#im so grateful for the ppl ive met here

[your-subby-creature]

Yall ever cry (/pos) because of how much you care about the people you've met on kinky tumblr or is that just me?

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

WeLL here we are...i want to write s/t quick to remember the year by. cus 2023 was probly one of my most significant years of life, even tho from the surface it may appear not much changed for me, 2023 laid the foundation,,,

firstly, january 2023 i began learning to make music, which is crazy like!!!! it has absolutely given me a new reason to be lieve in myself like i nvr had b4. its like unlocking a new area of my heart, and inutuion.. its so FUN, so so fun ohhh the fun i have, provides me w a brighter outlook for the future as i will always have this melodic part of me activated,going forward. ive learned so much in just a year. idk i just love it it makes me feel wise and complete i feel like an alchemist. i cld rly say a lot on the sense of security music has made me feel in my heart :'0 but i have some other things to get to;

summer 2023 i started doing yoga which has also changed things for me dramatically i think ive released a lot of built up stagnant energy from my body & aura. since i started i feel immensely more balanced n able to work thru my emotions as they come up. ngl when ppl used to recommend me to try yoga i thout it was hippie shit but its real lol.. im finding sm contentment in day to day life than i ever thought possible, easier time being present, yet another thing i will continue for the rest of my future that 2023 has given me.

these r good things but it must b said that this year has been Soooo rough for me in certain ways, mostly due to interpersonal relationships.. some ppl had to b let go from my life this year in ways i rly wasnt expecting & for a lot of the year things were just, foggy. however as things draw to a close im feeling immensely grateful like.. every1 im close to rn are all peaceful souls & we uplift each other, i see now why the ones causing drama naturally had to fall away. even if it was painful process im feeling so supported rn, & reciprocated TwwwT <3333

idk it just felt like as i was progressing w musical understanding, yoga stuff , as well as the past few months trying to use tea and herbs to get my organs in order, i feel that.. my energetic field is rly repairing itself & so a lot of old attachments just cant keep up anymore.

i have to say, well, erm, i am really in love w slimbo and its different than anything ive ever felt in my life. we've been in love for a long long time & i dont talk about it often as i am protective of this love. but god, its just, the purest bond ive ever known and our love for each other is deeper all the time. we r both life path 27/9 & the first time we met it literally felt like.. reuniting, it felt like a celebration..i had never noticed such warmth from someone. i cld never be in such a secure place rn if it wasnt for slimbo & every day im so grateful like dude i owe you my LIFE. idk how to explain it, we are just One. slimbo is my angel i cant wait to spend 2024 & forever with <3

if u read this far....ur a true PMDhead, thanks for being oomfies w me out here on the big wide web, i hope you bloom this year, & this can be a shift in the right direction for all of us <3 i believe palestine will be free. happy new year everyone, GANBATTE VIVA 2024 <333 -PMD9LL

[mouseoho]

EVERY MONTH OF 2023

Link your favorite or most popular post from each month this year <3 (it’s totally fine to skip months!) and tag some CCs you love!

tagged by @ambivartence <3

January: airplane-era seoho February: reach for us leedo March: clownfish keonhee April: pink giuk May: unforgettable June: pygmalion seoho July: (gifset) seoho (rbwa summer fes) August: (gifset) dreaming concept film September: dolce vita seoho October: baila conmigo leedo November: dice onew December: (gifset) dresden concept film

tagging (no pressure ofc!): @kingleedo @224-12 @dejundary @rjsals and anyone whos interested !

ahh im so excited to do this :') i joined tumblr just over a year ago now (14/12/22) and ive had a lot of fun! i havent posted as much art as id like, but in fairness the new school year in september was a lot more intense than the year before + i got a new job in march, so im hoping ill do more next year when i get used to the swing of things!

im not the most social? chatty? even tho id like to be, so im grateful to the ppl ive met here, particularly on tomoonblr!!! youve all been lovely <33

i also only started giffing in july and its been a lot of fun!! tricky, but making a nice gifset is so satisfying, esp when its for a fandom that doesnt have much content (my h1keys <33) ! cant wait to do more+better gifs in the future :)

so... thanks for tagging me, and heres to next year <3

[sweetheartsaku]

MY LOVEEE HAPPY GF'S DAY TO YOU!!! technically it's not august 1 for me anymore, but I wanted to greet you otherwise 🙂‍↕️

YES I CONSIDER U MY GF BC WHY WOULDN'T I??? we haven't been moots for too long, but right now I already see the lasting effects you'll have on me 😞 all positive though ofc!!! I'm starting to think that fr the best thing I've ever done was to follow u and send an ask in your inbox!!! AAAAAGH BC I WOULDN'T HAVE MET YOU IF I DIDN'T???? you wouldn't be my skibidi lovey of I didn’t</3

ever since our first interaction, i KNEWWW i had to be friends with you!!!! you were so kind and sweet, and you were just YOU!!! and that's one of the best things ik about you 🫶🏻 thank you so so much for letting me be my sappy self in your inbox bc I wouldn't have known what to do if you didn't HUAGSHWBHSHA

ANYWAY PLS KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH:( NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS I'LL ALWAYS ALWAYS BE HERE FOR U!!!! just lmk and I'll instantly be right by your side bc duh I'll cross mountains for you!!!?!?!?!?@(@?@(×[+<×[

DON'T EVER EVER STOP BEING WHO YOU ARE ML!!! don't let other people tell you otherwise bc you quite literally are one of the bestest people I've ever met!!!! not only online, but in general!!! you absolutely 100% deserve all the love in the world saku, please always take care!!!! and if you don't, I'll be here to remind you anyway 😋😋

I'M TELLING MY GRAND CHILDREN ABOUT YOU, BTW!!!! as long as they're under my roof, they'll be hearing the name saku every other minute ☝🏻and every interaction we've ever had will be hung up in a frame over my fireplace 🤗 you're legit like the peanut butter to my jam, the spoon to my fork, the barbie to my ken, the shoyo to my kageyama, AND OFCCC THE SHOTO TO MY SERO!!!!!

I'll stop now before this gets out of hand 🤝🏻 ILYSMMM SAKUUU HAPPY GF'S DAY ML MWAH MWAH MWAH<33 💙🤍🩵💙🤍🩵🤍💙🤍🩵🤍💙🤍🩵🤍

OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS FRANNSSSSS :((((((((( you are the absolute sweetest oh my@#$%/ 😭😭😭😭😭/!?!??

WHAT THE POOPY I TOO AGREE WE ARE GEE EEFS AND PLANTONIC SOULMATES AND EVERYTHING AHH!!!! i could say the exact same thing abt u, u were so cute and a simple shu fic i wrote at like 4am on a random april suddenly brought me u months later D: im so grateful i stayed up writing that now 😣 AND OBVIOUSLYYYY i love when ppl get a little sappy cuz i like knowing that theyre comfortable to say it especially to me omg!?!?!

our first interaction i will ALWAYYSYSS TREASURE OMHG??? looking thru my frans tag is the best part of my day frfr, seeing u on my dash always makes me happy and giddy inside that theres an actual person and sweetheart living and breathing on this earth who talks to ME?!?!?! like i gasp a lil. i fr be giggling at our interactions at school and my friend looks at me like hes saw a demon squealing like

I WOULD OBVIOSULY CROSS MOUNTAINS OCEANS GALAXIES FOR U OMG. youre literally apart of my world and its fr been like barely a month since ive met u :(((<3

I WONT I WONT!!!!!!! :DDD i feel rly happy being ms, esp on this app no one seems to find me annoying or a yapper or too moody :(( i thank it all to ppl like u who make me feel like im supposed to me comfortable here!!!!!! you too, DESERVE THE WORLD!!! AND MORE!!!!!i lobe u sososososo much hehe<3

my next 345678 generations will be hearing ur name. over and over till they forget their own. LIKEEEE my mooties here are like the lomls AHHHH JDCNJKDSBFKDSB OF COURSE !!!!!! ur the gravity to my world like lwk😣 the sero to my sho 😞!!!!!

I LOVE YOU. LIKE SOOOOSOOSOSOO MUCH AHAUKWDHB!?!?? THANK U FOR PUTTING UR TIME INTO WRITING THIS FOR ME IM LITEERLALY GONNA HOLD UR HANDS. ILYM FRANS!!!!!!! WMAHAHAH MWAHHHHHH 💗💗💗🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷💗💗💗

[earlysunshines]

haaapppyyy new year everyone

starting this acc was lowk a way to juet get thoughts out my head and reaaalllyy it was lowk a coping mechanism and im surprisingly ive gotten lots of support and attention to my silly works it means a lot to me and i’ve met so many ppl and

what i’m trying to say is that i’m grateful for everyone on here and hope the new year treats everyone well. thank you!

[moving-to-dreamwinged]

OK HEY soooo sort of an update under the cut regarding sharing / other tangentially related selfship stuff !!

feel free to not read , i put it under the cut cuz its long/not super important but yea ;3

so idrk how to word this but basically since iv started hangin out on tumblr my views on selfshipping have changed a lot!!! i honestly was not expecting everyone on here to be so lovely and accepting and im so happy to be in a community i feel so comfortable in :'3

but!!! basically: with the nature of me not being open abt f/o on here things have gotten lowk really complicated LMFSJDFJHSF long story short i ended up having to sb a moot today bc i didn't realize we shared a main </3 i feel really bad abt letting that slip thru the cracks, but i just honestly did not know until i saw smth they reblogged today; and i wanted 2 respect their "dni if we share" !

however at the same time as this my views have also changed on sharing !! one week on selfship tumblr and im much more relaxed about it,,, crazy. tbh youre ALL canon and real to me even if we share cuz different versions n multiverse theory n all that. ;p SO

i realized that im comfortable interacting w/ people that i share w if it's not one of their mains, and if they state that theyre comfortable sharing on their profile bc ofc i wanna respect their boundaries!! so from now on i think thats prolly gonna be how i go about things bc it honestly just doesnt trigger me anymore yippee yahoo.

i know tht might be worrisome tho for some who dont wanna view content potentially centered around a character they *also* are dating so if that concerns you, feel free to reach out to me and ask me if we share, ill tell u!!!

or u can just block my #. 🔮 tag entirely bc that covers anything posted w The Blorbo in mind. i will never explicitly post a character tho so dont worry about being triggered either way! (yeah im prob never publicly revealing sorry)

sorry this is so long and probably WAY deeper than it actually is but im so new here and idrk the ettiquette so i just wanna make sure i dont unintentionally hurt anyone! tbh i never expected anyone to see or interact w this blog in the first place (my policy at first was . "i dont feel comfortable naming my f/o but if we share i wont interact w u!!" not accounting for the fact that ppl could interact w ME first... LMAO i just didnt expect everyone to be so nice and welcoming 😭) and im so grateful to have virtually met all u guys and ur lovely f/os ;3

anyway x o x o SORRY THAT IS SO FUCKING LONG oh my god anyways. back to ur regularly scheduled programming

[gravyhoney]

for asks,, how did Toni and Skylor meet?

AAH IVE THOUGHT LITERALLY SO MUCH ABLUT THIS

Ok so. This happens like,,,,,Post Possession but Pre Skybound. Toni is very social and lovessssss doing all her writing in a public place, that place being Skylor’s noodle shop, bc it was close to their apartment and had REALLT good food. She also had a tense to get caught up in his work so he’d be there until like, near closing and Skylor would always have to remind them ‘hey king, get the fuck out.’ So they kind of halfway met then, but didn’t realllyyyy know each other, yk? Yeah.

One night tho, Skylor finds them at closing DEAD ASLEEP in a booth and is like ‘>:/‘ and wakes them up, where Toni is like ‘ouughhh I’m so sorry I didn’t mean to fall asleep, I’m sorry I’m here literally every night until closing and giving u issues, let me help u close up shop.’ And like. Sweeps and mops and stuff to be helpful, the entire time infodumping about the ninja n stuff (mostly misinformation which makes Skylor like, 🤨 bc she KNOWS these ppl)

And then after that Toni just starts coming in every night to sweep and help Skylor close and stuff, and Skylor goes from being annoyed at them to like, really grateful for his help.

So. They met bc Toni can’t pick up on social cues and also really really likes sweeping floors, and Skylor liked the help.

I know this wasn’t part of the ask, but they get closer bc Toni officially gets hired there and they got like, th coworker bond until Toni’s like ‘u always seem so sad and lonely (she was nicer abt it) why don’t u come hang out with me sometime :)’ and uhhhhhhh yeah. Girls kissing ensues.

TY FOR THE ASK IM OBSESSED W TALKING ABOUT THEM IM SO SERIOUS!!

[magnaaurantiaco]

(sorry for rambling i just love talking about blood)

I MEAN i agree with the “no gender on ID” but having blood type is kinda useless and/or dangerous. even if youre a cop or a firefighter (at least here they have nametags with their ABO) if youre bleeding and it CANT wait 40 mins or so youre GONNA get an Oneg, im not about to trust a tag with a test i didnt do myself (its like 15 min to find out someones ABO).

Ive had patients with abo tags and it was wrong twice, ive had pregnant ppl on their third child who just found out they should have gotten RhoGAM bc their first test said they were Opos and just showed the results at the next pregnancies and the drs accepted it as true but when their kid needed an exchange transfusion we found out the person was actually Oneg and that almost killed the kid

the uncertainty makes the transfusion safer, imo

BUT of course, it could point out that the person who drew the blood took it from the wrong person, it could happen specially if there are multiple patients with the same name, or if the nurse isnt affiliated with the bloodbank (at least here our own techs draw the blood, but not all places are the same)

having a blood history would be useful to speed things up if you need like, 4 bags (its not really wise to waste Onegs, so we would send only the first one, maybe two depending on the bleeding), but i trust only other bloodbanks info for that, if i have access, and the following bags do NOT get distributed without the proper tests (to get an Oneg the Dr is aware of the risks of a transfusion without the tests and has to sign a term, they understand the risk but understand that the situation asks for as little time as possible)

tho! it could also be good if the person has a history of conditions like sickle cell anemia, some blood cancers, or if they in a transplant list! these people need Very Special blood and just matching their abo isnt ideal, we have over 40 subgroups of blood, the ABO is a separate (and certainly the deadliest) system we prioritize but if an O donor is a perfect match for a B+ patient theyre FOR SURE getting that O and we are marking that donor to invite to donate in case theyre needed

the one other situation i can think of is if theyre a bombay (hh) phenotype. It happens because the A and B antigens are always connected to a H antigen, but hh people dont have the H (and therefore, dont have A or B, so in OUR tests they would show up as O!) They can only receive from other hh, and theyre very rare depending on where you are >:0 So, in an emergency, if we dont have a history of the patient, we would give them Oneg and that would be very very dangerous, we are literally being misled with our tests bc they dont point out the lack of H. Because theyre so rare, we cant stock up on hh blood :( , so here the rare donors are marked as well and if we know they CANNOT get a transfusion bc of that, we advocate for alternate approaches (a little like JWs) at least until we can get in contact with those donors but other than that they could live their entire lives without knowing they have such a rare bloodtype :0

of course, im talking about my own experience, i work mainly with syckle cell and cancer patients and they regularly need transfusions, hh phenotype is something i never actually met at work, so it WOULD be useful to have these things on an ID as much as it would be to have a tattoo of drugs youre allergic to (the answer is very! very useful)

but yea, much safer to give Oneg at first than to trust a piece of paper. Donate if you can! Each donation can save up to 4 lives and we are so very grateful for our donors!

(also dont be discouraged if youre AB, only other AB can receive your red blood cells but we use the plasma for babies bc you have no A nor B antibodies, how cool is that! (THE ANSWER IS VERY COOL))

Sorry for rambling i just really like blood lol

this started as a joke but then i started actually thinking about it and now im really annoyed that IDs have this one letter that doesnt mean anything for cis people and is a huge pain in the ass for trans people when we could instead have literally lifesaving information so emergency medical services could just check ur wallet to see which blood to give you so you dont die or whatever But No

[frottinggg]

im gonna get sentimental for a moment but i want to say that im rly rly grateful for the mutuals ive met this year. like this os the first time in my years of being on this site that ppl are actually following me first and have my interests, from vns to oldster experiences at cons. its rly cool just interacting in passing w everyone, and im rly thankful to have been able to chat w some of you. its very surreal especially since i feel rly awkward doing ermmm anything ever but its been nice to log on here during my shitty year and be able to chat with and share things w a group of ppl that i actually feel that i fit in with. its so strange for me bc normally im just on the outskirts yearning to make these sorts of connections but this year ppl actually gaf about my interests and opinions. very surreal!!!! thank you to everypony who has followed me recently it makes me feel very normal yaaay

[roguestarsailor]

annoying that my period is coming and that means my body balloons and i feel awful about my body and i am literally so fucken tired. my evenings are so short and i cant do anything and i have to get up so fucken early all the time because i cant squeeze in anything unless i do that!!! my brain is so fried and it just goes into a spiral. i thought learning to swim and learning mandarin would help but noo absolutely not. it’ll only last a moment before the demons come back and im sad. i just want to cry all the time :( i should be grateful and happy and theres so many possibilities out there and i havent even been here for a full year yet and its not like ive met all the ppl i’ll ever meet but yet im still hung on these old feelings and i just feel absolutely awful!!!! idk what to do!!! im trying to stay social and talk to ppl but talking to people makes me sad sometimes especially when they have families and boyfriends and are on track in life...ok i know theres no track but yes there is. im still fearful of so many adult things and idk how to solve it esp w romance and boys and im learning more about asexuality and it seems to align well but many aces have BEEN w someone to know this ! at the same time why is this the only thing interesting about people?? all the folks in relationships just want to hear my dating life and nothing  else. wheres everyones sense of wonder? am i living wrong??? asdlkkaslddsk im tryying but im so sso slow and the future i’d been dreaming about it blurry and its becoming more of a dark void..is that ok???

[lovewilt-a]

[lorephobic]

happy new year :-)

[udurghsigil]

i feel like im gonna be writing very overdramatic positive posts alot but i really am thankful 4 all the ppl who interact with my stuff and send asks and chat with me and stuff!! i’m not used to ... positive interactions! so it makes me very happy knowing ppl want to talk n engage with  my art!

[n3ssier]

HELLO im bacc >;)))

So I keep lookin at your introduction post and fsr I CANT DECIDE WHAT TO PICK- I just wanted to ask like, can ya write a headcanon, but it has both Crypto from Apex and Ppl from r6? Im so super grateful that you didnt mind the emount of characters I requested last time 😭😭 i hope its bot a burden if I request again cause i kinda simp for all of the. 💀

You can just tell me if u dont wanna do this, or just scratch sum characters if its too many :)))))

Can you pleease write a ff (or headcanons, ehatevs ya wnat) where female reader LOVES hugs and is a generally super chill yet chirpy friend and as soon as she gets recruited, she becomes all friendly and tries to befriedn them and after like 1st day of meeting, she alredy sees them as her bestfriend and hugs them from behind as a goodmorning the next day-

Chars: Crypto, Echo, Vigil, Kapkan, Glaz, Jäger (Ik its all the same characters but I cant help my simping, also as i said you can not include whoever you want)

Ik its confusing and as I said before, you aint gotta write this at all💀🤚

ALSO- MOOTS? Saw that you needed friends so we can be bfs >:DD

SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG :( ive had a lot going on and ive also got a job now so i have been short on time but finally got round to writing again!! i hope ya dont mind me doing some hcs and also only doing 4 out of 6 sexy men, bc i worry that if i do fanfics with them all then this will be a v long post bc ill get lowkey carried away😞 (also bc im feeling lazy rn, out here getting up 4am sleeping 12pm😭best lifestyle)

crypto

∙you two first meet on your second day on the job, and he is taken aback by how talkative you are (not in a bad way tho dwdw :)

∙the other legends don’t rlly talk to him outside of the gunfights/workplace so he just doesn’t talk to them either, which is why he was so surprised when you came up to him and tried to befriend him as soon as you’d met him

∙the pride he feels when you start asking about his gadgets goes unmatched, he tries to explain them as easily as possible but gets carried away quickly, leaving you a confused mess and him an embarrassed one as he realises how distracted he got

∙the next morning he’s making breakfast in the break room when he feels you hug him from behind, and he honestly is so tempted to put his hands on yours and stay there but he wants to play it off cool ofc so he just greets you and continues preparing his food

∙this is the EXACT moment he fell for ya

glaz

∙he never expected you to be so talkative or cheery when you joined, but he was happy nonetheless

∙will intently listen to you while smiling and give you facts if he knows any on whatever you’re talking about

∙you guys end up talking for like 3 hours just about anything, he’s kinda curious about you, and ends up asking you a bit about your life in general 

∙would make a lot of effort to help and teach you things, seen as you’re new to r6

∙when you come up to him and hug him as a good morning he chuckles before turning around to hug you back quickly and loosely

∙he could get used to this tho

kapkan

∙ngl he is annoyed at first when you talk to him for the first time, he finds the chat pointless, but after an hour or so he lets his guard down

∙he never realised that chatting with people was so fun until this day, or maybe it was just something about you specifically that gave him the good time, who knows !?

∙he honestly thinks ur pretty cute talking about all the random topics that peak your interest, asking him about 1000 questions aswell

∙when he feels your arms around him the next morning he freaks out

∙tries to push you off, as much as he enjoys it sadly he is too flustered and also not used to physical contact

∙he slowly stops pushing you away the more you come up to him and the more you are hanging round with him

jäger

∙when he first meets you he thinks you���re cool asf, especially when you strike a conversation with him

∙similar to crypto, he feels so much pride when you ask about his gadgets, its like a huge ego boost

∙you guys are sooooo chatty, talking about anything and everything, but make the cutest duo

∙you listen to his rambling and he will listen intently to you back

∙there is NEVER a dull moment between you two😭

∙the other gsg9 members are just happy that he has got someone to listen to him so that they don’t have to LMAO

∙when he feels you hug him from behind the next morning he is a little bit confused but happily hugs you back in return, he definitely thinks about it for the rest of the day tho

[vyl3tpwny]

the weight of the artist (falls down like an angel)

to those following the lyrics of the fish whisperer singles may have recognized a theme here:

the pressure of being an artist in the midst of everything around you.

—

releasing my album queen of misfits and witnessing its reception was probably the biggest turning point. i had released previously love letters: colourless which was met with a very mild response and i thought perhaps i had already peaked somehow. i dont even think its wise to think of art as having apexes now, i've completely abandoned that way of thinking. instead i think that art is just a continuous journey. sometimes ppl love where youre at and sometimes not as much. it's whatever. but upon seeing the reception to colourless, i decided i'd do whatever i felt like instead of being super worried about what people wanted from me. so i made queen of misfits. and THAT is what started this path. this path im talking about is rlly the concept of being seen by people.

prior to queen of misfits, i didn't have a ton of actual pressure. i lived with my family, i was still going to school, and i didn't really have a big following comparatively. it was just a series of trial and error. i found these genre niches that i really loved and that incorporated my inspirations a lot. so things were pretty simple until i got kicked out in mid-2019 and had to quickly adapt. this was while i was working on queen of misfits.

the reception of the rebellious popstar 'trixie is trans' album was so monumental it was overwhelming. suddenly i had a lot more eyes on me than ever before. im a somewhat quiet, introverted kid from the bay area. suddenly having an insane amount of attention was quite daunting. ya i like having brief moments of attention where i spout of something funny on twitter and ppl hate me or love me for it. thats fine. but now having this very dedicated or otherwise very scrutinizing mass of people now watching my every musical move is really really really scary to me. and i say "is", because it still is. i've not left this in the past.

all of this became exponentially so once CUTIEMARKS, which brought attention from all corners of the internet. im grateful for the positive and loving response ive gotten for it, but now. But now????? jesus christ. i'm at almost 40,000 subscribers on youtube. i have roughly 40,000 monthly listeners on spotify. my patreon list wont fit in video descriptions anymore. and what 13,500 followers on Twitter? maybe this is small for some metrics, but to me, im terrified. i try to feign confidence and firebrandedness, but this is getting so scary lol.

fish whisperer is an album that's meant to be musically ambitious, complex, multilayered, and multifaceted. im sure it's going to be received well by the more dedicated music connoisseurs and critics, because it was written to cater to them.

but after that?

this is the weight of the artist. i'm terrified. i wanna go back to making music however i want to. but now i have all these pressures and all these eyes on me. beforehand, it felt like if i released something considered "underwhelming" that its fine bc i just make music for me and this small community of listeners and thats it. now it feels like i require some saving grace mindset. there are lots of people who will be quick to say "be true to yourself" and "do whatever you want, it's your music" and that's all very true. but i'm still so scared. i dont really have an answer right now. i think it's going to take making more music and hearing more opinions to actually discover one. but right now im overwhelmed. i dont know what to do. maybe im overthinking it? gosh i dont know.

but despite all of these things, im humbled, grateful, and lovingly thankful to everyone whos supported me and listened to my music. from the pirates and their codes, to the patrons and their hearts, and the listeners and their voices of encouragement. i always read so much ab what my music has done for other ppl. but you have no idea what listening and supporting does for me. at the end of the day, having so many people love what i do isn't a bad thing.

it's simply a weight. which falls onto my shoulders. like an angel.

now for a few photos.

i love when ppl who don't "make music" (although i think everyone's a musician) get to experience making music. i love u lucas and i miss u ur an amazing person. thanks for everything you are and thank you for your friendship,,

bonnie is one of my best friendz ever i love punching each other for fun and i think its good. i see you almost every day and it makes my life all the better. thank u for putting up w me all the time and being so awesome,,

i love you eden so much ur my wife and you're the most incredible person in the whole universe of trillions of stars. i cant wait to see u soon and we're going to do so many cool things and kick so much PONY ASS we're so awesome and i love you so much (art drawn by eden also)

thanks for reading <3 we'll figure it all out.

[jinniejohns-blog]

Thank you for 200+ followers!! Yanno, there are some porn blogs that I just don’t follow back because #freefollow, and I dunno if that makes me a bitch or dick or something..But oh well! I like to expose myself..a lot...huh. I should shut up LOL.

Anyhow~! Thank you so much!! Sucks that not a lot of you are active..........like, speak to me!!! LMAO just kidding........sorta...........

But uh- I’m still super grateful!! Regardless of whether y’all actually “follow” me or not?? If that makes sense....And plus, there are some great beans out there who I always see in my Activity page and it warms my heart, I love you guys!!! Thank you, thank you *bloosh* I love you all and yeah, 200 (give or take) might not be huge in comparison to others here, but I don’t care, it is to me! Because I see it as people!! And you gotta admit, 200 people is.....a lot...omg *sweats*

My crippling social anxiety, inability to handle people, and lame sense of humour aside, thank you. From the bottom of my heart. Thank you. 💕💕💕