#im trying my best to be brave knight

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Referring to my "problems" or every unpleasant thought as "demons"

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a child and their 9ft pet - astral express crew

summary; the adventures of a 7 year old and their large mythical beast called ossy.

genre/extra tags; bullet fic/headcanons, anxious! reader, reader is connected to most animals (but mostly their companion), reader is from the luofu, i made reader a bit know it all sassy but it's okay it's only for a little bit, reader is a smart baby

[platonic] [7 year old! reader] [gender neutral! reader]

[buy me a kofi to support!]

a/n; this is the most steven universe shit i've seen /j /nm, that's what popped into my mind upon reading this ask. nothing wrong with it. just pointing it out KSDJKSJ also this is based off lion dog from chinese mythology which is what i assume you were describing from the shih tzu and also im rather familiar with the lion dog myself as someone who used to visit temples with my family (love those statues). anyways, hope you enjoy, you didn't really specify what type of work you wanted, so i did bullet fic/hcs

the crew met you when you were trying to avoid them

you're not really normal in the luofu, you were not really an anomaly but you weren't a normal kid either.

the general knew of you due to your larger than life pet.

well... it was more of a beast of mythic lore turned real but who's arguing about definitions here?

even if your pet was in a smaller form, they were still pretty big. about 4ft. maybe twice your height almost

but jingyuan let you have your pet as long as you weren't making trouble

anyways, back to the actual subject at hand.

the astral crew needed to find you since you were supposedly the young scholar of the luofu who seemed to know everything and loved learning about everything

you were almost a historian some would even say

but you didn't really like the idea of being a historian

you just like learning about everything

but you weren't the best around people

so when you met the crew .. .

you jumped right into your pet's fur, disappearing without a trace

"HUH?!"

"how did they disappear like that?"

"did they just jump into that animal's fur?"

march tries to reach out, but the dog barks angrily and backs up

"okay okay! sorry.. puppy?"

"they're not a puppy!" your voice erupts from the soft fur of the dog (?) your head pops up startling the express crew, "they're a lion! get it right!" you scolded them.

"but they don't look like a lion."

"and you don't look like a local, so what's it to you!?" you huffed. "you don't know everything about the luofu!"

"that's why we're here. we need to know more about the history of your home." the eldest man, welt yang, spoke gently. "general jingyuan sent us."

you sigh as you cuddle into your pet's fur, still leaving the crew to wondering how you're being contained in it. "okay. what do you want to know?" and you begrudgingly answer their questions. you eventually leave your pet's fur and they keep your feeling less anxious about the strangers who imposed on your reading time.

and that's it for now.

the crew is mildly concerned and curious about you\

they spot you around different parts of the luofu as they continue their adventure.

let's say that they even had more time to get to know you better. how you're kind of a wild card for the luofu cloud knights and how you'd rather do a plain hobby than fight.

but you're perfectly capable of doing so

well, mostly your pet.

boy were they shocked when they saw your already large ish lion change and grow into a true creature of mythology, and fought the marastruck with ease.

"no chewing! marastruck isn't good for your diet!" you had scolded after the fight was over. "put them down ossy!" despite their cowering size, they almost shrink at your words and remind the crew of a sad puppy or cat. but ossy listens to you and spits out the marastruck, letting it disintegrate into the air.

yeah.. the crew was even more curious after that.

trailblazer was the only brave enough to speak what they were all thinking. what is your pet and how did you get them?

and you told them the simple story that you gained them as a family heirloom and bonded a contract with them. you even formed other contracts with other animals but not as strong as ossy's contract.

ossy was sort of a present from your family as you came from a line of mythic beast tamers and now you're here with them

and after that, you visit the express once in a while with ossy by your side to get a break from the streets of luofu

you take up your other hobbies when you're in the express, often knitting or drawing and you make drawings and little bracelets from the crew. while your drawings and knitting works arent as amazing as your knowledge, you don't mind because it just means more to learn and improve on.

you love being with the crew now and you love ossy more than ever of course!

[dreamyblossommwrites]

Hi! I was wondering I can request denki kaminari dating a magical girl!reader who’s in the same class as him and like the dynamic is just readers the knight in shining armor and Denkis the princess 😭(also if it’s ok can it be dating hc’s?🫶🫶🫶)

Yeah ofc!!! Im not sure if I understand ur request correctly so feel free to send another one (when requests are open) if u wanted something else!!! :3

ꕥ Okay so, when I first read this request I thought about the "My girl can wear whathever she wants beacuse SHE can fight" 😭😭

ꕥ Especially if you are the 'brave knight' leading your relationship.

ꕥ Also the dynamic of reader being the knight is so interesting like??? He would love this sm omfg.

ꕥ I dont know if you understand the knight x princess thing the same way I do but I see it like: Denki having this fat FAT crush on you but not doing anything about it beacuse well, hes just some dude with electricity quirk, then theres you liking him too, noticing all those small details about him, noticing HIM, and just simply walking up to him, watching that pink blush appear on his face while youre trying to chat <33

ꕥ Im 98% sure he would NOT start hitting on you cuz how can someone so good be interested in him??? Well surprise <333

ꕥ But after you start dating...

ꕥ Sike nothing has changed, hes still all blushy and stuff 😭😭

ꕥ Hes just so WHIPED for you omg. I know I said it before but he would just talk about his partner all the time, no matter what the conversation was about, he always manages to weave in some compliment about you into the convo <33

ꕥ Hes just talking and talking and talking and talking about you 😭 Youre so good to him, he loves you so much, youre the smartest person alive, the best future hero, youre not scared of anything!

ꕥ Doesnt matter if youre actually are all those things, to him youre the best person alive and thats FINAL.

ꕥ And if someone says ANYTHING bad about you... may lord help them beacuse they will need to listen to the whole list of why his right about you and trust me its LONG.

ꕥ Also you're probably smarter than him (its not hard tbh 😭 our dumb baby) and he just loves when you explain school stuff to him

ꕥ Like, he gets to hang out with you AND learn for the exam? Hell yeah!

ꕥ not lets talk about the hero stuff!!! From what I understand from the request, youre quirk has to do something with magic??? Idk Im kinda dumb so lets stick to it 😇

ꕥ It doesnt matter if youre some kind of witch, telekinesis user or literally any other form of magic. HES. SO. PROUD. of you 😭

ꕥ Complements your hero outfit everytime he sees you in it, silently praying to himself that today's classes would be held in pairs so he cam admire you a bit more

ꕥ I dont want to make him look too dumb but... He loves when you tell him what to do in training.

ꕥ Imagine him catching a villain on his first patrol with you, tying them up while talking about how glad he is that your plan worked, how happy he is you guys work so good together

ꕥ then after a long day of work hes taking you to his dorm, sits you on his bed, turns on some movie and then lets you put some face masks on him while gossiping (his fav part of the day tbh 😭)

ꕥ You are the only person who can use him as a charger without any complaints BUT ONLY when youre doing the face masks (lie, you can use him whenever you like, he will only to pretend he doesnt like it)

Im sorry its so bad and short and stuff but the first version of this just didnt save in my draft for some reason and by the time I started writing this again I was FLOODED with schoolwork <\333 ALSO SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT BUT AGAIN, SCHOOL <\3333 I didnt read it again after writing so sorry for any errors 😛😛😛😛

[fictionfixations]

going through 2.5

2.5 STORY SPOILERS

trigger warning later of minor character death. shown off screen but is described in a way that could sound horrible to the faint of heart

WHAT

i know i joked in my previous post when going through 2.4 that it sounded like the start of a fanfiction but im genuinely disgusted by this ew i was really fucking tempted to just write a fic where jiaoqiu beats his ass (even though i know hoolay is way more powerful then him) but also 2.5 already came out so i gotta get through the story before i get spoiled

the smart choice would be to do 2. but also fuck you hoolay im doing 1. HHH jiaoqiu's voice sounds so like. stressed. like trying to have composure but you can tell hes struggling a little.

also im sorry but hoolays human form looks so fucking ugly (okay maybe im biased but also FUCK YOU HOOLAY) idk ppl might still simp for him but also fuck you im on jiaoqius side >:(

STOPPP USING THE WORD ALPHA like ive heard it so many times in media im DONE i cant hear it the same 😭

"💀 " "None Can Hurt Me" UHHMSOFJFO i sure hope nothing happens to you buddy but

BURN BABY BURN

what the fuck im scared

wait but so i CAN go try to get help? IM SCARED WHAT HAPPENS. uh. uh. uh. FUCK YOU HOOLAY IM DOING IT

wait if i do this will he die. like the the the npc?!?!??!?! GUYSS

AHAHa.. AHgahah.... im. so fucing nervous

im. ohhhh fuck literal chills. im. should i look at what other options i can do to escape or. im so fucking stressed holy shit. logically speaking if jiaoqiu leaves and the ship gets sabotaged or whatever he could die (both him and npc). if he asks him to send a message then the npc will die. guys i hate this what the fuck

I HATE THAT ITS RED TEXT. okay with acheron it was a little startling but we never got like a warning that OUR ACTIONS have CONSEQUENCES. im so fucking scared

me too man. me too. idont want jiaoqiu to die thoguh what if what we choose changes whether or not he dies in canon im

okay ive talked to everyone. and the warning text for everyone is

the skarskiff(?) guy is just an ordinary person the realm keeping person is not prepared for this kind of emergency and that the cloud knight doesnt have backup (has the same choice options as the realm keeping person of borisin are here and introducing ourself)

also that we're being watched. who the fuck

okay the best option would be to cloud knight. but also is it a good idea? no. but. hiusgh. oh my god i hate this.

IM GOING TO BITE THE BULLET. i dont trust that this will end well for me but the logical option even if i get fucked later is to alert someone. a cloud knight knows what risks and responsibilities they're taking on by becoming one and if they die well fuck man but i REFUSE to just not do anything because that'd be like. playing into hoolays hands which 1. i hate him. 2. as a person who very much values my independence I NEED OUT OF THIS SITUATION

and maybe its what hoolay wants, for us to fail his 'test' but whatever. IM REBELLIOUS. (and probably really dumb)

cant wait to see how this affects story in the future. and also seeing how different choices affect things when i watch other people do this. haha. but predicting that they might not talk to anyone out of fear IM going to talk to someone

uhh im going to introduce myself first. its like how you're meant to share your address first in emergencies or something i think maybe? because if the call cuts out then they can find you quickly (i think your phone can be tracked but it takes awhile its not that easy i think?)

okay i did it. wheres the guy who was watching me i cant remember where he was. is he gone? did he disappear? i acnt tell im so fuckings tressed

nothing happened but. but the cloud knights gone now (presumably to spread the news)

i. do i tell other people ? do i. im. okay im

i only talked to the cloud knight. and then im going to do what hoolay asked. thats it. im not brave or reckless enough to tell eVEryone

HIS VOICE IS TREMBLING for the 100th time i hate this

GUH

I FORGOT THEY HAVE OFFICIAL IDENTITIES PRETENDING TO BE--

oh fuck MY DUMBASS

his voice... AGHH JIAOQIUUU

GO FUCK YOURSELF YOURE NOT THE BOSS OF ME

i knew it. i fucking knew it. IM JUSTIFYING IT TO MYSELF BECAUSE CLOUD KNIGHT YOU BECOME IT KNOWING YOU COULD DIE OKAY. id rather have tried to escape then not at all and prove his racist belief 'right'. okay i know im probably in the wrong because they couldve lived if i didnt do anything and i had a hunch that they wouldve died if i asked for help. but. okay at my core i am selfish. and for all i knew there was a teeny tiny chance that it couldve succeeded

and listen. im quoting twisted wonderland now.

"Zero is zero no matter what you multiply it by, right? But if you take some form of action, that zero could potentially become 0.001. And 0.001 has a chance of becoming 100. In which case, there's no reason NOT to do it." (Book 6 - Chapter 48 • A Sequel Cut Short)

i hate these kinds of mind games.

hoolay fucking yapping and i know we're in a tough situation meant to demonstrate how jiaoqiu's kind of powerless but hoolays just talking about how jiaoqiu will eventually crumble and im just. yeah okay big talk. and like i get that hoolay does have connections still and ppl pretending to be foxians keeping a close eye on everything and genuinely wont hesitate to kill someone but okay i just hate him

god he sounds like one of those people who are like. when you refuse their advances and they go 'oh so youre playing hard to get huh?' and keep going with the belief that we definitely want them or some shit💀

i should pretend. but no i cant. thats not the kind of person i am.

oh shit. yeah okay remind me that maybe this could potentially lead to jiaoqiu dying in canon. i mean. its happened in npc stories before right? like that one person in penacony who we could choose to stop her from falling or let her fall

but fucking OW. hoolay talking doesnt terrify me. and maybe thats why im choosing all the dumb options. but ow.

does he have this pose if we pretend to show weakness? i mean maybe its cause we got hurt and hes exaggerating it and showing weakness then. or maybe it actually hurts like a bitch and he cant help but show reaction.

OMG MOZE

okay actually other idea of jiaoqius plan. contacting someone for help and deliberately being caught so its not suspicious if we go along with his demands too easily (but having another plan to get help thats more secret)

like okay i know it was my choice to try to get help and fucking it up but still canon-like right. although i doubt he'd be okay sacrificing an innocent life so um oops

AHHH FUCKING LITERAL CHILLS. we got jiaoqiu flashback where he was like a healer on the battlefield. i dont think im saying that right i forgot what theyre called. but like remember feixiao mentioning in 2.4 how jiaoqiu healed her, and later became her like main healer or something something i forget the wording

and then it goes black and we hear hoolays voice. i have a little hunch that it might be the thing to stop the lupitoxin's effects starting to fade, nad thus the toxin starting to affect him

hh his voice... :(

yeah okay so let us go

sorry did he just bite someone and they turned into a borisin or did it just get rid of the guys disguise

i wasnt paying attention to who it was. i know it wasnt mok tok (different appearance, also it showed jiaoqiu turning away to not see it and mok tok standing there while that was happening)

its genuinely so confusing trying to tell who is a foxian and whose a borisin cause disguises but i assume its an actual borisin who was disguised...

hes talking to moze but all i can hear is monke from ben's stream (aka moze's EN VA LMFAO)

OH IT WAS A NORMAL FOXIAN

what if he does it on jiaoqiu but then they figure out how to turn jiaoqiu back to normal and learn how to cure feixiao. right? right??? probably not but im so stressed

HOLY SHIT JIAOQIU. he sounds so.. wrung out. exhausted.

acting is fucking 10/10 he sounds kind of unhinged but in the slow still exhausted but with emphasis on some of the words?? like. like he still has fight in him. i dont know how to explain this but its really cool

oh shit does he die now

hooly fucking shit literal chills the text appearing on the black screen actually like communicating in a way to us and helping us get an idea of whats going on

okay major manga spoilers for demon slayer. but here is my next prediction: he has poison in his blood that will affect the borisins if they drink it, like how shinobu kocho had like a shit ton of wisteria in her blood (it was also under her fingernails and shit like that, she put it EVERYWHERE) so that when douma (who killed her sister) ate her he'd be poisoned and severely weakened

AM I RIGHT??

I. FUCKING. KNEW ITTTTTT

okay well it was pretty obvious because right before it mentioned the green peppers(?) thing and how to get a picky child to eat it, it re-mentioned that conversation. and then changed it how to get a wolf to something something i already forgot so it was obvious

but JIAOQIU LETS GOOOO i really hope you didnt die

no wait but shit

okay so i cant share any more images i hit the limit on tumblr but okay so if he consumed poison (ist tumbledust. i already forgor. was it like the thing thats like a sedative thats good in small quantities but lethal in large quantities? or was that like yabruh or something)

does that mean he'll die anyway or

i dont think jiaoqiu said it in front of hoolay but anyway im so unhappy that cutscenes lag for me (hoolay immediately clocks on that it was probably jiaoqiu who poisoned him but sdhfuf. this MEANS that hoolay drank JIAOQIUS BLOOD?!?!?!?!? is he DEAD??? )

also i HATE the hoolay fight im struggling so bad ahuisdhdisuad

YANQING LETS FUCKING GOOOOOO (boutta trigger hoolays jingliu trauma)

im sorry for accusing you of being a disguised borisin, sparkle traumatized me ok (and im sorry for pinching your cheeks in 2.4 being cautious of if you were a fake but also i didnt know that was what that option meant)

you were just acting really weird so i got stressed but LETS GOOOO

WHAT WE'RE FIGHTING HIM AGAIN????? YOURE FUCKING WITH ME

oh shit feixiao boss fight

heyy her character. trailer?? i think thats what it was called teased this. like cause she got drunk and couldnt recognize jing yuan and fought him (briefly)

YANQING FUCKING POPPED OFF THIS STORY

i (think) all thats left is feixiao boss fight that we saw in the livestream

some stuff. ill do wardance later. but im gonna end this post here. havent gotten to the end but i dont think ill have anything else to share and i dont have space here anyway so brr

OH FINALLY I CAN ACCESS DIFFICULTY MODES

AND YOU CAN CHOOSE THEM WHILE IN STORY OH THANK FUCK casual mode my precious

okay we figfhting preceptor oh

dan heng: the oath of the alliance doesnt matter to me because im not a part of the alliance anymore *attacks*

me using imbitior lunae dan heng in battle: uh. uh. uh. uhm. YEP

anyway jiaoqius alive (he almost died though)

he sounds so more subdued :(

HOLY SHIT HES BLIND? OH MY GOD thats both better and worse than i thought

OH MY GOD TINGYUN

i was so confused on ruan mei appearance but OH MY GOD

[aurae-rori]

not on anon but i saw your post and i come to bring you a question! hi!

is there a certain trait/concept/aspect about a character that you wish was more discussed by the fandom? that you think the fandom misses out on? if so, what character, and what’s the trait? feel free to ramble as much as you want!

other than that, how are you doing :D? is there anything interesting in your life going on that you want to share (can be as wild or as mundane as you want, just whatever you think might be interesting lol)?

YANQING I FUCKING WISH WE TALKED MORE ABOUT YANQING. i wish we talked more about how he's desperate for the approval of others and how despite the fact that he's talented at swords, he's just a kid at the end of the day. he yearns for the validation and approval for others but probably struggles to make friends because all of the cloud knights are like "oh you're the talented retainer of the general" (oh wait i see why i like dr ratio and him now they have parallels through that) but he IS A KID. hes a talented kid and yeah he lost against the high cloud quintet but hes like what, twelve, thirteen in canon? thats fucking impressive for a kid his age i wish we talked about how genuinely amazing that kid is. he has determination hes brave and hes doing his best to protect the people. hes a GOOD KID, but hes still that, a kid, who wants love just like all of us. if you hate yanqing either i tell you all about his lore implications or if you dont want to respect my opinion smh, begone.

hm, i'm doing pretty good - i submitted a resume for jobs but nobody has called me back yet dies on the ground (im thinking about maybe trying for a remote job atp if nobodys gonna respond to my application). ive been drinking an unholy amount of chai lattes and im kind of thinking about maybe starting a sideblog where i post every time i buy one LMFAO

[aemondapologistfrfr]

Dethrone - Chapter 9

Warnings: 18+, thigh riding, fingering, daggers, swearing, criston cole

Authors Note: aemond finds out how needy his bethrothed is, training w criston cole and besting him bc why not, helaena!!! my sweet girl! (i promise she will be treated RIGHT in this fic and no harm will come to her or her children), a family dinner that’s tame, alsoooo im almost done w this fic but every time i cross something off of my timeline i add like ten more things 😅

Word Count: 3.2k

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Court is to be held tomorrow and I’m buzzing with excitement. In the past few days we’ve solidified with Alicent, and unfortunately Daemon, that we would like to announce our betrothal instead of a courtship. They both agree to the new announcement and I now make my main focus picking a gown to wear to court.

“What am I to wear?” I pace around my chambers looking at the entirety of my wardrobe thrown everywhere.

“I can offer you my assistance.” Kaenna smiles as she enters my chambers.

“You’re finally here!” I laugh out in relief. I run over to her and pull her into a hug finally feeling like everything is starting to fall into place.

“You’re betrothed!” she hugs me back even tighter.

“Can you believe it? I have to find something to wear.” I groan looking at my wardrobe that’s taken up our entire seating area and bed.

“We’re in Kings Landing my child, we will find you the perfect gown. Tell me what your vision is.” Kaenna eyes the state of my chambers and gives me a disappointed look.

I explain and go into as much detail as I can think of for my gown. A warm smile spreads across her face and tells me she’ll get me exactly that and runs off out of my chambers. Gods know where she’ll get that in time. I slowly start to pick up my gowns and bring them over to my wardrobe.

I abandon cleaning and change into my training clothes to head down to the training yard. I look around lost and then find Ser Criston and begin walking over to him in hopes of him training me today. I wouldn’t mind training on my own but I’m still working on my familiarity with everything here.

“Princess, how can I help you?” Ser Criston asks lowering his sword from his opponent and looking toward me.

“If you have time, could you train with me?” I ask with a soft smile not wanting to interrupt him.

“I would be honored,” he walks away from the man immediately. “What’s the extent of the training you’ve had so far? I saw you with Aemond and I was quite impressed.” he smiles walking over to me.

“I’ve trained with many different people when I lived in Runestone. I’ve had a lot of good and a lot of bad teachers, but I absorbed the knowledge nonetheless. I’m hoping to set up a routine here in Kings Landing.” I say looking over the nearby weapons table.

“I can help set up times with you. For today what would you like to work on?” he inquires relaxing more out of his guard state.

“I was thinking close combat.” I hum removing a dagger from a sheath on my thigh.

“As you wish.” Ser Criston draws his own.

We circle each other for a couple breaths before I decide to make the first move. I make a quick swipe with my dagger and then following up with a jab from my left fist. He ducks just missing my fist while bringing his leg out in attempt to trip me. I hop over his leg and he spins to avoid me being at his back.

He pummels forward and I dash out of the way swiping with my blade once more. He moves to avoid it only to have it pressed to his throat a moment later. We continue this same dance until we’re both sweaty and exhausted.

“It seems we have plenty to learn from my betrothed.” Aemond chuckles from the weapons table.

“Hello, my Prince.” I smile widely dropping my blade from Ser Criston’s chest.

“So this is where you’ve been.” Aemonds smile broadens as I begin approaching him.

“Well one of us has to be the protector.” I tease him.

“And you will be my brave knight?” Aemond raises his eyebrow trying to hide the smirk on his face.

“Shining armor and all my love.” I laugh softly as I sheathe my dagger.

“Mm, well I don’t want to steal you away from galant knight training, but I thought you would like to meet my sister, Helaena.” he says leading us out of the training yard claiming my hand in his.

“I would love to. I just need to change first.” I smile up to him.

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We enter my chambers and I tell him to go to the balcony so we don’t get distracted. I pull off my training clothes and pull on a silk slip. I groan loudly as I forget that all my gowns are thrown everywhere.

“Everything alright?” Aemond asks walking into the room and stopping as he drinks in my body.

“Aemond!” I hiss. “I told you to wait out there until I’m done.” I roll my eyes at him.

“I thought you would need help tying up your dress.” he says innocently walking closer.

“I want to meet your sister. You get back out on the balcony before that’s delayed even longer.” I point to the balcony stubbornly.

“Fine.” Aemond turns and walks outside once more.

I grab a black gown that has a mesh neckline that plunges and sleeves that meet my wrists. Shades of blue slip down the torso and end in a deep sapphire. There is a particularly scandalous cut on one side that goes up to the thigh but I think I’ll be able to hide it. I slip it over my head and smooth it out against my body. I put some black slippers on and walk over to my vanity to fix my hair.

“You can come back in.” I call out to Aemond.

“I would burn cities to the ground for you.” he breathes out staring at me in the mirror.

“As I would do for you.” I hum pulling him in for a quick kiss.

I finish my hair and we’re on our way to Helaena’s chambers. I feel bad that I haven’t seen her since I’ve arrived. She’s the only other dreamer I know of and I’m curious to see how her dreams manifest. Hopefully she’s as open and curious as I am.

We knock and enter her chambers. I see three beautiful children sat on the ground playing with blocks in the sunlight. Helaena is contently knitting on the couch humming. She is the portrait of peace and serenity.

“Helaena, this is Viktorya.” Aemond announces me to her.

“I’m sorry I haven’t came to meet you sooner.” I say as I follow Aemond to the couch.

“It’s lovely to finally meet you.” she looks me in the eyes deeply and smiles. “Mother has told me all about you.”

“I hope all good.” I return her warm smile.

“You’re a dreamer too.” she states more than asks as she tilts her head.

“I am. Not many people know.” I say hushed.

“They never seem to understand the burden that comes with our knowledge.” she hums as she resumes knitting.

“Indeed,” I reply. “I’ve been chasing a dream for my whole life.” I turn to Aemond smiling.

“And you’ve finally found him.” Helaena glances over to us.

“I’m sorry,” I say slightly tilting my head. “You know of my dream?” I ask curiously.

“Yes, I’ve waited for you too. You will allow me and my children to escape and be happy in peace.” she looks over to her children with a hint of a smile.

“I will do everything I can to ensure that you all are safe and happy.” I say reassuringly catching her gaze.

“Thank you.” she smiles as she sets her knitting down to glide over to me. She wraps me in a warm embrace. “You’ll do well as Queen.” she whispers as she pulls back.

“Thank you.” I smile hugging her again. “Should you ever want company or to talk please reach out to me and I will come. I promise you.” I offer nodding my head.

“The time will come.” she looks off in the distance.

“Well, we will stop bothering your knitting, sister.” Aemond says softly and I rise with him. We quietly leave her chambers and he shuts the door softly behind us.

“She was very sweet.” I hum grabbing onto his hand.

“She is.” he replies bringing my hand to his mouth so he can place a kiss on it. “I must ask my love..” Aemond says trailing off, tugging us into a dark alcove off the hallways.

“What must you ask my love?” I ask giggling at his antics.

“Are you wearing this just to see how much you can tease me?” Aemond asks backing me up to the wall and he spreads his hand on my exposed thigh.

“I didn’t think it would be noticeable.” my breath hitches in my throat as he brings his hand higher.

“Where are your panties?” he growls into my ear as his hand reaches my bare hip.

“I forgot.” I whisper as he squeezes roughly on my hip.

“I don’t think you did.” his smile turns devilish as he presses himself into me.

I yelp as I’m suddenly falling backwards. Aemonds hands swiftly get to the back of my head to protect me from the fall. We slowly start to untangle and get up. The wall we were leaning on has opened into a doorway.

“I guess we found another entrance.” I say wiping dust from my gown giggling.

“Shall we explore?” Aemond offers he his hand as he begins walking deeper into the tunnels.

“I would love to.” I smile accepting his outstretched hand.

He shuts the door behind of us as we start off. There are many different tunnels and stairwells that I could get lost in for hours. I take in my surroundings baffled at how these aren’t in use. I follow Aemond closely as we start journeying deeper into the tunnels. I know he’s explored these before so I thankful he’s here to offer guidance or I surely would be spending the night in here.

After a while of walking around and showing me all of the back way to important rooms and halls he begins to turn us back around. He leads us up a flight of stairs and we make a couple of turns until he stops us at a doorway. He opens it and leads us back into my chambers.

“Where were we?” Aemond smirks pushing me back on the chair.

“Not getting distracted.” I smile putting a slippered foot on his chest stopping him from climbing on top of me. “You said we could actually attend family dinner.” I pout looking up to him.

“You sound more appetizing.” he whispers watching my skirts slowly fall towards my hip from the angle of my foot on his chest.

“We’re going to dinner.” I reply firmly and take my leg off his chest. “Pull yourself together and maybe you can have dessert.” I smile brushing past him to the main doors.

He catches up to me quickly and we begin walking to the main hall. We arrive at the same time as everyone else does and no one says a word. There seems so be some animosity in the air between the two families. Me and Aemond sit next to each other which seems to be the only common ground between all of us.

Jace is giving me dirty looks and I can’t suppress my giggle at his twin bruises on his face. Daemon clears his throat to get me to stop and I roll my eyes at him and turn back towards Aemond. He’s staring daggers at Aegon, who I now see, has been staring at my chest.

Viserys slowly walks in and we all stop and rise. This is the first time I’m meeting him and his health seems to be as bad as rumored. We all sit once he takes a seat and wait for him to speak.

“How lovely to have you all here with me. To see us together after so many years. So much loss. Let it strengthen us!” Viserys declares raising his glass. “Welcome Viktorya. Shame on Daemon for hiding you from us.” he stares down the table at my father.

“It is lovely to be here after all this time.” I say smiling sweetly.

“And a congratulations are in order!” Viserys booms. “You’ve found love with Aemond!” he says joyously.

I can feel Aemond tense beside me. I know he’s told me that he was never close with his father so of course the smallest amount of attention will feel out of place. I completely understand this and try and comfort him by placing a hand on his thigh. I squeeze his thigh and smile and him supportively.

We all fall into our own conversations as the courses are brought out. Music is played and the spirits are lifted as we all start to relax. My thumb starts rubbing circles absentmindedly on Aemonds thigh as I take a sip of my wine basking in the feeling of a family dinner no matter the true feelings that are hidden.

“Remove your hand before I take you on this table in front of the family.” Aemond whispers in my ear sternly.

I cough on my wine and bring my hand back to my lap. I can feel my face heating and I hope no one has noticed. I risk a peak and thankfully the only person looking at me is Aemond. The servants come and clear our plates and soon after Viserys dismisses us saying he’ll see us all tomorrow at court.

Aemond and I walk silently hand in hand back to my chambers. The tension between us is thick and causing me to get jittery. I’m trying to gauge his mood but he won’t make eye contact with me the whole way back. Once we get to my chambers he runs his fingers through his kept hair.

“I’ve been trying and failing to show restraint when it comes to you.” he breathes out sounding frustrated with himself.

“I haven’t been making it easy. I’m sorry. If you want to sleep in separate chambers until we wed I understand. I don’t mean to be so needy.” I offer softly averting my gaze.

“No, I should be able to control myself. You’re just so perfect. In every way.” he cups my face adoringly. “Gods, the way you tease me.” he says kissing my lips once and trying not to linger.

One of his hands caresses my jaw and he brings his thumb to my lower lip. I slowly part my lips and he groans as I lick the pad of his finger softly. He chuckles lowly and shakes his head. His hand caresses down my body to my waist and guides us back to a chair.

He moves my skirts and helps me straddle one of his legs so I’m completely bare on his clothed thigh. He pulls me closer to him and brings his lips to mine. I moan into his mouth at the friction on my clit as I scoot up his thigh.

He slowly begins rocking my hips with his hands as I toss my head back in pleasure. My hips grind down as he slides me back and forth. Soon I get lost in the rhythm and my hips start moving quicker on their own accord. Aemonds name followed by obscene moans fall from my lips as my pleasure begins to build.

My body becomes taught as I frantically rock against his thigh. He brings a hand between us and starts to circle my clit. With one hand still guiding me and the other on my clit I’m quickly lost in Aemond.

My head falls to his neck as I whimper, coming all over his thigh. His mouth attaches to my throat and his arms snake around my back to pull me closer. I lift my leg over his other thigh so I can fully straddle his hips. He grunts out when my wet core comes into contact with his covered hard length.

I slowly rock my hips on him and his fingers squeeze into my hips which I know will leave bruises for me to cherish. Feeling him through his pants sends a new jolt of excitement through me. I slowly reach down for his belt to help him out of his pants.

“My pleasure can wait until after we wed.” Aemond says softly grabbing my wrist. “It’s the only thing I’ve been able to hold off on.” he whispers helping me off his lap.

“Do you at least take care of yourself without me?” I ask looking up at him through my lashes leaning back on the couch.

“I have to.” he says his cheeks turning red.

“I don’t think I’ve seen you blush so fiercely, my love.” I coo pinching his cheek.

“Don’t make fun of me.” he says nuzzling into my neck.

“Do you think about me when you do it?” I whisper as I smooth his hair.

“Of course.” he pulls back and looks at me sincerely.

“Tell me.” I ask breathlessly.

“I picture you under me on our wedding night. Eyes locked to mine as our bare chests rise and fall together.” he whispers lightly kissing my neck. “I slowly slide into you as your nails rake down my back. Once I’m fully in you, you clench deliciously around me making me snap my hips forward.” he trails off hands sliding up my thighs.

“Please Aemond,” I pant spreading my legs for him.

“I set a quick pace surprising us both. You’re moaning my name as I continuously fuck this tight little pussy.” he says as he slips two fingers into me. “You arch up as you come around me for the first time. I keep going at the same pace offering you no break.” he continues his fantasy as he starts plowing his fingers into me.

“Yes Aemond! Fu-“ I cut off with a loud moan as he curls his fingers slightly getting a new angle.

“My Wife.” he coos bringing his thumb up to rub my clit. “My hips finally falter as I fill you, slowly fucking it into you. And you take it, coming with me again.” he breathes into my neck as I come harder than I ever have before.

I hold onto his arms like my life depends on it and then relax back into the couch once more. He slowly removes his fingers from me and sticks them in his mouth sucking me off of him. He hums in satisfaction as he pulls us up off of the couch.

“I think we should wed as soon as possible.” I smile at him lazily. “Lets make that fantasy come true.” I say slowly removing my dress leaving me in my slip.

“All in time my love. I’ll wait for you as long as I need to.” Aemond smiles as he removes his shirt and pants to get into bed with me pulling me closely to him.

[dcamato]

“Why…why can’t you love me? I’m telling you im leaving and you aren’t even fighting for me. Why am I not worth fighting for? Did you EVER love me?!” Steve chokes out through a river of tears falling down his cheeks. They’d gone to Indy for the weekend, some holiday shopping for the Party and everyone else and a chance to cut loose and have some fun for them. Eddie had been weird all day - when they went to the diner for lunch (the waiter crossed the line leaving his number there and Steve made sure to use the napkin before leaving it behind); when they were shopping, Eddie kept moving away from Steve no matter what Steve did to stay close. By the time they’d hit the bar, it was like being alone again. Steve didn’t know what he’d done but he tried to fix it. Bought Eddie a drink, kept trying to put his arm around him, asking him to dance…when Eddie got upset and actually pushed Steve away, he was done. He watched Eddie start talking to some dude (who looked quite a bit like Steve, btw).He walked back to the hotel, tears threatening every step. He tried to call Robs (no answer) and even thought about calling Nancy (add to this pain? Maybe not) when the door opens. “I’ll be gone in a few, dude, so you can bring your date back here.” Eddie is looking down, pain and shame fighting for first on his face. “Stevie…” “no, you can’t say that to me right now, no. Pretty clear now,thinking back on the day, you want nothing more to do with me. Don’t know what I did but fine, I’ll go.” “Steve, please just…” You’re free to do and see and fuck whoever you want since you obviously don’t want me.” “HARRINGTON!” Stop! Please…just give me a minute to talk. Please, baby…” “Why…why can’t you love me? I’m telling you im leaving and you aren’t even fighting for me. Why am I not worth fighting for? Did you EVER love me?!” Eddie can barely see through his own tears but he grabs Steve as they both crumple to the ground. The next few minutes are silent, punctuated with sobs, deep breaths and mumbled words of comfort. When he can finally breathe and he knows Steve is calm enough to listen and truly hear the words, Eddie starts talking - “you are worth more to me than I could ever give and that was my problem. I made it yours these last few days, actually, and you don’t deserve that. You don’t deserve someone like me - doing nothing, going nowhere, with no future. You deserve the white knight, fighting dragons for you, going into battle for you. Coming back to you to sing your praises and offer their love. The best I can do is the last one - and I know that’s not enough. You deserve the world and all it has to offer, not some tiny corner of it that’s not much more than dirt. Since I knew I’d never be brave enough to leave you - I love you to damned much for that - I had to make you hate me enough to leave. Guess I am good at something at least. Just didn’t realize how…how soul deep the pain of you leaving would actually be. I don’t deserve you, even less now with what I’ve done but YOU don’t deserve to think it’s because your unloveable or not worthy of love. You are so insanely lovable and deserve to be loved by better than the likes of me…”. Eddie’s eyes shone, shed tears gripped tight to his lashes. He refused to hurt this beautiful man that he would love forever, not one more moment of pain would he cause him. His love for Steve simply wouldn’t allow it. Steve, for his part, was in turns confused, angry, hurt, awed and enamored. Every word spoken healed a crack in his heart; it made him understand how dumb they both were (yeah, Robs had said they needed to work on communication) and how much he needed to make Eddie understand right now - “Eds, sweetheart, you’re an idiot.” “HEY!…” “No, you are but so am I. We both want to give each other everything and we think the other one is going to leave to find it. Baby, to me, you ARE my knight,- you nearly died for a town that hated you, but you stay in the face of that and that is so, so brave; you defend my honor regularly with those shitheads when they get mouthy. You kill the spiders I can’t bring

[quinloki]

got a little brave (see: drunk) and i've decided i DO wanna gush about my girl a little bit, because i think the dynamics i have with her and her love interests are really interesting! so rosamund has a big problem with confusing worship and love, so the way she dedicates herself to her crew is really unhealthy. shes a pacifist who has decided to go against all of her morals to do everything her crew doesn't want to or won't do that she thinks has to be done (including killing, something she is VERY against, but will do anyway to protect her friends because she sees them as more important, more worthy, than herself and her values).

she was originally made to kiss sanji, both because i love him and because i like the idea of two people putting each other on pedestals, always pushing themselves further from the other because they're so convinced of their own flaws and the other's perfection. but i accidentally made her have what i think it a very interesting dynamic with zoro, since they both see themselves as protectors of the crew.

so the way i like to describe their dynamics is how they see themselves. sanji sees himself as a knight protecting a fair maiden, and rosamund as a damsel in distress. zoro sees himself as a sort of shepherd, a defenser, and her as a wounded guard dog, a being capable of defending itself, but one that shouldn't have to. and lastly, she sees herself also as a wounded dog, but not in such a sympathetic light: she sees herself as a wounded animal, ready to bite, too lost in its own fear to see who its hurting at this point. and in all of this, none of them really fully view the other as a person, fully realized and alive; they're too young and lost in their own thoughts to fully conceptualize that maybe they're all just kids trying their best to make it in a world that isn't entirely welcoming to them. after the timeskip they'll get better about this, but in the beginning they're all so busy trying to find themselves they lose each other!

sorry if this message is kind of long or doesn't make much sense, i think i get a little lost in the conceptual parts of making an oc and not get much into the real actual plot stuff. but thank you for listening :-) eventually ill get brave and post some of the actual writing i have for her, im sitting on a whole discord channel full of unedited stuff about her

This is perfect! I love Rosamund, but what I love is that you have her so well developed in a behind-the-scenes sense that I think it'll be easy for you to get rolling once you start writing.

And what I mean is that there are lots of ways to go about things, but usually it comes down to some combination of:

Develop the world and drop archetypes (Characters) into it and let the world develop them.

Develop the characters and let them shape the world.

Develop the Story and let it paint the characters and world.

People usually do a mix of those three things, but there's nothing wrong with leaning heavily against one part over the others. When you're dealing with fan fic, because of how a lot of the characters you're using are already established to a certain point, we're all about half-way up that "develop the characters" slider XD

And so when you introduce an OC, self-insert, reader, etc. into the mix, you can give a lot more energy to your character's development because you don't need to give as much to the canon characters.

Sure, enough to adjust them to your story/world, or maybe even enough attention to do what you've done here - which is making sure you're concepts of them are internal and mapped out well enough to jive with your story ideas and OC.

I love all of this though. I love the view of Sanji and Zoro and Rosamund. Recognition of the sheer insanity of being 17-19 and having that much weight on your shoulders. Barely having the capacity to keep your own head above water and then being responsible for the safety of others. The way emotions cut deep into your muscles no matter if they're good or bad.

Ah, thank you for sharing my friend, I look forward to whatever you do and whatever you decide to share about Rosamund <3

[sentofight]

ooc. because bear said let edea rage ... im thinking about what would really trigger that out of her. we've seen her lose a lot of people during the game but she didn't lose sight of what made her go on her journey (yes, it was painful but she had to brave it.) obvious reason would be coming in touch with her friends and loved ones but i still can't see her drop that nice attitude and go full YOU ARE HERBY TO BE BEHEADED, YOU WHO ON THE BLACK SIDE OF THE WORLD.

i'm trying to think of situations which would make her flip. the most thing that would instantly trigger her is probably ... questioning justice. yes, the world is not black and white to her anymore but justice is still justice no matter what. if someone is trying to bend the rules to hurt others or take advantage and in doing so provoking her, calling her out for her 'limited outlook', maybe challenge her to stop them she might blow some steam on them. justice is meant to protect others, not to hurt them. she does not take kindly to people abusing their authority to cause trouble for others (looks at ominas). Oh, it would add layer of anger if provoking was so good you trash the victims and blame them that they are weak etc maybe even say it is some sort of natural order??? bro. you are not gonna get the mrrgrgrgrgr you gonna skip to 'i'll teach you what real justice is' and zing her quick draw of her katana to slice you off.

what else ... OH. HARD WORKING PEOPLE MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM SHE LOVES HARD WORKING PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE YOU BULLY THEM YOU GONNA GET ANGY EDY AT YOU. not feral tho but you know very angry. she hates it when she sees someone flaunting their status or money and saying they are better and dis others who are trying their best with their own skills and talents. as a hard worker herself, she would prooooooooobably................ lose it a tiny bit if someone 'compared' her to that kind of folks you know... nonononono you didnt just say she is using papa's title to get into the sky knights and all that. mhm buddy you fricked up. still, not enough to need someone to hold her back you know?

gah. why is it so hard to think when she loses her mind over something? is she..... TOO BIMBO TO LOSE IT OVER SOMETHING!? AM I TOO BIMBO TO THINK OF SOMETHING!?!!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?! HALP. LIKE ASIDE FROM SEEING SOMEONE HURT HER FRIENDS AND FAMILY WHAT ELSE IM DUMB ATM I ...........IM LOSING MY TOUCH AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i guess i need to reread some convos, lines and watch some videos i said i will watch about praying brage because edy is the new vestal of wind sdkfjsdlfk i should. sadly that game is no longer available..darn my luck wa.

[borom1r]

hmmm 3, 5, 6, 11, 14, 20, 22, 26, 38, 40 for the fun questions meme <3

ooooooo ok these’ll b inchresting :3

3- 3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

th lotr trilogy (duh), I Saw the TV Glow, The Last Unicorn :3

5- what made you start your blog?

THIS blog? suicide bait on my old blog :3

tumblr in general? a friend showed it to me in high school n i made one n my life was irreversibly changed lmfao

6- what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

ATTENTION. double edged sword. like ok i try not to let myself care abt attention and try to be rlly careful now abt who i interact with but at the same time it rlly is validating when things Get Attention. some of my favorite fics have little to no engagement :( n like yea its not healthy to create FOR engagement (fast track 2 burnout) but its also like very disheartening to put time n effort n passion into sth only for it to fizzle out in the void

but whatever. ill make weird art forever

11- what do you consider to be romance?

THIS IS SO FUNNY 2 GET bc soooo much recently has made me reevaluate like. how I perceive this lollllll

anyways short answer: idfk man!!!!!!! close friendships n romance r incredibly cloudy in my mind cuz ive got a bad case of dogbrain!!

long answer is i just don’t quantify that stuff the way neurotypical ppl do :3 ties into th autism + nonhumanity. i also think cis ppl being attracted to me is gross lol. ideal romance for me is bein held n tended to like a noble knight tends their sword. I feel love like a dog feels abt their human!!! dogbrained!!! romance is being a guard dog, being a Really Good Boy but just soooo disconnected from like. idk allosexual/neurotypical quantifiers of “romance” for me lol

+ i don’t use th label rlly but im def somewhere on th ace spectrum lol like physical intimacy is only rlly “safe” conceptually when its completely disconnected from th realm of possibility. like thirsting over celebrities or like th knight i have a crush on. + cis ppl desiring me is rlly like.. ew 😒 don’t look @ me anymore man

14- what’s something you’ve always wanted to do but maybe been to scared to do?

UM. funnily enough im gonna do th Big Thing this summer :3 im going 2 th renaissance festival shirtless this year now tht im post op

s’gonna be scary showin off my scars but i rlly wanna go all out n celebrate finally havin top surgery. like im alive!! despite everything im alive n im happy ^_^ so cis people be damned, im gonna run around like a lil wolfguy for the first weekend!!!!!

20- favourite things about the night?

i love the moon :3

i also love how still n quiet things get

22- say 3 things about someone you love

ITS SO BRAVE!!!!!!!!! ITS LITERALLY THE FUNNIEST GUY I KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO PROUD OF IT FOR HOW MUCH WORK IT DOES TO BETTER OUR COMMUNITY N PROUD OF IT FOR PURSUING TRANSITION + CANT WAIT TO SHARE MORE TRANS JOY W/ IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(hiiiiiii Ly hehe!!)

26- fave colour and why?

when i was a kid my favorite colors were neon yellow n neon pink :3 they still kinda are but now i usually stick to like lime green or bright red paired w black. forest green + dark blue r gr8 too

38- fave song at the moment?

DONT ASK ME TO PICK JUST ONE???????

here r some I’ve had on loop lately: Far Away (Roadside Ghost), Anthems for a Seventeen Year Old Girl (Broken Social Scene), I’m Already Gone (Baroness), Sex for Homework (MSI)

40- any bad habits?

oh yea i have dermatillomania lol

it doesn’t rlly bother me to talk abt bc i think “gross” stuff like that deserves to be less stigmatized— my shoulders n back are COVERRRRREED in little scars + scabs

[underscoreddie]

Starry eyed

Awsten knight x male reader fanfiction. Angst.

TW: seizures, cancer

A/N: alright this fic isn't the best I made but it's also not the worst. Probably shouldn't be the first fic I post on here but idrc anymore.

"He's having another one!" Geoff screamed from the bathroom. I immediately threw off my bass and ran to the bathroom, Otto following behind me.

"What do you mean Geoff!? Please don't tell me it's another seizure!" I shouted, trying to get a view on what was happening. Awsten was sitting on the floor completely locked up. He was practically unmoving. I immediately bent down and shook him. He had no response, staying completely still. Otto and Geoff were practically screaming at each other, and Awsten looked like he was about to break every tendon in his body.

"I'm SORRY for not immediately screaming seizure Otto! I was making sure he was unhurt!" Geoff screamed.

"It's our best friend's life here, not a video game! You should have told us the second he fell!" Otto held up his finger like he was telling off a child.

"Both of you, stop bickering! We need to stay calm don't we?" I mumbled. They both looked at me and softened their gaze, Otto still having an angry look on his face but not nearly as aggressive. I grabbed Awsten's hands and tried to pull away his sharp nails digging into his skin.

"I'm sorry, I'm gonna get his meds for when he gets out of this." Geoff mumbled, squeezing past Otto.

"Thank you Geoff." I said softly, petting Awsten's hair. "It'll all be done soon baby, I swear it's gonna be okay." I nuzzled my face into his shoulder and kissed it. "It's gonna stop soon."

Geoff came back into the bathroom shortly after.

"Everything's on the couch, should we take him there now Incase it turns into the breakdancing type of seizure?"

"Did he see flashing lights to cause this?"

"I don't think so, maybe stress?"

"I think he's fine. He only has those kinds when he sees flashing lights. It should end soon anyway." I said softly. Geoff nodded.

"im going to go make everything comfortable for him." he said, leaving the room.

Awsten's eyes shifted towards me and stared into mine. They looked panicked.

"it's over soon I swear it's gonna end soon." I kissed his shoulder and pet his hair as we waited for it to stop. Minutes passed.

"Y/N, we need to call an ambulance!" Otto said as he checked his phone.

"What, why?" my eyes widened.

"it's been like 7 minutes! Brain damage happens over 5, remember?" Otto frantically said as he typed numbers into his phone. He took a few deep breaths, acting more casual afterwards. Geoff came bolting into the room.

"Ambulance? What?!?!" the brown haired boy panicked.

"I'm calling 911, it's been 7 minutes." Otto's voice lacked any tone, and he tried to deadpan in every other way, but you could tell his face was full of worry. He was trying to hide his fear for Awsten.

"911, what's your emergency?" the operator softly spoke. it was on speaker. I started to speak.

"My boyfriend has been having a seizure for over 5 minutes!"

"Ok ok, what's you and your boyfriends name?" Otto set the phone down on the floor and sat down cross-legged.

"I'm Y/N, my boyfriend is Awsten, our friends Otto and Geoff are here too."

"Okay Y/N, I want your friends to make sure all medication Awsten has used in the last 24 hours and that he is in a safe place, ok?"

"ok, ok yeah." Otto automatically jumped up and exited the room quickly, running around and grabbing Awsten's many pill bottles.

"Ok, what's the address?"

"103 1st street."

"Does Awsten have Epilepsy?"

"Yeah, a pretty bad case."

"Ok Y/N I have an ambulance on the way. They will be there shortly. I'm going to stay on the line to make sure nothing progresses okay?

"Ok, yeah, yeah." I took deep breaths and kissed Awsten's cheek "it's gonna be ok Aws."

"They are pulling up now, it's almost over. You two are very brave. I'll go when I hear them enter the room." as the operator spoke a knock was heard on the door. Geoff ran to the door. I heard them talking.

"Hello sir, where's the medical emergency?"

"He's in the bathroom!" Geoff guided the paramedics into the room.

"Sir, please step out of the room." they pointed at me. I nodded and stepped away from Awsten. the phone hung up. They immediately checked if Awsten was breathing and talked into a small radio. "he's not okay to be guided out, stretcher now."

10 seconds later a stretcher rolled into the house, moving us to the side. They all lifted Awsten onto the stretcher, quickly moving him back to the ambulance. I followed closely behind. they lifted him into the ambulance, almost closing the door before I interrupted.

"Hey! I'm his boyfriend, can I please ride with him?" I begged to one of the paramedics. The other one was already in the ambulance, checking Awsten's vitals.

"If you aren't by law related to the patient we can't let you in." the paramedic gave me a sorry look.

"please, I beg you. We've been together for 13 years."

"... fine. Don't tell them I let you though. you two need to get married eventually." they gave me a small smile as they opened the door further.

"Thank you so much!" I relaxed as I climbed in. I sat on a seat next to Awsten, holding his hand. I saw Otto and Geoff rush stuff into their car from the window in the back. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, preparing for the worst.

____________________

My eyes opened. I almost fell asleep, but Geoff pinched me awake.

"stay awake for Awsten. we need to make sure he's okay."

stay awake stay awake stay awake stay awake stay awake stay awake!

"It's so hard."

"I know but the results are coming back soon, we won't have to wait much longer."

"He's the love of my life Geoff, if he got brain damage I don't know what I'd do."

"He'd still be the same Awsten."

"The same body but likely not the same man."

Geoff grunted and held his head in his hands. After around 30 seconds the doctor walked into the small room they placed us in. All 3 of us jumped up.

"You are the friends and partner of A. Knight, correct?"

"Yes." Otto nodded.

"Well I have good news and bad news." the doctor sighed, sitting in a chair on the opposite side of us.

"Good news, his brain itself is completely fine. No neurons were affected.." the rooms thick and heavy air immediately lifted. all 3 of us sighed and relaxed. "Bad news, his condition significantly grew in severity somehow since the last time we saw him and we know why."

"Why?" I was on the edge of my seat.

"He has a brain tumor."

Everything felt wrong.

"is it cancerous?" Geoff whispered.

"We are still doing tests, but it's likely."

[pawbeanies]

mm thinking about just being really soft with my puppy. with today being a lazy day, I could spend time just holding you in my lap, cuddling my puppy like a little stuffed animal. running my fingers through your hair and kissing your neck and just being so gentle. I want my highness to be able to completely relax in the comfort of his knight's embrace. I'd love to just praise you and tell you how cute you are, how sleepy you look, how much I enjoy spending time with you like this. I could make a game out of learning which pet names get you the most relaxed. I could call you my little bunny dog, my sweetheart, my star boy. and, of course, you get all flustered and call me mean and a bully. and, as always, I've got a way to make you quiet. pressing my fingers on your tongue and keeping your mouth busy. pushing them farther and farther down your throat the more you attempt to protest so you learn pretty quickly to just let me have my fun, that the faster you stop fighting, the longer you can enjoy all the things I do to you. but at the same time, you make such cute noises when you're being difficult, whining and squirming and having a hard time speaking. not that you're supposed to speak, because that requires thinking and you, my pretty boy, aren't meant to be doing much of that at all, are you? I'm just looking out for you, doing what's best for my darling princey, because I know that using your little doggy brain is just too much sometimes. but you wont let me have my way so easily, would you? my dear highness is always so stubborn. to fight back, you could pull away, push me, or even bite your royal knight in an attempt to save face. but if you tried that, I would take advantage of our size difference and hold you still while I kiss you hard, refusing you any sort of movement until you stand down and submit to me. and when you do, I'd reward you with soft neck kisses and murmurs of how you're such a good toy, your highness. wandering hands that sneak their way under clothes and onto sensitive areas. figuring out your favorite things and combining them to make you as needy as possible. and because this is meant to be calming for you, it'd be a crime to torture you with edging, so I continue despite your warnings of impending release. but the thing is, I don't stop after that. this is meant to be relaxing, right? and what better to get you nice and sleepy than cumming over and over, until you can't anymore. and the best part is that the more orgasms I can coax out of you, the weaker you'll be and the harder of a time you'll have resisting my touch. wouldn't that be just so cute, your highness?

-🌹

finally getting through my asks mmMM my rosee my knighttt you. i cant even say mean because this one is so nice and gentle wawawa... wa... oh to spend a lazy day with you hehe. how is this one so mean (a little) and yet so sweet

my brain is so sleepy i cannot WORDS today so its like. so short im so sorry but this one has been in the asks for a while and waaah aawawa... this one is so so so so good ... melting so much for the concept of being pampered and praised and called so many sweet pet names !!! ofc id try and make a fuss about it at first because. its a little embarrassing..!! but would not take too long for me to get relaxed ... so soft and sleepy and calm that i don't even need to struggle all that much...

hiding my face in the pillows i cannot resist... giving in and submitting a little quicker than usual because. how am i supposed to resist when you're being so good to me ... im so spoiled !!! letting you do as you please because it's just so good and relaxing, clinging onto you all cute and needy as you let your hands wander and touching all over my sensitive spots ... waaa

wahh. but also. too relaxing ... honestly i get sleepy after just one i might end up falling asleep on you after multiple... completely a mess and totally asleep in your arms . (yknow. cute and defenseless just saying)... but i know my loyalest bravest knight would take good care of me if that were the case :3 so its alright :3

[smoosnoom]

hi moon!

hope u slept well <3 or at least… enough.

i got a notification right after i finished my final so it’s a little gift i guess? (i did great btw. probably bc it was english and i’ve been practicing when i was writing u this daily compliments).

“Mike Wheeler knows he’s a bad person.” he’s not. i know it’s a projection. that’s why im sure he’s not.

“He doesn’t regret it, though” as he should. i would probably do the same. but it would’ve ended even worse for me bc i cannot fight And my knuckles aren’t bony.

“Will doesn’t think too much about it” oooh, mike is so wrong.

““Stop smiling,” he chides, although that makes Mike’s mouth tilt up again, and Will is biting down a smile, too” they r so 🥺🥺🥺

“He wouldn’t be able to say anything about Mike punching anyone, with his own history of getting arrested” he would probably like mike a little more

““Alright, paladin,”” omg im DEAD bc mike is his defender, his savior, his knight in shining armor 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

“Still, he can’t hide his flinch” okay at least one of them can’t fully control his body. good.

“Mike isn’t brave” maybe he isn’t brave but he’s not coward (i know that im talking about). a bit impulsive. even hot-tempered. not a coward.

““You’re my best friend,”” i always eat it and leave no crumbs. i love when they say best friend thing before trying to do something Not platonic. u can write it every time and i’ll be kicking my feet every time.

“it hurts, sometimes, how bad he wants to be Will’s” my little queer disaster mike wheeler 🥺

““You think so?” Mike forgoes any ounce of dignity. “Please.”” i looove them. both so desperate and ready to love each other 🥺

“pressing a kiss on the corner of Mike’s lip, right where there is no wound.” smooch as a reward for protection and recklessness. here’s my smooch as a reward for productivity and talent 😚 but here’s also my frown as a punishment for self-deprecating thoughts 😠

““Later,” he says, concern still etched in his face when he looks at Mike’s cut, and the bruise he knows is slowly making its appearance on his nose. “I promise.”” u’ll get as many kisses as u want.

“before he turns into it and presses a kiss into his palm.” such a gentleman. first he saved his lover and now he’s kissing his hand.

even if everyone else in the world would hate u i would still love u. and it wouldn’t be fair. not even a little.

k love u, see u tomorrow 🤍

alya i will have u know i got around . three hours of sleep when u sent this . which is probably concerning but im Alive 🫡

YAYYYY I CHEERED 🥳🥳🥳 so happy u did well omg i knew u would !!!!!! the fic was posted Just for U now ive deemed it so . a gift just for u

KQHFOWJFLDJOF OK have we considered . ignoring the projection

u know if it helps me neither 😭 ive fought only one person and u know . it is not how they sell it to be

HELRNFPRK mike moving up on jonathan's list bc of this 😭 god

I AM SUCHHHH A SUCKER for will calling mike paladin and mike calling him cleric like . it Gets To Me .

SRORPPPP WHEN WILL U LET ME LIVE ok every time i write the word "shiver" i think of u now . this is a curse

maybe he is not a coward . Perhaps . ill listen to u

ALDNCK YAYAY its just bc . i think it's so nice to establish they are best friends before anything else like that is what makes them soo unique . they have that before any romantic relationship

NOOO im sorry i won't do it again (i lie, like a liar) but omg illtake the smooch 😚 feeling great !!!!

☹️ if no one got me i know alya got me My knight in shining armor 🫶 love u always !!!!!!! 🤍🤍

[a-libra-writes]

OH SPEAKING OF BOBBY B WOULD YOU EVER WRITE HCS FOR BEING LIKE HIS DAUGHTER/LIKE JOFF’S TWIN OR SMTH AND ROBERT ACTUALLY LIKING YOU

-🐚🌌

i miss my dad so i guess thats why im doing these specific requests LOL

So, imagine the first child between Cersei and Robert. The one that survived a sickly cradle, against all odds. The one with hair that was unmistakably black, not gold. The one Cersei couldn't stand the moment every time she laid eyes on her in the crib, because of all her negative and hurt feelings toward Robert. This is back when she was still a teenager, and her fantasies about the brave Baratheon that toppled the Mad King turned to smoke and mirrors.

Needless to say... over the years, she'd take out a lot of her frustration on this kid.

Robert likes that the child laughs and runs and smiles. He's far too indulgent, allowing her to sit on his knee during tourneys even if Cersei finds them too violent. He has extravagant gifts for her, anywhere from expensive dolls made of silk or a whole pony. He'd even take her on hunting expeditions - even if his Kingsguard protested - showing her how to use a bow and boarspear, even if she's far, far too young and small to handle such weapons.

When Joffrey is born, Robert struggles to bond with him the same way. Joff doesn't laugh easily like his daughter did, instead he cries and screams all the time. Cersei protectively keeps him away, claiming Robert distresses the boy. In truth, she prefers Joff right away, because he's a boy, and a son of Jaime besides ... ... and deep down, she's always been hurt how her daughter seems to prefer Robert.

The more the girl grows up to be like him, the more Robert prefers her. If she's outgoing and laughs easily, he'd much rather spend time with her than a fussy Joffrey. If she's active and healthy, he'll want to teach her how to ride. He'd allow lessons with swords and spears if she begged enough, though Cersei would absolutely forbid it.

As the child gets older, she'd begin to notice her father breaking promises. Sometimes he smells too much like drink, and he loses his temper and yells at her mother. Her mother yells at him, yells at her. She can't seem to get her mother's favor, no matter how nicely she dresses or speaks.

Her grandfather Tywin is cold, distant and scary, and she knows her father dislikes him, so she hates coming to Casterly Rock. Uncle Jaime is strangely distant too, but at least Uncle Tyrion is kind and plays with her. He gives her books and encourages her to read to Myrcella and Tommen, and look after them. Uncle Stannis is a bit strict, but once he showed her all the ships on the harbor, and she always remembered that. Uncle Renly was almost as funny as her father, and always smelled better.

To Cersei, Robert's favor to their first child is beyond irksome. He should be favoring his first son, his heir! He's a little indulgent with Myrcella, and doesn't think too much about Tommen. She'll begin to criticize and pick at her eldest daughter, trying to cut down on traits that are too much like her father.

She'll quickly think of marriage, not caring that her daughter hasn't even had her first moonblood yet, not remembering how panicked and angry she was at her own father's plans to marry her quickly. She doesn't want Ned's oldest marrying her daughter, as much as Robert wants that match. In her anger, she almost wants to punish her husband and oldest daughter for having the gall to be so similar. She wants a match that will upset them.

If the girl was more tomboyish and fond of fighting, she'd win the argument to learn swords. It would be a huge wedge between Cersei and Robert, one of their big fights, but she'd learn. And she'd be good at it. If she was more ladylike and interested in the court, she'd begin to find her father's mistakes and cover for them at too young of an age. Lord Arryn would try to shield her from it, but, well ...

No matter what, by the time she's thirteen or fourteen, her idyllic image of her heroic, strong father would begin to tarnish. She'd see the drinking, the whores, the expensive feasts, the explosive fights with her mother. She'd notice the cruel tendencies in Joffrey, and would try to shield Myrcella and Tommen from not just him, but the rumors surrounding their father. She'd want them to stay sweet and good. She tried with Joffrey, but he never liked her. He was clearly Cersei's favorite, while she was clearly Robert's, and that meant they were tools during their parent's arguments.

She'd have no end of handmaidens from various wealthy kingslander families, and the loyal Kingsguard that were fond of her, and whatever pets she desired. She might still feel lonely in the Red Keep, and escape to the vast gardens to hide from her parent's fighting over who she'll marry. The feasts and parties were fun, but sometimes too tiring, and it seemed every knight and lord's son wanted to fight in her honor or be the first to dance with her.

And she'd start to notice that Lord Arryn and Uncle Stannis were asking her odd questions, or observing her as she played with her youngest siblings. She didn't hear them muttering about her black hair or loud laugh.

She'd have a lot on her plate, and a lot of pressure to work under. When Jon Arryn died and her father announced they were going North, a place she'd never been, to meet a man she'd heard so many stories about but never met... Well, it was an exciting adventure and a distraction. She even got to take her youngest siblings, and her father would let her ride with him if the road was safe. He even bought her a new, fine horse for the long journey.

He always told her war stories, but when he talked about these, he finally seemed happy. His blue eyes twinkled as he talked about the mischief he got up to in the Eyrie with his best friend Ned, who was more brother than his own brothers. He'd tell her about Winterfell, and how she might be the Lady of it someday.

"It only seems right to join our houses," Her father was saying. He didn't bother wearing the crown on this ride, and he was dressed in comfort instead of style. "It's what I've always wanted, but... I'll make sure that son of his is deserving of my girl. You're the Princess of the Seven Kingdoms! We'll have to have a talk with this wolf-boy of Ned's. We'll see if he's up to your standards."

Robert laughed, and it was hard not to smile. He meant it, she knew. He really did want what was best, and he'd been delaying marrying her away to whoever asked. She had cautious optimism when it came to her father's promises, but for now... it was a beautiful day, and they were having a nice ride.

[frigidfries]

@febo-asoma first of all thank you!! when i was putting in the nanjo goof i was thinking '...this has a single-digit audience' BUT IM GLAD MY POST FOUND IT LMAO

(putting this under a read more because i ended up talking a looot LOL)

it was a few months ago now from when i drew it so i might not remember everything, but here's a few things i had in mind while making them!

like how persona 4 persona's are traditional japanese mythology, persona 5 has legendary antiheros, i wanted the deltarune 'theme' be classic stories and folklore. (susie is focused on old monster horror & kaiju films!)

i really wanted kris' persona to be more mechanical and toy-like than most. the missing leg is inspired by 'the brave tin soldier', a story about a toy soldier who was cast with one leg. the original version is a pretty sad story about trying to persevere past unavoidable, random twists of fate, and it ends with the soldier being melted into a tin heart. another inspiration- especially with the joints- was the tinman from the wizard of oz! the tin man that wants a heart of his own... the heart/broken heart motifs definitely come from both of these!

its easier to see here than in the other drawing, but their mask is intended to be beak-like, sorta like a heart-shaped barn owl face! to kind of play into the bird theme kris kinda has going on- their birdcage, berdly calling them a 'fellow bluebird', birds general association with freedom and independence...

and of course, it's very 'knight in shining armor', just like their dark world outfit! (...also because toby apparently based kris' little ACT point on phoenix wright their 'hair' gets to be hedgehog-chic lmao)

and as for persona 1......

when i was thinking about deltarune+persona connections i had totally forgotten about snow queen route, which is such a good point oh my god

noelle already has a bunch of fairytale motifs, and even references a few directly!

a story with fairytale themes, collecting pieces of glass/cursed fragments of a mirror, about a person's once childhood best friend being controlled by a malevolent force... 🤔much to think about...........

[tinkonka]

okay. im bored. here’s ! my thoughts on people! from genshin!! as in! how i remebr them! (ppl im not familiar w wont be here) (theres so much writing fuck

kaeya - he had major character development . called me a Rookie a lot and was pretty bad at his job (imo) and he made me upset a few times but i think once we were both on our way to scout stuff maybe at liyue and he was like ‘u dont like me very much do you...’ and i said YEAH and then he sincerely apologized and as time went on he went from friend to. basically my big brother!. i love him a lot n i feel safe around him. n i sleep on him a lot too because this guys got beefy arms 

jean - jean was like 2-3 years older than me but shes like the mom i never had bro. she was easy on me when i got upset she was just such a kindred soul. but she works!! too!! much!! it takes a lot of convincing to get her to turn in for the night. and i usually bring her coffee and stuff when she needs it....

albedo - see now albedo is like a chief alchemist and like he’s very smart and says a lot of things i dont understand but he cannot take care of himself for the life of him. He Gets Angry at things and then i go ‘did you sleep/eat’ and he goes “Oh, very sweet to me though... hanging out w him and klee is the best actually

diluc - i dont remember much of him other than when it was strictly business but i remember once i was having a difficult night and he came and sat with me and talked to me for a bit. n he empathizes with me a lot (his own words) and he gave me free grape juice one time. but often times hes Very scary

noelle - noelle is literally. ok i cant shes so SWEET and she knows like most of my secrets LMAO and she’s so resilient as well and so determined and brave and i. i love noelle a lot and i try not to ask too much of her because shes still young . if its late and im awake i’ll usually finish some stuff for her

klee - i start crying klee was so sweet to me. i think the first few days klee was in the knights custody she was pretty adamant with me but then one night she crawled onto my bed and we sang some songs and i told her a story about my grandfather. and then we’ve been besties ever since .. shes so adorable

sucrose - i barely met sucrose but again Just like albedo she has such a bad habit of not taking care of herself. i had to carry her down dragonspine once because of how badly she was shaking from not eating. she was very sweet tho and i gave her some tips on handling anxiety i consider her a friend :3

eula - eula was so cold at first and it made me kinda sad but she warmed up to me and i warmed up to her and she’s one of the sweetest peolpe ive ever met shes so nice and caring and hogghgh it wasonly like at dinnertime n i was Laughing and she started laughing too i was like oh shit im in love. 10/10

lisa - miss lisa was very nice to me even tho she made me run allll her errands LOL she was very touchy and liked to give me hugs /pos ... i think one time i blurted something along hte lines of ‘okay but shes pretty so shes excused’ in referring to Lisa and ive never recovered

barbara - BARBIE I loved barbara she was the bestie ever . once she invited me on stage and we sung something together. we both tag team jean when shes not resting. n i usually helped her w some of her duties... i also like stopped a lot of Crowds around her . she made me food :]

bennett - bennett was so so nice and he would help me if i got any injuries.. but also he worried me  a FUCK ton one day he’d just go ‘im on an adventure!” AND JUST NOT COME BACK FOR DAYS. He’d scare the hell outta me but he was so cool actually

razor - i do not know too much about razor actually. all i know is thta no matterhow badly i make my outrider steak he’ll still eat it <3

xiangling - Ok she poisoned me (not really i just did notknow i was allergic to jueyen chillies and she fed me some) but xiangling was so nice and adorable . she was such a good cook and everytime i came to liyue she’d drop what she was doing and give me a huuuge hug i miss her

xinyan - xinyan is BAasically my best friend . We were both filthy lesbians . she gave me a lot of side hugs and she wld hold my hand and run thru liyue with me so full of energy. seh was so COOL too we sung together sometimes and she has such a lovely voice

hu tao - Very cute but also very unpredictable. i could not tell if she was going to give me a hug or if she was going to tickle me. scared me a lot... but but when it came down to it she was relaly cool