#im trying not to get too attached to any headcanons but i cant help it

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dead poets society driving headcanons but they're all terrible drivers

(and if they also all lived somewhere with similar roads to where i learned how to drive bc i can be more specific that way. also im not a car guy so all the cars are from real people i've met)

inspired by me learning to drive and being bad at it

neil: drives a stick shift and isn't very good at it. he saved up money working to buy a shitty corolla from probably just some guy and was like yeah i can totally drive a stick lol how hard can it be when asked about that. the guy was like uhh probably pretty hard standard shift is famously not easy to learn. and he was like itll be fine dont worry about it. every time he switches gears it feels like the car is falling apart. he has gotten stuck trying to start the car stopped on a slight uphill incline for like 10 minutes multiple times. half the time when he starts the car he does it way too fast, and he constantly kills it when coming to a full stop. he once flipped his car over when going down a windy road. he is very attached to his car despite this, named it something like gertrude. its constantly full of shit and has a ton of doodads hanging from the rearview mirror

todd: will not drive above 25 mph unless he absolutely has to when around other cars. always takes backroads if he can because he is terrified of the freeway. hell drive at the speed limit on the highway but is gripping the steering wheel for his life the whole time. at the same time drives mountain roads where theres no cars at full speed. goes through windy roads barely braking. scares the shit out of everyone in the car. never comes close to crashing despite everyone thinking they're gonna die. he drives a tiny hatchback that probably used to belong to jeff. hes the only one trusted with neils car despite not knowing how to drive stick

charlie: constantly driving over the speed limit, not looking where hes going, blasting music so loud you cant think. hes always like. i dont understand why everyone is scared to drive with me lolll and then goes 90 in a 25. for some reason. his parents bought him a jeep gladiator

knox: knox is constantly getting lost. has absoutely no sense of direction. will get lost on roads he has been on his whole life. he also forgets to use his turn signal constantly. insists on never looking at a map despite having no clue where he is for as long as possible. it is infuriating to everyone else in the car.

cam: drives a mini van. would be a decent driver if he knew how to come to a gradual stop. unfortunately he just slams the brakes like 75% of the time. he drives with one foot on the gas and one foot on the brakes which does not help. he is usually the main one driving the poets places when they're in a group since he has the most seats. when they have more than 7 someone always wants to sit in the trunk, which cam is vehemently against. he's generally just very tense while driving.

pitts + meeks: pitts drives an old truck, a smaller one that only has jump seats in the back. meeks doesnt have a license so pitts drives him everywhere. because of this if anyone wants pitts to drive them anywhere they either have to take the jump seat or sit in the bed cause meeks automatically gets the passenger seat. as far as everything else goes pitts is ok ish at driving, if kind of jerky, it mostly just sucks to get a ride from him cause he doesn't really have any room. meeks doesn't really want to get a license for several reasons and since he is conveniently always with pitts he has decided he just won't for as long as possible. ideally he never will, and will just use public transit if pitts isn't there.

[mayisgoingnuts]

Ok so im gonna explain this in the best way i can,hopefully this makes sense :3

Im gonna go over a whole bunch of different things with this.Gonna seperate it into different sections. :] (obviously this is gonna include Dexter headcanons and whatnot) This is probably gonna be long

Frequentcy and strength of said needs,and how long they can wait to satisfy them:

Dexter: Frequent,as in a few times a day,though most of the time it just is small strength,and can deal with the needs building up over the day or a few days if he cant kill,though its insufferable after a certain point to deal with.He tends to kill something a few times times a day to help keep his needs at bay.

Edgar: Usually once or twice a day,(though it frequently skips several at a time),and its tends to be pretty strong in which he needs it.He can usually let it sit for a couple hours before he needs to do something about it,but its not fun to deal with for him.Its prefered if he usually deals with it within like 3 hours,which he usaully does,so people dont tend to notice any behavioral differences with him when he's trying to ignore it,keep it under control,and whatnot

Willard: He feels it a couple times a day at varying strengths(rarely skipping days),usually its not too strong where he needs to get it done right away.He can probably wait the longest,but he usually doesnt cause its an annoying thing to feel.

How can there needs be satisfied?And what can satisy them?And morals about killing and whatnot:

Dexter:If he kills anything that will basically satisfy it.If he cant kill self-destructive methods help very little,he still does it even though it does very very little for him.Anything that can help with his needs he'll tend to do.He will only turn to killing people if he really needs to as seen in show.He thinks killing people is wrong as they have feelings,and souls.Animals he will kill as they lack most things that humans have like feelings,souls,intellect,etc.

Edgar:As with dexter anything he kills can satify his needs.Self-destructive means of dealing with said means work alot more,and what he used to turn to before he got over his deal with killing things,he still occasionally does it when he doesnt have something to kill,he hates doing that to himself though.He refuses to kill anything that he belives that someone has an attachment too,so pets are out of the question entirely,same with most people.He hates killing people,he rarely does it,and always makes sure that person doesnt have anyone before he kills them,but he always feels so guilty afterwards,though it fades after he finds another thing to think about

Willard:Most things can satisfy Willard,but it has to bleed.if it doesnt it wont really satisfy him as much,and bugs wont do it at all for him.Most often he goes for more self-destructive methods to deal with it(edgar hates that he does that),as he doesnt particularily like killing,its a need not a want.He'd rather kill people than animals but he cant force himself to do it.He wont kill pets,or any animal he believes people have attachment to.He prefers to kill smaller animals,as they're easier to deal with but it usually requires him to kill a few of them to get true satisfaction.

I was gonna write more but i forgot what i was gonna write about lmao :3 Hope this made sense,this took forever to write :]

ISTG YESTERDAY THIS WASN'T HERE.

BUT I REALLY LIKE IT KFNSJD I LOVE LISTS THAT ARE LIKE.. HEY IT LOOKS THE SAME BUT IT ISN'T!! WITH DETAILS AND ALL

STILL, POOR LIL GUYS :C

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Mass Effect: Andromeda 30 Day Countdown Ryder Meme

I’ve been super distracted with moving and the shit with my car, so here have a giant info dump for my Ryder(s). Day 15-9

15 Days: Delve into the Ryder family background - how is/was their relationship with their father, sibling and mother? Do they get along, hero worship, close twin connection, sibling rivalry, was it strained, was it distant, etc.

OH BOY ITS A GOOD THING I ALREADY HAVE A POST ABOUT THIS SAVED IN MY DRAFTS. I HOPE YOU ARE READY FOR THIS. (Note: I am very torn between good relationship with Alec (I’m very close with my dad, so the alternative is foreign to me?) and what we saw in the first 13 min preview of the very gruff, strict, standoffish military dad. So I’m building all of this with a grain of salt, as canon may knock it all down.)

Before their father got promoted and basically made it big in the military, they were dirt poor. Scott got braces and it pretty much broke the bank. Sara wore glasses, and by that time laser eye treatment is pretty common place, but they couldn’t even afford that. Being poor+ military brats that moved a lot = unpopular young Ryder twins. It also didn’t help that they were brilliant kids which glasses + braces = GIANT NERDS to the other kids. Scott and Sara were always super close because of this.

Scott was the poster boy for the miracle of puberty. Super awkward with his braces and a bad case of acne. But by the end of the Ryder twins junior year, suddenly he was a total hottie? Sara is confused and also jealous. Girls who made fun of the both of them were suddenly asking to be introduced to her brother. Scott blossomed with his new popularity, while Sara stayed the shy bookish girl. She still got teased and bullied, but god forbid Scott find out because he would BEAT YO ASS. Boy will laugh anything off unless Sara is involved.

Both twins are super genius level smart though, not just Sara. Sara is good at physical sciences (esp biology and chem), english, psychology, and humanities. Everyone thought she was going to be a doctor, and was super surprised when she announced she was enlisting. Scott is better at physics, math, and engineering. He also has a weirdly good memory when it comes to history and dates. (whether or not he recognizes the importance of said events or even cares is another matter) The Alliance wept tears of joy when he enlisted as an engineer.

Their father did everything he could to promote his kids education, which he saw as the most important thing. He trained them in self-defense since they were young, but started them on a specialized regimen based on his N7 training when they were a bit older.

It was actually Sara’s idea; Scott had been getting into a lot of trouble at and outside of school, and poor Alec was super stressed from work already. Sara insisted it was because Scott was bored at school and not being challenged enough. She suggested Alec give Scott some special one on one training. Alec agreed. For a while, it was just Alec and Scott, but after coming home from a few late night training sessions to find dinner already made, Scott realized how lonely Sara must have been by herself. So he swallowed his pride and insisted Sara be included too. Sara didn’t enjoy the training quite like Scott, but she did enjoy the strange “family time” together. (It’s either that, or when Sara first mentioned the idea, Alec insisted that Sara receive training too. She didn’t really want it, but she did as dad said.)

It isn’t until they both enlist that they realize quite how big of a deal their dad is. They always knew, but they didn’t KNOW. Sara is proud to be her father’s daughter, and just wants to make him proud (and not embarrass him). Scott is proud as well, but after countless comparisons to his dad, he starts to grow a little resentful of his father’s success. He goes from worshiping his father to wanting to escape Alec’s shadow and make a name for himself.

Training and being stationed for the Alliance was the first time Sara and Scott had been separated for an extended period of time. It was really tough on them both (though Scott tried to hide it). They chat and send messages as much as possible, with Sara still mothering Scott despite him being on a totally different planet.

There hasn’t been any word about the twins mom yet (HMMM SUSPICIOUS, WHAT IS THIS ABOUT RYDER FAMILY SECRETS HMMMMMM?????), so I don’t want to go building up a too serious headcanon yet, only to have it totally destroyed by canon. But my general thought is that she was a scientist that was working on the AI SAM with Alec. She died when the twins were fairly young. Alec became a lot more distant after, throwing himself into his work on SAM. No one would ever say it to his face, but a lot of people think he is using the Andromeda Initiative to escape his past/memories of his wife.

Also, something I’ve been thinking about lately: Are the twins Alec’s only children? Do they have siblings? (I don’t headcanon that they do, but who knows?)

14 Days: Describe some important or formative events in Ryder’s history. How did these impact and shape them?

-I’ve already talked about how being poor has made at least Sara thrifty and constantly worry about money, and how being bullied made Sara more shy and Scott both hate bullies and also be more protective of Sara. I imagine if their mother DID die when they were young, Sara would have stepped into a motherly role with both her father and brother. Alec never acknowledges it, and Scott only does in indirect ways (helping out with chores, making sure to thank Sara when she cooked, etc). ((One year he got her a mother’s day card. He meant it as a joke, since she constantly mothered him, but she got really emotional and absolutely loved it, thinking he meant it for real. He felt so bad, he never told her the truth. But he gets her a card every year now.))

The only other situation I can think of that is formative is one for Scott, even though it technically happened to Sara. The twins always walked home from school together, but Scott was a horny teenager, and he wanted to stay late at school to “hang out” with a girl. Sara wasn’t happy, but she started home by herself. On the way home, she was attacked by a group of thugs. She already had a few years of Alec’s training under her belt, so she was able to fight them off, but she did get a little beat up. Alec of course chose that day to come home early from work. Scott got home a bit later, and Alec immediately questioned why he wasn’t with his sister. Before Scott had a chance to reply, Sara covered for him, saying that Scott stayed late for a group project, and that she volunteered to go home alone. Alec was hesitant to believe her, but Sara never lied, so he let it go. After that, Scott made a point to make sure she was never alone when she was out, and became extremely protective of her. It also basically cemented his loyalty and friendship to his sister as the one person he could trust above all others.

13 Days: Why did Ryder join the Alliance military? Later on, what were Ryder’s reasons for signing up to the Andromeda Initiative? Were they seeking adventure (or glory, or a challenge), wanting a new start, running from something, following their family, trying to secure a future for humanity, did they simply feel railroaded into it, etc.

-For Scott, it was an easy choice. He idolized his father, and being surrounded by the Alliance his whole life, he couldn’t see himself doing anything else. He was chomping at the bit to enlist, having dreamed of being a soldier like his dad ever since he could remember. Sara’s reasons are a little more complicated. Even she isn’t 100% sure why she did it. Part of it is because of her father’s position. It was an easy in, and she grew up with people expecting both twins to at least consider following in their father’s footsteps. Part of it was also her being cost-conscious for her future. She knew she wanted to go to college and potentially study to be a doctor, and the Alliance had great education plans to help her do just that. There was also the subtle fear of separation and abandonment she had. She was scared that if both her father and brother were in the Alliance and she wasn’t, the distance between her and them would get bigger and bigger, until they were practically strangers.

- When Alec tells them that he plans to depart on the Andromeda Initiative, and invites them along, Scott and Sara have very different reactions. Scott is all for it; the chance for the great adventure and glory he hasn’t been able to get stationed on Arcturus. Sara honestly doesn’t want to go. She likes working with the scientists on Mars, and she is content with her life as it is. BUT, the idea of being left behind, of never seeing her family again? THAT is far worse than the uncertainty of traveling to Andromeda.

12 Days: How will Ryder feel upon waking up from cryo? Relieved, excited, scared, impatient to get going, lost, etc.

-(FIRST 13 MINS SPOILERS BELOW) At first Sara was relieved, mixed in with some disbelief and nervousness. She WOKE UP, which was good. It was a bit too much to wrap her head around the fact that they were in ANOTHER GALAXY at first. But then it was the fact that THEY WERE IN ANOTHER GALAXY. AND SHE WAS GOING TO HAVE TO HELP FIND A WHOLE LOT OF PEOPLE A NEW HOME. Not to say she wasn’t excited, but the nerves were very loud. When they crashed, Scott’s pod was damaged, and they found out their “golden world” wasn’t so golden, things got serious really fast, and that only upped her nerves. She was determined to do her best though, her thoughts with Scott the entire time.

-Scott is SO EXCITED. SO EXCITED. Like, golden retriever puppy excited. Here it is, his grand adventure! He was so excited to go exploring with Sara, dad, and the rest of the team!

And then they crashed, Sara’s pod got damaged, and his grand adventure turned very serious very very quickly. It was a bit like having a balloon popped, but Scott is committed to taking care of those still on the ship, especially his sister. He was still going to have his adventure, but it won’t be quite the happy, enjoyable, family trip he was expecting.

11 Days: Once in Andromeda, what are Ryder’s goals? What drives them?

-Sara’s main concern is making sure everyone on the Arc and Nexus are safe and find a sustainable home. There are a lot of people relying on her, and it’s a responsibility she does not take lightly. On a lighter note, she wants to learn everything she can about Andromeda, as everything about it fascinates her.

-Scott came out to have a good time, and is feeling so attacked right now. But honestly, he is committed to being a good pathfinder and finding a new home, though he may not be as serious as Sara on the surface. He just wants to ENJOY himself as he explores. That’s not too much to ask for, is it?

10 Days: Will Ryder ever miss the Milky Way? What things and places will they miss most?

-Sara absolutely does. She left behind a lot of friends, and a life she really enjoyed. She tries not to think about the fact that most everyone she knew is dead now, thanks to cryostasis and the traveling.

-Scott, on the other hand, honestly doesn’t miss much. He had a few friends, and he does miss them, but he wasn’t super close to anyone. He misses places more than people or things. The mountains their dad would take them hiking in. Those spots on the Citadel only someone who was born and raised there would know about. But he has new friends and new places to explore now.

9 Days: Did Ryder have any notable friends or connections in the Milky Way? How about past relationships? Which friendship or relationship was the most significant to them?

-Sara became quite good friends with the Prothean scientists she worked with. She found it nice not being the only “nerd” around, and not worry about what they thought of her. Scott made a few friends on Arcturus, but they were mostly “Wow this sucks, our commanding officer sucks, etc” complaining together because they were in the same boat kinda friends. I also headcanon that they both are probably close with some of the higher ups in the Alliance due to their dad (like calling a high ranking officer “uncle”), but that’s another “lets make sure canon doesn’t destroy the fledgling idea first”.

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Hi! I have been having an off day I’m kinda exhausted and anxious slightly snappy haha. I was wondering how would the darkling react to an anxious reader that he cares about. 😊

a/n ive been a little MIA but im working i promise!! i felt really apathetic about writing for awhile bc of some personal stuff but ive been trying to get back into it bc im genuinely happier when i write :)

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- ok so i think how he reacts to an anxious person that he cares about depends on where you're at in the relationship,, which might be kinda a 'duh' but it needs to be said for how im setting this up lol

- bc if he's kinda just starting to figure out his feelings, i think he'd be so surprised by how much he cares that he has to hold back his immediate reactions, bc he may have his faults but he's def protective once he realizes something is affecting/hurting the person he sees as the sun

- that protectiveness stems from wanting to be what makes you happy, he wants to feel like he's your shelter so that he feels like he's good enough for you. He wants you to be happy so he can feel your warmth but he also really wants the redemptive feeling that comes from knowing that he's your protector in a way.

- he wants to protect and make you happy so bad, sometimes you need to be like 'umm...i really appreciate that you want to torture the person that bumped into me a little too hard on a bad day,, but maybe let's not??' especially if you are still in that phase where he kinda scares/intimidates you bc you know him more as the General

- not only are his more over the top reactions a little scary bc you don't want to offend him by not wanting to talk about it to avoid blowing the situation up,, they're also confusing

- bc you had no idea he cared if you lived or died let alone cared if you were nervous or not?? but sometimes it makes you feel really comforted, bc if someone as hardened as the darkling can care that much about how youre feeling than you can't be as awful as you're feeling

- and it's also comforting bc he's clearly strong and powerful and when he puts a hand on your shoulder and stares at you like you're the only tangible thing in the world and telling you that he's not going to let anything happen to you,, the rational part of your anxiety is appeased to say the least.

- alright but that's at like the first stage of the relationship for him, bc i feel like he def has like twenty stages he goes through before finally being in a committed relationship bc even though he wants an attachment and love so badly bc he hates his eternal loneliness, he has a lot of layers to work through before he feels secure enough in you as a person to risk vulnerability

- so if he's at the point where he's accepted what he feels for you,, but has yet to really act on it, this is where he starts to give himself away a little

- like you'll mention being stressed about training in the Little Palace, or not getting along with someone and he immediately jumps to encouraging you. It's kinda funny bc at first he seems like he's just trying to be a supportive pal bc at this point ur sorta friendly (at least more friendly than anyone else is with the darkling) but then he kinda losses himself in talking about how amazing you are.

- and if youre feeling anxiety/bad bc of someone in particular, you better not mention their name unless you're 100 percent sure you're furious at them.

- sometimes it causes some strain bc you don't necessarily want him to get involved, and he's not above lowkey guilting you into telling him the full story, but it's not really intentional. He just starts talking about how much trust he puts in you and you just let the little things go after making him promise to leave things alone.

- if your anxiety is general,, or just bc of a. bunch of little things and he's at a point in which he's accepted how much he cares about you but has not told you yet,, he'll try to hide how soft he feels, but sometimes he slips up.

- honestly, i wouldn't be surprised if a really big relationship milestone came from that.

- like you crying one night and the darkling finding you, and then him taking you back to your room and promising to stay so that you don't have to feel alone and then the next morning you wake up and he's holding you

- at first ur like ?? but he acts so normal you're like maybe that can be platonic? but then it starts happening more and more and neither of you mention it and then when you two finally do get together youre like 'ohh? im stupid'

- and if your anxiety comes from your worry about him?? wow--he'll have to stop himself from kissing you

- this is a man who is so used to being hated/feared that the concept of someone worrying about him so much they physically don't feel well?? that would hit him STRAIGHT in the chest, and he'd be so quick to pull you to him, and then you'd be like--are you ok??

- wouldn't be surprised if that's how you found out he had feelings for you,, like he'd say something like "i didnt know the brightest star in the sky could want to protect the darkness instead of banish it. You're the brightest light I've ever known, it was more than enough for me that you weren't repulsed by my darkness...and now..."

- anyways,, if you were already established together and you were anxious, he would have no need to hold back

- if he notices your hesitant to let him 'help' he might do a thing or two to reduce sources of your stress without telling you...which sometimes leads to you getting a little mad, but depending on how extreme his actions were, he normally smoothes it over quickly

- i mean,, it's just how he shows that he cares, he's never had someone that could snap their fingers and get rid of his adversaries or reschedule a thing or two to make his life easier

- he sees no harm in it,, and even though sometimes other people may give you a bit of a hard time bc of his evident favoritism,, you know it just means he cares

- if he goes really far, you're more willing to be mad at him, but honestly when youre upset all you want is to be near him bc there's nothing more comforting,, so you agree to hold off on arguing lol

- i mean there are always lines that get crossed, so there are times he cant charm himself out of your anger, but the longer youre together the more he tries to hold off on doing things that make you really angry,, unless he feels like the person really hurt you, then nothing can stop his anger

- if youre actually together he's much more quick to comfort you physically if youre feeling really anxious,, he'll kiss you everywhere until he's all you can think about, which works for when your anxious over small things

- if your problem is larger, he cant exactly kiss it away though i cant say that doesnt help but it's still comforting and relaxing bc duh,, so i feel like he's really touchy if youre upset

- kissing sometimes leads to other stuff,, but that should be its own fic/headcanon bc i have a secret head cannon that feeling needed or like the only one his partner has is a turn on for him bc it returns some of the power he feels like he gives up by letting his partner care about him

- might have to write that fic now that im thinking about it....

- if youre so anxious you dont want to be touched, it'll be a little harder for him, but if he reaches for you and you back away he'll try to talk you down and remind you that he's not going to let anything happen and as long as he's breathing he'll make sure you're okay

- if youre officially together and youre anxious about something small, he's actually surprisingly nice to talk to,, before you were close you felt like you were bothering him with small, insignificant things,, but once you know that he cares about you he's a patient listener bc he likes being really present with you when he can bc he's busy so often

- sometimes if youre worried or upset he jumps to anger towards the object of your distress before comfort, but once youre at the dating part, you know that that's just how he is, and anger is how he shows love in a way?? lol, so you just have to clearly tell him that you'd rather him stay with you then rush out and like smite someone, he'll stop and comfort you

- sometimes how much he cares makes him angry at himself bc he begins to question if he'd pick you/your happiness over his goal, if he can't convince himself that you'd never get in the way of that, he gets a little cold until he feels assured in his loyalties or at least assured in the fact that your happiness would never conflict with his goals

- that can happen at any point in your relationship,, i feel like it'd happen more when he's unsure about his feelings bc seeing how much he cares about someone that's nothing to him makes him want to banish his nerves

- overall though,, once he cares about you, whether he's fully accepted it or not, he'd burn the world down to make you feel okay again,, or stay in bed with you for awhile, or both--whatever you want, really

[daddy-daichis]

Yesterday the very beautiful and talented @fuwari-s tagged me in this game and since that post is already really long i figured id make a new one lol  (Also thank you for tagging me, it made me so happy)

The Game: Tag your 2D lovers + the other trend I saw yesterday and wanted to do which is Would you actually date them IRL. So ill put that under the cut because it is a lot.

HQ: Atsumu, Daichi, Issei, Bokuto, Hinata, and Kyoutani

BNHA: Bakugou, Denki, and Hawks

JJK: Sukuna and Mei Mei

Others: Kagami from KNB, Levi and Jean from AOT, and Mikoto Suoh from K

So if you want to know if i would date them irl that is below the cut lol

As for tagging... if you want to do it :) @eijirosriot @bokutosnumberonefan @hinosreis @tetsus-kitten @sugawarakoushihoe @mynameisjackattack and anyone else who wants to do one or both of these challenges.

Alright so would i date these men (+ mei mei) in real life. Short answer is yes lmao. Long answer, with some headcanons that may or may not  venture into 18+ category but only slightly. all aged up to be my age which is 26.

Atsumu - PLEASE, YES

we would be so chaotic together but he would also be really loving. As long as he can still prioritize me in a relationship, not over volleyball, just as much, then we will be golden. We would have such a good time and i feel like we would have a lot of fun bickering, which i really enjoy. Play fighting as a form of foreplay, if you will lmao. We’d probs be friends in HS and then get together after he starts playing for MSBY and he is secured in his position (and himself tbh). I just love this cocky bastard. he also gives me switch vibes and as a switch, i love that for me.

Daichi - YES

All i need is to be wrapped in his arms on the daily and i would be happy. Man would know how to take care of me and that is all. Love of my life, too good for this world. Wholesome husband. He would be able to manage my crazy side and chill me out when i get to anxious. I would want to be bratty just to get him to drop his good guy routine sometimes and I feel like he would like that.

Issei - YES

Funeral home employee can get it. Matsukawa Horse cock Issei can whisk me off my feet and straight into bed. we would have a lot of fun picking on oikawa together (out of love of course) but we would balance each other out a lot. His darker humor would go well against my lighter humor. Also I feel like our level of hotness is pretty comparable... like we aren't the prettiest in the friend group but still good (if that makes sense)

Bokuto - YES

Big ball of sunshine to light up my day, he would literally fuck the sad out of me every day I just know it. Like atsumu, as long as I am a priority to him itll work out. We also kind of have the same sad moods so I feel like we could either both just curl up on the couch together and watch a movie or bring the other out of a funk easily. I love this giant himbo so much.

Hinata - most likely yes

Pretty much the same reasons as bokuto but I feel like I would get drained of his energy faster, so he would def have to cuddle me more. For everyone else so far I can imagine being high school sweethearts, but with hinata i think he wouldnt settle down until later, or even start dating so it would probably be a lot of pining and watching him from the side lines for a while, which would be really hard tbh. but the way he would smile at me after a match would make it worth it so...

 Kyoutani - Hard YES

I love a boy with anger issues, what can i say... (cough couch my irl husband with anger issues couch couch) I would love to be his weak spot and the one person he would go to to help him not feel angry anymore. I think that my fun personality would help him to unbox himself a bit. I just want to give him cuddles and a place to feel accepted. id also i KNOW hes a monster in bed... 

Bakugou - FUCKING HARD YES, PLEASE

if he was real the things i would do to and for him... A lot like kyoutani i would want to give him a place where hes accepted, and a place where he is unconditionally loved. I would be able to handle his misguided anger and calm him down and give him space. I headcanon that hes very cuddly in private to just his S/O which is something that i love. I love his lil smirk and would do anything to get him to smirk at me. As long as he is able to set me as a priority it would work out, but that would be what he struggles with so it would be a thing we would have to talk about. But I also feel that once you say something about it he would check in with you because of course he has to be the best bf/husband. I feel like I could talk for hours about him so Ill just wrap it up by saying that I love me a passionate man who would probs be a lil possessive, and I would use that to my advantage. 

Denki - GOD YES

I really do think that denki and I are soulmates. we are both the perfect blend of funny, pervy, while still being soft. I feel like there would be a lot of mutual pining at first but he would end up the golden retriever gamer boy to my alt bisexual and thats just the perfect pairing. We would pull so much shit and then get away with it because thats just us being us. I see us being scolded by bakugou a lot for the stupid shit we would pull. Also late night drives in his shitty tuned car to taco bell while we sing alt rock songs from the 2010s. also the switch vibes are immaculate.

 Hawks - Probably

So it would honestly depend a lot on what version of hawks.. him in the hero commission is a no, because he wouldnt be able to be honest with me about a lot of stuff. Like his name, or when i can see him again, and that would give me too much anxiety. When hes free of them and is actually allowed to be himself I think it could work then. I know that he of course wants to still be the best hero, so he would have the same problems as bakugou with finding a balance, but if he wants to i think he could. He would also have a lot of trauma from his relationship with his parents and the commission so I dont know if he would be able to give his love away as freely as he wants so we could get therapy together. I love that for us. But i would happily wake up next to this beautiful birb man if he would have me.  

Sukuna - A hesitant yes

so.. the anger issues that ive mentioned before.. yes. I would like sukuna. I would be his lil bride and sit on his lap on his throne as long as he didnt kill my loved ones or my cats lmao. I would also be ok with being his and itadoris gf while hes living in itadoris head. being with him is just asking for an unhappy ending tho, whether its a life always on the run, or someones trying to kill me, or someones trying to kill him, or hes trying to kill someone. But yes i would like to be with him but that would mean sacrificing a lot. 

Mei Mei - god yessssss..

Please Mei Mei step on me and make me ur lil house wife. I see us living in a pent house apartment with the most breathtaking view of the Tokyo skyline. I would want for nothing and she could take me where ever she wanted and i would just follow her around with heart eyes.

 Kagami - YES

my basketball husband! i love him and would love to be loved by him. Id follow him wherever. He would take care of me and is just so dreamy.. also i guess the mild anger issues.. but hes really not that bad. He would just be such a good s/o. He would cook us nice dinners, wed have a few cats, and he would carry me around a lot because hes so strong. While were on the topic of strong... his stamina... everyone on this list probably has good if not great stamina... but kagami just hits different..... have you seen him in the zone? have you seen his thighs? his sex zone has got to be incredible. 

 Levi - Yes

I was going to say it depends, but really it doesn't... if were in the aot universe and hes my captain and I fall in love with him u can bet ur ass im gonna try and get with him because i could die at anytime. if its some au where he is here in our universe and somehow we meet... like of course im gonna be in love with him. our height difference isnt too bad, im only like an inch or 2 taller than him. I think we would both have a great time together. I would make him laugh, and he would help me clean, because lord knows I hate cleaning. BUT i hate cleaning because its something that I always have to do alone, and I feel like levi would have us be cleaning together like he makes the scouts do. and hes just so sexy... 

Jean - big yes

This beautiful handsome man... idk what to even say about him. Hes strong, funny, handsome, cocky, but very much full of love. would love to run away from the world with him. I feel like if he was in love with me before *tries not to give away spoilers* the marco incident (?) that after he would become very clingy and attached and im ok with that. There would have to be lots of cuddles and reassurances and i just want to see him happy and not at war, with both real life people and himself... id give him the best kisses and he would become addicted to them. 

Mikoto - No? But maybe...

I feel like we could be.. but if you watched the show then you know.. But i would love to be Homra’s princess TBH. No one would mess with me or they would have to face the wrath of my big fire boyfriend and his whole ass gang. But on the other hand I feel like Mikoto wouldnt allow himself to fall in love, so it would probably be a hush hush topic. everyone knows the boss and I are in an entanglement, but they cant talk about it. Then Anna starts asking questions to Mikoto and he has to come clean to her, which would be so cute. He tells her is a secret but she doesn't care lmao. in conclusion, I would want to, but I dont think he would let me.... Maybe friends with benefits tho....

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ok if you read all this im officially in love with you. Please take my heart. 

This took me like 2 hours to do because I love thinking about it so much. if you have any thoughts about any of this hop into my dms or comment on this because id love to hear them (especially if you think i belong with one more than the others lmao). 

[xiaophobic]

WAIT JSKDCBHN I DIDN'T SIGN MY LAST ASK HSHSHSHSH I FORGOT IM SORRY,,, but you are right my love, the one that asked for domestic genshin teams was none other than i, sunflower anon ;) ngl that wouldn't have made much sense without context so i'm glad you were able to figure it out also yes i agree with beth slander, anemo cube go brr

DON'T BE SORRY FOR GOING TOO LONG ! READING YOUR ANSWER WAS SO FUN AND YOUR TEAM IS SO CUTE HELP,,, ESP THE ONE WHERE ZHONGLI & SUCROSE WEAVE FLOWERS INTO EACH OTHERS HAIR THAT WAS ADORABLE 😭 now *rubs my grubby little hands together* brain rot sharing time

For context my main team consists of albedo, venti, xingqiu, and keqing and I’ve grown too attached to every single one of them that I have zero clue on who to switch out when wishing for eula

Venti <- this bitch is my platonic soulmate and we’d most likely beg to share rooms

I get the feeling that albedo and xingqiu would share one, bigggg room that they evenly halved. Dont ask why it just felt right, and albedo is more often in some spare room that he turned into a lab so xingqiu can invite whoever and let them crash in his room

Keqings the only one with a single room and i dont think shes mad about that because her room is,,, so full of paperworks,,, neat and orderly yes but pAPERWORKS-

Alr ive assigned rooms now so onto whatever happens inside *stretches fingers*

I’d say we’re pretty even in terms of whos responsible and whos not, so unless albedo becomes in charge of watching klee there shall be no fire to be committed

Its funny how we have a god and a nonbeliever under one roof, so i think keqing would be skeptical around venti. But of course, ventis playful nature and fun demeanor would likely win her over, so now she treats him like family as well

Though that said, she’d also find herself scolding both me and venti on our uhhhhh tendencies to be lazy HSHSHSH she fr tells me to stop procrastinating in game every five seconds, so imagine if she was put with mr wine aunt barsibado?

Cute friendship between albedo and xingqiu because theyve made a book together and two educational boys,,, the amount of braincells in one room is ridiculous

Remember when I said keqing was happy she had a single room? Its because of her rex lapis dolls. Neither venti nor xingqiu ever let her live that down.

In terms of cooking, venti and i are never allowed for our own good. Venti isnt a bad cook but hes definitely a chaotic one and i physically cant make pancakes if my life depended on it. Albedo is on cooking duty most of the time but if hes busy, xingqiu will do it (though he will throw out the carrots) because keqings often too busy

HAVE YOU SEEN THE DESCRIPTION OF ALBEDOS SPECIAL DISH?? ITS A WHOLE FANFICTION OMG

Venti making everyone flower crowns mmmmmmmmmm and specific types of flowers for each person... aw

Whenever xingqiu reads a new history book, sometimes venti will just go “LIES. THATS NOT WHAT WENT DOWN. PUT THAT BOOK AWAY AND ALLOW ME TO TELL YOU WHAT REALLY HAPPENED-”

Albedo and Keqing both staying up really late because of work and venti having to sing them songs so theyll sleep i am SOFT

A recurring theme I find in this team is that we all look like responsible upkept high society people but behind the locked doors youll find keqing trying to get venti to get tf up, xingqiu and i raving about some fanfic, and albedo making something explode in his lab on accident

Bonus because ive run out of ideas:

(keqing THIS IS A CANON VOICELINE) Sleep well... me? Uh... I still have a handful of things on my to-do list, but I'll call it a night once they are done.

(xingqiu) lady keqing… please, it's too late in the evening. Mr Kreideprinz, the new concoction, if you would.

(venti, putting down a frying pan) oh… so we’re using the potion tonight?

Okay so the quality of whatever this is isnt guaranteed and its 100% crack barely any soft HELP HSHSH but im typing this in the middle of science class so pls forgive me. I wonder how you feel when you get a super long ask in your inbox…? I hope you still dont mind ( ´^｀) have a nice day dearest!! I’ll sign off twice now so I wont forget next time KESHEJ -🌻 anon

BAE I LIKE DIDNT SEE THIS???? WAH IM SORRY FOR MY LATE RESPONSE,,

HELP YOU MFS ARE SO CHAOTIC??? THE BONUS LITERALLY HAS ME DYING WHY IS VENTI FULLY PREPARED TO KNOCK HER OUT WAGSH(<\%[^{*}

your team definitely has “burnt out gifted kid” vibes ABSHAHSHA BUT IN A GOOD WAY OF COURSE they’re just all doing their best to be their best (with the possible exception of venti, though i’d argue that around such composed characters he’d experience his own slight code switch)

i’ll give you one of my own personal headcanons and apply it to your team a bit since i feel like it fits!!

venti knows everyone he comes across, or at least can connect their face to someone he’s seen in the milleniums he’s lived — a relative or something. he’s the god of wind and freedom, so naturally he’s traveled to all nations in order to be free and see the world as he pleases.

given this, he knows everyone on your team. he can connect their faces to at least one of their distant relatives that he’s known before. that is, except for albedo, who was born of chalk. the first person in a while who he sees and knows nothing of, so he FREAKS THE FUCK OUT. he spends half of his time stressing over who he could possibly be the offspring of but ends up coming up short every time.

he falls under the impression that albedo just must be klee’s older brother who was just never mentioned, until klee confesses that they’re not related biologically. it remains the subject he loses his mind over at the bottom of each bottle.

ABAHSHAHSH I JUST LIKE THE IDEA OF VENTI BEING SECRETLY WATCHING OVER THEM ALL YKNOW? HE CARES MAN 💔

anyway, i’m sorry this was so late and i’m happy you shared with me, this was rlly a pleasure to read <33 i hope you’re doing well, and please remember to take care of yourself, sweetpea ⸜(*ˊᗜˋ*)⸝

[neerasrealm]

DONT YOU FUCKING DARE- wait- sonic.exe? okay now I wanna see you trying, bc I hate sonic and pokemon. for personal reasons

I procrastinated on this ask but lemme get straight to the point

I can’t make you horny for sonic.exe I can’t I just can’t.

BUT I CANT TELL YOU ABOUT MY HC VERISON OF HIM!!!

you’re gonna learn about the boy and you can’t stop me.

Ok so to start us off

Fuck JC the hyena

I don’t use any of his stupid lore bs LOL

The version of him I use is a boyo named Bryce! And he was created by @dragongirl2 after I jokingly said ‘sonic.exe should be scottish LOL’

yeah he’s scottish

THICK BOY ACCENT POWERFUL ENOUGH TO RIVAL LAUGHING JACK.

The story written by Meg goes as follows:

Bryce was born and raised in Scotland and eventually moved to America because of his mother’s job. In his new school he was immediately unpopular. He was shy, awkward looking, had a thick accent, and of course: a sonic fan.

Immediately a target for bullying

Fun fact: bullying in america? WAY MORE INTENSE compared to scotland.

The culture shock hit him like a truck

literally

he got shoved to the ground and hit his head HARD

dead in minutes

my canon and meg’s canon start to diverge at this point

in my headcanons, Bryce goes on to possess the laptop he had in his bag. souls becoming attached to objects is somewhat of a running theme in my lore.

however for Bryce, figuring out that he’s dead takes a while. he woke up in a cold, black void and found he couldn’t do much except just float around. he had no idea if he was in a coma or some kind of purgatory.

a few months after his death, Bryce’s laptop gets sold to a new owner.

when the laptop is turned on he suddenly finds himself outside the void. he’s floating around...numbers. binary code. he’s inside the laptop

it takes him a while to figure out how to do anything. eventually he discovers how to actively watch whats being done on the laptop. he silently watches the new owner go about their business while trying to come to grips with where he is or what he’s supposed to do.

he discovers the camera and continues his silent watching

eventually he figures out how to interact with things on the laptop. he attempts to communicate with the new owner, typing things in the notepad and trying to ask for help

Of course this freaks the owner out and they assume the laptop is hacked. they try to clean it out but that doesn’t work, and so the laptop is sold again

bryce gets passed from person to person. some people assume it’s a hacker, some are actually freaked out, and absolutely nobody believes him.

until he falls into the possession of someone from slender mansion (havent decided who yet)

they see the laptop is haunted and go ‘’aW FUCK BEN THERES A FUCKIN GHOST IN MY LAPTOP’’

long story short he and ben are Best Fuckin Friends

Bryce is kinda quiet and withdrawn- well I say that but he gets pretty heated during gaming sessions. they probably bring out the violence in him

but for the most part? he’s chill and nice

doesn’t sleep good :(

i love him ok i should talk about him more some other time

I NEED TO WRITE ABT HIM WAKIN UP...AND BEN GRABBIN HIM IM GONNA DO THAT EVENTUALLY

meg can probably talk about him better

she can definitely talk about him better

SEND HER ASKS ABOUT HIM IF YOU WANNA KNOW MORE HER HCS ARE SUPER INTERESTING TOO!!! I LOVE EM

anyway fuck X we stan Bryce in this household <3

[miaxeu]

      though the mist might prevent some from seeing it, MIA STOEGER is actually a descendent of DIONYSUS. it’s still a question of whether or not the TWENTY-ONE year old MYTHOLOGICAL STUDIES MAJOR from LOS ANGELES, USA has taken after HER godly parent completely, but the demigod is still known to be quite CHARISMATIC & DUPLICITOUS. 

( y’all dont deserve this real messy intro but im workin w half a bwain cell at 4am so i beg thee 4 mercy. nywyy im the excited new girl who’s hella pumped to meet all ur charas : katya ! feel free to hop in my ims to plot or drop a like and i’ll hop in urs ! x  )

POWERS

natural acting abilities — her ma’s a hollywoo agent so she started actin real early & now shes a big shot actress. there r more deetz on her career below !

chlorokinesis — it wasnt as natural as acting n she only started working on it when she turned 13 n started going to camps. b4 she just noticed shes good w plants but it wasnt super crazy or nything. its p good now tho ! shes prioritizing vine binding and manipulation 4 the self defense bc awards r cool n all but they dont rlly protecc from monsters ykwim 

levitation — shes trying her best ur honor

alcokinesis  — she cant conjure it or anything, she’s just immune to it ffff

BIO POINTS — cw: drug use ( full biography here )

her mom raised her by herself bc dionysus the party god was out of the picture immediately. she never told mia she’s a demigod & it was always just “ wow ur so talented ” or “ aww u got a green thumb ! ” but when she saw him claim 13 y/o mia by placing a weird hologram over her head while she slept, she knew she had to spill da beanz & tell her kid

ofc mia thought her mom was jus playing sum weird acting exercise w her bc her powers r so lowkey she could highkey just be a Mortal but insert sad whistle, the realizashun & the claiming meant heightened monster threat !! so yea ,,, one ended up chasing her a couple days later rip 

aside from the trauma, mia was ok. mostly bc she ended up cryin for dionysus like any child would n lo & behold he came & helped !!! as he should. nywy she made sure to go to summer camps every year after that but mostly just for protection purposes

she lowkey rlly hates this whole god business esp now that shes grown lmfao deadass thinks she got a bad deal bc life threats arent sexy !!! went to eonia eventually bc its Too Much Man. she just wants to go back to work and her life w the mortals w/o worryin for her life. would deadass fade her father if she could. may or may not be majoring in greek mythology to figure out the logistics of it all out of spite, who knows !

PERSONALITY

not ! a Drama Queen  —  dont get me wrong, shes hella Extra in the way she moves n acts sorta like shes always bein captured on film. is quick-witted & playful & can be a huge tease/flirt if she feels like it, but miss her w Real Feelings ! totally not sentimental. srsly she will try to rationalize away everything and is just,.,., not good w it. so soz folks, we just keepin it breezy here

ugh, she’s an Actress — aka she can act like she cares tho ! shes very much into keeping ppl on her good side. shes friendly n palatable to everyone bc its how shes been trained & while it doesnt seem fake, its def diff when its genuine

The Mortifying Ordeal of Being Known —  lemme circle back to the first one, ok so shes good w emotions but only in theory. does intense character work with her roles so she thinks that counts as her having eq when rlly shes just emotionally stunted, projecting n repressing like an idiot

blonde, skinny, rich, & a lil bit of a Bitch — shes only a bitch inwardly or to ppl she trusts enuff to let in on the gossip. if anyone full on opposes her or becomes real emotional, then this lil diva will rear its superiority complex head n snap a lil. will most probably do it v underhandedly n w a smile but it will be Brutal

girls just wanna have FUN ! — shes the child of da party god, so ofc she a true party girl. officially off the rails when she parties. inhibitions ? we dk her. can be insensitive in that case bc smtms its truly no strings attached, tis all abt the fun. likes company a lot & it doesnt even have 2 be loud or particularly abt her, she just likes having people around n the escapism of it all. will make friends with everyone n make sure they have a jolly fun time guaranteed at dionysus parties 

Work Hard, Play Hard — real responsible when it comes to work and commitments and if she trusts/likes u enough, she’ll give it 2 u straight, no bs. def thinks Calling Out is an act of love but maybe does it a lil too harshly smtms. v much into efficiency, sentiments be damned. not the feely words type. will sit next to u or party w u or even pay 4 ur therapist if u need sum1 to talk to. she will Be There while u work thru it, so long as u dont expect her to change n be all emotional n stuff

if she seems a lil contradictory thats bc she kinda is. tis the good ol nurture vs nature. her ma’s a real no nonsense chick n her pops is a frat guy drama geek greek god whos rlly into cottagecore so u get this lil blonde bitch whos sorta teetering on the edges

OTHER INFO  — cw: drug use ( full headcanons here )

re her career, she achieved pegot status when she was 18 aka she truly b dat bitch. shes not super mainstream famous tho, more like indie sweetheart, film snobs/critics fave typa gal. if ya want a trajectory she started w baby commercials then a sitcom from 4-10 ( think modern fam’s lily ) then it was off to the big screen & the stage ! 

mia has a lil bit of a drug habit. its not abusive or dependent, but it is a staple whenever shes parties bc alcohol is useless 2 her. started a lil young too bc hollywoo. primarily uppers/hallucinogens. she smokes weed a lil more liberally but the rest is mostly just an on occasion thing ( which, ngl, is a still a lil problematic when u party a lot rip )

after she got claimed, mia ended up going to demigod camps in a lot of diff places n countries, depending on where production would take her. there was never an established place, more like wherever was nearest when they wrapped up shooting bc monsters afoot n wutnot  

she was always homeschooled but she still managed to go to a prom and homecoming bc party is life. that makes eonia uni p much her first chance at having a normal educational environment & experience and even then its anything but. still tho this is her moment !!! im lit rally begging her to get a personality that isnt her internally rolling her eyes going “ its not that deep ”

might put up a bio/stats page if im feelin sxc but i wud jus like the records to show that mia stoeger is a bi sxc babe bc me ? write a het ? no grassy ass.

POSSIBLE CONNECTIONS — cw: drug use ( full connections here )

omg danny devito i love ur work ! 

,,, p self explanatory sdkjfs sum1 who loves her work ! it can be lowkey/highkey fangirl to a civil admiration

OR alternatively, y/m can Not Be a fan of her work. they might think the storyline of the projects she takes on r too out of touch n highbrow yada yada yada, but yes, we love to see either of it ! 

summer camp sweetheart !  

someone she met when at camp when they were teens ? doesnt matter in what country/city, but mia was only visiting so it was truly a one summer romance typa thing. bc she was younger, im thinkin 13-17 or w/e she was probably sweeter n a lot more emotional then. was it either’s first puppy love ? first kiss ? first “ relationship ? ” idk, do yk ? truly, so many possibilities. nothin set in stone just hmu bub 

summer camp pals ! 

p much the same as above but make it Platonic

party buddies !

or druggie pals. either way works but she wud luv it if theyre both xoxo

friends w benefits !

most probably ( but not limited to ) sum1 she met at a party skdjhsjk is it exclusive ? is any1 starting to develop feelings ? im down 4 nthing n evrything

alexa play true friend by hannah montana !

give mia her college bestie ! her confidant who knows her feels and can call each other out viciously with no ounce of resentment. we stan the friendships !

omg i love ur skirt !

that is the ugliest effing skirt i've ever seen. lmao basically sum1 mia pretends to like or acts civil w but rlly ,,,, Cannot Stand for w/e rzn   

im p much braindead rn but those are just sum ideas !!! ofc the usual staples like the pals, enemies, wutnots are also v welcome we love to see it. if u also have a wc that u think mia would fit in, id luv to know more ! there are also a couple more detailed ones here, but pls feel free to shoot me a msg n we can get 2 plotting x 

( * wipes brow * how did i type so much n say so little rip. mia is also a completely new muse so pls b patient n if i fuq up from time to time, pretend u do not see >.< nywy thnx 4 readin, sweets ! feel free to hmu here or at discord if ya wanna <3333 )

FULL INFO  ||  EONIA TASKS 

[curious-menace]

Glad you took that nap earlier then! Do you wanna talk about your riddler stuff that’s on your brain? I wouldn’t mind reading, I like reading your stuff!

oh boy a blank cheque for mayhem

you might regret this when i spend the next 4 hours rambling >:)

things that currently live rent free in my brain

so i have an idea for a fic id like to write. a reader x arkham riddler one. basic premise is that riddler is having a nightmare or has had a breakdown after the events of arkham knight. its a terrible night outside, pouring down and freezing ( as it always is in northern ireland in the winter ha.). tldr riddler comes into readers room bc he’s crying an they have a sweet little cuddle and comfort session under the blankies while listening to the rain outside.

speaking of rain. i wrote an angsty fic called Rain on my ao3. it was of riddler on the docks outside the pinkney orphanage after he realises batman abandoned him and died. i’d like to do a reader insert version and finish the sequel i have in my docs because im a sucker for angst. 

im trying to wrangle the brainworms for the second part of the telltale riddler fic. its not going how i want it to but like...im too attached to the idea to just scrap it. i want to try and make it work but like i said, brain worms not cooperating. 

constant streams of riddler angst. riddler crying and needing held like a child, riddler having a nightmare and coming to bed for comfort. riddler suffering fuels me

honestly? general nonsense with various riddlers. like just imagining he’s with me in the grocery store saying funny shit, keeping myself entertained in quarantine by imagining him in various scenarios ( which is how i sometimes get my headcanon ideas)

i have a SHITLOAD of character abc’s, nsfw and sfw alphabet stuff to do  for arkham riddler ( all 4 of them) arkham scarecrow, blacklight riddler and my oc/selfie shepherd. these things are min 5000 words and i just cant be bothered with it right now. i WANT to do it but like. as soon as i open the document i get discouraged by the sheer scale of the task

my tablet is gathering dust at the end of my sofa. again, i WANT to draw but i just dont have the mental energy . its probably why im blazing through these asks, i can sit on my butt on the sofa and just type i dont really have to focus too much, just imagine my riddling boys in whatever scenario the asker wants.

id like to draw some scenes from my fics. ive done some shipping things on my main account of blacklight shep and blacklight riddler. there is a fic i wrote called “hiccups” where shepherd adjusts eds tie. its very sweet and id like an excuse to draw her a fancy outfit bc her normal one is plain compared to riddlers gold garb. 

speaking of my fics. these damned prompts from my main account: Edward: After this is over, feel free to lose my number Jonathan giving Edward a back massage when they flop on the couch or bed. Shepherd and Edward getting sick at the same time. i got a friend to send me these so i could use them but this was BEFORE i decided to start a batman blog. they drive me nuts every time i see them because they arent on the batman blog and theyre just messy and they just SIT THERE. 

lastly, and i cannot stress this enough, i NEED to write down my blacklight au. it needs to get out of my head and onto paper before i forget like i did last time. tldr my blacklight au is a sort of remix of the injustice world, where superman is evil. it starts off with kid shepherd meeting kid scarecrow and ends with her world hopping to the arkhamverse. i don't know if you've read dark knights metal or know about the Nth dimensions or any of that but i'm trying to bring some of that dc canon into blacklight without making it hella complicated. i should just focus on building up to what would be the start of the injustice story before i get ahead of myself but you all know me. i'm an excitable over-writer with too many ideas .

maybe i should write them down first or something. like on paper rather than a fic or bullet points . sometimes physically writing it helps you get your ideas out...

i have a few other riddler brain worms right now but im keeping this sfw so those worms will stay firmly hidden in my brain closet, where they belong XD

ANYWAY

thank you for asking. its nice to just have, as i put, a blank cheque for mayhem and space to ramble. no one irl in my life is interested in batman so i have to save it all up for this blog and discord 

oh well. cest la vie

- shep 💙 

[offtopicoverload]

Howdy there!! Who are the li’s you fancy the most from LITG??

hi! thanks for the ask!

i honestly dunno who’s my top answer, cuz they’re all interesting in their own way

I’m only going to talk about female LIs cuz the only male routes I’ve finished are Bobby and Jake, and I tapped through most of Jake and only ended with Bobby on my first run cuz I never unlocked Marisol, so I’m not the best source lol

Talia:

She’s just so chill but has no problem standing up for MC, she has her back no matter what

Which, like, what a queen

She’s the original and only one of 4 LIs, which maybe it’s just me, but for a game based on an incredibly heteronormative reality show, allowing representation for queer audiences from launch is such a big deal and so cool to me, so Talia’s kind of special in my mind

She was also my first LI so nostalgia points

And she’s such an easy LI, not much drama on her route outside of Lucy, just her having MC’s back as the boys make themselves look like idiots

And she has so much potential, like I know some people think her only personality trait is fancying MC, which I mean, is a little fair, but there’s so many opportunities for her in fics and headcanons to develop the good amount of information we got on her in 13 days

I absolutely love how self-aware and confident she is

She just went for what she wanted, struggled a bit with commitment at first, because who wouldn’t, but after that it was smooth sailing

Like obviously what she said in the Beach Hut at the beginning of the season wasn’t great for MC, but she knew exactly what she wanted out of her time on the show

She was confident in herself and her sexuality so much so that she was just down to have a fling with a girl and not worry about how it would effect the show

And then she *coupled up* with that same girl, not even giving a shit about the rules or anything

A queen

Allegra:

I know she’s not an official LI, but her arc is what got me into writing so she gets a million points for that

I love what could have been done with her progression if she was given an actual route, I’m a sucker for some good enemies to lovers, but alas, she’s canonically a bad bitch with a lot of internalised homophobia yet enough confidence to ask MC out

I still love her

Marisol:

I know so many people hate her, and I get it, but I do really like her growth

Maybe it’s cuz I’m pretty analytical too, but her analyses never bothered me or anything, and now that I’ve played her route so many times, it’s pretty obvious that that’s a defense mechanism, and I understand that

She very much so has a “figure their weaknesses out before they have a chance to figure mine out” attitude, and I’m 99% positive it’s because of the ex that Elisa reminded her of

So not only has she been burned in the past, I’m willing to bet it was by the only woman she’s been in a serious relationship with

I really have no problem with her commitment issues, it’s understandable, and I can really empathise with her fear of coming out, it’s absolutely terrifying even if you’ve accepted it and bought a flag, saying the words can be really difficult

My biggest issue is her entitlement and immaturity, I guess?

Like her using Graham to make MC jealous just feels like an excuse to crack on with him and still have MC available for when she’s ready

I understand her being scared to couple up, but playing games to distract herself just made things with MC worse

And unless youre on her route, and sometimes even when you are, it’s clear to me that she expects things and has no problem saying what they are, but going after them is a problem?

Like her going after Lurik even though they don’t have a connection, or Gary even when he’s with Hannah

But then it never works and she gets sad and I melt because I’m weak

ALSO, can I just say how awful it is that Lucas and Henrik don’t pick her unless they have to???

Like cmon she deserves MC after that

And when they finally couple up? And she’s all soft? The GROWTH ohmygod

Anyway I love who Marisol became, maybe not everything she started out as, but definitely the person she ended the season as, more confident and self assured and willing to be vulnerable

It’s precious

Elisa:

I still haven’t done an Elisa route

I tried to a couple months ago, but dumping Marisol felt so cruel, what the hell was Fusebox thinking with that?? 

I do really like that they learned from their mistake though, even if they went in the opposite direction

From what I’ve seen of Elisa, she can be pretty sweet, I’ve seen her described as a Lucas-Bobby hybrid, and while that’s not the most interesting personality to me, I will say that she’s a really cool character that FB messed up on

Why did they make her a straight up villain???

And why ONLY her???

None of the other female LIs have been villains or had such a complete 180

Like her going from shouting at Chelsea, who is literally meant to be MC’s ride or die and the person outside of your LI that youre supposed to want to defend and avenge, to “i cant even sleep because im pining so hard”

I know the treatment of black women has been discussed before, specifically in regards to Hope and Erikah, and it is by no means my place to speak on it, but I definitely think something’s going on with Elisa

Anywayyyy, I love her archetype

The celebrity and influencer has so much potential, to the point that I wrote a one shot without even knowing her lmao 

And she’s so confident in a way that’s so different from Marisol

She doesn’t even care if MC’s happily coupled up, she WILL get in her pants and I respect that

In conclusion, Fusebox did her dirty and I’m probably going to try and retcon some canon for her in the future

Lottie:

Ohmygod

Lottie

A goth babe

Lottie

Yeah, anyway, so I love her

Her growth is just unbeatable in my opinion

Yeah, she still has her flaws by the end of the season, but she went from ready to rip everyone’s throat out to biting her tongue around Hannah

And her and MC???

And the development between them??? 

Ugh

No matter what way you swing it, you’ve either got best friends to lovers or enemies to lovers and I adore both

And her aesthetic is one of my favourites, I’m alt myself and having a character like that is just so cool

My Runaways MC is a ball of sunshine with some hidden darkness specifically because Lottie’s such a dark cloud but can start shining with the right person, and that’s my absolute favourite trope

But man were the wedding episodes a cop out

Why couldn’t they give her the Noah treatment? Or the single treatment? Where they just get together after the show? Same with Hannah, why are they giving such an intense confession after who knows how long of literally nothing, like no communication even????

Don’t get me wrong, I kinda simultaneously love it for the angst and yearning, but it just… makes no sense?

So yeah, amazing bat lady that I seriously vibe with and wish my MC could have wifed up

Hannah:

I know this is a little controversial buuuut

I fucking love Hannah

But only OGHannah, Returning Hannah was butchered and I will never let that go

And it was such a toxic message too, that she needed to change herself and her appearance just to get a guy to like her?

Fuck that, Original Hannah was amazing and perfect exactly as she was

I love her trope, too, the naivety and how obvious and clear it was that she’s still learning about the world and relationships, to the point that it’s going to get her in trouble

And her obsession with fairy tales? 

Fucking adorable ohmygod

I started a fic a while ago that I think I’m gonna scrap, that just indulged in the fairy tale metaphors and stuff because I just love how cute it is lmao

If she wasn’t dumped, I think she could have had amazing growth alongside Lottie, and their friendship/kinda, probably, most-definitely-if-MC’s-not-there-more-than-a-friendship growing together would have been so good

In an alternate reality Hope was dumped instead, and that helps me sleep at night

I firmly stand by the fact that Noah should have been the deciding factor between Hope and Hannah/MC, where Lottie said something that screwed with his head earlier in the day to make sure her friends were safe

Noah should have saved Hannah/MC and Hope should have returned with Rocco, hellbent on revenge and proving herself

That would have been so good for Noah stans and such good drama, that actually made perfect sense

Hope was fully expecting that she’d get picked by Noah because they’d spent three days attached at the hip and then to just… not have that happen. It would have driven her insane and if there was then a scene with MC where she just like, gives up

Like she’s spent the past two days grafting Noah but he won’t make up his mind and she’s just done and MC can comfort her or fight with her and you just get to humanize her make her vulnerable and hurting and I fucking WISH they did something like that, even for RHannah

And Hannah’s growth in the Villa would have been so amazing

I think her idea of a perfect guy is definitely too much, and I’m not advocating that she settles by any means, just that she could have learned that there are things more important than money

That conversation on day 1 where you choose between money, kindness, and intelligence still baffles me

Like why are you a gold digger Hannah?!?!

Why don’t you just want a Prince/ss Charming???

Her and Hope should have swapped and I don’t understand why they weren’t

I mean, I do really like Hope, but Hannah’s just so cute and has so much to learn and her struggling in the Villa just to have a lightbulb moment with MC would have been precious and now I want to write it dammit

Anyway, Hannah is adorable and had so much potential and she never should have returned if they were just going to scrap everything that made her Hannah, except for snooty literature

I wanna listen to her rattle on about Belle and Mulan and every other Disney Princess and what they meant for representation and progress in media and then compare them to their original stories like a dweeb and I would have melted on the spot

Like yes, please tell me more about how gruesome Cinderella is

She should have shown up at the finale and hugged MC and been innocent and sweet so I could have just lost my shit for like a half hour

But stan OGHannah, burn RHannah

AJ:

Adorable, precious, denied an arc outside of coming out

I am not exaggerating when I say that I cried at 4:30 in the morning at her blushing face when playing the first two days

It’s just so fucking cute and I’m a sap and I don’t know why it made me cry, but it did okay?!

And her coming out was such good representation!!! By far the best thing in Boat Party, and I’m so proud of the progress FB’s made in queer representation at the very least

I know she’s pretty one dimensional, but most of S3 is unfortunately

Her being available right off the bat was also such a win, I’m positive it’s the reason she had so many stans

If her and Yasmin had switched or her and Lily, they would have been the ones that were dominating Reddit polls and stuff

And I know she’s written as masc but I just can’t really see it? Like I can’t see her in a dress, but outside of a few clothing items, I guess I just can’t see it? Maybe androgynous is more the word for my image of her, like definitely a mix

She’ll wear a skirt under the right circumstances, but never a dress, a crop top with a flannel, her prom outfit that’s like a frilly jumpsuit, stuff like that? idk im not a lesbian

Her route for me was so glitchy, but I know that if MC’s stolen from her by Yasmin, Tai, or Ciaran, she has some really cute scenes and I wish I could have seen them

And I know some people were ragging on her for the eyelash at the end of the scene but I thought that was just a perfect callback - maybe it’s the writer in me

Basically, AJ’s adorable and why did Ciaran have to split her and MC up, not cool dude

Yasmin:

I forgot I was doing a Yasmin route a while ago, but from what I’ve seen and played, she’s really sweet 

I hate that she’s almost nonexistent outside of her route

Give us a mysterious musician friend, you cowards!

I saw that she sings to MC on the final date and damn is that cute

Her eyeshadow kinda throws me off, but her stuffed animal makes up for it

And I’m salty that Yasmin the Lamb disappeared too, that was such a nice detail that made me start a Yasmin route

She’s distant and self-assured, but has a soft, gooey, nostalgic center and I wish we saw more of that, even if we weren’t on her route

My final thoughts on Yasmin: An artsy indie icon that I really need to stop getting distracted from and finish her route

Lily:

Again, don’t know much about her, but she seems really cool

Her shaving her head between the finale and Boat Party is such a flex and I wish she did it right before Boat Party so we could see her in all her bald glory

She’s into cars, right? And… architecture?

Idk, I barely remember my own name, let alone a 10 minute date from months ago

But I’ll definitely get around to doing her route at some point, maybe just to write for her, we’ll see

Elladine:

I know she’s not an LI, but MC so should have been able to run away with her

I missed that option in S3

I kinda get why they didn’t do that, but Boat Party’s just so messy in general

And I would include Genevieve here, but she’s so cute with Seb that I’d feel bad splitting them up

But Elladine had actual problems with Nicky!!!

Why did they mention it for it to never pay off??

And I’m so mad that the hype around her died when it was revealed she wasn’t an LI or the badass of the season, because I still adore how sweet she is

I also want to brag that before we got a name I was calling her Emma and that’s just on example of my almost psychic-ness

But yeah I wanted Ell to be a run away option and I’m salty that she wasn’t

Know what, fuck it, Viv too, she’s smart and cool as hell, let us love these awesome women FB, you cowards!!!

I have no idea who would be my number 1 based on canon, but if we’re talking hypotheticals, I think my answer, as strange as it is, is Hannah.

I just love what she could have been, but by no means what she is. 

It’s so awkward to know her for three days, not see her for three weeks, then spend a couple more days with, a couple weeks at most, just for her to write a whole ass book about MC?? And tell her about it with that hair????

No thanks, I’ll stick with closeted sapphic horse girl nerd Hannah because I guess that’s somehow my type??? Oh god what the fuck I swear I’m not a total weirdo

[jaehyunskitten22]

Vampire!Wonho x Chubby!Reader

I wrote this during study hall lol (jESUS I STARTED THIS TWO YEARS AGO)

Damn im old fam

Anyway let me know if you guys want a continuation of this okay i love you 💖😚

anyway lets do this thang

also in this headcanon wonho was probably changed in the 1400s js

Wonho was probably changed due to his helpful and caring nature.

A woman most likely approached him and acted like she was in distress. She lured him into a dark alley and attacked him, with the intent of draining him dry. (but she was interupted by another vampire shownu  whom heard the noise of the struggle and grew concerned)

Wonho is at first devastated. He loves his friends and family so much and the fact that a monster took them away from him angers him a great deal. 

When Shownu had first tried to take him in he was quite defensive.

He thinks about getting himself killed a lot, just to end the never ending loneliness and pain. 

He eventually joins Shownu but he still doesn’t abandon the thought of dying. 

he naturally has a protective personality, so i imagine that being a vampire would only intensify it

I also don’t see him as the sexy kind of vampire, i see him more as the local boy next door vampire lol

Anyway him being protective would be how he met you

He was walking around one day, enjoying the fresh air when he heard a scream coming from an alleyway and he ran to go and investigate it

when he reached the source, he saw that it came from a frightened girl that was being cornered by a sketchy looking vampire

and its just a universally accepted rule that children, pregnant women and people who couldn’t protect themselves were all off limits, just based off of morals and principle

And based on the way the vampire was standing over you, he could tell that you were being tracked or hunted down, which almost enrages hoseok

But he is good at communicating with people so he definitely keeps it cool and tries to look like he is unaffected to try and throw the other vampire off

He asks him what the problem is and he is informed that you are just a lost girl who was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. 

but based on your clothing, hoseok can kind of tell that you are important and if you get killed it’s going to bring attention to the vampire population and that is really not good

and hoseok is just like ???  because how can anyone be willing to inflict harm on such a sweet and soft looking girl??? and all because she got lost???

so he’s just like ‘lol no’ and tells the vampire to get lost and he does because hoseok is a very intimidating looking vampire because of how big he is

and of course you are still terrified and confused and he doesn’t have the heart to ruin your perception of safety in your fragile little world so he offers to help you find your way home

and he isn’t expecting you to be so willing to go with him but you look up at him with such an innocent but sad look and now hoseok just feels unworthy to be in your presence because you look so fragile and innocent and he very much is not

and you’re so trusting, which can get you really hurt by a vampire, as they like taking advantage of naive humans

and your hands are really soft and warm and he really just wants to get you home and in bed because its getting dark and he wants to know you’re safe before the really scary vampires come out to play

and really hoseok doesn’t want anything other than you getting into bed and going to sleep so he knows that you’re okay

so after he drops you off he runs away a little confused because he doesn’t really get why he cares so much about you but he doesn’t think too much about it because he thinks that he won’t ever see you again anyway

You were the daughter of a high ranking official and after the night where you were attacked in the alley you are plagued by terrifying nightmares and you wake the castle up with your sobbing and screaming

Shownu and the others are pretty close to your father but wonho knows absolutely nothing about you due to the fact that he is so withdrawn and he rarely attends things with the others.

but eventually they all convince him to go one day and as he grows cloer to the castle he remembers the night he met you and he gets really excited to see you again despite his better judgement

when he sets eyes on you he gets very happy. like a smile so big spreads across his face that it looks like it will split his face in half and you’re so shy with him

and all of the other boys are in the background nudging eachother bc they notice how affectionate and soft wonho is for you

they are also a little hesitant though bc wonho is so skittish and angry but it all changes once he sees you again? he’s so happy and he becomes more friendly and chatty and he talks about how he wants to see you again

and thats great and all,,, but he can sometimes be a little impulsive and when he gets really hyped up and frisky after not feeding for a bit 

he talks about wanting to sneak into your room and they all try to keep him from doing that but they cant watch him every night you get me?

so one day he sneaks out and climbs up to your window and easily gets in and he is very keen on waking you up and cornering you and basically devouring you because he’s not thinking straight

but when he sneaks into your room later on that night he sees you shuddering in bed from a nightmare and he can’t find it in himself to even pretend that he was going to hurt you. 

he instead jumps down from your window sill and creeps into your room, studying your whimpering form very carefully. 

He could see every detail of your face from across the room but he didn’t want to stay that far away. 

And he really knows that he shouldn’t. like he really knows. 

But he still gently sinks down into the chair next to your bed and just watches you

now that he’s thinking clearly and is very worried about you he tries to memorize every single one of your features, (not in a creepy way) He doesn’t know why he wants to do this but he does it anyway. 

He notices that you smell really pleasing to him, like apples and dried leaves. (he doesn’t know what that means but he does know that he has a strong urge to protect you and its ridiculous how hard he has to try in order to hold back the snarl at the nightmare that is plaguing you)

he instinctively reaches his hand out and it hovers above you unsurely for about ½ a minute until he decides that he can’t take seeing that frown and hearing your tiny whimpers with your loud heart rate and heavy breathing anymore.

He rubs his hand up and down your back, trying to calm you the way his mother used to calm him. 

He lightly tugged his fingers through your hair and watched in awe as you quickly calmed down and snuggled deeper into your pillow and blankets.

He watches you with a dumb little smile on his face until he hears a throat clear from the doorway and he looks up and panics when he sees your father standing there.

He’s prepared to be executed immediately for sneaking into your room, but the king surprises him

Instead of calling the guards, he quietly thanks wonho for helping you stay asleep, as you usually start crying at this time due to the dreams.

He just nods and kind of bolts because he hasn’t had any interactions with humans since being changed and really it was just A Lot.

 He tells the clan about what happened when he gets back and Hyungwon lowkey knows what’s up because he’s the only mated vampire in their group and he chooses to not explain it due to you being so much younger and wonho being so skittish.

Wonho tells himself that he will never return to your room again but every night he always is there, comforting you when your nightmares were bothering you. 

Your father sometimes talks with wonho and its obvious that he knows what wonho is, but he doesn’t feel like your safety is being sacrificed, if anything he feels that you are more safe with the vampire in your room than when he is out of it.

eventually it becomes obvious that wonho is liked in the palace because he prevents you from waking up the castle in the middle of the night

Your father introduces him to you as your new night time guard when you turn 17 but you lowkey already knew him because you had seen him sneak out of your room in morning as you woke up when he moved his hand from your back

Even though he can now just walk through the front gate he still chooses to crawl in through your window that you now leave open for him. And he tucks you in every night and sometimes lies with you in bed until you fall asleep, sometimes even closing his eyes and holding you close to him

he likes how soft and warm you are, it reminds him of  how fragile and human you are and it’s a double edged sword because it reminds him of how dangerous and how much of a monster he is.your dad knows that there is something between you two and as you are coming of age he starts to leave you two alone together more.

Wonho has also started to notice his attraction towards you and it surprises him a bit

but you guys still get close and wonho knows that you feel the same way but he’s not sure if its because you actually like him or f it’s because he charmed you, something that vampires do naturally.he doesn’t want you to get hurt and he doesn’t want you to regret anything. he wants you to have a normal life and have babies and live until you die.

 he doesn’t want to rob you of normal life.but he can be a selfish man, and he decides to be exactly that.he sticks around, growing attached to you and the way you look at him. He’s completely infatuated with you.

you also love the way he looks at you, the way you catch him appreciating your body in certain gowns. Especially the way he gets hard when he holds you at night now.

you two barely leave each other’s sight and he always has his hands on you in some way

every time wonho gets back from spending time with you the rest of the guys always ask him if you guys have had sex because he always looks so happy and sated, like had had just drained someone dry or he had a few orgasms and truthfully he’s just really happy. spending time with you just does something to him and he loves the feeling of holding you and protecting you at night

once again, hyungwon knows what this is but he doesn’t say a word

your hands always end up under his shirt and he always feels the kittenish nips and licks that you give him while you’re sleeping or that he hears the way you sigh and hum in pleasure and that you always end up grinding against his thigh in the middle of the night

yeah he has enough jerk off material to last him the next 2,000 years

on the days that you are forced to leave the castle without him he sneaks into your room and takes his time smelling everything. smelling your scent does something to him that just thinking about you doesn’t

he hates to admit it, but he has had the most intense orgasms with his face buried in one of your pillows that he switched with one of his own, humping against his mattress

and you know that he’s doing it because when you lay down on the pillow that he switched, it feels like it barely been used and it smells exactly like him.

and he can smell all of the things you have done in those sheets. every single thing.

he can smell your skin. your body wash. but what really gets him is that he can smell your pleasure.

 he even catches you doing it one night, lightly mewling his name into the pillowcase that you had stripped off shortly after you got in there, something that he had marked with his scent because he wanted to help you sleep

your scent triggers his instinct to protect and mate, but by far the strongest instinct is to show you all aspects of love and what they all feel like

but the feeling that out weighs them all is wanting to keep you safe

and when you tell him how you feel about him after you get back from a ball where you had a little too much to drink, he does the only thing he can think of

he lies to you and says that he doesn’t feel the same and the sadness in your eyes makes him want to die and when you start to sniffle and tear up he gently coos at you the way he used to, telling you that you’re amazing and that you shouldn’t cry over a guy like him not feeling the same way because there are plenty of better guys out there.

after you fall asleep he prays to the lord above that you don’t remember this in the morning but why would he get that lucky

you never come out and say that you remember but he knows that you do because you’re shy now, and not in the cute way but in the very awkward way.

conversation doesn’t flow easily between you two anymore and everyone notices it.

it gets so bad that he begs your father to have a change of staff because he knows that his presence makes you hurt inside and he hates being able to see the consequences of his stupid actions

You become withdrawn and grouchy and so does he. He can’t stand lying to you but he feels like he has to because he wants you to marry a human and have a pretty little family, something that he can’t give you.

he keeps telling himself that you will be married off soon, and that you will be better when that happens

but it doesnt happen

everyone around you is receiving marriage propositions from other nobles and you arent

you assume it’s because you don’t look like a pretty and thin princess and you do not want to be seen outside of the palace walls anymore.he notices that you are starting to look ill and tired a lot of the time and he’s afraid that you’re dying

and he feels like he’s dying too. he misses everything about you and he knows that he did the wrong thing but he also thinks that you could never forgive him for that so he doesn’t try to fix it

everyone starts worrying about you two because you guys drifted apart so quickly and no one knows what happened

he hates himself so much again and he sees no worth in his life anymore but he doesn’t want to end it either because he’s afraid of never being able to see you again or upsetting you further

he just has so much affection for you and he can’t stand not being able to give it to you all the time and he constantly mopes around the house and everyone gets fed up pretty quickly bc tbh he made the mess himself but they also know that he was doing what he thought was best at the time. 

no one really knows what to do though. they don’t know how to fix it becAUSE THEY DONT KNOW WHAT HE D ID

and while all of this is happening they still visit your father regularly wonho just doesn’t come

and Hyungwon is 1000% done with this situation ok he just wants wonho to be happy and to quit sabotaging himself

so hyungwon legit comes flat out and asks you what wonho did to you bc “whatever it was, he’s completely devastated over it and he mopes about it a lot.”

and that surprises you bc? he didn’t really do anything he jsut didn’t like you back and you tell them that and their eyes dead ass roll so far into their heads you’re afraid they’ll get stuck

and kihyuns’s just like “are we even really sUrPrISeD”

So they basically start tripping all over themselves, trying to explain to you that a) you must be blind, b) he was lying, and c) yOU MUST BE BLIND

And you dont know what to think bc????? Hoseok???? Nooo surely not

Right?

And then when you think about it, it kinda makes sense in a way

But you dont know what to do

Like you didnt do anything??? It was him. He’s the one who decided to lie to you, and it really hurts you

Its not like he was trying to fix it. He was doing everything in his power to completely ignore you

So maybe he doesnt want it fixed

But he does. He really does

He just doesn’t know what to do either

So you both just,,,,, leave it.

[nightmaretyrantvantas]

It never hurts to spoil your pokemon- a pokemon au story

Another headcanon/ little fluff story for @sugarglider9603‘s pokemon au! This time it focuses a bit more on thomas and his adoration of the boys. It also takes place time wise after my previous fic, so this could be considered a continuation( but you dont have to read it to understand this)

I hope you enjoy!

and hey, @notveryglittery, I heard you were having a rough day and I know this probably isnt the fluff you were expecting but I hope, none the less, that it helps cheer you up( I feel you about 8 hour shifts, and I believe youll get through it!)

Thomas gave a happy hum as he walked along the neatly kept sidewalks, enjoying the bright fall summery sun and the sweet salty breeze. He was tired, but who wouldnt be after traveling through a long mountain pass. But Thomas figured it was worth it to reach a small riverside town on the other side of the mountain base, a lovely place surrounded by nature and flowers. It was worth it but the journey itself had been pretty rough and upon reaching the pokemon center he let the boys rest in the room they were staying in and went out to explore and restock.

“ Lets see....oh boy thisll be a big shopping list...” He muttered to himself, rummaging through his bag.

“ Potions, max potions for emergencies, revives for emergencies that we cant reach a pokemon center, antidotes, burn heals, full heals for big emergencies,parlyz heals, and some medicinal herbs in case the boys get sick...along with more food and drinks for the road...ok!” With a firm nod Thomas smiled and found his way to various markets, surprisingly speeding through his shopping despite his fatigue. He waved to the cashier as he stepped back into the sunshine from the last store on his list, humming even happier than before.He started to make his way back to the center then stopped seeing a bunch of berry stalls. It only took a second to think about before he moved and started looking through the stalls. 

It had been awhile since he had really cooked poffins or any other pokemon treats, since the last time he had tried with MJ Thomas had over half of his( Remus ate them happily regardless, but that wasnt the point). But he still had the recipes he’d learned in a little booklet in his pocket and plenty of leftover money on hand to splurge a little...the trainer couldnt help but smile to himself. His boys had done amazing climbing mountain terrain for the first time,and they deserved some special treatment. With that in mind he began picking out berries that would make treats in their favorite flavors. The older woman smiled watching the young boy try to decide between two different sweet berries with a clueless expression and walked over.

“ Hello young man, can I help you at all?” He gave her a sheepish smile, a bundle of berries in either hand.

“ Ah well...I’m looking for berries that have a sweet but also little bitter taste? Im trying to make treats for my pokemon...” She smiled wider and gently directed him further down the stall, and Thomas was grateful as she gave him cooking advice for different berries. Once they were done and things were paid for he had a nice basket bursting with colorful goodies as he continued down the street to the pokemon center. But once more he stopped when he saw a little accessory store , the window display showing off many different options and goodies. His eyes caught on something in particular though.

A little clip on flower crown made with well made big blooming fabric Gracidea flowers. It immediately made him think of Patton, and the way he always makes flower crowns whenever he gets the chance. Thomas just couldnt stop himself from going into the store and buying it, tucking it safely away in his bag as he continued his way. 

It was about one street over when he stopped again at a store window and went in, coming out once more with a lovely blue and black striped tie and a bright reddish pink bandanna in his hand, as well as a shiny red brush and some glasses’ cleaner. He whistled as he walked as he tucked his new presents into his bag as well to keep them safe, happily imagining the reactions he’d get to his surprises. They deserved this, his boys had been working hard.

Thats what he told himself as he made his next few stops. Grabbing some fidgeting toys he knew Virgil liked to play with to calm his nerves, as well as some soft mareep fleece to line the inside of his hoodie with as summer ended and fall and winter slowly approached. After all it never hurt for him to prepare early. He told himself it as he also bought a small bundle of local flowers from a little girl and her roselia and bellosom, watching the small pokemon cheerfully help his flowers bloom. Patton would love them, he knew it. Just like Deceit would like couple electric gems and little brooch for his cape or like Remus would enjoy couple antique metal pieces, dented and twisted like youd find in a junkyard and a small bundle of break apart pokemon toys that he could happily break and rebuild as much as he wanted.Once he finally decided to cut himself off he got back to the pokemon center and smiled tiredly at Nurse Joy, holding his haul in his arms.

“ Hey um...do you have a kitchen or something I could use to cook?” The woman chuckled and led him to the kitchen and showed him where to find anything he mightve needed, simply asking him to clean up when he was done. With everything he needed sprawled across the counters he pulled off his jacket and rolled up his sleeves, tying off his apron with a grin.

“ Ok lets do this! It cant be that hard!” 

Thomas was in there the rest of the late morning and afternoon, up until the light tinted gold, red, and pink across the kitchen. There had been many little mishaps and retries and alot of taste tests from the nurse’s paitent Chansey, but he finally had everything ready. The boy wiped at some flour streaked across his cheek, not noticing it only smearing it even more as he washed his hands and began placing the stacked plate of different flavored poffins, treats, and pokemon safe cookies and fruit goods as well as tin foiled and hot wrapped up dinner into a appreciately provided lined basket and finished cleaning up the mess he made in the kitchen, scooping every up into his arms and half waddling back to his room with Chansey’s help opening the door. The smell of food filled the little bedroom and awoke the cuddled together eevelutions, all of them lifting their heads groggily and yipping at him questioning. Thomas beamed proudly and he sat on the floor and gestured for them all to join him as he set everything down, petting them in greeting.

“ Evening guys! You all were wiped out, so I let you sleep and I went to go restock our supplies. While I was gone I got you all surprises!” He motioned to the poffins and happily exclaimed that he made them himself just for them, and that he also had dinner in the basket too. He felt his chest swell happily as he watched them all pick their favorite flavors and munch happily, leaning on him as they did. Thomas also couldnt help but laugh at the squeal Patton gave as he tackled him and buried his face in kisses when he saw the flower crown and the flowers, wearing his new accessory excitedly. Roman practically demanded to be groomed purring when he saw his new brush as he pawed at his new bandana contently. Once the grooming was done Thomas helped Logan put on his new tie and cleaned both his and Patton’s glasses, as well as attatched Deceit’s new brooch while Remus nawed on his new toys to break them in and nuzzled him gratefully. Then he pet them all as they ate dinner and played, promise virgil that when they found a seamstress they would attach the fleece to his jacket to keep him warm. He was happy and so were they, and that night as he was laying down Logan curled up on his chest licking his hand and fingers appreciately. Remus flopped down at Thomas’s feet, on top of them really, and purred loudly as he nawed on the metal more contently, his eyes half open. Patton curled up under one arm nuzzling the hand not getting licked and happily being petted as Roman curled around his neck under his head to keep him warm while Deceit and Virgil cuddled on his stomach purring. Thomas smiled contently and shut his eyes, falling asleep like that.

Tada! It took a week but I hope its ok! 

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angstangstangst. can i have headcanons of how the rfa + v would react to MC being brainwashed by rika and lead into mint eye?

Yes absolutely !! I know my writing on here so far has been super cuddly stuff, but I actually have a dark side to my writing too ;^) just ask Mod Fen.

Anyways, this will be taking place in the “Another Story” plot line, except MC assumedly gets even closer to the RFA members before MC ends up manipulated by Rika to join Mint Eye and, eventually, goes through the pain of the elixir and becomes completely devout and loses all sense of self. Onwards, yes? :^)

This got quite long and EXTREMELY angsty, so join me under the cut for tears!

Zen

Zen is known for attaching to the MC very quickly through pretty much any route. Zen adores the MC, feeling his face hurt from smiling so much as they’re always excited to see him and his selfies, and he feels like for once things are okay. He’s okay.

He’s used to being the bright and positive one, so it’s nice to get a break from that with the MC-they stay strong through it all and Zen just wants so badly to be strong and let MC take a break. They’ve done so much for everyone.

However, when the MC begins getting more and more distant, Zen grows more and more worried. He tries to hide it, but he’s obviously asking about MC more, asking how they are, if they visited the chatrooms…

As MC obviously grows more distant and distraught, and there’s obvious somethings wrong, Zen desperately tries to reach out to them more.

“MC….you dont have to go through all this alone. the RFA is here for you… im here for you. id drop everything for you.”

But the MC says everythings okay, and pushes Zen away, which just hurts the more they do it. Zen tries to act tough, but he’s working out, drinking, practicing, pushing himself in every way so he’s not wondering if MC is okay, because he knows the answer, and he knows they won’t talk about it

As the MC becomes more cryptic and more obvious about their beliefs, Zen becomes more panicked. He’s obviously trying to keep his calm, but this shit is starting to freak him the fuck out. There’s obviously way more to this than he originally thought.

“salvation…? what do you mean salvation? if theres something wrong, MC, please…you can reach out to us. it doesnt matter what time it is or what we’re doing. if youre struggling this much… please, talk to us. we’re here for you.”

His heart breaks when he offers to show a selfie jokingly and they flat out reject him.

But he tries to stay strong. He has to stay strong. If the MC is going to be okay, if he’s going to help them, he has to stay strong for them. Even when the MC is entirely on Mint Eye’s side, even when things are explained better by V, Zen still hangs onto the hope of that once bright and cheery MC. The MC he loves. If he can stay strong, he can bring them back.

But it’s when he talks to the MC again that he finally realizes that they’re gone. They’re distant, they’re hurt, they’re broken, what happened in Mint Eye had taken all the shine out of their eyes, the pep out of their talk, and Zen feels everything in him shrivel up, feels his chest tighten, feels both this overwhelming need to lie down and never get up, but also to scream and trash everything in the room.

He ends up drinking instead, and all he can do is go between his memories of the MC-bright and brilliant, always jumping for joy at the mention of his selfies, to now, where the MC feels nothing, nothing for the RFA, nothing for him, just believes in salvation and pain.

He considers it for a moment. Joining Mint Eye to be with them. But he knows it wouldn’t be the same anyways. He’d continue this fight on the right side, even if it meant going against them. But his spirit was broken. The once always positive Zen was gone.

He felt as if part of him had left and he’d never get that back. And so he just keeps drinking.

Yoosung

Yoosung had been struggling with college, his growing depression, and the loss of Rika, as well as the distrust of V. Yoosung felt torn and hopeless, and he felt like everyone around him was moving on and away without him.

So when the MC appeared, bright and smiling, willing to lend not only a hand but an ear as well, hearing out his concerns and his questions, understanding why he was stuck where he was, he was sure he’d met an angel. Someone sent by Rika, someone as brilliant, as beautiful, as wonderful as Rika.

For once in a while, he feels hope. True hope. Not the temporary distraction of LOLOL, not everyone’s attempts at trying to console him falling flat against the pain of his heart. No, true hope. He feels like if he can just reach out to MC, he can finally pull himself forward. He can be with everyone again.

But then that light in his life, only just beginning to warm his heart, begins to fade. Part of him panics, clutches to the MC, asking how they’re doing, if they’re okay, if they can call, if they can get on soon… he just desperately needs to know if they’re okay.

As they get more and more distant, he gets more and more panicky. He lashes out at V, knowing V knows more about the situation than anyone in the RFA and knowing V isn’t doing anything about it, knowing Seven isn’t pushing things, knowing everyone trusts V. He hates it. He likely ends up at Zen’s only to scream and cry while checking the chatroom again and again and again. If no one else cares, he will. Someone’s gotta listen to them, too.

As they begin to get more cryptic, more obvious, Yoosung is much more impulsive and bolder. Zen can barely get a grip on him and calm him down when it comes to V, and Yoosung never spends a moment outside the chatroom. He can’t lose them. He can’t lose them. It’d be losing her all over, and he can’t handle that. Not again.

“MC, whatever your talking about, whatevers going on…please!!! please, return to us, return to your happy self… we’re all so worried, im so worried…i cant stop visiting the chatroom, hoping youre there so maybe we could talk…ive been nagging V to tell us something, anything! please, stay strong… we’ll save you! i promise!”

But they do leave. They give in. They’re gone. Yoosung can feel it the last time they talk. In the moment he knows, but his body doesn’t. He’s just numb for a bit. Zen’s a bit shocked to see him finally calm. But it’s a scary calm. And part of that scares Zen even more.

Yoosung seeks out just about anything to feel better. He rushes out of the house constantly, middle of the night, when Zen’s in the bathroom, whenever he can to be alone and just scream or cry or slam his fists against a wall. He plays video games with fire in his eyes but nothing else. It’s all so painfully numb.

It takes everything the RFA has to keep Yoosung back from talking to Rika or the MC-they know he’d turn to Mint Eye’s side in an instant. Zen especially is in tears as he physically holds Yoosung, screaming and crying, trying to get him to calm down or stop himself from running off trying to find Rika or the MC. He sees the light gone from Yoosung’s eyes and it terrifies him.

Yoosung lost Rika. And now he’s lost MC. And finally, he loses himself.

Jaehee

Jaehee works and she works and she works and she just works. That’s her life, that’s her job, that’s her free time, that’s her pain. She focuses on work, even through everything happening in the RFA-hell, the RFA is part of her work as well.

So it brightens her up a lot to have the MC, who she once distrusted so much, be like her own little cheerleader. Always on her side, always cheering her on, always there to fangirl about Zen with, always there to make life a little less about work and a little more about…herself.

She works with a spring in her step, knowing that she’ll get to be greeted on the messenger by the MC, bright and shining, excited about the newest Zen selfie, or perhaps just glad to see Jaehee get a break. Either way, Jaehee finds a reason to laugh again while typing away reports.

So when Jaehee logs in one day to see that the MC has grown distant, Jaehee feels something drop in her chest. She tries not to jump to conclusions, instead, trying to urge the MC to open up more, to talk to the RFA, to trust in them…

“I understand you’re in a complicated situation right now. Even we’re not entirely sure what’s going on…but you should not lose hope. We are right here for you, and we’re ready to take action when the time comes. V would not let anything harm you, and I believe the rest of the RFA feels the same…”

As Jaehee visits whenever she can, the MC grows more and more distant and empty, and Jaehee feels everything in her grow cold and barren as the MC becomes cryptic as well. The word salvation echoes and bounces painfully in Jaehee’s head, and she’s terrified. She’s so fucking scared for the MC but all she can do is stare at the words on a screen.

She works double hard on the Intelligence Team. Jumin is somewhat impressed by the gusto in Jaehee’s work, but it’s not excitement, passion, or any of that. It’s hurry. It’s chugging down coffee knowing that any moments she doesn’t spend making this team perfect could mean losing MC.

But it’s useless. Like she had always felt, like it had always been, her efforts were useless. The MC was gone. The MC was no longer on the RFA’s side. V’s secrets come out into the open, but Jaehee feels no relief, no satisfaction. Just more pain and twists and drops in her chest as she pieces everything together.

She goes through everything like a robot. She feels empty. Zen can tell somethings up when Jaehee doesn’t even react to a selfie of him. However, Jaehee pushes everyone’s concerns away, reassuring them that she’s fine, and they must focus on Mint Eye and saving V, and if possible, the MC.

But she’s lost. She’s so lost. The one thing in her life to make her smile as she works was gone. No, not just gone. Jaehee saw them once they had turned over, the way they spoke. They were broken. They were beyond whatever concerns the RFA had. Something worse had happened to them.

And Jaehee could never forgive herself for that. She can’t forgive herself for letting someone so bright and beautiful break like that. And so she does what she’s always done best. She works, and she works, and she works.

If overtime and coffee can kill a person, Jaehee’s headed for Death’s Road like a paper to a shredder. And she can’t care enough anymore to stop it.

Jumin

Jumin doesn’t care much for feelings. He doesn’t care much for the fact that there aren’t a whole lot of people who understand him, who want to take the time to care about him.

At least, he thought he didn’t care.

But there’s something in that that changes as he gets to know the MC, opening up more and more entirely on accident, smiling more and more as the MC laughs at his jokes no one gets, as the two talk business, philosophy, politics-he could talk with them for days about anything.

And he feels some part of him loosen, feels that tangle in his head, that knot, loosen bit by bit as they care about him and ask how he’s doing, what he’s doing, what new project he has planned. It’s not like anything he’s ever felt before. Nothing like Rika, and similar to V. This comfort and security of trusting someone.

When the MC begins getting distant however, he inwardly panics. He doesn’t know what to do, what to say, what to feel. He just knows he’s feeling hell. His chest tightening, his head hurting. He offers what he can. Which are formal words, repeated phrases barely different from chats before. Believe in V. We will take action when the time calls for it.

But he wishes so badly he could say more. He doesn’t know what, but he wishes he could say something.

The point where he begins to let go of the iron grip he had on his emotions is when the MC becomes cryptic and empty. He begins getting somewhat harsh, very direct with them, asking them what the hell they were thinking, what got them into this, why they were so fucking obsessed with salvation

He gets terrified when they begin talking like Rika. He feels sick. He feels dizzy. He can’t focus. This can’t be happening.

But it is. And it does. Despite him hurrying the progress of the intelligence agency, despite his panicked calls to V, despite using every god damn inch of his brain to find the right thing to say or do, he loses them just as easily as he lost Rika, as he lost V. And it breaks him down, breaks him completely apart and wide open, emotions pouring out of a broken dam.

Everyone is shaken up seeing Jumin like this. In these situations, Jumin was always level headed. He was always calm. He was Jumin Han. He didn’t have emotions the way everyone else did. And yet Jaehee watched him drink wine like a motherfucker, Zen watched as his teasing did nothing to even provoke some dumb joke out of Jumin, and most of all, V is worried as he calls Jumin, hearing his best friend break down more and more with every call.

Jumin eventually tries to clean himself up. When V explains the situation more clearly, Jumin tries to go back to his old self, focusing on business, on leadership, on efficiency. But he slips up again, and again, and again, and he can’t stop. He can’t stop and he hates it. Why can’t it just stop like it did before. Why did it ever have to change in the first place if it was just going to end like this?

Jaehee can only watch Jumin in silence as he reads over the papers about Rika and Mint Eye. As he slowly pieces together what had happened to the MC to hurt them, to take away everything they were. All against their will. Innocent from the start, now broken. 

Jaehee sees Jumin break as well as he quietly asks for her to leave the room.

Seven

Seven was a mess from the start, and he accepted its what he deserved, what he needed, just a part of him, and that it didn’t matter so long as he got the job done and Saeran was safe as well as the RFA.

That is, that’s how it was until MC started caring about him.

His dumb ad’s, his exaggerated shenanigans, his moments of weakness-the MC embraced it all. And even in moments where he panicked, where he lashed out, over call or over text, sometimes even in the chatroom, the MC would only return with warmth and kindness.

They insisted that he mattered too, that he was a good person, that he did good things, that he was protecting good people. Good. Somehow, the MC thought he was good. He was baffled.

There was some point where he began believing them, too. He started to try and take care of himself, started trying to eat full meals, clean up a little, made all sorts of programs and alarms to get him focused. He hated letting anyone in, but he already found himself brightening because of the MC.

So of course he’s beyond worried when they begin to grow distant and the hacker’s patterns start changing. He’s questioning them, he’s questioning V, he’s doing all the god damn research he can. It’s only a bad feeling, but his bad feelings are never truly just a bad feeling.

But V won’t budge, and neither will the hacker. Seven feels the panic skyrocket as the MC grows empty and cryptic, and he feels like screaming every time secrets are brought up. He leaves a million calls for V as he messes around with something, anything, making things, breaking things, hacking, he just tries to find anything to occupy his mind that isn’t the MC being in danger.

He damn near strangles his phone talking to V once the MC is gone. Damn secrets to hell, what happened to them? Seven is beyond freaked out, he’s chewing his nails, his fingers, he’s typing up a storm, texting up a storm, he’s taking bites out of chips and cookies before throwing them out, he’s dropping cans carelessly onto the floor and he’s skipping meals.

All that progress he made is easily gone the moment MC is gone.

Even Vanderwood is concerned as Seven prepares himself without cracking a single joke, without any sort of rebuttal to Vanderwood’s complaints about the mess. “This isn’t for the agency,” Vanderwood can tell. “Maybe it’s for me for once,” Seven shrugs. “Depending on how this goes, you can kick my ass later.”

Seven can save V, but when he’s there, when he reaches out to MC, telling them to quietly come with him, to escape, he finds everything in him turn to stone and shatter as they refuse. They’ve found salvation. But they say it with such pain. They say it with nothing in their eyes.

They say it the way Seven would tell the RFA not to worry about him. And that hurts Seven more than anything.

Seven hauls ass to get him and V out there. But as he fights the hacker, he feels himself losing in everything. In fighting, in the agency, in protecting Saeran, in figuring all this out. What’s the point anymore? What’s the point when they’re gone?

After V explains the situation to Seven, Seven feels what little was left of himself crumble away. And V watches in pain as all traces of the hopeful little boy Seven once was fade away.

And Seven says, in such pain, with nothing in his eyes, “Don’t worry about me.”

V

V grows closest to the MC easily. He finds it odd, as he realizes that they’re nothing like Rika, that they don’t feel even the slightest bit similar to Rika, and yet he’s almost comforted by that fact.

He opens up, opens up what he once thought was locked up tight and shut closed, to the MC, and he feels like the dark parts of him can shine again. He feels the dead grass and flowers in his heart begin to try and bloom again.

As he tries to find out more and more about Mint Eye, about what Rika’s doing, he finds himself growing more and more protective of the MC. He hardly knows if he can actually trust them, but he feels like he can. He feels that they’re innocent. And if that’s the case, he has to save them. He has to protect them. He can’t let their light go out.

But that moment where Ray pulls the MC way, that moments where V has to run away, has to hide without them, he becomes so afraid. He saw the look in MC’s eyes. He hears their tone over calls. He can see the way they shake as they text. They’re afraid. They’re alone. They’re vulnerable. And V can’t be there.

V finds himself falling farther and farther into his depression and self blame as the MC grows darker and darker. He doesn’t want to give his all again, fearing what happened with Rika would happen again, but he uselessly watches the MC grow more and more distant, more and more apathetic

With great fear, with the biggest twist of his heart, he’s realizing that he’s watching them slowly become more and more like Rika.

He begs them to believe in him, trust him, to talk to him, even just leaving voice calls when he can’t answer. But the secrets are too much for the both of them, and V can see Rika’s influence dripping like a venom from each of MC’s words. He can see Rika tearing apart all the brightness they had. And it kills him to just watch.

When there’s finally the chance to escape, the chance to leave with Seven, and they reject, V refuses to leave as well. He didn’t want this to happen. He never wanted there to be an innocent as pure and as bright as MC to be dragged into this, never mind get so twisted and broken by Rika’s words and drugs. And the fact that he let this happen, the fact that he felt in his heart that this all began because of him in the first place. He couldn’t even sacrifice himself now to save them. No, he was too late. He wasn’t good enough again. He was a fool blinded by love.

and so V tells Seven with a heavy heart, “I don’t deserve an escape.”

- Mod Grim

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aftg asks; questions by triquetrine

these are so interesting so i did all of them.. i want to come back after a year and see if id still answer the same! 

op is the post before this or also tagged “misc” 

neil josten: favorite/most iconic line?

first one that comes to mind I’m not sure is a favorite or iconic line? but it’s a line i think about a lot and it always hurts to read. it’s when they're at the cabin in TKM. 

“He didn’t care how much it hurt so long as he could pull Andrew closer, and he let Andrew take him apart until he couldn’t think anymore.”

that comes at the very end of Chapter 14 and gosh just the paragraph that line comes from and the paragraph before…. the fact neil thinks andrew doesnt care about him the way he cares/feels about andrew is like….. CMON MAN but also i just love the pining angst of it. i like this line especially because the line right before it mentions neil working his “bandaged fingers into Andrew’s hair”. so the “he didnt care how much it hurt” to me always carried a double meaning of 1. the physical pain he felt bc of his injuries but also 2. the pain of unfamiliarity abt his feelings towards andrew and thinking it was unreciprocal AND THAT HED HAVE TO “WARN” ANDREW like the implication.. of neil thinking abt their “relationship” possibly ending bc andrew doesnt feel the same and maybe wouldnt want to be entangled in whatever neil was feeling …… IM LIKE neil knows andrew so well and him being so sure abt this but hes like …. WRONG …. e

nathaniel wesninski: one thing you would change about the books? (plot, characters, etc)

there is very little id change about the books if at all. mainly bc while i know there are upsetting things that happen/the charas do, i think all of those things make the series really interesting to analyze and talk about. i will say a moment i hated was when neil touches andrews scars when andrew makes it clear he doesn't want neil to pry about them. i know neil offers his scars in turn when he's trying to convince andrew to let neil look over kevin but that was controlled. he let andrew touch them and find out about them of his own volition. neil touches something directly related to the trauma andrew had just experienced again when he had 0 permission to do so. while i always get mad at neil for this when i read it i still dont think id change it or get rid of it. im not really sure how id change it anyways and i think andrews relationship with his scars (and himself in general) is probably what allows him to brush it off(?)/never bring this up (plus maybe neil offering his scars was enough for andrew) but i havent thought too hard about this. but ya i remember i got rlly angry w neil the first time i read this scene and i still get mad abt it when i reread.

andrew minyard: if you could be friends with one of the characters, who would you pick?

i mean realistically i wouldnt be friends w jocks ILL BE REAL LOL and i think as much as i love the monsters, theres no way id be friends w them haha uhm but prob dan would be most realistic! maybe even katelyn tbh.. 

kevin day: if you played exy, what would your position be?

oh i think dealer! in sports i liked being able to do both defense and offense bc it made me feel i had more control over the field, like i could always do something if there were any holes

dan wilds: favorite moment/scene?

definitely the hotel reunion scene. theres so much to it; it drives me nuts!!!!! but honestly there are probably a lot of really good moments im forgetting. to me the whole series is really enjoyable and every scene has something i could say about it haha

matt boyd: song you would love to see in a live-action adaptation?

Oggghh this is so hard… esp since it takes place in 2007???? Idk.. iconic artists then i suppose ghfgkjhf BUT i think general vibes i think itd be so cool if paramore (time relevant), ptv (also time relevant), and mitski were on the soundtrack……. Ya…….. 

nicky hemmick: which made you more emotional, neil at evermore or neil in baltimore?

neil in baltimore for sure… neil at evermore i can't remember what i felt the first time i read it (maybe pain LOL bc he was doing it for andrew and i felt like riko wouldnt keep his promise) but in my latest reread i was unimpressed by it (mostly bc i think riko is boring and unimpressive). i think i mightve said evermore in the past though….. maybe... neil in baltimore is like … GOD neils emotions are so strong during all of that its really juicy haha. i think like him being angry bc he was on the cusp of having everything he couldve ever dreamed of; the desperation of wanting to fight back and get away; even just the fear of being in the same room as his father for the first time in so long... all really juicy 

aaron minyard: a character you will defend to your death?

defend…. im not sure is the word i would use and i dont think i really believe in defending any of these charas “to death” bc of how flawed and complex they are; id like to acknowledge when they did wrong. i think id “defend” any of the characters if i saw anyone misinterpreting or misunderstanding them.. theyre all really interesting even if they didnt get too much spotlight. except maybe riko. hes incredibly boring to me. and also nathan ig and any of his crew just bc there is Nothing abt them rlly...

katelyn: which minor character do you wish you could see more of?

uhhhmmmmmmmm hmmmmmm….. idk maybe… jeremy…. gjfjgkdngmdghs just bc him and kevin r so funny.. i was thinking maybe jean too but…… idk a diff kind of kevin relationship lol (yikes) (pain) but really im satisfied w jeans screen time. i think ichirou is interesting but again i think he didn't rlly need more. maybe erik actually. im interested to know what nicky is like with him :0

allison reynolds: favorite headcanon about the foxes?

actually something i recently thought abt was neil and photography. iirc? andrew gives neil a camera in the ec and i also imagine kevin eventually gets another camera too (i loved that detail when we saw his room at the nest) so i thought abt neil and kevin sharing/trading pics they take of (mainly) scenery. i imagine neil takes pics of anything he wants to remember/keep while kevin is more prone to taking pics of subjects related to some nerd history stuff (lol) so thats why they trade scenery pics mainly. but i like this small connection bc i want more to their relationship than their exy obsession and i imagine they have room for more now that riko is gone and i just like this other commonality btwn them. i think maybe they mail the developed pics to each other maybe w small descripts/notes but thats it. and i also imagine it kind of just is something that started happening.. neil and andrew r on a roadtrip and some building reminds neil of kevin so he snaps a pic and eventually sends it to kevin w some note. kevin replies 1. either a text being like that is nothing. > neil: shrugs brushes it off but figures he is welcome to send more when kevin sends his own picture back or 2. kevin simply replies back similarly w his own photo. i dont know.. maybe this goes beyond what their actual relationship would be like but i do like the idea of them just bein like… dude friends u know so i want them to have more than just exy and a traumatizing experience between them. 

as for common headcanons within the fanbase…. i do like the allison + neil haircuts thing.. although im not sure if i imagine it the same as most haha i feel neil would know how to cut his own hair from his life on the run (though theyre not Good or bad just like ok u know like passable generic w/e) i think hed definitely be tense the first couple times but he has experience w allison being close from needing to be covered up w make up after winter break so i think she would be allowed. 

renee walker: favorite non-canonical ship? (renison, jerejean, etc)

uhmm to be honest none really… im way too attached to canon to be able to dismiss any established relationships. i think kevemy (??? is that the name) is rlly amusing but i dont want them together necessarily haha i used to rlly like renison mainly bc im a lesbian and i want “main” chara wlw relationships lol but i recently read something abt how bi allison doesnt rlly sit well w some bc she outs andrew and neil during the hotel scene.. i also agree this is kinda :/ if she was bi Mainly bc i feel a lot of ppl (or at least this is what i gather from renison stuff ive seen) portray allison already being established bi? if this makes sense. i think if renison/allison realizing shes bi is a later development id feel better abt it but usually renison is already established so ya her outing them does bother me…. BUT aside from this, thinking about them as characters and what their partners (would) look like… im not sure if theyd rlly choose each other.. but i still enjoy seeing them together in art and in fic bc in the end…. im a sucker for women lol….

seth gordon: most underrated dynamic? (matt & neil, wymack & andrew, etc)

my first thought was wymack and andrew bc i rlllllyy like their dynamic especially after reading their ec stuff. i loved their first meeting (andrews terrible sandwich??!?fhdhfjd) and when andrew breaks into wymacks apartment BUT i think ppl mention them enough its not underrated. i Actually think renee and andrews dynamic/friendship is rlly underrated/overlooked!!! especially after reading the son nefes ec i love their dynamic a lot… 

some son nefes moments of them i liked:  tw // rape

renee convincing andrew to go with her to see matt after his trip to edens

how many knives do u carry / one more than u IS SO FUNNY and just andrews persistence abt fighting renee is also rlly funny to me

tw // rape : the moment when andrew asks renee if she killed her rapist/abuser that whole convo was good… 

their convo in the rain w their tea

i cant remember when this happens or rlly exaclty what was said but renee offers andrew something (some help??) and he says i dont need (w/e it was) and she says something along the lines of  i know but it wouldnt do any harm or SOMETHING like that.. i like this bc she acknowledges their abilities while showing shed still like to offer some help. im p sure she does this another time too (w neil???? or someone i cant remember maybe it was andrew again) and i remember liking it too. she has a way w words and talking (also seen in her convincing andrew to see matt)

BUT regardless of ec stuff i think their relationship/dynamic seen in the books is rlly good too. theres def enough to be intrigued by them and i always have been? so i'm reeeaallly happy son nefes exists i loved reading it..

david wymack: which ncaa team would you play for?

oh to be honest i dont rlly remember many of them but of the Three (ravens, foxes, trojans) prob trojans. i remember i even got them in a uquiz once… 

abby winfield: which character was the most realistically written?

first that came to mind was aaron actually.. i remember before when i didnt rlly like him or care abt him it was actually bc he was too “boring” to me. i always thought he had the most realistic reactions to things which is what made him boring to me amidst the ridiculousness of, well, everything in aftg lol… i still think he is really realistically written but now i dont think hes boring haha

besty dobson: how many times have you read the series?

fully i think…. only 3 times… i wish this were a higher count but i actually feel guilty everytime i try to reread it.

riko moriyama: coolest exy moment? (kevin’s last-minute point against the ravens, andrew shutting down the goal, etc)

uhhmm uhmm i def think kevin during the final game against the ravens…. hes so cool haha but i KNOW there were a lot of game moments that i thought were really cool so i cant rlly say…. oh also i love neil being defense in that game too rlly juicy wish i could pull up obscure moments bc i know i rlly enjoyed reading the games but terrible memory...

jeremy knox: which do you like reading more, domestic!foxes or chaotic!foxes?

uh i guess chaotic? not rlly sure exactly what that could entail but i do like… their chaos.. when they have fights and squabbles and stuff… this includes the high tension moments. ALTHOUGH i do like the tiny lines in the books when we see the monsters just doing like random basic everyday life stuff like playing video games or whatever. i like…. imagining them... fhdjfjshfjs… as for fic def chaos. i feel domestic is usually too softened….. 

jean moreau: favorite friendship?

oh i think this goes back to andrew and renee. but other than them… i do like neil and matts friendship.. though probably not the same as its typically portrayed 

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oih g od look at my disgusting old style omgdsg,, okay but here take my WIP AU. it’s the nm!au, aka Nightmare!AU. here’s some of the info i copy+pasted from my dA.

Tom ref sheet for the AU i'm doing. DETAILS: Name:Tom. Height: 6'4" Age: 24 Current situation: Leader of the rival 'gang' for defeating the Nightmares. [Aka, 'demons' ig.] ~ Other details: In the world they're in the whole place has been corrupted with beasts known as "Nightmares". Tom, the leader of their 'gang' ig, fights off them with everyone else. i still need to ref all the others + the nightmares themself once a nightmare has corrupted the being itself, that person will get exceedingly bad dreams, and whatever happens in the dream happens to the actual body of the person. When they attach to your brain and corrupt your dreams, they slowly start to encourage you about bad shit, convince you that 'your friends arent what they seem' or smth Edd is a sprite, aka a small floating fucking fairy thing ig, and he's the only one who can tell the difference between a human and a nightmare Once a nightmare fully takes over your body, it can disguise itself as it. Edit: They had a belief that Tord was a Nightmare, but didn't say anything because they didn't know whether to believe it or not. hinthint he might be edit: matt and edd are still a wip, but so far Thomas lives in the arctic, explaining his usual overcoat, the ref above is his city outfit. he has 6 Alaskan dogs, their names a WIP. For anyone confused, Tom's harpoon is not like the normal one in The End. It's much, much longer. Kinda like a spear,but sharper, and a harpoon. pff. This AU might have TomTord, i haven't decided. It would make more sense, and much, much, mUCH more drama due to the fact Tord b- zipz mouthttt but yeah, i'm still thinking, i really dont want to upset people with ships, but so you know, i dONT INTEND ANY REAL LIFE SHIPPING. i do not ship the actual people, gross. just the charachters, k? k. if anyone would like naming the puppos, go ahead ! comment !!! i already have 65 likes o mg- 72 L IKES NOW W TF AAA TYYYYSSSMM dFDGSFHG ily okay EDIT:im also working on a future version of this bab,, and the others aa, and actually the headcanon monster tom version of him oowoo what a load of hooey right okay well yeah, i actually have the versions of them on ponytown lmao, although nobody ever gets on there with me so eh and the story, me and broccoli-mom have been talking about this au on discord so yeah, im still trying to sum it up and shit i have so much stuff to work on fjdgsjs sorry if i cant draw this guy muchhhh i still cant believe how much love this au has got like o mg,, i already have my first fanart of him from @/daddybites aaa i wont tag anyone unless approved, pffftse so just tell me in the comments if it's okay !! if there are any questions about the au pleaaasee ask !!!! i really need help with ideas, so if it's not too much of a bother, leave a comment for any ideas !! i'll think about them, and give you credit if i get that far !!!! <33 thanks a ton aa!! Etc, etc. if anyone legit makes fanart for this i will scream i really want this AU to become popular tbh

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Gorgo and Finrod for the otp meme: All questions! Because I love this ship so damn much! (But take your time of course ^^)

// YASSS THANK YOU @truesanguinesoul You and me both XD//

OTP question meme        

send me a pairing & a number

1. Who is the most affectionate?

Honestly its a tie. They both are so loving and affectionate to each other all the time even when they are across the room from each other, its in their voice and eyes.

2. Big spoon/Little spoon? 

It depends. Gorgo is a cuddler when sleeping, so in main verse after they were first married she was the one who rolled over and cuddled on him without realizing. So then Finrod was basically the little spoon. Once they start falling in love and growing closer, Gorgo is the little spoon most of the time.

In modern its probs around the same

3. Most common argument? 

;~; the one question i cant answer and you already know. My heart hurts too much to go into detail about it, so does Finrod’s. The wound is too deep.

BUT he never argue or fight except about that one thing, and they may disagree about things like him being over cautious when it comes to her health/well being. He is always so super careful to make sure she doesnt get hurt in any way. ( More so main than modern)

4. Favorite non-sexual activity?

Most definitely traveling and trying new things together in any au but especially in main verse. When they first meet, Gorgo has seen nothing of the world aside from her home. She seeks to know what other places are like, and that was what drew Finrod to her so quickly. He saw that adventurous spirit within her. From the moment they traveled to Nargothrond he promised to her to show her the world and try to fill her life with as much happiness as he can possibly give. Throughout their marriage he takes her traveling through the lands when ever possible, helping her to learn and try new things. It was one of the things that made him fall in love with her so much, because while he was taking her traveling they also learned about each other.. and he fell in love with everything he learned…right down to the curve in her smile.

5. Who is most likely to carry the other?

Funny story actually. Finrod normally carries Gorgo but since elves are so incredibly lightweight, Gorgo will find that its probably much easier for her to pick her 6′1 (185 cm) tall husband up than expecteed XD

6. What is their favorite feature of their partner’s?

I think i answered this on a different meme with a similar question once. I think haha.  In all honesty there is no “favorite” because he loves her entirely, from her head down to her feet, he could never choose a fave. But i’ll say a few he loves a lot. First and foremost, he loves her smile. Secondly, her eyes. and Thirdly, her hips even though he wont admit it to anyone but her. Too polite XD

7. What’s the first thing that changes when they realize they have feelings for the other?

Oh wow, what a loaded question. A really good question though.

Even before they realize they have feelings towards each other, what changes is everyone elses opinions. People were a bit suspicious of them being so formal and somehow distant with one another despite being married. But some did think they were only being proper because they are after all King and Queen. However that suspicion fade rather quickly when Finrod and Gorgo began falling in love, people came to realize that they did truly love each other long before the two of them realized.

When they DID realize, I think what changed is their closeness and.. emotions i guess? For Finrod, he began to feel a heavy weight lay on his heart( for other reasons which is a totally other story that i wont get into right now XD) but he also felt this liberation and life renewed in him after all he had been through. He felt almost.. free and happy. And the mixture of guilt and intense love overwhelmed him for a while but he finds himself holding her a little tighter at night, hugging her a little longer, letting his lips linger on her cheek a little longer when giving innocent kisses, and daring to tell her how beautiful she was several times a day. So in conclusion, they continually grew closer once they realized all leading up to their first real kiss. 

8. Nicknames? & if so, how did they originate?

Love, is the only name i can think of, aside from maybe Sweetheart?

9. Who worries the most?

Finrod. Definitely. Since Gorgo is mortal, he constantly worries about her getting sick or hurt and takes precautions. Examples: Letting her win when they spar. Treating even a small paper cut to keep it from being infected.

10. Who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant?

Well in main they dont have restaurants but i feel like they both remember each others favorites.

11. Who tops?

Finrod XD but Gorgo can be dominate too

12. Who initiates kisses?

They both do.

13. Who reaches for the other’s hand first?

I wanna say they both do, but i also think maybe Finrod a little bit more?

14. Who kisses the hardest?

Definitely Gorgo. Finrod does get pretty passionate with kisses but tries his best to be careful, especially careful not to give hickeys if hes kissing somewhere other than lips. Meanwhile hes basically at Gorgo’s mercy XD.

15. Who wakes up first?

Finrod always. He gets up at like 6 am mortal time always lol. Although there are times when he doesnt want to leave her so he’ll stay there with her until 8 am at the latest before waking her up and giving her kisses before hes gatta go. If he cant wait that long, he’ll wake her up when he first wakes up at 6 am and give her kisses then let her go back to sleep.

BUT all this having been said, there are occassional days when they both sleep in rather late when they can manage to have some free time enjoy themselves. ;3

16. Who wants to stay in bed just a little longer?

Gorgo considering how early Finrod gets up XD  Unless like i said, they were having a day to enjoy themselves and “sleep” in late then neither of them wanna get up.

17. Who says I love you first?

Finrod. He whispered it while cuddling her one night and thought she was asleep, but she wasnt and said it back

18. Who leaves little notes in the other’s one lunch? (Bonus: what does it usually say?)

Finrod, since he gets up really early he’ll have breakfast sent up to their chambers with a little “ I love you’ note attached. Or something like, “ I hope you slept well. I love you.”

BUT thats only on occasional days when hes literally just extremely busy and cant bring it himself. and dont get me wrong he ALWAYS includes her in on every single royal duty to the kingdom so everything is 50/50 but shes mortal and he wants her to get her rest, and the kingdom understands as well considering she has to sleep every mortal night for her health.

19. Who tells their family/friends about their relationship first?

Um.. in main this didnt happen. They had an arranged marriage so her family knew right off the bat and it was a secret to anyone else that it was arranged. In terms of him telling HIS family and friends about his “ engagement” he told them first.

20. What do their family/friends think of their relationship?

Her family I think would hope would work out for the better, and they would see eventually that it did. its not hard for people to see that they love each other, However Im not sure what they think of Finrod after Gorgo leaves him for a while ( another long story that i wont get into now XD).

Finrod’s immediate family loves it, and absolutely adores Gorgo. Yet again, its not hard for them to see how truly in love the two of them are.

21. Who is more likely to start dancing with the other?

Depends.. could be both really but i’ll say Finrod because i know hes a nerdy, cheesy, hopeless romantic. Its so much like him to just ask her to dance.

22. Who cooks more/who is better at cooking?

It depends on who you ask. If you ask Finrod who cooks better, he’ll say Gorgo. If you ask Gorgo who cooks better she’ll say Finrod.  And truth is he does cook a bit more, but he still insists shes a wonderful cook.

23. Who comes up with cheesy pick up lines?

Finrod isnt a pick up line type of guy, but is notoriously cheesy XD I think Gorgo would be the one to tease with pick up line things more, and Finrod does have times where he gives her tons of compliments to flatter her but not in a pick up line way.  UNLESS you consider their “ I feel like reading a certain book.” inside joke as a pick up line X’DD

24. Who whispers inappropriate things in the other’s ear during inappropriate times?

Gorgo always XD.  Finrod doesnt really dirty talk ( again unless their “reading a book” thing counts lolol) especially not at inappropriate times. The only time he ever talks dirty its so poetic that its not even dirty anymore. Unless its in the heat of the moment he might like whisper how good it is but thats still incredibly innocent dirty talk XD

25. Who needs more assurance?

This question is really hard XD but i would say Gorgo.  She comes to a new land full of flawless beautiful people in a complete different clothing styles, languages, customs, etc. Its like she stepped into a whole new world, and shes only human. Such a change can be difficult and nerve racking, especially having to set an example as the Queen. Finrod always makes sure to tell her how beautiful and perfect she is because he truly sees her as the most beautiful woman in the world, elf or not. He’ll let her know that its okay to sleep when the rest of the kingdom is awake because she has to, and no one blames her for it. This is why he always lays down with her when she goes to bed at night to help her adjust and assure her theres nothing wrong with it. 

26. What would be their theme song?

Oh gosh there are so many @_@ You’ve sent me so many songs for them in the past i cant remember the names but they were so cute!

There are several songs i always listen to and think of them but i cant quite remember right off the top of my head what they are XD One is a late 80s or 90s song and its perfecttt but i cant remember the name its so cute, its basically this guy singing about how great his girlfriend is and how tough she is XD I wish i could remember it haha

27. Who would sing to their child back to sleep?

They both would, but Finrod a little more i think?  They definitely both sing them to sleep though.

28. What do they do when they’re away from each other?

It depends on why they are apart. If its just one of them being busy, then the other would probably just try and pass the time, find something to do, attend other royal duties, etc.  They always think of each other when apart. Gorgo will occasionally hang out when Finrod’s brothers and Turgon, they are great friends and love to laugh and play around. Finrod generally when not busy spends time with Turgon or tends to the garden when Gorgo is off with Galadriel or something.

HOWEVER. When they are apart due to a certain fight * cough cough* Gorgo is just trying to get over it and cope, try not to be so heartbroken and get support from her family. They both probs cry a lot. Finrod just mopes around and doesnt bother to put on jewelry or really put much effort into his outfit. Some days he might not even leave his room or brush his hair.

29. one headcanon about this OTP that breaks your heart

Well their big fight i mentioned in a few questions but aside from that, definitely that Gorgo dies in Finrod’s arms. He stays by her side for days knowing she would leave soon, and then the day she passes hes holds her when she goes, and he still lays there holding her after she has died. Their children lay there with him too, until he knows they cant hold her any longer. He carries her to the tombs after that, and they have a funeral and the kingdom goes into a long time of mourning. ;~;

30. one headcanon about this OTP that mends it

That Gorgo is reborn, and returns to Finrod by mere luck. She doesnt remember at first but eventually she falls in love with him all over again and remembers it all.

BUT another headcanon that is just as good, is after she leaves for a while then comes back she finds out that Finrod had died and goes all the way to valinor to demand Mandos let her see him. She doesnt even give a flying heck about crossing the sea or having to find a way into Valinor itself, she freaking just does it determined to see him XD And while its sad, it’s also healing in a bitter sweet way because she does get to see him again