#im still hungry

[invader-vin]

me: oh boy i cant wait to make a sandwich!

the loaf of bread on my fridge:

[am-i-invisible777]

I started procrastinating and getting hungry and next thing I know my silly doodles have been colored and I've still done nothing.

Bonus because this wizard owns my heart now apparently:

He'd be so mad. Beyond pissed to know someone they loved was skipping meals

@petite-libellule-ao3 I think it's my new duty to tag you any and everytime I make something remotely Jae related lol

[lesbianpoetess]

i cant stop eating im going to cry

[goldfishwithablowtorch]

I hope I haven't already delivered it here, but I don't care, so here's your garlic bread:

Have a great day!

- The Garlic Bread Deliverer

No you haven't already delivered it here. Thank you very much for the garlic bread! I shall be be sure to recommend your services for speedy delivery and excellent quality. Salutation!

[cherrycola27]

Someone stole my fuching DoorDash order. Like went into the Taco Bell, said they were there to pick up an order and took it.

[smowyashe]

went to get a snack, realised i have dinner in 40 minutes, cried internally, and settled for a slice of plain white bread

[gorillaxyz]

i had dinner tonight (everyone cheers) it was so fucking good........... fuck

[clanoffelidae]

Cons to being suddenly sent into vyvanse withdrawal again: basically everything

Pros: my appetite, which I have been struggling with since starting adhd medication that resulted in me rapidly (nearly a pound a day) and uncontrollably losing weight and led to changes i don’t like in my diet (more processed sugar, doesn’t sit well on my stomach :/) in an effort to consume enough calories to stabilize, has returned with a VENGEANCE

[sart7alex]

sometimes life is about grabbing a pickle with your bare hands and eating at 6 am

[just-a-little-unionoid]

I spend like an hour cooking yesterday evening and this morning, maybe an hour and an half, and I just gluped it in like... 4 minutes I think

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

[puppyeared]

my attempt at making a fursona

[spoiledmilks]

Okay maybe im not normal

[shkika]

hes wobblin'

[xxplastic-cubexx]

thoughts on hellfire gala charles? i’m obsessed with that design

Design Wise if we mean the one by lucas werneck, theeen...... i have no clue im divided on it honestly LOL

i like the halo idea, im just not sure im totally sold on the whole execution...

ive always wanted to draw it tho so. have a scribbly if you may :)

bonus cause i need to hang him up like a set of keys

[mythtiide]

Day 5. Firsts / Flirting 🫧