#im screaming into the void with this fic and i don't care

[mr-nauseam]

3, 21, and 25 for the ask game pls💕💕

Thank you so much much bby Grace for the questions!! 3. Favorite line/scene you wrote this year Ohh abt scenes, I like do lot of these, so I wouldn't end to mention them. Shot out tho to You let me desecrate you, bc the time it took me those scenes was INSANE, but talking about lines my top is: I. Me and my Husband:

"Stop acting like my father." Frustration seeps into his voice. Sejanus feels so guilty but he has to make him to understand.  "Because I am not my mother." And there it dies in Sejanus mouth for the one and only time, the affectionate name Ma. 

II. Kill me because I'm dying:

“Please, please. Somebody kill me.” Sejanus prays, because Marcus is no longer here. It would not be murder, it would be mercy. He is dying, he is beyond salvation. He's a goner, the snake listens.

III. when I'm out of faith, he's my idol: Coriolanus doesn't understand her words, until the thing turns around and he doesn't need to see it closer to recognize that face. The same face that invades his nightmares and haunts him through the walls of the Plinth's old apartment. A face that should not exist outside the darkest corners of his mind. Sejanus Plinth. Alive. Not dead as he should be, although the emptiness in his eyes, and the piercing scream that breaks the silence make him believe that he died right there, in the reunion that should never have happened. 

21. most memorable comment/review OH EVERY PERSON WHO LEAVES ME A COMMENT HAS MY ETERNAL LOVE, I LITERALLY HAVE A SHAMEFUL ALBUM WHERE I KEEP A SCREEN CAPTURE OF EVERY COMMENT I RECEIVE BECAUSE I'M THAT RIDICULOUS BUT... <3

We will make a special appointment to (Giuggiola, Malala, Adrianasalas91) known for being the faithful readers of Bad Ending,,,, I guess there are more people who read Bad Ending, but they have left comments on several of the one shots, and it has been a delight to read them every time, I love them very much, I wish they could see this and know that we have them very present with every evil thing we do in that au <3

AND personally an anon who left me a comment on when I'm out of faith, he's my idol is probably THE BEST COMMENT I EVER RECEIVED <3 no one knows this more than poor vico who had to put up with me but that fic was SO IGNORED at first,,,, it's not popular now but I got very depressed when I got crickets, in fact I called it a 10k fail, because speaking of sn*wjanus, I'm pretty consious I write unpopular stuff, but I don't know that time it was... so sad. I felt so much like shouting into the void at ideas that no one but vico and I were interested in,,,,what's point?I ask myself even why bother to publish? but that comment appeared, and I was inspired to keep being annoying in the tag sooo much. Alsooo saechisei who comment in Knock Off, its also one of the best COMMENTS I GEEET <3 25. a fic you read this year you would recommend everyone read FIRST YALL NEED READ VICOS FICS, SHES THE CEO OF PLINTH LORE The Plinth study characters collection The other person with excellent takes abt Plinth Family: Bee Little Sejanus series Then your fic, the sejarcus fic of all the time Just as it was The best fucking snowbairdplinth fic on earth The haunting of Coriolanus Snow HERE... I WOULD SAY EVERYBODY SHOULD READ THIS ONE but, Im a dove dead fan, I read fucked fucked shit and I know not everybody is into that SO PLEASE PLEAE READ READ THE TAGS, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!! but... One of the best Tigris character study in my opinion, and one fo the stories that shape my vision of Snow Family Pretty little beasts

[thesmpisonfire]

just finished 'sink your claws into me, i don't care'

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK I love it <3

I adore how you write them btw they're feel so in character and just!!!

'This couldn’t be happening. Not now. Pac couldn’t have lost another one of his family, right? He couldn’t be alone now and…' <- dying literally DYING

'He laughed again, hiding his face on his hands and feeling another laughter bubbling up, cracking his heart, making him lose grasp on his mind.' euogbfaoisfgoiasgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

'Pac laughed to himself again, remembering Mike berating him for his idiotic crush on the Alcatraz’ Cannibal.'

'“Rumors? He ate my fucking leg.” Pac smiled wide, as if he was under Risus again.' <- PAC. pac :(

'“If I had been faster to find him…” She said to herself, eyes tempestuous. “He wouldn’t have hurt you, and I could have helped him…”' these two are such a pair I love them wtf :((((((

'He never moved on, he was still fucking stuck in Alcatraz, he was still stuck in that minuscule island staring in disbelief as Mike lunged to stab him.'

'It was kinda funny, how the voice in his head sounded so much like Mike. He missed his soulmate, at least Pac wouldn’t be drifting alone into oblivion. Someone to hold him hand and keep himself afloat. Above the scary dark deep of his fucked up mind.'

'Pac practically forced himself to say it, against all his wishes. How could he say anything else when Bagi looked so sad? She was counting on him, right?' <- pac plese stop thinking about others for once your killing me

'“Because Cell just messaged me to meet at the Order, and quick.”' WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK! AHHHHHHHH cliffhanger I love this fic so much I think i might explode. your writing does not disappoint I love this screaming into the void

AAAAAA??? THANK YOU SO MUCH???? AAAAAAAAAAAAA????? DUDE IM SO 🥺🥺🥺🥺

AM GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT SO MUCH IM?? AAAAA??? OMG???

[bonesandthebees]

dude now that i was thinking about stars again i decided to reread ch28 (feel free to not reply to this btw hahaha i just appreciate having a void to scream into :))) ) and oooohhhh my godddd

i thought i'd be okay since yknow it was rereading, but nope, i freaked out just the same KFJDSKJD

i even took out the pillow to scream into o77

ur writing is just SO good ughhh and the way you describe dream monologuing >>> that was the perfect villain speech

and don't even get me started on phil ohhhh my godddd, you capture the perfect balance of him being a fricken Terrifying Emperor, but also just him caring about Wilbur so so much :(( AND TECHNOOO techno in stars always makes me laugh i love him so much

i love the amount of reassuring tommy does for wilbur :(( reminding him that it's okay, he's okay, they're okay. it's okay if wilbur indulges himself, tommy has techno he doesn't need wilbur in that moment, wilbur's allowed to let himself be supported. i just-- ughhh i love them so much

i also love how phil gets to call wilbur wilbur and he Instantly just calls him "Wil" like ooohhhhfjwekf my heart i cannot handle this

i don't think i'll ever get over phil calling wilbur "little bird" they are just s o

scratch that, i dont think i'll ever get over *the whole fic*, duuuude this was just soooawjeoaiawef <333

anyways ty for indulging me, im gonna go sleep now and then go back to thinking about glass!crimeboys, glass crimeboys mean so much to me ooohhmygod, just that unexplainable trust they both have-- God. I'll go on a rant about those two later tho hehe

i've been digging back through my inbox tonight and this was so nice to read. so glad you enjoyed dream's evil villain speech, I actually had a lot of fun writing his dialogue for that one chapter lol

stars!crimeboys make me so mentally ill they are my BOYS

and stars!sandduo too ofc. god my heart. i love thinking back on that chapter because it was just the culmination of everything i'd been building up to the entire time. so so satisfying to write.

stars <33 ty for this :D

[verathena14]

i'm just gonna talk here a little bit, mostly just screaming into the void to put words to my feelings.

so i've been thinking about exactly *why* i don't really ship silkali. that may be a bit harsh, but i don't know how to word it. i'm a multishipper, and it's not gonna turn me off from a fic if i see it, but i'm not going to go out of my way to read a silkali fic, and i've been wondering why that is.

after all, i'm a huge soriku fan, i think they'd be together in every universe. and i think kalim is very sora-coded, and i see silver as very riku-coded, so it just makes me wonder why i don't really ship them.

but i've realized that it's because silver and kalim may individually feel like riku and sora to me, but their dynamic together isn't really "soriku"

i think the reason this is, is because i see the "childhood friends" dynamic as something intrinsic to soriku; soriku doesn't feel like "soriku" without them being childhood friends, to me at least. i've talked about this before, and i think that's part of why i'm so ambivalent towards silkali.

i think this is also because both silver and kalim have a childhood friend (though the "friend" part is debatable in both cases) that fills the role of "their" sora or riku

for kalim, jamil plays that part. (though at this point, their dynamic lends itself much more to kh1 soriku than anything else, since jamil being suuuuper jealous of kalim and throwing hissy "getting-lots-of-people-hurt-or-killed" fits reminds me a lot of riku's jealousy and whole destroying-the-island-and-getting-possessed thing) (I SAY THIS ALL WITH AFFECTION. I LOVE JAMIL AND HE DEFINITELY HAD GOOD REASONS. he just... could've found a better way to deal with his emotions that wasn't overblotting lol)

and for silver, sebek plays the part of "his sora" (their dynamic is kind of an odd mix of kh1 soriku and kh3 soriku, with a lot of mutual irritation but also sebek dealing with an inferiority complex and trying to prove himself "better" than silver, and sometimes silver goes out of his way to praise sebek but sebek acts like he doesnt care but he DOES- ahem. im very normal about silbek i promise)

anyways thats my two cents on this whole thing

[sorryimananti-romantic]

*deep breaths*

*fails and screams into the void*

alright i won't apologise anymore that i found this reblog so late (im sorry anyway but lets blame tumblr LOL) but omg. you've read everything of mine now *cries* thank you so much for that! <33 also the annotations this time RAHHHHHH IM BEYOND HAPPY AND HONOURED I HAVE NO WORDS JUST UGLY SCREAMING

replying neatly like you, dividing them into sections bc now that it's been a year horizon was uploaded, i can finally look back to the days when i was writing it without hating the fic (you know how writers start to hate what they write when they write it for too long or is that just me) BUT ANYWAYS here's my attempt to reply on parts that i have sth to say about (for those i don't, it's just me smiling like an idiot like this :') hehe)

[chapter 2]

gaeul fangirling over yena was my fav bit bc one oc interacting with the other? nothing better i could write AHAHA it was really fun to write their interactions

WHEN ARE WE CLIMBING HIS MOUNTAIND FGKHDKJGHDFKJGH CAUGHT IN 4K 📸

ALSO PRINCE CHOI SAN RAHHHHHHH i think san irl is also the type of person to be very vocal about what his partner is feeling and he would pull exactly this type of move 'are you nervous? what about me makes you nervous? *smirks*' THAT LITTLE SHIT. (ilovehim)

and omgg i had so much fun writing that scene where she trails her finger down his arm and gives him little shocks like SJDKGHKDJG imagine feeling that irl?? would pass away right there 🫠 truly s&m stuff right there lmaoo

[chapter 3]

BRO NO don't apologise i somehow made it that way? like it wasn't my intention to give san a little hope with yena i just wanted to prove that attraction could happen even without the soulmate bond and i think in the beginning of horizon maybe chap 1 i point it out subtly when san is thinking about yena and hwa and lemme just open the doc and quote that part

...he helped reclaim her powers and brought her back into everyone's life. Watched her battle her worst enemy who was once her best friend. Watched her fall in love with Seonghwa, the Prince of Dark. What a pair they made-

like the last line where san is like 'what a pair they made' might have held a little sarcasm. he's 100 percent happy for yena and hwa and nothing ever happened but i think with that part i just meant to convey that he did consider sth could happen (or you know what? maybe all my readers rooted for san and yena so much that i began to think that way too- ��)

the codependency was so bad in this one. and at the same time, it's unavoidable- first for gaeul, but then for san too. for different reasons and the same- soulmates. imagine being told that your soulmate was both alive and dying bc of you?? (wondering if i was too cruel with them LOL) and san is such a strong soldier in this one- never showing his true feelings about how bad he feels about all of this and how desperate he is, only revealing bits here and there *sighs* i gave my man a tough time in both these books. i should give him a break 😔✌️

OMG YES hades!gaeul x persephone!san woah. i see it now!

AND THE KISS RAHHHHHHHH US WHEN??????/ im sorry for the damage it did to you (not sorry) i'll make it up to you by writing more san fics where he's an absolute tease heuheuheue

and yena. poor yena, just having finally found the courage to come to terms with what happened with her and kieran, only to find that san went thru the same thing bc of her (not really but the guilt remains for now) and being the only person who can relate to gaeul :((

[chapter 4]

you done the hj imagery right he's absolutely a cranky librarian at this point and sadly he's the only one who cares about the little details LOL the rest are just here to have fun 🤩

LMAO YOU HAVING A LOT OF WORDS BUT SHUTTING UP BC TUMBLR MIGHT DISOWN YOU KDFGHDKFHGKG

LMAO THE YEOSANG SCENE YES i was laughing very hard when i came up with it too :') and i'm glad you shared the sentiment AHAHA i love the old cartoon like reactions and honestly, i can be a cartoon with my reactions too 😭 here's a little piece about the real life yumi lmao she's a cartoon 😭😭 and yes!! the yungi friendship with gaeul is everything to me they make such an iconic trio :'))

and omg the yunho part! surprisingly, when i wrote that, i wasn't fully aware that yunho is indeed someone like that- someone that everyone leans on (which was okay kinda obvious how can you not lean on him) but he himself struggling to talk about his feelings?? i found that very recently i don't remember where prob a clip or in a post but what i had in mind was that people like yunho who are literally walking sunshines and give their warmth so willingly to others? they usually struggle with their own feelings. people like him hold back a lot i suppose and don't really open up often? and horizon yunho is obviously fiction but with everything i learned about yunho /after/ writing this and with his solo healing trips and all... :(( i can't help but connect the two too ahaha he's literally so precious protect him at all costs and i hope he never loses the unique bright energy he has <3

we're both crying now yeah

[chapter 5]

HOHO NEVE'S HERE WE CHEER

and he's kinda old kfdghdkjfghdaddy it's all the time travelling he's done :') he should stop (i should honestly write a separate fiction for neve AHAHAHAHAHA)

OMG. the panther dimension. when i tell you i was so out of ideas and so stuck?? like up to the part where gaeul goes to the other dimension, yeah, nothing difficult im writing consistently and everything, and then came the one thing i had been dreading-

why.

why did everything that happened in horizon really happen?

was it just bc kieran was lucky enough to kill gaeul at the right time? eh... seems too far fetched, right? if he was that much of a genius he wouldn't be in prison. and then i watched one of my fav shows of all time dark again- all the time loop knowledge i have i owe to that series, if you haven't watched it drop everything and do you'll lose your mind.

but anyways, i watched it and refreshed some knowledge, looked at my universe and refreshed that knowledge, and then reread the whole draft and found sth i could work with

the monsters in the forest in chap 1. why did i write them? i wasn't sure at that time i just wanted to add sth cool LMAO but the what ifs started and i started reconsidering the whole thing that i had written, started requestioning all the time travel/loop thing in take me home, ready to edit the heck out of horizon but somehow, with minimal damage (and by that i mean the going back to edit in the new details) i finally came up with a reason-

the natural flow of time. and what happens when you mess with that. the flow chart linked in the lore masterlist pretty much explains my thought process lmao

AND NEVE LORE AHAHAHA maybe? 😏 as yeosang may or may not have said "time travelling is messy business and shoul be avoided at all costs" (this sounds like sth hj would say tho)

AND YUYU :((( im so emotionally attached to this frienship too, just like i'm attached to yena and san's friendship :( they're so different from each other yet they can relate to each other so much, gaeul and yunho. yunho being the bigger person and coming to talk to gaeul about things everyone else wanted to tell her yet no one had the courage to, giving gaeul her answer by telling her to live and asking where would she like her final resting place to be?? :') i love yuyu sm

and gaeul's character development! now that they had some time apart, gaeul in the other dimension where she would not feel sick (yet she still felt sick lmao) but where she would not feel the pull of the bond. whereas san back at home, having tasted what it was like to be with that dangerous bond and literally having withdrawal effects. if he went into a different dimension, he would have felt nothing, just like he felt nothing before gaeul came back alive. a bit confusing (i get confused too lmao) but yes, hj gonna have a wonderful time nothing all this down :) LOLL

chron, thank you so much from the deepest recesses of my heart, this means everything to me! like i literally spent about an hour writing this and talking about horizon in such detail to someone after such a long time ugh! feels wonderful. thank you for reminding me horizon exists, that i created this universe that i love so much, that i have ppl who love this universe perhaps as much as me, and that i still live in there! honestly, this lore is in my heart. i'll randomly think of this lore or sth relevant to it. and you're absolutely right about this part:

hell. at this point i believe this universe spans past even your own understanding in some form of manifested conscience in an alternative reality attuned to maladaptive daydreams lol damned inception, we might have fanfictioned a bit too close to the orange sun <3

you're literally the best. have fun reading this LOL i love you <3 i know i'll come back to this reblog thread a lot in the future. if you ever read this lore again or have some thoughts about it, i'm happy to talk! even if it's just about the universe and potential scenarios. you're here for me and i'm here for you <33

Horizon

faerieprince!san x oc

royal/fantasy au, soulmate au

Take Me Home spinoff (can be read as a standalone)

series lore

genre and warnings: fluff, angst, mild smut/suggestive, time travel/time loop, tragedy, violence warnings, mention of death/su!cide, past traumas, idk if i missed sth

synopsis: the eight faerie princes and the princess who rule the planet mirinae sense something that doesn't belong to their world- something that screams unnatural and dangerous. however, san is able to feel the presence of a faerie instead and it leads him to gaeul, who came back to life as a part of a darkling's evil scheme. san soon realises that he might be connected to gaeul in unimaginable ways, and the bond that they share might not be good.

-> part 1

-> part 2

-> part 3

-> part 4

-> part 5

Planet Mirinae Map:

[Kingdoms --> star-signs, Seas--> birthstones

(Seonghwa and Yunho share the Kingdom of Aries;

Kingdom of Gemini is split into two states bc duh;

Fomalhaut--> free land without a monarchy)]

disclaimer: the series can be read as a standalone since i do enough of explaining the whole universe at a tolerable pace (i hope), but in case you decide to read take me home (seonghwa series) which is a crucial part in the worldbuilding of this universe, i assure you not much will be spoiled and take me home will still be confusing asf (i really hope so LOL) anyways enjoy or whatever.

status: complete

taglist: closed

[purewhitepages]

The Last Time I Saw Enid

[Originally posted on Ao3 in 2017]

Summary: Before he was Nemo, he was Donald. And before she was Miss Debenham, she was Enid. The last exchange between them was short, sweet even, and not nearly satisfactory.

A/N: this fic is pure selfservice and I don’t care. If you like it, please scream with me.

“Why do you read such novels?” Enid asked, she was reclining against a sofa, watching Donald from across the room.

“Whatever do you mean?” Donald asked. He pretended to keep reading, but instead used the book to hide his smirk.

Enid stood and crossed the room to take the book from his hands. Donald reclined further on his own sofa, looking up at the girl through his eyelashes. Enid gave a small smile and a side glance at him then read the cover of the book aloud.

“King Solomon’s Mines, good gad, Donald,” she said. “What on earth could be endearing about that?”

Donald shrugged. “I enjoy them.”

She sat next to him as she opened the book and began reading the first few pages. “How can you gain anything of value from this?”

Donald sat up and slid closer to her so that his leg brushed her skirt. Enid glanced down at the contact, but did not say anything. Donald, evidently, did not seem to notice how indecently close to her he was, otherwise he would have moved.

“This man, Allan Quatermain, is hunting in Durban when he is approached by Sir Henry Curtis to find his long lost brother, who has gone to find the lost mines of King Solomon,” explained Donald enthusiastically.

“Sounds rather fantastical to me.”

Donald looked up from the book, and realized how close they were. He seemed at a loss for words for a moment before looking and moving away. Enid herself looked to the other side of the library where they were sitting rather than at Donald, and scolded herself for not moving away sooner.

“Um, your locket is very nice, is it new?” said Donald, who was now getting off the couch to sit on the bench by the desk near the window.

Enid’s hand flew to her neck, and her cheeks colored a bright red. She had forgotten to stuff the necklace in her blouse before she visited the house. She felt very self-conscious right then and hoped to goodness he would not ask her whose picture she kept inside.

“Oh, um, no, I found it among my mother’s belongings. It- it has a picture of my father inside,” she lied.

“How sentimental,” said Donald. “How lovely.”

Silence fell over the two of them. Enid passed her hands over the cover of the book in her hands.

“Donald,” she said suddenly, and the young man turned to face her. Enid could not help but stare for a moment. With the sunlight streaming in through the window and catching off his copper colored hair, he looked like a painting of the angel Gabriel.

“Yes, Enid?” he said.

Enid swallowed at the sound of her name passing from his lips. The fact that he called her “Enid” just now, and not “Miss Debenham” gave her hope that she barely wished to have. “When did you say you were leaving?”

“For training? Soon, a month from now.”

“Do write, will you? If they allow you to do so in the military.”

Donald let out a chuckled. “I’m sure they do. They could scarcely stop me.”

“And we will all be eagerly waiting your return.”

“I’m sure it will be just you ‘eagerly waiting.’ I highly doubt Ronald will even notice I am away.”

“Nevertheless, I will be waiting for you to come home safe.” Enid felt her ears bloom with heat, and scolded herself for her own impertinent tongue. “Please promise me you will come home safe, Donald.”

Donald strode forwards and held out his hand for her to take. She did so. “I doubt there will be anything stopping me from having a long and successful career. We are not at war, and I doubt we intend to be so anytime soon.”

“Promise me.”

“I cannot, Enid. Tragedies do occur.”

“To other people, but not you.”

“This isn’t a Haggard novel, Enid.” Donald smiled, and Enid did too despite the tears blossoming in her eyes.

A knock on the door caused Donald to drop her hand and clear his throat. Enid let the appendage fall into her lap. Donald bade the newcomer welcome, and the butler walked in. Enid took this moment to dab her eyes with a handkerchief.

“An urgent telegram from Master Ronald, sir,” he said, and extended the note on a tray.

Donald took it and opened it, moving over to his desk.

“Would you like refreshment, Miss Debenham?” asked the butler.

“Oh, no thank you, I’m just fine,” said Enid.

“Please leave us,” said Donald, and the butler did.

Enid crossed the room as she spoke: “What is it Donald?”

“Ronald has apparently got himself into a jam.” Donald rubbed at his temples as he set the letter down.

Enid made a face at this. She knew she shouldn't press the issue, and yet- “You mean of course, ‘Ronald has gotten himself into a jam again.’”

“Perhaps you should go, Enid. I must go up to London.”

“Of course you will go to him. Heaven forbid Ronald should scuff his shoe without crying, and you run to him with an extra pair.”

“Leave it alone, Enid.” Donald’s voice was calm, but his eyes flashed.

“I will not. I know you-“

“Confound it, Enid! I am not in the mood to argue!” Donald slumped into his chair, his hand covering his eyes. Her blood was hot, but she also knew it was a mistake to questions his actions towards his brother.

“I’m sorry, D- Mr. Fraser,” said Enid. “It was wrong of me to speak out of turn.”

“Please do not call me Mr. Fraser, Enid. You make me sound like an old man.” Donald’s lips twisted into a small, sad smile as he spoke.

“We are not children anymore.”

Donald eyed her up and down. “You especially so. I expect we shall hear wedding bells anyway now.”

Enid let out a laugh. “Not for a few more years, hopefully.”

“Any man would be lucky to have you. A nobleman, a tradesman, a merchant even.”

“Or a military officer?” Enid could barely keep the words to herself. She had to look away before he answered.

“Y- yes, I suppose they would be worthy of you as well.”

Silence once again fell between them.

"I apologize, Miss Debenham, for shouting, it was- unbecoming," Donald said, smoothing out his hair and checking his watch.

"It's quite alright, I have no right to question your actions. You know best." She also checked her watch, just for an excuse to leave. “I will be going, Donald. Write to me once you get to London?”

“I shall.”

Enid remembered hurrying out and waiting awkwardly for her carriage. She remembered hoping for a day when Ronald would not be first in his brother's affections. She should have stayed. She should have convinced Donald that Ronald needed to face consequences. Then maybe, maybe he would still be alive to her, maybe even hers. But not anymore.

[olderthannetfic]

The debate about deleting fic or not is quite interesting because I've never seen so many ppl come out of the woodwork to say how sad they are when stuff gets deleted. I'm pretty sure they're talking about the fics that get thousands of kudos and hundreds of comments, and yup it would absolutely be a shame to see those disappear.

But for ppl like me, who get maybe a few kudos and a hundred hits? posting to ao3 feels like screaming into the void sometimes. Like nobody cares. And while I don't plan to delete my own fic (cuz Im still proud of my work), I can sympathize with the writers who do. If nobody cared when I posted, it's hard to even imagine anyone would care if I deleted. Sometimes it's like my fic is the tree falling in the forest with no one to hear it, so it makes no sound. Deletion doesn't feel like it'd make any difference at that point. Anyway, to all the writers who feel like this: i see you and I totally understand how you feel.

--

Nah, it's often the randos' fics people really mourn years later because their lack of popularity was because they were for some weird fandom or rarepair nobody else wrote much for. Or, hell, maybe they were for a juggernaut, but they were a trope nobody else writes.

The things people obsess over are often things they like that other people don't. Those are the things that feel specific and personal.

[all-thestories-aretrue]

Just read your post about the stunning lack of Caleb/Nott/Yeza content out there and I get you friend!!! I am so wild about the whole dynamic going on between them. I'm on ep 62 right now and I am losing my mind over Beau asking Caleb if he's in love with Nott... Caleb standing quietly outside Nott's bedroom door... The longing, the complex feelings between the three of them... Idk where this was going I just!!! Am so glad I'm not alone with these feelings.

One of us! One of us! Yessss!!! I wish I had something eloquent to say about them but most of it is just incoherant screaming.

I went FERAL over that scene between Beau and Caleb. I think if she had asked if Caleb loved Nott it would have been an entirely different story. I still think he was just denying it though just a little bit. He loves her in all the ways its hard to be just in love with her, you know?

And Caleb standing outside her door. It still hurts my heart. I think about that at least 10 times a day. What was going through his mind? How exactly is he feeling? There are so many moments around all of that I would LOVE to talk to you about!!!

I still cannot believe that the entire fandom slept on them??? And Caleb and Nott in general??? It is mind boggling to me. They are individually and together some of the most interesting characters and dynamic in the nein imo. Im biased but hey. But there is so much POTENTIAL. The longing. The changing relationships and displacement. The healing and trauma. The co-dependency. Nott needing Caleb to change her back. Caleb relying on Nott early on.

And Yeza. Oh Yeza. The sweet halfling who is head over heels for Nott no matter form or her name. I can't with him!!! And I so wish we would get to see a conversation between him and Nott about Caleb and how everything is different. I don't think Nott would ever do that but it's nice to dream. But he has to know how close they are. And how does he feel about it? Is he jealous of Caleb? Does he feel bad for him? Is he understanding? I have questions!!!! In the end, I think he would do anything to make her happy, including inviting Caleb into their lives in whatever capacity she wanted.

Also ngl, I will sort of die on the hill that Nott's feelings toward Caleb are definitely changing, leaning more toward romance and the like than they were at the beginning of the campaign. I definitely won't spoil you. But like c'mon. And i have no idea how much what people said in the replies to that post actually happened, etc. But I hope Sam and Liam didn't drastically change anything about the story they wanted to tell because of people's reactions.

I also don't think its a coincidence that Nott's feelings are evolving as she rescues Yeza and reunites with him and Luc. I think Caleb and Yeza are beginning to represent much more to her than just her loves. They represent different ways of life, different values, different personalities. They have facets of her in both of them, and I think she's putting pressure on herself to choose. Neither Yeza nor Caleb seem too concerned about that or maybe aware of it? I just think there's meaning behind her shifting feelings and the fact she is being faced with this choice (as she sees it) now. Whether intentional on the part of Sam, no idea, and frankly, i don't really care lol.

But please always feel free to come scream at me about these two!! I'm always willing to listen!!! And I love hearing others thoughts about them!!!!

To sort of maybe hopefully quell this void in the fandom, I highly recommend you read this fic my lovely friend @gelatinouscute wrote for me. (If the link doesn't work, I can definitely message it to you). But it's very good!!!!

[bea28]

All for the game fanfics

Artist: mzer_8 - original artists post

aka andreil

( got a second post! go see it HERE - and a third one HERE)

✔️ read

🔜 want to read

➰ read but the fic isn’t finished

Series:

On the tip of my tongue - by Willow_bird

Say something ✔️

Hearts in Hands ✔️

It Must Be Witchcraft ✔️

bite your tongue ✔️

TFW There's a Gaysplosion and you were NOT invited! (How Rude!) ✔️

it's the fear that will follow you ✔️

i won't say we aren't family ✔️

let them hear me shout (for you) ✔️

Festive FEELINGS! (Oh, and shopping) ✔️

Lessons in Cartography - by crazy_like_a

Lessons in Cartography ✔️

The Cartographer and the World ✔️

Tell the world im coming home - by animosities

Tell the world im coming home 🔜

Shut up, this is love - by lady_flash

I wanna get better ✔️ so fucking gooood

Wake up to Your Sunset ➰ the cutest

Fix our broken pieces one at the time ✔️a good one

Yes yes and yes - by elesary

27 to 0 ✔️ HAHA its good tho

Screaming Color

Wear me Well

bizarrefields' orphaned works - by bizarrefields (orphan_account)

Walking a Tightrope

bloom

baby, baby

AFTG drables - by Fortheloveofexy

Sweet Enough to Eat ✔️ bshsb sweet, love it

Your Hand In Mine✔️ sweet

A Quiet Self-Destruction ✔️ THATS cute

Lay Your Head Down ✔️ cute

Neil's Dummy Thicc Emo BF ✔️ HAHA

Laid To Rest ✔️ it’s a good one

Tell Me Where To Touch You ✔️ LOVE IT

Call Me By Your Name ✔️ smutty but also cute

California Blaze ✔️

Safe With You ✔️ CUTE AS SHIT

Don't Let Me Go ✔️ AAAAH

Catdrew Meowyard

Out of the Ashes - by puddlejumper99 🔜

Pressure Points

Flatline

Borrowed Time

Solos:

never fallen (from quite this high) ✔️ perfect !!!!!!!!

Unfriendly Faces ✔️

Better than a Blanket, Your Coat ✔️

April Showers ✔️

Secondhand Lovers ✔️

The Scrapbook ✔️

mark me, make me yours ✔️

Baltimore Blues ✔️

Bad Dream ✔️

Knights of the Fox Table 🔜

take care of all the lonely souls 🔜

The scrapbook ✔️

Fall Apart In My Arms ✔️ so sweeeet

don't break your hands, i'll hold them ✔️ aaargh cute

Martyrs, Monsters, and Madness ✔️

Comfort In Pain ✔️

Give Me A Sign ✔️

Letters From Abram

light fires at night (to push back the void) 🔜

When the waves crash on the shore. ✔️

Of Monsters and Pain 🔜

One Thing Right

it starts like this ✔️ kandreil kinda confusing but alright

Late Night, Welcome Home

Two Roads Diverged

Falling ✔️ cute

Simplified Pipedreams

Like Real People Do ✔️ cutee

five times.✔️ the last one is the cutest

saturated sunrise

would it be enough (if i could never give you piece)✔️ also cuute

One Hundred ✔️ supah cute

it's a night for running (away from your problems and possibly the law) ✔️

Nap Time is Best Time✔️ haha funny and cute

ocean eyes

Thicker than blood✔️

Achilles come down

Hold it together (Until you can’t)✔️

The Other Side Of Nothing ✔️ kandreil really good :)

Worth it ✔️ such a sweet fluff

I wish i were fine, i thought i was ✔️ cute

[stilinskiderek]

just gonna jump the gun on the ask game - 01 for our favorite teen wolfs

OH LETS GOOOOO this took me a while to answer because i have been formulating . i've been ideating. none of this will be a shock . but i have so much to say.

001 | Send me a fandom and I will tell you my:

Favorite character: DEREK HALE completely unsurprisingly. Literally from season 1 episode 1. I love him so much.

Least Favorite character: THEO RAEKEN Even in my rewatch I didn't like him, which makes him okay as a villain but I don't even really like him as a villain. also started my teen wolf rewatch when i was rewatching pll and kept calling him mike.

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): STEREK literally from day 1 also. The only fic i read for teen wolf is sterek. SCISAAC also from the first time i watched the show. there's something so special to me about scott and isaac together i love them so much STALIA i didn't actually like them together when i first watched the show but rewatching it??? holy shit. they were so so so so good for each other and it broke my heart when they broke up. one of the scenes in s5 where malia says she knows stiles had to kill one of the chimeras but 'it didn't matter' /didn't affect how much she cared about him so she didn't bring it up??? holy shit. that paired with 'i would never leave without you' GOD I LOVE MALIA TATE STYDIA spoilers for a show that ended in 2017 but i did in fact cry when they ended up together. dont forget i love you?? bitch im going to scream ALLYDIA i got one of my friends to start teen wolf and they sent me a message like midway through season 1 and said 'do people ship allison and lydia?" and the answer is yes. me. i'm people.

Character I find most attractive: DEREK HALE also 'character most frequently covered in blood' and 'character most likely to be in distress'

Character I would marry: DEREK HALE i mean. come on.

Character I would be best friends with: ISAAC LAHEY he is SO important to me and i loved him even more with rewatching the show. someone please be nice to him.

a random thought:

An unpopular opinion: I FUCKING LOVE SCOTT MCCALL . i know a lot of people dont! i understand! but i love him so much. scott is probably my second favorite character in the show. he is . chefs kiss. a lot of that also comes from loving tyler posey. + i am GENUINELY excited for the movie. I know most people are not! i am. if you ask yourself 'who asked for this movie?' the answer is tumblr user stilinskiderek. i asked.

My Canon OTP: STALIA not a ship that lasted but my favorite canon ship ever. i loved them together so so much and i missed their dynamic in season 6

My Non-canon OTP: SCISAAC HEAR ME OUT i know i have a sterek url i also love sterek BUT i think Scisaac could've been made canon so easily whereas sterek couldn't have. I GENUINELY think if Isaac was a female character he would've ended up with Scott. Their personalities worked so so well together and I really think they could've been canon!!!

Most Badass Character: DEREK HALE like for the sheer number of times this man has brushed death and survived. jesus CHRIST.

Most Epic Villain: VOID!STILES the other characters having to fight with a person they were FRIENDS WITH?? stiles is scott's BROTHER like holy SHIT. god. the emotional turmoil. dylan obrien killed it. the divine move is one of my favorite episodes of the entire show.

Pairing I am not a fan of: DRAEDEN it just felt...out of nowhere? and kind of weird? i think because season 4 was when hoechlin wasn't a series regular anymore so derek wasn't a key character in every episode it felt like their relationshp was super rushed and just. didn't fit either one of their characterizations.

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): DEREK HALE i could talk about this until the cows come home. i think that derek was not treated with any sort of importance despite being a main character, and i don't think the literal trauma and abuse he suffered at the hands of kate argent was ever properly addressed. a lot of his actions and the way he treats people are obviously based in that experience but there was absolutely NO attempt at resolving it or even really acknowledging it. It should've been something, especially in season 4 with kate coming back, but it wasn't. i'm never going to not be mad about it. in that same vein, i think derek and isaac's relationship could've been way more impactful if the writers gave a fuck about derek. with the other hale betas in s2, jackson, erica, and boyd all have 'real'/biological families they can go home to. jackson's might not be great but he still has somewhere else to go. the only person isaac had was derek, which puts derek begrudgingly into this older brother/dad role for isaac that could've been incredible HAD THE WRITERS DONE ANYTHING WITH IT!! clearly isaac is living in the loft with derek but ?? that's all we ever get. what could've been a really great found family moment was absolutely nothing, and watching the scene in s3 where derek is terrified of the alpha pack coming for him TO THE POINT WHERE HE SENDS ISAAC AWAY TO KEEP ISAAC SAFE makes me so mad because if that relationship had been developed that scene would've been even MORE heartbreaking. isaac is being sent away by the only person he has in the world and that hurts but derek should've also been hurting because he's trying to protect this kid he took in but he can't explain it to him and i just. it could've been the bella/charlie scene in twilight but it wasn't!!!

Favourite Friendship: SCOTT/STILES stiles has scott's back through literally everything and god the scene in motel california with the flare breaks me every single time.

Character I most identify with: LYDIA okay this was hard for me to answer because i identify with a lot of them but in different ways?? then i remembered one time my friend sophie asked me to pick a teen wolf sun/moon/rising sign which i think fits this question. my rising sign is Scott, my moon sign is Lydia, and my rising sign is Malia. I think out of all of them I identify the most with Lydia!! i love her.

Character I wish I could be: DANNY I just want to be adjacent to all of the chaos and observe from afar. the way he knew about the werewolves because nobody can whisper in beacon hills is so special to me. i also love that he's the singular side character who was not made supernatural and did not die, just vibed the entire time.

[psychomachy-ador]

lypophrenia   ( Michael Myers x Y/n)

Hi! Im new to writing fics like these and putting it out for people to see, this is my first fic so its not the best but I wrote it during a depressive episode a while back. I wanted to give it a chance to see the light of day and let ya’ll be the judge! If i made any errors, offended anyone or any type of criticism please let me know and ill work it to your favor ^.^ Please enjoy. 

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Hes standing in my doorway, only the moonlight shining from my window illuminating him. I stay lying in bed just staring back.

I should scream, hop on my heels, anything to stop what could be my demise but...I can't. This episode has gotten such a tight hold that my body feels too heavy, that even the idea of this being the end feels as though I'm being wrapped in a warm blanket full of comfort.

The faintest of smiles begins to tug at my mouth.

He tilts his head, not moving from his spot yet but makes his knife known by lifting it, the beam of the moon bouncing off of it. Run to your opened window, scream for help, get the fuck out of your head, he will fucking kill you! I closed my eyes instead; I haven't felt a reason to be alive since I was a child if anything this death was a long time coming...no one to mourn me anyways. These few weeks the only thought that has drifted through my mind is how I've lived past my expiration date, not long before I awoke to this horrifying figure I've seen on the news, I numbed away my hellish cherubs with tequila and tranquilizers a taste of nostalgic fire, a feeling of a mother's arms wrapped around her babe after they fell of their bicycle. The fire has burnt my drive to ashes, emptiness morphing this terrifying shape into an angel gliding towards me. He stands over me, our eyes locking us into a moment...those beautiful eyes void of emotion, like a fire I want to get lost in.

  In a fluster, I clear my throat averting my eyes away from the shape. “Hey... if you're here to kill me, I want to say I forgive you...Make it quick is all I beg.”  

Despite the cement feeling coursing throughout me, I stretch my hand out to him with only love in my eyes.

He stared at me for a significant amount of time, enough time to feel pins n needles in my arm, but before it dropped, he took my hand with a grip of death. I sucked in a shaky breath and pull him close towards my face, placing my hand on the cheek of his mask and I stare into the void of his eyes. Eyes igniting the warmth I crave to feel most of my living years eyes I couldn’t break away not wanting to break away... What the fuck am I doing? The fuck am I saying...?  

He pulls abit away to meet my gaze again, his eyes Un wavered with a stoic mask but all I can care about is this tragedy, a blissful tragedy that my foggy mind is praying for. He brings his knife to the side of my neck and slightly prods in, enough that I can feel blood threatening to spill.  

Wincing, shutting my eyes and letting my hand slip away from his mask.  

This is it; this is what I've been scared to do ... what I couldn't bring myself to do... what if-

The feeling of the blade becomes absent, I open my eyes locking to another gaze. "What's wrong? Is it because I'm not fighting or..."a cruel thought crosses my mind causing a sad laugh to leave my mouth as the tears form in my eyes " you also believe I'm not worth it, huh? I don't blame ya; That makes two of us."  

Only response is the grip on his knife tightened, blushed knuckles lightening to white

Either I pissed this guy off by talking or his restraint is wearing thin. Both the same really  

I don’t care anymore though, if he is not here to end my suffering but indulge in his games, I have no interest... scoffing I break away our gaze to face my body towards the wall opposite of him. “Goodnight, Michael.” the last I remember he didn’t leave, the feeling of his presence in my room lulled me to sleep.  

Eyes fluttering open as memories flood in, I shot up looking around my surrounding  

The bastard didn’t kill me after all, I can't tell if the annoyance is from that action alone or because in the back of my mind, I hoped he’d still be here. Smacking myself, I groan into my hands, “of all the things in your life right now don’t add romanticize a killer now.” I swung my legs off my bed and after a 20-minute pep talk, I got up and wondered around my space to see if maybe I had just dreamt everything. Hoping, that it was all a hallucination

Everything on the upper floor seemed untouched, but once I reached the bottom of the staircase, I am gifted the view of my front door wide open, the strong autumn wind inviting leaves inside.  

Huh... The Michael Myers didn't kill me.  

A smile threatening to widen only to drop quickly. Fuck! The Michael Myers didn’t kill me! Is that a good thing? A bad thing? Shit! Hesitantly stepping to the opening of the door thoughts race through my mind.

The feeling of fear and my already torturous anxiety tightens my chest but this faint warmth behind it causes a hopeful idea to take solace.  

Maybe, just maybe, someone actually gives a shit about me... whether it be embodiment of terror.  

[elle-smells]

Listen even though we all know Im obviously the edgiest bitch on this site, I’m gonna get a little sentimental for a sec. This year has been a train wreck but you were part of the reason why it was bearable

@suburbanenigma carmen we were mutuals for like 5 minutes and we were sending memes and being chaotic ksjdjsksks bro I can't believe I've only known you for less than 2 months. You literally listen to every single one of my breakdowns and I love seeing your crack posts on my dash. Thank you for being the edgy energy I need 😌❤️ I love you bitch 🐔(thanks CL)

@lesbeanfatou bitch I remember at the start of the year I kept wondering who this person was that was liking all my posts and it turns out it was a one direction obssesed girl that would become my favourite Les🐝an with the best memes on the internet skdnskdns (you were like my first mutual I think) Anygay- I love you bitch and I hope we get to share more tipsy stories in 2021 (drink responsibly kids)

@kieumyfatous SAMMM I LOVE YOU AND OUR LOVE FOR MUSICALS. Josie and Penny are canon in our hearts 😌💓. You're literally a drop of sunshine and fuck timezones bcs I don't get to see you as often but when I do it's the best time and I love you.

@helmtaryn Aurore thanks for caring about my sleep schedule and my eyesight skskdjdjdjdj dude being your diary is so much fun skdndndn your GIFs are so creative also fuck Skam fr colouring and Photoshop 😌😌you also listen to every one of shit posts and I love you for it ❤️

And here's to every other mutual in the tiktok skdnsks

@cr1spyy Fernanda I wanna be you when I grow up no joke you're awesome ksnddjk (ps sorry you have to deal with Skam on your dash skdndj) // @alexiaugustin Viv your hot takes are the best things on these site, istg everytime I'm 👁️👄👁️ // @sassy-sara bro you're always here and it's such a fun time I love it // @robbesdriesen seriously your fics were one of my favourite parts of 2020 (the talent-) thanks :) // @engelkeijsers mareee bro honestly you fill my dash with joy // @sundaymorninghangover I just see your posts and go "same" and it's amazing // @feeling-kinda-so-so ok I know you're leaving and I'm :((( but still thank you for making my dash a great place to be in <3 // @theflowerisblue we don't really talk but I appreciate you and your posts anyway :) // @ghosttotheparty and @earthling-isa same thing as the previous one, I really do appreciate any interactions we've had <3

Edit: @wilsonsmercer ok OK I SCREENSHOTED YOUR TUMBLR, it was in my camera roll but then I must've lost it bcs it's not in the tiktok but anyways, I'M SORRY, thank you to you too for providing amazing content and for being absolutely amazing Ily ❤️

And Honestly so many more ppl that I'm probably forgetting and sorry if I did but this blog and you have made this year so much better you have no idea. Thanks for listening to me scream into the void that is Tumblr, I don't even remember what I did with my emotions before this blog skdjdkdjdb but anygay- Let's hope for more character development in 2021 😌✌️