#im so so sooo sick of him i don't want to deal with him anymore i just want to fast forward 1.5 years and move out and

[girlivealwaysbean]

i want to be the strongest most unaffected aloofest person ever but im literally the weakest saddest cries at every inconvenience type of person and man.

[divinedelusional]

how rafe would treat his gf on her period

rafe cameron x fem reader

word count: 796

warnings: menstruation, mentions of toxic relationship and period sex

a/n: yeah this is how rafe treats his girl on her period but also how he would be like in a relationship throughout the seasons? i got carried away, sorry not sorry

s1 rafe: sooo i feel like fratboy!rafe genuinely doesn't give a fuck, i don't even know if he would be capable of being in a relationship. i see him being involved with a girl but only for sex and he would only know she's on her period bc she would just text him that they can't meet today bc of it and he'd be like "uh huh cool" and would go jerk off

s2 rafe: here i think situation would be slightly different. i think our psycho bby could acc develop feelings for a girl, it would mostly be just sex but he could start falling for someone. so i think he'd fight a battle in his mind if he should come over to the girl's house and be there for her on her period or to completely neglect her. it's just he doesn't have a clue what to do and tbh he's occupied with other shit, he uses sex with her to forget. i think it's very similar to s1 rafe but with guilt and feelings creeping in (and obvious denial for this emotions)

s3 rafe: so okay we all know the shift from curtain bangs psycho rafey to buzz cut man of the house rafe who looked like he's getting his shit together. of course that means he's different when it comes to relationships. he still deals with a lot, but he finds you. and he kinda sees you as this light. a small light who he has to be very careful with so it won't go out. he is attentive to you. treats you right, but with some sort of distance and you don't blame him. he doesn't spend every day with you, he didn't even ask you to be his girlfriend yet, didn't make it official but he will and somehow you know it. when you're on your period you become quiet. you don't text him, but he finds out as he had a feeling that he should drop by your house. he finds you on your couch with a heating bag and cookies. you told him you weren't feeling well and he ordered you hot soup and made a quick run to pharmacy for some medicine. he still was clueless and thought you caught a cold. "rafe im not sick im just on my period" "oh" it's not like he avoids you, no. he visits you everday for the next four days but doesn't stay for long, always excusing himself with some meeting or business. you know he means the best for you but wish that he's going to be able to let you in soon. you're really patient with him, but start having doubts.

s4 rafe: is now fully committed to you. you talked to him how you really felt about this relationship. that you really cared and wanted to give him as much time as he needed, but also you couldn't waste it anymore waiting for him. and rafe realized that nobody else would have such patience for him. he was thinking about you a lot and he admitted to himself that you were the one. he made your relationship official and two months later you were living together. he was spoiling you, really. taking you on dates, buying you gifts and most importantly giving you his time. getting to know you, observing your daily habits, remembering stuff you said. your likes and dislikes. no wonder he became pussy whipped. and started to feel like he knows you better than yourself.

that's why when it's that time of the month you don't have to say anything. rafe knows. just by the way you whine when you wake up, he knows if you'd be able to get out of bed and get on with your day or you'd want to stay in bed cuddling, because he's your personal heater, makes back pain go away. gives you massages. cuddles with you all morning untill your stomach start to signal that it's time for some food. oh and he doesn't care about his schedule. he could clear it off, cancel the meetings, but he doesn't bother. his girl is the most important, his business associates don't even deserve a phone call on a day his girl is in pain. also he's not opposed to period sex at. all. orgasm is a great way to reduce cramps, so if that works for you and you want him to help you, he is the happiest to do so. if you're not comfortable with having sex these days he totally understands. wouldn't even thought of forcing you to do something, on your period or not. when he discovered that he has so much love in him, his only interest is to give it to you♡

dividers by: @bernardsbendystraws

tagging: @sugaraanddiesel @cherrylipglossss hope they'll enjoy it and @cameronsprincess bc maybe it will put a smile on her face♡

[venusmlp]

I've been searching ways how to... you know. And i know how i'll do It. I have my mind set now. I've been thinking about doing It bf my 18 bday but my friend wanted my party to be a trip to búzios, which i thought was a good idea so i was gonna postpone... It. But it ALL feel apart as usual.

Sooo my dad. Have i talked about my dad? No? Well i love him, but he isn't a easy person to live with. I guees i never talk about him bc it's just too much. It makes me sad that i can't take his touch. That i flinch we he wants contact. It's just that he's too touching and i can't deal with that. I know he would never hurt me in that way. Ever. But it kills me that sick stuff is what i think about when he gets near. It's an uncomfortable feeling i can't push away when i'm near man. It's not him. It's man. He doesn't understand that and keeps pushing, hugging, squeezing, and slapping my but ass a joke, and when i reject him i'm a bad daughter that doesn't love her father.

We fight. A lot. Every. Single. Day. I hate It, he hates It, but i don't understand why he keeps touching on topics he knows will make us fight. He wants to change me and he doesn't like that I don't have the same opinions as him. He says i'm only doing this to piss him off, to confront him. He doesn't accept that i'm a person with my own mind and view of the world. We fought over politics so many fucking times it's ridiculous. He literally treats me like shit bc i'll vote differently then him. I swear that we have fought over politics EVERYDAY SINCE 2017. I can't do this anymore. I beg him everyday to stop bugging me over this but he just won't stop. Today I was literally doing nothing in my room, alone, I wasn't bugging anyone. He came by to lecture me once again over fucking politics. He said I don't know what I want and that once again I just want to go against him and that I shouldn't vote for who I want to vote. It's the same thing for over 5 years... I exploded ok. I talked back, I said I'm my own person and I vote whoever I want and that I don't base my life choices in going against him. I said I have a mind of my own. He got pissed at me and took my things from me. Said I was and insolent ignorant child and that I could forget my bday and forget my hair (I was going to the salon to fix it). That he gives up on me. That I'm dead to him. That if I want something I need to get a job. It's so bad I don't even want to vote anymore just so he won't hate me. I can't let him win this, this is exactly what he wants. He's a liar. He says he loves me and that I don't need to worry about life, that he never wants me to leave. But it's a lie. He wants me as long as I'm a little vertion of him. The second I have my own opinion he wants me gone, I'm nothing to him.

Now, I know I can't survive on my own, Im berelly even living as I am nevertheless having to provide for my own. I'm hanging over a theead and I'm this close of ending it all. I really can't do it. Every little thing is a motive for me to want to slice my arms off or swallow the entire pills cabinet. If I can't be here then I can't be anywhere. You don't know how useless I am without help. I stopped at a point and I can't evolve anymore. I feel like a child. I act like a child. I'm broken. I wish it was different but that's the truth. I can't count how many times I tried to end it all after our fights. It has to work now. My mind is set on the eve of my 18 birthday.