#im so used to being awkward and now im like a tactful linguistic stand up comedian and its FUCKING my SHIT

[smallestdogswilldie]

idk even what im suposed to do life is so boring my borderline cock wants to sabotage things to stir up adrenaline and Anger. why do i want something to be angry at or crying about!!! ive literally hit like equilibrium and its bugging me out.bc im so used to being in ruins so GOD my personality is at its peak rn and has been for the past like 3 months and everythungs great and i should feel great but im so not used to this shit and its... its Rocking me and i know this is a weird connection but it makes my personality so alluring for some reason bc it expresses itself in the way i express myself which is existentialist far-off humor and fr some reason ppl are drawn to me GUYS ive never sounded even slightly this narcissistic before because i was always ashamed. of myself of my life my fuckkn illness my Suffrance of the seemingly insufferable .. This is the first time im like steady and confident and my mind is alreay so out of its familiar meighborhood and is on like a different planet. im Not used to recieving thjs much attemtion and love and ????? my brains trying to convince me i hate it and that i need to sabotage my life and reputation again um but god knkws im probably just imagining this all i am known to have fits of extended and embarassing delusion IS ANYTHING EVEN . fuckeng REAL whats whats What is anything