#im sorry for essentially abandoning this blog

[public-perv3rt]

I forgot about this blog because I didn't know what to post. So, I wrote what is basically an essay about Interfur (working title). Anyways, I'm not a furry, I just really like animals and Interpol.

I guess I should get into the meat as to why I picked these specific animals to be their fursonas, lol. Paul is self explanatory, he is speckled like a leopard, but even if he didn't write that lyric, I probably would've still chose a leopard. I could've picked any yellow spotted cat honestly, but I picked an African Leopard because I honestly like him being African Savanah animals à la Our Love to Admire album cover. I was debating whether to make Paul a jaguar instead sense they're found in Latin America and he seems very connected with Latin American culture, but I picked leopard because I kinda just like them a bit more, personally lol. I was also thinking about African lions, mountain lions, and Servals, lots of cats, but Servals are too lanky and skinny, and lions don't have spots!

I made Sam a spotted hyena literally just because I like hyenas alot, I couldn't really give you a real reason honestly. I mean hyenas are also in Africa (remember OLTA). Also Sam was asked what his favorite still image from OLTA was and he said his favorite was the hyenas sooo. (Daniel and Carlos said theirs was the Otter and I don't even think that was an Otter, I think it was a Weasel of sorts, but this isn't my album so what do I know.) (And Paul said his favorite was the Lesser Kudu, but he didn't even know what they were called, these guys know their animals!)

Daniel is a European Fallow Deer for the same self indulgent reason I made Sam a hyena, I really like deer. I mean Daniel has that look in his eyes like he's about to get hit by a car. And deers are herbivores and Daniel's a vegetarian. I've wracked my brain thinking about an anthropomorphic deer playing guitar with either it's hooves, don't know how that would work, or with human fingers, which just made me uncomfortable. I made him specifically a Fallow deer cause they keep their spots into adulthood and I'm sucker for spotted animals, if that's not obvious.

Carlos is a Borzoi Dobermann Mix because I NEEDED to make him a mixed breed dog okay. At first, I had him as just a dobermann because to me, Carlos is a very angular guy, he's shaped like a rectangle, and dobermanns are very angular dogs, with their pointy ears and their rectangular bodies. Their fur is dark like carlos’ hair too. But then I remembered he's half Columbian and half German, and I'm half south American too, so it just tickled my fancy to make him a mixed breed dog as a homage to him being mixed, like me, this is a projection on my part. Contemplated making him half of a Columbian dog breed but those are just not him. So he's a borzoi, half because I love sighthounds especially borzois, and half because of Gaius, a sighthound. Also borzois have slightly curly fur, and Carlos has naturally curly hair. I put alot of thought into this one. It's like half hedonistic because I love sighthounds, but it also makes alot of sense.

Also if I could make them all African animals, (like OLTA lest I remind you, this was all I was thinking about!) Daniel would be a lesser kudu, and Carlos would be a Melanistic Serval. I literally had an essay this length due on Thursday, and yeah, I didn't get any of it done. Instead, I wrote this, a decadent excuse for me to yap about Interpol and animals, the only things I care about.

[sparklingdemon]

hey hihi! ive been curious for a bit (and honestly. probably shouldve asked sooner) .. how do you feel abt ppl making their own adaptations/takes on your pokepasta ocs? do you enjoy it? are there certain ones that you prefer arent touched on like that?

its mostly curiosity but also i feel like its best to ask bc im one of the mods on a blog where leaf takes a LOT after fallen leaf but with a fair amount of deviation all the same and. i realized recently that despite u still being active and present online i never thought to inquire about that,, im so sorry njakljndnjk

hey hey it’s all good!! i think what you’re doing with missing numbers is really cool!! it always gets me really excited to see bits of fallen leaf in missing number’s leaf bc i’m just like “look gary there i am! there’s my story!!” i think combining fallen leaf’s story with abandon lonliness is INSPIRED, and it’s so so cool seeing fallen leaf be put in alongside the other more “classic” trainerpastas. it makes me happier than you’ll ever to know to see her get representation alongside all the others who have been there so much longer than her, bc it makes me feel like i wrote a story that fits right at home in the golden age of pokepasta.

that being said, i’m usually pretty chill with fan interpretations and reimaginings, or AUs that have my characters in them! “death of the author” is a real thing, and people are going to do whatever they want with my stories/characters regardless of if they realize i’m still an accessible person that can be asked permission or not - so i think it’s important for me to have a healthy/supportive outlook about it.

but… at the same time, i still don’t like it very much when people use their reimaginings to “fix” a story, to remove the “cliches” that made the story what it is.

for example, if you took BRVR out of pokemon channel and made the game take place in pokemon yellow instead, or removed the death/gore, then that’s not really BRVR anymore to me. by taking the “pokemon channel” out of “pokemon dead channel” or taking the “DEAD” out of pokemon dead channel, then you have essentially made a brand new story/character, but given it my character’s name.

so i think what i don’t like is when a reimagining comes from a place like that, where it doesn’t try to keep the spirit of the original story in mind and instead wants to “fix” it.

BUT, i should clarify how this is only a pet peeve of mine! i’m not going to tell people, “no, you’re not allowed to reimagine my story The Wrong Way™” - because ultimately i care more about people having fun with my stories and art in whatever way they want to, even if it’s something i don’t personally agree/vibe with.

of course that’s not what i think you’re doing w missing numbers at all!! i think it captures the heart of the OG stories very well, even when seen through an “in-universe” lens. i’m really really excited to see more from it!!

as for if there’s certain characters i’d rather not let anyone touch, i feel like the only one i have right now is cody, but only because their story is still ongoing and people still don’t fully know them as a character yet. it’s very easy to misinterpret a character from a story that’s still ongoing, after all!

but other than that, my answer is go wild!! do whatever you want with my pasta characters and i’ll generally be pretty hands-off about it! the only rule is have fun!!

[pyrodigy]

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hiyo, i keep feeling bad because i had a very toxic friend, and i'm fairly sure she had bpd and it was influencing how she treated me, but i've seen so many people with bpd say how people leaving them can be really hurtful, and i feel bad. i understand supporting people with bpd, but i feel like if someone is really putting someone else through shit, asking them to suffer through that just because the person had bpd would be wrong, right?

like, ofc bpd isn't evil, and neither are people who have it, but if someone is dealing with their illness by hurting others instead of focusing on their own healing, that's their fault and i feel like no one should have to stay with a toxic friend just for fear that if they don't they're being ableist because their toxic friend has a mental illness.

i'm not saying this is your belief, but it's the sentiment i've received heavily from a lot of the posts i've seen about people breaking off friendships with people who have bpd, and it made me feel bad for doing that to my friend because i start to think i should've tolerated her toxicity because she was struggling with her mental health, and i don't want to feel like a bad person for prioritizing my own. so... it wasn't wrong of me to do that, right? i know she was struggling and couldn't control what she was struggling with, but i'm not a bad person for not excusing that or forgiving her, am i? sorry, i know this is super random and if it makes you uncomfy i'm very sorry, i just thought since you have bpd, if you give an answer to it i would trust you, idk.

Anon. First off im going to tell you off the bat this was a very fucking shitty ask to send me. and as a warning for my followers: I WILL be unapologetically angry over this.

First off, anon, lets get the elephant in the room out of the way: anybody can leave any kind of relationship they want, for any reason. even if its NOT toxic or abusive, if you want to leave someone and they happen to have bpd. you're in your full right to do that.

now. with that out of the way: you say

"i'm fairly sure she had bpd and it was influencing how she treated me"

Now, 'fairly sure' isn't the same as 'she has bpd'. DOES she have bpd? or are you just ASSIGNING her bpd because she was abusive and controlling?

"like, ofc bpd isn't evil, and neither are people who have it, but if someone is dealing with their illness by hurting others instead of focusing on their own healing, that's their fault and i feel like no one should have to stay with a toxic friend just for fear that if they don't they're being ableist because their toxic friend has a mental illness."

first off, if your sentence starts with 'bpd isnt evil and neither are the people who have it, BUT" then thats probably not a good start. secondly, yeah. obviously. no fucking shit. if someone is being, you know. ABUSIVE. then they're abusive, regardless of their mental illness. and nobody should have to stay with them.

"i'm not saying this is your belief, but it's the sentiment i've received heavily from a lot of the posts i've seen about people breaking off friendships with people who have bpd, and it made me feel bad for doing that to my friend because i start to think i should've tolerated her toxicity because she was struggling with her mental health, and i don't want to feel like a bad person for prioritizing my own"

You sure as fuck made it seem like you think thats my belief. Heres a little tidbit for you: "Anybody can leave anybody they want, for any reason, regardless of anything" and "people who have BPD do find abandonment to be extremely upsetting and sometimes downright traumatizing" are sentances that can and do co-exist. Even so. Even if some weird ass people WERE ever actually implying that: that is ENTIRELY not my fucking problem. Literally. I do not know you. We are strangers. I am a stranger to you.

so... it wasn't wrong of me to do that, right? i know she was struggling and couldn't control what she was struggling with, but i'm not a bad person for not excusing that or forgiving her, am i? sorry, i know this is super random and if it makes you uncomfy i'm very sorry, i just thought since you have bpd, if you give an answer to it i would trust you, idk.

No! it wasnt! and also, I'm not your fucking therapist! Me off handedly mentioning i have bpd and that my fp left me is NOT me opening the doors to you traumadumping on me and asking invasive and uncomfortable things about my complex trauma disorder!

people fucking demonize cluster-Bs enough as it is, why the fuck should i have to essentially coddle you and take the fall as someone with bpd just because your abuser had it.

you didnt deserve your abuse, nobody does! but its not my fucking job as a random stranger running an EMOJI BLOG who just so happened to offhandedly mention my bpd due to the relevance to a video game, to be a monolith for all those with bpd and try to convince people who already hate us due to stigma the very basic concept of 'we can be hurt by things, and our pain can be extremely irrational. and thats kind of the entire fucking point of the disorder, the fact that its irrational and a whole Problem. but we are not inherently abusive because of this, and evenif our pain is irrational or unfair we are still allowed to feel that pain as long as we understand where its coming from and how to deal with it. and we're allowed to express that pain'

and then, even further ontop of that. I literally said said fp was bad. they hurt me in other ways.

this is all in all, one of the most frustrating asks i think ive ever gotten.

you're not ableist for leaving them but you sure as fuck are by sending me this ask

[lehhoh7822]

I posted 3,855 times in 2022

That's 3,609 more posts than 2021!

648 posts created (17%)

3,207 posts reblogged (83%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@proudfreakmetarusonniku

@ruffboijuliaburnsides

@phantoids

@journal-number-3

@las-nevadas-corporate

I tagged 1,355 of my posts in 2022

#lr likes your art - 182 posts

#dsmp - 75 posts

#ua reblogs - 47 posts

#lehhohgoeszoom - 34 posts

#cdc reblogs - 29 posts

#cw food - 29 posts

#haha - 27 posts

#yeah - 27 posts

#passing ships - 27 posts

#creb - 26 posts

Longest Tag: 137 characters

#you know i don’t remember what an ost is but there are many people who go by ranboo and followers knowing your music taste isn’t atypical

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

@americans how many blazes are you getting???

i see a lot of post complaining about blazed posts but im in australia so ive gotten literally like none

15 notes - Posted September 26, 2022

#4

you know i rewatched the whole minecraft bu the sky is eating the world thing where mr soot kept saying that he was being an iron slut

i am beign a whore for copper. i need more fucking copper. 64 of those only translate to 7 blocks (and there should be an extra one but there isn;t because... maht?)

listen I have this massive room and it’s made of snow. and copper. 

16 notes - Posted August 31, 2022

#3

“At this rate I see literally no difference between kicking your ass out of the balcony and not.” oh my god.

this is the bullshit that keeps my love of centricide going

how would one describe centricide, genuinely? EDIT: oh my god I am so sorry I forgot to mention this is a quote from the politi-girl fanfic series on ao3 sorry for forgetting to give credit to @politigirls on ao3

19 notes - Posted July 7, 2022

#2

you know, with all this reboot stuff, i just want to say that the ccs... idk, i feel like they dont completely get how funky the fans are. they’ll be real upset that you tore away the plot and characters and storylines they drew to love with a potential of everything failing more, and many will pull away

but even more so, i think many will stay.

im not sure if they realise that dsmp is really important to a lot of people, and how upsetting it would be to have it torn away after waiting and being paitient, endless fan content and community based around a plot that essentially got “Abandoned Work: Unfinished or Discontinued” slapped on it, but its important enough that even when you mock your fans for being there, even when you fuck them over, etc, etc, they will still watch because it was so good and they care enough and hope enough that theyll keep going until you reach really really shit

yeah lol. idk man

25 notes - Posted July 10, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

for me specifically as a teenager who has asthma, i just. maybe its just me, but i swear it can’t be. asthma is this frustrating creature who you get very sick of very quickly. when i have an asthma attack, i might be experiencing like. physcial struggle to breathe but cognitively im just annoyed and tired, and the most emotional reaction you’ll probably get out of me is just frustration or a little bit of fear if it goes on a little bit too long.

everyone is prickish about it, when i was younger i could never participate in sport and people thought i was so lucky when everything just hurt and my head was always light and the office ladies fucking despised me. no one wants to call it a real disability (what else is it? I dare you, tell me what a disability is), it makes you scared to do things, you dont want to run that race or try that sport because you know you won’t be able to do it. you need breaks while running. inhalers are more expensive the price stacks up over time 

like when i have an asthma attack, i literally cannot just breathe. that is the entire problem. i cannot do breathing exercises, it does not matter whehter or not i look you in the eyes, i need the medication for my chronic illness. 

i had this whole thing where a bunch of student in primary school like year 5-6 made videos about me, mocking me and calling me asthma attack girl, and pretending to have asthma attacks to be like look at (name) and how much shes faking!! and putting them online and they got a lot of shares. 

“stop doing that stupid wheezing thing and just breathe” “why are you coughing like that? don’t you want to breathe?” “look at me, no, NO, HEY, HEY, look at me and breathe in- NO NO, BREATHE in and hey no-” “you just lost control of yourself, you need to stay in control and not give in to the asthma”

like. fuck you. treat us with respect. also because your ableism is easy to clown on. 

91 notes - Posted October 16, 2022

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[mrs-nate-humphrey]

I am curious: what are your favorite scenes from your main ships (date, dair, derena...)?

scenes involving milo don't count, sorry!

for me, it's really not just scenes, but body language & just in general, how they are with each other, you know? dan and serena grin at each other and hug SO much, you can tell that being around each other in s1 made them both so happy, and even after that glow fades the way they look for comfort in each other... top level stuff. the way blair looks at dan... we never see her as radiant at any other point. she was not looking at anyone else like this. and gosh, dan and nate. they're both so comfortable around each other that there's absolutely nothing weird about like. discussing that one ex girlfriend whom they both share AND both were in love with. there is literally no other duo who trusts/enjoys each other's company so much that they're comfortable in a love triangle. (probably because they're more in love with each other than with the girl, but that is not the point. or is it?)

anyway, more specific answers. under the cut. this is one of the longest answers i've ever written on this blog possibly but you KNEW that would happen when you sent this ask, didn't you? (affectionate)

derena: i tagged one of my ds reblogs as 'the grumpy one is soft for the sunshine one' and like. look at them! this hug from 1x10 kills me in the best way. they are both the literal embodiment of :D when they see each other! i love 1x10 as a whole moment, their entire thing at cotillion is so sweet and they're both so happy. the fact that he is talking about his chemistry teacher during this kiss in 1x07. that bit at the end of 1x05 when they talk about their siblings (being there for their sibling because of fallible parents being a derena parallel makes me simultaneously really sad and really soft, tbh). 1x05 gives me SO MUCH SECONDHAND EMBARRASSMENT but the way they walk off together arms around each other does something to me - these are two people who are still getting to know each other but who really like what they see, and who trust each other and. are just having a good time together! back when derena was my OTP, the 1x11 "your story's about me?" was absolutely a fave, too, and i still adore it, albeit in a different, more nostalgic way. i like a dan who writes cute stories about serena. no empty shell sabrina van skoneker bullshit. she is so much like you, daniel! you'd be shattered if she did this to you. don't do this to her. tbh, most derena moments from s1 are just A+ romance. the bit in 2x02 in the jitney is so funny, they're SO bad at being exes. the bit in... 3x03 i think?? i don't remember... on the contrary. when they're talking about dan's fling w/ georgina and serena's relationship with carter, the ease with which they talk and how happy/supportive they are of each other's new relationships... yeah. love to see it.

i also really like any instance of them having honest/open conversations. 1x13, talking about how serena is concerned about blair. 1x08, serena talking to dan about feeling jealous of vanessa. this bit from the touch of eva or whatever that episode is. 4x04 i think. this is the conversation everyone is trying to get dan to have and he's avoiding EVERYONE else. derena interactions in 3x21 (can't find a gif right now) - the fact that dan is with serena when her dad abandons them, the fact that he goes all the way there with her. 2x07, "i'm really glad you're nate's friend. he really needs someone like you right now" (though i'm cheating, that's technically a d/n moment too klhdflkgf). there's a bit in s4 where he's advising her against having an affair w/ colin, i don't remember the ep number, but the way he takes her side so easily and naturally and puts due blame/responsibility solely on her professor... yeah. 4x10 i think this ep is?? idk. but like my tags say, im sentimental about this moment because while what dan was doing was irresponsible, sneaking her out of the ostroff, he was the only person in this episode who was actually talking to her and listening to her and taking her seriously. nobody else was doing that!!

i probably have more moments i'm not remembering, but we're only 1/3 into this answer and LOOK AT THE WORDS, good lord, i'm sorry.

dair: my favourite dair episode is hands down despicable b (5x21) which i have heard is an uncommon answer. i just love the conflict resolution of it all, okay!!! 1x04 & 2x08 are like. standard answers any dair shipper will give, and i'm no different. i love dan being able to give blair advice and blair actually taking his advice even though they're not friends yet!!! be right back, yelling at the intimacy of it all!! 5x16, with their getting together (this little kiss and dan being so startled by it), blair admitting a flaw she genuinely does have and dan saying it's not awful because it's her, which is just. romance at its finest. those vows, good lord. 5x18.... they're having fun! blair showing up at the loft in lingerie for dan... the delight on her face.... (i know this moment blows up in their face but when she's there she looks so happy and proud of herself and this was like THE moment when i was like. oh. dair is really the heart of this garbage show huh).

i think for me, the thing that really sells dan & blair together is the serena of it all. both of them love serena more fiercely than anyone else, and that is what brings them together. (fwiw i definitely think nate loved serena this much and this deeply, too; the writers just wanted to pop the serenate balloon, which even i think was extremely unnecessary and ooc.) but (& i have so much meta about this) their relationship grows beyond serena. their entire s4 arc is SO good. i love how comfortable around each other they are, in such an adult way, in the sense of like. they both bring so much stability to each other? morgan tagged this edit "the marrieds" and like. yeah. b offers to help him shave. they're having breakfast & reading the paper together.

all the love declarations we got that weren't a simple 'i love you.' be your charming wonderful self (how could she not love you/ tell me what would make you happy, dan) i told chuck he doesn't have my heart anymore (you spent your life earning the keys to set you free when you were free all along!!!!) dan's pep talk to blair in 5x21 (already linked a gifset earlier, here's another one if you want i guess). there's definitely more... but honestly, the way the dair arc was executed was so good - while i do have my complaints, i also think keeping those aside, it was SO close to perfect. i love dan & blair's banter and gradually becoming closer and closer and closer. it felt very organic and real and GOSH. the way penn & leighton looked at each other while playing dan and blair...... it's just SO MUCH.

date: this is the hardest, because it's. *screams*. maybe you saw me losing my mind over those 2 seconds of nate handing dan a waffle? i love almost every scene with these two, even the hellish s6 breakup scene. my favourite episode for d/n (& also favourite gg episode in general) is 2x06 - i love the homoerotic subtext of it all. nate pretending to be dan because dan's name is the first name that came to his head. dan flirting w/ nate while tied to that thing, in his underwear. them becoming friends. and 2x07 as a follow-up to that! dan getting nate to live in the loft with the humphreys for a while. i am so soft.

4x09 is a terrible episode in general, especially for serena my beloved, but the d/n moments in that one? off the CHARTS. this weird overly macho flirting, in some ways THE most iconic d/n line. this entire finish each other's sentences nonsense. someone (i think it was ana but im not sure?) compared the energy of those scenes i just linked to the book blairenate love triangle resolution, blairena choosing each other over nate in the books, date choosing each other over serena in the show (if only! RIP.) after the saints & sinners ball, this cute little moment of 'youre the only one who understands me. please tell me they went home together. i mean. how could they not have.

3x07, them watching vampire porn together. a tag i used on ao3 (& also on here, once) is 'nate brings out the himbo in dan'. here is a prime example. 'is she levitating?' i don't fucking know, dan, what do you think?? (i was telling my partner that that's what i love abt dair vs date. around blair dan is an intellectual, a librarian, an art historian, a museum curator. around nate it's like dan is competing to be #1 himbo on the show. can my girlfriend actually fly? i don't know, dan. i can't believe you're seriously asking such a question.)

3x12 pep talk. (sorry about the shitty quality!) essentially nate telling dan that he (dan) is hot and that he shouldn't talk himself down so much.

dan making nate gay in his book. you know. his book from which blair found out he was in love with her. nads (who i will not tag in this billion word long gushy meta, because i value her sanity) once called inside "wish fulfilment' and. i mean. yeah

nate checking dan out at the derena wedding continues to be hilarious. hilarious in the same way as dan sexually fantasising about nate. canon really went 'let's give ivy some special easter eggs' and i appreciate them a lot!

i love the way they are around each other - so quietly attuned to each other. i showed my sister my date!husbands gifset, and she was like. yeah they're so married. and it's just stuff like how dan looks for nate over his shoulder, it's not even an active action, it's as easy and natural and intuitive as breathing, checking to see if nate is still there.

oh, that wasn't as hard as it could've been! okay. cool. im SURE there's more things i could scream about, because it's DN, the fact that they're non-canon makes me THAT much fiercer about them than dair/derena, to be honest. so many dots to connect!! anyway.

[fixing-bad-comic-art]

tldr: im having health issues and have almost no energy bc of them, im going to be fine, just not very active through to February, this blog isnt abandoned, just expect a lot fewer posts, more errors in the edits, and a bit of a personality shift.

So, the annual tradition of me having a health crisis in the last week of November/ first week of December has kept up strong this year with a mini stroke. which sounds a lot scarier than it actually is, tldr the only thing that seems to have been hit was my left eyes ability to dilate properly.

but this is my 8th? mini stroke and they tend to precede actual, usually minor, strokes. so in an excess of precaution i have been put on blood thinners again, and steroids to get my immune system to stop trying to eat the micro stroke. ill be fine but the roids do not agree with me and sap my energy and give me a bad case of fog head,

essentially when i do post. expect more misunderstandings and general dumbfuckery for a bit, including errors in the edits. im still going to be doing my best but like, im kinda in hell rn. sorry for any trouble this causes.

having said all of that i hope yall have a happy holiday season and im going to try to get a few edits done tonight to start working through the backlog in my drafts and inbox so ill actually like be online if yall want to chat bout anything

and to end everything off, im fine, i promise im fine, this is just how my life likes to play out.

[faorism]

fuck my highly distractable brain that just hears one offhand mention of a multi level marketing scheme in the context of fandom (beyond the blink-and-you-miss-it mention in the latest hot oil chapter) and... my brain is just firing off on somber/cutting AUs about how exploitative mlms are while somehow also sneaking in a romance plot??

like what if you fall in love with your upline, who is financially dependent of your exploitation (YIKES)? what if you meet during a seller party they are hosting, and you keep showing up and you get to talking because you always stay behind to help clean up,, and y'all get to talking and they confess they have no idea why you are the only person not to abandon them? what if you feel like an idiot after you get super sick off the essential oils you are swindled into buying from an insistent cousin to treat your [something oils obv does SHIT for], and when you tell a coworker they treat you compassionately unlike everyone else in your life, and your heart opens up to them??

(or if, say, if i want to get specific in one fandom... what if the shimadas aren't yakuza but instead the early adopters of two winds, a health drink/lifestyle mlm. sojiro gets his sons on board. the brothers have pretty big downlines but genji starts questioning the mlm. he is forced out by the company just as his face is fucked up by a facial cleanser (that might have been tampered with on purpose?). jesse runs an anti-mlm podcast/blog as joel morricone, started after he lost so much of his life to blkwtch aka a now-defunct fitness & gym equipment company. he finds out about two winds and he tries to infiltrate it to expose how destructive it is on 99% of the associates,, and he comes across hanzo who is towards the top but, god, he's pouring his whole life into it because of Honor or some shit; he is sucked into it in the worst of ways and he has no real capital because as a ~super special diamond level~ he is forced to invest all the money he makes back into the company as p much everyone does. he's trapped but has no way out and idk how mchanzo happens exactly but likely jesse wants to hate hanzo but mostly he feels sorry for him and sees himself in hanzo,, and hanzo has been so trapped in this world he is shocked by having a breath of fresh air, esp after his grief at his estrangement from genji. maybe jesse plants the idea of something else is possible, but initially walks away from hanzo because hanzo wasn't ready. but genji shows up to give his big ass speech, and small time skip, hanzo messaged jesse that he's left the mlm and wants to be an informant. and jesse is like... how about i hook you up with my friend because i... i feel... i dont wanna be improper. and hanzo does not scream YES PLEASE LOVE ME AS I LOVE YOU but only barely.)

all scenarios end with the characters out of the mlm, and they won't totally screw over their downlines, obviously. and theres absolutely no romanticization of direct sales. and there will be explicit talk about how fucked up mlms in the authors notes. and idk this is such a huge part of so many ppl's lives and im surprised that there's pretty much no (tagged) fic about it??

[cypresstheworld]

20 questions/get to know me

i was tagged by lovely clare @dearvivi thanks for tagging me bestie💕💌💌💗💟

💟 what do you prefer to be called name-wise?

my full name is deborah but most folks call me deb or debbie....been thinking of going by cypress too tho!

💟 when is your birthday?

december 7th!

💟 where do you live?

connecticut! but not like the rich people part of ct lmfaoooo

💟 three things you're doing right now?

todays my moms birthday so my aunt is visiting which is nice...im also fixing a dress for the renaissance faire, and im getting ready for the full moon tomorrow🌕

💟 four fandoms that have piqued your interest right now?

loona, the untamed, red velvet, and txt

💟 how is the pandemic treating you?

well....i have been an "essential" worker the whole time lmfaooo...but at least i havent gotten covid🥴

💟 song you cant stop listening to right now?

hula hoop and starseed theyre so good💕

💟 recommend a movie?

ooooo ive really been wanting to rewatch the handmaiden its so good i just haven't had the chance to😓

💟 how old are you?

24 and like 3/4 lol

💟 school, university, occupation, other?

i work part-time at a drycleaners/laundromat lmfaooooo and i wanna quit SO bad it sucks there

💟 do you prefer hot or cold?

honestly i prefer when its like. 70⁰ F out bc its not too hot or too cold extreme temps hurt my soul (and my joints)

💟 name one fact others may not know about you?

i did ballet from the time i was six till i graduated high school and lowkey miss being in shape like that lol

💟 are you shy?

definitely not in person lol...but i kinda am online mostly cause im bad at texting😓

💟 do you have any preferred pronouns?

they/them!

💟 any pet peeves?

people that chew with their mouths open its so gross sorry

💟 whats your favorite "dere" type?

honestly all i know is tsundere 🥴

💟 rate your life 1-10. 1 being really crappy and 10 being the best you could ever have

like a 6?? my fibromyalgia and autism are kinda kicking my ass recently lol

💟 whats your main blog?

this is my main!

💟 list you're sideblogs and what they're used for

i don't really have any sideblogs..when i really started getting into kpop i had a sideblog for that but i abandoned it lmfaooooo now its all just on my main right here

💟 is there anything you think people need to know about you before becoming friends with you?

maybe stuff about my disabilities...or like my pronouns or whatever lol

not sure who's done this yet and ofc yall don't have to but im tagging @blueberrytruth @sadcowboygirl and @hyfaesyren 💕💕💕

[spooky-somewhere]

women posting their w's

click for better quality, note under the cut

every day i get a little more gay and i think it's thanks to these two.

kate's a little short and sam is drawn to look older so i do want to specify, kate is 24, sam is 28, kate is just a) an alien that lives longer and thus might look more 20 than 24, and b) short for her species which is actually a lot of complicated lore that i am going to ramble about because THIS IS MY BLOG GODDAMNIT

big tw, discussion of themes of eugenics, death, abuse, and murder.

so kate is like, an alien, right. and she comes from this planet where you're ranked from birth. when you're around, like, three, you get put into a category, and kate, being a scrawny child with a lot of health issues and a couple defects, was essentially cast as the lowest class of person. she'd be used for whatever was needed of her until she died, or, in other words, she was considered human livestock. until a woman with a lot of power looked at her and was like "yeah i can work with that".

she turned kate into a scout, which was only really a step above human livestock but hey it's better than being completely disposable and an embarrassment to her family. scouts are meant to go to planets (advanced alien civilization dontcha know) to scout (roll credits) out planets that could be colonized.

she got put on a ship with an ai named Thea and essentially her only contact with her family was a shitty communications device. Thea was pretty much her only friend throughout that entire time, acting as a rational source of information to contrast herself, who happened to be highly emotional, anxious, and impulsive. as is cliche with stories like this, the planet she was going to was earth. problem, Thea didn't know how to land, as she wasn't actually meant to land planes, only fly them, which meant the ship had to crash into a forest.

the ship was damaged almost beyond repair. kate did what she was told to do in her handbook and sought out shelter or any lifeform, carrying a few rations. she'd never really seen rain before, so the rainpour that night was something she remembered for the rest of her time on earth. kate found an abandoned warehouse, and obviously, being impulsive, she opened the door.

what she didn't expect was to find someone living there, an engineer and mechanic that said her name was sam. she noticed kate was shivering, and brought her inside. she didn't have much for other people, but she did have a couple throw blankets and an extra order of fries from her dinner, and kate was more than comfortable sleeping in a chair that night, because she hadn't been around other people for a very long time, much longer for people who cared about her well being. sure, she had thea, but thea couldn't wrap her in a blanket and give her fries.

the two of them spent a lot of time together after that. they discussed marriage a lot, but kate was the one to ask the question. she couldn't afford a ring, but she could afford dinner at a restaurant by a river, by candlelight. sam still remembered what she said - "we don't have a lot, but i just want to be with you, i want to stay here forever, i never want to leave you, i couldn't get a ring and im sorry but if i work really hard i promise i'll get you the biggest wedding ring i can get and we'll live a good life". many tears were shed that night.

kate managed to get a job at the local bar, getting paid under the table. (the only issue with that is that the bartender happens to be sam's college ex and they both hate each other.) she took up a baking hobby, started selling baked goods online, while sam worked extra hours at her mechanic job, even taking up jobs outside of work hours for things the company she worked for couldn't do, wouldn't do, or would charge too much for. they'd been engaged for a year when they finally had the money to get a house and have a wedding.

before they had the chance to move out, thea had warned kate of what would happen. by then, thea had been given a body by sam, and kate's commander, her boss, knew something had to be wrong. she was planning on going herself, to check on kate. after all, kate was more of a... pet project to her instead of a genuine endeavor.

kate doesn't remember what happened that day. she doesn't like talking about it. she doesn't really like visiting her ship anymore, either.

the following months were spent looking for houses, until they found a two bed, two bath in the kind of neighborhood where there are enough trees to where you can hear birds in the morning. kate decorated pretty much everything, sam just did all the heavy lifting (and painting, and plumbing). kate helped as much as she could, but watching her wife carry heavy boxes was, like, probably more important.

kate eventually left the job at the bar, but she stayed friends with the bartender. (she might be into thea, but she won't tell kate.) she catered events, mostly weddings, with the things she baked, and when she had the time, she'd drop something off at the bar for the bartender to sell.

sam kept working as a mechanic, mostly working on cars but sometimes helping with other things if someone emailed her asking for help. she left her job at the first auto body shop, and found another one closer to their house. sometimes, she gets dragged along to kate's events, and has to wear something fancy, but if it means she gets free food she'll take it.

GOD i rambled on for entirely too long okay im going to BED goodNIGHT this is entirely too long, im so glad i figured out how to do the read more thing SAUKGHDSK

[httpjeon]

— 01. bunny blues: leaving | yoongi & jungkook

min yoongi/reader/jeon jungkook ― ft. namjoon | angst | hybrid!au

wordcount: 1.6k

content warnings: namjoon is kind of a dick im sorry, separation

― synopsis: you hadn’t noticed the way he’d slowly been getting rid of everything

note: this is the first part to bunny blues! reader is a bunny hybrid, kook is a dog hybrid, and joon+yoongi are humans!

blog masterlist ɪɴᴅᴇx ― 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08

© httpjeon 2019. do not repost, modify, or translate.

The first thing you noticed was the fact your belongings began to disappear. It started as your old clothing disappearing, things you didn't quite care about. Then, your shoes began to disappear to just your essential ones. Your favorite toys were gone and when you asked, you were just told they weren't good anymore.

It took about a month for you to realize your clothes were disappearing again, this time your favorite dresses and sweaters vanishing. You had one pair of shoes and only a fraction of clothes you once had. Your owner, Namjoon, was home less and less as the days passed. You were lonely, not used to being alone so much.

When Namjoon adopted you from his local shelter, he had been a perfect owner -- following all the bunny nutritional guidelines he needed too, buying you things you needed and even wanted, gave you all the attention you could have.

Now, almost a little over a year later, it was all falling apart.

Then everything came to a head one night when you overheard him on the phone. There was a time once when you would be snuggled in bed with him watching a movie to fall asleep.

As you heard the muffled voice, you crawled out of bed and snuck closer to his door. It was open just a crack and as you peeked, your sensitive ears were able to pick up on his words loud and clear.

"Look, the flight to Japan is in just a week, I have no one else to ask!" He sighed, knee bouncing as he sat on the edge of his bed.

Flight? Was he going somewhere?

"No, Yuri is insistent that she doesn't want another--" He muttered, heaving a big sigh when he was cut off. "Yeah, I know but I can't do anything about it!"

There was a beat of silence, you could hear the voice reply, though you were unable to make out anything from your distance.

"Please, Yoongi, if I can't find anyone I'll have to--" He was cut off again, the voice on the other side shouting loudly that he had to pull his phone away from his ear. "Alright, let me know if you change your mind,"

With that, he ended the call and hung his head. You took the moment the finally crawl into the bedroom, unnoticed until you were kneeling in front of him on the carpeted floor.

"How long will you be gone, Joonie?" You asked, causing his head to snap up in shock.

"_____, h-how much did you hear?" He asked, not answering your question.

"That you're going on a flight," You replied, shrugging innocently. As you looked up at him, you noticed the sad smile on his face.

"Yeah but, it's going to be a long trip," He mumbled.

"Like a month?"

"No," He sighed, reaching forward and placing his large hand on your head, petting your hair before moving to stroke the soft fur on your ear. He had always enjoyed petting your ears, when he got you he said you had the cutest bunny ears he'd ever seen.

"Who're Yoongi and Yuri?" His petting paused at your question.

"Yoongi is my coworker and Yuri is my girlfriend," You gasped at this, sitting up on your knees now, using his knees to balance.

"You have a girlfriend? Can I meet her?!" You grinned but it disappeared when he stopped petting you and fixed you with a stern stare.

"I guess I can't hide anything from you anymore," His words had you sitting back down on your heels, his touch now gone as he leaned back on his bed. Apprehension began to fill your heart at the distant, empty look in his eyes when he gazed down at you. "Yuri lives in Japan and we agreed to move in together. So I got a transfer from my company there, my position starts in two weeks so I'm leaving next week,"

"Y-You're moving there?" You asked, giving him a nervous smile, clinging to his sweats with tight fists -- hanging onto him. "I can come too right? Right, Joonie?"

"_____," He shook his head, prying your hands off of him and stood up. You remained seated and looked up at him with tear-filled eyes. "She has a cat-hybird already and the landlord has a one-hybrid policy. She's has Nuri longer than I've had you, so we came to a decision,"

"Y-You're leaving me here?" You choked out, sniffling as your nose began to run. "I-I can't take care of myself, Joonie! You can't go!"

He went to walk away and you panicked, clinging onto his leg with a sob. He froze in his tracks, looking down at you with those same detached eyes. You had hoped you'd see some sign of sympathy in them, but there was nothing.

"I'm not leaving you here alone," He replied, earning a budding smile from you.

You knew he wouldn't just abandon you like that! He had a plan to keep taking care of you! His next words, however, shot your hopes down faster than they appeared.

"I'm getting rid of you," The cold, harsh words immediately had you crying again. He jerked his leg out of your grasp, and you were sitting there crying as he watched. "I couldn't find anyone who would take you in, no friends would. So, in a few days I'll finish giving away your things and then I'll take you to a shelter,"

With that, he turned his back to you and walked out of his room. With him disappearing, you began to panic and immediately scrambled to your feet to chase after him. You caught him in the living room, clinging to him from behind as you sobbed.

"P-Please, Joonie!" You wailed, crying into the back of his t-shirt. His familiar, comforting scent filled your nose but it offered you no real comfort. "I-I'll be good, I promise! Take me with y-you and I'll be good! Don't give me away! I wanna stay with you, Joonie!"

"No _____," Namjoon snapped, tearing your arms off of him and turning to look at you in the eyes. "Yuri doesn't want you and I don't want you anymore,"

You felt your heart physically shatter in your chest at his words.

"Y-You don't?" You squeaked, reaching up to tug at one of your ears -- attempting to console yourself.

"No, I thought I could handle taking care of a bunny hybrid, but I can't," He sighed, running a hand through his already messed up hair. "You're too much work, _____. You're needy, too clingy for me, and you get on my fucking nerves so much. I really shouldn't have gotten a hybrid that needed as much care as you but that was my mistake. Just understand that I'm happy with the arrangement and that's all that matters,"

"B-But I thought you loved me, Joonie," You whimpered, earning only a sigh from him.

Then he turned his back and went to the kitchen. You thought he was just gonna leave you standing there but he returned only a moment later holding a box of trash bags.

"Here,"

"W-What for?" You asked tearfully.

"Put your belongings in them for me," You took the box, noticing your hands were trembling.

With your head hanging low and tears falling down your cheeks, you went to your room. However, his voice stopped you right before you entered the doorway.

"_____?" You turned to find his looking at his phone, not even looking at you. "When you're done, put them by the door so I can get rid of them later,"

"Yes Joonie," You replied, your voice empty but wobbling.

You didn't say anything more, just shut the door behind you and took a seat on the bed.

Your room was more barren than it was a year ago. It was then that you noticed how long he'd been preparing for it. Slowly removing your belongings so it wasn't noticeable. It wasn't until now that you truly realized it.

Finally slowing the tears, you opened a new trash bag and began to empty your toy box.

Yoongi's heart was heavy in his chest as he hung up the call with Namjoon. He had been pestering for a while about adopting a bunny hybrid. Namjoon had explained the situation and truth be told it pissed Yoongi off.

Adopting a hybrid was a big responsibility -- they relied on their owners and depended on them for everything. Most times they grew attached and loved with all their hearts. He would know, owning a rescued puppy-hybrid named Jungkook. It was a shitty thing to get rid of his hybrid because his girlfriend didn't want her.

"What's the matter, hyung?" Jungkook asked, immediately picking up on his owners shift in demeanor.

"Namjoon," Yoongi replied easily, carding his hands through Jungkook's hair, making his tail wag happily.

"That goofy guy you work with?" Jungkooks question was met with a nod.

"He needs someone to take care of his hybrid--"

"Why don't we?" Jungkook immediately perked up.

"Really?" Jungkook's tail was loudly thumping against the hardwood floor he was sitting on.

"Yeah! I mean if he can't do it!" Jungkook grinned, making his nose wrinkle.

"I don't know how long it would be, Kook," Yoongi was honest, he didn't want to hide anything from the pup.

"That's okay! We have a spare room!"

"You really mean it, Kook?" The boys hair bounced with his happy nod and Yoongi smiled.

"You're a good boy, I'll call Namjoon,"

Yoongi got up and exited the living room, heading for his own bedroom. Jungkook was left in the living room, resting his head where Yoongi once sat. There was apprehension in his thoughts -- he wanted to help the hybrid, he really did. He just didn't know how well he could handle sharing Yoongi's attention.

But it wasn't permanent...right?

[aestheticallylovesick]

We need to talk.

Mod Supana here!~ Things are so different now, huh? A lot has changed. The game has updated. A lot has surfaced. We lost a mod and We let this blog sort of....well die.

Well I’m sadly not here to say im reviving it. I’m not going to post here....at all actually. This is it. Like Mod Midori i can’t go on supporting this man knowing some of the things he’s done....and trust me there's a lot. If you really wanna know there's whole YouTube videos explaining the situation. The thing is that i’ve not been in this fandom for a while. I dropped off posting on the blog when i started to realize some of the allegations against him were more than just allegations. People had proof. when i noticed that i started noticing all the cracks and flaws in the game and well...i sort of lost interest and forgot about it. Adhd does that to a person. I forgot the game really even existed until...the update.

Osana. however The update didn’t excite me like it probably would have in high school. Infact it sort of just brought up all of those icky feelings... But then i remembered this blog. I remembered liking the people i ran it with and i came here to see that Midori was gone. and thats okay because well... i think what all of this is coming to is that im essentially leaving too.

All of my old aesthetics will be staying up. I’m not gone forever just....gone from here. Life moves too fast to be stuck on something silly like that. I think there’s a John Hughes quote in there somewhere if i look hard enough. I’m getting my GED now. I have new interests and im still sometimes around on my main account... I’m sorry to sort of abandon Mod Osana here but...i can’t stay here either because like Mod Midori said, Staying here, Posting here, Feels like condoning what he’s done. and thats simply unacceptable. My main account: @t0miekawakami 

[kcngjin-blog]

          hi yall, i’m atlas and i’m here to confuse yall with my muses. just kidding, not really tho. so this is kang jin, he has an older brother named kang jun lol which is my second muse, so that’s great i’m already jumping in with two muses that i haven’t touched in two years, love that. their links/names are incredibly similar, totally not intentional *sweats* but im super excited to be here, and i hope i get to write with everyone at some point because i’ve been lowkey highkey stalking your blogs and the main also facts underneath

atlas , 21 , gmt+10 , he/him  ——  is  that  a  bird  or  a  plane  ?  nah  ,  it’s  just  KANG  ‘JULIEN’  JIN  .  word  on  the  street  is  that  the  TWENTY FIVE  year  old  ,  CISMALE  ,  looks  an  awful  lot  like  LEE HOSEOK  (WONHO)  ,  but  i  just  don’t  see  it  .  strangers  believe  them  to  be  TACITURN  and  BEGUILING  ,  but  their  friends  will  tell  you  they’re  DECOROUS  and  RATIONAL  .  they  associate  themselves  with  dragon  tattoos  ,  bare  knuckles  ,  loaded  firearms  ,  and  devil  horns  .

stats & bio & plots that are shit because his bio is ass long, i’m gonna just do dot points to save yall the time

TW: VIOLENCE, DEATH, ABUSE, DRUGS, MURDER

essentially he was born to a businessman (whose a manhoe) and a prostitute mum, who abandoned him and his dad didn’t want anything to do with him, so he was basically just the house slave throughout his younger years

eventually he got fed up and accidentally killed his dad #oops, and his grandfather took him in aka. adopted him (his grandfather is the korean capo aka. the head of the kang family aka. head of the dragons)

he was then lead into the mafia world, did some things, trained and stuff and became some kind of al capone type person

side note: he doesnt know much about his brother, so that’s fun! watch me thread with myself to develop them

he also has a daughter that happened nearing his 20s, her name is kang jinah and shes 5

and now he runs the dragon casino in daegu but really its just a disguise for the dragon’s mafia stuff

fr this is all i remember about jin from 2 years ago, so i might have to go back through his bio to muse myself up, i’m sorry yall have to deal with this omg 

[sawyersscribbles]

Sky of Sinners Excerpt - Broken Glass

Hi everyone! I’m really sorry I’ve been on a bit of a hiatus on this blog, and especially on this project, as of late. To make up for it, here’s an excerpt where the Girl Gang(tm) bonds after they find an abandoned house to camp out in overnight and Reagan triggers a... trap. I’m going to be clearing out this tag list soon, so let me know if I can put you on or off!

~

Almost humorously, Reagan tripped over a thin wire at that second, causing the others to freeze in horror as they watched the chain reaction. The wire was connected to a series of levers that let to a cabinet door closing, which caused a broom to fall forward and hit a vase, which tumbled over and hit a ball on the kitchen counter, which rolled along the table until it fell, pulling down a cup which held a string, which connected to a second string that hoisted up a cardboard box sitting on one of the rafters, which tipped over and poured its contents all over Ingrid, who was still standing warily for the most part in the doorway.

Which would have been funny. If the box didn’t hold about a pound of broken glass.

Ingrid screamed and immediately tried to cover her head and shoulders, but by then it was too late. Pieces as large as knife blades and as small as grains of sand lodged themselves into her hair and skin, burying themselves painfully into her shoulders, where they became tainted red with blood and caused crimson streams of various sizes to leak down Ingrid’s arms like tattoos.

It was clear she was trying to hide her pain as much as she could, but biting one’s lip fiercely and looking up to hide the tears could only do so much. With tears in her eyes, she resisted the impulse to look at the damage. A part of her didn’t want to look towards the ceiling, almost as if she was afraid something bad would happen to her if she made the mistake again.

Reagan leapt forward and took the lead as Finley and Anais stood back, clutching their chests in worry as they watched Ingrid’s whimpering continue as Reagan pulled the pieces from her skin.

“I want to get out of here!” Finley declared. “There are plenty of other safe houses, and we just happened to stumble upon one that’s booby trapped, probably by a crazy person who wanted to defend the house from robbers. I mean, I know a lot of people did that after the Ganymedans came, but this is just a bit much. You know, the statistical odds of us walking into this house…”

Finley had this habit.

When she would nervous, she would walk around, but that wasn’t limited to only pacing in circles. She would make her way around entire floors, walk upstairs, even go outside and return minutes later, rambling on as if nothing was out of the ordinary and she hadn’t even noticed she’d gone outside at all.

“Finley, you gotta shut up for me, buddy, okay? You’re making Ingrid nervous.” Reagan whipped her head around and motioned fiercely at Ingrid with a bloody hand from pulling out pieces of glass, which only seemed to scare both Finley and Ingrid further. Reagan rolled her eyes and made clicking noises with her tongue.

“I’m gonna be fine, Finny.” Ingrid never called Finley, “Finny” unless it was for fun or it was without her thinking about it. The look of desperation in her eyes shifting to various objects around the room only concerned Reagan even more, but she knew what to do.

“Let’s just, let’s talk about something while we wait, okay? Get comfortable, everyone, pull up a chair, watch as Mama Ingrid gets comfortable, have some cream of corn, do your makeup…”

“Oh, may I?” Anais seemed to perk up at the invitation, already rummaging through her bag of what was supposed to be essentials and pulled out a tube of red lipstick and some eyeshadow and laid them on her lap. She shrank at the look Reagan gave her over her shoulder, and Reagan kept the tension alive for a few seconds before saying, “Only if you do my face next.”

Anais, Finley, and, thankfully, Ingrid, all laughed in unison, and Reagan allowed herself to relax a bit.

“Alright, someone do something. Reagan! Tell us a story.” Ingrid said, trying her best to find Reagan’s eyes as she attentively pieced the pieces of glass from Ingrid’s arms. She flicked her eyes up for just a moment before looking back down at Ingrid’s shoulders.

“Who, me?” She looked back up at Ingrid again, who this time had a smile with a twinge of desperation, as if she was saying, “Please. Do this for me.” Reagan sighed and clicked her tongue a few times before nodding her head as she remembered something.

“Alright, I got one. How about the first time I ever saw one of those Ganymedans in real life?” She looked over confidently at Finley, who looked relieved but partially at ease and nodded once at her in acknowledgement. She wasn’t sure what exactly had changed about Finley, but Reagan was sure something was different.

It might have been in the way she nearly slouched in the chair she had dragged from the kitchen, one of her arms draped behind its back haphazardly. Or maybe it was the way Finley’s hair was utterly out of place, but she made no motion to fix it back into the perfect bun it was usually in. She couldn’t be sure. All she knew was that Finley understood something new now. Perhaps not fully, and maybe she never would, but somehow Reagan could feel that Finley was going to be alright.

“Then I’ll tell it,” Reagan said with light in her tone, which made Finley smile. “As some of you know, and by some of you I mean Iggy,” Reagan nodded in Ingrid’s direction who flourished with her arm and said, “‘Tis me!” as if Finley and Anais had never met her before.

“Yes, ‘tis you,” Reagan continued, a small smile playing at her own lips, “...I actually grew up in Colorado, and when everything hit all at once… that’s where I was. In my mom’s car, which I stole from the garage, smoking weed and listening to the soundtrack from Ocarina of Time.” Out of seemingly nowhere, Finley pulled out a canteen and wordlessly took a sip without taking her eyes off of Reagan. She had inched forward in her seats, chins tucked in her hands and eyes wide. Anais, meanwhile, sat back in her seat with her arms folded over her chest, her face a mixture between angry and upset as her eyes trailed over the pictures of the happy family whose home she had helped break into.

“You really want to hear this, huh?” Reagan chuckled nervously at Finley, who spun the chair around like one of those “cool” substitute teachers and laid her arms across the back.

“Yes,” was Finley’s simple response before she took another sip of what smelled like herbal tea.

“Alright… anyway, Colorado, Legend of Zelda, weed, we established that. I was on the road to see my brother, Drew. He went to college at University of Denver, so it was a hell of a drive...” Reagan allowed her voice to trail off slightly at the sight of Anais’s back pressed firmly against the back of the seat, her eyes everywhere other than Reagan. From where she was sitting, Reagan could hear her heavy breathing, like she was resisting something.

“He went to study film, Anais. He would love you.” Anais’s eyes flickered away from the pictures of the family on the tables to Reagan and back again a few times before she sighed and moved herself to face Reagan.

“Did you love him?” She asked softly, almost as if she couldn’t believe she was asking. Reagan slipped off her flannel and began to gently dab Ingrid’s wounds, who flinched but said nothing.

“Yeah. Still do.”

Anais bit her lip and played with the hem of your skirt.

“Were you angry at him when he left? Knowing now that you never got to see him again?” Finley froze for a second before placing her head in her hands and groaning as if from intense secondhand embarrassment.

“Anais, that’s not…” Ingrid started, but Reagan shook her head.

“No, no, it’s a question, and I’ll answer it. You’re right, I never saw him again. But he left to live his dream. He left to move on. And that’s the one thing I’ll always be able to understand.”

In that moment, with Reagan looking so deeply into Anais’s eyes that she felt she could never break the gaze, Anais saw something she didn’t see before. Reagan’s hard brown eyes were soft now, and her mouth was in its same cocky smirk, but there was a twinge of sadness behind it that Anais never thought Reagan would let her see. In that moment, Anais felt like she could see some part of Drew that lived inside Reagan, that would always live inside Reagan, and she thought of what her mother told her before they left for America all those years ago.

Every human being is like a sky of stars. We will never truly see the whole picture, but we can map more and more of the stars every day we make the effort to go outside at night and look up.

In the next, chaos.

~

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[ask-shakespearehigh]

Q&A post with the Mods!!!!

This is going to be a long one oh boy

How strict is the delineation of creative control vis-a-vis characters/plays between the mods? (@pedanticlecturer)

We generally have the plays split up along lines of “what we know”— we have a list at the very beginning of the blog. Sometimes we’ll draw the others’ characters (mostly me drawing some of Star’s…) but even then the final say on characterization is up to the “main” mod for that play — mod aster

what aster said -- mod star

What is your favorite play? What is your favorite character in terms of how they were written in the source material? (@pedanticlecturer)

I think my favorite play overall is Macbeth, just because I like the vibes (and the fact that I too could kill Macbeth), the fact that you don’t say it’s name in theatres, and the fact that it’s a play I did a full read through and analysis of in class. Favorite character? Puck from Midsummer. — mod aster

uhhhh,, hmm. ive always had a soft spot for midsummer since i saw it with aster esp bc of how fun the costumes were. of the comedies it has the largest potential to be the most visually pleasing bc of the concept of fairies,,,and im gay and dramatic so i love that. id die if i got to costume design for midsummer,,,or be in it,,,yeah. fav character. hmm. probably mercutio?? i recently saw a version of romeo and juliet where mercutio was played by a woman and oh my god it was amazing!!! not to mention mercutio’s portrayal in baz luhrmann's INCREDIBLE version of r n j!!! (I based my mercutio design on him) he just spends the entire time making dick jokes. love that. -- mod star

How do you answer asks so fast? I mean it's great but I'm impressed 😂 (Anon)

Personally, it’s a mix of: notifications on, quick drawing speed, and using the blog to avoid my class work — mod aster

aster is fast and (as you can see from all of my answers) im lazey -- mod star

Are there any elements/characters of the plays you're covering that you would have liked to work into this blog's plot, but couldn't due to the constraints of the setting or the synthetic nature of the blog? (@pedanticlecturer)

I wanted to make everyone gay but unfortunately due to plot constraints we have to have some hets but that wont stop me from making it lgbt as possible. -- mod star

I did want to make The Tempest more of a central play, but it just didn’t translate well. Similarly, other supernatural elements like the witches in Macbeth. This isn’t so much a constraint mentioned, but my own time/energy means that I want to show the Macbeth backstory, in a specific format, but I can’t right now— mod aster

Is there a hierarchy of import when it comes to each play's individualized impact on shakespeare high's general arc? If so, what plays are crucial to the foundation of the story? Which ones did you do mostly for shits and giggles? (@pedanticlecturer)

This is phrased like an ACT question and i might not answer it right so sorry in advance but: mod aster and i only selected a few plays for each of us to do given we dont know all of shakespeare’s works, but we tend to put more emphasis on the the more well known. But it also comes down to 1. How much we have plotted out for each play and 2. What the followers ask about most. Our two most popular are hamlet and macbeth bc people are familiar w those but around march caesar always becomes relevant again. I didnt even have designs for some of the characters until someone asked about them. -- mod star

I would say the same as star— it generally comes down to what people ask about. I will say that the overall plot is sort of separated into “has happened” and “is happening”. Like, the human potion of Midsummer, Julius Caesar, and Macbeth are all in the “aftermath” portion, while Twelfth Night, Hamlet, and Romeo and Juliet, among others, are happening. We’re trying to incorporate as much as we can, and I don’t think any of them were really put in without some thought.— mod aster

What personal significance does shakespeare hold in ur guys' lives? (@pedanticlecturer)

I go to a theater school rn and so ive dealt w shakespeare (although not all of them) it also helps that i was in loves labours lost last year as moth and that i read hamlet and r n j. Theres also a theater in my state that always does One Big Shakespeare per season and they always do them super well!!! My love for shakespeare probably started w seeing midsummer at that theater w mod aster!!! So. Theater kid rights!! -- mod star

To be honest, I got back into Shakespeare Because of the blog. I’ve been friends with some people that got really Pretentious about Shakespeare, and it kinda put me off of it. I did have a book of abridged plays (the plays’ plots written out in prose, basically) that I read as a kid, which is what got me into not only the plots of a lot of the plays, but also the idea of having them illustrated. And, same as star, the theater in state does the One Big Shakespeare— and they tend to do some really cool things with the costumes, setting them in diff time periods. I haven’t been able to see any lately since I’ve moved, but they still slap. — mod aster

🥰😘💙🥰🥰💜💟🥰I 😍💗💚😍😍LOVE🖤🖤 YALL ♥️♥️🧡💛💚💝❣️💕💘💖💗💓💞💝❤️💛💜 okay now i have a question i swear— how long have the two of you been doing art??? and what were your first shakespeare plays??? (@hellaghosts)

Uhh i started drawing when i was like idk 12 and i have the giant boxes of sketchbooks to prove it!!! I moved to digital art at abt 14-15 but mostly stayed traditional until this yr when i got a Neat New Tablet so some of my sketchbooks are sitting abandoned rip. My first shakespeare was either romeo and juliet or midsummer nights dream and i love both of them v much!!! I have a very old piece of art that i did for r n j for my freshman class assignment on it and it hasnt aged well alsdjfjafd circa 2016 i think??? -- mod star

Oh man. I started drawing when I was about 10, but it was Bad. I don’t think I got much into drawing again until I was about 14? Sometime around the end of middle school/beginning of high school. I would say I started getting into drawing as more than doodling/coloring edits sometime around 2015-16? I would draw on my iPad with my finger, then I got a tablet for my computer, and now I pretty much stick to my iPad with an Apple Pencil. My first Shakespeare play was….. uh…… probably Midsummer???? I have No idea. We would go to plays when I was little, so I honestly don’t remember if I saw others before. It may have been Romeo and Juliet— I had that book where it was the original and the “modernized” with the little dog that explained things— which, if you know it makes sense, but if you don’t is probably a bonkers answer. — mod aster

Do you think this blog has like? An overarching thesis (be it b/c intentionally or simply b/c ur own take on the world has bled thru to the point where u believe it’s central to the piece at this point)? (@pedanticlecturer)

Not gonna lie, I had to read that like three times AND dm you to figure out what you were asking from us and all I have is “be gay, respect women, write your own happy endings”. — mod aster

This blog started with an ides of march shitpost and you think we have enough brain energy to write a whole thesis? I projected feelings of found family onto my half of the blog but idk if that counts. Be gay do crime 420 69 -- mod star

What’s the nature/rough dynamic of ur relationship? How do y’all know each other? (@pedanticlecturer)

Met mod aster when i was like 4 and even tho we didnt live close we became like, best friends although the Best part didnt start until we were like 13-ish and eventually we talked like non stop (about anime and homestuck. Yknow. 13 year old kid things) and we didnt see each other a lot bc of Distance and now its even worse bc aster is in colleg.,e but we consider each other siblings regardless of family bc we’re adopted into our own respective families so that bled over into our friendship and it would feel weird calling him anything other than my brother now. We’ve seen each other at our best and worst and if you really want a good insight on what we’re like as siblings watch griffin and justin mcelroy’s overview video of catlateral damage wherein i am griffin and he is the long suffering justin. -- mod star

Star is basically my long distance sibling and functionally the only cousin I recognize bc like their parents are basically an aunt and uncle and like our dads look enough alike that we’ve both accidentally gotten the wrong dad for a hug or similar so like. Anyways yeah Star is the Griffin to my Justin, complete with our absent middle brother who we love dearly— mod aster

Dubiously relevant q but what kind of music do y’all listen to when u do art (if that is indeed a habit either of u partake in) (@pedanticlecturer)

It can depend on the piece? I was working on some (unrelated) oc prints that were song-focused, and for those I just listened to said song on loop. Sometimes I have playlists. Sometimes I’ll just be in a Mood and throw a song on loop. But a lot of time for the blog, I’ll listen to The Adventure Zone for the billionth time, because I have Too Much Attention. I’ve also, on request from Star, linked the most recent “loop song”.— mod aster

I tend to obsess over the same like 3 songs every few weeks so those get listened to on repeat but it also depends on the tone of what im drawing or who im drawing i might genre switch bc of that. If im drawing ophelia i stick to lana del rey and if im drawing hamlet its the neighborhood, horatio is sufjan stevens etc. i have categorized,. Most of the characters i draw into different songs/genres/energies of music but not like i ever follow that. Sometimes i just pull up a really long nonsense video and forget to draw. Essentially: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ -- mod star

How’d y’all come up with ur pseudonyms? (@pedanticlecturer)

I love space so much and my main blog is starryeydsailor space gay rights!! Im also tiny and full of energy and bright so basically i;m star -- mod star

Uhhhh i was like “hey i want to do uhhhhhh flower?” And then I google searched flower names until I found one I liked —- mod aster

How did you end up deciding the rough timeline of events in canon? (@pedanticlecturer)

It’s mostly determined by like. How we choose per story? If that makes sense. Like, we just take story by story, and decide “is it happening, has it happened, and when?” And then we fit them together in relation to each other just by dint of. All existing at once. Like, I knew I wanted Macbeth to be in aftermath, because like, even though there’s no murder, the way I’ve translated it to the AU is still kinda heavy, and it’s something that I don’t know that I could do properly if it were happening right now. Also, it’s more interesting IMO to have them at different times. Tl;dr we wing it per story and slot them together— mod aster (mod star agrees I just can word better, in theory)

If you could tell the story of shakespeare high in a different format than an ask blog, would you? Obviously y'all are making very good use of the format, but would you want to write this as a animated series or like? a comic book? or is the form inseparable from the story? (@pedanticlecturer)

I kinda wanted to do a webcomic or maybe to plot develop through like, animatics but the element of surprise comes from the asks we get and really makes us think so the blog is a good start. We didnt think we’d get this far -- mod star

Pretty much what Star said— there are certain elements where it’d be neat to do as a comic or as an animatic. Like, the fantasy dream is like, an anthology webcomic of each story, where you can like, see other characters in the background and stuff. But to be honest, we develop a lot by what we’re asked— there was a post about developing worldbuilding by being asked questions and then pretending you’ve thought about the answer, and it’s not far off. Personally, it’s hard to just lay out a story, because I have a whole WORLD and what’s relevant? What are people interested in? It’s by getting questions that I can then focus in on an area to develop. And yeah, we Super didn’t think we’d get this far lmao — mod aster

Any headcanons about your characters that you don't think will ever come up on the blog through asks or plot posts? (@pedanticlecturer)

I could make a whole separate post for this!!!!! Mostly its voice headcanons (and by mostly i mean like 1 or 2) or relationship hcs!!!! -- mod star

Honestly same. I don’t think I have voice headcanons for mine, though I bet I could find some. I’ve got a bunch of miscellaneous headcanons that just kinda float around, but like they’re scattered, too numerous for this post, and also not always things I’m sure are canon yet.— mod aster

[lucifermagne]

I’ll be as honest and sweet as I can here, but...if you ask me questions concerning things that are pretty vague from the streams, Viv’s answers, or anything of the sort, I will only be able to give what I was told! Will it be correct? EH, Maybe! Could it be wrong? EH, Maybe! I’m just Marzipan, and I can’t give you 100% factual information, so please don’t send me asks that make me feel like you are testing my knowledge or trying to counter anything I might say on this blog! I can only speculate, and, as much as I’d ADORE working on Hazbin myself (you know, I did think it’d be fun to voice Rosie if I could pull it off but I’m just a poor college brat), I know very little! 

THE KIDS IN HELL thing will be a grey area for a while, and some things that are vaguely spoken about with Hell will ALSO be touch and go! On this blog, I created a bit of lore behind the denizens of Hell and how they enter Hell with AC (or my main squeeze Lilith ; I’m not tagging a second time because that’s just notif spam) where they FIRST go through Purgatory (a giant hill where they are subjected to their sins being REMINDED to them through however God chooses to throw it at them [primarily: screaming in their face, visions, hallucinations, and forcing them to walk a painful amount]; THIS IS ONLY FOR FIRST TIME DECEASED INDIVIDUALS), then they are DROPPED down into Limbo (dropped meaning they basically fall from the sky and SLAM into the pavement). Limbo is like airport security where they wait in a long ass long behind all other sinners, they get checked out, then their finalized form is given to them through it without them noticing until they’re just THROWN out into Hell.

When thrown out into Hell, they’re essentially given a home (which could be empty or abandoned by a recent purge) and expected to find their own way (as Viv said: some demons might try to help them, but most will try to deceive them to steal what they have and leave them to suffer, because...it’s hell). Good luck, guys! THOUGH Ac and I’s fossils are trying to make Limbo much nicer for new sinners currently due to their own experiences going through Purgatory and Limbo when they were forced to become human a while back!

For now, that is MY BLOG’S lore and I expect you to follow it unless you have HCs of your own that we can discuss in IMs (I’m flexible for AU plots of my own stuff but this blog is pretty firm on the dash stuff)!

I GOT OFF POINT, but...I’m not a content creator on the Hazbin Hotel team ; I can only speculate and fly by the seat of my pants, so I’m REALLY REALLY SORRY if I get anything wrong on here! I’m just guessing and shrugging my shoulders at everything given! <3 Please, be gentle with me, the mun! 

I promise this isn’t hate sent to make you feel bad for being excited to ask me questions, but this IS to say a disclaimer that what I say COULD change! I’m...just a little rper here and the streams can be Viv throwing us for a loop at times, changing her mind in the moment, or being unsure of some things ; it could also be her telling us what she really feels and what is on the show, but we gotta remember that some things are always subject to change! I promise that I’ll do my best, but I will get things wrong, no doubt, so I hope you won’t be angry with me!