#im so sleepy and feel gross and kinda sick and i really hope im not getting sick

[thestarmaker]

soooo tired today I feel like hot garbage but hot in the sense that I've been left in a trash can in the sun all day

[teeniestjojokitten]

Ugh. I still have Covid. I feel so so tired and I’m still sniffly. But I’m happy I’m not as sick as I was. and that my case isn’t a really bad one. It’s snowing out and it looks so pretty but I can’t even go play in it... My daddies would bundle me up in blankies on the couch and we’d have yummy cocoa and watch a movie or somethin as a reward for doing some classwork and resting like a good kiddo.

[molkolsdal]

can’t stop crying for some gotdam reason!!!! 

anyways. so last week i got really bloated on like thursday and couldnt figure out why and i felt a cold coming and i was just waiting for it to come already so i could get over with it. but ofc it had to hit at the worst time, during the last half hour of my shift on sunday when all of a sudden it got extremely busy. my nose wouldn’t stop running and i got a headache and it was just so gross. and i was mad cuz it was such a gross way to end an otherwise perfect day. the cold really hit on monday (thank god i didn;t have work). i didn’t know why at the time but i was sad that whole day and spent almost the whole day crying and listening to the half blood prince soundtrack (ok i know why i was sad but im not gonna admit that to myself or anyone else). a nice thing about that day tho was Terry sending me videos of himself singing some of my favourite songs (also hes hella funny so laughing so much also temporarily stopped me from crying). i skipped tutoring that day and told him i was thinking of skipping volunteering the next day and he’s like Why? Are you depressed about something? and i was like well im sick but im also feeling hella sad and idk why (again, i do know why but im not gonna tell him). anyways so the next day I GOT MY PERIOD (surprise surprise) and could finally give some sort of reason to my excessive sadness. Terry asked if i skipped volunteering  and i was like Ya feels good man. i had green tea and played with my cats. I asked how school was and hes like I skipped cuz i was too sleepy and i was like Tru thats a valid reason. then he’s like im going to the plaza let’s get Dairy Queen and im like I’m gross tho and hes like How? and i was like Like I-havent-left-the-house-in-2-days gross and hes like I’ll give you an hour to clean up and then i kinda had no choice so i forced myself up and tried to get rid of some of the grossness that had built up in the past 2 days. apparently he hadnt been to the community centre or library before so while i was getting ready he was texting me about that all excited and scared and i was dying. anyways felt good to get some fresh air. i didnt rly enjoy the ice cream but we went to the pharmacy after and i got Bio Oil which ive been meaning to get for YEARS and finally remembered to get it. then i walked him back home cuz loser gets lost if he takes any other route than the ones he’s used to and yeah anyways it was so refreshing that someone forced my sick, menstruating self out of this ugly hole i was in and made me laugh and move. 

im still crying on and off every day tho and im hoping so bad that its just my period and that itll pass once its over. i feel like im overthinking but i just havent cried this much in a while so im a little concerned but ya