#im sorry asdfghjk

[fabdante]

so i maybe deleted all my video files off of my computer in a mad dash to clear up some memory and don't feel like redownloading them so i just ripped the instagram files

here's that raven DTIYS drawing from months ago

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[popcultr]

ryan had never been interested in joining or being a part of a frat, that definitely wasn't his scene. but there was something about dovid in general, that had him curious, he was different from most. he doesn't move out of the bed, he wasn't ready to leave just yet, "mhm. yeah, we can just forget about the shit out there and have a good time, i get it" he was glad that his room was a safe safe haven for the two of them. ryan knew that he needed to be more upfront with the other, but he was struggling with what to say, they both ran in very opposite circles, could they actually make things worse, "yikes, i don't want that for you" he agrees. dovid mentions the party and his heart flutters a little, he's not sure if he should say yes or no. he wanted to hang out with the other some more, but he'd struggle at a frat party, he pauses, "sure. i can come for one, it'd be cool to see where you hang out".

it wasn’t like his frat brothers would care that he was hooking up with a guy, but they certainly would’ve cared that ryan wasn’t a frat brother. they were a very insular community and anyone not part of the beta delta chi fraternity—or a frat in general—was written off as a geed. “absolutely!” dovid looked over at ryan on the bed as he dressed. “it’s super cool because we can just hang out when we want in here and then not worry about all that other bullshit out there, y’know? it’s easy.” his shirt now over his head, he worked on pulling his shorts back on. “nah, i gotta get back to the house or there’ll be hell to pay at the next chapter meeting.” dovid rolled his eyes comically, though he really loved being in a frat. it was what was going to happen to him after graduation that scared him. “…you could come to the party, if you wanted?” dovid offered, figuring ryan was going to decline. their friend groups didn't intersect and he doubted ryan would enjoy being around a bunch of drunk jocks, but he still wanted to be nice and extend the offer.

[limerine]

Iluna → Panaginip.𖥔 ݁ ˖

Yandere Xiao x Reader imagine

"Sa mundong ito, ang ganda ng mga bituin... ngunit, sa 'yo- sa 'yo lang ako nakatingin."

I want to be with you, to be by your side. Everyday and every passing minute, to be close to you is all i long for... But i can't be with you, no. I won't allow it no matter how much it hurts.

・・・・・―

Stuck admiring from afar as you gaze up the stars with Paimon, a small smile appears on Xiao's face before he covers it up with his hand. He looks down, lamentation glazed over his eyes.

"If only..." he thought. "It could be me down there with the Traveler." removing the hand covering his face, with his head still down, not daring to take another look at you before turning back. Xiao was about to leave but then he hears his name being called by the same sweet voice he loved. his love.

"Xiao!" His heart skips a beat, and without another moment wasted he teleports to your side. Paimon Immediately flocking to his face, "Xiaaoooo, you're here!" she says excitedly, kicking her little legs mid-air. "Is there something you need Traveler...?" He asks coldly, ignoring Paimon. "Heyyyy!" Paimon whines in the background.

"I do need something... well, someone." Xiao raises a brow, "someone?" you giggle at Xiao's serious yet confused expression. "Yes... I need you Xiao. I need you." His eyes widened at your words... the words echoing in his ear as his heartbeat races.

I need you.

You leaned forward on the wooden railings, "Stay and watch the stars with us Xiao." with a sweet smile on your face, you look up at him with your doe eyes. In the inside, you were begging he would stay.

Xiao darts his eyes around the area, couples, families, coming together to star gaze. He looks back at you, biting his lip slightly and hesitating. "I'm not sure..." suddenly his heart ached seeing your cute smiling face turning into worried anticipation. "But... staying for a just some time wouldn't hurt." relief washes over your face which made him glad, "Yayyyyy! now let's start stargazing! come on Xiao!" Paimon pushes Xiao, with her non-existent strength, beside you. You and Xiao look at eachother, you're smiling so sweetly at him he couldn't help but smile back as well.

This moment in time, no matter how small it may be... he hopes it will never come to an end. The night's wind is cold but his flustered cheeks and beating heart makes him feel so warm. Sneaking a glance at you, looking up at the stars with a smile on you face. You looked perfect under the starry night and lights.

Closing his eyes, he feels everything the moment longer, the emotions, warmth, and you so close to him... In his mind it never ends. Opening his eyes again, he's back in reality. Turning around to find you, you were already gone from the spot you and Paimon stood. Only the couples and family of Liyue were left stargazing.

A deep sigh leaves his lips... putting back his cold mask on, he disappears into the night. There is no use in lamenting over something so far fetched, it could never happen in reality, it will never happen. And... he's thankful for that.

Even if it hurts...

"Traveler..."

・・・・・―

One day, even if it's s just a dream, i won't ever dare to wake up. I want... i need, to be with you.

"Gusto kitang makasama buong gabi, nakahigang nakaharap sa mga bituin. Hinihintay ang kinabukasan tayong dalawa lang sa istoryang ito..."

[lemedstudent2021]

it says that I’m just following you. It doesn’t say mutual. I am confused

IT DO NOW >:]

[fabdante-sparda]

i made an art bluesky!

i'm trying to use it but honestly im so bad at keeping up with art social media outside of tumblr so who's to say how long that lasts but incase you're there and want to follow me there, there you go!

[badlydrawnjane]

Hey Janey, what are your thoughts on the roxy? ;]

GG: She's one of my best friends! GG: She's also a bumbling idiot sometimes, but I guess that's part of her charm :B

[judasisgayriot]

I can’t do this without you, Nathan.

[gold-rhine]

playing nilou bloom literally sounds like “this is what a good pussy sounds like” video, but things die real fast its fun

[popcultr]

"that's a lot better. you know, i think you should call me that all the time" astrid replies, she still couldn't believe that she was his girlfriend. she'd had a crush on him for such a long time, she thought that she'd never have a chance, but now here they were. "hm. you're right, you do" her stomach swirling with excitement, she was starting to think they wouldn't even last in this bar, "oh i would but would you dare do it?" sage whispers back.

"oh, you mean astrid? my lovely, amazing, beautiful girlfriend?" he lists off adjectives to describe her perfectly. with their long history, he never expects for them to end up like this -- thinking that it was just some childhood crush since they were around one another all the time. "excuse me, i deserve all the niceness in the world." eyes hints with lust as he shrugs his shoulders. "don't act like you're not thrilled to be pushed up against the wall." he whispers, leaning in closely towards her.

[fabdante]

my second piece for the @zutaracoloringbook zine! for this one i wanted to play with reincarnation and lifetimes and fish and what not

you can get a high quality pdf version of this piece and a ton others to color for yourself (for free!!) over at the coloring books tumblr! we'd all love to see what you guys come up with!

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[aureentuluva70]

asdfghjk im sorry but i am just dying of laughter at this

Edit: Feanor in the published silmarillion did not die fighting a Balrog, he died fighting MULTIPLE Balrogs.

[menelaiad]

Hi! I know your favorite character is Menelaus (mine too) and I wanted to ask you, what is your opinion about him in Euripides’ Oresteia? And in Euripides’ Helen? Because as I see, the Homeric Menelaus is a little different, and Euripides didn’t despict him as a nice character.

Thank you for your answer in advance! :)

hi, there!

heck yea! fellow menelaus stans unite, let's make jackets or smth.

UHHHHH i spoke about this a lot in my recent MA thesis and it's the foundation for my phd (or at least a big chunk of it) and yes i'm sorry this bitch is going off about her academics again.

so. euripides was athenian and it's fairly safe to say that the athenians altered menelaus characterisation on a HUGE scale and it was mainly euripides as he wrote the most works featuring him. and it's also fairly safe to say that euripides didn't like menelaus OR helen OR hermione simply because they were spartan and given the context of his time, he couldn't really be pro-sparta. so, he used menelaus' family in a myriad of ways to just mock ALL spartans and spartan culture. i won't go into that too much now and i'll focus specifically on the plays you asked about! :)

ORESTES (i assume you meant orestes? aeschylus did the oresteia but euripides just did this one?): so here we see .... menelaus being not very great with his family. but not in a mean way he's just .... useless .. coward like almost? he's a big fence sitter tbh. he doesn't wanna get involved in orestes' shit and that is painfully obvious. again. that's meant to make menelaus look shitty that he doesn't care about his family and his brothers death and his nephew literally having visions of hell BUT. personally? i dont blame him ASDFGHJK. man just got his wife back. got home. dealing with grief and loss and survivors guilt and maybe ptsd and shit .................... and then orestes turns up like 'help me fix my problems' BRO HE GOT HIS OWN DAMN PROBLEMS. and THEN they're like 'ok uncle that's cool. we're gonna kill ur wife and daughter though' LIKE LEAVE THE OLD MAN ALONE. i LOVE menelaus and agamemnon's dynamic. so i'm not saying menelaus didn't care about aga and aga's family. im NOT saying that. but (and i KNOW its my modern perspective) i can see why menelaus couldn't be arsed. and he wasn't even mean about it? he was just nonplussed. AGAIN the ancients would have HATED that, but my modern ass can relate tbh. and lets not forget. he's caught between a rock and a hard place. if he helps orestes, he risks greek wrath. which (in this play anyway) is already strong enough against him cause of helen and troy. so like. euripides has kinda put him in this impossible situation and then makes him the 'stupid funny lazy ass not helpful uncle' guy when he just backs out. which i think is unfair. AND TO TOP IT OFF. APOLLO COMES AND THEN TAKES HIS WIFE. AFTER EVERYTHING HE DID TO GET HER BACK. justice for this old man i s2g.

HELEN: OH HERE WE GO! SO helen is often referred to as a tragi-comedy which i think is very accurate. and euripides is using it to condemn war as a whole (athens had recently suffered a big loss) like if helen wasn't even in troy what was the point of the war? he makes menelaus very .... pathetic, for lack of a better word. and helen seems to take the reigns in their relationship, which would have been a huge no-no to the athenian audience. it would have made helen look domineering and unmanageable and menelaus weak and foolish. he also has menelaus cry a lot. cry and lament his losses as a king. again, the athenians would have hated a man crying. a GREEK HERO crying. but we have our 21st century vision and tbh ................ menelaus is fantastic in this play. he is so. real. he is so human. he is a man who is tired. who is lonely. who is heartbroken. a man who meets his wife who isn't his wife but actually is his wife ... and we're supposed to laugh at him because he's confused? he gets lambasted by so many characters and it's supposed to be funny and i think it is! i do think menelaus in helen is just .... an incredible character. he's so funny. he's so NORMAL. he reacts how you would expect a man to react. you see so many menelaus' in this play. menelaus defeated. menelaus in love. you see a menelaus in action when he comes up with the plan against proteus but also a man who respects his wife and knows when to shut up. i, much like the athenians back then, do have a giggle at menelaus in this play. but i don't hate him. it makes him all the more endearing to me and i love him.

these two menelaus' are (shockingly) two menelaus' that i like! i love helen's menelaus and i'm indifferent to orestes' menelaus tbh. but i think they're fine as portrayals and they make sense to me!

overall, me and euripides have a complicated relationship. some of his menelaus' i cannot tolerate. and some i adore. and i can actually connect his helen menelaus and his iphigenia in aulis menelaus to homeric menelaus. they're not identical by any means, but the way he behaves and his choices and stuff. you can see homeric menelaus in there somewhere, which is why i love them so much.

[ken-okamoto-official]

GUYS I BROKE MY FINGER AND CAN'T DRAW SH*T IM SORRY DRAWING REQUESTS ARE CLOSED UNTIL MY FINGER IS HEALED

[/mod it's not actually broken but I slammed a door on it and now I can barely type on one hand asdfghjk it does NOT look demure bro, not cutesy, not demure, I hate life, asdfghjk]

[fabdante-sparda]

i drew something last month and i keep routinely forgetting to reblog it here

literally the other day i went on my blog, found it, noticed it wasn't tagged with my main blogs art tags, retagged it, and then proceeded to forget to reblog it here.

i'm very good at blog management

[wolfythewitch]

...i just remembered that you get notified with every like... im super super sorry about the like spam, my zombie au brainrot just returned out of nowhere and... yeah

sorry, it will almost definitely continue because i need to bookmark these posts because brainrot

sorrrrrrry

p.s. i love it so much asdfghjk

LMAO it's all good, like spams are fun! It means someone likes my work hehe

[pretty-little-martyr]

@skykittywhatchamahcallit replied:

I’m a bit of a weirdo with politics so I think I’d like SOME more blue stuff in AZ but I don’t wanna get california’d(they’re already here and the crash rates gotten BAD and so has the housing market a WUFF) but yeah!! Being loud and proud and letting others know ur safe to be around is amazing

very valid sdfghjk i dont know much about politics beyond certain things (dont know much about how california is, most of the time i just do not have energy for things that arent directly in front of me, which sucks but also i think i speak for many florida trannies when i say we're in survival mode like that). definitely more things that are considered socially blue but are honestly just. basic human rights yknow. basic concepts of leaving people tf alone

also wanted to really highlight 'Being loud and proud and letting others know ur safe to be around is amazing' because YEA i will freely admit i experience a fair amt of anxiety being open (still would rather die than recloset myself, and i dont pass, so my only option left is being loud and proud, and i will gladly take it) but thinking about how someone else might see my punk ass in the grocery store and feel just a little bit less alone keeps me going.

Living in FLORIDA??? Rip homie dude that’s awful

oh yeah buddy im fucking suffering lmao