#im tired desu

[red-moon-at-night]

Let's talk a little bit about Mahiru's boyfriend

This post is alternatively titled "Mahiru's Boyfriend Probably Had An Eating Disorder And I Am Very Sad About It So Now You Get To Be Sad About It With Me" but that felt a bit much in the bold title font so I'm trying to tone this down at least a little bit :')

So I was reading this wonderful post earlier (you should too btw it has a LOT of interesting information), and as I was going through the food section something clicked in my brain. Pieces of information that were drifting aimlessly before quickly came together for me and I almost wish they hadn’t because oh boy is it depressing.

Now, nothing I’m about to say here is explicitly stated - but I do think it is strongly insinuated, through the MVs of both ‘This Is How To Be In Love With You’ (TIHTBILWY what an acronym wow) and ‘I Love You’. I am aware that the latter video has a lot of metaphorical imagery, but I still think some of this imagery can be taken in a literal sense to reinforce ideas established in TIHTBILWY.

TW/Trigger Warnings: discussion of eating disorders (anorexia, bulimia, etc.), discussion of suicide and suicidal thoughts. Please take these into consideration and stay safe!

credit to iaobug’s transcribed images from ‘This Is How To Be In Love With You’ used below btw!

Now I’ve always had an inkling this could be possible, but I didn’t realise until recently there was this much evidence supporting a little idea of mine dancing around in my head.

But First, Some Quick Definitions and Criteria

First things first, I think we should briefly clarify what an eating disorder is and what eating disorder I think Mahiru’s boyfriend most likely had.

Here are some definitions:

Eating disorders are behavioral conditions characterized by severe and persistent disturbance in eating behaviors and associated distressing thoughts and emotions. They can be very serious conditions affecting physical, psychological and social function. (source)

An eating disorder is a mental health condition where you use the control of food to cope with feelings and other situations. (source)

And here are some brief introductions to several types of eating disorders:

The most common eating disorders are:

anorexia nervosa – trying to control your weight by not eating enough food, exercising too much, or doing both bulimia – losing control over how much you eat and then taking drastic action to not put on weight binge eating disorder (BED) – eating large portions of food until you feel uncomfortably full

Other specified feeding or eating disorder (OSFED) – A person may have an OSFED if their symptoms do not exactly fit the expected symptoms for any specific eating disorders.

(source)

Okay, so we have some basic information down, cool! This is not fully comprehensive but it will do for the purposes of this segment.

So what eating disorder do I believe Mahiru’s boyfriend had? 

I’m not sure! The information we have is not conclusive enough for me to confidently pick an option. What I will say is most likely, and most common, is OSFED and the concept of the eating disorder cycle. People’s symptoms will often overlap with multiple diagnoses, or shift from one mode of behaviour (e.g. the restrictive eating behaviours found in anorexia) to another (e.g. binge eating and following compensatory behaviours found in bulimia).

Things are often not as clear-cut or black and white as we’d like to imagine.

Let’s move onto looking at the MVs, shall we?

This first music video has a wealth of information hidden in its cute magazine-style annotations and imagery - information that, when you look a little closer and consider the bigger picture, raises all the alarm bells in my mind.

Parts of ‘This Is How To Be In Love With You’ That Make Me Pause In Concern, In Chronological Order:

The Bread

Let's start off with a not very obvious one.

One of the first things we learn about Mahiru’s soon-to-be-boyfriend (which by the way this is literally the 2nd time he’s mentioned) is ‘wow he buys a lot of bread’. Insignificant on its own, I know, but consider this through my lens if you will: my man has bought 5 whole baguettes from a bakery. Not 2 or 3, but 5. Actually, on closer inspection there's even more bread of a different type at the bottom of that bag too. These aren’t store-bought, they’re fresh and will probably go stale in a few days. Pray tell, if the man is not eating baguette for breakfast lunch and dinner over the course of 72 hours... why did he buy so much fucking bread?

What comes to mind when I see this is binge eating. Bread is one of the most common binge foods out there; anything with high carbohydrates or high fat content, in fact, often due to its “unhealthy” or “forbidden” nature.

We'll just have a quick look at Mahiru's comment again:

"I thought to buy the same bread he did, but this is far too much for me to eat... ><

I forgot to ask how many calories there are..."

If it hasn't been established by now with the MV's aesthetic, Mahiru cares about her appearance. A lot. Her self-image and beauty directly ties into looking 'good' enough for others, so she can find the love of her life and please him with her looks.

If Mahiru is also calorie counting, this does not bode well for their relationship. I should probably speak in past tense, actually... Mahiru's own self-image behaviours made her blind to her boyfriend's self-image behaviours. There we go.

But I'm getting ahead of myself here.

So, We have an indication of binge eating behaviours. Remind me again what comes after binging?

The Jogging Hobby

Oh, that’s right - purging.

Excessive exercise is an indirect method of purging/compensatory behaviour found in bulimia. A more commonly known purging method is self-induced vomiting, but that's certainly not the only way to counteract excess calories. 

So the jogging, while harmless in isolation, is starting to paint an ever-so-slightly worrying picture.

Again, let's take a look at Mahiru's comment:

"I had a chance to chat with him today, and he mentioned his hobby was jogging. ... I haven't exercised this much in ages... I'm totally exhausted..." 

The only hobby (not hobbies but hobby, singular) that we learn the boyfriend has is this. Sure, there's one movie that he also likes... but that's it. There's not much else to him! So when the two most prevalent ideas attached to this guy are 'food' (in excess) and 'exercise' (in excess)... you can see where I'm going with this.

And by the way, the post I linked at the very beginning? Well, they worked out the location of where this running loop is, and judging by Mahiru’s position and direction it would suggest she’s already jogged about 5km and beginning another loop. So we’re looking at a jog ranging from 5-10km (or more)...

The Alcohol

Okay, here's a quick pop quiz question for you. Who is more likely to get drunk on the same volume of alcohol: a 5"1 woman, or an average height (5"7 in Japan) man?

In theory, it should be the 5"7 man on the basis of his height and size. Alcohol tolerance goes up the bigger you are. 

So why is it that the boyfriend ended up blackout drunk, and Mahiru... didn't?

Let’s take a look at the comment:

“My first date at a bar, how heartpounding!

Here is where I learned he’s the biggest lightweight I’ve ever met! ...or maybe I’m just really good at holding alcohol?

Whatever the case, blackout drunk him is so cute!”

Three possible options:

Mahiru really can 'hold her liquor'. Judging by her sheltered home life and general lack of adult life experience though, I'm gonna press x to doubt here sorry mappi.

The boyfriend drunk more alcohol than Mahiru. Also unlikely, as she calls him a 'lightweight' and I think she would've highlighted this in her comment.

He drank on an empty stomach. Alcohol absorbs way faster if you haven't had anything to eat beforehand. This, I think is the most likely scenario.

Here's a little more on the subject that I found interesting:

You absorb 20 per cent of alcohol into your bloodstream through your stomach and the rest into your bloodstream through your small intestine.

Drinking a small amount of alcohol stimulates your appetite because it increases the flow of stomach juices. A large amount of alcohol dulls your appetite and can cause malnutrition. (source)

What have we learnt so far?

So we’ve established some concerning behaviours here.

He eats in excess

He exercises in excess

He drinks in excess (on an empty stomach)

I’m actually going to move onto material from the ‘I Love You’ MV, but intertwine it with some of the remaining points from TIHTBILWY. 

At this point the relationship has progressed, we’re moving into winter which brings with it the holiday season! Yay! Except not yay, because things are starting to look really bad for Mahiru’s boyfriend. We've gone from this:

To this:

The carousel was fine at first but now it’s taking its toll on him. Both of them have tattered clothes but Mahiru looks optimistic, whilst the boyfriend looks very distraught. His cheekbones are visible and overall he looks a lot less healthy. I guess this is a good time to point out how distinct and visible his collarbone has been this entire time by the way? He’s even bonier than before. Not great.

A lot of events occur at this time of year, such as Christmas (celebrated between couples in Japan as more of a lovers holiday) and new years. What happens a lot during that period of time? Food. Lots of it. This point in the year is not ideal for someone suffering from a worsening eating disorder. This is a period of time which someone would want to move very quickly from because they can’t see the end of it.

I think it’s time to read Mahiru’s comment from day 15:

“Happy new years! To celebrate, we went to a shrine.

Predictably, I already have my wish in mind.

May we stay like this until the end of time.

May nobody stand in my way”

She, on the other hand, is very happy for things to remain as they are.

Day 16 - AKA, Oh No Things Have Gone Terribly Wrong

This is where the narrative hits its climax and everything starts to snowball.

Now, we reach this scene where the boyfriend stops walking and breaks down. He kneels on the ground, digs his nails into it, and pleads for... something. Help? An intervention? A stop to this carousel that’s doing him no good and only making his health (physical and mental) worse?

He never speaks. It is a silent plea.

One that Mahiru misses.

Saying I love you but doing what I did, I know I have no right, crossed and covered in sin

My love, it scored an own goal, destroyed my love and me with its weight

Tell me, oh tell me why, can’t I just do it right

What did you do, Mahiru?

I believe that this scene and response:

Is directly parallel to this event:

As in, they’re the same thing. 

One more comment to read:

He’ll be in for a big, delicious surprise once he gets home!

I’ve made SO many notes about his favorite foods, and practiced my butt off!

I can’t wait to see the look on his face when he sees it all.

Her love - her surprise buffet to cheer him up - scored an own goal, so to speak.

I don’t think I need to say much about this picture, or this scene. She’s giving him excess but that excess is literally driving him over the edge. The nuance is lost between them, and they both need different things from each other and they’re not getting it. Cake to rats, rats to cake.

They’re back on the carousel, spinning around and around with things never changing, no end in sight.

I want to end on this frame of the MV. You see the pole behind the boyfriend? It’s reminding me of rope, and of a certain visual at the end of the video. The juxtaposition of Mahiru forcing her ‘love’ onto him, and of suicidal ideation being the only way off this ride and his problems.

[pekodayz]

​i can’t even feel comfortable in my own skin or identity. can i not defend is that wrong. i feel awful my knuckles hurt. can i be a cute pink kawaii desu fucking gyaru who has other mystery identity plz. i am tired. i wanna have fun too im so so so tired im just gonna cry this world is never gonna change

[nikkomints]

some gorls i posted on twitter

[nyanmao]

@animangacreators challenge #2 — spring 2022

favourite animanga from spring 2022: komi-san wa, komyushou desu 2

[mechandra]

this is now a kishi himeko propaganda blog.

[deccss]

yo

[worangetraveler-multiverseguide]

An Action Taken

Hey that’s really nice. Najimi is now inviting Komi-san to try once more the Saitou-san game (thankfully this is a short flashback so we wont see this event unfold again... I hope)

Isnt that just an anxiety attack? Okay that was a bad joke, but the point is that that combination of feelings is something... normal I suposse?

4) Tension? I dont see any tension. Then again they all were excited to have you around to play so I’m sure it was fine... but if you felt tense or worried about it? Well then... is okay if you wanna dodge stuff like that

5) ... mmm... I have no idea how to answer this... but if we take this seriously maybe its a metaphor oh how you easily get startled like a kitty? (okay but seriouslly what kind of meta question is this?)

[dr4kenlvr]

only you

pairing: draken x fem!reader

genre/wc: hurt, comfort (0.4k+)

request: ok so fem!s/o feeling insecure towards emma and draken reassuring her?

she was pretty, you'd admit. her silky blonde hair, long lashes, pouty lips, and bright eyes paired perfectly with her flirtatious and sweet demeanor. the worst part was, none of it was fake; emma was an truly sweet person, and everyone would die to be called her friend. hell, you would to.

therefore, when the moment came that you and emma hung out more often, you couldn't believe it yourself. was it because you were draken's girlfriend?

you knew the history between the two—but was she doing this out of pity? did she have something planned? did she still like your boyfriend?

and did he still like her?

you blink, trying to avoid thinking such cruel thoughts you knew draken was better than that. he would never date you if he was in love with another girl. but then again, that girl was emma. she wasn't just any other girl. in addition, they'd known each other for so long—since they were kids. you adjust your position on draken's bed, so that you're no longer facing him. you can't bear to look as his face, not when you're thinking so poorly of him. you almost hate yourself for assuming such things of him.

draken on the other hand, doesn't think much of it. he assumes you're tired from hanging out with him, mikey, and emma all day. so he's taken aback when he hears your small voice call out his name moments later.

he scooches himself closer to you, getting comfortable behind your back as he wraps an arm around your waist and kisses your nape, "hm? what is it?"

when all he gets is silence, draken furrows his brow and leans over. he follows your line of sight to the photo of emma he has on his wall plastered with those he cares about. your photo is up there as well—four of them, to be exact.

draken puts two and two together, your odd behaviour this afternoon, and your distant behaviour now: you're feeling insecure. he sighs, and pulls you tighter into his grasp. his eyes close as he tries to piece all of his next words in his head.

"don't believe it when you tell yourself that im in love with her," he mutters into your hair. "i don't want anyone but you, i hope i can continue to prove that to you everyday."

you lean back into his hold, eyes blinking back the overwhelming feelings that are rushing through you. "ken..."

"i mean it," he peppers another kiss to your neck, pulling back only slightly to whisper, "i really do, so please believe me."

through the melancholic atmosphere created, you turn over in his arms to face him once more. he's looking at you, and despite his dark pooling eyes, they bore nothing but a sea of love for what he sees in front of him: you. he leans down to place a gentle kiss on your lips, then another against each cheekbone. his grip on you never loosens, and it's then you remember—that draken truly did love only you.

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I love the rappers in bts. they’re swag

[dokifluffs]

Booping His Nose | Aone, Ushijima

Pairings: Aone X Reader (gender neutral), Ushijima X Reader (female)

Genre: soft 🥺 sweet fluff

Author’s Nose: im absolutely and utterly soft for Aone and his turt 🥺 

Aran, Kenma, Atsumu // Nishinoya, Sachiro, Kuroo // Sakusa, Iwaizumi // Suna, Kageyama, Matsukawa // Tendo, Hinata, Bokuto // Yamaguchi, Osamu

gif from @rivaillerose​

Aone: 

A cool, early summer breeze blew by, making the plastic bags in your guys’ hands rustle as the two of you walked side by side, on the way toward his house

“‘Nobu, what are you gonna show me?” You asked for the nth time, though you knew you weren’t going to get an answer

“We went grocery shopping for these veggies…” you mumbled to yourself, taking a peek to refresh your memory

He held the bag with the heavier snacks that you guys would eat and share and you help the lighter bag of veggies, specifically spinach, carrots, and even a few kiwis

Was he going to make you something to eat?

He was only silent as he looked down to you, giving you a soft, silent smile as you guys turned onto the block, approaching his home

The only plans you were sure of was that you two were going to watch a movie or two tonight while and snack a bit, eat pizza

But oh well

You opened your mind, just going with the flow, not worrying much about anything as long as you spent some time with Aone

Stepping inside, you were greeted warmly by his parents before they left very shortly to head out to relative’s house

This time, he took care of the veggies and produce bag while you helped yourself to some snacks, sorting the others that you weren’t too interested in, away

You snacked, standing beside him as he washed the fruits, occasionally feeding him before he had to focus, cutting the fruits diligently but also into very small, small cube shapes

He plated them neatly, alongside the greens and that was when he took your hand

“I want you to meet someone very special.” He spoke matter of factly before he brought you to the sun room, setting the plate of veggies and fruits down before disappearing once again

But when he returned, it was like there was a sparkle in his eye, his hands holding something, though you couldn’t really see what

“Who is it?” You asked as he knelt down right beside you

“This is berry, my tortoise.” He opened his hands, revealing a small tortoise walking from his cupped hands, right toward the plate of deliciousness as fast as she could

“Oh my gosh, she’s so precious, Nobu,” you gasped as you laid lower, closer to the floor, as close as you could without startling her or anything

Aone smiled happily, seeing his two favorite beings together, finally meeting

He went through the story of how he adopted her, how he bonded with her, learned to take care of her

And now that you had gotten the chance to meet her, the three of you could grow and see her grow

Though she would be living far much longer than the two of you

You two knelt low in the sun room, watching her bite the small-cut fruit, taking mighty but tiny chops into the spinach leaves

She was just so cute but made a perfect acquaintance for him

You couldn’t even think about a movie as the two of you were much more entertained just by watching Berry eat her meal

Looking beside you to Aone, he watched her like anyone would want to be looked at by their loved on - almost like he was looking at her just like he was looking at you

With his chin resting in his hands while the two of you laid on your bellies, elbows propping yourselves up, you leaned over and pressed your finger to his nose

“Boop.”

And you knew for a long time that he never really was one to show emotions, but you had never seen his cheeks turn pink so fast while Berry walked in between the two of you

gif from @rivaillerose​

Ushijima: 

“Mm, this team was good,” Wakatoshi spoke stoically as ever as you leaned back into him, his arm draped over the back of the couch

Dinner had already been eaten and the night was very young

Though you did feel a little lethargic from how you were positioned

His abdomen providing you the perfect pillow, but his lap was even better as you laid yourself across from him

“What team?” You asked, turning to glance at the tv, suddenly seeing a closeup of hinata and kageyama

“Argentina,” he spoke stoically and that was when you remembered the game the two of you were watching

It was the pre-olympic qualifiers with the Japan team and the Argentina team, of course with Oikawa Tooru as their setter, a setter Wakatoshi highly approved of

You did your best to stifle a yawn, only for it to grow into an even bigger yawn

“Tired?” He looked down to you, resting his hand on your baby bump

“Mmhm,” you blinked slowly, bringing your hand to his, feeling his warmth

“Do you want to go upstairs? I can carry you.”

“Oh, no, no Toshi. I’m far too heavy for that but I just wanna stay here with you.” You adjusted, turning to your other side that faced the back of the couch, facing in to his stomach

It was so perfect

The couch supported your heavy belly, letting your back rest for the first time in awhile

You were right there besides your husband, able to smell his fresh body wash his hand now resting on your arm, stroking it as he continued to look down at you

“It would be no problem. I can carry you at any weight, so don’t worry,” his lips curled up a little, the tickling feeling of his thumb now on your cheek

“I wanna stay here with you,” you looked up to him, wrapping your fingers around the bottom edge of his shirt

“Alright, then.” He continued watching his game, rewatching the footage to prepare for the actual olympic games

When you first met him, Wakatoshi was even quieter, not really talking much unless asked to, and.. not slow per se, but he would have to ask about jokes as well as online trends

He was very focused on himself, doing things he knew would be the best for him and here he was

He was a lot more open with you, mostly because you two had been married and you were pregnant with your guys’ first kid

Things were for sure changing, life was changing and

You got to spend it with Wakatoshi

You further nuzzled your face into his abdomen, liking how warm it was, despite his strange it would sort of look to others if they just walked in and saw you rubbing your face into your husband’s stomach but you couldn’t help it but touch and feel him before he would be gone again and you would be alone and needy for him

He smelled so good, he was so warm

You could’ve, you wanted to fall asleep right then and there in his lap but there was something else that just didn’t want you to inside

Looking up to him, your eyes practically half open, he was so focused on the game, he had that face on, which was basically his everyday face, that you couldn’t tell what he was really thinking

But you just knew it was about the game

Reaching up, your rest your hand on his pec and shoulder, getting his attention

“Hm? Do you want to go upstairs?”

Giving him no answer, you simply reached over and pressed your finger to his nose, booping it

A look of confusion spread on his face for a moment before he did the same, slowly reaching over and awkwardly booping your nose too

You hummed, content for some reason that he had done it

“I’ll stay here with you,” you spoke softly, snaking your hand under the hem of his shirt, resting it on his lower back, a feeling he was very much used to at this point

Every touch from you, he was used to

“Alright then. Let me know when you would like to go upstairs and I will carry you, Y/N.” He ever so carefully pulled you closer, leaning to the side to pull the folded, light blanket to throw it over, draping it over your body

“M’kay,” you hummed, before finally reaching for his hand that rest on your arm, bringing it to your face so you could hold his hand, feeling him as you let yourself doze off completely

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24?

24: “You’re trembling.”

set in a blessed future where aow is done and over w and everyone’s working out how to live happily ever after

i used the aow comic storyline for what hasn’t aired in the show yet, so minor spoilers beware

It was over. It was allover. All the stress, all the pain, all the suffering at the hands of Negan andthe Saviors. Maggie was safe. The Hilltop was safe. Alexandria was safe. TheKingdom was safe. The casualties had been great on every side but no one’sdeath had been in vain, and anyone, if given a chance, would choose to risk their lives again for the peace they finally lived.

And yetinside his trailer, Jesus found himself lost in time, unsure what to do. He saton his bed with his chin in his hands, brows knit together, eyes locked at thesame stain on his floor that had always been there and caught his eye when hismind ran faster than he had time to comprehend his thoughts.

It wasthe first day of the supposed peace treaty’s negotiations. Leaders from eachgroup were supposed to meet and discuss their options, what the trade agreements were to be, how the peace was to be kept to maintain some semblance of harmony among all four groups. It was unanimouslyagreed that the Hilltop would be the best setting for the job, but no one couldquite tell if that choice was made to make it easier on Maggie’s steadilyprogressing pregnancy or if they felt Barrington House’s past historical impactwould make their decision feel more legitimate.)

But Jesusexcused himself from Maggie’s side as they stood inside Barrington House’s foyer, locking eyes with Enid when she looked athim and communicating privately in a way they’d begun to learn how to do.

Keepan eye on her, he seemed to say.

I should keep an eye on you, shereplied silently.

Maggie, however, didn’t question him as he made his way out of the room, only laid her hand onhis shoulder as he passed with a beaming smile.

He wasgrateful – truly grateful – for the endto their collective nightmare. He owed Rick and Maggie and Michonne and theirentire family, Alexandria, his life and then some. He didn’t regret a singledecision he made on their behalf, not a single mission orreconnaissance run. He didn’t regret a single life he took.

So whywas sitting in his bedroom, alone, feeling like the rug was about to be pulledfrom under his feet?

When apair of echoing knocks sounded on his door, he felt more than heard himselfclear his throat, run his hands over his face, and make to stand up. When Darylstepped through the doorway, though, he stopped.

Darylclosed the door behind him and leaned against it. “Dwight’s here,” he said, hisvoice low.

Jesushummed. For a split second, he wondered where his motivation to get up and joinMaggie went, but then he scoffed – the sound barely audible, felt more in hischest – and pressed his head in his hands.

Neitherof them said a word. More time passed, invaluable minutes that Jesus should have spent at Maggie’s side andDaryl at Rick’s, but it didn’t feel like either of them could have gone intotheir positions even if they wanted to.

Then, Darylpushed himself away from the door and stopped just short of Jesus’s stillsitting figure. He dropped a sheet of paper on the spot on the floor whereJesus still couldn’t look away from, and when he spoke it was muffled. Jesus knew if he looked up he would see Daryl with his thumbnail in his mouth,worrying at the dry and dead skin there like he always did when he got nervousand didn’t want anyone to know.

“If you’rewonderin’ if it gets easier… it don’t,” he mumbled. “What we fight for… that’s what keeps us goin’.”

Heturned around and left, the door shutting behind him almost inaudibly, and thenJesus reached down for the paper Daryl left in his wake: Maggie’s firstultrasound. On the back of it, though, he found a series of names. None of them rang familiar tohim at first – Amy, Andrea, Sophia, T-Dog, and Tyreese among dozens of others,some of them so worn it was almost difficult to read – but then he found Glenn’sname, and Abraham’s, and Sasha’s. Theirs were the clearest of all.

If whenhe finally joined Maggie, Rick, Michonne, Daryl, King Ezekiel, Carol, andDwight in what used to be Gregory’s office his eyes were red-rimmed and hisfingers trembled, no one brought it up. 

Daryl met his eyes from across the room,though, and he nodded once at Jesus.

[imeverywoman420]

pleaaase give us more doja cat takes im simply ravenous for ur thoughts

Like shes “quirky” but in a safe tik tok way. She showed feet in racial chat rooms. She gives me 4chan userShe gives me SHOE ON HEAD!!YESS literally omg shoe on head with a damn bbl.

Its like she was created in a lab to be unlikable to women. Pickmes and birds dont count. It has nothing to do with like her shaking ass or being a hoe or whatever. Im quite the slut myself. But im a girls girl. Like boys are for FUN. Women are PEOPLE i owe my allegiance and loyalty and support to. She gives me gender traitor you know. Like if she had the choice between receiving 1 crumb of validation from a man and pressing a button that would stop a building full of women and children exploding, she would let them die. Like ooo pick me pick me i wanna be ur waifu im gonna talk in a baby voIce and dye my hair like an anime girl any woman that leans into looking like an anime bitch has serious problems. A woman that Wants to attract gamers and discord gremlins…. Need i say more.

Shes like. Giving emma chamberlain too. Like the vibe she gives me is a childrens party clown or a theme park mascot smoking a cigarette on break. She looks tired as hell. She knows she is a grown woman And shes wrong for trying to look like a little kawaii desu anime bitch. She needs to march her ass to a liz claiborne outlet and figure it out. Tired of it.

Tldr doja cat is a girl that discovered acting like a retarded anime girl gets you attention from gamer boys

[invalidname19]

I hope you had a great graduation! I can't believe you had the audacity to draw after you must be superhuman or something OWO

That, or Picasso had a child and no one knew www

Thank you very much though! I wanna ask you; can you list any other anime you like to watch and/or ships?

And yes, you are right.

Thank you!! Graduation was good but to be frank, the school decorations were....( they tried ig 👽). I could just imagine the class of 2020 graduation ☠️ feel bad for them. Graduating through a computer.... damm.

Also that drawing was simple to draw bc it was mostly simplified chibi esk yk... now if it was fleshed out humans. I would have simply not have answered the question so late into the night. That task would have been done in the morning.

Anime that I like to watch: Aot, InuYasha, Jujutsu Kaisen, Free, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Demon Slayer, Naruto, Kuroko no Basket, Mob psycho, Bleach, The Ancient Magus Bride, Berserk, Monster, Miss aKobayashi Dragon Maid, Sakamoto desu ga, Saiki K, Gintama, Clean Freak Aoyama,The Devil is a part Timer, My roommate is a cat, Kotaro lives alone , Kakuriyo-bed and breakfast for spirits, Code Geass, Erased, Kakeguryi, Haikyu and many more but Im getting tired of autocorrect changing the names. Some of the animes I haven't finished watch like Gintama

Ships: I'm getting tried of typing, so it's gonna be a run down bases on what I remember most

Naruto x sasuke

Hashiramax madara

Izuna x tobirama

Sasuke x sakura

Naruto x Hinata

Nobara x Maki

Kobayashi x Tohru

Minato and kushina

Kakashi x iruka

Kakashi x obito

Obito x rin

Ymir x history

Rirki x Mary

Levi x erwin

Reigenx Serizawa

Yachi x Shimizu

Gojo x Geto

Yuij x megumi

Etc...

Also I know

/j this is a long ass post I'm sorry

[bakugohoex]

if it's available, could you do the nsfw prompt #6 with hitoshi shinso please?

“one more word out of you and i’ll leave you tied up with no release”

pairing: hitoshi shinso x female reader

cw: aged up, nsfw (implicit male receiving handjob, implicit semi public, praise, dumbification, degradation, over stimulation, nipple play, spit play, finger sucking, female receiving fingering, thigh biting, sir kink and bondage)

word count: ​1200+

a/n: bruh how am i back to becoming a smut blog again, tbh im glad i have a variety for all types of writing

summary: in which after teasing shinso all day he can’t wait to get his revenge by overstimulating you until your crying, begging to cum

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“Stop fucking crying.” His long fingers continued to pump into your cunt, as his thumb rested across your clit, moving circles around the sensitive skin. “This is what you get after teasing me all day.”

Shinso hated to admit it but you had got under his skin today, breakfast had been hard enough with how you had waltzed in with nothing but his shirt. Then you had walked around the apartment looking for your clothes in your lingerie. He could tolerate it, he tried to tolerate it but when dinner arrived and you both had left to meet with some friends. 

He hadn’t expected the purple dress to turn him on as much as it had, the low cut, with your cleavage spilling out and the way you fitted perfectly in it. You were gorgeous, but before he could even tell you that, you had conveniently let your fingers trail across his thigh getting eerily closer to his cock. 

Shinso had heard you speak but his quirk was no use when you were under his gaze. He was almost glad the table had a cloth covering going to the floor. The undoing of the zip had almost been unheard and the torture Shinso had gone through having to surpress his moans as you lazily let your hand wrap around his softness, feeling it harden under your fingers.

“Plea...please bab…” You could barely even speak, Shinso had pushed you into the bedroom as soon as you both got home and now hear he was. 

Sleeves rolled with his tired eyes looking lazily at you. He had bounded your hands with his capturing scarf, your wrists already looking sore as you laid sprawled out for him. “You think you can just go around doing shit like that, this is a fucking lesson, okay?” He paused waiting for you to answer, but you didn’t squeal under his gaze. He pressed his cock through his jeans onto your clit as he stayed on top grabbing your jaw with one hand. “Do I make myself clear Y/n.”

You hated when he used your name, it felt patronising and small under his gaze. “Yes, sir.” You whispered trying to suppress a moan at how he grinded against your slick filled clit. 

His eyes glued to your own as he dropped your jaw back onto the bed. He doesn’t say a word instead moving away from your clit, he knew he was hard and knew he wanted to fuck you. But he couldn’t bring himself to do so without enacting revenge. His eyes stayed on you before he inserted two fingers in your cunt, he felt slick wrap around his fingers, a heavy moan coming from your mouth. 

“Ple...please more.” You begged arching your back to try and push his fingers deeper inside of you. He hasn't even begun moving his fingers and you already felt yourself wanting to cum for him. 

“One more word out of you and I'll leave you tied up with no release.” He was being serious, the way he had looked up from your cunt, your heavy chest as your naked body laid sprawled for him. He would leave you tied up, unable to finish the job that he had been doing for the past ten minutes.

You had thought that he’d have let you cum, but this was the second time his fingers were back in you, and the first you hadn’t gotten the chance to have a release. “I’ll be good.” You mewled out, he looked at you debating if he should agree. 

He pushed his fingers further into you as you gave a hefty groan. His  eyes widened at how easy you were to pleasure before he moved his fingers out, just as he was about to re-enter, a third finger began stretching you. His movement from there on had become quicker and with a much hastier face, he kissed along your waist, as he continued to move back and forth. Your moans feeling like music to his ears, he could never understand how men didn’t just look at you and fall in love.

He had, he had seen those sharp eyes with the gleeful smirk, the laugh that had made his knees weak. He didn’t understand how the world wasn't on their knees for you like he was, he saw paradise and utopia when he looked at you. 

Even if he had so much love for you, he needed to teach you a lesson, needed to show you that he was in charge. “Come on, scream louder, you know you want to whore.” He continued to pump his fingers in and out, each time reaching further and further inside. 

His other had been gripping your thighs but had moved towards your chest, the way your nipples had hardened so easily. His saliva ridden fingers which he had licked previously now coating your body and nipples felt like heaven. Each hand’s actions make your legs twitch at each movement, “let me cum.” You almost screamed out but suppressed it with a moan instead. 

“No.” He chuckled it out sadistically, he could see how your legs felt heavier, a coil in your stomach ready to release. His hands moved much quicker now, he refused to let you cum, he wanted you to go into sensory overload. His mouth had moved to your thighs, biting and sucking on the sensitive skin. He didn’t know what had gotten into him but hearing your loud pleas to cum made him go mad.

His thumb ran circles on your clit as he continued to pump harder until he felt the back of your cunt, almost knowing that if he went any further his knuckles would start touching your cunt. He looked up from your thighs, purple bruises forming as he listened to your words, “Tosh...pl…” You had become a dumb mess unable to speak, droll coming from your mouth as your eyes rolled back.

Your wrists looked even sorer, but the sadistic side in him wanted more. He gripped your nipple tightly with his left hand, flicking it in between his fingers before pinching at the hard spot. You gave a loud moan before knowing you couldn’t take anymore, his fingers pumped even further, knuckles touching your clit before he looked at you. “Cum on my fingers, my stupid pretty girl, go on.”

His words made you unravel in a matter of seconds, cum gushing out onto his fingers. He moved his fingers out, cum sitting across his three fingers. He stuffed it in your mouth as you babbled nonsense before untying the capture weapon. He chucked it to the side, feeling you suck and move your tongue against his fingers as if you were sucking his cock. 

He moved up to your face making you look right into his eyes; you had a dazed expression which he loved so much. He grabbed your face with his other hand, saliva dripping from your mouth a string of spit moved from his fingers to your mouth. He sucked his finger clean off you before meeting your eyes. “Now are you going to take my cock like a good girl, or do I have to punish you again?” 

He watched your eyes, how you looked at him with lust, your mouth peppering kisses down his neck. He still needed an answer, he wanted to hear you say it and as much as you loved teasing him. You said the words he had wanted to hear, “I'll be your good girl, sir.”

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[quanxui]

would you mind referencing the fake lovers to real lovers manhwas? love you btw

of course of course ;) it's a favorite trope of mine! the angst and romance is just right for me. love you too <3

FINISHED

A Bittersweet Couple or Dalkomsalbeolhan Bubu // this is based on a webnovel so the manhwa might feel a bit rushed but it was enough for me eheh

Positively Yours or Agiga Saenggyeosseoyo // the baby fever is too much huhuhu i was so envious the whole time i was reading this. anilist marked it as ongoing since there are side stories but overall there are 72 chapters for the main

A Business Proposal or Sanae Matseon // this is when i realized i liked korean fake lovers webtoons

Hapi Mari // this is a manga on arranged marriage and it's as dramatic as any asian telenovela lol i had fun reading it tho

Everyone's Getting Married or Totsuzen desu ga, Ashita Kekkon shimasu // a manga too. surprisingly enjoyed this. it's a "kinda" fake lovers story revolving around a bet (i think?) on the question whether marriage is necessary between someone who wants to get married and someone who doesn't believe in it

Sesame Salt and Pudding or Goma Shio to Purin // a manga. i clicked it because i saw the DI/LF tag loooool but it's not to my expectations HAHA i enjoyed reading it tho

Scum's Wish or Kuzu no Honkai // manga. this has an anime so you might know this... or not. it's a bit um, echi plus the angst is too much <//3 that i read the manga after watching the anime

Science Fell In Love or Rikei ga Koi ni Ochita no de Shoumei shitemita // only watched the anime. i also recommend just sticking to the anime lol. two scientists do fake dating to try to see if love can be scientific and it goes... really well hehe

CURRENTLY READING

Father, I Don't Want To Get Married or Appa, Na I Gyeolhon An Hallaeyo! // an isekai manhwa where the main character is the villain in the original story. the fake relationship here is not as emphasized as other fake lovers stories i've read but this is one of my current favorite isekai!!

New Year's Taste or Yeonhaui Mat // the fake lovers part was short (i mean thank god for that but still, i wanted to suffer more) but the story and art is so pretty!! the main theme of the manhwa is the age gap, i think. FL is a senior in college and ML is a freshman too

Strictly Professional or Women San Fen Shu // the story and characters are tbh too bland for me but i really enjoy the comedy and chaos the fake relationship ensues lmao i'll keep reading this until i get tired of laughing

To Love Your Enemy or Wonsureul Saranghara // currently reading this on the webtoon app!! aaah the ML is so cute and so in love. yup im just reading this to be envious of fictional lives

[chieeriebel]

ii. PLEADING FOR GRADES

pairing: Akaashi Keiji x reader

warnings : 18+ smut, squirting, teacher x student, spanks, overstimulated, begging, office sex

wc: 700+ words

a/n: Who should I make a smut for next time? Yachi? Oikawa? or Bokuto??? Anyway, Enjoy Reading!!!

read my introduction here.

masterlist.

part I.

You feel your wobbly knees gave up. Akaashi caught you in his arms as you're panting and tired from the pleasure that he gave to you. "Tired already, Miss (Y/N)?" he asked, sitting you on his swivel chair. "We're just starting..." You looked up at him, removing the belt from his pants. He grabbed your hands, tying them with his belt as you closed your eyes hoping to regain your stamina for the meantime... hoping that you could pass his subject this semester.

"Look at me, Miss (Y/N)," Akaashi demanded.

You immediately opened your eyes and looked at your teacher who's on top of your figure, sitting on the swivel chair.

"Damn..." he cursed under his breath. You put your hands on his cheeks and pulled him closer so that you could have the chance to kiss him on his lips.

Akaashi was startled by your actions, but he kissed back at once after your bite his lower lip. He groaned and kissed you passionately.

Then you felt him removing his pants and taking off his cock from his brief. You broke the kiss and looked at his manhood, whimpering a little because of its size.

"Sensei..." you muttered. He smirked and slapped his manhood to your pussy, teasing you as you leak of precum.

"Do you want me inside you, Miss (Y/N)?" he asked you, catching you off guard.

You gulped and think for a second.

Your goal was to get a good grade. But then this happened in a blur. It was once in a lifetime, besides, you've liked Akaashi Sensei since he praises you once on your homework, when your classmates told you that it was shit.

"Hai! Akaashi Sensei," you replied to him, looking at his lustful eyes. He instantly ripped a sachet of his condom and wear it to his shaft.

"Am I your first?" he asked you again. You nodded and replied, "Yes." (I'm sorry if you're not a virgin anymore, but I believe that we can all be virgins if we think so 😊)

"I'll be gentle to you then," he smiled and kissed your forehead, which made you blush like a tomato.

Akaashi slowly pushed his member inside your vagina, washing your virginity away and making you leave a tear on your cheek. You closed your eyes and yelp a little and scratched his back, not caring if he'll be hurt or not.

"I'm sorry, (Y/N)," he apologized, brushing away your tears with his hand.

"D-daijoubu desu, Akaashi Sensei. Y-you can move now," you told him.

He nodded and slowly pushed in and out of you. You moaned and whined, as he was pounding your pussy slowly.

"Ahhh... hmm, i-it's good,"

"Really, Miss (Y/N)? Do you like it? Do my little student like my cock deep inside her while I'm pounding it slowly, hmm?" he teased you while he's panting.

"Yes, Sensei ahhh— I like it! ohhh! Sensei, faster please, I want m-more of you." you pleaded.

Akaashi chuckled at your response, "I thought you would just like to get good grades, but look at you now, Miss (Y/N). Begging more for her Sensei's cock," he began to push his shaft in and out of you, hard and fast.

You were a mess on his swivel chair. Moaning, whining, and crying for his cock. Wanting more of it.

"S-sensei, s-stop! I-im close! I-im going to squirt again!" you warned Akaashi, but little did you know that he like you squirting for him.

"Yeah? You're gonna squirt it again for me?" he put his hand on your clit to rub it in circles while you're at the edge of your orgasm.

"Yes Sensei, you're so good at this," you smiled as you were spasming in pleasure. "T-there, there I am— Ohhh!!! Sensei!" you moaned screamed.

You began to tremble in pleasure while squirting your release underneath your teacher.

Akaashi groaned and released on the condom right after your orgasm while he's still pumping inside you.

You hugged your teacher while panting. Feeling the soreness down to your pussy. Akaashi pulled out of you and threw the condom on the nearest bin. He wiped both of your's mess with a tissue on his desk and dressed you up.

"Does it hurt, Miss (Y/N)?" he asked you. You replied with your eyelids closed since you feel really exhausted to move, and your throat hurts from all the moaning and screaming.

"I'll take you with me until tomorrow. Tell your roommate that you'll be somewhere, or that you'll be with your parents," he told you. "Could you at least walk to the parking lot? I don't want us to be seen like this."

You opened your eyes and replied with your hoarse voice, "I think I could manage to walk to the parking, Akaashi Sensei."