#im still so sorry that I couldn't do more with this :((((
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I wanna see your pony moshang 🥺🤲
ask and you shall receive!!
my drawings do come with worldbuilding rambling, terribly sorry (not sorry at all)
Side note: "windigos" are creatures in My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic (FiM) and I am using them here, but I am changing the name to frost spirits and changing some of their behavior, they look the same.
Design Notes:
SQH has ink stains on his mouth because non magic users write like that. He was a unicorn pre-transmigration and mourns his loss of unicorn magic and technology regularly. The world he transmigrated from is like the far future of FiM, with modern technology and the internet. (not the latest gen, I honestly remember jackshit about the lore in that movie...)
I've seen Earth pony SQH and I get the appeal. But here me out: Pony maigu ridge needs Qinghua to fly! And he's literally a flight risk!
His cutie mark is a brush and a paper airplane, because its his pen name (get it?). PIDW (mlp ver) has a level of technology more similar to SVSSS, but instead of flying swords there's trains. Im taking away xianxia flying swords and giving you trains. Ponies on swords just look too silly! they'd be unstable! (not that this whole AU isnt very silly >w<)
The Northern Kingdom in this au would be the Crystal Empire equivalent, except there is no crystal heart. The Northern desert is kept in a perpetual blizzard by the frost spirits (there is a barrier against storms around the capital created by the northern kings, redone as part of the ascension ritual but otherwise free standing) Instead of love and light protecting the kingdom, the crystal ponies use the power of incredible violence to keep the umbrums at bay.
Additionally, the crystal ponies of PIDW (mlp ver) are physically stronger, have higher base levels of magic, and are generally more cold resistant, due to living near the frost spirits for so long. They are still flesh creatures; the crystal skin is more of a replacement for their coat rather than the skin itself. Crystal ponies are also hypercarnivores, whilst regular ponies are omnivores (this isn't FiM also the horses are magic. they have basically human diets)
I also couldn't decide on a coat color for MBJ so there's two versions. I'm leaning towards the white fur for contrast reasons. And yes, I Did forget to render the crystal part of crystal pony on MBJ, thank you for noticing (lmao)
MBJ's cutiemark is the flag for the crystal empire, because he's part crystal pony, he still has a cutiemark, but all direct descendants have the same cutie mark after they absorb their ancestors power. Before this, they do not have cutiemarks, and gaining a different cutiemark means the frost spirits didn't acknowledge them as a potential decendant, and they can no longer become king.
Pre-Asension Mobei-Jun:
In PIDW (mlp ver) MBJ is a crystal pony decendant of the frost spirits which keep the Northern Desert perpetually cold. They gave the first northern king their power in the war against the umbrums (the things that made King Sombra in FiM). There's no friendship fire to chase away the frost spirits because this is PIDW (mlp ver) it's a stallion novel (pun intended); Instead, the frost spirits are sated by the constant war. There was an umbrum unicorn created to infiltrate the Crystal Empire like in FiM but they just became a regular pony instead of trying to take over and basically just created a new clan of ponies with shadow powers. MBJ's mother was part of this clan, and the abyssal shadow pony ancestry cobined with his frost spirit ancenstry gives him the ability to shadow step/ teleport through the shadows.
MBJ didn't get his pretty hair until he absorbed his ansestors power, which works similar to SVSSS canon. The previous northern kings die and pass on their power to the next generation because they are technically still frost spirits, and not really alive in the same way that regular ponies are.
SQH in an MLP style coat:
Ponies in FiM don't really... wear pants, even when it's cold. In Airplane's world they definately wore pants, and SQH will never go back (like the opposite of SVSSS LOL). In PIDW (mlp ver) ponies don't wear pants for bad porn reasons, Airplane justifies this by pulling the history card (peerless cucumber is not impressed)
Also! you can see SQH's mane better because its profile view, he's not a crystal pony, but he wheres the crystal pony hair bands as an homage to a bun without me actually having to give him one. Because ponies have ears on their head it always feels to me that a bun takes up too much visual space, thus, fancy hair bands.
Moshang flirting:
SQH can dish out flattery all day but he absolutely does Not know what to do when MBJ returns the favour (lol)
Alicorn Shang Qinghua:
In PIDW (mlp ver) I like to imagine that Airplane cut out alicorns because acending through nice things like friendship and love did not fit the vibe. Alicorns were instead like, the old gods who controled elemental stuff, like Celestia and Luna (renamed in PIDW (mlp ver)). Ponies don't control the weather or sun and moon and have less inate magic (earth pony magic, pegasus magic, and unicorn magic), instead, all the alicorns dispersed into spiritual energy that controls the elements and weather and stuff. Ponies cultivate this spiritual energy to gain a golden core of their inate energy, and eventually immortality, but they don't get the trappings of an alicorn.
So, like there aren't really any gods in SVSSS, there aren't any (living) alicorns in PIDW (mlp ver) they're more like myths than anything, and reside in the heavenly realm. I won't be getting into this AUs binghe/ heavenly demon equivalent because this is a moshang post, but Heavenly Demons are changling royalty, which have their FiM powerset on steroids and are sort of corrupted alicorns.
So alicorn SQH is bascially this AUs equivalent of God!SQH. It's not nessisarily canon to the AU but this mostly exists for me and I really like God!SQH so it basically is. Schrödinger's canon.
("Small Matters" style is a reference to the series by Coffeetailor on Ao3)
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Why hadn't many mortals come to this conclusion? Easy most of them were idiots. She didn't like being so harsh, but it was just a fact and there was no escaping it. People twisted and turned the words of gods and there divine books into what ever they desired. In the end they let there own foolish arrogance twist it all up. She wasn't a fan of all that. Sure she respected the Babylon Ancestors for there technology but that was as far as it went.
" The honest truth? It's impossible for them to put themselves in your shoes. The idea that you aren't far removed from them is terrifying... because if you are flawed as they are, you can't be perfect and you have to be perfect... right? I guess that idea scares the hell out of people... "
Her eyes went to the others in the room but didn't linger long as she leaned on her hand with a smile.
" Jealous? of me? Well... i get why they'd feel that way. Can't really blame them but, i think its ok to be Jealous, as long as it doesn't consume your every action or make you do something foolish. "
Excitement? So they were bored with there eternity? That made more sense to her then it should. She imagined herself as an immortal being, and she knew a some point she'd run out of ideas. Things to build, and then what? Immortality was a curse she had always believed that. She still wouldn't turn it away if she got the chance for it but... she wasn't deluded into thinking it fixed everything.
" So you think i'm attractive? Well you did peak my interest as well. I've always wondered what meeting a Cosmic being would be like... this wasn't what i imagined. Nothing like the novels i read as a kid... but that's probably a good thing "
Dedicated? She was though it was alot more complicated then Sohna probably knew. Could she even understand what it was like to be looked down on? To be shunned because of your gender? To be told you were never going to be as good as the boys? That was her childhood and it drove her to be exceptional! To be better then anyone else, she had so much to prove! she went there and beyond! its why she couldn't let Tails one up her EVER!
" Dedicated? I mean i guess? I had to be... Babylon's don't really see girls as equal to men. It's like a Systemic problem of the older generation. Hell my parents tried to make me marry Jet of all people. That's the green one..."
She sighed softly and looked sad thinking back to her past.
" I was always told i couldn't do this, or i'd never be as good as the boys. I had to learn so much on my own as none of the gear smiths would even teach me... and it was only my mother who convinced one to finally take me on as an apprentice. So... yea i'm dedicated because im to stubborn to let some old bastards tell me what i can and cant do...Sorry that was probably to much. "
Her eyes shifted at the mention of a gift, though and she looked excited at the mention of a gift. So a power source? Something divine only she could use? That sure seemed to make her mood shift quickly as she smiled up at Sohna, if she wanted a kiss she was sure heading in the right direction for it! she did love gifts! and this one sounded rather intriguing!
" Ooo! that sounds delightful! i mean a girl neve refuses a mysterious cosmic power core right? you are so sweet! i could kiss you! I totally promise i won't let a soul touch it! especially that dummy jet! or that oaf storm! "
"That is exactly right, so I have always found it strange why I have seen many mortals come to the conclusion that Gods are above their emotions. Is it what the Gods of other realities tell them, or do most mortals simply come up with that conclusion themselves? It is interesting to think about, from my point of view that is." Sohna never put herself on such a high pedestal, and her creations never assumed such things.
"Well, the main reason I stopped them is because I could sense jealousy starting to fill the room. Despite my best efforts and several tries I can never truly get rid of that emotion as it seems if there is love then there will be jealousy. I simply limit it as much as I can." Sohna found jealousy a rather distasteful emotion.
Sohna then sits back up, seeming to think for a moment. "To be honest, I didn't have any intention of reigniting any emotion, though now that I think about the question I haven't experience excitement in such a long time. I guess this date has an added benefit I didn't consider. I simply asked you out as you're my type and I find you rather cute." There wasn't much to it for the cosmic entity.
Sohna's attention then went to Wave explaining not only what this gear was, though also about her people. It certainly had her interested. "I can tell you seem dedicated to your craft, and this gives me an idea for a parting gift after the date." The cosmic entity had been a bit stumped as she didn't want to do anything simple, yet not over the top either. "I may not know much about gear or human inventions in general, though I know everything requires a power source. So, at the end of the date if you give me what powers a gear, I shall imbue it with some of my cosmic power. You'll have to figure out how to harness it."
Sohna then finally one of her hands come out of the sleeve, holding up two of her four fingers. Her hands and fingers were rather large. "Though I have two conditions. The first is only you may use it, so if anyone other than yourself attempts to use its power it shall disappear. The second is if you use it to start hurting people I shall take it back, and wipe your memories of me, as well as your friends."
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Just a little bit of drunk college party kissin.
Perhaps also a little bit of throwing up in the potted plants ❤️
@tinimmyweek
Commission for @babsvibes
#im still so sorry that I couldn't do more with this :((((#tinimmy#tinimmyweek24#tina belcher#jimmy junior#jimmy jr#bobs burgers#bobs burgers fanart#tina x jimmy jr#regular sized rudy#zeke bobs burgers#tammy larsen#does Zeke not have a last name lol???#i couldn't find it
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probably one of my favorite attacks ive done! i was proud of this from start to finish 💚💚 all of the ocs here belong to my friends, (bee, nero, milo and lara) except for the green feller (me!) 😉
#~ art#artfight posting#initally they were going to be 'stuck' in the 3ds but i realized there were a few issues if i were to do that#the screen size isnt quite right if its supposed to be a 3ds (its portrait mode... HAHAHAHDBS) and i didn't wanna scrap it#so i was like. yeah fuck it random ass device where they're all stuck in . could be a phone (PLOT TWIST they're in a fucking EMULATOR...!!)#so yeah no more... squished faces against the screen but.... that would've been so funny 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹#drawing this also got me very excited knowing how much ive changed in drawing the older ocs ... ahh das crazy man....#im still shocked how much people i was able to stuff in this drawing (that and the stevaide sonamy redraw)#anyways yeah!! this one's my favorite attack 😖💚#i also couldn't do squished faces because i got carried away just making everyone else be themselves (like rai just... happi. yessss)#sorry words aint wording HELP ME !!!
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i Love pkmn but i love it as a worldbuild. when i play the game its just bc i like exploring the world and the critters. and i feel like everyone else who likes pkmn are all ppl who Love the games and competitive parts of it. so i feel a little embarrassed about not being a game-lover and competition-lover... i simply enjoy the world and the silly creatures 😭😭
#i dont talk about pkmn very much outside of this space and even here i just talk abt Guz mostly#bc i always worry ppl are going to think im silly (derogatory) for not being a proper gamer fjdkdl#when i was a kid i was able to remember the pkmn names a lot more and i probably could've learned the type matchups#but i didnt have a chance to play the games (bc of abuse and misogyny lol) so i couldn't like... learn stuff as a kid when i actually-#-had a functional memory still 😭😭 once i hit 15 i started losing my memory capabilities#and i only started playing a little bit when i was 16 so rest in shit LOL#(also the misogyny thing is just that my brothers were allowed to play video games but i wasnt bc i was a girl lmfao)#I JUST FEEL EMBARRASSED i wish i could be a Gamer™ but I'm just. not good at it.#i Could be good if i rly put in a bunch of effort but like... i got better things to do and things i care about more sbdjdkl#AUUUGHHH sorry for this im just embarrassed all of a sudden abt this djfkdl#and also worry that ppl are going to expect me to be Good at this or smth but yall im rly not fjdkdl i just sort of brute force my way thru#all the battles and everything fnfkdl i use almost No strategy fjdkdl i prefer offensive moves over defensive moves even#its just... im not good at this stuff dhdkdl#dandy.cmd#dandy.exe#vent //
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I started a comfort movie watch party the other day and I finally got round to finishing The LEGO Ninjago Movie again and GOSH <3 I love her so much I forgot how much it means to me she's actually so special <333
#i said SOMEWHERE in another post that the movie was my intro into Ninjago as a whole#which is why she's so special to me & i'll defend her with my life bc without it I never would have found the show#it was really odd tbh lmao - i watched a youtube video of “everything great about TLNM” & was like#“damn i NEED to watch that movie it looks so silly”#I proceeded to watch it like 10+ times in the span of 3 days? I got OBSESSED#went BACK to the YT vid and realised the guy talked about how “it was different to the series” which intrigued me to do some researching#and BAM found out about the show & IMMEDIANTLY started watching it & sending pictures to a friend who actually watched it as a kid#we proceeded to watch it together for a while before he kinda lost interest and i got more and more into it#and here we are now - he has NO idea whats happening in Ninjago & doesn't care while im cursed™ with knowledge#and i couldn't be more happy :)#anyway yeah thats why TLNM holds a special place in my heart & why no-one could ever taint it for me#is it a good movie? YES - in regards to being a LEGO movie - as a “Ninjago” movie? yeah she's funky - BUT. I still love it and always will#anyway sorry ramble over I just got a little sentimental over this movie don't worry about it </3#hmiae rambles#hmiae personal#ninjago#lego ninjago#tlnm#the lego ninjago movie#lego ninjago movie
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spectragus dont get enough credit for being a sun and moon ship but like. destructive sun and moon ship. sun and moon ship but they're the forces of nature the sun and moon actually are. the sun is harsh and relentless and unpredictable in its evil but also it's kindness, the moon is sharp and cold and cruel, a harsh light that doesn't allow you peace, but can also guide you, a light in the darkness. even on nights with a new moon, with no light in the sky, the moon is always reflecting the sun, and it'll be that way until they come to their end.
#spectragus give me a dopamine high that any sort of drug couldn't even come close to giving me#its the loyalty. its the seeing each other at their worst and still staying.#its the being the only person still around who knows and understands what youve been through#its the being so important to each other's characters that u cant mention one without recognising the impact the other has on them#i dont rlly do shipping unless its funny but also im a huge gus fan so like. yea. plus my view on romance is a bit all over the place anyway#something something my skrunkles deserve complicated relationships that are more than romantic but something else#its the trust thats the most important thing to me. trust and loyalty and devotion and#im sorry but i would have exploded if i like. didn't write down these thoughts#anyways fucked up gay people who are a package deal and that is a threat thats them#ik the majority of my posts are hee hee funnie and i usually dont take things too seriously#but these two have taken up part of my brain permanently since i was 8. like. they just live there. rent free.#i am like rabid rn. i am feral and i am insane and i am crazy and there are so many things wrong with me#i cant even write down all my fuckin thoughts there's so many my brain is going to Explode pray for me#idk if u understand how important it is to me the times they show kindness even while at their worst#they're not good people but they have people they care about and they care abt each other and that matters SO much#i take 0 criticism on my posts i only take cash. however there is no possible criticism to be made bc i am RIGHT#also this all kinda sparked from me getting obsessed with a certain kh character who has a connection to the moon#who is also one of my favourite characters ever#and if u know who it is and u also like him ur very cool#im not tagging this w character tags. im like. very shy. but#i love gus i love spectra i love spectragus#anyways see u next time where i should hopefully have art maybe potentially#i found the brushes i used to use back when i did lineless art so i am rlly happy
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I too wish that the medical hack that made me grow up in a purgatory like state of existence would rot in prison Akane was so real for this
#delete later#I am realllyyy going through it today had to stop doing thr dishes before I broke something#pray I don't make anything worse cause my stupid parents are making this situation much muddier I don't think I can talk them into helping#but if they don't help on my side it then they were complicit to the other and I don't want my sibling to be caught on that crossfire#if I go ahead with this I guess I should talk to my dad he could Potentially be reasonable about this my mom would be the one worse off#and she wouldn't take it well which is why I wish I could just deal with it on my own but noo she had to go do something dumb#uuuugh whyyy couldn't this happen to someone whose parents have enough of a spine to stand by their child#akshakshsj aah I'm so... hhhh sick of hearing im so sorry that happened to you#I know myself well enough to understand there's no way I'll just sit with this for the rest of my life I need to take action somehow#I hate that it's someone who still has a license I hate how someone so stupid and prejudiced is taken more seriously because of a degree#that it's someone still perfectly sympathetic to my parents because he's a family man who just didn't know better and wanted to help#nevermind me almost dying that once because of how the Wrong medicine interacted with antibiotics I needed to not die from the flu#it kept me up for three days straight at home for six months and I was blamed for that instead of his incompetence
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im back baby
also look at this wonderful screenshot i found
#milgram#kotoko yuzuriha#do i still need to tag pekabloooop edits dum shit?#i dont think so cus thats kinda the side blog#anyways hello#im back#i know unfortunate#sorry ive been gone so long#i got locked out of my old account and have been trying to get back in for a while but couldn't figure it out#so now we are here#and i can finally ruin the last trial 2 mv#lets go#i will be doing this more now#but ill still be inconsistent as ever#also considering now i dont have new material every 2 months#and i only got here early trail 2 so who knows how long it will be#but ill make due#next up are the birthday photos#yes you should be scared#have fun trying to find her mouth on the first ine cus wow its hard to see and im not redoing it#also im using this sideblog now so yea#hava a good day
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I have acquired hostages!
And my lengthy story/rant of the dolls
So back in January, I learned an old friend could crochet, and I did the only logical thing I could think of at that moment
Which was to reach out and ask if they could crochet me Dexter and Mandark from Dexter's Laboratory—
And they said yes! After a few months later they just arrived a couple hours ago and I wanted to brag share them!
Bad lighting beware
The glasses are actually detachable and come with silly little eyes that I love
I also have to hold Mandark's head because he literally cannot support himself because the weight of his ballon sized head will tip him over.
He can't stand up at all lmao
I want to shake him but I'm afraid his head will fall off if I do
His tie also flies a bit. I just came out of the nearest store by and bought a hot glue gun to glue his tie and the eyes of both their glasses down because they weren't completely attached. I had a crisis because I lost one of them and finally found it after a few minutes of searching
They also included hair details!
Mandark's signature "M" and the two little cowlicks of Dexter's hair is literally so perfect
Which isn't that noticeable for Dexter but still really cute!
Here's a picture of his tie.
Ignore the string of glue. I took it off the moment I realized it was there after the photo
And their hands are cute! Dexter's fingers are so short but accurate and they have this soft ball in the middle of his palm which i think is a cool detail.
Mandark's fingers are long and thin like the original. They're honestly a bit creepy but cute nonetheless
And the best of all
THE SIZE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN
One of the first things they asked me if I wanted was their correct size differences and i was like fuck yeah I want the noodle tower over him
LOOK AT THEM
MANDARK IS SO HUGE COMPARED TO DEXTER JUST LIKE THE ORIGINAL DESIGN WHICH I LOVE SO MUCH
I still have to hold him by the head because of fear lol
I honestly didn't even know if it was possible for them to create this in the first place. It was a longshot to even ask for this but they even above and beyond in my opinion and I'm so satisfied with how it turned out. 10/10 best commission ever
Not dex lab related below
THEY ALSO ADDED FREEBIES (which i paid for right after I learned they stuffed it inside)
Completely low quality pictures of cat stickers and other crochet stuff I can hang!
Now i gotta find a safe place for everything
#I also asked if it was possible to create more which was unfortunately no. It was a long process to even do this and I don't think I could p#Still so worth the wait and they're amazing for doing this much already#lmao i couldn't find a completely blank background for them so i used my dexter shirt but mandark's hair blended in too much#he looked bald so i had to used a random white shirt LOL#ah sorry my hand is in the way mandark is a useless noodle trying to hold himself up#and yes i made them kiss-#DO YOU SEE THEIR HEIGHT DIFFERENCE ITS FUCKING WILD#i love my friend so much for this lmao#dexter's laboratory#dexter's lab#dexter#mandark#ignore my nails i need a trim but im lazy lol#dexdark#dolls
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honestly still so upset the blood donation situation. makes me sit on the floor and sulk for an hour each time i think abt it
#france finally allowed gay ppl to donate blood BUT with a 6 months abstinence#but my main obstacle at the time (didn't have bf + is considered woman at the eyes of the law 🖕) was because i weighted way less than 50kg#i was heartbroken when i hit 18 and got slapped in the face with the info that i couldn't donate my blood#thing i wanted to do since i was a kid when my big bro did it#it was the only thing that kinda helped getting out of my ed tbh 😵💫 didn't. really worked sadly#i did gain some weight finally living with bf alone us two! but 50 is the bare minimum and you can't still give everything in your blood#then i got on t and was so happy realising i was gaining some weight (+weight restribution made me less dysphoric and ed got better)#but lol i still can't donate blood!!! cos' i'm on t now!!!!! looool fuck my baka life fr#😔😔😔😔 like the sole goal that helped me go through ed and not literally starve myself at some point in my life#smh#mibbe one day? i hope i'll be able if i change my id to m ??? mibbe this will bypass the hrt parameter. idk. head in hands#true fucking head in hands moment#ive reached more than 55 i could give everything from my blood augh :((( ppl are in need wtf man#sORRY ranting in da tags im just. :( i hate remembering this that's all.#will play some video games now waiting to get some cheezborgir........ keeping da brain busy
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hi its "almost died as an infant" aoki stan anon again. im still thinkin about what to say medical wise BUT U GUYS HIT THE NAIL ON THE HEAD ABT HIS DEATH like im already frustrated with the "redemption by honorable death" thing that the game keeps doing (east asia has such high suicide rates i dont think its a very responsible narrative to continue telling in general tbh) but especially for a disabled character who had every right to feel vulnerable and betrayed and get a little evil. hes not Right but hes very Understandable and relatable. but then he still chose to live on and face the consequences (ARGUABLY HARDER AND MORE RESPONSIBLE. A GOOD EXAMPLE AND EXPECTATION TO SET especially for a POLITICIAN) and then they kill him anyway with some fuckin BULLSHIT EXCUSE and i feel like its partially because nobody can be bothered to put the effort into continuing a compelling and morally grey disabled narrative and it. hurts to be cast aside like that. especially after they made such a big deal about ichiban being a NEW protagonist/saga with a NEW identity and then. you still just gave me nishiki 2.0. you retold me the exact same story and used a blatant asspull to FORCE it to be the same story and give ichiban a dead brother figure to lament over for the next 5 games???? rgg i thought you wanted him to be different from kiryu???? sigh. it better be a fakeout and he resurfaces perfectly fine in a few games like kashiwagi or else i'm going to start scaling the walls of the rgg office and dismantling it piece by piece
hey howdy. can we call you MAS (medical aoki stan) ima call you mas cause i'd like to hear *mas from you haha gottem
BUT YEAH NO YOU'RE RIGHT. like i joke that ichi and aoki were kiryu and nishiki 2.0 but at least with nishiki, his death was like. .2% more valid while aoki's it's like..... rage. anger. death. i hate it here. this was so fucking stupid there was literally no need for this other than to fill a quota and try to make a "ichi really is the heir to kiryu's legacy" statement. LIKE ICHI IS SUPPOSED TO BE THE NEW FACE, GIVE HIM SOMETHING DIFFERENT- LET HIM KEEP HIS BROTHER SO THEY CAN PURSUE THE FUTURE TOGETHER THIS TIME
it's especially more upsetting regarding aoki as "being cast aside" because we can discern that was a huge thing for him and was a big reason why he turned out the way he did- being seen as useless or something that could easily be disposed off, so for the narrative to do just that right at the very end when it looked as though it was promising him a better future is just so...... rgg you're always so close but not close enough im going to strangle you
#snap chats#*means 'more' in spanish. i would like to hear more from you bestie :)#but yeah dont even get me started on the 'honor suicide' epidemic#my family's seasian in case we couldn't discern and while most of us try not to be self-sacrificing for 'redemption'#my brother has a really bad habit of doing it and being really self destructive whenever he wrongs someone#i had a bad tendency to do it too when i was younger but ive gotten better over the years#and listen in terms of rgg and yakuza i get it- makes sense for yakuza characters who are high on honor to want to abide by that#but aoki isnt yakuza- he hates yakuza LMAO so the fact he still falls victim to that narrative is so....#UGH rgg you're gonna make me say 'aoki baby im so sorry' at this rate I WONT. BUT I AM VERY CLOSE TO IT#i just think he should have gotten a better ending when he was willing to pursue one#it just makes me angry... like cmon....#someone said that aoki's death was a cruel irony since his choice was taken from him like how he took choice from others#and while that IS a sexy way to interpret the ending i wont even LIE i'm still pissed like rAGHGH#please say psyche @ the funeral please tell me the funeral was cap#please tell me he just went into a coma for the past five years idfk im not delusional tho. i know rgg sucks and killed him
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i have been contemplating buying a bg3 candle of astarion / shadowheart / wyll but i have recently got a new laptop bc mine is currently shitting itself but i want the candle so bad...
#i could just work more but my friend and i have been playing plateup religiously bc we couldn't beat a level for like#at least 10 hours#and we beat it yesterday but i still want to keep playing#im making this a personal blog for the next bit idc idc#i would post more bear content but i do not like going into the tag. sorry everyone#the last pics i rbed of jaw tho i was like >_____< how does he do tht.#ALSO with money stuff i sprained my ankle and probably need to see a podiatrist and also other costs so maybe i shouldnt#I Will Wait
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I'm genuinely just curious. I feel like me and my friends talk a lot about "media" or "consuming media", but generally on the level that we regularly read/watch things from a lot of different mediums- books, movies, comics, games- and "media" feels like a useful catchall term to include anything we might be interested in/referring to at the moment, and "consuming" as also an easy general term instead of having to use or combine multiple words like read/watch/play.
I've never felt like this was strange or had a meaning for the pieces of art we were talking about, just that it was practical and we all understood what we meant by it- in my mind "media" and "fiction" are more or less equivalent, although "media" might have more emphasis on referring to multiple different mediums at once. Do other people see/use the word differently, or is there an implication I'm not getting? Also, are there other words you would suggest we use? I understand the implications of "consume", but I feel like I can't think of an alternate single verb that can cover any/all mediums in the same way.
really i think step one of really digging your teeth and nails into a work of fiction is to surgically excise the buzzwords "media" and "consuming media" and possibly even "entertainment" from your brain and instead try grafting in the terms "fiction" and "engaging with art". step two is to have fun and be yourself!
#sorry for kind of picking your reblog out of the notes you don't specifically have to reply if you don't want to#i feel like when i mainly read written works- books fanfiction etc- i used the words reading and maybe stories to refer to them#and i only started to use media/consuming when me and my friends started liking and discussing movies and i couldn't collate all#of what i was referring to under “reading” etc anymore. i guess it still feels practical to me above all else#thinking about it now i wonder if my resistance to other words is from kind of baselessly associating them with certain mediums over others#i feel like in my head “story” by itself implies a written work even though that's not really true. i wouldn't call a video game#with a plot “fiction” even though it's technically correct because the experience/dynamic feels so different to me#looking back over convos we do say media/etc more than i thought we did which is kind of interesting. i guess i just feel like#in our conversations it doesn't imply what other people seem to think it implies and im curious about if there's an actual difference there#but also the words you use can shape how you think regardless of what you're consciously thinking. much to think about it. we will see#sorry i thought about this for too long and then the post got really long don't mind me
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I really hate feeling irrational and upset over food. One of the worst things to be upset about. It feels SO fucking stupid.
#txt#texas roadhouse fucked up my food apparently so I get fries and bread. and it's my fault bc i wasn't there to order it myself#(she didn't really word it that way but that's how it felt. like she was saying it's my fault. but im on new meds so i was literally asleep#+the entire time they would've been eating pretty much; i cant control when the side effects decide they want to kick in?)#anyway it's not exclusively this that I'm upset about anyway. like at least i still get a little somethin else yk?#but the other day my roommate came back with his fucking boyfriend from olive garden (genuinely one of my favorite places ngl) and they're+#+like ''oh we didn't know what to get you so we just got you breadsticks'' like. what the fuck. i mean i do like breadsticks but are you +#+fucking with me right now? if money is a problem just say you couldn't afford anything extra. Don't fucking pull that shit#we literally live in the era of smart phones. you can fucking text me. and one of the things i really fucking enjoy at olive garden? +#+LITERALLY JUST THE FUCKING SALAD. THE HOUSE SALAD. THAT THEY GIVE YOU. I am that easy to appease and you bring me. bread.#i love bread. but do you think this is all i subsist on??? it's genuinely so insulting and hurtful and I feel so fucking stupid for feeling#+that way#LITERALLY as i was typing this my sister text me again to be like ''sorry that came off wrong'' this does lick the wound#update we are now sitting here going back and forth trying to figure out how they even got it wrong to begin with 😭 im gonna be real with+#+you I'd bet actual money it was on purpose so they could push the order out quicker. bc what i wanted was their tatter skins and those +#+take more effort and time I'd wager. she said they were busy so I wouldn't be surprised
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i just scrolled through my blog and i realised i have only two modes: weird pseudo-philosophical rambling. and absolutely unhinged yelling. AND I TELL YOUUUU IT'S SO FUNNYYYYYYY because i spent so long trying to curate my voice and sound like a normal, fun, easy to approach person back when i first made this blog!
then again it's been 3.5 years so i guess my voice changed naturally 🤨 i'm not smart enough for this 😮💨
#nia.musings#sorry even using this tag makes me snort. wdym musing girlie. are u a philosopher. big brain? 🤩🤩 2024 me is bullying 2020 me#also not me saying “im not smart enough for this” for anything that requires me to use more than 2 braincells#couldn't be bothered trying to make sense for more a second#kickstarting my own brainless era and i wear my crown so well#also random but i'm soooooo ready to infest this blog with jjk. i probably won't do that because that piece of art traumatises me#by that i mean i like it and keep up with it far too much for someone who claims theyre traumatised#my emotional scale is SHOT because of it. more pain than preferable. but i do quite enjoy it#and considering i go through sooooo much jjk content on tumblr it's only fair that i showcase it all on my blog :3#i have about 700 draft reblogs on a sideblog i made to save posts when i wasnt active here. i made it this year but theres SO much now#also lowkey regret not being active (though i had no energy) here in 2021 2022 2023 because i had so many thoughts about bnha#and now it's nearly over#like what do you meannnn i didnt get to yap about my spinner era from 2021.#what do you mean my love to hate and back to love arc for dabi didnt get documented in the annals of tumblr dot com#AND WHAT DO YOU MEAN MY MELTDOWN LAST YEAR RE: HAWKS' QUIRK DIDNT GET PUBLICISED#this is all a joke because i for real (FR FR) had ZERO chance of being here because life was putting me through its TRIALS#still is. but that's the way life is. we go on. <3.#speaking of trials. no one here was privy (wait i think i mentioned it in an rb) to my jason grace breakdown when i found out What Happened#sucks !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i wasnt made for emotional pain.#also it's funny to me how none of my followers have unfollowed me so far.#are u guys also all inactive or do u just not see me anymore because tumblr's dash algorithm gives u random posts now#thats the only thing i dislike about tumblr now. i LOVE how it lets you edit tags now. also will always miss the old layout
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