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[writteninverses]

måneskin released a new album and i won't be listening to anything else in the foreseeable future <3

[bitdemonic]

date. april 8th, 2023

time. 8:59pm

—❝𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐃.❞

𝐬𝐲𝐩𝐧𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐬. FUTURESPOUSEPAC . . . a message from them.

𝐚𝐢𝐝. if the images above are too hard to differentiate between your intuition, use ‘pile 1, 2, 3, or 4’ for the choice selection instead. this reading has four piles. pic not included.

𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐫. 18+ content—no minors. please remember, this post is just for shits and giggles. use the best of your discernment, pinch that grain of salt. and although i write under the impression that majority of this content’s viewers are women, i do read for feminine and masculine energies. if needed to, please flip the roles as reversed for an accurate message. hope this reading is useful, but not for plagiarism bitch. enjoy.❦

𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞

🃏 movement retrograde. sweetness retrograde. faith. rest.

𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞

✞—. “i want it whenever i can get it. idc who’s around, i don’t give two shits about who’s looking. you’re the only person i ever want to have and knowing that i can have it? whenever we want? broad day, pitch black at night, at a park, at a concert, in the car it doesn’t matter and it never will. im going to shove my dick so far into you it’s going to come out of your mouth, that’s how carnal i am for you. my soul burns for you, im running off of petroleum gas at this very moment. you’re a diamond in the fucking rough. i mean, the faces you make when you cum are just . . . im so pleased, so blessed to have you as mine. to call you my lover, my one and only—not many have the pleasure of doing so, but i do.”

✞—. “i’d run ass naked up and down the street just to proclaim my feelings for you. you’re divine, you’re special, you make my crotch tight and my cheeks warm. i’d fuck you for hours upon hours, just to hear your moans. the same moans that remind me of the melody to a favorite song, the one i’ll keep on repeat because i never want them to end. keep your eyes open during sex, i want you to watch me have my way with you. to see the things i do to your body, the same things that make your insides twitch. moving back and forth, up and down, all around and through nirvana just to end it all in rehab. you’ll never want me to go, and i never will. i’ll even stay inside for a few minutes after, because i don’t want to leave us either.”

✞—. “i love you, but above that i lust eternally for you. love is nothing for us, but only because it was always a given��i’ll never stop loving you. it’s just during sex, the way i want to give all of my strength and trust into it, that’s something vulnerable for me. something different and new. but i’m willing to share that, without complaint too, because you’re mine. one person made special just for me, it’s natural that i show my appreciation. i want you to feel the way i feel for you, but through my actions more than my words. understand our connection with each act of pleasure i bring upon you, so on and so forth.”

✞—. “i’m always available to make love, to fuck—to tangle the sheets and wring out the perspiration from our bodies. making you cum constantly—endlessly, without losing stamina and without the thought of it having to end. scream for me, cry for me, moan for me—most of all, cum for me. do all those things and more doll, and promise to never stop.”

end.❤️‍🔥

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𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐰𝐨

🃏 passion retrograde. creativity. abundance. confidence.

𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞

✞—. “give me that pussy. that sweet, tight, warm cunt. i want it all over me—my face, my thigh, hell even my stomach, i don’t mind my love. i’ll be gentle, whether that’s taking it nice and slow or hard and fast—whatever pace you need. don’t ever be afraid to tell me what you desire, or better yet, take control of me because it’s yours. my cock has your name printed on it in red ink, signed by yours truly.”

✞—. “the sight when you’re naked, the swell of your breasts down to the curve of your thighs, it makes my heart clench. even the tips of your feet get me going. never stop riding me, lock your legs around my waist and bounce on me all damn day. cum in my mouth, cum on my clothes, cum on my fucking face—i’ll eat it for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. you’re gorgeous, but even more so outside of the sex. i don’t care what people say, i don’t give a damn about what they think either. it’s you that i want and i want you right here, right fucking now.”

✞—. “strip for me, baby. pull off your shirt as i watch with my thick cock in hand. unclasp your bra, slide the straps from your shoulders, let it tumble to the floor. i’ll gasp at the gentle bounce of your breast, in awe at their beauty, before attacking them with my mouth. you’re my inspiration, the blueprint of the world’s desires. made for us—we all want a part of your essence to bring home for bragging rights. want to see your body shine under the spotlight, showcasing as aphrodite’s favorite, nothing but glitter and gold. on display as heaven’s angel. stand just like that so you’ll never fall.”

✞—. “show the others what they’ll never touch, the parts of you that they’ll only be able to dream of. the same parts that i’ve been trusted enough to feel, to love and appreciate. yes . . . like that baby, don’t stop. show me how much of a blessing it is to have the emulation of a goddess at arms length. how much of an honor it is, keeping the place that’d be gone and up for grabs if you decided to cut me loose. i won’t fuck this up, at least not again. i know what i have, and i’ll always need it in order to survive. you.”

end.❤️‍🔥

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𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞

🃏 happiness. intuition. magic retrograde. illumination retrograde.

[tw — somnophilia] this is a channeled scenario from your person but if this theme isn’t comfortable for reading i suggest choosing another pile!

𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞

✞—. “i watch you sleep, you know. it’s hard not to, hearing the soft breaths escape your lips as the shadow of peace drapes upon your face. bathed in the comfort of being home, you’re content at last. sleeping, embracing the idea that nothing could interrupt the state of winding down. nothing at all—except me. fingers tracing along the hem of your underwear, dancing across the design pattern, before pulling the band of them and letting it pop against your skin. it’s kinda funny—more adorable if anything, the flutter of your lashes at the slight sting below your abdomen.”

✞—. “i do this all the time, or at least when it’s essential. when we’re both aware of how much you need it, i’ll tease away the sleepiness until it’s desolate and gone. you’d never guess it was real, the heat from an open mouth as it warms the center of your panties. that same mouth, dampening the fabric before placing sloppy kisses along the seams. you’ll whimper, tossing and rubbing as you’re mindlessly wondering what the hell kind of dream is this? why does it feel extra real, and why are your hands thrashing to grip at the pillows?”

✞—. “mmm, mmhm,” will fall from the lush of your lips, disrupting the quiet of the night with natural reaction. you’re spurring me on, you little minx. encouraging me to keep going, urging me to fuck with your innocence some more. to turn vulnerability into utter rapture. and i will baby, of course i will. you’ll be conscious at this point, blinking more than twice for obvious reasons, seconds before your face turns into disbelief and tempted half lids. feels good, doesn’t it? i know it does, you don’t even need to utter a word—that moan’ll suffice.”

✞—. “teasing becomes eating, eating until we’re impatient for the rest, until you’re frustrated from not being stuffed full with the other parts. oh yeah, baby—you’re definitely awake now. up and at ‘em, waiting for me to finish what’s began, waiting for me to send your precious body to sleep once more.”

end.❤️‍🔥

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𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐫

🃏 caution retrograde. trust. isolation retrograde. mystery.

𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞

✞—. “our kisses, the taste itself, intoxicate the sobriety of my mind. your mouth, placing the sweetest of sins against mine. i’m left to fend for myself, to stand on trembling legs, stumbling around the reality that is us—proceeding with caution. those lips, diluted in gloss or whatever else that has them shining brighter than a star. drenched in angel dust, sprinkled from the fingers of God himself, urging me to come and get blessed. and blessed i be, for i never want these moments to end.”

✞—. “i can’t stop thinking about those sounds, those kitten mewls that send my brain cells into overdrive. can’t forget the trail of poised hands rubbing and wrapping around my neck to pull me closer. you’re incredible. the sweetest thing since candied apples, just as you’re hell on earth. damn you, damn this feeling. damn the air thickening around us, damn the temperature rising in time with our heartbeats. i feel my chest concave when you go, the same way i feel it inflate when you walk into the room. engulf me with your presence, take me and never let me go—don’t let the others take me from you.”

✞—. “i want to be attached to your hips just as my hands are, how they know where home is when they grab at your waist and pull you in. pushing you against my abdomen to give your own hands some room, to let them run over the hem of my zipper before pulling away. i’d offer to finish the job for you, to fling my shirt and pants to the floor, but that’d ruin the fun wouldn’t it? the fun behind the tease, the persona of being daddy’s girl—spoiled and bratty, naughty not nice.”

✞—. “hard as hell to tame, but that’s the excitement itself. eyes going slender and sultry, bottom lip being bitten, hair tossed to glance over one shoulder—i feel ill, hot flashes and stomach turns, because you’re my kryptonite. tbh, you take all my breath away and funnily enough, i don’t want it back. it’s an eye for an eye, swapping out my oxygen for your full devotion. as long as i’m with you, i’ll never need to breathe again. to have and to hold forever.”

end.❤️‍🔥

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[madisonrooney]

hm. so. thinking about the fact that my last normal interaction with dove precovid was april 2019. with my first time meeting her being august 2015, that meant our initial "relationship" lasted about 3 and a half years. ive met her twice post-quarantine and its not that they werent both heartwarming interactions (the second more than the first as we had more time to talk) but i never like. FULLY got to reintroduce myself and i always psych myself into thinking "oh she doesnt realize who i am unless i like 200% confirm it."

so. our initial relationship lasted 3 and a half years. and its now been more than 5 since it "ended." that recently occurred to me and i like. dont know how to feel about it. i used to complain all the time about how much i missed her, which sounds really entitled but it mostly came from how many liv and maddie tapings i was supposed to go to that got cancelled and how every time id get hyped to see her again only to find out i wasnt sometimes only a day or two in advance but then id convince myself "next time itll happen!" and most of the time it didnt. not to mention, even tho the tix were free, they were a pain in the ass to get. if my math serves me, i think had all the tapings happened as they were supposed to, i wouldve met her more times total in JUNE 2016 than i have now. which is insane to me.

is it weird that i almost. miss the feeling of missing her. bc lately ive just been feeling numb about practically everything. my sadness isnt as intense nor is my happiness. i almost want to feel that sadness just to feel SOMETHING. not to mention its not a sadness thats based in guilt or like me doing something wrong or her doing something wrong, it was just circumstance based. and it came out of love for her.

its just crazy to me that we cultivated that relationship and now i have to wonder if im ever gonna get it back? i cant imagine itll ever be the same as it was then just cuz her being in two big disney franchises allowed for a lot of opportunities like that but just to talk with her again and refresh her memory would mean a lot.

the only times ive seen her post-quarantine were at the cameron boyce foundation gala so not exactly public events. when WILL she do a public event again? sure shes had concerts which ive gone to but we didnt MEET at them. so i havent had a normal meet and greet with her since 2019!!!!

i just. hope restarting things with her is in the cards for me. bc if 19-20 year old me knew where were at now, it would break her heart.

[sungpeach]

instagram user sungie a.k.a. choi joosung

i have a lot of thoughts and feelings and don't want to make them look "cute" or be in "full sentences" so im just putting it under a read more !

he bought the handle off of someone who wasnt using it

he posts like once every couple days on average so even though it's only been open since he joined everlast (3 years) he has a lot of posts. doesn't often delete posts either

mist told me if ur verified u can hide ur following list so.... that's sung. as i said to mist, if it was public he'd follow about 200 accounts, but because it's private he follows probably more like 400. he follows friends, acquaintances, staff, family, bookstagram, random cute aesthetic accounts, his favorite brands, his favorite celebrities, and ngl a few thirst follows (he usually unfollows them when he feels guilty abt it then the cycle starts again the next time the thirst occurs)

his bio link always goes to his latest title track release, except for last year on april fools where he linked a meme video a fan made of him

heavenly is the name of his recent first solo concert. don't hold me to it i might change my mind

the revolving hearts are misc insta stories he wants to keep. usually just days he was rly happy/something memorable happened

sungshines are fan created things. he'll post fansite pics, art, gifts, letters (closed), pictures of fans like from the concert or waiting for him after a music show etc. with art, he mostly posts what's sent to him these days as he's able to avoid the stuff he Doesn't wanna see that way

friends is,, what it says on the tin. him being a fanboy and/or posting pics of/with friends. he's careful about what he posts here to some degree but he tries to be open still. for example instead of posting the pic where he's hugging the lights out of a girl friend, he's posting the public acceptable one where they're minimally touching if anything

bts is like spoiler central. studio (dance or music) pics, spoiler clips, etc. his social media manager will also add appropriately timed actual bts clips here too

motivation are quotes sung sees or reads that he finds beautiful. it's not all super happy positive whatever, sometimes it's just a really beautifully written line in a book he wants to highlight. sometimes it's memes

then for the pics, instead of trying to do smth chronological, i wanted to showcase the general style of pics he usually will post on the main feed. so the genres i'd say (in order, left to right, top to bottom) are cute style pics, aki (his cat), family pics, daily life pics, boyfriendy/thirst trap pics, dance vids

[cutebutahandful]

lil scar's 2k23 wrapped

2k23 health stats (from april onwards):

0 hospital stays

0 psychiatric medications

108 gym visits/swims

2 x breakdowns, 1 x suicidal ideation, 1 x panic attack

2k23 soul stats (whole year):

146 books read (genre read most often: fantasy) ((to no one's surprise))

10 concerts, 3 festivals, 1 play, 1 ballet recital

26 parties

travelled to 8 countries, of which umrah was the most significant

rediscovered old loves: pilates, taking long walks, swimming, reading

discovered new loves: decorating seoul apt, painting, kuromi, renaissance art, louis wain, mon rovia and soft fabric

an irrevocable positive change: my faith.

(the thing about stats is that it can be influenced by biases, esp in selection of metrics and presentation of data. my stats are biased as FUCK - i chose to limit my health stats from apr to dec 2023 since mar was when i was out of the hospital and back in regular society. the figures for breakdowns/panic attack/suicidal ideation would definitely spike from jan to mar but i dont want to focus on that period, i want to remember how i've fared on this healing journey.)

to understand why i chose the metrics i did, we need to rewind to 2022: isaiah's passing, a miscarriage, a violation that left me shattered, and walking away from the most toxic relationship that had me questioning my sanity. but here we are in 2k23, more or less on the other side of it all.

sure, i spent nov 2022 - mar 2023 calling the psych ward home but like rumi said, "the wound is the place where the light enters you." the corridors of the psych ward were a necessary refuge and it was there that i was diagnosed with PTSD & BPD. these acronyms became part of my vocabulary, diagnoses that didn't define me but explained a lot. not gunna lie though, the first days were like trying to climb a mountain blindfolded. grounding exercises were so difficult bc everything felt nebulous and out-of-reach. i felt like i was trapped in a deep fog with no way out and almost catatonic with no control over my body except my voice - even that died at my throat. i couldn't see beyond today, counting the day hour by hour, and the idea of tomorrow was suffocating. the hospital walls witnessed my tears, my silence, and the battles fought to just stay another day.

i'd say i was wholly broken back then but during this period, i was also offered a second chance: a chance to rebuild, to redefine, and to rediscover the essence of who i am. healing isn't about erasing the past but finding a way to coexist with it, to build a future that isn't dictated by the ghosts of my history. sure the scars remain but they're a testament to my resilience, not a roadmap of my pain.

i am not defined by the wounds of the past, but by the strength with which i rise above them.

come 2023, i made a conscious choice to focus on elements that breathe life into my spirit. work became my sanctuary, a space where creativity flowed like a river, and i found solace in the rhythm of productivity. a change of scenery – a new country, new faces, and new vistas – served as the backdrop for my baby metamorphosis. (and it was easy to be happy and to excel with Jay behind me.)

friends, as always, were my anchors, their laughter and steadfastness a balm to my wounds. i will never forget liam and matty immediately flying down to stay by me during the miscarriage and breakup, bryan choosing seating arrangements to make me feel safe, yao and noah staying on the phone with me for hours, ryan always making sure i was eating and moving, allie/cheryl/han/elly always listening to me cry and rage over the breakup and everyone sending me flowers even when i moved. i have always known that i was loved but i felt it even more so at my lowest🥺 

if there is one thing i am grateful for (and im gr8ful for a lot!), it would be my relationship w family, who stood by me with unwavering support. i was so scared to tell my parents about everything that happened, especially the assault, because i was filled with a lot of guilt and shame that i hadn't worked through. i was also terrified that this made me dirty and that i would lose their love but the very opposite happened. my mom was my bedrock - there were days when i was immobile and didn't have the strength to even shower. i remember crying because i loved my hair but i hated how i felt/looked and my mom immediately came the next day with a new bottle of shampoo/conditioner and she shampooed my hair for me. i wasn't judged for the state i was in, and my dad affirmed his love for me too.

i honestly would not have been able to come this far without the support of my community. in their eyes, i saw reflections of the woman i was becoming – and even if i didn't believe in a "it gets better", what was important was that liam believed it, my mom believed it and they both love me so even if i don't believe it and can't see it yet, i will hold their hand and walk over to this next stage bc they would never lead me to something bad.

speaking of bad, there's the issue of T. i don't think they've invented words or metaphors that can capture the depth of hurt he has lashed upon me but i will say this: while the violation may have been the straw that broke the camel's back last year, it was T who hurt me and broke me far more grievously than that man. i forgave my assailant, but i don't forgive T. this is esp hard bc there is still love for him lingering in my heart and sometimes i feel it with the same intensity as i did when we were together. it comes much more infrequently now and doesn't make me cry as much but i hate that my heart harbors that tenderness for a man so callous and unkind. when i feel that love now, i pour it into other people but everytime i think i've emptied my heart out, i find another layer still. what's vexing is that i can't do anything about either the rage or the love - i just need to feel it and let it pass. how can one heart hold such intense, opposing feelings? fuck if i know, but i need it to be done. it took me four years to get over marcus and i pray it takes me less than half the time of that to get over tylr. i havent watched many movies this year bc they remind me too much of him and i end up feeling nauseous and anxious but 2024 will hopefully see me overcome this!!

anw looking back on all that's happened - yeah, i'm not the same person i was when all this started but who wants to stay the same forever? i am proud of all that i've accomplished this year, especially my projects with Jay - it's no secret how much i admire his work ethic, and being around him lends me an additional edge that drives me more keenly. he's also granted me access to a lot of people/places/things that i wouldn't even have thought about and to be given that kind of platform is always humbling. i feel secure in my relationships too - if there was ever a time my loved ones would've abandoned me, it would've been last year when i was a husk of the person they know. now that i'm better, i want to do even more to be present and show my love for them, even on days when it's hard for me to show up for myself.

also, i think i've reached a level of peace i can call normal yet here's the kicker – is my 'normal' just catching up to what others take for granted? it's a weird realization, stepping into stability and wondering if it's just the baseline everyone else hangs out at effortlessly.

i expected to feel something momentous at the end of 2k23 but as the last day of the year draws to an end, i stand neither crushed nor liberated by everything that's happened. but maybe it's enough to just stride forward and embrace the limitless possibilities the universe has to offer me because if i got through what i did, i can def get through anything else.

[musicallisto]

Cactus, sunrise, bands, cry baby 😘

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?

i LOOOOOOOVE them!!!!!!!!!!!! I love all eyes, honestly, but brown eyes are SO. WARM. and sooo mesmerizing. whenever someone calls their brown eyes "boring" or "basic" I want to murder them with appreciation

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.

one of my favorite quotes of all time is from the little prince, "you're beautiful but empty - one could not die for you"; it's what the little prince tells the earth roses when he meets them. if we're going by the classic interpretation of the rose allegory being a stand-in for a spouse/romantic love, to me, that's basically saying the object of your devotion has an intrinsic quality to them that sets them apart from the rest—they don that exceptional, otherworldly glow; and that could be because you know their soul inside and out, but it could also be the sheer familiarity of them shining through—"it is the time that you have wasted for your rose that makes your rose so important". how taming—loving—someone deifies them, in a sense, and there could be a hundred thousand copies of them but they would only be fake idols. like!!!!!!!! im not making any sense but heart go brrrrr for the little prince

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.

i KNOW what you want me to say and i WILL indulge you <3 stray kids have destroyed my life in like 2 weeks <3 love them almost as much as i love you bestie

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.

ok first of all i loooooooooove concerts i wish i could go to a concert every single day and i have so many almost-concerts (i had tickets to 5sos AND green day/fall out boy/weezer but COVID???) i want to GRRRRR. having said that, the first concert I went to was 5 seconds of summer in may 2016 and i also met my internet bestie in real life at that concert so it was honest to God the best day of my life. i cried to waste the night <3333 then I saw all time low (my favorite band!) in april 2017 and had an interaction with alex gaskarth (the lead singer) azjzdbsjqbj im going to get a good grade in Concert Etiquette, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve,,,,,,,,,, after that I saw twenty one pilots in March 2019 and it was SO COOL. objectively the best concert I've attended as far as scenography goes, it was like a super bowl half-time show. except my venue didn't allow them to open the show inside a flaming car like they normally did 🔪🔪 so they awkwardly appeared onstage 🔪🔪 and then the last concert I attended was maroon 5 in june 2019 (yes you're allowed to shame me), they were an hour and a half late and adam levine half looked like he didn't wanna be there lmfaoooo but worth it for getting to hear she will be loved live (and crying. again). I'M SEEING ALL TIME LOW AGAIN IN TEN DAYS BY THE WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[withloveajaxx]

for the ask game!! cinnamon, mauve, blush, fuchsia, lavender, umber, razzmatazz, safron YES <3

IVE MISSED U TOO ☹️💗 & TELL YOU EVERYTHING?? OMG OKOK (it’s mainly me being sad tho bc life is unfair)

I’ve been doing alright, the two times I moved blogs tho,, it had to do w personal problems & some people had the audacity to send in asks that they rlly shouldn’t have bc it made me so damn uncomfortable and it was not helping w my current state so I left :,) THE SECOND TIME I LEFT WAS ALSO BC OF MY PROBLEMS GETTING WORSE AND WORSE and everything was going downhill and I needed a break + people were still making me uncomfortable w their asks (turned them off before I left again) I had accidentally deleted my only moots blog which I had to replace but using the same url (@yonayie pls my layla theme was so cool I miss it) I then deleted my other blog and moved here!! away from the trolls!! and weirdos who can’t comprehend the fact that I’m a minor!!

I spent my Christmas and new years on the verge of tears, it was not fun 😭 my house started flooding on Christmas and it scared the shit out of me!!! & on new years?? i cried bc 2022 was an ass and sm happened it was terrible & we didn’t set off fireworks like we used to so that sucked :,)

school has been a PAIN. I’m a complete loner so that makes everything harder 😭 & my math teacher? literally how did he get hired he cannot teach to save his life he’s so unfair too it’s CRAZY HNGJSJWIJE the only way I get a passing grade is if I self-study and do rlly well on the end of course test in april (which is getting dangerously close im not ready) I dislike my drama teacher 👨‍🏫 I’m okay with my environmental sci teacher + history teacher theyre chill 🤞the workload is manageable so I think I’ll be able to get all of my credits most def!!

oh oh my birthday is on the 27th!! yes this friday pls im not sure if I’ll be able to do anything for it but if not it’s okay <3 (it’d be the 3rd year not celebrating it which is why I’m so chill abt it that’s so sad 😭)

wow omg that’s sm word vomit pls!! why has my life been so depressing I cannot!! i just hope this year doesn’t treat me as badly!! PRAYS 🙏

okay now ur turn TELL ME EVERYTHINGGG <33 (everything that u can ofc 💓)

STOP WAIT,,, I INSPIRE YOU??? HELP WHY DOES THAT MAKE MY DAY WTF YONA PLEASE ILYSM 💗💗

also omg that's a lot that happened in your absence,,, FIRST OF ALL, i will willingly beat up life and people for you i swear,,, those weirdos better watch out for these hands >:((. secondly, i'm sorry that school, christmas, and new year were a pain in the butt :((. i hope everything gets better for you!! and ofc if you need anyone to talk to, i'll do my best to reply mwah 🫶

AND OMG okay what's been happening in my life,,, i'll put this under a cut so ppl don't need to scroll for too long HAHDJXJSJD

OKAY SO FIRST OF ALL... COLLEGE APPLICATIONS. good god those humbled me HAHDJKDKSD LYK I AM ACTUALLY STUPID 💀 the one i recently took was so fucking hard it was not even funny,,, like they put shit i've never learned, heard of, or saw and it was HORRIBLE. i was literally guessing everything math related please pray for my future </33 HAHDJDJKD.

ALSO!! I GOT INTO KPOP MORE AGAIN HEHEHEHE. i recently went to a concert of one of my favorite groups and holy shit. i cried. like so many times. HAHDJCKDF IT WAS CRAZY GETTING TO SEE THEM IRL AND I JUST AAAAAAAAJSKCIISJD ���😭 i'm also seeing another group next week,,, MY ULTIMATE FAVORITE ONE. and i shit you not i am not mentally or emotionally prepared to see those men up close and on stage HSJFKDKDD

also yea school was a bitch 💀 tons of freeloaders and horrible teachers but yk what,,, i got my report today and i passed so it's okay HAHSJFKKDD. also i'm graduating soon and that's kinda scary n idk how to cope but yes 😭 i'm just hoping for the best and giving it my all HSHDJKKFF

BUT THAT'S BEEN ABOUT IT FOR ME,,, HOPING 2023 IS GOOD TO US <33

also nah i'm making sure your birthday will be somewhat special <33 gonna hold a tumblr party n give u a lil something I SWEAR 💗

[anchorandrope]

hi i'm new to fandom and i wanted to know why the word "home" is so important to louis and harry. just because of the song?

home, a word with a lot of history

let’s start with the song.

1) the lyrics of the song are simply loud.

the song is clearly a love song.

the first verse talks about how difficult it was for him to accept himself and how he convinced himself that he liked her when he didn’t. the pre-chorus talks about how he felt lost and empty and that person felt the same. the chorus talks about how he will always be the light and will always guide that person when they feels lost and how he will make their relationship feel like home no matter the conditions. and finally the second verse talks about how he wants to see wake up every morning next to them and think about how good it feels to sleep next to them and how he saw in that person what was missing in her.

so basically the song, in my opinion, talks about how it was his process of feeling okay with his sexuality and how he found the right person in his life.

important points of the song:

describe the relationship as home and show the great importance of that word throughout the song.

doesn’t clarify the gender of that person. the only pronouns in the song are in “told myself i kinda like her but there was something missing in her eyes” this isn’t a coincidence, he emphasizes that something is missing in her but never clarifies the pronouns of that person.

says he didn’t feel alive while he was with her. “i’ve been waiting to let go of myself and feel alive”

says his role is to guide that person. “when you’re lost, i’ll find the way and i’ll be your light”

keep in mind the last two items, i’ll come back to them later.

2) louis wrote home

the writers are: louis tomlinson, liam payne, jaime scott and julian bunetta (jaime and julian participated in the writing of most of songs for 1D since the beginning).

here’s what liam had to say about the song:

“While Liam Payne said “Home” (available on the “Perfect” EP) is the most meaningful song for him but demurred about exactly why that is, he revealed Tomlinson (…) tapped into his emotional side while writing and recording.

“Having seen different things he’s gone through and different stuff this year – and obviously I’ve written a lot of songs with him – he can really get into that sensitive mindset to write songs, which is pretty cool,” said Payne.”

so not only do we know that the song is from louis’ perspective but we know that the song is extremely important to him.

3) the context of when it was written and how it was released

the song was written in april 2015, the only time louis and harry were apart from each other for more than two weeks.

the song came out at dawn on october 21, 2015. the night before (20) in belfast, one direction cancels a concert for the first and only time and that same night they released the perfect music video.

not only it was released after the mv of perfect came out (a song where the only 1D members who participated in its writing were louis and harry and the lyrics are very larry), but it was leaked by louis after canceling a concert at a critical moment for him (and harry).

also remember that louis was single when he wrote the song and single when it was released (he broke up with eleanor in march 2015 and douis started in 2016)

4) home’s connection with other songs written by louis and harry

“i’ve been waiting to let go of myself and feel alive”

the entire song of alive.

“without you, i’ll never make it out alive” – ready to run

“cause when im not with you, im weaker” – strong (same concept different words)

“just let me set you free” – why don’t we go there

“i was stumbling looking in the dark with an empty heart”

the entire song of through the dark.

“i don’t wanna get lost in the dark of the night” – ready to run

“but there was something missing in her eyes” // “i saw it in your eyes”

“there’s a lightning in your eyes i can’t deny” – ready to run

“in her eyes there’s no lies” “but you’ve got stars in your eyes” “the sky fell down but you’ve got stars, they’re in your eyes” – what a feeling

“and your eyes keep saying things, they’re saying what we do” – little white lies

“looking into your eyes, baby, you were still high” – we made it

“i get so lost inside your eyes” – adore you

“for your eyes only i’ll show you my heart” – if i could fly

“who’s this man that’s holding your hand and talking about your eyes?” – stockholm syndrome

“golden as i open my eyes” – golden

“my eyes, want you more than a melody” – sunflower vol. 6

“tired eyes are the death of me” – to be so lonely

“i’ll make this feel like home”

“walked through my door but it felt nothing like home, ‘cause you’re not home” – always you

“and i know we won’t going home for so long but i know i won’t be on my own” – right now

“whenever you are, is the place i belong” – ready to run (same concept different words)

“if i could fly i’d be coming right back home to you” – if i could fly

“you’re the shining distraction that makes me fly oh, home” – fool’s gold

“i used the light to guide me home” – stockholm syndrome

“two hearts in one home” “wherever i go you bring me home” “when i run out of road you bring me home” – sweet creature

“it’s hard for me to go home be so lonely” – to be so lonely

“two weeks and i’ll be home” “im going home” – canyon moon

“so i built you a house from a broken home” – where do broken hearts go

and they also used the theme of home (kitchen, table, door, hallway, bedroom, etc) in others songs like too young, habit, sunflower vol 6, meet me in the hallway, falling, etc.

“when you’re lost, i’ll find a way, and i’ll be your light”

“my hands, your hands tied up like two ships drifting, weightless waves try to break it i’d do anything to save it” – strong

“i’d never let you fall and break your heart” – through the dark

“wanna wake up and see your face and remember how good it was being here last night”

“sweet where you lay” “waking up beside you im a loaded gun” “i don’t wanna wash away the night before” – no control

“you know i wanna be the one who holds you when you sleep” – happily

as you can see, “home” “eyes” “alive” “dark” among others are very repeated words in the songs of both.

5) the song has a connection to one of their complementary tattoos

“when you’re lost, i’ll find the way and i’ll be your light” when that person feels lost, louis will leads them.

sounds familiar?

louis and harry got the famous ship and compass tattoos on december 19, 2012.

harry got the ship tattooed on top of his “home made” tattoo and louis’ compass has “home” written where the needles points.

how curious that both were made on the same day, they are involved with the word home and louis’ tattoo literally leads to harry’s as the song says right?

special mention to louis, who wore this t-shirt when the project home started which coincidentally is what harry has tattooed under the ship.

although since the song came out the word “home” became more known in the fandom, before the song came out they were already using it. for example:

louis slept over at harry’s house and called it home.

harry tweeted twice the lyrics of the song home by edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros.

louis tweeted the lyrics of look after you by the fray (the lyrics mentions home).

louis tweeted about the song come home by one republic.

or when louis tweeted maybe tomorrow by stereophonics

among other examples.

home is a very important concept for louis and harry, for both home isn’t a place but a person who makes you feel at home wherever you are. thanks to their jobs, they go from one place to another all the time so they don’t have the feeling of connection with a place as developed as they do with people. i love this concept because it shows the immense love they have, no matter the circumstances, you are the one who makes me feel alive and exactly where i should be.

they will never feel like they’re alone, they will always make themselves feel like home.

spanish version || versión en español

[electraheart2012]

random but are u going to any concerts this year? I'm curious shsh

omg i sure am!!! provided none of them have to cancel, im going to see japanese breakfast in march, cmat and english teacher in april, and christopher lee hutson in may :3

[alyasgf]

Teenage Rebellion -Adrinette April Day 2-5

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Summary- Marinette convinces Adrien to sneak out! Featuring a daring escape, Jagged Stone concert, André’s ice cream, game night, and cuddling!

Notes- knocking out 5 prompts in 1 because I’m late! Featuring prompts 2-5 rebellion, game night, best friends, and jagged stone! I decided to skip the commission prompt, at least for right now, which is why this was made :)

Side note! they know each others secret identities identity but Chat never officially said he had a crush on Ladybug. Therefore Marinette is fully aware of Adrien’s crush on her and is a huge flirt about it.

AO3

She had been trying to convince Adrien all day and if she kept using those faces he just knew he’d cave soon.

“I told you I can’t! I have a photoshoot and fencing practice Mari.” He said, avoiding her eyes.

“I barely got Jagged to give us these tickets last minute! And they’re backstage passes. Backstage Adrien. Picture it with me.” She pulled him in my his shoulders, looping her arm around him.

Adrien tried to suppress a chill and conserve his nerves. Her arm was around him. No big deal.

“Just you, me, the biggest rockstar in the world, and his huge pet alligator! Tell me its not worth your fathers wrath. You could even hide out at my place and spend the night! You wouldn’t have to deal with him until the next day.” She then turned to him, holding his shoulders and staring into his eyes.

“You have got to live a little Adrien. What’s the worst that could happen?”

And with that he caved.

“Fine what time is the concert.” He said, signing defeatedly.

“Yes!” Marinette pumped her first in the air and excitedly told him her plan.

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At exactly 3:01 pm the next day he heard tapping at his window.

“You’re late.” He said to the girl two stories down outside his window.

“By a minute, I think you’ll live. Now throw down your bag.”

“Nathalie will be coming to get me in 30 minutes. I need to be long gone.” He explained, throwing his tied lined of curtains down for her to hold still as he climbed.

“Be careful, we don’t have time to stop at a hospital due to a broken leg and I don’t need you getting rope burn or messing up that pretty face.” She teased.

“Oh shut up I’m trying to focus over here.” He struggled to get down without accidentally sliding.

“You’re taking too long! You’re more than halfway just jump I’ll catch you I promise.” She said, and when Adrien looked down she was tapping her watch.

“Are you insane? I don’t have a death wish Mari, just wait a second.”

It was at this moment she chose to start silently chanting jump.

“This is peer pressure you know!”

“Shut up and jump already.”

“No!”

“Jump!”

He jumped.

As he braced himself for the short fall he felt himself feel in soft, unsteady arms.

They both toppled to the ground laughing with the rush of adrenaline.

“You’d catch me huh.” He said once they calmed down.

They laid shoulder to shoulder in the grass heads turned to one another.

Before Marinette could come up with a witty reply they heard something that made them freeze.

“Adrien I heard noise whats going on in her-“

They turned up to see Nathalie’s head sticking out the window, a look of surprise in her eyes.

Adrien knew he was doomed. Still stood up and gave her pleading eyes with his hands formed in a prayer form.

“I didn’t see this. As far as I know you said you weren’t feeling good and I had to cancel your appointments. Understood?”

“Thank you thank you thank you!” Adrien said, beaming brighter than the sun.

“Does this mean we can go through the front gate?” Marinette asked sheepishly.

“What was your plan if you couldn’t?” Nathalie asked with a disappointed look.

“Sneak through unnoticed?” Marinette offered.

“Mari! You said you had a plan.” Adrien said turning to her with his arms crossed.

“I never said it was a good one.” She said shrugging.

Nathalie nodded and they went on their way.

Outside of the gate was Marinette’s bike and two helmets.

“Where am I supposed to get on?” Adrien asked, confused.

Then he saw Marinette eye the handlebars.

“No no no! Absolutely not!” He protested.

“Do you wanna see Jagged or not?”

Adrien rode on the handlebars.

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“Marinette would you slow down! I don’t wanna fall off!”

“Watch your sharp turns!”

“Sidewalk! Sidewalk! Sidewalk!”

“Adrien, lean left I can’t see!”

“If I lean we’re gonna fall Mari!”

“Have a little faith in me!”

“Dear god help us.”

“Would you calm down drama queen!”

“Hey!”

They rode with his small suitcase on wheels dragging behind them, tied with a single rope Marinette had brought.

By the time they got to Marinette’s house Adrien had lost count of the near death experiences he had on that bike.

“Never again Marinette.” He huffed as he got off the bike with shaking legs.

“Bonding experience!” She said with a smirk.

She pulled him into the bakery. He said a quick hi to her parents before he was yanked over to the trapdoor.

“Hurry and put your stuff in my room. If we start running late we won’t have time to walk which would mean another fun bike ride Sunshine.”

“Marinette I would really like to see Jagged Stone in one piece if thats not to much to ask.” He huffed, climbing the trapdoor, throwing his suitcase in, and coming back down.

“Are we going or what?”

“Get ready for the time of your life Agreste.” She said in a way that lit Adrien’s heart on fire.

Adrien could get used to that tone.

—————————

By the time they left the concert Adrien wasn’t sure anything ever could top that day.

He and Marinette had spent the last 5 hours singing at the tops of their lungs front row at a Jagged Stone concert. They danced together and Adrien had never felt more alive.

Adrien bought them matching t-shirts (as a thank you to Marinette for getting the tickets, not because he thought they looked like a couple when they matched or anything.) When they went backstage to meet Jagged, he signed their shirts and gave them signed CDs and posters.

Needless to say they were on top of the world.

Marinette suggested they take the long way home because it was such a beautiful night, and who was Adrien to disagree?

Their luck led them to André and his magical ice cream.

“Oh I don’t know Adrien I don’t think i can finish an ice cream right now.” Marinette said, trying to pull them along.

“Then maybe we can share?” Adrien suggested nervously.

Marinette shrugged and Adrien took it as a yes. She decided to sit on a bench as Adrien went to get the ice cream.

“Hey André.” He greeted.

“Ah yes Adrien! I see you brought a girl! Would you like one to share with the lucky lady?” He asked while preparing his scoops.

“Yes please.” Adrien was curious what flavors he would get. He hoped it’d be something Marinette would like.

“Hmm... blackberry and peppermint. An explosive mix and thats a fact! But oftentimes it’s the opposites that attract." He said adding the flavors onto a cone. “What do you think?” He handed Adrien the ice cream.

“Perfect.” Adrien said, almost breathless. “Thank you so much André have a good night.” After paying him Adrien turned to Marinette.

She was sitting on a bench looking at some birds fight over bread. The sun was setting right behind her and it lit her up in the most beautiful way.

Adrien took out his phone to take a picture and just as he clicked it Marinette turned toward him. She had a soft look in her eyes that made the picture come out perfectly.

“Bring the ice cream over stalker.” She said with a giggle.

“Oh I thought you didn’t want it.” Adrien said teasingly as he took a large bite while the ice cream was still out of her grasps.

“Adriennnn.” She whined, and again Adrien caved.

“Oh fine.”

And they shared the ice cream walking home. And although both got sticky fingers and mouths from the melting mess, they wouldn’t have had it any other way.

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“So what’s the plan now?” Adrien asked as they entered Marinette’s room. “I’ve never been to any sleepovers before so you’ll have to guide me.” He walked over to the chaise and sat down.

“Hold on I’m gonna grab some things.” She said rifling through the trunk at the foot of the lounge.

She ended up grabbing out a deck of Uno cards and Monopoly.

“The biggest tests of friendship known to mankind.” She brandished the boxes with a smirk. “So which one first?”

Marinette spent almost an hour trying to get a smooth game of Uno going but Adrien was pitiful. She almost felt bad for how hard he was getting beat. Almost.

After about 5 minutes of explaining Monopoly she gave up.

“You know what? Maybe this is for another time when we aren’t so tired from a day of excitement.” She said packing up the games. “Ultimate Mega Strike?”

“Oh I thought you’d never ask.” Adrien replied, bouncing up and down with anticipation.

“Wow I’ve never seen someone so excited to meet their doom.” Marinette smirked while turning on the TV and game.

“I could play circles around you any day, bug.”

“Then lets test it.” She challenged. “First to 10 wins picks the movie or show we watch after.”

“You’re so on.”

—————————

Adrien lost. Adrien lost bad.

Turns out what Marinette wants, Marinette gets. And what she really wanted was to rub that smug smile off of Adrien’s face.

Now there he sat with his jaw dropped.

“No way I only won one.” He stared in shock at the losing screen.

“Aww its okay Adrien.” She said condescendingly. “Since its your first sleepover you can still pick. Its only right.”

“I’m going to choose because I want to not only because you said I can you know.” Adrien said with scowl on his face and his arms crossed.

“Right.” Marinette let out a small fond laugh. “Im going to grab some blankets and change into my pjs downstairs. You change in here and I’ll knock before I come back. Cool?”

“Mari can we build a fort?” Adrien asked with childlike innocence just radiating off of him.

“Of course we can kitty.”

————————————

They stayed up until the early morning hours that night, building forts, watching anime, and talking.

Adrien took dozens of pictures to remember the moments because he swears its the most magical think he has ever experienced.

The next morning, Adrien awoke with a sleeping Marinette across from him. Her hair was sticking out in odd places. He could see her rise and fall with each breathe. He could hear her soft snores.

As he admired her, she opened her eyes and looked into his. He blushed, embarrassed for being caught staring.

Then in a whisper she said, “Are you a cuddler?”

Adrien nodded with wide eyes and a red face.

She then proceeded to move closer and lay her head on her chest. Adrien instinctively put his arms around her.

“Can we stay here a while longer?” She asked in the same whispered voice.

“Please.” Adrien whispered back.

If teenage rebellion always felt this good, he never wanted to stop.

End notes- Thinking of making a second part where Adrien tells Mari how he feels or where I actually write out the fort scene. Let me know which one you’d prefer and what you thought of the fic in the replies!

@adrinetteapril

[lovesickc0w]

there is a 3 day festival happening near me and my crush wants me to go.

you know what this means. i have to lose around 15-20 pounds before seeing them. the concert is at the end of may. it’s early april.

i have to be smaller when he sees me again :(( i can’t bare to be fat around him anymore. i feel so ugly and undesirable around him no matter how cute my outfit is or how well i did my makeup or jewelry.

i feel like i will never be enough for him until im skinny.

[lunatens]

tag game!! ✨

thank you @loonaanight for tagging me!! 🥺💖 this was super fun hehe

i’m gonna tag @ggulovebot @cutiejoshi @bruh-changbin @noniesgirl @changbinniee @vanillajoshh of course only if y’all want to!! 💖💓💘💕💗

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what do you prefer being called name-wise?

luna 😌 but if you know my actual name feel free to call me that, i don’t mind at all whichever one you use!! when i first made this blog i was so scared about people i know irl finding it so i didn’t wanna use my real name, but now i don’t care anymore lol and most of my close irl friends know now anyways 🥴 but i still keep it as luna because idk that’s who i’ve been here to most of you so yeah!!

when is your birthday?

march 6th!!! 🐟

where do you live?

i live in canada!! kind of near toronto

three things you are doing right now?

lying in bed, writing the next go higher update, recovering from joshua’s birthday live 😭😭

four fandoms who piqued your interest?

if we’re talking within kpop then ig i’ll say seventeen, skz, txt and tbz (mimu i am!! slowly learning them!!!!!) but if we’re talking kpop as a fandom in general then three other ones i guess would be haikyuu, voltron and star wars!!

how’s the pandemic treating you?

honestly not too bad for me personally!! i got to spend a lot of time with my family which was nice after a really rough time before the pandemic. and also we got a puppy hehe (not because of the pandemic we just happened to get her right before) and also i’m grateful that up north where i go to college it hasn’t been that bad so i could safely see my friends!!

a song you cannot stop listening to atm:

hmm i’ve been listening to fairy of shampoo by txt a lot these days!

recommend a movie!

ok!! i recommend wall-e because i just watched it the other day for the first time in a while and i forgot how good it is

how old are you?

i’m 20 :3 ‘00 line hehe

school, university, occupation, other?

i’m in my third + final year of animation in college!! i’ll (hopefully) be graduating in april!!

do you prefer heat or cold?

cold cold cold i get hot pretty easily so i don’t love hot weather

name one fact others may not know about you:

uhhhhh hm...oh i got a gigANTIC stuffed dolphin for christmas!!! a big boy hehe

are you shy?

a little bit? i’m not shy as much as just introverted and quiet around new people but i wouldn’t say i’m that shy

pronouns?

she/her

biggest pet peeve?

idk if this is my biggest pet peeve but i rlly do not like when people make food and then leave all their stuff out for like hours yk..idk im a pretty clean organized person so the mess bothers me 😖😖

what is your favourite “dere” type?

i’m not really a fan of any of them personally

rate your like from 1-10, 1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be:

maybe like an 8 or 9? would be higher if i could see seventeen in concert hehe

what’s your main blog and what do you use it for?

this is my main blog!! i use it for posting fics but also reblogging cool stuff and interacting with you guys :3

what are your side blogs and what are they for?

@/tsaje-art is my art blog i just made hehe altho i kinda wanna change the url hmm

(update: i changed it sllfkssk it’s @ericast now 🥴)

i also have a side blog where a couple summers ago i was bored and i started translating stories from my latin textbook from high school lol but i haven’t had time to translate any in a while 😔

is there something people need to know about you before coming friends?

sometimes i take a long time to respond to messages because i’m fairly busy irl, but pleASE be my friend 🥺🥺🥺 i love making friends on here but i’m not that good at initiating things (so thank you to all my lovely friends who came and talked to me first 💖)

[timextoxhajima]

NOO i swear you're not taking any of my time huhu i love talking to you😭😭 tbh i usually have time at nights but i'd rather use them to sleep or watch some tbz content bc my a test every 3 weeks schedule is still going but i have a lot more to do now so i'd usually spent the first 1 weeks with taking as much rests as i can 🥲

and no worries ur not making me feel pressured to reveal myself!!!! im just saying this bc i really wanna be friends w u,, but if i ever leave tumblr then i WILL OFC I WILL TELL U

hehehe yea i love trying new hobbies no matter how bad i may be at them just to find the feeling of joy when i feel like im truly enjoying them, and with writing even when what i write has nothing to do with my thoughts it really help in keeping my minds busy instead of drifting away into bad thoughts🥲🥲 i do video editing too sometimes, photography, but its kinda hard thanks to the pandemic so yeah,,, editing sunwoo video it is for me😭😂 i hope you found ur getaway too!!! or did u already?

I C THE NEW ENHYPEN POST OMG IVE BEEN SEEING THEM A LOT LIKE A WHOLE LOT EVERYWHERE not to mention im also a shawol so i know that ni-ki was one of the shinee kid?? in shinee's japanese concert😭😂 but i havent found the time to know abt the other members yet so--

ANW I RLLY LOVE THAT FOR UU its good that you're getting a lot more comfortable❤️ so does that mean you are currently on a holiday? yea coming back to uni really sucks sometimes i hated it a lot too but these days i've gotten a lot closer to my friends and i miss them so much now that we havent seen each other for months🥲

i'm pretty good! all the preparation has been kinda a lot and my research supervisor has been kinda laterep lately which is making me super anxious most of the time bc i really need to get everything done by august😭😭 but yeah writing has helped me A LOT in shifting my thoughts and making me feel better, i hope i am taking care of myself enough

how about you dana? are you taking care of yourself ? - 🍋🍋

omg just sleep LMAO just fkin sleep it's fine tumblr isn't worth your physical health HAHAHAHHAHA yeah your 3-week test schedule sounds disgustang fam idk how you do it so props to you

omg... tbh photography is a great way to ?? learn about life?? does that make sense lol i started photography in 2013 and now i've shifted more into filming, writing and editing so it was a very nice shift and transition for me. i guess my getaway definitely includes writing fics, i'm on a video production intern right now too so i get to shoot in studios and edit the footage later on. i was supposed to go on a chill photoshoot with a friend but covid said fuck you LMAO but i might get paid to help my freshies do their committee photoshoot at the end of the year so that'll be a blast. i love brainstorming themes for photoshoots and like templating designs - i think i'm an all-rounded creative person, as in into creatives [not boasting about... my creativity] but i definitely love the freedom in expression and i'm starting to realise that i'm picking up every single medium i could possibly utilise to exploit this freedom of expression thing: writing, dancing, filming, photography, creative designs, you name it LOL

yes niki was a shawol!! he went for a tokyo dome concert of shinee's and key hugged him while he cried LMAO he said it was like 2014 or smth which meant that niki was fucken... 9... stanning enha has been a JOURNEY for me because all this while i've been stanning groups that are generally older than me. even with skz jeongin i began to feel a tad awkward because he's younger, and with txt i basically couldn't whole-heartedly stan them because 3/5 of them are younger than me... then you have enha whose maknae is younger than my sister?! like... fam... how... why... am i that old now... omg

yeah i am on holiday! my sem ended in late april and since then i've been pretty much rotting at home, handling my intern projects, writing, learning some choreos for more covers and sobbing over kdramas owo the tissues wasted LMAO i love this break for myself honestly cause the sem was such a shitshow and i lost a friend or two over some nonsense and i had conflict with a couple of others too so while i do miss their nonsense, i really need the time away from these idiots who act like 5 year olds sometimes

omg i hope your supervisor knows not to pressure you too much, like work-life balance is a thing there right... >.>

i'm so happy you're writing that shit out. back before i began to write i felt so suffocated and i can't imagine my life if i didn't go into writing so i'm glad you found this portal to escape, even if it is for a moment!

i'm taking of myself... by keeping myself at home LMAO i haven't seen friends for like... weeks now, which is pretty surprising given the circumstances, because we're not on lockdown and you can still go out in pairs and i've had friends trying to get me out of the house to hang but i'm... so lazy... and frankly just uninterested in a social life now. idk how i shd feel about that, it's like the introvert rlly hopped the fuck out after i spent majority of the past sem acting like an extrovert.

if you consider sleeping at 4am every night taking care of myself then HEY i guess im fit as a pickle HAHAHAHHAHAHAH

[hanniiesuckle17]

i would like to bless your followers and dash, sooo can you give me a crash course in noir 😊😊

OMG YES OFCCCCCC💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

OKAY SO HERE IS THE DEAL

NOIR is a nine-member boy group under Luk Factory

(Not really pleased with how they are promoting my boys but imma get over it one day!)

Our fan name is Lumiere (or Lumi) and we don’t have any official colors or a lightstick yet.

Noir debuted on April 9th of 2018. With the mini-album Twenty’s Noir. Their title debut song was Gansta (SUCHA GOOD VIDEO) 

They also had a predebut song called As a Star and it makes me so soft.

Their next comeback is on the 27th (THIS MONDAY!!!!!!) The album is called Up the Sky and the title track is called Lucifer

IM SO FUCKING EXCITED YOU HAVE NO IDEA

MEMBERS 

Shin Seunghoon

Shin Seunghoon is our precious leader!!!! 

(He was what got me into Noir. I saw a video about the best leaders in kpop and I was like)

He is 27 years old. His birthday is May 30th, 1993 (He is a Gemini)

Boy is tallllllllllllllllllllll

like he’s 5′10.

but in pictures by himself he for real looks like he is 6′2

istg he is like 65% legs.

ALSO MAN AS A RIPPED CHEST SORRY BACK TO REGULARLY SCHEDULED NOIRING

He is the leader, main rapper, and also sometimes a vocalist (but the rappers in this group pretty much fo everything)

HE SPITS FIRE when he wants to. 

Really good at freestyling 

He makes mixtapes on youtube on Noir’s channel. (I think he has 5 out now)

He is a college-educated man!!!! (He went to Korean National Open University

He took taekwondo when he was younger

The man trained for 8 years

He and Hoyeon compose and format a lot of their songs with a team of producers from LUK

(I often think he and Chan from skz are really similar.)

Seunghoon is legit a father of 8 soft crackhead kids. istg he is so done with them most of the time

We call him our koala because he looks like one <3

Seunghoon is obsessed with accessories and wearing them to the point where stylists literally have to take them off of him. (I have never not seen picture of him not wearing jewelry. )

he is actually in the military right now and i miss him so fricking much TT

All in all hot boy on screen and soft dad in real life

Kim Yeonkuk

this boy I cant

Kim Yeonkuk. Damn.

he was on Produce 101 season 2

he was eliminated on ep.5 :(

He is the lead dancer and a vocalist

Yeonkuk is 25 years old. His birthday is February 8, 1995 (An Aquarius)

is totally the aegyo king but denies it

he seems cold at first but has a big ass bright personality its so freakin adorable

my personal favorite clip of him is and the boys dancing around on vlive to big bang and him saying fantastic baby (its sounds so cute when he says it)

He is also a 5′10 tall boy

he trained for 3 years

THIS BOY IS SO FREAKING SKINNY SOMEONE PLEASE EGIVE HIM A HAMBURGER OR SOMETHING TAKE HIM TO TACO BELL

not kidding

his waist is so fucking small its scary.

Yeonkuk=stringbean

literally a walking meme.

pause in any interview and he is pretty much gonna give you a memeable face

this boy is so loveable and goofy 

also if this boy doesn't post like 8 photos of him doing something on insta im convinced he thinks that it just didn’t happen

he never posts just one photo its always like 6-8

also I was highkey afraid he was gonna go bald last comeback when they legit turned his hair into smurfs pubes

Lee Junyong

Lee Junyong. When i say i love this man with my whole heart

also 25 years old

his birthday is March 1st 1995 (Pisces)

another 5′10 king

Main vocalist.

he is a former member of INX

his brother is Seungyong from N.CUS

he trained for 4 years

THIS MAN IS TOO ATTRACTIVE FOR THIS EARTH

vocals for days. VOCALS.FOR.DAYS.

Did a cover of BTS’s The Truth Untold with Siha and literally gives me chills.

He has little crooked front teeth so when he sings he has this tiny little breath in some of the words so his voice is even more distinct

BUT LIKE JUNYONG HAS THE CUTEST SMILE EVER (I love his teeth in that's a weird thing to say but i think they are so cute)

he is 1/2 of the Highnote Belting Club

talks. all. the. freaking. time.

he goes live alot

boy is obsessed with Yunsung someone save yunsung from him

total crackhead when not doing real interviews

never fails to make me smile

he is said to be the moodmaker of the group

APPARENTLY HE WAS IN ONE EPISODE OF MY FAVORITE DRAMA AND I HAD NO IDEA

he was in episode 6 of The Liar and His Lover

overall he is just so sweet and funny and its so easy to love him

Nam Yunsung

Yunsung is the Lead vocalist and Visual

24 years old His birthday is August 29, 1996

He is a virgooo

MAN IS 6FT EVEN

lead vocalist and LOOKS IT

he is the king of intense eye contact with the camera 

he looks like legit prince charming

2/2 of Highnote Belting Club

weird af

istg he is the biggest crackhead

very extra. (as you can see in gif)

he calls himself a vampire because of his super pale skin

he trained for 4 years

he raps part time

HE ACTUALLY ENJOYS EXCERCISE

he hides snack between his bed and the wall but apparently daewon and junyong steal them

I think he rooms with junyong? not sure

Someone save him from junyong. boy is going to be smothered to death

ngl their relationship is really cute

he was also in Produce 101 S2 but left bc of health issues.

cutest thing ever and then turns into a devil onstage

a literal puppy

he is big fan of ateez and he and another member actually went to the groups first concert in korea

he is just so precious and weird 

Kim Siheon

oml this smol bean

Kim Siheon god damn

He is 23 years old

Birthday is December 23, 1997 (Capricorn like meeeee)

also 5′10 babyy

Vocalist but also a rapper (he rapped suga’s part in their remix of BTS Fake Love)

LIKES TO BIAS WREKC FREAKING EVERYONE

Beware the Siheon

He has a hot older sister, Hanbit, from a group called Hot Place (Their debut song is called TMI and its pretty good.)

HOTNESS RUNS IN HIS FAMILY

he trained for 5 months

he really likes drawing and does caricatures of his members

he is the eyebrow king

idk his eyesbrows are just.... 

stylists do things to his eyebrows anf it just fucks everyone up

high key has the best fashion sense

others boys willshow up to vlive in like hoodies and he is wearing a freakin casual suit

BOY PLAYS TO WIN’

he is like a boss at every kind of game

claims himself to be sweet like “Heonie”

“Hi! I’m siheon! Heonie Heonie Siheonie!”

he is a litter quieter than the other guys 

BUT he is so funny 

he doesn't like spice on his food for some reason

yeah he's crazy

he trained for 5 years

he's just precious and hot and hot and really hot

Ryu Hoyeon

THIS MAN HAS GIVEN ME SO MANY PROBLEMS

Ryu Hoyeon.

So he is my bias wrecker. Boy climbed up my bias list so freaking fast

He is the main dancer, vocalist, and a rapper (he also composes and arranges with Seunghoon)

He is 22 years old

His birthday is February 6, 1998 (Aquarius)

anontherrrrr 5′10 babbyyyy

cheekkkkkbooonnneeeessss

SHARK BOYY

He says he looks like a shark and i agree

HE HAS A NICE FUCKING TORSO

There was a predebut photo of him half shirtless it was awesome

he was also on Produce 101 S2 

eliminated on ep.5 :(

he trained for 2 years

He, yeonkuk, and seunghoon were in the Japanese tour of the musical Altar Boyz with Teen top’s Niel,2PM’s Chansung, and many others

he has a semi viral video of him

when he was a trainee / on produce 101 he was dancing to nct127 cherry bomb and had an unfortunate but quite hilarious accident (just look it up its funny)

sucks ass at games. every game. ever.

he is a low-key crackhead. he is a calm crackhead lol

VERY ATTRACTIVE

he used to have a youtube channel

you can still see his insta (leaderyoo) its so freaking cute and has predebut stuff of all the boys

he made their entire remix of fake love

he choreographed their song Diamond and also their cover of Taki Taki (which was very hot)

becomes a beast when dancing

he has an original chore to WEight in Gold that is very.......(insert eyebrow wiggle here)

has that dorito torso

(tiny waist and broad shoulders)

also thighs god damn

He is also a HUGE Vixx fanboy

Alter ego is DJ Ironman

He is very close with Siha, Siheon, and Yeonkuk

they turned him into a traffic cone for the Doom Doom comeback

he speaks a little bit of English (just a little bit)

all in all I'm completely in love with this man

Yang Siha 

THIS MAN IS SO FINEEEEEEE (he's my bias btw I have never been so in love with a man other than jisung)

Yang Siha is just uugghghhh god damn

22 year old babyyyy

Birthday is March 9, 1998 (Pisces)

Lil baby is 5′7″ oml i love him

MAIN VOCALIST AND DESERVES IT

he likes watching youtube videos and anime

He trained for 1 year and 1/2

looks good in every freaking hair color

his voice does NOT MATHC HIS FACE 

but not like in a Felix level way

He says his most attractive features are his “feminine features” (he says his unpronounced Adams apple and his small noes and doe eyes

HE HAS SMOL EARSSSS and i lovethem

close with Hoyeon and Siheon

but like his voice though

its so freaking pretty

it gives me chills

everything about him is perfect

he has tiny lips lol

he can play guitar

legit i swear his entire closet is black he rarely wears color

legit EVERYONE LOVES HIM

if someone is hugging anyone in a vlive or something

its siha

its always siha

everyone cuddles siha

i wanna cuddle siha. fuck.

for some reason I've just noticed this

the boy likes to wear long sleeves idk why

he also always seems to wear this one necklace Idk why but its so pretty and i really love that he does idk

he says his favorite song by NOIR is Travel (its also my favorite. its on their debut album and omg his part <3)

he is just so pure oml everything he posts on insta just makes me so soft

he is just so freakin cute and makes me switch lanes so fast

Kim Minhyuk

ooooof this cutie

Kim Minhyuk is something else

i just don't know what he is lol

Lead rapper and lead dancer

22 years old

His birthday is March 18th, 1998 (Pisces)

5′11 boy yes sir

ALSO A COLLEGE EDUCATED MAN

He went to Seoul Arts College

he has an older brother

apparently he cooks in the dorms

he trained for 1 year

he likes to play basketball

he really loves taking photos on his camera

he HATES bugs. its kind of funny ngl

he also is deathly afraid of balloons (i will not apologize for laughing at this one)

He and yunsung loooove ateez. they went to their first concert.

HE SERVES LOOOOKKKSSS

I think he is the most versatile member (look wise) because sometimes its hard to recognize him with each comeback because they change his style

he has these really cute big circle glasses he wear and just uwu

he kinda looks like Simon or Theodore from Alvin in the chipmunks in the best way.

he has a thing about jumping

like whenever he gets excited or happy he just starts jumping

he smiles like sunshineeeeee

even though he is the second youngest a lot of the members say that they go to him for advice 

(probably cause he has permanent hold of one of the 3 braincells noir has)

he looooves girl group dances 

especially twice 

TIKTOK KING 

He owns Noir’s tiktok pretty much. also their insta

he's a precious chipmunk

Kim Daewon

Thhis baby oml

Kim Daewon is the cutest thing since that fluffy little dog whose name i cant remember

20 years old 

Birthday is April 18th, 2000 (Aries)

Lead Dancer, vocalist, maknae

PROTEC THIS BABY BOY

In pictures he looks tall af

actually...

5′7″ but looks like 5′4″

the cutest thing everrrrr

HIS CHEEEKS

the biggest fluffiest cutest cheeks

everything about him is smol except for them thighssss

trained for 1 year

he has one older sister

THE BOY NEEDS MORE LINESSSS LUK FACTORY GIVE HIM MORE LINESSSSSS

he goes off in the chorus of their b-side track “Between” though like fuuuuuuucccckkkk (lowkey one of my favorite songs by them)

literally one of the funniest people you will ever see

extra crackhead energy

makes all the boys laugh

he loves chicken and snacks (gotta keep those cheeks in top shape)

literally the softest boy

he's good at everything i swear

he likes to shimmy.

has a cute butt lol

he talks in tiny

literally the cutest maknae ever oml

I hope this helped guys!!!!! I really hope you can stan noir and support them in their comeback this Monday! I hope this helped @distrikt9 if you need videos or anything feel free to ask! I love sharing my boys. They really are so underrated. I did this so fast ngl. I've never typed so fast

[nightklok]

chickles for 2? or toki for 3 if someone asked for chickles already :3

Fandom Memes [open!] (shout out to firefox for crashing and making me rewrite this like twice-so i continued to add more to this because why not)

When I started shipping them: Oh this is actually a funny story- I can’t quite remember when I started shipping them but according to AO3, I read a chickles fanfic in November 2019 (the only one i didn’t reread because im sure there were others i read too) and that was around when I began starting the show. But around that time, I SWEAR when I looked at Charles wiki, there was some line there that was along the lines of  ‘Charles and Pickles had slept together sometime before Dethklok. while pickles doesn’t remember it, charles does’ I don’t even know if it was possibly a fever dream, mixing up a fanfic as canon, or I just happened to scroll through it when someone threw the line in BUT I CONSIDERED IT CANON and I lowkey waited for that scene as I remembered it on/off and it didn’t take until April 2020 when I finally finished the show to realize that it wasn’t canon D: so thanks to fanfics and probably misreading something in November-december 2019 that’s when I shipped them :D (Also if anyone knows where I may have gotten this from pls link me)

My thoughts: I love them!! They’ve made me happy shipping them and they’re just a good and wholesome ship to me! I think it has everything I could ever want in a ship; the angsty and sad moments but also the happy ones- I don’t know how I can articulate just how much they clicked with me but they really did! They’re like the ultimate band parents,

What makes me happy about them: I think I love how they can bring something in each other that they normally wouldn’t be able to do themselves. I headcanon Pickles as someone with ADHD (and aries because hi im an aries with ADHD) and I think Charles would be able to help calm him down and keep him focused or at least stimulated when he needs to be. Being with Charles can help him be a bit controlled (Though sometimes not by much when he wants to be a tease haha). I love the idea too of Pickles being able to bring Charles to have a more exciting day or just being able to help break routine a bit. Pickles sometimes likes to do things on the spur of the night just to keep himself entertained and Charles prefers to keep things in a schedule. They would find a compromise where Charles clears out a day and Pickles just takes him somewhere random. Is it a concert? Forest? Amusement park? Half the fun’s in not knowing! But Charles enjoys that he can be a bit looser and actually get to laugh and smile and just be having the time of his life with him-

What makes me sad about them: I think Doomstar/Post-doomstar and even the events between season 2 and 3 makes me sad, it breaks my heart in two just thinking about it. Pickles...would be so fucking devastated  when Charles died, especially if we go by if they met during Snakes N’ Barrels and he may have never gotten a chance to confess his feelings (or he did for more sadness) and Post-doomstar? He probably ends up blaming Charles leaving on himself and- though depending on where we’re thinking of the possibility of the timeline of their relationship, Going Downklok may have wrecked their relationship because alternatively, Pickles may not have flirted with Abigail but probably something else caused them to break up or destroy their relationship. There was a lot of tension/build up in that episode so I guess their build up and eventual burst would be feelings having to resurface, possibly Pickles getting too far in his addictions and Charles still revealing nothing about what happened during his absence or why he came back; so then you get  the dinner scene and it was the straw that broke the camel’s back to get him to quit and then all the events unfold and Pickles just blames himself so heavily on it  oh god i need to WRITE THIS

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: I don’t think there’s anything in fanfic that annoys me when people write them- It’s more of being uncomfortable/disturbed?...there were a few fics I came across where Charles was borderline abusive/overly sadistic (and one where I wish I hadn’t read-) that left a bad taste in my mouth after reading it. I just feel like that’s way too OOC and Charles definitely isn’t the type of person to be an abusive asshole and/or would definitely know the boundaries of being sadistic in the bedroom while still making sure his partner is into it/feels safe. But i guess that kinda goes in general for any Charles/character fics- 

Things I look for in fanfic: I think them being in character, an interesting plot line, and just it being well written is all i can ask for haha-I honestly love any Chickles fanfic out there; I think the things I look for in particular are either his reactions to seeing Charles when he comes back or anything post doomstar but also implying that they met during Snakes N Barrels help

My wishlist:

I guess I’m just gonna shove in things I hope to write actually- (screaming at me to write particular fics helps motivate me so go @ it-)

A Star reader AU: this actually would be the one of the first (probs second or third) Chickles fic I had ever written as I had drafted it around ago even though I had initially planned for the Chickles to kinda be hinted at but with what I know now, would make it more prevalent. If anyone has read Blood Red Road by Moira Young you might see where I’m going but basically, there was a character who was able to read the stars and predict the future. (if you’re hoping the novel goes more into that i’m sorry-) So if we make Charles one of those people, then probably adds more depth to why he chose to work with Dethklok right? :D  Secret singer fic: I AM writing that one!! I just got sidetracked but God I’m gonna get back to it as soon as I can!! Basically for anyone else reading this, Charles and his friends put up a bet to see how difficult (or easy) it would be for Charles to become internet famous by having him post covers/original songs under an anonymous name. It becomes a chaotic mess when he gets more than he bargained for and does end up gaining some popularity, someone on the internet spreads the rumor the singer is someone famous, and a particular someone came across those songs and finds the lyrics almost a little too relatable. That fic where instead of Pickles being happy that Charles is back from the dead and they can live happily ever after, he becomes incredibly distressed and heartbroken because he ends up suffering major trauma. because seeing your bf ‘die’ all bloodied and mangled and coming back with only a scar and secrets he won’t tell you? That’s definitely years worth of therapy right there. That is like the only fic of this list even remotely close to finishing but God, definitely one of the most difficult to write- Fics where they met before/during Snakes N’ Barrels. I need to write one or two fics on that because I consider it canon. I’m sure I have mentioned drafting one or two fics like that?? Gotta look through my evernotes-

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: I’m sorry but no my mind refuses to delve further- And i mean I’ve been digging Magnus/Charles lately and we all know how that wouldn’t last either so they’re meant for each other fjkdsfjlk

My happily ever after for them: The boys defeat Salacia, Charles and Pickles reunite and kiss for the first time in such a long time. They’re finally happy together and get to officially date (or continue where they left off). Charles is able to retire as the priest as his work is completed (or he manages to get it more public considering they saved the world so most likely it’d be a recognized religion) They get married, and when Dethklok officially retires, they buy a few houses, maybe even do music projects together or Charles takes over Crystal Mountain Records actually and Pickles helps out by being one of the music producers, they adopt a cat or dog or both, and just be happy with each other :D

[sharkeysnight]

all the unusual music asks ! 👀

bless your heart kaya. heres all the ones i havent done yet

☮ When was the last time you went to a concert? Which one was it?

my last concert was when i went to see adrian belew last april!

☠ Do you play a musical instrument? What instrument?

i primarily play bass, although i can also play guitar reasonably decently

☯ How many CDs do you own? From which artist do you have the most CDs?

i dont own any cds! i do own two cassettes though. one is so red the rose by arcadia, which i bought when i was so out of it that i didn’t remember that i don’t own a cassette player. the other is young lions by adrian belew, which i bought out of sheer hysterical excitement at seeing it for SALE in PUBLIC for a DOLLAR 

✖ What do your parents think about the music you listen to? 

my mom mostly likes the stuff i listen to, or at least tolerates it. although i was in my room very cheerfully yelling along to king crimson neurotica a few months ago and she passed by and was like. what are you SAYING what kind of MUSIC is THAT and it was very funny

☢ Do you still buy CDs? Which was the last CD you bought? 

no cds! but the last record i bought was peter gabriel plays live

☤ Do you most pay attention to the melody or the lyrics? 

i pay attention to the melody, and then to the way the words sound and feel in my mouth. i absorb lyrics like a sponge & can sing every word to so so many songs without any real effort, but a lot of the time the actual meaning of the words goes right over my head unless i actively pay attention to it on purpose

♫ Name your top 3 albums from your favorite band/artist. i have 3 fave bands that are tied in my affections, so here’s my top 3 albums from each of them!

queen: 1) queen ii, 2) hot space, 3) jazz

punch brothers: 1) the phosphorescent blues, 2) who’s feeling young now?, 3) ahoy! ((i know ahoy is an ep but i love it SO dearly)

the used: 1) shallow believer, 2) vulnerable, 3) artwork, with a special shoutout to heartwork because it really should be somewhere on this list on account of i adore it

✞ Can you concentrate on other things when you are listening to music? 

yes! but it depends on what music and what other things

◔  Put your mp3/ipod on shuffle and name the first 5 songs you stumble upon.

on the silent wings of freedom - yes

the blood - the cure

after hours - the velvet underground

we’re going wrong - cream

turn it off - paramore

ϟ  Do you sing in the shower?

yes! very excitedly and passionately! although i think i’m going to have to stop bc in my new apartment the bathroom is right near my roommates’ room and i dont want to bother her :(

ø  If you could play any musical instrument, what would it be?

im desperate to know how to play the marimba. i think its absolutely the worlds stimmiest instrument. the SOUND! the RESONANCE! the slight vibration when you tap the mallet onto the wood and then it bounces back up again! its absolutely amazing. if i had the money and space for a marimba i would instantly evolve into an ideal version of myself. also i think it would be cool to know how to play the tuba but im slightly less passionate about that

☺ What do you think the world would be like without music?

i think the world would be entirely unbearable, actually. not to be melodramatic but i genuinely don’t think i would be able to exist in a world without music

✦ What musicians did you like 5 years ago? 10 years ago?

five years ago i was super into the band, t. rex, and my chemical romance, and i was just getting into talking heads. ten years ago i was into owl city, avenged sevenfold, and rihanna