#im taking my shitty mood out on leon and idc idc

[thestayathomedragon]

WIP Wednesday

Let's just pretend it's still Wednesday, eh?

Leon is drunk again. Another shitty mission. Another bio-terrorist attack that will be covered up and forgotten by next week.

He’s pacing and drinking straight from the bottle. You knew it was bad when he didn’t even bother with a glass.  He’s rambling and mumbling to himself. He’s such a goddamned cliché, isn’t he?

He’s angry at the world. Angry at himself. But mostly he’s angry at his so-called God.

He’d been raised catholic (like Luis) most of his life. His birth parents. Then the orphanage. Foster families here and there. If they weren’t catholic, they at least believed.

Leon hadn’t though. He hadn’t for a long time.

He rages for a time but his fire burns out just as quickly as it started. Just a flare up just like every other time.

“What did I do, huh? What d-did…” He breaks down.

“And here come the water works.” He could practically see the Major rolling his eyes. “Get it together, Rookie.”

Fuck the bastard.

“I… I don’t know what I did.” Leon sobs, because once the floodgates are open there’s no shutting them. “I never asked you for an-anything.” He doesn’t even know who he’s talking to. “I just… please. Please… I can’t…” He shudders. He doesn’t know what he’s doing, he thinks as he wipes away tears and snot.

Disgusting.

Ten years and he’d only gotten worse. How could anyone ever want someone as pathetic as him?

Luis had.

Leon chuckled wetly. And what did that really say about the other man, huh?

Maybe he just pitied you.

Leon had been such a mess in Valdelobos. He tried to keep up a tough visage, chin up, eyes ahead but every time he lost Ashley it was a blow that became harder and harder to recover from. But Luis. No matter what. Luis kept going. Unknowingly dragging Leon right along with him all the while cheering him on.

Luis kept trying. He apparently saw something in Leon that inspired him to.

It never felt like pity.

So, he would keep trying for Luis because Luis was special.