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Hello! I just wanted to pop in and say; I love your art so much! Your PeepawRonin!Mikey AU is really cute and it inspired me to read the Last Ronin :D!
this made me so happy but also
#THE COMICS STILL HURT ME LMAO#im so happy people are reading the actual comics because of my silly baby drawings#at twitter someone got really sad because of the ronin storyline ajjd#im truly sorry if you know nothing about the comics and decide to read the comics just because of my silly drawings#it has happened#im so happy so many enjoy my au :'] thank you sm!!!!<3#fer talks#ask
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what isaac characters are getting for christmas (from me)
i posted this on twitter but i wanted to crosspost it here and expand upon it a little bit because i am silly... if you dont understand why i gave a character a particular gift, even after the explanation, you should go read my comic, @mourneruntosheolā
isaac: art supplies
yeah im That Guy who gets the artsy kid art supplies for christmas. i think he would probably appreciate it though, what with having like. one pencil and a bunch of paper.
maggy: stuffed animals
this ones simple... i just think she likes stuffed animals, and thats probably what she asked santa for
cain: tboi version of a nintendo switch
also a simple one. cain is a gamer and probably doesnt have a switch, what with being trapped in a basement for 10 years. of course i would get him games too
judas: the da vinci code (book)
the kid likes books. he also likes figuring out mysteries and secrets. i could probably get him any mystery or sci-fi book and hed be happy, this is just the first that came to mind. apparently its about religious secrets? he likes religion too he would probably enjoy that
blue baby: terrarium
less for the actual terrarium part and more for the bugs that will go inside. i would have just gotten him a pet bug but he has many already
eve: book of poetry
another easy one. shes read a lot of poetry, so she probably knows everything inside, but she would find something novel about having it in a book
samson: 1yr membership at the tboi equivalent of planet fitness
samson is the kind of person who would forget to make a list and then you would scramble for a gift for because you dont really know what he likes... he likes exercise, but im not just gonna get him exercise equipment because thats not really a christmas gift in my mind... i guess this would be the next best thing!?
azazel: gaming laptop
i wanted to give him something capable of both playing games and using the internet, and computers are objectively the best option for that. i wouldnt get him a full gaming rig though. maybe when hes older
lazarus: one of those books of rare illnesses
lazarus loves medical practice and psychology, and even those who dont particularly care about either still watch those rare disease documentaries... he would love this!
eden: gift cards
i could ask all of the kids what to get eden, including eden themself, and get 5 different answers from each of them. screw it, get your own gifts
lost: fancy cloak
some people draw them with a cute little cloak and i thought the idea was nice! i would get them one thats long and dark, with a hood and a fancy closure at the front
lilith: gamekid
yeah, im at a loss. what do you get for a kid with no interests? at least this ones cheap
keeper: whatever money i have leftover
he would probably tell me specifically not to get him anything because he doesnt want a present. im giving him a snack anyway.
apollyon: weighted blanket
they wouldnt ask anyone for anything, so i would have to guess. they would be fine with anything i give them, but a weighted blanket is what they really want
forgotten: headphones
but some of the super high-quality ones with good bass and top end, so it appeals to both the body (who likes to listen to loud, abrasive music) and the soul (who likes to listen to classical and jazz)
bethany: necklace with a book pendant
she wouldnt like big, flashy gifts, so i would get her this necklace. she would even almost smile at it!
jacob: Coal.
jacob has been on his absolute worst behavior this year, so he gets a lump of coal. you get nothing. you lose. good day, sir.
esau: tablet
a replacement and upgrade for the one that his brother broke, with a case so it doesnt happen again. he would instantly start taking it everywhere with him
#cant catch me gay thoughts#tboi#the binding of isaac#binding of isaac#mourneruntosheol#this may be an extremely weird post to make but i dont caaaare im having fun
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A Buncha Tag Games (and yet not all of them)
tagged by: @eggyukhei mwah
tagging: this is a LOT of games so iāll only tag @atinyphobe @nsheetee and @veonjun for the SECOND (2nd) game. if they or anybody wants to do any of the other games, absolutely go for it and say i tagged you <3 iād love to see what you guys say!! (also, tk if you felt like you wanted to answer my questions from the second game iād be interested to see!)
One:
tell me the first song that made you stan your current fave group and why did your faves attract you so much?
ok SO the song that probably got me into rv 100% (also yes ik this blog is 99% nct but rv is my forever fave no question) was probably ice cream cake!! i had been a casual listener of many groups up until that point and had never really stanned anyone, but icc was so infectious i found myself watching it over and over. i had heard happiness and be natural before but hadnāt really listened too closely, so icc was the song that captured me. after that, dumb dumb only cemented my love for them more, and the red is still one of my favorite kpop albums to date. rv attracted me primarily because of their incredible vocals and their versatility in genres and concepts. i still get so excited wondering what theyāll tackle next!! theyāre just soooo unique and have one of, if not the best discographies of any group. i cannot stress enough, I. Love. RV!! also theyāre funny and gay so. anyway stream monster once it drops uwu
Two:
rule: answer the ten questions and write your own!
1. what is your favorite song thatās been released during quarantine? ooooo honestly??? probably something off of Sawayama. literally every song bangs so hard i highly recommend that album to anyone!! i canāt pick a favorite off it but whoās gonna save you now is awesome and xs is just,,, chefās kiss
2. what is your greatest mishap when you tried cooking? (or something youāve witnessed) one time, while making soup at my late grandmotherās house on her like gas stove, i put a lid on a pot and somehow that led the pot to be engulfed in flames. IN MY DEFENSE i was like 7, and iām great at cooking/baking now
3. whatās your go-to outfit or article of clothing? oh i love a nice dress. they can be casual or formal, and you look like you put effort into your outfit except i didnāt because i didnāt have to match anything yo!!!! also shorts have trouble fitting me cause iām a weird body type so dresses tend to be very comfy for me
4. what is your comfort food? am i allowed to say like all food??? eating in itself is comforting,,, that sounds depressing but also i just like eating yummy food. i guess iād say like my dadās fried rice?? its my fave and no one makes it like him soooo
5. what singular moment in your life would you like to relive? i couldnāt tell if this meant like, a good moment you want to re-experience or go back in time and redo a moment and fix it. itās kind of a hard question so i might cop out and go with a bit of a silly answer: i want to relive the hi touch with astro...... i wanna look at rockyās beautiful eyes and touch moonbinās hand ok,,,,
6. what is your favorite line and/or character from a movie, show, or book? i got a bunch but a few off the top of my head are genie lo (the epic crush of genie lo), ty lee, suki (atla), klaus, and ben (umbrella academy)Ā
7. if you could only choose one ice cream flavor and pizza topping/style for the rest of your life, what would it be? ice cream flavor: this very specific one from a local store that is banana ice cream with strawberries and oreo mixed in. it is heaaaavenly. as for pizza topping, i love a breakfast type pizza with an egg on top and like sausage and stuff!!!
8. what is the worst injury youāve ever had or witnessed? funny enough, iāve actually gotten badly injured quite a few times, and always on the face!! god hates me. the worst was probably when i hit a metal bench with my face and it took a chunk out of my cheek. i still have the scar! as for āwitnessedā i accidentally broke a grown manās rib once as a child, so i guess that would count.
9. would you rather explore the unknown of space or the bottom of the ocean? oceaaaan!! i answered this in some other game, but i like how mysterious and yet close the ocean is. like proximity wise itās so near, yet thereās an insane amount we know nothing about. thatās so frightening but so intriguing
10. if you could be any cartoon character, who would you be? my first thought was literallyĀ ākirby. eat fastā GOD my followers are gonna think iām just a glutton and theyāre not even gonna be wrong im dying. but uhh idk mulan or smth?
my questions:
what is your go-to feel good movie?
are you the type of person whoās indecisive about buying, or the type to impulse buy once you see something you like?
do you prefer chocolate-y or fruity candy?
what idol do you think is most similar to you? (not your bias necessarily)
do you have any silly dealbreakers? if so, what are they?
what do you do to unwind?
what is a small thing you like to do for people you love? (be it sending memes, remembering their favorite shows, etc)
whatās/whoās your favorite myth/mythological being?
what is a non-typical pet you would want to have?
do you say pronounce data as day-ta or dah-ta?
THREE
rule: bold the statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations, then tag nine people.Ā
AIR ą¼āĶĢ
i have small hands / i love the night sky / i watch animals and birds when i pass them by / i drink herbal tea / i wake to see the dawn / the smell of dust is comforting / iām valued for being wise / i prefer books to music / i meditate / i find joy in learning new truths from the world around me
FIRE ą¼āĶĢ
i donāt have straight hair / i like to wear ripped jeans and overalls / i play an organized sport / i love dogs / i am not afraid of adventure / i love to talk to strangers / i always try new foods / i enjoy road trips / summer is my favorite season / my radio is always playing
WATER ą¼āĶĢ
i wear bracelets on my wrists / i love the bustle of the city / i have more than one set of piercings / i read poetry / i love the sound of a thunderstorm / i want to travel the world / i sleep past midday most days / i love simply lit dinners and fluorescent signs / i rewatch kids shows out of nostalgia / i see emotions in colors not words
EARTH ą¼āĶĢ
i wear glasses or contacts / i enjoy doing the laundry / i am a vegetarian or vegan / i have an excellent sense of time / my humor is very cheerful / i am a valued advisor to my friends / i believe in true love / i love this chill of mountain air / iām always listening to music / i am highly trusted by the people in my life
AETHER ą¼āĶĢ
i go without makeup in my daily life / i make my own artwork / i keep on track of my tasks and time / i always know true north / i see beauty in everything / i can always smell flowers / i smile at everyone i pass by / i always fear history repeating itself / i have recovered from a mental disorder / i can love unconditionally
FOUR
the ultimate tag: answer whichever ones you want to because there are a lot and then tag a few blogs youād like to get to know better!Ā
PERSONAL
name: sarah
nickname: bells
birthday: april 17th
zodiac:Ā aries
nationality: chinese american
languages: english, some spanish, some korean
gender: female
sexuality: baby bi bi bi~
height: 5ā²10
BLOG STUFF
inspiration for muse: i suppose nct since i write for them the most?? but i feel like sometimes i come up with the idea before i think of a member so sometimes the muse is just my own fantasies oops
meaning behind my url: i made it at a time where loads of idols were getting bangs and honestly i believe most of them look infinitely better without them, thus i was and still am enthusiastic about foreheads.
blog established: like winter of 2018...?? i think
followers: over 2.5k but most deactivated/left during my hiatus lol
FAVORITES
favourite animals: sharks, chickens, snakes, cats, penguins
favourite books: the epic crush of genie lo and then iron will of genie lo, PERIOD
favourite colour:Ā pink and purple!!
favourite fictional characters: lol, again, genie lo, ty lee, suki, klaus, ben, and just a few more: richard and evelyn oāconnell (the mummy), dave (dave), michael (the good place)
favourite flower: sunflower
favourite scent: baking chocolate, heating butter, blackberry, wisteria
favourite season: probably spring! i like warmth but not HEAT
RANDOM
average hours of sleep: ugh idek i sleep horribly
cats or dogs: both, but unfortunately iāve never had either
coffee, tea or hot chocolate: tea but then hot chocolate
current time: 5:29pm
dream trip: go to paris and eat loads of pastries and enjoy the fashions and beauty of the city, and also learn to bake better maybe?
dream job: actress
hobbies: making jewelry, drawing, singing, reading comics
hogwarts house: according to the quizzes, all of them. people who have just met me think slytherin or gryffindor, people who iām friends with think ravenclaw or hufflepuff, people who know me really well know you canāt box a person into oversimplified archetypes :ā) in my assessment of myself, it varies by the day, but i think perhaps gryffindor today?
last movie watched: hot fuzz (a classic)
last song listened to: summer breeze by sf9
no. of blankets you sleep with: like 2
random fact(s): i won lego building competitions as a child, one of my dream roles is anastasia from the musical named after her, i played violin for a very short time, i bake the cakes for all my family and friendsā birthdays, i have strangely strong grip strength
SIX
10 songs i canāt stop listening to:
love me 4 me- rina sawayama
cherry- rina sawayama
in & out- red velvet
crush culture- conan gray
manic- conan gray
the king- conan gray
summer- pentagon
told you now- jeremy jordan (originally sung by sam smith)
fuck this world (interlude)- rina sawayama
someone who loves me- sara bareilles
#these were sooooooooooo fun!!#thank you for tagging me eggy#i feel like i maybe exposed myself for being a gluttonous fool tho#lmaoooo#fr tho try these games out!! so fun#sarah.tmi#tag games
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oh gosh i love your meta, now i have to ask your opinion about Kakashi, im fascinated by his trauma and how he dealt with it, which i think was a bad way, but still interesting. What do you think about him and his role? about his time as Hokage?
Okay, let me first start by saying: I love Kakashi. I love him a toooon, and I will happily draw a thousand comic strips with him as main character because I find him fascinating. But my love for him does not preclude the fact that Kakashi is not a āmorally goodā man, and probably would never become one unprompted.
First: he is a shinobi, and all that it entails - a professional killer, a man loyal to a fascist-like system, who will die to protect its ideals. He is a product of this system and will dutifully perpetuate it (unless someone he admires proposes a different solution, cough, Naruto, this is where you come in).
Second: his internal āmoral codeā is incredibly inconsistent over his life because Kakashi doesnāt objectively know what is good or bad -- as a child he used to think his father was Good but then it turned out his dad was Bad, and that set the stage for his ongoing anxiety about not knowing what is Right or Wrong. (It also didnāt help that he was a child soldier at age five, dear lord). What Kakashi does know is what is valuable and valued in the shinobi system, and later, what was valuable and valued by important figures in his life that have died. Everything that falls outside of this is deemed āTrashā or simply āUnimportantā.
Third: Kakashi is a very psychologically fragile guy. He suffers from anxiety, depression, and depersonalization, to name a few symptoms. The resulting mess is what appears to be a schizoid personality with an underlying anxiety disorder that manifests through ritualistic OCD-like behavior.
Kakashi likes rules, he likes order, he likes knowing exactly what is going to happen. Thatās why he reads the same silly novel a gazillion times, why he clings to a dead boyās moral code -- the dead canāt change their minds and change the rules on him, and the novelās ending is already written, it canāt be retconned on him. It gives him mental stability in a very inconsistent and threatening world that has pulled the rug on him too many times for him to ever be able to trust the solidity of the ground below him.
As an adolescent he had symptoms of anxiety-induced OCD -- cleaning his hands over and over comes to mind. He visits the graves of his dead for hours and hours without fail. He always wears his mask, come rain sleet or snow.
So it seems that in order to be sane he needs a schedule, he needs things to be the same or at least predictable. Missions are easy. What is the objective? How am I going to accomplish it? Mission complete. Come home. Rinse and repeat. He is at his most emotionally stable living a very predictable and ritualistic lifestyle. The rest is Trash and Unimportant.
This has remarkably translated to him being a very good shinobi, because the ideal shinobi is a kunai always ready to be drawn, that self-sharpens, that flies true and hits the mark you intended to hit. Kakashi can do that. He knows exactly what he needs to do to be just that, and that brings him peace. Perhaps not tranquillity, or happiness, but certainly a mental blankness that is absent of emotional pain, which is superior to what he feels when heās not on a mission. His moral code before Obito is thus: the Shinobi Rules are Law, and following that strictly kept him content, because he knew that was Good.
Indeed, had Obito not died as he did, Kakashi would have placidly continued being a phenomenal rule-following shinobi. He would have made one HELL of a good ROOT agent, likely succeeded Danzo and carried on being the epitome of the darkness of a shinobi without batting an eyelid. Killing kids, burning peopleās livelihoods, sabotaging peace efforts--all Good because I was ordered to and I Am Following The Rules and that is Good. But the fact of the matter is Obito DID die, and told Kakashi that the shinobi rules were Trash because Comrades Are More Important, which shattered Kakashiās careful rules and order. So, to reduce the anxiety resulting from this loss of structure, Kakashi rearranged his moral code around Obitoās last words and carried on.
Then Obito turns out to be the bad guy. Whoops! A panel later, Kakashi now re-organizes himself to follow Narutoās ideals instead.
What is consistent across all this? Kakashi, fundamentally, has no idea what is morally good or bad. He is full of anxiety and that anxiety is only relieved by following a set structure, a set of behaviours that can be operationally defined and followed to the letter, behaviors that produce a predictable result. If Kakashi arrives late, people will yellĀ āyouāre late!ā If Kakashi pulls out his book in public, people will yellĀ āwhat a weird pervert!ā He assumes all these facades because they produce predictable results that comfort him in how predictable they are.
So -- all that psychological preamble aside,Ā would Kakashi make a good Hokage?
From what I've seen (at a glance =_=) in Boruto, he is the one that helps Konoha transition from a technologically deficient village to a highly technological one. The reconstruction efforts are immense, and the city triples in size, but I don't see that many shinobi running around, so presumably the civilian:shinobi ratio has exponentially increased. Interesting to think about. I still don't know how their economy works, lmao, but whatever Kakashi did seemed to have worked and worked quite well. So thatās canon for you.
But, ignoring that sequel, because I really don't care to follow it or incorporate it into my personal headcanon, I think Kakashi would actually make for a pretty lousy Hokage, hahaha.
Kakashi is better suited to be what Iāve now taken to calling the āShadow Hokageā -- the force behind the "Light" Hokage, as it were. Think about this: he couldāve made a phenomenal ROOT leader. In fact, he was an ANBU commander for quite a while, and he was universally acknowledged as being really good at it, both at completing missions and getting his comrades back alive. What an efficient ninja! His mission success rate combined with his minimal waste of human resources = A++ shinobi, sir!
Why not aĀ āLight Hokageā? Well, beyond Kakashiās āI never abandon my comradesā speech, he has very few words of wisdom to impart to impressionable youth. He can hardly communicate with fellow shinobi, how the heck do you expect him to communicate with civilians? With the daimyo? Oh, he can do it -- we saw with Yamato and Naruto and the Raikage that he is capable of bowing and talking formally, yadda yadda -- but that is not Kakashiās strength. Why would you ever force this socially-impaired, languid-as-fuck schizoid disaster into a public, political position??? Dear lord.
Heās better suited to sticking to the shadows, imo. He can and has made the tough decisions, the cold, heartless, friend-killer decisions for the good of Konoha, even having Obitoās code eating away at him.Ā But squatting with baby Academy students and accepting flower crowns a-la Hiruzen is just...not a thing I can see him doing for years and years with enough feeling to convince anyone he means it. He was -- quite objectively, Iād argue -- a spectacularly BAD jonin-sensei when it was just three little kids looking up to him. Imagine an entire village of children looking up to this guy, their new Cult Of Personality To Aspire To. Rip kids.
Iād much rather have Kakashi as someone below the Hokage, who takes orders fromĀ someone who wants to change the shinobi system. Have Kakashi take up the mantle of jonin-commander, if ROOT is no longer a thing. Use his keen intelligence to suggest strategies on how to allocate resources, which people to recruit and which to discard, where everyoneās skills are best suited for, what areas need improvement, etc.
Finally, please give him therapy dogs and an enthusiastic man in a wheelchair so he can ultimately retire in peace ;//u//;
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Can we also talk about how Bakugou went from "weird haired guy" to "Kirishima. Change of plans". Oh man I didn't realize how much I missed the anime *cries*
BOI CANāT WE I just spent the whole morning crying over seeing the moment Bakugou recognizes Kirishima as an equal animated nbd at allĀ r i p me - I think this might be the first time Bakugou calls anyone by their name, actually, and I just!!! thatās because Bakugou heard Kirishimaās words and recognized him as a good partner and a worthy hero and someone whom he could respect and Iām gonna be grateful for chapter 133 for the insight on this for the rest of my alwaysĀ I !!!!!! have feelings g a h
Anon said:ok ok ok ok but but listen what about BAKGOU AND OCHAKO they are the most popular couple and the most cutest , i think you should try to draw them once i would love love to see this !!! of course just if you want hehe thanx
Ahhh sorry anon but I really donāt ship that - I mean, itās true that I ship Bakugou with a bunch of people aside from my main two, but if theyāre part of Dekuās group you can fairly assume theyāre not between my Bakugou ships? And I only romantically ship Uraraka with Deku, Tsuyu and Iida anyway so! Youāre probably not gonna see any romantic baku/ocha from me, sorry o
Anon said:Since we know what Bakugouās parents are like, what do you think Kirishimaās parents are like?
I have a similar ask somewhere asking about Kaminariās parents as well, so I guess Iāll answer both here?? As a general rule I donāt really like making headcanons over stuff Iām sure the manga will give me in the future, so I canāt say Iāve thought about this too muchĀ - there are a few things I work under the assumption of while drawing, like for example Iām taking for granted they both have at least functional families, considering Aizawa personally visited their homes to ask their guardians about allowing them back to school, and if anything had been weird he would have noticed
I like to think Kaminari got his quirk straight from one of his two parents with no mixing happening, and got the Kaminari surname from them as well, but thatās all I ever allowed myself to settle on as far as Kamiās family goes, everything else changes based on what I need for the current scenario Iām thinking aboutā¦ I do often end back on him being an only child, though - in the same way depending on how angst or lighthearted I want it to be my ideas for Kirishimaās family change a lot, but generally I think I mostly fall back on the idea of him having a big family? In a scenario like that his parents are kind and love him a lot, but having many children and needing to split their attention on all of them might cause them to overlook him a little (it would explain his obsession with being flashy, for me) then again, who knows? I donāt know how canon you can consider the infos SMASH gives, but in one of the strips Kiri mentions working part-time, and the fact that he doesnāt seem to have problems with money kinda makes me believe he might be independent from his family like that (unless heās a rich kid, also very entertaining as a possiblity)
Iāve seen a lot of headcanons floating around about both of these guysā families and possibly being related to villains, that wouldĀ be cool too, though Iām not sure how much I believe it
Iām sorry this ended up being little to no useful at all lol as I said, I just shift between scenarios a lot - imagine settling on one and growing attached and then having to let it go once Hori proves it wrong, thatād be terrible for me
Anon said:Oh my godā¦we had a black cat called nitro !! He was super affectionate and high strung. Thanks for reminding me of him. great art as always !!!
Youāre!!! the second person telling me they have/had a cat called that!!!! Ā°OĀ° is it a popular name for cats? I just called her that for Bakuās quirk tbh hahaha
Anon said:I would L.O.V.E to do a BNHA art collab with you my lord!
BOI THATāS FLATTERING!!!!!! Iāve never done collabs before though, so I dunno if Iām comfortable with this? Iāll !!! have to think about it!
Anon said:Not only is your art adorable but how much you babble on in the tags is absolutely precious, youāre like a sunshine who always brightens up the day just by being yourself!
Way to make me blush anon oh my g o d!!!!!! Iām??? glad I can make you smile with my incoherent blabbering??? Itās super nice to know because tbh I just have way too much to say about everything hahaha (read: I dunno how to shut up. ever. rip)
Anon said:I just wanted to say your asks posts and doodles and literally just your whole blog in general brightens up my day so much no matter how sucky itās been. I had a rough day today but the first thing I saw when I got on tumblr was one of your bakugou drawings and it made me smile when nothing else that day did and I just wanted you to know that. Also you seem like one of the most honest and heartwarming people ever. I hope you have a good weekend. ā¤ļø
gODS whatās up with you guys trying so hard to make me a smiling and blushing mess here aaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! thank?? you???? Iām really, really, reallyĀ happy I could make you smile!!! Thatās the reason why I post my stuff to begin with, knowing I could help you even just a little bit means a lot!!!
Anon said:Iām really sorry if I reposted anything!!!!! Its truly out of habitā¦.š But really, Iām sorry. (By the way, your art is amazing!!)
Thank you!! And as long as you took down whatever you reposted, your apology is more than accepted! Thank you for being understanding! But that kind of habit is something you should really grow out of, anon - for most artists, if they wanted their art on other websites they would post it themselves, and as long as itās about sharing it here on tumblr a reblog is more than good enough! Itās nice of you to want to share my things, and Iām happy you like my stuff enough to want more people to see it, but since I donāt have accounts anywhere else on the internet I donāt really want my stuff there either - a link back to the original post would suffice if all you want is share, wouldnāt it?Ā
About this, thank you so much to all the super nice people telling me theyāre sorry about my stuff being reposted! Thereās a lot of you and posting all the asks here would make this post insanely long, but know that I read all of them and I appreciate every word! To those mentioning they do tell people to take my stuff down when they notice it being reposted, thank you so so so so much, and to those worrying I might stop posting, for now thatās still not going to happen - I mightĀ reduce the amount of stuff I post for specific fandoms or ships, but I love it all too much and I love sharing my love for them too much to just stop. And thank you for all the nice words and compliments too, youāre all so kind to meĀ !!!!
Anon said:I donāt know if youāre familiar with Dave and Busterās (itās a big arcade/restaurant for mainly adults) but I went the other day and all I could think about was āholy shit, Kuroo, Bokuto, and Terushima would have the time of their lives hereā anyway, just thought Iād share that with you since I know you ship them as well cx
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we donāt have those in Italy so I canāt say I am, but this sounds interesting and if itās bo kuro and teru Iām always up for hearing more! What kind of place is it? How does it work?? *O*
Anon said:Not a question or anything but I just found your blog and it is so nice??? Like all your art is amazing and youāve made bakushimanari my ot3 and you bakusquad doodles are just perfect too. Just thank you for existing and your art and ideas just give me life. Thatās all
THANK YOU OH MY GODS!!!!!!!!!! Iām so so so happy you like my squad stuff?? Lately theyāre the most entertaining thing to draw tbh, Iām glad thereās actually people who like all the silliness hahaha I wish you the best weekend, anon, I know this ask just made mine, tbh!!
Anon said:LMAO when did Allen strip I donāt remember that
Itās in an extra! God I canāt remember what they were talking about so I canāt find it, Iāve been trying to since I got this ask (if??? anyone knows??? thatād be much appreciated???) but anyway they were hosting something? It might have been a character poll or something similar but Iām not sure, and Allen was The Hostā¢ and at some point he started stripping and talking about added prices for it and if I remember right Reever and/or Johnny might have started crying for his forever lost and now non-existent innocence (was that a pun? possibly)
Anon said:OMG!!! I get so excited every time I see you posted something and now you just !!! uploaded !!!! all !!!! these !!!! BAKUGOU !!!! BIRTHDAY !!!!! COMICS !!!! AND !!!! I !!!!! AM !!!!! SO !!!! HAPPY !!!!!! (and they are all so adorable!!)
IāM GLAD YOU LIKED THEM HOLY SMOKES!!!!!!! Every time I post so much all together I always worry itās too much haha Iām sorry for clogging all your dashboards now and again rip
Anon said:I was so excited this chapter of bnha because I thought weād finally learn Kirishima, my babies, backstory but then we didnāt and now Iām sad (im still holding out for him having met/seen Bakugou in middle school for some reason and being inspired or something).
Thatās tbh a good headcanon Iāve seen around now and again, and until Horikoshi will finally stop holding back all the Kiri infos you!!! keep on doing your thing!!!! he for sure already knew ofĀ him because everyone did thanks to the sludge incident, so why the heck notĀ
(I canāt say I share the hc though, since until they fought together during the USJ attack Kirishima did think of Bakugouās quirk as Everything He Ever Wantedā¢, but he didnāt seem to be much into Bakugou himself? I dunno I dunno Kiriās very gay and got around to sticking to Bakugou like glue in something like fifteen chapters I canāt say we saw much of how he used to think of him before deciding he wanted to marry him lmao)
Anon said:I love Kirishima so much itās genuinely confusing, like this boy is literally sunshine and I want him to be happy with his explody bf. The latest chapters gave me life because he is shining and I want the world to love him like I love him. Your art of him is beautiful and the best thing ever.
BOY THANK YOU!!!! Iām glad I can do him justice in your opinion? Heās SO MUCH and SO BRIGHT !!!!!!!!!! Itās kind of hard, making him just as good as he is in canon, but thatās cause heās perfect how is he that perfect how does he even do that I 100% share all of your confusion anon when did I even fall this hard for that child
Anon said:Iām most into the voltron fandom tonight so if I followed every blog that was suggested I would be burried in more discourse than I can handle lmao so I will just try to dig through tags to find weeks
ā¦ā¦thatās really one messy fandom you decided to stick with, anon, I admire your strength - but!!! as far as ship weeks go, since the voltron fandom is pretty huge maybe there might be a blog dedicated specificallyĀ to letting you know when fandom events are supposed to happen! You should try digging around for that!!!Ā
#fran answers#i gtg gtg gtg#i'm so lateeee#any mistakes in this depend on the fact that it's WAY TOO LONG and i'm l a t e#ripppp#anonymous
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Caitlinās Three Things List
Okay, so moments (probablyĀ hours by the time I finish this) ago I wrote a goals list that I think is good for self-evaluation. (Keyword: This is what I think. results may vary depending on what youāre looking for.)
Iām going to hop to it and answer some of these that I laid out in hopes of having a better idea of what I want to accomplish.Ā
The Three Things Lists!
1) Three things that went well this year.
* Audience growth
So once upon a time, I grew a pretty decent following due to creating an Inktober Prompt list. My expectations: Maybe two of my friends would do this, maybe. And then one stranger that has followed me for a while. (There are a few followersĀ I recognize their username because if I post something they always like it and for some reason that keeps me going.)
But because of this prompt, I was exposed to MANY new creators and illustrators that I now enjoy chatting with and following! InstagramĀ had the biggest maintained growth. Iām excited to create for an audience that actually expects me to create and not just for friends who see my thingsĀ āwhenever they arenāt busyā. (Not to bash them or anything, just there are a lot where unless I tell them, they donāt see the posts I make.)
Another surge of growth in my audience was due to tabling at conventions this year. I was terrified to show myĀ work let alone attempt to sell it to someone. Tabling at cons not only boosted my confidence but also quieted one of my ever going demons.Ā āYoU sUcK aT dRaWiNg CaItLiN.ā āHow do you have a degree? oh right, you just barely passed.ā I canāt say this is the case, there is an audienceĀ that genuinely enjoysĀ my scribbles. So I am forever thankful to Atlanta Comic Con for giving me that chance. It honestly opened a few doors for me.
**Process
Iāve gotten more comfortable with showing my process. It can be messy, crisp, and illogical. But turns out the people who enjoy my content enjoy my scrambled thoughts. Itās something about not being alone in this sort of sense that calms the nerves.
So I can say with chest poked out that sharing process has gotten MUCH better. I can thank a self-help book I bought this year that was a FANTASTIC BUY. Austin Kleon has [two] (currently? If he has more then Iām buying it like people buy a name brand.) books that helped me see that it is GREAT to share not only theĀ process but advice.Ā āShow Your Workā is the book Iām talking about for now. Great tips, the outline is on the back of the book. So if youāre like me, I need to clearly see what I might be getting into, you might have a ball.
And finally, (not calling myself out on this but other) If youāre going to respond to people when they ask youĀ āhow do you___?ā do not answerĀ āGoogle itā. That is the rudest thing Iāve seen some of even my FAVORITE illustrators do; that response can burn in hell. PERIODT. (my one typo allowed.)
*** Art Style Exploration
For those who think college will help you establish an art style that youāll enjoy or help nourish the one you currently have.... Let me save you over 80K.... No, the fuck it wonāt.
That was the biggest thought I had going into art school. If anything, it confused me more and utterly destroyed what little confidence I had in my drawing style. After graduating, I had a huge swing from how I used to draw to how my art currently looks. I stopped trying to please the one professor who stood between me and my degree and started drawing to please my tastes. And guess what? That did something. And that something WORKED. I love what I draw now; I see why I chose this as my career path. Iām genuinely happy with how my pieces turn out versus in college just wanting to turn the damn thing in and hoping it isnāt an F.
2) Three things you could have handled better.
* The loss of a good paying client.
Now hear me out when I say this: A good paying client DOES NOT EQUAL a good client. Say that three times and then exhale.
Back earlier this year, I had the opportunity to work with a writer who gave me hell and back. And even that is an understatement. I dealt with her because in school you were taughtĀ āif they pay on time, finish the work and get the exposure.āĀ
Iām here to tell you my lesson learned: A good paying client DOES NOT EQUAL good exposure, good pay, a good client.Ā
I was doing the work of three for the price of one and a half. (And was always told I charged too much.) She tried abusing this power with friends of mine, with other illustrators. When things turned out bad, she tried saying it was my fault. She read my contract and then tried telling me I changed the wording, I purposely did this thing, another thing was my fault. I could go on with this story.
The part that I wish I handled better?
How I treated myself afterward. Iām so used to people telling me,Ā āCait, this is what you do wrong. This is how you fix it.ā that I donāt consider my own feelings, and when I bring my feelings into the scenario they no longer matter. Because they tell me they donāt matter. In this case, I wish I had treated me better, because my feelings, my mental health, DOES matter.
**My Patience Getting Into Conventions.
Pretty self-explanatory. I got into one, finished one, and wanted to do eight more in a week. But this sort of thing just takes time and I need to accept that.
***My losses
I had to listen to a Little Mix song to actually learn this one. The context of the song is nowhere near the topic at hand. But a verse from Power feat Stomzy really packs a punch after this year:Ā
ā You look him in the eye and say, "I know I'm not a guy But see there's power in my losses and there's power in my wins" ā
I had to look one of my demons in the face, and state something similar. My loses mean Iām trying. My loses piling shows Iām not willing to give up easily, and that is something that took a while to be content with.
3) Three things artistically you want to improve on.
*Composition
Itās not awful, but it can be better.
**Color
I told this BOLDLY if I might add while critiquing someone elseās portfolio;Ā āYour color palette is boring. All your [things] look as if they are from the same universe, during the same time of day, with the same kind of mood. After three photos itās bland, boring, and understood you have a preference.āĀ
Can you say damn Cait? The statement was, in fact, true, but I certainly could not talk. My color palette is mainly bright, pop, and happy. In order to tell a story, I KNOW it is best told with color. And I failed myself this year. But I sure wonāt next year.
***My Damn Tag
Okay, alright. Why is it well-established artists have their tag figured out? Even some whoās art style is so recognizable (Iām looking HEAVILY at you Gabriel Piccolo.) we know itās theirs, seem to have a tag that suits them and works for them. But more importantly, they put it in A VERY DECENT SPOT. SOMEONE SHARE THIS SCIENCE WITH ME? CAUSE APPARENTLY I DONāT GET IT.
4) Three things you want to focus on trying.
*More backgrounds.
As much as it pains me, I need to improve on backgrounds and perspective. When I do make backgrounds, Iām told I make great pieces. That I should look into becoming a background artist. And donāt get me wrong, I like them. But I donāt like them.
I feel as though I need to improve in that region so that way I donāt feel as though itās a weakness of mine. My backgrounds are nice, but they arenāt nice to my standards.
**More designs
I love character designs, but letās be real. If you were to scroll down my site or my Instagram page, or even this Tumblr archive, could you tell?Ā
I draw characters a lot sure, but none are designs. No process, no sheets, no turnarounds, none of that. So thatās a huge goal of mine for 2019.
***Scheduling posting
At one point I was pretty good at this. Live stream in Instagram and Twitter, cool. Videos on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram. Cool. Everywhere gets a photo, everywhere gets a silly one-liner. Yay. Iām not leaving anything out.
Well by the end of this year that totally crumbled.Ā
SO I want to try getting better at that thing there. Because having attempted this at the end of the year was cool, but it still wasnāt enough apparently.
5) Three positive things to tell yourself.
* You are an inspiration. Thatās all you wanted to be in life, you did it. Iām proud of you.
**You didnāt kill yourself like you tried to; you opened up about it for once and used that pint up anger creatively. That is very hard to do, trust. Iām proud of you.
***You moved on, matured, and let it go. Even when the goddess inside you told you these peasants didnāt deserve your light, your friendship, your greatness. Iām proud of you.
Iām just proud of me for not snapping when I had every right to; not everything deserves a reaction.
6) Three negative things you want to leave for 2018.
*ComparisonsĀ
Oh boy. I am extremely guilty for this: Iāll compare myself to a well-known illustrator my age. Iāll compare myself to friends who are in the field having a blast and getting work; Iāll compare myself to friends who arenāt in the field and they struggle at getting work. Iāll compare myself to the kid I graduated high school with who is traveling the world, is able to eat, come home to his dog and relax because he doesnāt have tuition to pay. Iāll compare myself to these goddamn baby boomers who keep repeatingĀ āWe didnāt have it hard, youāre just being stupid. Millennials aka our children deserve to starve. Weāll just put our faith in our grandchildren because screw the kids we raised and refuse to pay accordingly. $7 an hour worked in my day, they need to make it work now.ā Iāll compare myself to fake people I created in my head and purposely made scenarios and wonder why Iām not like them, said creations I made because I was pretty low for ten minutes...
I just compare myself too much. To any damn body. Itās draining, obnoxious and most of all pointless. My new motto for next year is:Ā āUnless it is helping you grow yourself, your brand, your spirituality, donāt do it.ā
Iām not comparing my chapter two to someoneās chapter thirty-five. Iām not even comparing my chapter two to someone elseās chapter two. I need to stop doing that PERIOD! My journey is different, unique, and worth seeing through.
**Listening to negative others.
A couple of years ago, I lost a close friend around the time my aunt passed away. During this time I was hypersensitive to any and everything done or said; I also kept many walls up to hide my mourning. He caught the crossfire of all of that. I kept secrets from him I was too prideful of admitting and lashed out because of the emotional turmoil I kept suppressed. While in the midst of packing his things and leaving my life, he mentioned that I was a failure because I was unemployed and artistically speaking I hadnāt accomplished anything; that I would remain that way because thatās just the person I deserved to be. Now mind you, I graduated college that year; he was a flunk out. I changed my art style dramatically compared to when I started school to pass; he thought just posting crappy pictures of lukewarm sketches were equivalent. I started attempting trends and all he could do was copy. Donāt get me wrong, this isnāt to bash my old friend. If he were to come back into my life and move on like nothing had happened Iād do the same. (With some limitations.)
Itās just while typing out this scenario, of our four-year friendship I canāt think of one nice thing/compliment/gesture he has said to me. Thatās my problem.
I can be praised, admired, and look highly upon for years straight. But my problem is I let others negative thinking and comments marinate with me for a long while. Too long of a while.
Another example is my motherās friend. (My mom has many friends that do this shit, but this one stung more.)Ā
This friend always roots for me; treats me like a person, and encourages my artistic journey. I consider her family before my actual relatives.Ā
We went over for some barbeque the family was having and I was ready. Black Hallmark Cookouts, laughing, good food, good music, shit talking others teams. She asked me a harmless question of when was I going to quit my day job. Seemed like nothing at first, until the added gest of what she continued with.Ā āAll Iām saying is you canāt do [your day job] forever. That will get old. If the art thing doesnāt work out next year whatās plan b?ā
Iām not a calm person (usually). Normal Caitlin would have cursed her out and mentioned how just because she chose a job to settle and be miserable at for most of her life doesnāt mean I have to follow suit. But again, of all the nice encouraging things she has done, said, and showed, for a while, I couldnāt think of it.Ā
So I pray I let go of this nasty behavior in 2018; itās going to be hard but it is dire.
***Saying Iām Not Enough
Alright, now put the combination of the two above in a bowl and what do you get? A Caitlin who struggles in interviews and applying for jobs because I let comparisons and negative comments rule my thoughts. This stopped me from applying to jobs I would have been perfect for; internships that could have helped me; posting art online.
We (including me) have to stop thinking that in order to be an illustrator means we have to pass a certain threshold of struggle, success, and a huge number of followers. That isnāt the job description. NO JOB DESCRIPTION has āmust have at least 10K followers on Instagram or Twitter.ā nOnE.Ā
So we (including me) need to stop treating ourselves this way. Period.
7) Three things youāre looking forward to in 2019.
*Going to move conventions.
**Adding pieces to my portfolio to try again at job hunting.
***Becoming content with the fact that my current situation isnāt my permanent situation. Unless I laze around and make it so.
Alright, so this was basically me calling myself out on my noise. Lashing out my demons and putting it in writing what I want to accomplish. I hope this inspires you to write yours, even if you keep it private. I hope it guides you and maintains your vision.
Iāll see you in 2019
A new wave
Caitlin xx
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