#im so sorry momo im so sorry women

[ozymoron]

like mha gave me shigaraki and like his whole thing is hands and like thats aweosme cause like im into hands like weirdly and sexually so thats awesome and like hes scrawny which is new for that show cause everyone s buff which is great cause like i dont like buff men like specifically the kind of buff men this show draws with perfectly defined abs its gross to me and then they went and fucking made him buff and took away his whole hand thing like whats even the point like all the sex appeal is just gone now he doesnt even fucking have nipples whats the point theres nothing there to sexualize anymore anyways he kinda looks like jeff the unaliver when he wore that hoodie

[braintapes]

i have a kind of sentimental nostalgic attachment to bnha because of how strong it started (and i was a teen at the time). the first two seasons of the anime are so good and still hold up (at least s1 does in my rewatch) because it does feel like it's more thoughtful and willing to examine the ideas it introduces later on down the line as the protagonist grows and matures (and then...doesnt)

its the first media i encountered that got me really thinking about superheros and heroes and villains and all of that. and i'm still incredibly fascinated by that theme, that question of 'how does society define the difference between a hero and a villain and how are they treated because of that assignment' its sooo rich so many angles to explore. coming from someone who Was Not a comics books kid bnha was that spark, for me.

what really got me hooked on it was the entrance exam, where the main character's body completely breaks when he tries to use his new power to save one of the other applicants, and then in turn she saves him right back by keeping him from exploding into a fine red splatter on the ground. there was nothing to gain for either of them, nothing that helped them in the test, but they saved each other.

its such a good set up for an exploration of heroism the career path full of flashy powers and heroism as in people, any kinds people, being there for each other. and i feel like during the middle sections of the story that just...kinda...got quietly shrugged away. shades of it would still crop up but felt weirdly diminished.

i still check in with it because i want to see if, in the end, it'll hold to the themes set up at the start. as far as i can tell the author really truly could go either way 50/50. and that's so interesting to me. i want to take the manga and the anime and dissect them in a lab.

like, it'd be one thing if it was meh the entire way through. it'd just be Another Shounen, right? but because it had such potential, because it set up so much, the lack of satisfying follow through in equal proportion hurts so so much more. it feels worse when the flaws come up than it would in Just Another Shounen because it makes you go, "Cmon, man, I thought you were better than that. I know that you know better than this"

god rewatching bnha is just like. so bittersweet (i think is the word for it?). they introduce so many cool ideas and elements and its exciting cause youre just sitting there thinking "ooh i can see the set up here, theyre gonna do something SO cool with this idea later!" but then you already know. that they dont. ever. worldbuilding/setting details get dropped. character developments get dropped. characters get dropped. plots and subplots receive absolutely no followup. it's so rough man.

[stanlunter]

Characters that I think are actually straight even tho a lot of people consider them as queer:

Bc I have the whole hour before Pride Month and I'm bored, lol

Rainer. Well, he didn't show to have feelings for any male characters (and no, I don't think he likes Bertholomulo, he litterally ships him with Annie), only to Historia, plus he just doesn't give me this vibes, so yeah

Bojack main five. All of them have shown interest only to the opposite gender, so there are no reasons for them to be anything rather than straight. The only exception can be Mr Peanutbutter with his interest in Bojack bc of which I don't mind people hc him as bi, but I think it was just a platonic admiration, nothing more. Also hc any of them as aro or ace (except Todd, obviously) doesn't make sense either, since we know damn well that all of them are very romantic and almost all of them are very sexual

Howleen. I can see her being bi, but I personally don't think she's actually interested in women. She was shown to have interest in men, but women? Just no. Twyls is her bestie, not a gf. I don't mind headcanons ofc, but I just don't see it

Denji. I mean, this guy is obsessed with women and never shown interest in men, he's straight as a line, sorry

Rika & Momoe. I really don't know where it even comes from, but a lot of people hc Rika as lesbian, while she's pretty much canon straight. She litterally says "I wish you was a boy" line and you still don't get it?

What about Momoe... This one confuses me even more. For some reason the whole fandom thinks Momoe is barely canon bi/trans, I have to fully desagree with this, cuz it basically goes against her whole arc

No, she wasn't in love with her friend that killed herself. That basically was the point that her friend killed herself bc Momoe didn't like her back (at least I read it this way). In fact, Momoe litterally was sad bc only women were attracted to her bc they thought she waa a boy. While she wanted a man to find her attracted. So it makes no sense for her to like girls.

Trans think is mb arguble, but I interpritate her story as an experience of being gender nonconforming: she doesn't look like a gender she is. I don't see any trans allegories here, especially considering the fact that we have a canon trans character there, Im pretty sure, if the creators wanted Momoe to be trans, they would say she is. Also the fact that she could get in this "magical world" , since only afab can go there (considering the fact that Kaoru, as a transman, got there)

Shinji & Kaoru. Yes, this one is super objectionable. Tbh, I can see him being bi, as everybody thinks he is. However, I do like another explanation of his character arc and his relationship with Kaoru, bc It's just much more interesting than him just being bisexual

Well, in the way I see it, Shinji is straight and basically can be only attracted to girls, however, Kaoru is the only person that showed "love" to Shinji and who "cared" about him. While everyone else were rejecting and just using him, Kaoru is the first person who said Shinji he loves him and the only one that basically didn't want anything from him. Who could give Shinji unconditional love he can't get from others. And I really do not think that Shinji loved him "back" in romantic way. Imo, he didn't love him at all, but since Kaoru was the only one who gave Shinji at least some love, Shinji had no other choice than take this love anyways. Just bc it was the only way for him to feel loved in general. And to me this idea reveales Shinji's character much better than just "he's bisexual, that's why he hang out with Kaoru" and "Kaoru exists only for lgbt rep" (also have to add that It's only about original anime, not rebuilds, bc I basically haven't watched it and mb It's different there)

What about Kaoru? Kaoru isn't a human to have feelings or love. In reality he doesn't care about Shinji, he just pretended to love him only to find out what love for humans is. So ofc I don't think he's straight either. He just doesn't have feelings bc he's not a human and not even a person. He's just an angel who pretended to be a boy to know humans better

Ramona (from the movie). I thought this one is basically canon, but for some reason some people still think she's bi. Yes, she had relationship with another girl, but she has litterally said that she was just "a little bi-curious" - which literally means that she's straight and just wanted to have this experience and that she's not wlw in any way, unlike Roxie. Imo, headcanoning movie Ramona is bi is kinda even biphobic, since it sounds exactly like this stereotype that bi girls only play with girls and always chose men anyways

Higuchi. This take isn't as strong, but I just personally don't see her as wlw. She's obsessed with Ryunosuke and has never shown any sign of being interested in Gin, so yeah, I think she's just straight and gives me these vibes tbh

Annie & Hitch. Again, both girls that have shown interest only to men. Annie loves Armin, and, even tho I don't like Aruani, It's litterally canon and even has some build up. And Hitch talks only about men as well. Also I really love her relationship with Marlo and their love was really so important. Yeah, both of them could be bisexual, but I just don't see this. The only hc Im really against is any of them being lesbian, bc it just doesn't make sense

Lute. I mean, she's litterally homophobic and It's basically canon. And she didn't show any signs of being closest gay/bi anyways and Imo she loves Adam. Idk why would she be anything besides homophobic straight. Like, I can see Adam being bi, but Lute? Nah

And yeah, if anyone thinks me seing some characters as straights makes me homophobic, I advise you to use your brain or smth. Anyways, that's just my vision which I'm not trying to impose on anyone, lol

[dekusleftsock]

I think if hori wrote toga better more people would like her but he hardly gives a shit about her so her story and personality and thoughts are messy (as in badly written) and nonsensical. I wanna like her but you have to do a lot of leg work to make her interesting and worth the time and love, Hori doesnt love her enough to but a lot of effort into her, unlike the other two male villains who he wont shut up about. Togas always just been (for me personally) an underutilized, underdeveloped waste of what could have been a cool idea. The Anti-toga people are not unfounded in most of their criticisms (MOST), shes the only seemingly queer person and of course shes a lustful blood sucking pervert psycho murderer with no real depth.

(btw you are more than welcome to both ignore this and LOVE toga I am not saying for you shes not worth the time or energy, this is just me reflecting on her and how hori has treated her, i appreciate and value fanon and the effort fans will put into loving her, thats so cool and based, im glad you can find joy in something like that, for people who like her- I wish she was cared for by her writer 💕)

Uh… what I see or believe isn’t fanon broski.

Look Horikoshi has always had a problem of pushing aside the women in his series, the worst of this case has ALWAYS been ochako. Do I think that’s because he wanted to write a gay love story? Yeah, I do. Does that make it okay? Absolutely not. I will be the first person to shout from the rooftops that horikoshi does not write women as well as he should. He has fan service abundant, he makes crude jokes using women that really aren’t all that funny, he’s pushed aside his women and their moments in order to forward bkdk’s development.

But you can absolutely not come into my ask to tell me that she is an, “underdeveloped wasted idea”. Because she’s just fucking not.

People think toga is just “the blood sucking bisexual who likes animals too”, but she’s just fucking not. That’s never been her defining trait or character.

Toga is a subversion of the yandere trope. That sadly means there will always be misogynistic rhetoric because that’s what the trope is. At least BEFORE the subversion happens, which is now! Where Ochako DOESNT FIND HER CREEPY!

She’s going to be creepy and weird and have issues because she’s a villain. She’s a queer villain. Her entire story is one that defies the tragedy of carmilla and refuses to let her identity be anything but “Himiko Toga”. She has always been a character about identity. She’s never been “possessive” or “jealous” over Izuku for this purpose. It’s the reason why she’s bisexual, why she just “has an attraction to blood”. It’s a queer story wrapped in metaphor and it always has been. Why is THIS monster/villain queer story any worse than, idfk, the joker and Batman. I haven’t found a single person able to genuinely voice that to me in a way that is convincing! Horror and unconventional ways of love and ESPECIALLY blood has always always ALWAYS been a part of queer coded stories for a LONG TIME. We are the unconventional. We always have been. And that’s not me “bending over backwards” HER PARENTS LITERALLY CALL HER A DEVIANT AND SHE ASKS WHY NO ONE ELSE STRUGGLES WITH THE URGES SHE DOES.

I’ve said this before, and I’ll fucking say it again, Toga is horikoshi’s most well written and thought out female character. Ochako got kicked over and over again, same with momo, Tsu, Mina, and whoever the fuck else.

And I’m sorry, but writing a queer villain inspired by the lesbian vampire trope isn’t homophobic or bad writing.

She’s HAD depth. Idk if you read her backstory or her feelings on Ochako, twice, hawks, or even Izuku but she’s HAD depth. And I’m tired of pretending she hasn’t.

Normally I wouldn’t engage with shit like this but you reached out to me DIRECTLY. So let me make this clear: you can have whatever opinions you want on toga, and I will not get angry or express anger in any sort of way. But this account? This is not your fucking space and I will ABSOLUTELY meme on you for it.

[satancopilotsmytardis]

im really curious bout your thoughts on tochako and ships with ochako if you dont mind sharing!!

I just do not like Ochako, I don't necessarily think she's a bad character, but I personally can not stand her. I don't like that of all the women in MHA she feels the most standard 'girl next door'out of them. I think that while her motivations for becoming a hero are relatable and understandable, in practice, said motivations don't give ME PERSONALLY anything of value for her character. I feel like the manga and anime want me to find her deeper than she's been shown to be or want me to like her because she's nice, and I just don't. I don't have like an essay about why I think she's bad, this is 100% just my subjective opinion, but that does mean I just hate all ships with her.

Therefore I think that Toga deserves someone better as her main love interest, but Ochako is her primary one in canon, and since I, in theory, want to give Toga what makes her happy in my stories, and not challenge the norm too much because Toga's romantic relationships are not usually the focus of my fics. (But if you read Bonded, I don't think I was subtle in how much I wanted to ditch Ochako and showcased how Toga could have a harem of her own in class 1-B, and frankly, that's what she deserves)

As for Izuchako: boring standard male main character has to have a female love interest so shit with the rival doesn't get too homoerotic

Bakuchako: the rival was getting too homoerotic with the MC so we put him with the female love interest so they can fill the bad boy/good girl archetype

Asui/Ochako: (this is the only other Ochako ship I'm vaguely aware of) Fine, passable, but I still don't like Ochako so I still can't like this ship. Maybe Asui would have more fun with Momo.

Sorry I don't have deep analysis for this one! Sometime you just don't like a character and there's not a good reason for it!

[seoafin]

I think Akutami is just going for a tragic end. Like, it's obvious he hates Gojo, and ending the series with Gojo being the last standing would add even more to the "Throughout the Heaves and earth, he alone is the strongest."

Which SUCKS bc even gojo wanted the kids to get strong!!! He wanted strong allies so he WONT be alone!!! Akutami could have kept him in there longer, and have the kids actually do something, since they couldn't fall back on gojo anymore. I wish Yuji had that win against Mahito, instead of Kenjaku just absorbing him like a Pokémon. Or better yet, NOBARA. LET HER GET A WIN. SHE COULDVE WON, AND SHE SHOULDVE. Killing off Yuki, for what? Sidelining shoko and miwa and every other female character except Maki?

And what was the point of the culling games? Bringung in military forces? If Gege has a plan and is somehow able to tie this all together I'll be impressed. But only if he finally utilizes his female characters the way they should have always been, like he did for Maki. He did SO good with her, what happened to the rest?

Sorry I'm still ranting, but to add on to Akutami's misuse of his female characters-- Shouldn't women in the jjk universe have an advantage?

Momo was talking about how woman in jjk need to be perfect, just to be accepted. Disobedient woman in the zenin clan can have their mouths sewed shut. Adding in the general woes of being a woman, wouldn't that lend for greater storage or a more unique type of cursed energy?

Add THAT onto what our female characters have faced. Miwa lost Mechamaru, and she even tried to go up against Kenjaku even when he warned against it. And he almost used that Uzumaki cursed thing (i believe) on her. Her brother is in one of the colonies. (Honestly I feel she's one of the most underutilized characters). Nobara isn't from a great clan like Megumi or freakishly fast and strong like Yuji, even if we haven't seen I'm sure she has some problems with feeling left behind, that little girl in her still searching for a grand escape, her Saori. Momo already has spoken of the troubles of women sorcerers, so I'm sure she's been battling this image and ideal for a while. Do I even need to mention Maki and Mai?

NO BUT I DO NEED TO MENTION SHOKO.

"I was there too you bastards." Like??? She was in the generation with the two greatest sorcerers! She bore witness to it all!! What about Riko??? The Star plasma vessel, who im sure wouldve completed the trio of the strongest sorceres had she lived, and then there's Shoko, again.

Why is it that even when Akutami uses his female cast they always end up as some sort of character growth or regression or stepping stool for the male cast? Yuki and choso. Riko and gojo/geto. Kenjaku and Tengen (who I think is female). Angel and Megumi. TSUMIKI and Megumi. Nobara and Yuji. Like????

no i agree it just doesn't make sense. like is the whole point of jjk not gojo ushering a new age with strong allies??? why would akutami bring him back when the students have barely begun to actually do anything without gojo's help. AND NOBARA'S STILL NOT BACK???? ig this is confirmation that she's never coming back ugh. akutami killing off characters when he has no more use for them is so detrimental to the narrative. i truly believe nanami should've survived. but oh well :/

i just feel like his unboxing reiterates how dependent everything is around gojo! it's to the extent that other characters begin to become static because of how much everything revolves around gojo's strength. i was really looking forward to the students getting more of a spotlight.

the thing about akutami is that im pretty sure it's not even as intentional as other mangakas. akutami follows a pretty perfunctory story structure and when it comes to utilizing his characters he seeks to have his characters perform a single purpose and then when he doesn't need them they're gone. instead of dynamic characters we get flat characters or they just die before they ever really get a chance to shine (nanami). it sucks all around tbh but i do think gojo is going to die. akutami's kinda sick like that so. i'd also rather gojo die than any students LOL

[nr1chaedickrider]

i was trying to understand ur point of view more and i had the thought. i dont know the best way to describe it so bare with me.

but could it be that most times gp reader seems more man coded to you because it always tends to be dom/top gp and at least stereotypically men tend to be more like that in straight relationships? (which i dont agree with btw fuck gender stereotypes be who you wanna be)

and i may be wrong with this since im a fairly new follower, but it seems like you prefer to write for dom/top idol over dom/top reader? which i guess would also line up for me aswell since i prefer dom/top reader?

sorry if this is kinda spammy and u dont wanna talk about it. not trying to be rude just understand better :)

nah its not because of the stereotypes and everything

yeah I do prefer writing dom idol since i myself am not the most dominant person ykyk but i do also write sub idol sometimes (f.e. my newest momo fic)

but idk i have the feeling its how the idols get "treated" in the g!p reader fics that makes me think its literally a man... like idk in my opinion its like, men treat women differently than women treat women and idkk... im bad at explaining

[fictionkinfessions]

so im a gay man. a married gay man! extremely homosexual. love men. *Canonically Married To A Man.* love my husband! but there are . so many women who selfship with me . and it just makes me so extremely uncomfortable. like... well first of all what about my partner? and also I literally can't feel the same way even if you pretended he didn't exist because I just. didn't and don't feel that kind of way towards women. idk it just feels like cheating to me... if you really loved me and you really were my fan you'd know I love my husband......... I also found people who selfship with my husband that got really really angry when our marriage was announced too. they kept talking about how they always hated me as a character too. can the two of us? not be happy? and me even saying all this just makes me feel so awful because we always loved our fans and wanted to show everyone the best performance we could so me openly expressing any issues I have with our current fans is... it just feels not my style at all. I want to love our fans. i really do. maybe if I was still in show business i could just treat it like normal and ignore it and it wouldn't bother me. but now im just some ordinary guy, you know? so it feels really really weird that they're making me attracted to women and that they want to date me and stuff!!!!!! (even though I know it's not Me Now me it's still me!)

sighsssss sorry for the ramble! again this isn't really my style pretend I said nothing because I do still love our fans!!! thank you all for your support!!! hope I didn't bother anyone too bad lol

momo 🍑

[hey-its-cweepy]

*throws sweet fish boy upon thee*

kidding..but i do offer Cary to see if any of your ocs would interact or ship with him?

HIHI

Buckle up cause we got a lot of OCs to go through✨

Cweepy is naturally very shy, but she'll just need a bit of time to get used to the friendly and outward personality!

I feel like Cho-Hee might unintentionally scare him💀 but he'll try to be slow and gentle! (And guide him back to the right school)

Dallas... I think we can all agree that Dallas is banned from meeting certain characters-

Salvatore and Vincenzo are always a package deal! Sal just has 2 people to look after now lol- But I think Vincenzo's especially gonna like them and question a lot about the sea

Momo is running away Im sorry💀 ITS NOT HIS FAULT!!! She's just spooked bcs he's tall as hell

Dell would probably approach him first! They are registering and taking notes of him just like all the other students! They'd also compliment his singing and say that they think he can make it big

I feel like he might take Faust's teasing a bit too seriously so its probably not a good idea

I dont know if he can tolerate Hextian's smell so maybe not💀 bro cant even get near water/fishes without bad consequences-

Benibara is a no<3

Kenzo is also a no<3 he's very confused as to why he likes forks

Venus also probably approached him first! Gives some advice on how to get used to legs (although she's lowkey confused about the fork thing)

MARINUS IS A HELL NO- he probably joked about eating him once but I don't think its a joke anymore-

Kumo probably wouldn't really talk to him

Aotome is also analyzing/obtaining data from him! Although unfortunately she cant really be near water</3

Banji is only upset he's from RSA, he doesnt like those students either

Kamïk thinks he's interesting, probably more likely to find him when he gets lost though (although if it werent for the uniform, he would've thought he was from octa)

Clover, Avery and Jolie are a NO (unless its just Clover ig lol) but the three of them together are absolute bitches and will definitely set him up in a bad way

Roan probably doesnt even know what RSA is- if he gets lost, he has no idea how to bring him back, he'd also question a lot of the stuff he's collected

Pepper is a NO.

Wolfo, Creek and Poppet are also a NO. Mainly because Wolfo and Creek have had enough of RSA students making fun of Poppet and just automatically think anyone from there is gonna do the same

Seine probably actively tries to scare him at first before being friendly!

Toma probably developed a small crush on him (DO NOT CONFRONT HIM ABOUT THE DOODLES HE WILL BE VERY EMBARRASSED), absolutely head over heels about his singing, I imagine Toma accidently stabbed himself with one of the forks at some point and Cary is very confused as to why Toma doesn't feel it but somebody else does

Vysio is just a GIANT lady holding him in her hands- (I just like imagining giant women holding teeny tiny people ONSODBSLDN) She'd probably only ever leave him just outside RSA however because she's too nervous to step inside (probably introduces him to Yuta!)

Yuta is a blabber mouth, like a little parrot that wont shut up, so he's definitely rambling to him about something (wether its the most ridiculous thing or something more serious), they could show off their collections to each other!!! (Probably introduces him to Vysio!)

Astoria might try to convince him to put on the crown, especially since he seems "clumsy" or "gullible" (A BAD THING)

Elbarnes needs him to pass the clean check first (happens to everybody, including staff), but once that's over, he's more than glad to talk and be friendly! (Although if you show him the collection, he's cleaning everything regardless of how big it is)

Amos is genuinely confused about the sass/jealousy of popular singers on the surface, probably tries to help him get over it

"... No offense, but I'm afraid you wont really be doing much of a positive impact with this envy..."

Enid is very mom-friend like and definitely tried to help him not get lost all the time! SHE WONT LET ANYBODY HURT HIM-

Lorien is intimidated a bit by the height at first, but he'll get used to it! His neck probably hurt from looking up all the time though

Jessica is a NO. Because she envys his figure so much-

Oceana thinks he's really cute!!! Definitely tries to help him with his legs or probably picks him up if she can! She thinks his collection is cool and loves his singing voice!

Indira would probably pay more attention if he's with the fishes/in mer form, she just likes animals more than people💀

Torimiya probably intimidates him on accident in the beginning, but she'll slowly get close with him✨ She's just naturally a bit tough on the outside! ALSO WOULDN'T LET ANYONE HURT HIM

Asahise is definitely interested in the mer-form and probably rambling about something silly the first time they meet- Asahise is showing off their collection of plushies in exchange for getting to see his "junk" collection✨

Tokki is confused as to how he keeps getting lost- (he'd definitely try to help him out with that though!)

Jaiden would love to play the harp with his singing! Asks questions about life in the sea but also prone to rambling about space lol

Mindel is perplexed when he "steals" a fork and uses it for his hair...

"... What did you just do???"

Mindel will definitely ask questions about the sea life and fish friends though, he's just interested!

Frey is babbling about all of their plants and plant life, absolutely loses their shit over the fish friends (they think they're so cute!!!)

Sylvester is definitely flirting with him lmao (will he notice? Who knows✨)

Mao is very quiet so he'll probably have to bend down/lean in to properly hear what he's saying

I think Cherokee's little magic displays might surprise him✨

Omg imagine Shiloh and Cary being friends with the same school of fish- OSNDODNWF- Shiloh is also definitely introducing him to more of his animal friends! (Once he gets more comfortable with him though)

Midge thinks he's cute, but probably wouldn't act on anything, tries to help him get more used to his legs though! (Midge has plenty of legs so he knows✨)

Kendall is IMMEDIATELY designing something from the amount of inspo he gave them

Charlene would also make things for him! You could take her as the mom or grandma friend, she'd definitely introduce him to her friends so its not just her (you may touch the bunny tail ONCE)

Deedee, Janus, "Dolly" and Birsha are a NO.

-Deedee would probably say she wants to take off his face

-Janus is just a terrible person (although honestly its a coin toss), he'd probably trick him into thinking their friends only to do something sinister

-"Dolly" is actually a parasite latching on to someone and she doesn't mind switching hosts if she thought it was worth it (although she mainly keeps to herself so they probably wont interact)

-Birsha will just get him in trouble💀

Lucinda thinks he's very sweet and helps him get back to RSA everytime he's lost (you will probably never catch her without the bear mask though), she's also a quiet one so you might need to lean in close!

Panko just registers him as a cute "little" fish! Would definitely get comfortable enough to sleep on/near him (please dont wake her up)

Canela is a NO because she is literally poisonous and doesnt want to hurt him or the fish friends

[its-tea-time-darling]

Tag game.

PLEASE MAKE YOUR OWN POST IF YOU WANT TO DO IT, TOO

thank you for the tag @monkey-d-momo <3 (sorry momo i somehow delved into german language stuff and politics alksdjflkasdfkfdsakjklsd)

Fav color: green

Currently reading: a novel abt eleanor roosevelt (fictionalized, wlw), i forget the title. i found at my library.

Last song: message in a bottle

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Currently working on: christmas presents, staying on top of excruciatingly boring real life admin stuff

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Fav writer: imma do this for german authors for a change!

so, definitely walter moers. (die 13 1/2 leben des käptn blaubärs, rumo und die wunder im dunkeln, die stadt der träumenden bücher, etcetc)

then i really like the swiss author corinne rufli, she has a book where different women who love women older than 70 talk about themselves and their life stories! huuuge rec!!!

the second book she's co-written is about swiss sapphic top sportswomen! i'll link it if anyone wants me to!

AND MY BEST FRIEND :D she just got her first book published some weeks ago!!!!!!

Fav dessert: this time of the year i'd say vermicelle

Fav rapper: to stay with the german thing, i'm going to name the one rapper i've ever listened to in my life: sookee

she's a german, anti fascist queer rapper and her songs SLAP. i've also met her several times when she's come to switzerland ONE TIME SHE NOTICED I'D CUT MY HAIR SINCE THE LAST TIME SHE SAW ME ALSKDJFLKJF

there's loads of songs i love by her (PLEASE COME TALK TO ME IF YOU LIKE HER, TOO), but i think the easiest gateway drug is 'queere tiere':

Fav soccer/hockey/tennis player: none.

though i will tell you a funny anecdote where an acquaintance of mine + other climate activists played tennis in the entrance hall of a swiss bank (credit suisse) for whom roger federer (famous swiss tennis player) makes advertisements to draw public attention to the bank making climate damaging investments.

they had to go before court, but were not found guilty, the judge said this was an appropriate measurement for drawing attention to very urgend climate problems! :D

i found an article on it:

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Fav politician: my roomate :D

Loyalty or lust: in fic? lust over and over and over *praying hands emoji*

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[jihyoruri]

ok hi guys!! sorry for my absence 😞 I’ve had a lot of schoolwork and I’m trying to finish this momo fic but it literally requires me to comb through every single year month and day of twice’s career just to keep an accurate timeline 😭😭ffs. I’m looking up “how far is inkigayo from the Han river” and “luxury korean cigarette” just to get some accurate timeframes and materials like THIS IS NOT FUCKING SERIOUSSS

but in honor of the stardom fic FINALLY DROPPING (I love them all their so funny 😭😭but eunjin and yuri are still my faves) here is my analysis on why “real men” by mitski is richgirlyn’s song (if you couldn’t tell richgirlyn is my favorite yn and has been since her fic dropped. I am THEE FIRST richgirlyn stan do not PLAY)

so uhmmm.. TW FOR ED DISCUSSION! also maybe grammar mistakes idk

Real Men - title, ties into her mothers style of raising children.

“Real men don't need other people”

-start of the song. richgirlyn has been raised to believe she is “better” than other people, and that she can’t rely on others to not appear weak. this perfectly lines up with her mothers way of raising children, in the way she only knows how to parent boys, making richgirlyn believe she has to be a “real man”, in the sense of emotional control.

“And real men suck it in”

-yeah. richgirlyn has anorexia, an eating disorder. this was caused by her mother and her insistence on richgirlyn to LOOK a certain way. im sure she always told her to suck it in, sit up straight, on top of “lose some weight”. i get you so bad richgirlyn I get you so bad. SHES JUST LIKE ME FR😭😭.. but yeah anyway “real men suck it in”, kind of self explanatory. Her mother is forcing her to be a “real man”, telling her to suck it in appearance wise but also “suck it up”. boys don’t feel emotions silly

“Real men don't flinch or bleed in public”

-again, tying into the fact that her mother raised her to believe showing emotions is a sign of weakness. you can not flinch or bleed in front of anyone, you can not be hurt in front of anyone. in the sense that people will rub salt into the open wound no matter how much they tell you they will not. they promise it’s sugar and it never is. a you can never trust another person enough to see you vulnerable because they will turn it against you. the saddest thing is richgirlyn literally opened up a fraction to chaewon and she became ten times more vicious. this probably reinforced to her what her mother always said— trust no one, don’t be weak in front of them. she can’t even trust kazuha. this is the reason richgirlyn does not cry in front of ANYONE

“Oh, I think I'm a real man

Little boys cry and look around for comfort

And always get what they want”

-no because she’s literally the song. little boys (her brothers) probably could get comfort from their mom because she favors them and loves them. any hardship they go through is treated more seriously. they always get what they want— they get to be loved, they get attention, they’re perfect, and most importantly they get her mothers love. all richgirlyn really wants is her mom to accept her, to love her. i know she would immediately accept it if her mom told her “I’m sorry, I love you”. like she would fold immediately. little boys always get comforted, they get to be loved— but she has to be the pinnacle of success, of perfection— she is not allowed to cry, to have comfort at all. she must be strong

“Little boys see toys and say, "I can take that!"

-they the type of brothers to break her dolls and laugh at her I can feel it. this is a subtle nod to how men think they’re entitled to women, ie, how these show hosts treat richgirlyn like she’s stupid and constantly objectify her. they think that she’d some idiot girl, and they can say and do whatever they want to her.

“Oh, you are my little boy

Though honestly sir, all I wanna do

Is get naked in front of you

So you can look me up and down

And tell me, "Well done girl, you're looking good"”

do I even have to go through this.. (yes).

the “little boy” is simultaneously chaewon and her mother.

maybe this is just my experience, but there’s always a sick part of you that wants the person who hates you to suddenly love you or feel guilty for it. if they’re sorry it proves that you didn’t deserve it, they feel bad for hurting you because no one should.

richgirlyn wants approval from both her mother and chaewon. she’s learned to ignore them, she knows she shouldn’t, but it’s this constant hunger she can’t quite bury

the “get naked” isn’t literal, moreso she wants to be vulnerable and explain her true feelings, to be told she’s done well, they’re proud of her— she wants to be understood. she wants chaewon to know her, for her mother to understand her, and be told she is accepted and loved for it, that she is “good”. 

in another sense, it could be taken literal. the eating disorder makes her crave validation for her physical appearance. if her mother saw her and said “you look good” or “you’re pretty” she might not show it but she would feel like it was all worth it. she would feel vindicated, good, proud of herself. it’d motivate her to starve more, to keep doing what she’s doing because her mother finally “loves” her, is proud of her, accepts her. I don’t even wanna THINKK about what this woman would say if she knew every part of her daughter (and if I said she’d be so homophobic..). basically this is saying richgirlyn wants to be understood, and with that understanding, have someone still love her and be proud of who she is.

“Real men keep cool in the face of a fire

Go down with the ship”

-just reinforcing the belief that “real men”, what she has been raised to be, do not panic or show strong emotions. they do not abandon things that hurt them, they stay there to the last second. the ship could be her family. they are hurting her, they are toxic, and yet, she will not leave them. that is who she is, that is a part of her, and she can not leave it.

“And real men don't eat, 'cause they're above that, damn it

Oh, I'm gonna be a real man”

-be serious. she has a whole ed this line is gonna apply to her

i don’t know how much the ed actually effects her way of thinking but when I was deep into the disorder I genuinely felt subhuman if I ate. i felt absolutely disgusting and like I was less than a human being because I ate something. i felt like if I didn’t eat I was “better” than people who did because I had self control and it would make me “prettier” in this end. maybe richgirlyn doesn’t feel like that but there is definitely a (slight or big) superiority complex that comes with having an ed. It makes you hyper-competitive. like if your friend doesn’t eat because they’re not hungry, you can’t eat because they’re not eating and it would make you “worse” than them to eat. and If someone says “omg I’m so hungry” you never actually say it (I’m not tryna get put in a ward) but you have this thought that’s like “I havent eaten in 2 days” or “I haven’t eaten in 24 hours” and you always feel just better than someone else for that. it’s an absolutely sick feeling and makes you feel like a horrible person but with the way she was raised to already believe she was better than everyone this isn’t that much of a stretch. 

“Though honestly sir, all I wanna do

Is get naked in front of you

So you can look me up and down

And give me your love for being so good”

-this is, again, saying that she wants to be loved for being “good”. not much to say here that I didn’t say before, but showing how she wants to be accepted and praised because her mami definitely didn’t give her that..

“But little boys hold me, color me

Praise me, make me feel lovely

For a little while”

-she literally pretends to like guys to feel something LMFAOO

she needs a distraction. the two (kinda just one) people/person she wants to truly love her are her mom and chaewon. they do not give her that, so she looks for validation in other people

If you have someone literally drooling over you and falling to your feet you’re GOING to like it because it makes you feel better about yourself. she likes when people are obsessed with her (like.. not stalker I mean she likes when people are in awe of her) because it proves to her that, yeah, I’m worth something, I’m great, I don’t need my moms approval

but that only lasts for so long because she will always want it. that’s her mom. you want her to love you. you want to be good enough so she can love you.

“So little boy, say you want me

'Cause, well, I can't take it, go ahead

Do it, do it”

-this is more about chaewon. she wants chaewon to want her, even if she “can’t take it”. richgirlyn is willing to hurt herself, bend over backwards, “lower” herself just so this group of girls can like her. she wants to be loved and accepted and liked so bad, she truly just wants someone to not leave and to love her no matter what. she doesn’t want chaewon to hurt her, but she lets her because she sometimes convinces herself she deserves it. 

THATS MY ANALYSIS ON RICHGIRLYN BEING REAL MEN - MITSKI.. I hope it made sense

now moving on to why I’m praying that sakura will be the one to change her mind

while I know in my heart it’ll be yunjin this is my plea to you, lia, to make it sakura because that’s MOTHER

no like literally she’s the oldest and takes care of everyone.. if richgirlyn got another mother figure it would Impact her psyche in a crazy way like

can you imagine if she started getting that maternal validation every day instead of just through tiffany.. it would be over for her

sakura is very mellow and calm and is literally an older sister like it would be so good for richgirlyn if it was her

It actually kills me whenever sakura is mean to her or says something mean because that’s LITERALLY A POTENTIAL MOTHER FIGURE I WILL KMS SO BADD LIKE can you imagine having mommy issues and the oldest older sister esque girl is bashing you I would break down

I feel like with all the experience sakura has idol-wise and the fact that (new interview just revealed) she’s very philosophical and likes to think about things like.. I feel like it would help richgirlyn so much and just put life in perspective.

sakura has definitely been dangerously underweight (5’4 and 92.6 lb, bmi 15.9 (16) if you’re wondering. the “healthiest” lowest bmi is 18.5. bmi is inaccurate but I think everyone knows that’s not a normal nor healthy weight) and mentioned how in iz*one (I think.. she never said like specifically but it was implied) like eating was rough and let me tell you watching those videos of them “eat” and only take like one bite of food and look terrified actually make me so sick like they’re so unbelievably sickening to me they actually make me gag I’m so serious

she would literally help richgirlyn so much and I think after seeing what she goes through with her mom she would definitely be sympathetic like.. sakura is definitely good with emotions and has been an idol for like 10+ years im very much sure having a mother figure or atleast an older girl would fix her 😭😭hear me out on this bc everyone listens to her and I know she would start looking at chaewon differently.. no way eunbi would let this slide like PLEASEEE LET IT BE SAKURA IT WOULD FIX HER

sakura would gentle parent her and be like “hey you haven’t eaten in 3 days please eat an apple or something” LIKE PLEASEPLEPALSEPLEASE YUNJIN IS NOT DOINF SHIT 😭😭(JOKE)

anyway sakura would fix her I’m begging you I know in my bones it’s yunjin but HEAR ME OUTTR SAKURA IS SUCH A GIOD OPTION LIKE it makes sense guys. it makes so much sense like LISTENNN

anyway the stardom work was so good and richgirlyn new work killed me.. like I was writhing around in pain and suffering and clawing at walls.

also so true I would be in eclipse (I mostly listen to mitski and they r a punk band I don’t even know what punk music consists of. or maybe I do I have ultra specific playlists for everything actually pls tell me some punk music so I can understand their sound)

also do you happen to know any cigarette brands that rich people use in korea because I’m going to go fucking crazy looking online I CANT FIND SHIT!! I don’t expect you to know but I’m so desperate

I’ll try to do an analysis on the new chapter but I have so much shit to due 😞sorry if I disappear again guys but just know I do read everything and ur works r getting me through these godforsaken classes lia..

I KNOW THIS ASK HAD A LOT OF QUESTIONS AND INFO SORRY 😭😭ILL TRY NOT TO TALK SM NEXT TIME

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DAMNNNNNNNNN THIS IS A LOT LMAOOOOOOOO

richgirl!yn’s ed isn’t as bad as it was when she was younger because she’s away from her mom, but as soon as she has a phone call or an actual meet up with her family is when she goes back into that cycle. tbh most of her problems do not root of her ed, her problems root from the mentality that she was raised with.

now with sakura… sorry to break it to you but it would take a lot for yn to see sakura as a mother figure even if sakura gets sympathetic after seeing what happened. sakura was still mean to yn even if you want to ignore it or not that will never go away yk whose also mean to yn? her mom and she doesn’t see her mom as her mom at alllllll, like yn would be completely weirded out if her mom started acting all nice out of nowhere and that would kind of be the reaction yn would get if it was sakura, she would be like “this is weird leave me alone.”

I also alr have plans for sakura so…

I don’t think yn could ever see sakura as a mother figure when she has tiffany in her life someone who has been nice to her since the very beginning maybe a big sister but never mother

[bebecue]

haha yes im the same anon! and i was pleasantly surprised like finally, a song i can get behind lol. And i really love the choreo and they all look hot like im sorry i just had to say it.I love women. 😖

also speaking of women, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ztBMZcl3RfI&ab_channel=JYPEntertainment im sana biased and will always be but omg dahyun owns this concept imo. She looks so beautiful. They all do but dahyun really stood out to me here. also momo and jeongyeon?? hello??

it was such a fun concept, i'm glad they heard you yearning for a song like this zkdjfs

dahyun suits the concept really well, like she suits the coquette aesthetic?? and that hair color looks so good on her, like a dark chestnut brown?? i have hair envy lol

[freckledbastard]

im so excited that hancock showed up in the latest chapter, she's easily among my top 3 favourite one piece women and tbh she could be no. 1 ugggghhhh i love her? so much??? her resting against rayleigh was also really cute he's like her dad!!!!

also shout out to hancock saying guess i gotta marry luffy 😔 like honestly she gets it

im glad we finally got a proper explanation for as to why yamato isn't joining the straw hats. honestly though him momo and kin'emon... id honestly put them on the same level as vivi. he says they're his crew and they're welcome to actually get on board the ship at any time which is so sweet!!!! i demand to see them in the fanart with vivi. dont forget momo and kin especially you guys 😭😭

still no scene of saying goodbye to carrot....not sure if i think that's a W or an L for carrot4nakama. i want to call it a W but honestly it wouldn't surprise me if oda just did not give enough of a shit about her to actually have a farewell. still, you'd think in a scene where the strawhats are saying goodbye to nakama (temporary or otherwise), she'd be there too? if the next chapter focuses on the straw hats and carrots not in it then she's definitely not joining the crew, that's done and dusted for canon.

koby being kidnapped was unexpected but because i genuinely have no idea where that plotline could even be going i just didn't care enough to think about it too deeply lol. im sorry koby i do think you're awesome for sticking to your lawful good roots in such a chaotic world but there's so much else happening atm it's hard to keep track

tiny lunarian children versions of the warlords.....that's certainly a choice on the part of the world government. vegapunk what are you thinking....

okay that's all i can think of for now i slep

[violetnotez]

Haaaaiiii! I don't know if you've done this before, but can you do a headcanon with Midoriya, Bakugou, Todoroki, and Kaminari (separately) dating a slim thicc reader who's waaaaay to kind to everyone for her own good? Sorry if that was specific lol. It just suits my life.

HC: Slim Thicc + Overly Nice Reader | BNHA

Music Genre: Pop | BNHA

Characters: Midoriya, Bakugo, Todoroki

Warnings: cursing, suggestive content

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✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ:

Shop Owner Note: The fuq how did you describe me in four words lmaoooo-I really liked this idea alot!!!!! Also I only did Bakugo, Izuku and Shoto caus emy brain got fried, so hope thats okay!

Midoriya

THIS GIF ISNT APART OF THE HC AT ALL I JUST FOUND IT AND NOW IM FEELING SOME TYPE OF WAYYYY😳😳

Midoriya most definitely drink his respect women juice

He was raised by his mother after all

BUT

doesnt mean the boy cant be a little perverted-

He just loves your body!!!!!

How can he NOT love everything about it, from the way your school tights slightly squeeze your thighs to the point where he feel like he cant breath

Or when you wear his shirts and its tighter around the chest and flowy around you waist

Mmmmmm lets not forget your hero suit- this man would probably kiss the shoes of the person who made your suit

Cause DAMN they really made it as tight as possible and he just loves it sm

Lets be real this dude has probably popped a boner by accident just thinking about your hero suit 😶

ANYWAYS 💀💀💀💀

He is very much respectful about you and keeps his raging hormones horniness to himself

He is ALWAYS making sure you feel comfortable in your relationship, whether its from holding hands to cuddling, he will always make sure you give your consent

Now, when it comes to your kindness, this is something Midoriya probably loves the most about you

But he does find it really concerning when he notices you say “yes” to everything somebody asks you to do for them

And running yourself down, not looking as energetic as yourself

He is very observant, so he notices little things that signal you are little overwhelmed 

Like your clothes arent as perfectly ironed as they used to be, you seem to be forgetting your own things while remembering to bring everybody else’s, your smile seems strained, and you just look stressed

He is so incredibly empathetic- it pains him to his s/o look so distraught 

It does anger him a bit that these people can so easily take advantage of you, and not even care that you arent feeling your best because of what they asked of you

But he swallows down the anger, offering to help you with whatever you need at your dorm room

He tries to make it as stress free as he possibly can, bringing your favorite snacks and playlist of music to calm your mind

But at some point hed give you a very gentle talk,,,,

He knows you havent been feeling too great, whether you deny it or not, and he wants you to know that its perfectly okay to not say “yes” to every person

He knows you mean well and you want to help everyone out of the generosity of your heart, and he loves that about you

But you as a person are important, and you come first over anyone

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ

Bakugo

Like Midoriya, just LOVES your body

Like cmon, how can he NOT

Dude is a ass+boob man change ma mind 

At first he deifnitely denies it-

Him??? Stare at your ass??? Pshh he was looking at the oven baka, if anything your ass was blocking his view-

You would know you caught him red handed cause he face would get redder than Momo’s hero suit and he would actually stutter—-

Which would make him extrmeely annoyed and he’d be cussing a storm+be in a grumpy mood for an hour or two

But once you two get more comfortable in your relationship-

NO HOLDING BACK

He will have use every opportunity to just be meannnn

And by mean

I mean turn slapping your ass into some sick game

Like if you dont yelp and cuss him out whats the point?

Once he slapped you so hard he legit left his big ass hand print on your butt cheek and you were about to slap his smug ass back....

But off a 50ft building  🙃

Also a big softie too

Like when you to cuddle he loves cuddling into your chest 🥺🥺

To him it’s just so comfyyyyyyyyyy

Honestly, Bakugo can’t understand at all how you can be so nice to people

It confuses him???? But he finds it really....nice???

Like half the stuff you do for people Bakugo wouldn’t ever dream of doing

He knows he’d either give that person an intimidating, dirty look or just laugh at them, cause yeah right he’d waste his time with their stupid problems

Ouchhhhhhhh

But you are totally different than him-you had a lot more patience and sympathy than he had, always coming to everyone’s rescue it seemed like

He finds it attractive and to him, it confuses the hell out of him how he does

But what bothers him is how much time you spend away from him

He won’t ever admit it, but he feels lonely when you’re not around

And what’s even worse-is by the time you do hang out with him, your too tired to even properly pay attention to him after running around and doing everything for everyone else

Bakugo the Attention Whore

One day this dude would have enough, as he’s been getting the bad end of the stick for a good couple of weeks——

He just barges into were ever your at, and doesn’t give to shits what so everrrrr

Bakugo has one mission in mind: getting his s/o back

Wouldn’t acknowledge anyone but you, grabbing your wrist and yanking you out of the room even if your protesting with him

“The hell are you doing Bakugo, let go-“

“No 😠”

“Pleaseeeeeee I was in the middle of working on something-“

“I said NO 😠😠😠”

Angry Pomeranian Activated

Once stop dragging you until he locks you in his room, forcing you to hear him out

He HATES being emotional or open, but at that, he starts spilling his guts through gritted teeth and choppy sentences,,

Saying that you waste too much time in thise “extras”, that they don’t deserve as much time as you give them, and that you have more “important” things than do all their work for them

*cough cough him being the more important thing

But hoenstly, you feel a little bad for him,,,,,

So you compromise with him and promise you’ll spend more time on him

He’s pretty happy with that,

but now he takes it one step further to make sure you deifnitely have enough time to hang out with him

If he’s around when someone asks you for help, he’ll cut them off and lie straight theough his teeth, saying you two have a “date” and squeezing you close to him with an iron grip

“Wait-Bakugo-we didnt have a date planned-“

“Tsch, now we do-“

Shoto Todoroki

I have said this timeeee and timeeee againnnn

But Shoto really is the definition of innocence

So really, it wouldn’t ever dawn on him on how killer his s/o’s body is

He’s just kinda like....yeah I know they have a butt and chest? Doesn’t everyone?😶

This poor Boi someone help him

It only really sets it after a few months of being together that he’s actually really, really in love with your body

Like how did he never notice how good you look in leggings?

Or how soft and comfortable your chest is?

And why does he want you to squeeze him with your thighs? 😳

Hormones are ragingggggg

And also veryyyyyyyy protective over you

Shoto is very observant and quiet in social situations, usually opting to check out his surroundings instead of trying to be sociable

So he’ll catch from time to time classmates commenting on you and your figure, and it never sits very well with him

At first when these incidences happened he was very conflicted, not understanding this intense jealousy and need to protect you

But after a while of contemplating his feelings, he understood it was because he was protective of you

And ohohoohohoh

This man is PROTECTIVE

He does little things you would never reallly notice until you actually do

Like when he takes you home after hanging out or a date, he lingers a little longer outside your door to make sure you’re inside safely

Or when you’re walking together he will make sure your walking inside the street and away from the cars

Also has a tendency to grab your waist or your hand when a group of men come your way

He just gets paranoid okay 🥺🥺🥺

And because he’s so protective, he doesn’t practically like that you’re being taken advantage of sometimes because of your kindness

Especially when it comes to other men

On a few occasions Shoto has spotted you in a sticky situation with a guy who was being a little too close for comfort

It would make you uncomfortable of course, you had a boyfriend you already loved a lot-

but you felt kind of bad just being a total bitch to this guy who desperately wanted a chance

So you’d just awkwardly laugh and smile with their stupid pick up lines, trying your best to be polite but also show you weren’t interested

But Shoto at this point has radar for when your in trouble, and just pops out of nowhere 💀

He’s not the type to flaunt his relationship by impulsively kissing you or anything like that, but he’ll show it in subtle ways

Like calling you “dear” or wrapping his arm around your waist

Honestly, the look of pure relief and comfort in your face shows more than Shoto could have ever done,,,

And that Shoto was deifnitely someone that was more than just a “guy fiend” and soemthing like that

Also Shoto would give them a look that could kill and that instantly scares the shit out anyone lmao

These dudes faces would deflate like balloons real quick, cause at this point everyone knows who Shoto Todoroki is

And how the hell can they compete with that

Instant “oh shit my bad” type energy

After those incidents, Shoto locks down way harder

He practically has you glued to his side, and he doesn’t let go

Like at all

Get used to it cause for the rest of the day Shoto is gonna be following you around like some body guard 💀

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[risingsouls]

🦎 + Also what are your thoughts about Future Bulma? I know you briefly talked about her when you talked about modern Bulma but how do you feel about her compared to the one we see more?

Lizards To Keep Momo Awake || Always accepting!

[I'm sorry this took so long to get to. Between actually being busy at work and then my phone fucking up, i haven't had time. And I save these for work SO.

Barring how they do her in Super with that contrived and nonsensical pining over Vegeta when she absolutely would have zero connection with him in this timeline especially outside of their one night stand, future Bulma is best Bulma and it's a damn shame we only get a few minutes of her in the History of Trunks special and maybe a flashback from Trunks idr. First and foremost, she fucking matured. She acts like an adult and still feels like Bulma. She's working to actually make her world a better place and even save a timeline that isn't her own (and maybe she thought sending Gohan/Trunks back would change THEIR time but I can't imagine that's the case since she would know how time travel works I imagine). So she's actually shown being unselfish which even present Bulma absolutely could be before Super came along.

We get to see the emphasis on her genius literally at work and it doesn't feel like it's just a convenient plot device used to move the story along like what they do with present Bulma. It's suggested that she spent YEARS working on and perfecting the time machine so they could go back in time and get the medicine to Goku. And maybe that's unfair of me to say in some ways because THAT could be seen as convenient but...I don't know how to explain it. Future Bulma inventing the time machine doesn't feel as contrived as the "Well of course Bulma just happened to have this invention/this knowledge on hand to help us!" feel a lot of newer content tacks onto Bulma using her engineering savvy. Even in Z, we see her taking the time to make the remotes to deactivate the androids as well as working on 16 after Cell injures him. I guess the best way to describe it is it feels more shown and feels convincing rather than told?

Future Bulma is a bad bitch. Raising a kid in an apocalypse and helping in whatever way she can? And SINGLE TOO? I'm honestly surprised they didn't give her some genius husband to overshadow her with how the women are written in this series but IM SO GLAD they didn't (and proves they should have just let Bulma he a single mom in the present timeline cough). Like I get that her situation is very different from present Bulma's, and maybe if we saw more of her we would see her be more like present Bulma but damn. Ya'll had what we wanted from Bulma RIGHT THERE but then we get sexist and gross garbage instead. Rip.]

[weeb-writor]

Do you still love me?

Hello lovelies! Today I am back with a angst piece but a happy ending don't fret too much! I was really thinking about making it end horribly or leaving it up to the readers imagination but I decided nahh i couldn't do that to my heart. So here Bakugou and his s/o who fell out of love??(or did they??) when then have a large family in the mix. I have also decided im kind of obsessed with domestic pieces lol, they are like more than half of all my posts. Anywho, reader is neutral hope you guys enjoy!

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Bakugou Katsuki x Reader

You and Bakugou call its quits not thinking of what it would do to your 5 kids who are stuck in the middle

Words:  3606

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“Are we going to dad’s today?” Hiroyuki asked softly.

“Yeah, your going to spend the weekend with him, all of you.” You smiled at him.

“Can I bring Tokki?” He said looking at the ground already knowing your answer.

“We went over this last time baby, Daddy can't have pets at his new place and Tokki is a cat, he likes staying at home.” You said with a sigh. It really sucks that it came down to this, spend a week with you then a weekend with dad, then rinse repeat. Sometimes you even wondered if it was better. That’s what you and Bakugou told each other, I mean what else can you do when you fall out of love? You approached your car where all of your other children were waiting. You and Hiroyuki sat down and signaled the diver to go.

“We going to daddy’s right?” Kohana said as she bounced around in her seat. You booped her nose and nodded at her.

“Yay, daddy’s home!” Yoko said, clapping.

“Don't get excited Yoko, Dad’s probably busy. Were probably gonna be with Grandpa and Grandma.” Hiroyuki said playing with your fingers.

“You're so dramatic Yuki! Of course dad is busy! He is a Hero but he always makes time for us.” Your oldest said little explosion going off around her.

“Kaori.” You warned her with a stern voice. The little sparks calmed and she went back to quietly gazing out the window. 

“Your dad is a hero and therefore busy but I know he is very excited to see you all and will spend all the time he has with you.” You smiled at them. They all smiled back before going back into relative silence. When you and Bakugou decided to have a big family you were ecstatic and so was he. This, however, wasn't what you imagined. A tiny rift right threw your family and it was growing bigger everyday. When you told the kids about the spilt they didnt say much and the youngest ones didnt even really understand but as they lived through it, they changed. They formed their own opinions about who’s fault it is and why it happened. And now they were splitting up, there was Kaori the eldest who didn't care too much, Yoko, and Kohana. At the opposite end was Hiroyuki, just him. Your fragile little boy who was so sure it was his dad’s fault. Saiyuri was too young to choose a side but all the change wasn't really helping the 11th month old baby.

“We have arrived.” The diver announced. You thanked him while getting everyone out of the seats and exiting the car. Bakugou lived in an apartment now at the tippy top of course. It was a long and loud elevator ride as your kids were antsy to see their dad. When it opened Bakugou was standing there waiting for them and was immediately met with an armful of girls.

“Daddy! I missed you so much!” Kohana said almost in tears.

“Misses Daddy.” Yoko echoed her sister.

“Yeah, I missed all you brats too, you better have been on your best behavior! You have to keep up the Bakugou reputation.” He teased them

“Of course we have! I'm still number one in my quirk development classes. Yuki has the best grades in all of his grade. Kohana is reading at a 3rd grade level already and Yoko and Saiyuri are everyone's favorite at the Daycare!” Kaori said with vigor.

“Yeah, your all Bakugou’s for sure.” He chuckled at them. He turned to talk to Hiroyuki but he was gone. You heard a door shut, he was probably already in his room.

“I've got homework to do dad and them we should do something all together!” Kaori said kissing his check before taking off. Her sisters followed her as usual.

“How long do you think he’ll be like that?” Bakugou asked you with a sigh.

“Honestly I don't know, it's not like I tell him awful things about you. Maybe it would have been better if we did cause then he would have one thing to be angry about, one event, It would be easier than him just being angry at you.” You said placing Saiyuri onto the ground to walk around.

“They’re so mature and smart I forget they’re so young. Hell we don't understand why it happened, you can't just pinpoint a time where you fell outta love, it’s gradual. So how can we expect them too.” Bakugou said, sounding in pain.

“Yeah, sucks they had to witness it. I’ve got to go meet up with someone but just… He thinks you’re going to call your parents and abandon them to do Hero work. I know you can't put off everything but I think he just wants to know that for once he can come first to you.” You said as you kissed Saiyoui’s forehead. You were about to enter the elevator when a weight crashed into you. You didn't have to look down too far to see Hiroyuki hugging you.

“Take care of Tokki, please.”

“Yes and you make sure you and your sisters behave for your dad.” He sighed but nodded at you. You gave him one last hair ruffle before leaving. You couldn't help but think this wasn't ever gonna get any easier. You sighed before heading to the next destination, a café to meet with a few of your friends.

“Y/N!” You heard a voice call to you as soon as you opened the door. You identified the voice as Mina.

“Mina! Long time no see!” You said giving her a hug.

“Y/n, dear come sit down.” Momo said smiling at you, you sat down with the group.

“How are you doing.” Mina asked you cautiously

“I’m surprisingly doing awful, I see Bakugou too much to truly get over him. The kids are still adjusting to us being apart and Hiroyuki has been really upset and distant. I thought breaking up would fix a lot but it just made everything worse.” You sighed out.

“Well of course it did!!!” Urakara whisper yelled.

“You and Bakugou called it quits way too soon! I've never seen someone handle Bakugou the way you do. I’ve never seen anyone love him like you. Hell Bakugou loves you so much it’s ridiculous! Do you remember when he was gonna put his hero work on hold because of Kaori! I’m sorry y/n but I’m not buying this fell out of love thing.” Deku rushed out.

“Mm I’d have to agree. If there is anything I’ve learned from being friends with Bakugou it’s that he never half ass anything and if he put time into it he’s gonna see it through till the end so, logically it doesn’t make sense.” Todoroki said quietly.

“Yeah so what’s your side of the story?” Mina asked carefully.

“I… loved him, you know and when we had kids it only intensified but now it’s different. Bakugou is a great dad don’t get me wrong but he’s absent and that was fine when it was just me, Kaori, Hiroyuki, and Kohana but now there is Yoko and Saiyuri. It’s hard when they all have different school times and different needs cause of their ages. It’s hard because I had to put part of my life on hold, I went to UA too and I was supposed to be one of the greatest support people out there, every agency would want me. But it was Bakugou’s dream first so I sacrificed it all in a heartbeat. Over the years he just got more busy and I got more left behind. I’m tired of waiting up till 3am to make sure he’s alright knowing I have to be up at 7 to get the kids ready for school. I… love him and I don’t want to argue with him and I could feel myself growing angry at him, feel myself growing resentful. So I brought it up under the disguise of “do you still love me” and he said No… so that was that and we were done the next week.” You said not meeting their eyes. They just looked at you with wide eyes.

“Y/n I’m sorry, I didn’t know you felt like this.” Momo said softly.

“It’s fine, he is the love of my life and our kids are my everything so I would do it all again, just for them.” You smiled with a few tears cascading down your face.

“You haven’t tried to talk to him about this, you still love him, you guys can fix this.” Deku said almost mumbling.

“But he doesn’t love me and so there is nothing to talk about. Now come on let’s talk about something else. You can hear sob stories like mine anytime.” You waved them off. They were hesitant but the conversation did pick up about their lives and your time at UA, at least the happy parts. The rest of your two days without your kids were a blur. You just remember waking up with your phone going off a Monday.

“Hello is this Bakugou Y/n?” A women’s said. The title hurt just a bit.

“Yes it is.” You responded drowsily.

“I am very sorry you have to receive a call like this but your son Bakugou Hiroyuki has been rushed to the hospital, his sister did refuse to leave his side so she is there as well.” You were silent before hanging up and immediately calling Bakugou.

“What’s up?” He rushed out. He sounded panicked so he must have gotten a call too.

“I need you to pick up Yoko and Saiyuri.” You said rushing to put in on your clothes.

“What? But yuki is in the hospital, we’ve got to be there.” He said 

“Yes but they are done with daycare in.” You paused to look at the clock on your way out the door. “A hour. If we don’t get them now we’ll have to leave him to get them.” You said finally in your car.

“Yeah and he would rather be with you than me…” he trailed off.

“I didn’t say that.” You rushed out

“You didn’t need to, I'll get them and be there as soon as I can.” He said hanging up. You sighed and continued your drive to the hospital. When you got there you rushed to the room where you looked in and saw your son unconscious and Kaori laying next to him.

“So he is going to be okay, we do want him to remain here for another day or two.” The doctor said to you, smiling.

“Okay but what’s wrong with him.” 

“Well he hasn’t been eating or drinking or sleeping enough, especially for a boy experiencing his growth spurt. Pair that with how much he has been using his quirk in class and you have a pretty bad situation.” She said as if it was nothing to worry about.

“Uhhh okay so we just need to make sure he is eating and drinking right?” You said pacing a little.

“Yeah and I would figure out what made him stop. Your daughter was very adamant about it not being abuse just that there was something going on at home and he is trying to deal with it.” The doctor said as you froze thinking you did this to him.

“Just a divorce…” you trailed off.

“Yeah that will do it but I don’t need to know about it. It's your business just make sure to talk to him so you don’t end up back here.” She said before leaving, you let out a few tears before heading into the room. Noticing you, Kaori got up and was hugging you tighter than she ever had.

“Did you know he wasn’t taking care of himself?” You asked, stroking her hair. She shook her head no.

“I didn’t either, I didn’t know it was hitting him so hard… you know you can ask me about anything, tell me anything… me and your dad will always be in your corner.” You said lifting her chin so you gazed into her eyes.

“But you're both not in our corner anymore. You guys are in to different corners and it’s hard to keep up with two different houses and two different.. well everything’s.” She said looking away from you.

“I never meant to you guys to feel like this, I just…” You trailed off but before you could finish Hiroyuki tossed and turned in his bed.

“Yuki sweetie, can you hear me?” You said as you rushed to his side.

“Mmm.” He said, he’s eyes still shut in pain.

“Oh baby, i'm so sorry I didn't notice you were in pain. It’s never gonna happen again, okay? Do you need something?” You said stroking his hair, he hummed before falling back to sleep. You sighed and kissed his forehead.

“So whats up with him?” Bakugou rushed into the room with the girls in his arms.

“He hasn’t been eating, or drinking, or sleeping. So when he used his quirk it drained his body and he’s here for 1 or 2 more days.” You said eyes never leaving his.

“That's impossible, he was just with me… he… didn't eat very much.” He trailed off. You hummed at him understanding how he was felling as you missed the signs too.

“Hey, girls I texted Grandma and Grandpa and they said they miss you so much. So while we take care of Yuki how about you guys go see them, yeah? Mr. Yuri is waiting to take you.” You smiled at them. You see a fire rise in Kaori but it goes out quick as Bakugou ruffles her hair.

“Okay then, be good for them and don't cause too much trouble. Mr. Yuri will pick up Kohana, Kaori please explain what's happening to her. And don't worry, we’ll see you real soon.” You said waving the girls out of the room. When they were out of sight you and Bakugou visually deflated. 

“Katsuki, how does this keep happening?” You asked him

“What?”

“How do things keep getting worse, first the break up, then the kids being mad at each other, Yuki’s anger at you, and now this.” You cried out.

“The break up was bad to you?” He asked voice cracking.

“Why wouldn't it be, Katsuki I know you don't love me anymore but I…” You trailed off

“Would you just spit it out dumbass! This is why we didn't work out because you never say shit. You just bottle it up and never lean on me or depend on me the way I do to you. You used to say “we're a team” all the time but in the last 2 years you haven't said it once. It was you who fell out of love with me so don't pretend like it was so hard for you.” He yelled at you.

“This is why we don't talk Katsuki, all you wanna do is yell and project all the feelings you bottle up from working so goddamn much. Of course it was hard on me and you would know why if you could drop your ego and talk to me like you can tolerate being around me or love me!” You yelled back at him but before the argument could turn into a big screaming match your sons voice rang out.

“Would you two just stop it…” He said weakly.

“Yuki, im sorry we shouldn't have been yelling even if you were asleep.” Bakugou said caressing his check. At the touch Hiroyuki let out the tears he’s been holding in.

“Its us isn't it?” He paused to look at you. “Me and my sisters… You had Kaori and me pretty young and you didn't really get to be young. You had all of us before you really got to live together just the two of you.. And Uncle Izuku and Auntie Urakara's relationship is doing fine even though they started to date around the same time as you, difference is they just started having kids like 4 years ago… Im 12 and Kaori is 13. So its us isnt?…” He said curling into himself.

“Kid, I'm not gonna lie to you, having you and Kaori at the ages we did was a nightmare. We were barely out of school, we lived with my parents for a while cause we didn't have jobs or a place of our own and even we did get one it was a shitty hole in the wall place but even at the young age of 19 we pulled our shit together and made it work so when you came a year later we were a lot more prepared. Yes we did miss out on a lot of things people our age did but we had you and Kaori and that was so much better than party’s and hangovers. Then we decided to have Kohana, Yoko, and Saiyuri and you all make us so happy. You all have nothing, not a damn thing to do with what's going on between me and y/n. If we ever made you feel like you did we didn't mean to. We love you so much and I am so sorry if we ever made it seem like it was your fault.” Bakugou said, eyes boring into Hiroyuki’s. Hiroyuki looked at you and you nodded to show you agreed with Bakugou.

“Don't ever forget how much we love you, okay? Now you should eat, we’ll get you anything you want.” You said wiping your tears with a smile.

“If it's not too much trouble, I want you and dad’s spicy pork curry and you guys should take some to the girls.” He said drowsily.

“But in order to make that we both would have to leave since it's a meal we make together… we couldn't leave you here alone.” You said mostly to yourself before any could say anything else a new voice was heard entering the room.

“You guys go talk and make him some food, ill stay with him. I didn't watch you guys terribly flirt and kiss everywhere just for it to end over some miscommunications.” Aizawa said as he took the seat next to Hiroyuki. Aizawa had remained close with a lot of students from 1A, becoming like a second dad but he had been extra close with you and Bakugou. When Kaori came into the equation he was like a nanny to her and it only increased when Hiroyuki was born, the two having a really strong bond so neither you or Bakugou was shocked he showed up.

“Okay, then old man. Watch my kid.” Bakugou said, grabbing your hand and pulling you away. You almost forgot what his calloused hand felt like. He drug you to his car and the car ride was mostly silent. The talking began when you began to cook in the house you used to share.

“Do you love me?” You asked as you cut pork

“Yes, I love you. I never stopped, I am in love with you y/n. Today I love you more than yesterday but less than tomorrow.” He said slicing onions.

“Then why did you say that, say that you didn't love me.”

“Because I could see it, you don't look at me the same. We don't talk the way we used to. I don't want to string you along and make you hate being with me, because I love you more than life itself. And I was scared that one day you would wake up and you wouldn't need me and realize how easy it would be to leave me. That it would be my fault we ended because I was so focused on me I didn't see your pain. Scared that I would wake up and gaze into your eyes and find no love or joy in them. So I decided to let you go… I was thinking we just needed a break but you suggested a divorce and I agreed because I would do anything to make sure you keep that beautiful smile of yours. Even if you weren't smiling at me anymore… do you..” He said calmly, growing more emotional with each word.

“Yea, I never ever stopped. I was just tired, I am tired. But I want nothing more than for us to work… we can get through this, can't we?” You asked cautiously.

“Of course we can, we are Bakugous, we can do whatever the hell we want. And it will be different this time, we’ll talk about things and communicate better, I swear. I aint seeing a shrink though.” He said flicking water at you to make his last point more effective.

“Yes we are.” You giggled at him.

“No we aren't, you shitty dumbass. We don't need help, I can talk about my feelings without some dumb wanna be life coach.” He yelled as he began to wash the rice.

“Well we don't have to but I guess that means Zuku and Urakara have a better relationship than us since they go to counseling…” you trailed off with a shrug.

“Oh fuck you!” He roared at you, you giggled knowing he would now go. This was the most normal you felt in months, the happiest for sure. Just maybe things would be okay, and who were you kidding you could never fall out of love with the spiky haired explosion boy no matter what he did. It was toxic in a way but you could unpack that in the therapy sessions you were gonna force him to attend.