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ryanberga · 4 years ago

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it's because the idea of u guys actually caring about me and enjoying my content scares the shit out of me i know y'all are just strangers on the internet but some of u really care about me and that's fucking terrifying to me!!!!

#uhhh follow up to my last post i guess #look guys when i say im crazy i mean it lmao #as soon as people start caring about me thats when i leave #ive done that irl and ive done that in past fandoms #im the asshole who always leaves first bc theyre afraid of everyone else leaving them:)#and also i just feel like i dont deserve any of the kindness i receive #so its really hard for me when u guys send me kind messages #bc im like damn! haha i fooled them into thinking im not a piece of shit?#like i feel like im lying by making yall think i desrrve kindness #and also i just dont know how to accept it ever #anyways hope this makes sense??#i'll probably delete it tho #i just wanted to give a lil more explanation #why im thinking about soing this #not bc i dont like the fandom anymore #but bc i literally am crazy and live in my mind prison

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