an ancient babylon plot thats inspired by some anime, itll be funâ
â.....................................im super into realism.â
âi know im dressed for a funeral but id like to not part ways with my dignity yet. besides, weâve got serious shit to talk about. basically, weâre on the verge of getting shitcanned.â
As it turns out, the death of this politician removed the last obstacle of opposition to maintain the 2nd Division, as the average criticism against the 2nd Division is âwhy are we funding this mystery division when we donât know what they doâ. Of course, the sensible idea for an organization that defeats the Noise is to declassify it, given people of different jobs and positions have physically seen the Symphogear in action, but you know. âOh no, the other governments will come after usâ stick gets shaken.
âim in a union. i know my rights. youâre not taking my acting job here away from me.â
âim not going back to be a preschool teacher. its been ten year. the bites on my ankles still havent healed...â
âyeah man, shit sucks ass. i cant fund my adoption habits if im fired.â
Look at these cinematic parallels. Symphogear truly is a franchise made by someone living in 3030.
âworst part is the new minister is super into america. heâs a... westaboo.â
âa westaboo?â
âwestaboo?â
âdid he just unironically say westabooâ
âhe said westaboo. oh my god. this is the hell timeline.â
âi mean people kept calling me that for worshipping all these fighting flicks so i guess it fit? i dont see the problem hereâ
Meanwhile, in Lydian Academy...
âso it hit me, right? weâre ALL girls. and we ALL sing. now, humor me a moment. what if... what if weâve all been recruited to potentially be superheroes... through our singing? like, thereâs no coincidence that all this shit happens around us, right? and a famous singer LIVES here? i saw the black cars outside! weird shit is happening here- im not even gonna eat the all you can eat bar anymore!â
âkathy there is literally no such thing as superheroes who sing. this place is more likely to be a organ harvesting op than whatever madness youâre sayingâ
âwhat? you need me, a singing superhero, to go stop a problem happening underneath the school, a location meant to recruit young women into potentially becoming fellow crime fighting singers?â
âyeah im too busy poppinâ caps in asses so go kick ass in my placeâ
âsure!â
â.....................................who ya talkin to, hibiki?â
âthe boss! gotta go do a thing again...â
âhibiki, i dont like the fact that capitalism is tearing us apart.â
âyouâve gotta join me in the revolution, hibiki. you. me. luxury automated gay space communism. aint it the dream? share my vision, hibiki. its glorious.â
ân... no...? no gay space communism today? well, what about tomorrow? or the next day? or... maybe the next day? baby steps, you say? but, direction action, hibiki! weâve gotta strike now!â
âitâs okay hibiki. when i take over the world and destroy all first world government leaders, and unite the globe in my encompassing reign and love... ill make sure to spare you, and be my bride to be.â
âthanks miku. im just not ready yet for the globe to burn in an unending ball of fire as the continents fuse into a new utopia composed of our combined wills. also, ive really gotta go, its genuinely an emergency.â
âfor the cause!â
âyes hibiki... for the cause...â
Admittedly, you can see the stages of grief Miku goes through when she sees Hibiki say she canât join her for pancakes. Itâs sad. This side story sucks.
Meanwhile, as it turns out, the problem Hibiki needed to resolve was checking on Tsubasa to see if she hadnât dissolved into Taco Bell brand hot nâ spicy Tabasco sauce.
âgod, cant believe taco bell was closed. now i gotta deliver these lame ass flowersâ
âcant wait to get threatened again. wonder what sheâll say. âhibiki, i should have killed you when i had the chance.â or âyouâre so goddamned weak. i could break your spine with my fingernailâ, or some other stuff about metaphors. oh, my stops hereâ
âHEY BITCH WHATS GOOD-â
âHOLY SHITâ
âyou are alreadyâ
âdead.â
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