#im sure it is but i am always with jo

[todayisafridaynight]

LITERALLY almost included a bit asking if you think Jo stole it from someone more peepaw than him but there isn't anyone like that so far... So glad you're with me on that one... he's like the equivalent of Bontan Hunter Ryuji for old men...

Speaking of having things in common with Jo, the silver lining to being compared to Judas is that Jo can be too... Not That Your Mom Had A Point but YK... I would giggle at least a little bit...

Oh also Yokoyama didn't say the Ijin 3 would have minor roles, he said that about the Jimas (which, I mean, That's Been The Case lol); SO accurate that his word is like a fae's though

SO FAR. we do not know of any nursing home patients SO FAR we got three months...... ryuji aint here to nab pants anymore its time to let the elderly commit acts of minor inconvenience that can quickly escalate into acts of major inconvenience

AND A THIRD RENDITION HAS HIT MY INBOX ????? WHACK...... i will In Fact giggle a bit at this esp at how confused he looks LMAO

OH YEAH SEE I REMEMBER THAT that rings a bell.. very easy to mix up J words :) <- Ijin starts with an I

[jolalibrary]

I thought I’d introduce myself properly, because either you know me or I change my name that often you think you do but you’re not sure 😏

✨ I’m jo, shorthand of a longer name

✨my previous usernames have been: undercoverpena and mvtthewmurdvck — you may know me for writing late night texts (a Javi text fic) or from writing cod. that is if you don’t know me from frankie and joel.

✨ she/her, from the UK, I’m married to a man but I’m bi and a cancer 🦀. Im also a celiac and I have a diagnosed anxiety disorder—sometimes this makes me go into a hole and I’m sorry for when I go quiet

✨ I previously wrote for daredevil, bucky barnes, cod and then I saw a tiktok of javier peña and I had to know more about him and now im here. frankie stormed into my life some months later and i think I may have fallen in love in real time

✨ I love romcoms, romance books and usually I’m HEA—sometimes I might rip your heart out but it’s rare. I will always warn

✨ I love music, my taste is all over the shop and often I can have a good day just because my playlist was good

✨ I am dyslexic and 85% of the time I am not ashamed of it, but sometimes I feel daft and silly and I hide in my head

✨ english speaking, but know a tiny bit of German (I had a tutor for a year to converse with a friend who moved to the UK for her birthday) and am now learning Spanish (self-taught and with a tutor). sometimes learning a language is easier than knowing the right word in english—dyslexia make that make sense.

✨ I have one doggo who we call corgi, he is a corgi. he’s one of the best things to ever happen to me and the first person I’ve ever thought “I’d turn the world up side down for him”

✨ outside of writing, I like taking photos of books, making things in Canva, frustrating myself at making gifs (newly taught myself) and currently enjoying making candles

✨ my husband is fab, he turned my fanfic into a book so I could hold it and he knows that I be writing on here, but he doesn’t read them (he did sneakily read some of LNT, I’m told. but he stopped after chapter one so he could ask)

✨ I like to be an open book, where I can. I like the colour pink a lot and I really enjoy writing people falling in love.

that’s all for now! if you want to know anything more, my inbox is open ✨

[valscodblog]

Office Workers John Price x Reader

Warnings: 18+ MINORS, BE GONE OR BE BLOCKED! I will be checking the blogs who like this post. THIS IS VERY MDNI! I REPEAT MDNI! Why, you ask? Drinking, smoking, cheater!Simon, Bully!Gaz, Lapdog!Soap, and CEO!Price, SMUT SMUT SMUTTY SMUT!, cheating (Obvi-Simon), vulgar language, and adult jokes. It legit starts off with you fucking Simon. MINORS BE GONE FOR THIS ONE BRO. Cannot stress it enough. Also, GHOAP!

SUMMONING!!!!: @seconds-over-first @thebunnednun @writing-with-moss @skauni @needa-sum-luvn @m-1-l-0 @staytrueblue and @karlachismylife <333

and Yes. I gave Soap his '09 scar. IT LOOKED SO HOT OKAY? WHAT AM I TO DO? IM JUST A GIRL!!!

"Si-Simon, fuck!" you gasped, your mouth wide open. Simon laughed silently as he looked up at you, he tilited the driver's seat back via the hande bar on the side of the seat, near the base, and smiled up at you. But his smile wasn't at all nice-no no. It was mean and ignorant. He knew what kind of trouble you two would get into, he didn't mind getting into to trouble himself, he always smooth talked himself out of it, but you on the other hand...you never liked trouble. Not unless it was fun trouble. Which, when Price found out about you and Simon, it wouldn't be. And knowing Price, he'd find out. "Can't-Fuck-Can't wait ter see yer pretty arse in trouble!" Simon gloated, for some reason-he always liked seeing other's below him in some sort of trouble. He didn't know why but he just did.

That's was how your night went last night. Crazy-first day on the job and you ended up fucking your manager. Wow. Good job, Me, you scolded yourself, as you sorted through papers on your cubicle's desk. Your neighbor stood up and man was he tall. Simon had called him the Boss' lapdog-he didn't look it...What with the scar in his eye and all 'round rough appearance.

"Aye, Bonnie! 'Ow was the date?" He asked, in his heavy Scottish drawl. You smiled and said, "It was rather nice, truth be told...Simon's a bit brash, but he's pretty good with woman, surprisingly." He smiled and said, "You call the ol' Ghost, Simon, now, aye?" he teased, walking over to you. You nodded and said, "He told me to." he gave you a low whistle and smirked. "But be lucky, Bonnie. The only one allowed ter call 'em that is Me-his Husband."

And that warm smile disappeared. You looked him dead in the eyes and asked, "What?" stupidly. He looked down at you, his lips pressed into a thin white line. "Sure, it's not the first time he's cheated...but it is the first with a Woman...makes me question some things..." he gurmbled as he stared down at you, you, being you, stayed sat in your chair and gulped. "If it makes it better-he told me-"

"That i wuz single. Aye, Love. 'Ello, Y/n," Simon said walking over, her pressed a kiss to his supposed husband's forehead, and you swear you could see tears in your work-partner's eyes. "Wuz jus' sum fun, Soap. 'S all, Baby." "Just some fun? Really, Simon?" Soap, you guessed his nickname was, said through his teeth, you gulped again. "You cheated on may-with a fuckin' rookie! And a Girl nonetheless, ye bastard!"

You stood up and said, "Look, I'm so sorry, Sir. If I had known that-" "Naw, I don't blame ye, Bonnie! I blame tha' ol' Bastard right there." and he jerked his thumb in the direction of Simon. You sighed and then Gaz, the old asstant of the CEO's came out of his room and said, "The boss wants to see you, Y/n. I dunno why, so don't ask."

You swear you and everyone around you could hear your heart drop. You walked over to your CEO's office-the only time you ever saw him was when you were being interviewed by Laswell. He had walked in to ask her something, forgetting that she had you on the schedule. You knocked on the door and it opened so you poked your head in.

"Sir-you called?"

"I did. Come in, Y/n."

"Yes, Sir."

if only you knew how much you affected him. He only ever saw you one time-but fuck you were...captivating. He tensed slightly and then said, "Call me, John." to which you nodded. "Of course...John." Huh...sounded pretty coming from your mouth...wonder what else would.

"So...your new, you don't know much of well...anything, Love, so I'll give you the run down."

you gulped, "If i may ask before we start sir, what did i do wrong?" "Oh its not what you did wrong! It's what one of my...lowers did wrong, more so." "Oh..." "But you too are...semi at fault here-you entertained a certain...thought. Even acted upon it with a certain, Simon Riley?" you quirked a brow up. "Yeah...i went a date-" "Well let me tell you-you missed work with the excuse that you were sick...lying to me isn't a good idea, swee'eart." you gulped. "Uhm...I uhh, didn't call off, Sir-" "Oh really? I hope you know we, for legal reasons, record every phone call we get at this company, Y/n."

you were in huge trouble...You knew it. John looked up at you from where he was sitting and said, "I don't approve of Simon's ungodly habits. Never have-never will. But you, poor you, really...you didn't know he was married. Went to the wedding m'self. Wasn't big but it was nice," he listed off to you, you nodded. "Sit down, sit down! So sorry i havn't asked you before where are my manners?" He joked as he held his hand out to an empty seat across from him. "You aren't being horribly punished-but you will be punished just ever so slightly, Birdie." You nodded.

You deserved to be. You had helped Simon cheat on Soap. His name tag said, "John" you just now recalled. So, two John's at this office, huh? Wow....pay checks must get mixed up. "Are you listening, Y/n?" "Yes, Sir." "Good. So, you will be under strict supervision now, for about three to four weeks. I'll give you Kyle's old office. He's moved up in the chain now, don't worry. He's just a rank above you....same as John, truth be told." You nodded, "Right...so you'll move me into his old office?" "Yeah, that's right. That alright with you, Love?"

You nodded as butterflies flew into your stomach. You always had liked British nicknames. They gave you a sense of comfort-and turned you on a good amount too...but what you forgot is that the English are very smart too. Very observant, very attentive...John, even more so. He could see the gears in your head turning and then getting stuck up on that nickname, and every other one he called you. He could basically Hear the rate of your heart, and the fact you were blushing only confirmed his theory.

"Good to know you approve, My Dear."

and oh lord, your reaction was priceless. Red face, struggling o keep composure...poor thing. One single little nickname sent all of your hormones rushing to your cunt as if it hadn't been fucked the night before.

[paint-it-red-and-black]

underwater underneath

Charles Leclerc/Max Verstappen | 14.2k words | Series: tell me a secret

Tags: Fluff and Angst, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Tenderness, Established Relationship, Jos Verstappen A+ parenting, mentions of gries and losses

Summary:

"We can't change the past, Charles."

"But we can avoid facing it." He sounds sad and a little desperate.

"The reminders will be everywhere, always." Max tells him, softly running a hand through his hair again. "Wouldn't it be easier to accept and get rid of the fear?"

"Perhaps." Charles shrugs, averting his gaze. "Easier said than done though."

OR: Charles and Max go to a special place from Charles' childhood. They talk about their feelings, losses and insecurities, helping each other to overcome them.

i'm aroace and english is not my first language. i'm not tactile and i'm scared of the sea. no shit, i have no idea how did i write this. maybe that was an aftermath of red bull overconsumption. who knows? not me, that's for sure.

posting this actually at 3:30 am bc im done. can't take it anymore. i need a break. i want to sleep so badly.

anyway, love you all, enjoy!

previous work: are we still adults?

[11queensupreme11]

OKKKKAY IDK IF YOU STILL NEED HELP FOR PERCY’S SCENT! But as someone who used to work as a fragrance chemist this is up my alley 😤 you should’ve said something sooner girlie.

Also please note idk why but it won’t let me put the pics with each perfume I’m talking about so I’m putting the pics in order from what I typed

BVLGARI AQVA MARINE… hear me out.. it’s for men 😭 BUT GIRL look what it has… I LIKE THIS ONE CAUSE WHEN I SMELLED IT ONCE IT HAD A NICE SALTY SEAWEED VIBE LIKE SMELL and our girl is called seaweed brain 🥹 and look at the bottle … it kinda matches her eyes

So the rest aren’t best to worst just a whatever and what I remember 😭

Heeley's Sel Marin (unisex) Okay so this one is nice it def got a salt water smell almost like you walking on the beach when it’s sunny and you kinda smell the saltiness the ocean has to offer when walking near the ocean and it does have a seaweed funk to it not as much but it’s there.

Tom Ford Oud Minerale (unisex fragrance) Okay so here is this one… I go shopping for perfume/ cologne a lot so I have smelled this one recently, so I add the description if you wanna read it, if I remember this one does capture the fragrance of the ocean but it does have a bit of “fresh water” but it’s a bit brackish (so it’s between fresh and seawater) so it’s does capture the sea heavily almost like when you go walking during the night and the breeze is blowing in the air and you can smell the ocean a bit more than the day ( that how I see it)

Armani Privé - Bleu Lazuli Okay so this is not like beach or ocean but it does have nice smell (the description explains it nicely ) I know of this one cause I used to buy it 😭😭 the design is so pretty and it match daddyseidon aesthetic too 😭 # bias

Jo Malone Wood Sage and Sea Salt (Unisex) So this one is nicceee I put this cause it says salty in the description but tbh it leans toward freshie and it captures the smell of the ocean quiet nicely but it’s a little woodsy tho and it made me think of her daddy cause of this chapter where Anubis said she got her dad scent all over her (isn’t the mf scenting her or something???). So it made think how they may smell alike but people can smell her dad’s scent so that’s where the woodsy comes in to tell their scents apart.

Sea of Gray

I honesty came across this one when doing my research and the description seems on point for you tbh I haven’t smelled it but what it says sounds like it may be but if has that ocean like feel I am not sure … also the first website I clicked said it cost $22 which is cheap if Percy ever wants to buy it compare to the rest of them 😭 this I couldn’t add the description but you can search them up

Anyway you can see that even tho they have a salty/ fresh water based to some they always have an extra thing added like spice or vanilla so don’t think toooo much on it. Cause even these things aren’t 100% close to smelling like the actual sea. But hopefully the description of them can help you!!

IM SORRY BESTIE, I ALREADY GOT THE FRAGRANCE FROM HER I SHOULD'VE WENT TO YOU FIRST 😭😭😭

i picked mermaid's embrace from deep midnight perfumes

literally i just googled "perfume mermaids sirens" and then a reddit post came up and i saw this one listed 😭 i liked the description so i went with it 💀

BUT YOU USED TO WORK AS A FRAGRANCE CHEMIST????? omg i remember your super detailed post about the yanderes scents and that explains so much lmaooo that sounds so cool though!!!

[boopshoops]

hiya!! for the ask thing can I ask for Food and Name for Jocia and Yuu Shi? tysm!!!

(also baby goats baby goats baby goats-)

Name: What does your twst OC's name mean? Why does Rook/Floyd call them [insert nickname]?

OH i have- lots of lil lore tidbits for this

Jocia, according to my research waaaay back when I finally looked into her name (I deadass thought I just made it up at first), is typically associated with "joy!" Though Im sure that was obvious from the almost constant glare on her face /sar. It is also a different form of the name Jocelyn, a German name. I always pronounced it Jo-sha til I learned it was supposed to be- well, exactly as its spelled, Jo-see-ah.

Floyd calls her Barracuda! Initially I was going to have that be what he called Yuu, but the "catfish" pun was too good for me to pass on. So- what else could I do but hand over the title to Jo? Plus I think it fits her better :P Primarily due to how the barracuda is more known for how they hunt and fight.

They are known to be ferocious, attacking quickly and using ambush techniques (similar to a certain pair of tweels). They are also known to just straight up take fish from other species, even human divers- besides that, they don't really attack humans unprovoked. Barracudas also compete with moray eels for food/prey.

I feel like this relates back to how Jocia "handles" her anger- or- howshetakesitout on people around her who wrong her/those she cares about. She is ruthless and fearsome at times, but for the most part she prefers to just... chill. She doesn't purposefully go seeking out trouble when she's in the right place mentally.

Rook calls her "Reine des épices" (pls excuse any mistakes, blame the translator), which translates to "Queen of Spice!" This is honestly more of a personal reference. Me and my partner always used to joke that Jocia was kinda like a pepper- and would often use 🌶️ when joking about her. It's mostly due to her fiery, hot-tempered nature.

Yuu- is- well, yuu. I didnt come up with that, i just snatched it JFNDJDJ. HOWEVER. "Shi" can have many different meanings! I tried my best to go for something vague. I like the thought of having something that leaves you guessing what applies and what doesnt. However! It can actually also mean "you." Yuushi as a whole can translate to "hero!" (Another ironic take, I know)

Floyd calls her catfish bc. It's funny. I think it's funny and I'd bet $20 that he'd think it's funny. So it's catfish KFNDJDK

Besides the obvious- (pretending to be someone she isnt), catfish can live in almost any aquatic climate, making them rather adaptable. They have a large range of size and behavior, and are most well known for their stinging "whiskers." (Glances at shi's taser) They ALSO compete with eels for prey- as long as they arent a small enough species, then theyd become the prey.

Rook calls her "Reine du Rock", which means "Queen of Rock"- this one is just simple. She loves rock music. She plays it all the time, and it is what she most enjoys performing. Again i am not a good translator trust me i tried to learn another languagemybrainjustcant

Another fact, the twin's parents switched them around at birth on accident, and forgot who they named what initially. It's entirely possible that Yuu was supposed to be named Jocia, but they don't know :P they fight over who is older bc of this too.

Food: What is your twst OC's favorite and least favorite food? Why (optional)? Is there anyone they can share their favorite food? Is there anyone they can count on to take over the food they dislike?

I went into this a lil bit with Yuu in the past during different ask games! Here and here. And a lil bit for Jo here. (Their fav and why<)

Yuu Shi is partial to suggesting treats to Trey- whether he actually makes Bungeoppang or just uses Doodle Suit, it is currently her easiest means of getting it when she only had it a few times prior. So, sure, she'll share... sometimes.

Jocia- given she is partial to a barbequed dish, she could share it with Leona given his love for meat... but WOULD she? No.

Yuu Shi would never subject anyone else to caffeine even if they really enjoyed it, unless that someone is the sink drain.

As for Jocia... really, she didnt have too much against olives. They were bad, yeah, but not horrible. She hated the way they made her tongue itch, though... and then she figured out that they weren't supposed to do that. She's allergic. Yuu Shi used to take them for her, but there isn't really anyone who enthusiastically WANTS them either.

[tldix]

do i wanna know?

it’s time, the final chapter is here.

chapter 5

summary: fleeing to college after catching your highschool sweetheart cheating, you find yourself right back in your home town 4 years later. your degree almost complete & your sanity slowly slipping, you find solace in the one place you know you shouldn’t. your dads best friend. Dean Winchester.

word count: idk something embarrassingly long probably🫣

warnings : mature 18+, dbf, AU, yearning AF, spn content, grumpy/sunshine ish?? idk (im trying to include most of the main characters from spn, again AU)

a few nights later, you found yourself sitting on the couch, flipping through your phone while dean was busy in the kitchen. he was trying to remake some pasta he used to make along time ago, apparently your dad & him were obsessed with it in their college days. you’re mindlessly scrolling through facebook when you scrolled past a photo of someone that tagged you in a group photo- a photo from when you were in highschool. it was your whole senior class, right after taking your senior pictures. you stood between Jo & Colter. you had your arms around both of them beaming at the camera. your thumb hesitated over the screen before you decided to just keep scrolling.

“you okay?” dean called from his kitchen, worry dripped in his tone at the lack of conversation

“yeah” you said quickly, setting your phone down & averting your attention back to him

he walked over, wiping his hands on a dish towel as he sat down beside you on the sofa. his hand finding its usual place on your knee. “you sure baby?”

you hesitated before meeting his eyes. “it’s just.. i saw a picture of me, colter, & jo all together. it didn’t bother me much, really, but it reminded me of how much it used too. back when i first got home”

deans hand found yours now, his thumb brushing over your knuckles “& now?”

you gave him a small bit confident smile as you squeezed his hand. “now? it doesn’t matter. i have you.”

his lips quirked up into the biggest shit eating grin, his green eyes beaming with warmth “damn right you do baby” as he pulled you into a deep kiss.

the way he said it, so sure & steady. so grounding. it made you realize how far you actually have come. you were almost finished with your degree, completing the last semester online so you could continue to work at bobby’s. you were happier than you could ever believe. the hurt that Jo & Colter had left behind felt like a distant memory, overshadowed by the life you were building with dean

———

fuck. despite your best efforts to keep things under wraps, it became increasingly clear that your dad was no longer buying the “just friends” act. he’d always been sharp as a tack, & lately, his questions & lingering looks had become a helluva lot harder to dodge. so much so you were banishing yourself to the patio or to your room to avoid it. you started staying over at deans quite a bit more, playing it off as you were staying over at charlie’s.

one afternoon, while you were working at bobby’s diner, your dad stopped by for his lunch. he sat at the counter, sipping his coffee & watching you with an expression that made you uneasy.

“somethin on your mind dad?” you asked as you refilled his cup.

he raised an eyebrow “should there be sticks?”

“you’re staring at me like you’re waiting for me to confess somethin” you said, trying your hardest to keep your tone light.

jp leaned back in his chair, his lips twitching into a smirk “maybe i am. you’ve been spending an awful lot of time with dean here lately”

you froze, oh no. oh no. fuck fuck fuck. you forced a causal shrug “we’ve always spent tons of time together. nothing new”

“uh-huh.” your dad said, his tone making it clear he didn’t believe you.

before you could ever try to muster a response, the bell above the door rung & in walked dean. his presence as commanding as ever. he gave you a quick nod & a small smile, which you returned with a barely contained nervousness. your dads eyes shifted from you to dean. his expression unreadable.

“afternoon jp” dean said, sliding into stool next to him like it was he most natural thing in the world.

“dean” your dad replied, his tone causal but his gaze sharp.

you busied yourself behind the counter trying to appear nonchalant “coffee, dean?”

“yeah, thanks sticks” he said. his voice warm in a way that made your dads eyebrows lift slightly.

the tension was palpable as you poured the coffee, your back to them, hoping they weren’t about to have some sort of silent showdown. when you turned back, dean was leaning on the counter, casually sipping his drink but there was an unmistakable stiffness in his shoulders.

“you’ve been hanging around a lot lately,” your dad said suddenly, his tone conversational but with an edge that made dean pause.

dean glanced at you briefly before tearing his gaze back to Jp, finding his eyes already staring right back at him. “what can i say? the diners got good coffee. best in town”

“uh-huh.” your said said, setting his cup down. “it’s funny, though. seems like it’s not just the coffee you’re interested in.”

your breath caught, you felt the heat rising to your neck but you stared at your dad. dumbfounded, unsure if he was gunna push further. dean didn’t flinch, but you could see the flicker of unease in his eyes.

“not sure what you’re getting at jp” dean said a bit too quickly but keeping his tone neutral & even.

your dads gaze shifted back to you. “what about you, sticks? got anything to add?”

you opened your mouth to respond, but before you could, it seemed luck was on your side today was bubbly strolled out from the kitchen, wiping his hands on his dish towel.

“jp quit interrogating my staff. wait till she’s off to do that” bobby said, his gruff voice breaking the tension. phew. thank god for bobby “dean, stop making googly eyes at sticks while you’re at it” oh my god. yup you were wrong. luck is not on your side & it seems bobby isn’t either.

dean nearly chocked on his coffee, while your dad turned to bobby with raised eyebrows.

“googly eyes?” your dad repeated, his tone skeptical.

bobby shrugged, clearly enjoying himself. “what? everyone can see it”

you wanted to sink into the floor, jump out the driver through window, have a nuclear bomb drop on you but dean recovered quickly, flashing a smirk at bobby “don’t know what you’re talking bout, singer”

“sure ya don’t” bobby said, chuckling to himself as he disappears back into the kitchen.

your dad didn’t say anything for a long while, just studying the two of you with that same sharp gaze. finally, he stood, tossing some cash on the counter.

“thanks for the coffee sticks.” he said his tone neutral but with heavy meaning, he glanced at dean “we’ll talk later”

& with that, he was gone. leaving you & dean alone in the diner

——-

the moment the door closed behind your dad, you turned to dean. your heart racing “what the hell was that?”

dean sighed, running a hand through his hair. “that was your dad starting to put two & two together”

“i thought we agreed to wait to tell him, till at least a month in” you said, panic creeping into your voice.

“we did” dean said, leaning forward on the counter. “but i don’t think we got much of a choice anymore sweetheart. the man’s far from stupid, he definitely knows something’s up”

you dropped your head into your hands groaning “this is such a mess”

dean reached across the counter, gently tugging your hands away from your face. “hey, we’ll figure it out okay? we just gotta be honest with him sweetheart. like i said he’ll come around”

you looked at him, chest tightening with the sincerity laced in his tone. it was almost intoxicating, until you remembered the seriousness of this conversation. “& what if he doesn’t take it well?”

dean gave you a small smile before pressing his lips to your knuckles, “then we’ll figure it out. together.”

——-

later that evening, after the diner had closed & bobby sent you home. you & dean sat on the porch steps of your house, waiting for your dad to come back from a gas station run. the air was thick, with anticipation, neither of you saying much as the minutes ticked by. you found yourself staring at the moon, finding solace in the man that got to live there.

when your dads truck finally pulled back into the driveway, you stood, your nerves buzzing. dean followed suit, his hands briefly brushing against yours in a silent gesture of reassurance.

jp stepped out of his truck, lugging a case of beer. raising an eyebrow at the two of you before he says “what the hell is this? some sorta intervention? least lemme open a beer first”

“something like that” dean said, his voice steady despite the tension in the air.

your dad set the case down on the porch as he crossed his arms. his gaze bouncing between the two of you, “alright out with it.”

you took a deep steadying breath, your heart pounding as you say “dean… dean & i… we’re together.”

your dad didn’t react at first, just staring at you with his famous unreadable expression. you were starting to worry he was having a heart attack when the silence stretched, you felt the panic starting to set in

finally, he turned to dean. his expression never faltering. “together” he repeated slowly, the word heavy with meaning.

dean nodded, his jaw tightening slightly as if preparing for war “yeah, jp. i care about her. a lot.”

your dad studied dean, his gaze sharp & piercing “how long?”

you glanced nervously at dean; who hesitated only for a moment before answering. “not long. we didn’t wanna keep it from you, but we uh we didn’t know… exactly how to tell you”

“didn’t know how to tell me” your dad repeated, his tone deceptively calm. he turned to you, uttering your first name as he said “you couldn’t come to me & say “hey dad, i’m dating your bestfriend?”

“you- you make it seem so simple when it wasn’t.” you said quickly, “we didn’t wanna hurt you dad. we weren’t sure how’d you take it”

your dads lips pressed into a thin line as he considered this, he looked back at dean. his voice lowering “& you? what were you afraid of winchester?”

dean exhaled, jesus chuck your dad was a terrifying man. his shoulders relaxed slightly as he met your dads gaze “i didn’t wanna lose you jp. you’re my bestfriend. & i know… this is probably the last thing you were expecting. but i’m serious about her. i wouldn’t be here otherwise”

the silence that followed was utterly suffocating, your dad started at dean for a long moment before letting out a heavy sigh. he rubbed a hand over his face, muttering something incoherent under his breath.

finally; he said “i’m definitely not happy bout being the last one to know”

you opened your mouth to apologize but he held up a hand, stopping you.

“but.” he continued, looking between the two of you, “i can’t really say i’m all that surprised. i’ve seen the way you look at each other.”

you froze “you.. have?”

“sticks.” your dad said, his tone softening slightly. “i’m not blind. i’ve known something’s been going on for awhile now. i just didn’t wanna go & jump to conclusions.”

dean stepped forward, his voice steady “i promise you jp, id never do anything to hurt her. she’s means so much to me”

your dads gaze softened slightly, but his voice remained firm. “you better now dean. because if you do, i’ll be very happy to remind you on why i’m better with a wrench than you are”

dean managed a small smile. “fair enough”

your dad turned to you, his expression softening further. “you happy sticks? like really truly happy?”

you nodded, tears prickling at the corner of your eyes. “yeah daddy, i am”

he sighed & pulled you into a brief hug. wrapping both arms around you “that’s all i care bout”

when he pulled back, he pointed a finger at dean “but you? you’re still on thin ice winchester”

dean smirked. “wouldn’t expect anything less jp”

——————

the next morning, the tension that hung over the house before was noticeably absent when you walked into the kitchen the next morning. your dad was at the table, reading his newspaper like nothing had happened. his coffee cup abandoned at his side.

“morning” you said hesitantly, barely above a whisper.

“morning sticks” he replied, not glancing up at you.

you grabbed a mug & poured yourself a cup of coffee, unsure if you should say anything. how mad was he? finally, your dad broke the silence.

“deans lucky i like him” he muttered, his tone gruff but nod unkind.

you smiled despite yourself, finding your words quicker than you’d intended “thanks for not freaking out”

he glanced up at you, his lips twitching into a small smile. “you’re my kid, i just want you to be happy. but if even thinks bout fucking up-“

“i know” you said quickly, grinning widely as you took a sip of your coffee “wrenches”

your dad chuckled, shaking his head “damn, right”

—————

the weeks following jps discovery brought a strange sense of calm, but it wasn’t without those jaw clenching, gut wrenching moments of tension. he didn’t press further after the initial conversation, but you could always feel him watching. observing every move you & dean made. well really, observing every move dean made. his gaze never faltered when he noticed you & dean in the same room together, he was careful around your dad. always the respectful gentleman he knew your dad wanted him to be, he wanted so badly to prove he wasn’t taking this lightly. it was enduring, how badly he chased your dads approval. not just as his bestfriend, now as his girlfriend dad as well. but when it was just the two of you, the cracks in his composure started to shine through. you could see how badly dean hated holding back, how desperate he was for things to just go back to normal.

that calm however was too short lived as Jps birthday rolled around. you decided to throw him a surprise bbq in the backyard- a family tradition that always brought everyone together, while you aimlessly run your hands over your thighs you think to yourself. this is what i was waiting on, this is home.

——-

the morning of the bbq dawned bright & warm, the sun casting an ethereal golden glow on the backyard as you & dean worked so hard to set it up, after sending your dad to the parts store for some radiator for a car dean was working on. the smell of fresh cut grass mingled with the faint scent of charcoal from the grill.

“here” you said, handing dean a stack of paper plates. “put these over there on the table, by the drinks”

“yes, ma’am” he said with a mock salute, his lips twitching into a smirk.

you rolled your eyes but couldn’t help the small smile that dean always made graze your lips. there he was, in all his glory. sleeves rolled up, sunglasses perched on his nose. the easy confidence he wore like a second skin.

“hey” dean said as he passed by, brushing his hand over your lower back “you okay sweetheart?”

you nodded, glancing towards the house nervously. “just uh kinda nervous i guess… bout my dad. he’s still keeping a close eye on us, ya know?”

dean paused, letting his hang still rub circles on the small of your back. his smirk softening into something much more sincere. “let him watch us baby, we ain’t doing nothin wrong”

the reassurance in his voice seemed to settle your nerves, you gave him a small grateful smile as you turned to him. pressing your lips into his cheek “thank you baby”

“anytime” he said, giving your back one final pat before heading over to put the plates by the drinks

——

the backyard was buzzing with the life of the afternoon. the same string lights you had hung for your welcome home party now took place for your fathers birthday party, dean of course loaded up his “masterpiece of a grill” to bring over, this time though he was making ribs & everytime you got a whiff of it in the air, you swore your mouth watered. bobby arrived first, carrying a case of beer with a red bow on top. he gave you a kiss to your cheek & a knowing look as he passed.

“don’t worry sticks” he said, patting your shoulder as he looked out to the backyard. “your dad will come around. you know how jp is. he’s just being his usual … stubborn self.”

“thanks pops” you said, smiling gratefully at him. beyond thankful for his support.

cas & sam arrive next, deciding it would be best for them to just ride together. cas balancing the birthday cake he spent entirely “too much time on” as he put it, sam carrying a big box wrapped in Disney Cars wrapping paper. what are we, toddlers? he couldn’t shoot for scooby doo?

“where’s dean” sam asked, scanning the yard for his brother.

“at the grill sammy” you said, nodding towards the corner where dean was marinating the ribs.

sam smirked. “he’s really leaning into this whole boyfriend thing, ain’t he?”

“shut up sammy” you said as you felt the heat creep up to your cheeks

cas places his glorious cake down, making his way over to you before wrapping you in a huge hug. his expression calm as he says “everything looks perfect. you did a great job here bug”

“thanks cassy” you said, appreciating the grounding his presence gave you.

charlie, of course. was last to arrive. she came bouncing into the yard with her usual energy. “alright, where’s the birthday boy?” she called out, holding up a brightly wrapped gift. is that pink wrapping paper? jesus christ.

Jp emerged from the house, smiling widely at the scene before him. shaking his head with a deep belly laugh “you didn’t have to bring anything, charls”

“please old man” she said, rolling her eyes as she shoved the gift towards him “like i was gunna show up empty handed”

as the evening wore on bobby & sam were over at the table that held all the beer & liquor, taste testing everything before for the “best one” for your father, then ultimately decided their a bit too tipsy to even be able to taste the alcohol anymore. Cas of course, bless his heart was on dessert duty. being the only responsible-enough adult here to take charge of something so precious. & charlie of course, was teasing Jp about his age while you handled dishes. it was so peaceful, if you’d have told yourself a year ago that this is where you’d be you’d have laughed in your own face. but now? you couldn’t imagine anything better.

dean stood at the grill, a meat thermometer in hand as he lifted the hood of the grill with the same care & precision he gave his beloved impala. he was in his element, sleeves rolled up, & that easy smirk tugging at his lips when you cracked one of your jokes.

“you know” charlie said, sliding up to you as you arranged a tray of corn on the cob off to the side of the table. “he’s looking very domestic over there. almost like he’s auditioning to see if he’s husband worthy or not”

you rolled your eyes, though you felt the burn of your cheeks. “charlie. don’t start”

“who, me?” she asked. feigning innocence. “i’m just saying, the man’s glowing. in his own weird dean way. he’s beaming. pretty sure it’s because of you”

before you could respond, your dad walked over, raising an eyebrow at the two of you seemingly gossiping. he sees the flush of your cheeks & smiles “what are you two whispering bout?”

“nothing!” you say quickly, straightening your posture & directing your focus back to the tray.

“everything” charlie said at the same time, grinning wickedly.

jp eyed her suspiciously but let it go, that girl charlie always was an odd ball he thought. he slid past grabbing a beer from the cooler & found his way over to the tipsy sam & bobby.

——————

as the afternoon wore on, the subtlety of your relationship with dean began to unravel. it started small- dean brushing a stray hair out of your face as he passed you the ketchup, lingering looks that neither of you realized were obvious, the way he instinctively made your plate right before he made his, handing it to you with a wink. the not so subtle way you instinctively refilled his drink without him asking you too. his hand brushing against the small of you back.

“okay, i can’t take it anymore.” charlie declared suddenly after nursing one too many pina colada’s, standing up from her chair “when the hell are you two gunna tell everyone”

you froze, your fork halfway to your mouth the nervous flutter in your stomach told you the jig was up. “tell everyone what charls?”

“oh, come on.” charlie said annoyed, gesturing between you & dean. “you’re not exactly subtle.”

the backyard fell silent as everyone turned to look at the three of you.

dean set down his drink, his jaw tightening briefly before letting out a small laugh. “guess the cats outta the bag huh?”

your dad sighed heavily, muttering “took them long enough to figure it out”

bobby chuckled “hell, i’ve known since the day she started back at the diner. you two are bout as subtle as a shotgun blast full of rock salt.”

sam raised his glass “well it’s about damn time. congratulations you two”

cas, ever calm & supportive. (& being the only one who it really got confirmed too besides charlie & your father) added, “you two make a great match”

the warmth in his voice eased your nerves, almost completely dissipating them, when dean reached over to squeeze your hand, you felt every last drop of worry flea compelled.

“well” your dad said, standing up. “i guess it’s official now.” he let his eyes cut over to dean “just remember what i said son”

dean nodded solemnly “wrenches. yep i got it.”

the group erupted into laughter, the moment settling into something warm & comfortable. for the first time since in 4 years, you felt as if you were breathing freely.

——-

a week later, after going to the annual car show with your dad & dean you find yourself stumbling up on the door step of the MacLeod bakery. nestled in the heart of the town, sitting the same way it was the day they bought the place. the shop was a blend of elegance & chaos, much like its owners. with Crowley in the kitchen & Rowena behind the front desk, it made the atmosphere a bit brighter. their scottish heritage shown proudly on the walls with some original paintings from rowena, the shop always smalled of cinnamon & coffee grounds, the counter lined with green marble countertops & the display cases detailed with black flowers engraved. it was beautifully rowena.

rowena greeted you with a dazzling smile when you walked in. “well if it isn’t the two love birds! what brings you to my little slice of heaven today?”

crowley appeared in his long black apron, it sliding over his shoulders & tied tightly around his back. a bit of flour was scattered around it, along with some some strawberry filling. he’s wiping the access ingredients off his hands, as he looks up. “ah, dean winchester, lowering his standards by walking into my shop.”

“crowley” dean said with a mock disdain. “still alive, i see”

“barely, especially when she’s running things” crowley shot back with a chuckle, nodding his head towards rowena.

she swatted at him with the towel he had just placed down before turning her attention back to you. “come on darling, let me show you our newest creations”

as rowena led you toward the counter that held her huge display case of all things sweet, crowley leaned toward dean. lowering his voice enough to be sure you wouldn’t overhear, smirking. “she’s too good for you, you know”

dean chuckled “oh yeah. i know”

——————

3 months later

after weeks of careful planning & whispered discussions, you & dean decided to take a leap & move in together. the decision felt natural, the the next step in the story had been writing itself all along.

the first night you shared after you moved into deans, the two of you sat on the living room floor. packing boxes lined all around you as a pizza was sitting open, nicely on the coffee table.

dean leaned back against the couch, a slice in hand. “you know, this stuff isn’t half bad”

you laughed, nudging him with your foot “it’s pizza dean. it’s like nearly impossible to mess up”

he grinned, reaching over to grab your hand. “you realize we’re like official stuck with each other now right?”

you squeezed his hand as a shit eating grin vacancy on your face, “i wouldn’t have it any other way”

he pulled you by your hand, throwing you into his lap with a chuckle. you giggled on the way over. he wrapped his arms around you before placing a kiss to your forehead. “thanks for sticking with me, sticks”

you rolled your eyes, swatting at him lightly “i’m never gunna get away from that nickname, am i?”

“not a chance.” he said, pressing his lips to yours.

& as the two of you sat there, surrounded by the beginnings of your shared life, you felt an overwhelming sense of peace. for the first time, after everything felt exactly as it should be. it felt like home.

—————-

[lestappenforever]

Hello my lovely, your social-psychological anon haunting your inbox once more- can you tell I have such awful lestappen and f1 brain rot? 🤭

I have some thoughts on rbr lestappen but I first want to comment on the wonderful ask from anon who referenced the Max reacting to Charles’ comment on him video. That’s exactly right- every small comment from Charles is most likely obsessively internalised and dissected to the extreme- and what Mona speaks about in response of how max and Charles have been tied together from childhood with even Jos verstappen saying they will fight forever - it makes me wonder, and this is pure speculation- but there is a method to my madness - if there was an element of Jos setting Charles on a pedestal (you know im that annoying way that parents go “look at this [insert achieved acquaintance] they are such a good example you ought to learn from them” which breeds resentment but once again I speak from experience in an athletically competitive environment, it also breeds admiration because here is this other person who is amazing at this sport). We know that Jos has a specific way of disciplining max in racing (saying he will never achieve anything , that he will be a truck or taxi driver) which makes me wonder if Jos used Charles as a marker of success (“Charles is so good/ you won’t be like Charles he will go onto f1 and you won’t”) to encourage and cultivate Max’s competitive spirit. And that’s why max hated charles but also admired him and because charles had Jos’ approval, by extension charles is automatically in a position to give that approval to max. I’ve never really thought of it this way but it really would make sense why max is so eager to please Charles and cares so much about what he thinks of him because throughout maxs childhood Charles was the benchmark, he was the golden boy (still is), he was what max sought to reach.

This theory would support and give greater contextual depth to what I said previously about max ignoring interviews because he is just so happy to have Charles’ attention and is afraid of losing it; he just values it so highly. Also pay attention to when Charles is talking, max almost always demonstrates active listening by nodding but he does so much more to show he is involved with adding hand signs and affirmatives of “yeah me too, I had the same thing, on turn 1 right?” To really show how engaged he is and also to keep Charles’ attention too by engaging him in literally every way possible during a conversation.

So thank you so much for such interesting thoughts I value them so highly and am so happy that people actually like these takes and understand/ see what I see not just from a shipping perspective because I find their interactions and relationship just so fascinating and full of nuance.

Anyway, back on track; some brain thoughts on rbr Charles and Lestappen teammates. There are a series of concerns and complaints I will go over like the whole 1-2 driver strategy and how they’re both WC contenders and it would be unfair for Charles to be a second driver/ how Charles polished personality does not fit the red bull vibe/ and how he would be entering a team that literally orbits max plus the infamous second red bull seat curse.

Well my two cents on this is that all of these concerns are wrong because:

- red bull have stated, very dramatically, during the initial rumours of talks held with Lando and Charles that they are abandoning the traditional 1-2 driver format and they want two championship contenders. This has been said I am sure but I have to reiterate the point that F1 is not just a sport in the way that Olympic events are about the sport. F1 is a show, you’re there for the races but also for the drama for the content for the interactions and the entertainment. And red bull pride themselves in being “shit stirrers” and just an out of pocket team (which I think is beautiful 😂🫡) and if any team would take risks like that in abandoning the traditional format it will be red bull and they will absolutely throw themselves into providing this. It is also likely that they decided on this very early in the season (before they started talks w either Charles or Lando) because that is also when Max changed the tune of his horn by saying he would like to have Charles as a teammate whereas last year he was like absolutely not because Charles doesn’t deserve to be second driver. So technically max revealed their departure from 1-2 strategy before red bull made it clear (around mid season). I feel like someone literally switched a mental gear in max’s head where he was like “Charles is my rival he could never be a second driver” and someone went “what about we let you be teammates and rivals at the same time” and max’s brain just short circuited

- As for Charles coming into this equation - into a team so heavily focused on max- I don’t think that’s an issue. We have seen -especially in recent weeks- that Charles seems to really get on with the rb team and has a good relationship with them so he isn’t like a complete outsider coming into a team that is resistant to having him on board. I think the most incriminating thing from lestappen gate so far (there is so much omg) is the interactions with the red bull team. Not the drivers but the rb representative in Mexico and Brad this weekend. We have been speculating on the rb Charles rumours since the start of the season and not once have we seen this happen that other teams mechanics are congratulating and interacting with another teams drivers (it’s even more incriminating because it’s red bull, like the most aggressively competitive team on the grid). Plus it just doesn’t happen, I really don’t remember ever seeing this except when an ex driver was congratulated by their previous team (checo w racing point after move to rbr and Seb w red bull after move to Ferrari). Huge bonus is that very fascinating interaction w Christian and Christian’s general tendency toward defending Charles and praising him. He really does act at times as if Charles is an rbr golden boy, I have noticed this year more than ever Christian and even GP saying “Charles” rather than “Leclerc” on the radio and it just conveys a degree of familiarity that we haven’t really seen before. It is extremely obvious to me that they want him there and have de facto adopted him.

- the rbr second seat curse literally stems from the fact that rbr, up to now, have had a 1-2 strategy where the second driver simply cannot keep up the max. They are nowhere near maxs level nor do their driving styles compliment maxs. Though checo’s defending is a really good compliment to maxs “attacking” though he just cannot keep up and with the capabilities of the rb19 and Maxs ability to absolutely send it, there is no real use in defending, also check just can’t keep up like he can’t even defend himself in midfield let alone max. He will pull one or two absolute bangers out of the bag but he cannot keep up with the pace, the intensity and the pressure especially when it comes with actually extracting everything that absolute rocket ship has to offer. I think rbr recognised this and this is another reason for them wanting two contenders 1) for showmanship and entertainment and living up to their brand as unorthodox risk takers and 2) 1-2 strategy has thus far led to a string of inadequate second drivers. Obviously Charles is a great option for a second contender driver but more so than just being able to keep up with max, he has almost the same exact driving style and car preference. Every time they talk about racing each other they always say they especially enjoy their fights because it’s always on the limit they’re always pushing each other always attacking and we know that max is aggressive in his driving style but I don’t think people really pay attention to how aggressive Charles is, he is just a bit more calculated about it (like overtaking Lewis then braking into him so tsunoda can catch up to Lewis and pick at him before speeding off whereas max would have just done a clean overtake and sped away) when there is a chance of overtake he always goes for it and does so aggressively (he just has a tendency to get bogged down when he qualifies in the mid field because he does not have the right car that is suited to his preferences enough for extraordinary overtakes). The way he drives the car also is so fascinating because it’s the same as max (look at Baku qualifying lap and look at their racing lines), they both literally throw their cars and push them to the absolute limit which is why Charles is such a quali beast because he knows how to wrench every ounce of pace out of an uncooperative tractor. Both he and max have a preference for borderline un-drivable cars that heavily lean into oversteer with a light back making the car extremely sensitive. If they were both teammates I actually believe that they would be grid terrorists- if their car would look anything like the rb19 they would take off with a 10sec gap to p3 and be battling each other for p1. If they find themselves more tightly squeezed by others (or somehow end up in midfield) they would almost intuitively work together because they know how the other drives and they most likely can predict the others moves

- About tensions on the team between two competitors, I think that is an inevitability but I really don’t think it would ever reach the type of explosiveness we have seen previously because of everything else that these analysis type of asks have said- the respect is there, tiptoeing around each other is there- wanting to please the other is there- if anything, there would be a greater inclination toward cooperation and fighting together against the others because of that special relationship between max and Charles, the performative aspect of the relationship- to prove that max and Charles are the same and that they (as a duo) are different than the rest of the grid and that it is them against the others except it would be much intensified if they were teammates by proximity and having so many opportunities to interact. It would strengthen their bond but as I have previously said, it will not remove that special aspect of their relationship.

- Also just a side note: you cannot convince me that Christian Horner, red bull and max wouldn’t be bending over backwards to ensure Charles wins in Monaco. Max wouldn’t give it to him because that wouldn’t be a win but he absolutely would punt anyone trying to challenge Charles into the bay and I just know that Christian Horner would treat his golden boys right, it would genuinely be a dream come true for him and helmut and just amazing for red bull and their image of “literally unstoppable team that snagged Ferraris star driver and have bagged the inevitable and the predestined, F1’s literal future, in one team and gave them an intercontinental ballistic missile to drive, one that would cause any other driver to bottle it into the wall because it is an otherwise un-drivable oversteery piece of work.”

In conclusion, I think teammate lestappen would be absolutely extraordinary. They would fight each other and push each other up to the edge and when one of them is about to fall the other pulls him back. Absolutely unstoppable duo and I hope that Charles has come to his sense even slightly about Ferrari that, like most dreams, it does not live up to expectations. There are clearly very ugly team politics involved and a healthy does of nepotism, complacency and riding the historical prestige wave and the unfailing loyalty of their fans.

Fingers crossed for lestappen podium today 🫶✨

Social-psychological anon coming into my inbox claiming they are haunting my inbox, and then proceeding to provide yet another excellent take on Lestappen, including the potential Lestappen RBR teammates.

Babe, love, darling, if this is you haunting my inbox, then I would like to be haunted for the rest of my life, please and thank you.

Social-psychological anon, I adore you more than words can say. Crossing everything I have for a Lestappen podium today. 🤞🫶

[myloveforhergoeson]

ash's november 2024 reading round up

find all the books and fics i read (or didn't read...) this month under the cut with a link to the synopsis and my reviews/ratings attached :)

this is just for fun! i'm not a professional, i just like to read <3

booklist:

despite buying so many books this month. i finished none of them. currently working on funny story by my goddess emily henry....

fic list:

1. assorted works of @partiallypearl/ @praetoravila <3

promise me, i'm never gonna find you fake it

i know you know (i got your heart thumping)

it's nowhere close to closing time ch 2

all over again ch 9

the way you toyed with my emotions this month... jesus christ... from lolive to kogan i love my oblivious idiots in love so much. when i tell you i think about ikyk (igyht) like once a day im being so serious - that is peak lolive to me!!!!!!!!!!! promise me... is just so adorable as well. something about our sweet California girl olive not knowing how to dress appropriately for the winter especially in minnesota.... lord... logan is so attentive!! he loves his gf so much augh!!!! these snippets fuel me while the main timeline lolive are thrust into... whatever they're doing rn... olive's birthday chapter had me in tears ngl. if you need someone to come and beat up her parents, put me in coach! so masterfully written though, the emotions were swirling in my brain ages after i finished the chapter. augh! and nowhere close to closing time... save me... the introduction of the boys were so sweet - it's always interesting to see everyone's takes on majors/areas of study hehe early friendship kogan means sooo much to me... don't worry logan! those glances sure mean something!!!!!! <333

2. assorted works of @selangkir <3

jocy story!!!!

omfggggg god the way you write is just so gorgeous; painting pictures with your words is so hard to do and you make it look so EASY RAUGH!!!!! i really love how you take lucy and jo's typical characterization and flip it, where lucy is a lot more unsure + unconfident whereas jo was the one pushing her to start playing again. i can't really explain why that stood out to me, but i sure loved it!! excited to read more of your work in the future hehe!! <33

3. assorted works of @naquey / @ithinkyouhealedmyheart <3

ghostwriter ch 9-17

30 days of November!!

Drake loves Marnie

Carlos x Reader

such a productive writing month for you - i am so inspired by your creative spirit. the time and effort you put into each one of these projects is clear throughout the work!! wonderfully done and you always leave me wanting to read more... then just my luck a new chapter appears haha! though i'm slowly making my way through ghostwriter, this subset of chapters i read this month had me howlingggg kenonnie (affectionately) make me want to tear my hair out!!!! i love how ridiculous they are and reluctant to admit they like each other (even if i am admittedly team curt... just a teeny bit...) they compliment each other so well! the starstruck chapter was *chefs kiss* in addition, the 30 days of November prompts was such a wonderful way to get to know a lot of the other characters in the story, as well as some of your other characters too!! the flower series is woven together so interestingly + i can't wait to read more!! additionally, i loved getting to know more about drake + marnie in their wedding one shot, it was adorable! idk anything about drake and josh so i'm taking your word as gold on this one... i love them soooo much!! and of course!! your carlos x reader story had me rolling on the floor with laughter!! your take on rames is everything to me.... <3

4. assorted works of @icegirl2772 <3

Take A Shot In The Dark ch 17

AHHHHHHH!!!!!! IT'S HAPPENING!!!!!!!!!! STAY CALM EVERYONE IT'S HAPPENING!!!!!!!!!!!! to be here for this monumental moment in james and kaelyns relationship... wow..... AJFBAJFB im so excited for the next chapters... kendall is going to have to get cool w some things superrr quickly👀 this chapter had everything, action, romance, tension... augh.... like james, i feel similarly about neil. so it was great to see him get knocked around :) love it when my boys get into fights in the name of those they love :)))))))))))))) <3333

5. assorted works of @fiyero33053 / @fiyero0533

promptober one-shot 27!!

promptober one-shot 28!!

hello!!!! once again learning so much about TUA from your stories... prompt 27 was just adorable. had me kicking my feet and giggling and shit. the idea of such a tough guy still being able to get silly and mess around with his daughter.... leading into 28 too! from what i saw of the show, i don't remember diego and allison interacting a whole lot, and i never really got to see them as parents, so this was such a cute idea to bring the two of them together! such a great fall memory together too :)) diego on the phone had me laughing so hard. "[my kids] know when shit's lame" rlly got me rolling! so happy you found a little more inspo from my prompt list heheh!! <33

[thehopelessexception]

is it just me?

i've been observing a tendency surrounding women —mostly between 20 and 26— where we can't find anything close to love (from men). women are not dating, nor living a normal life, developing a femcel-like point of view. and im saying this because i want to be loved just like anyone else, but are we the problem? or is there something wrong with boys? i mean, ofc there's something wrong with boys; but every year pass by and every time is harder and harder to find someone willing to put the effort to make you feel loved and understood. was it like this 50 years ago? 100 years ago? i am very much aware that our mothers and grandmothers suffered in the world they lived in, generally with sexist husbands and mandatory tradwife lifestyle. but i am also sure that there was some exceptions, way too many more than today.

and we tend to romanticize the past, probably there's something to do with our generation. nor millennials or gen z, the ones in the middle. the girls who grew up with enough technology but not so much. the ones that went crazy over boybands and fanfiction and hung up posters in our walls. the ones that went crazy in 2018-2020 with deranged feminism just to realise, later on, nobody really cared and it maybe was a little over the top. the ones that filled our beds with stuffed animals repeatedly every time we woke up just to throw them on the floor at night so we could sleep. the girls who spent their teenage years on tumblr writing code (before men took that away from us) and making playlists of marina lana and the 1975 so everyone on the internet could see how cool we wanted to look like. probably the ones that suffered some kind of bullying in highschool or some health problem related to how we didn't fit in or how bad we looked at ourselves in the mirror (yk what i mean). we weren't the cool kids in real life or it was just me?

now i'm observing how hard it is to adapt that teenager to adult years. and maybe it's me but i don't feel like an adult. i am a tiny ball of anxiety. i suffer too much stress. i am trying to finish my degree but i don't know if im worthy of anything because i dont have money, and i don't have time to work and study at the same time because i spend too many time thinking about it and feeling a fraud and a failure.

i don't know how to talk to boys either —nor girls, in that way—. and until some days ago i was quite sure i was willing and capable of spending my whole life alone. i've given up to anything because i felt it imposible to be loved. but lately my mind goes up and down with that scene of jo monologue in little women by gretta gerwig. and it also goes with the hot priest monologue of fleabag. and today i rewatched the classic he's just not that into you. are we condemned to be the tedious rule? am i?

i've seen all of my girlfriends suffering the same mysery. and i've seen the extremes. women giving up the love they deserve —because they accepted the fate of being the rule— by dating a jerk just because they are afraid of loneliness. and i've also seen women giving up everything else just because they are not willing to give up love. those are us. hopeless romantics who watched way too many romantic comedies and somehow still expect to find someone willing to die for us just like dicaprio in romeo + juliet. —or at least a patrick verona—.

what i've never seen was actual love. all the couples i met... they don't look happy. they don't look in love. they don't look like they enjoy their own company even. they look exactly like a picture of instagram. they exist just to make us feel miserable even when it's obvious they are not gonna last. i've seen couples of what? 7 years? gone. broken up. they grew tired of each other and of course they never looked like they had anything close to sparkles in their eyes. chemistry? none. and maybe it is my anxiety speaking but i don't want that. i refuse to have that. i want all or nothing. i want always and forever. i want everyone to look at us and think "if i don't have that i'll kms". i want family —even tho im not sure i want to get pregnant, what am i a childbride?—. i don't want to change anything to fit in with the standards of a boy. i want marriage even tho im not sure i want to be legally married. i want the posibility, the future. i want the emotions surpassing myself. i want to not know me anymore and then knowing me again. i want to doubt myself. i want my heart beating so fast i could kill someone for them. i want to believe god exists. i want to laugh of happiness without they making a joke. i want my sundays to not be deppresing because i can hang out with the love of my life and have fun. i want to be the "and yet" of someone willingly enough to fall for me every single day even if i am kinda insane all the time. i want someone who cares. someone who fantasizes with spending the rest of their lives with me and is going to put the effort to get to know every single thing about me and stay because he's blown away. and aparently that's setting the bar "too high" because we are the rule and not the exception.

people always assume that by being a romantic i expect flowers every day and cheesy comments about how beautiful i look; and that would actually make me want to puke because i can do that myself. i am confortable with myself, i like myself, i love myself, i have the ego. i am not really asking for that much i just want someone to love me with every single thing that's probably wrong with me. what i want is someone curious and smart. someone who pays enough attention or wants to. i want the chemistry off the roof.

and contrary to anyone's beliefs the bar is too low about everything else. every single girl probably wants the same thing. is it that hard for men to understand that women want to feel loved?

lately —worldwide— it's all a competition of genres as if humanity doesn't need us to interact to survive. it's a loop that opened up in 2013? with the tumblr-4chan gate and right now got translated to the real world because pick-mes are back and being a man is cool. and suddenly that's how nature works!! because apparently women are boring and just a hole. maybe they all need to go all alexander the great. but it's getting boring. and we as women deserve love as much as respect.

[todayisafridaynight]

The bookmark tag was #holder until i think of a tag for these asks but To Be Real even I forgot what it was...

BUT YEAH thanks so much for reading and I'm glad it's :] Intelligible At Least :] obviously I would be up for reading anything that came to mind after putting you and your followers through All That but understandable... A lot of people I've shown the checklist items or pointed out specific behaviors to have actually said similar [i.e. I'm In This Picture And I Don't Like It], so I totally get what you mean, too!

I think a lot of my picks wound up being generalized trauma responses/aftereffects of abuse or neglect [hence I meandered off into just talking about Jo's father half the time], so I guess it's to be expected a lot of them don't read as being CSA-specific or are broadly relatable; it's not like he's supposed to be read that way, after all. I just wasn't able to zero in on many of the more specific ones because I've Never Seen Jo In This Situation Chief I Don't Know What He Thinks About His Name Or His Body Or Mirrors Or Sex Or Affection I Don't Know How Well Or Poorly He Sleeps [Presumably Poorly Though He Has The Second-Reddest Eyes In The Whole Game]

I don't really think I'll have anything to add though unless Infinite Wealth goes off the rails or I actually continue reading the book... so that will have to do... I originally was just riffing on RGGJo's attachment issues, self-destructiveness, and specific entwinement of sexuality/aggression/romance, and his portrayal in my fic lined up pretty closely, so I thought it'd be interesting to apply the same lens to Y7Jo...

But Yeah x2 thank you for the opportunity to talk about it and I'm Glad It's Intelligible At Least x2

THANK YOU i really should change that tag to something better... <- i will immediately forget to do so like a jackass

BUT YA OF COURSE OF COURSE i was truthful when i said it was a real good read (but once again. i have -5 speech skills so i can't properly word SHIT) and was a thorough examination of jo's trauma and how it manifests in him and how it's exhibited through his actions. ALWAYS a big fan of that :)

[jolalibrary]

Hi there! 😊 I came across your comment regarding reblogging while dealing with social anxiety, and it got me thinking. I want to make sure I approach things correctly, especially considering the significance of reblogs for gif makers and writers. I hope it's alright to reach out and ask for some guidance?

omg of courseeee it's okay! (i've actually added a little inbox is open for chats thing to my masterlist so never fear, if that says open, we are gravy). anyway, let's give this a go.

although, firstly, i just want to preface this i am not an expert, this is just how i dealt with the early "reblog" panic.

so, you are right, reblogs are important. not just because of the algorithm, spreading the work etc etc etc, but also because it means you get to interact with the gifmaker/writer! (yay!). and for me, initiating that one-on-one contact is intimidating. but, one of the ways i first began to interact was through reblogs.

so, nowadays, i leave comments as part of the reblog. not just to say that i loved the story, but why. and the why is so important. why?(hehe) because that's personal to you.

you, you wonderful person.

no one can take that from you. not everyone is going to think as beautifully as you. you own that thought. and also you can't be wrong as to why you liked something. because that's your opinion (which is awesome in itself).

now when you're starting out reblogging it can feel super daunting to think up a comment, so when i started, i began in the hashtags (for some reason, this felt less scary? im not sure why, but it works).

i think earlier i said you could always start with "love this", but you could always add more (in my case, i get more and more unhinged).

for example, you could go:

#love this #X was written so well #my favourite trope #reread material ⬆️ btw, these are just examples, you dont have to use them

now the benefits of doing this are, yes, you are reblogging the work, therefore exposing it to others (and showcasing why you loved it to them). but, anon, you're also opening a dialogue with the gifmaker/writer. and they will notice (in my case, i do a little kick when i read them, true story).

while this doesn't mean automatic friendship, you are interacting. and look, there's also a chance they'll interact back. regardless if that happens, you have shared work (yay!) and you've likely made their day (and for us, socially anxious folk, also showed your brain whats what).

then, in time, when you grow more confident, you can experiment with moving from hashtags to comments (if you want). equally, your experience and comfort matter here, you don't have to use the hashtags at all, you could reblog and keep them generic like #frankie morales x reader (for example) at first.

i know from personal experience, sometimes i am staring at my reblog comment of someone else's work and i'm not sure WHAT to say. but then i remember talking to someone about a book and i just began explaining WHY i liked the book, and realised (in one of those weirdly earth-shattering moments) that is all i need to do when i reblog. i am just sharing out loud what it was about the thing that made me grin.

now, i will say, unless specified by the author/maker, do not give constructive criticism or point out things you didn't like in a reblog (especially if you don't know the person). just because without "tone", it can feel really impersonal and hurtful.

but other than that, have fun! fandom is only a beautiful place if those participating are having fun.

i hope this was helpful, in some capacity. love jo 🩷✨

[wabatle]

HEY BESTIE YOU KNOW I WAS COMING

sososo obvi bllk and you obvi alrdy know i am a girl and would like to be matched up w i boy (honestly what girl from bllk would youmatch me up with anyway💀.. egos assistant??)

for personality

i am a weirdo uhh my friends call me an anime nerd but i dont think in that much of one??

i am VERY sarcastic, savage, and snarky

traits are (plz dont take this as like bragging or anthying just being honest) humorous, uhh VERY soft hearted, kind of a pushover but i used to be a rlly big push over, in ambiverted but at first you would prolly think im introverted, oh im also kinda teasing and in very emotional i will cry if watching a sad movie and i get frustrated easily whicheventually makes me cry(crybaby ik)

oh another thing abt me is that im not rlly good at like expressing my emotions like thro words and sometimes in my face like sometimes i see like scenery for egi probably think it’s really pretty and like stunning and beautiful but like if you ask me what i think id prolly just say “oh its nice” like do yknow what i mean?? Same with my face like i always have a straight face unless in rlly happy that day and the only time ill like actually express my emotions is if youre talking to me or make me laugh

dam that was a lot

un ok for hobbies voice acting, gaming, watching anime, listening to music, writing, editing

kinda semi hobbies thati like but dont rlly do that much are baking and dancing

Things that make me feel negative? Hmmm not entirely sure what you mean by that but… i tii hi ink just negative stuff in general like i HATE movies or shows with sad endings they make me so sad and theres jo feeling of satisfaction at the end :((

Things that make me positive? Well it makes me rlly happy when i make other laugh or when ppl approach me or pop in my inbox like what im bot the one starting a convo fir once?? CRaZY

Someone i dint wanna be matched up with… hmm uhh well any of the side chars like the bald monk💀💀💀 i forgot if you even write for them but also others liek naruhaya and giganaru OH i dint wanna be match up with barou either

Idrc if you post this answering my ask or tagging but sometimes i like to read over my ask when someone answers it so actually could youanswer with my ask

OKAY THANKS POOKIE ❤️❤️❤️ DRINK WATERR

𓆩⚝𓆪 — @stellas-starry-stories13's Blue Lock Matchup~!

𓆩⚝𓆪 — A/N: It might be because you're biased and I'm biased but now I genuinely think you and this person are soulmates. ❤️ Ngl we're actually really similar lmaooaoaoao anyways enough of my yapping!!

𓆩⚝𓆪 — I think your Blue Lock soulmate is...

𓆩⚝𓆪 — Chigiri Hyoma!

I read the part where you said you were sarcastic, savage, snarky, and sassy and immediately said, "Chigiri."

You two are such a duo ngl. Like genuinely you guys are perfect for each other. Such a sassy couple like omg.....

The teasing is real. You probably tease each other so much like help.

Chigiri also isn't that great with expressing his feelings, so you both can help each other on that front. If, like in the example you gave me, you say a view is nice and he can tell you're not saying what you're thinking, he'll ask you, "what are you really thinking about?"

He'll def laugh at you if you're crying about a movie 💀. I'm sorry but he would.

He's pretty good at noticing when you're getting stressed or frustrated, so he'll remind you to take a break and watch something with him.

You definitely pick anime to watch together and watch at least one episode every time you see each other.

Similar to when people come into your inbox, Chigiri texts you every day, whether to ask you something or talk to you about stupid things.

It doesn't take him long to laugh at your jokes. Someone else said the same joke as you and he's just (ㆆ_ㆆ), but you say it and he's giggling.

I think he would like to take you to an arcade for dates. I mean, he's pretty much down for doing whatever you like as long as he can enjoy it too.

I hope you liked it! Thanks for the req Stella my pookie bear!!! 😍😍😍

[heleizition]

oho? more ocs? more ocs? pls more ocs for these starving children! (i am the starving children. tell me everything, im making grabby hands at the vague concept of 'other old ocs') the whole mystery of identity is just excellent. i love 'SOMEone is this and that but WHO might it BE- drama and despair'. and thank YOU for making angel!! soft hair!! sweetness!!! delight!!! (gods being dicks? some might call it 'pulling a zeus') was there a time where god was more involved in the world beyond the war between angels and demons? do they pick favorites in people before the 'feels cody love and gets tricked into Emotional Attachment'-thing? (no worries about late replies, it be like that)

yesss some of the ocs are eve, chronos and nathaniel ! this is my most recent art of them :3

eve is my . very first oc. i made her when i was 10/11, in my first year of middle school ! chronos n nath are twins bc they were almost the same character but in different stories at first, and then they had their own stories,,,, they're demons ! they don't have a specific storyline in the demon/angel story yet, but they def used to be good buddies of abel, know cain, know nell titania and jasper.... jospehine (also pictured in here) is on the demon side too, as high ranking as abel,,,, she's probably. eve & the twin's unit chief, or old boss. they knew each other in their past life :3 and she feels like she failed to protect them then...... oh jo my baby ...

i also have gabriel and stephan !

most recent art of them... they're angels :3. not sure about them yet. used to be something in their past life . both were too broken by life to allow themselves to love . but now its okay, they can :).

this group of oc all have a shared past life !!!! its . not the first story i made for them, but it's the ultimate one i wanna say... made it when i was 15........; i love these ocs very very much.

the "guessing who is the Important One" is a concept i got from obsessing over d.gray man who has a situation like that. i love it so much. its so good. im super bad at guessing too so im always surprised in this kind of situation sEJSEFJOFE

I LOVE ANGEL SOOO MUCH i spent the week end listening to music and thinking abt Them and earth life . they're the sweetest silliest they're the glue that holds everyone together and don't realise it. they're so good.

god used to be more involved. you can see god as......... a young one, for their kind ? <=== implying that there may be more gods... like humans are anything but ants in the sand.....

earth and humans were their first creations and then they made angels and demons . at first it was bc they got bored of humans. too many of them, too many things to follow, angel and demons were Less in numbers, and more fun bc they had more abilities... at first they were very involved, acting as the higher being that was to be worshipped and fought for, but they got bored... which is how we ended up where we are. they thought if they kickstarted something big like that, with cody, things would be more intense and fun.

they don't really pick favorite either, but since they gave cody part of them, they could feel some of it, which in a why helped them realise that the little ants they created have feelings and that feelings are more powerful, precious and intense than god ever thought <3

[80s-reject]

hihi omg im so happy i found someone that also watches kumovi bc its like my favorie show ever now i dont need to annoy my friends anymore RAH i js hope this isnt a situation where you like it in a chill way and i like it in a deranged way 😔 basically i was super obsessed with na granici first and also wanted to watch kumovi but i saw that its pretty long and didnt have time for the commitment but then they removed na granici for some reason so i started watching and holy shitt i love it so much ive spent like approximately 2 hours on the wikipedia page and the theme song was in my top 10 on spotify wrapped this year i know it by heart heehee...i actually saw vedran mlikota in real life back in summer but nobody believed me when i said it was him and like a month after i told my grandpa and he said yeah that was him. and i LOST MY SHIT!?!?;$  UM ANYWAYS *almost everyone* in the gotovac fam is my favorite i loove janko and lara theyre so sibling goals and lara is the funniest ever and ofc aljoša THE BETTER BROTHER :3 vesna is kinda annoying to me idk... i dont like her HOWEVER i love her character she was written really well,, my fav side characters are milica and marko their friendship is everything to me im glad theyre not really romantical towards each other :heart_hands: best friends for real..,,.,

HELLO I AM ALSO DERANGED FOR KUMOVI I ALWAYS ANNOY MY FRIENDS WITH IT i actually started watching during the 2nd season so whenever a character from s1 one appears i have to ask my mom who it is because she's watched both season i actually dont know why i started watching it i just sat down with my mom one night and i havent stopped watching it since I ALWAYS ANALYSE THE EPISODE WITH MY MOM AFTER WATCHTING IT janko is a good boyfriend but he is a literal copy of vesna it's actually scary how they managed to create parallels between them AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON ALJOSA. hes legitimately sooo hot and arguably the better brother. i like šima but (spoilers?) she's gen getting on my nerves lately stipan is only trying to help her but she's not used to having a father so she's all like >:( nE mOžEš mI gOvOrIt šTo dA rAdIm!1! and stipan is such a great character but he's a horrible father and great grandfather he would literally make sure his kids don't succeed in life if he doesn't like what they're doing (spoilers?) i agree abt that with milica and marko šank but his mother is literally the worst she's so insane she's literally trying to pull them apart and i'm p sure zvone is going through a mid-life (not sure if that counts as mid) crisis MARTIN IS SUCH A SWEET FATHER (jel novatv bh uopce dosla do toga??? valjda je matija jos trudna idk)

[pidgecv]

so what’s the deal with Final Lives?? where’s the content been??

i’ll be honest, i’ve got all of Cleo’s story basically finished out in my head. i’m not sure how i’m going to tell it quite yet, and i’ll have to have some discussions with the council to make sure everything fits together properly. we need to make a timeline and do some more world building. so, there’s been less content because i’ve had less content to make. that combined with the usual burnout of sorts. but i have the main story. i may have to retcon some older stuff, but that’s always been a risk i’ve known of. i want to create something that is the definitive story of final lives as far as cleo goes. i’ll probably write it lol, but i’d like to supplement it with proper illustrations as well. this is going to be a huge, long term project if i end up going through with it. it would cover both the Ellie arc and the Castor arc (names subject to change), and stretch from day 0 to the end of the bomb arc.

bc of the shit i mentioned above, im probably not going to be posting much pre-bomb content. i want to get my ducks in a row and tell a single, cohesive story from Cleo’s perspective. but i will be making post bomb content.

i’ve mentally been calling post-bomb fl the epilogue so i’ll differentiate it by calling it so or calling it post-canon or with the “end!” tag.

that said i’m going to workshop some end!cleo designs and some fun little bits since i think leaving the angsty developments in the main canon is the way to go. angst in post canon fs but no new traumas at least for cleo. she gets a happy ending (yes i’ve thought of alternative endings where she dies, and frankly i’m just not as interested in killing her off as i am giving her a healing arc. i have nothing to gain an the story isn’t any better off with her dying and i’m not gonna kill her for no reason). since i’ve fleshed out most of cleo’s main canon story (though there’s more to do and i’ll probably add even more bc i can’t help myself) and i think im going to avoid adding much more to keep her story digestible and coherent and keep it meshing well with Jo and Vs stories and arcs which i don’t have stake in as a writer. i want to leave space for their own plots and story arcs to fill in the main canon, and allow cleo to play a supporting role in future arcs. she has two main arcs, both with proper conclusions and that’s more than enough. she can rest now. and so will i. burnout is no joke lol, but i’ll fuck with end! content fs :3