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Snowdrops || Han Jisung || The Language of the Flowers AU ||
So idk i haven’t written in a really long time but i’m really excited for this so !! This is also my first time ever writing bullet thingie so,, yeah,,, not all of these will be in the bullet format I just felt like trying out smth new !! and to stay true to my ult Han Jisung i will write about him first. In this like,,, kinda cute little series thing. Every theme will kinda just relate to the flower meaning so,,, yeet !! Also, s/o to my one and only bub @chenle who told me to tag her when my first official writing thing happened so here !!!
Genre: Bad Boy!Jisung x Piano Player!Reader au; bulleted scenario
Warnings: none !!
Word Count: 3.2k
| Jisung | Minho | Chan | Changbin | Jeongin | Seungmin | Felix | Woojin | Hyunjin |
{picture not mine, credits to owner}
Snowdrop: (noun) A European flower which bears white flowers and blooms in February/early March, it signifies the end of winter and the coming of spring. Represents hope, purity, warmth, and new beginnings.
Ever since you were little you’ve known you’ve wanted to be a pianist
It all started when you were younger and you went to see an orchestra with your parents
They 100% expected you to fall asleep in the first,,, like,,, five seconds after you came into the theater
What they did not expect is for you to sit there starry eyed staring at the person playing the piano for a whole 3 hours
They were,,, sister shook,,,,
But they didn’t think much of it, you know, like yeah they just like classical music
You know, as one does
But the second y’all got back into the car that was it
You wouldn’t stop talking about how pretty the music sounded
How much you liked the sound of pressing keys and the sound of the pedal lifting or the sound of the mallets and strings inside of the piano
You loved it
It was as though you had just found your one and only true love, y’all know, the yee to your haw
The ying to your yang
The chris to your weed
Sorry back to the point
You just couldn’t explain it, little four year old you just knew the fluttering feeling in your heart was a good one
So your parents signed you up for piano
They said they would find you the best teacher they could, one that could make you great
So that’s what they did
From a week after that concert, you started piano lessons
And you only fell more in love with the piano as time went on
So, after this little bit of context, flash back to reality
oop there goes gravity oop
there goes rabbit he chokes
Sorry okay eminem is my calling
So it’s the end of winter, it’s been a really cold and bitter winter, but it’s around the end of february and somehow it just HaS noT gotten any warmer
And here we meet our boy jisung
Our chipmunk, our squirrel, our boi yk
But he’s a little bit of a hooligan
A bad boy if you will
You know, the leather jacket, the messy hair, the snarky attitude, the cocky jokes and the cute smile you knOW and he always always ALWAYS has a lollipop
A pink lemonade lollipop to be exact
It’s his favorite flavour
Any who, he’s one of those guys, the type of guy that almost everyone either wants to be him or with him
He’s also a part of a trio of you know bad boys at your school, the other two being his best buds Chan and Changbin
They call themselves 3RACHA
They’re as tight knit as can be, they do everything together
Skip class, hang out, throw parties
You know all that bAd bOY stUfF
He also has a slight reputation to get into fights every so often
Maybe not only so often
Maybe vERY often
But he’s trying his best okay those people just get on his nerves when they poke fun of one of his friends or his music
“I’m just a little misunderstood, okay I didn’t wanna break his nose it just sometimes happens, you know, my hand just kinda lost control of itself and hit him in the nose really really really hard. I swear.”
“Mr. Han, I distinctly remember you telling him to shove a stick up his, excuse my language, ass, and then proceeding to punch him.”
*them sitting in a perfectly silent office* “hM sorry it just got really loud in here, pardon???” :))))))
Real footage of Jisung last week after breaking some guy’s nose
He also loves loves LoVES music
Loves all music
Except for classical and country
He’s always despised classical music, it just seemed so boring
There’s no pounding beat
No lyrics to scream along to
He just found everything about it depressing and irritating and just monotone
Well one day, as he was wandering through the school
You know, as one does when their friends were busy doing who knows what during lunch
He stumbled into the music hall
Now this was an accident
He didn’t really want to be here since the only courses your school offered in terms of music were classical ones
And again
Gross
But for some weird, strange, odd-ball, out of this world, sister shook reason
He felt like he needed to be here
That’s when he heard it
tHE hiLLS aRE aLiVE wiTH
The sound of music
Not the kind of music he liked
It was definitely classical music, so y’all, it’s disgusting
‘I should go, the music is starting to make me depressed already’ he mumbled
But his feet wouldn’t move, his body just kinda froze
It felt like something was just pulling him to that room, to that ugly boring nasty music
And it’s not like he’s never listened to classical before, he had, but this time something was weird about it
He still didn’t like it, it all still sounded the same, nothing interesting
But something for some weiRD REASON was telling him to go to that room
Like something was a little different about the way it was being played
‘Maybe,,,, I should just look for a couple seconds and,,,,,,, tell the person to stop playing that boring stuff,,,, or maybe I could just listen for a bit,,, but like obviously no that’s nasty,,,,’
The door was slightly ajar, so the music was just drifting through the air
Just calling him over
Jisung slowly walked up to the door, and peeped through the window
And there you were
You, reader, in all of your piano classical music glory
Sat there playing your heart out to the world
In that moment when he saw you with your hair slightly drifting over your face
Your eyebrows slightly scrunched up in concentration as your hands ran across the keys
His heart was screaming
Literally just like
dabdikajbksbfkajbDNBDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
He almost forgot about the fact he hated classical music if he could just watch you play it all day
Wait,,, what no,,,,
Gross,,,,, the Han Jisung doesn’t like people that easily,,,,,, nuh-uh thats def not him folks
And he got so scared by that feeling
The one inside of his chest
He was scared of how it made his hands feel tingly and it made him feel like he stood up too fast because his head felt so rushed and light
It felt like he was flying, but also crashing down to earth at the same time
And when I say scared
I mean terrified
This boy is mortified of catching feelings
Definitely not because in the third grade the person he liked stomped all over his heart because they wouldn’t give him a cracker,,,,, no who even thOughT tHaT hAHa
Just the thought of him truly giving his whole heart to someone ?? unacceptable
Like in this economy ?? liking someone ?? unreasonable
So he did the only logical thing
He ran away
Far back to the other side of school
And he was so out of it for the rest of the day, he just couldn’t handle it
He even went back to class next period because he was so out of it
“W-welcome Mr. Han take a seat, it’s a pleasure to have you finally join us.”
“mm-hmm”
He didn’t pay attention all day though, his mind was only occupied by you
Cheesy, I know, but it was
Even when he went to hang out with Chan and Changbin
“Bro,,, where were you during lunch ?? you kinda just disappeared”
“I was uhhh,,,, in the library,,,”
“The library ?? are you good ???”
“Yeah,,,,, im fine it’s cool,,,”
“Dude, you alright you seem a little weird.”
“Yeah,,,,,,,,, im just thinking”
Jisung thInKing ??? unheard of
So, this terrified Chan and Changbin because whenever Jisung thinks it’s never good
But it’s been three days since he saw you
And he’s still thinking about you and he’s kinda emo about it
Because, of course, you occupied his thoughts, the song you were playing stuck in his mind on a loop
This is so cheesy please forgive me
It was so bad that he started hearing it everywhere, it even started placing itself into his music and the lyrics he was writing somehow all revolved around love
He’d sit there for hours writing lyrics until he realized all of it in some way tied back to you
It was bothering him
Like a lot
So now it’s been a whole six days, and trust me he’s been counting and he thought he could take it,,, you know not see you,,,
Until he’s had enough
He needed to go see you again otherwise he felt like his head would explode
And it wasn’t because he liked you or anything,,, he just wanted to see you so he wouldn’t write any more music about you,,,,, because this was just SuPeR gRoSS
So he went to the same hall, the same room, the same time, and there he saw you
Still working on the same part of the piece
It was just as beautiful as the first time he heard it and he honestly was in awe of how your hands moved across the piano as though they were as light as air
Anyone even from a million kilometers away could tell you were frustrated with this part
He wanted to tell you that you didn’t have to worry because it was beautiful
He wanted to just go in there and tell you that your playing is amazing and hold your hands and just comfort you
But he just couldn’t say anything
And he could always say something, he never stopped talking
And his heart was still doing the same flippity flop screaming thing in his chest
Big surprise, i know
But then,,,, he had a genius idea,,,, like spectacular,,,, like nobel prize winning idea,,,
“Maybe if i see them all the time,,,,, my heart will get used to it and it won’t flippity flop anymore :’D,,,,,,”
wow ,,,, genius i know you don’t have to tell him
So instead of saying anything, or ignoring you any longer, he decided
I’m just gonna come here and watch them play every day because as long as I see them and never talk to her,,,, eventually whatever weird heart thing i have will go away !!!!!
So that is exactly what he did
Every single day for the next coming three weeks,,, he would disappear during lunch and go and watch you play
Changbin and Chan were getting suspicious but they never asked,,, so Jisung thought he was so slick you know
So it’s been weeks of him doing this
It’s now around the end of February, and he planned on doing smth for Valentines day,,,
Not,, because he liked you or because it was valentines day, but because he just,,, somehow planned to do it for February 14th
He was really counting on his genius 10000+ IQ plan to work
But, surprise surprise, his plan was failing
It was almost as though he liked you APPRECIATED !! your playing even more after seeing you play :))))))
Just seeing you just so cutely hunched over the piano
It made his heart hurt wiTH APPRECIATION FOR YOUR ARTISTRY NOT L O V E
Haha obviously,,,,,, not love,,,,,, who even said that y’all hear summ ????
And he realized maybe he just ReaLLY REALLY reAllY wanted to be your friend !!
Really really close friend !!
And that’s why he wanted to talk to you !! And hold you !! Like F R I E N D S do !! haha !!
And you know this mentality was really working great, until one Thursday
It was near the beginning of March when it was getting a little warmer and all that green good grass was kinda appearing from under the snow,,, these little white flowers peeking out from under the melting snow and it was just so pretty that day
And all Jisung could think about was how beautiful you would look today outside
Holding his hand
In a totally PLATONIC and FRIENDLY way because he obviously just liked you as a friend
And maybe today he would tell you how much he wanted to be your friend :D
But that lunch you just didn’t show up for half an hour ??
He was confused,,,, like really confused
And also concerned ?? where were you,,, you were always here on time,, he even makes sure to show up 5 minutes after your usual arrival time so he could calmly sit outside of the door without getting caught
But today you weren’t there and he was about to leave and chicken out until he felt a hand on his shoulder
‘AHHHHHHHHHHHHH’
Istg he jumped like fifty feet in the air
“Hey,, you’re that guy who always sits outside when I practice !!! Han Jisung right ?? Sorry I was late I needed to talk to Mr.Park about a science assignment I have that’s due next week,, ”
Jisung.exe has stopped working
First of all,,,
yoU kNeW ?!?!?! and he thought he was so slick
Not only that you knew his nAMe and apologized for being late ??? did you like ??? cARE ABOUT HIM A LITTLE BIT
And he also just,,, kinda loved the way you just said his name
It made him UwU in ways he didn’t understand
In a friENDLY WAY
Oh who was he lying to at this point
Maybe he did like you just a LITTLE more than like a friend would like a friend
so what,,, sue him,,,,
He was so caught up in the million and five thoughts that were racing through his mind that he almost forgot to respond, so he managed to choke out the following charming and very expressive line:
“U-uh you know my name ???”
,,,,,good one Jisung,,, real smooth,,,,
You let out a light giggle and just kinda looked at him with this really soft expression
“Ofc I knew !!! I heard your foot tapping every single day and you also sat in front of an open door so,,, I kinda saw you the first day,,,”
SORRY NOT ONLY HAS JISUNG.EXE STOPPED WORKING HE JUST CRASHED ??? LIKE EXPLODED
Your hand,,,, was still on his shoulder,,, and you giggled again,,,,, how are you,,, so cute
Little did he know you freaked out the exaCt same way you saw him the first time in the hallways with his eyes closed and head leaning against the lockers
And not only that,,, he was just super pretty,,,
With the winter light perfectly hitting his face
His jacket slightly too big and it loosely drooped over his shoulders
I’m actually ruining myself imagining this wow thanks m e
So when you finally asked around after a couple days one of your friends told you who he was
The Han Jisung
The resident bad boy at your school, who liked to get into fights and allegedly also liked to play around with peoples hearts
Which didn’t exactly scare you well maybe it did a little bit but we’re not here to expose ourselves
First of all you’d like to give him the benefit of the doubt because he’s probably just like any of us ?? people just kinda put him on a pedestal so you felt like you didn’t really need to treat him differently from anyone else
And with every time that he would sit outside of your practice room and listen you felt a little bit of that fear melting away because when he looked so relaxed and so pretty that his face just screamed UwU
But you gotta play it cool reader,,,because you’re slick and all that,,, you know
So you just kinda turn around and head into the music room without saying anything else
Which again gave him shock number 37429387129837 of the day
He was expecting you to do something,,, say something,,,,, but instead,,,,
You just smiled at him, and turned back to into the room, now sitting at the piano bench
He was confused
And mayhaps just the littlest bit disappointed
He knew that everyone knew him, and that’s usually not the kind of reaction he gets, usually he gets a whole OH mY iT’s HaN jiSuNg scream or an angry disgusted look from people who didn’t like him
But no
Not you
Yet, what could he do
He was going to just,, sit back down in the hallway in his usual spot, or maybe just get up and leave since his cover has been blown and you probably think he’s super creepy
When your voice called out for him inside of the room
“Are you gonna come in or what?”
A small smile spread on his face as he stood up, and he noticed you had already set up a chair for him next to you at the piano
“So,,,, do you like classical music?”
“Um,, not really,, no.”
“Then,, why did you sit outside every day ??”
You asked confused, your eyebrows slightly furrowing staring at him with intent
And he just found that so cute
So so so cute
So cute that it just made any confidence he had just disappear
“I-I justreallylikethewayyouplayitsoundsnice.”
He just really wanted you to stop looking at him like that it was going to make him actually just explode
You gave a breathy laugh at his cute antics,,, what was there not to like about this boy,,, I mean what a softie
Maybe he wasn’t too bad, ya know
Nothing to be afraid of
“You wanna hear me play one of my favorite songs?”
Jisung nodded his head, his hair lightly flopping on his forehead, kinda covering his eyes
Oh how bad you wanted to brush it out of his eyes and just pinch his cheeks but, alas, it shall not happen
Or will it ;);););;;;))))))))
So you with a light inhale you began playing on of your favorite pieces, it was strong and domineering, with an edge of superiority
If ya wanna check it out it’s actually one of my favorite pieces it’s Rachmaninoff’s Prelude in G Minor, Op. 23, No. 5
As soon as you started, Jisung was already in a trance, the way your hands moved, the sound of your breath hitching every huge chord or octave jump
Damn Jisung was whipped
When you smiled at him after you finished the piece
With your eyes so bright, finally breathing normally again, and just a light pink blush that swept across your face
He felt his heart beat fast again
But this time
Mayhaps he didn’t want to run away
“So, what did you think? Did you like it?”
“Yeah.”
“Do you like classical music maybe a little bit more now ??”
You asked with just the biggest grin on your face
“Hmm,, no i don’t think so,,” Jisung responded with the cheekiest smile known to mankind
“Then,,, I think you’re gonna have to come back here tomorrow so I can change your mind about that” ;)));))))))
WOWOW,, alright reader do y’all ever get tired of being so cute ??
As you continued playing the marvelous thought dawned upon Jisung
So maybe he did like classical music just a little bit more now
And,, maybe his heart beat faster with every second you looked at him
And maybe that feeling is not as bad as a thing as he thought it would be
Maybe it’s actually just the littlest bit nice
Just a little bit
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(darling don't be afraid) i will love you
Happy late-vday-early-bday @ryn-exe (can’t tag?)!!! Hope u enjoy, soz if it’s not good but i’m not so amazing(phil)
This is 2.1k words. There’s a bit of dream-violence (not in detail) and a lot of anxiety and fear so if u don’t like that stuff!! Tell me!!!! And i’ll write something else for you, i don’t mind. (You didn’t say anything i wasn’t supposed to write but idk). I’d describe this as hurt/comfort i think lmaooo
Basic summery i wrote fo myself: Dan and Phil, and how they deal with each other’s 3am fears (2009 vs 2018, now)
From a pitch-hitter 💓💓
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[Saturday; 10.26.09; 03:37]
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Dan<33 (03:37): phil? :[
Phil (03:45): Yrha
Phil (03:47): Sorry!! Yeah**
Phil (03:47): Why are you up so early/late?? I barely woke up
Dan<33 (03:49): sorry i woke you :/
Dan<33 (03:50): my parents went away for a bit and i’m home alone and i cant turn off the lights cuz im too scared
Dan<33 (03:51): and i can’t sleep so bad even hugging pillow cant help mee :[[
Dan<33 (03:52): so im sitting in the hallway with every light im the house on alone in just my pants
Dan<33 (03:52): and i was a idiot and missed you so i woke you up at so late and now ur gonna hate me crap
Dan<33 (03:52): sorry
Phil (03:53): I’ll never ever hate you dan!!! <<33333333333333
Phil (03:53): I’m sorry ur so scared :[[ I wish I was there to be strong and protect u again
Dan<33 (03:54): i wish you were here too
Phil (03:54): :[ <3
Dan<33 (03:58): CDAP PHIL I THINK I HESRF A GHOST
Dan<33 (03:58): IR MONSTER
Dan<33 (03:58): FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
Phil (03:59): Dan oh my gosh are you okay??
Dan<33 (04:00): yeah i think but
Dan<33 (04:00): i heard something phil
Dan<33 (04:01): im scared
Dan<33 (04:02): i can’t believe im 18 and i’m actually sobbing out of fear alone and naked in a hallway over a fucking noise
Dan<33 (04:02): to my boyfriend
Dan<33 (04:02): on skype
Dan<33 (04:03): fuck
Phil (04:03): Dan :[[ i’m so sorry
Dan<33 (04:04): it’s not your fault
Phil (04:04): Want me to call you??? (If u want)
Dan<33 (04:05): can we skype instead?
Dan<33 (04:05): i want to see your face plz <3
Dan<33 (04:05): if thats okay
Phil (04:06): That’s fine! One sec plz :]
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[Phil would like to add Dan<33 to a call (02:33)]
[Accept] [Decline]
[Accepted]
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When Dan answered the call, his face was red and puffed and wet. Even through the crap-pixel screen quality, Phil could see that.
“Hey,” Dan’s voice broke.
“Hi,”
Dan was shaking slightly.
His face suddenly flushed, “Oh shit, I forgot – I’m, uh, in only pants. In front of you. Crap.”
“It’s fine, I’ve seen you shirtless before.” Phil smiled what he hoped was reassuringly, “Are you okay?”
“Yeah — I mean, I am now. I guess.”
“Are you cold?”
“Kinda.” Dan admitted.
“Want to go to bed?”
“My room is too dark –”
“Well, I’ll be there, wont I? And I’ll protect you from everything bad in the dark.”
“You’re not really here.”
“Only ever a few hours away. And if worst comes to worst, I have the police line and the monster-killer line. So you’ll be super safe.”
Dan muffled a giggle, “Yeah, okay.”
He shuffled up off the floor, and made his way into his bedroom, clutching the laptop tightly.
“I dunno if I’m getting any sleep tonight, honestly.”
“You will! You can cuddle your pillow and I’ll tell you stories until the demons go away and you can sleep.”
“I’m not five, Phil.” There was no malice in his reply.
“You don’t need to be five for any of that to be true.” Phil said, serious tone.
“Okay,”
Minutes later, Dan was snuggled under his covers; hugging a pillow tightly as he listened to Phil go on about some guy at the market.
“Then, he pulled a hot dog out of his left pocket. Who keeps a single —”
“Phil?” Dan interrupted, his voice was dripping with sleep.
“Mm?”
“Do you think I’m stupid?”
“No.” Phil answered simply.
“I mean – for being so scared of such dumb stuff. Seven-year-olds are braver than me.”
“It’s okay to have fears, Dan. I bet you’re not the only adult with those fears either,”
“I’m scared of the dark. And ghosts and monsters and moths and demons and –”
“– and that’s fine. I don’t mind.”
“And it’s not annoying to deal with? I’m not?”
“You will never be annoying to ‘deal with’; I promise.”
Phil meant it.
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[Monday; 12.07.09; 02:59]
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Phil :]]]<333333 (02:59): Dan?
Dan (03:00): yeah??? <3
Phil :]]]<333333 (03:03): I’m scared
Dan (03:04): of what :[[
Phil :]]]<333333 (03:04): I dunno it’s just creaky downstairs and I’m alone for the night I guess
Phil :]]]<333333 (03:04): Nvm
Dan (03:05): no tell me i want to help u
Dan (03:05): plz
Phil :]]]<333333 (03:07): Well it’s just that
Phil :]]]<333333 (03:08): It’s really dark and windy
Phil :]]]<333333 (03:08): And there was a tree snapping against my window I thought our house might’ve blown down
Phil :]]]<333333 (03:09): And I thought i heard thunder which usually isn'tn too bad but right now its scaring me a bit
Phil :]]]<333333 (03:10): I don’t wanna be alone rn is all
Phil :]]]<333333 (03:10): But i am brave! So it’ll be okay i think
Phil :]]]<333333 (03:10): Don’t worry about me <33
Dan (03:11): i want to worry :[
Dan (03:11): you don’t always have to be brave <333 ily and i would give you the biggest hug if i were there
Dan (03:12): and tell the trees and thnder to fuck off and let you sleep
Dan (03:12): and then we would sleep all cuddled up togerher like we do sometimes and it would be warm and nice
Dan (03:14): i wish i were there with you
Phil :]]]<333333 (03:15): You will be someday so it’s okay now too :]
Phil :]]]<333333 (03:15): But plz tell the trees and thunder to fuck off it’s very loud :’[[[
Dan (03:16): if u call me i will????
Phil :]]]<333333 (03:17): Lol okay :p
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[Incoming call from Dan]
[Accepted]
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“Hi!” Dan really should be quieter; last time he called Phil at three in the morning his dad had yelled at him.
“Hi,” Phil’s sleep-laced voice answered.
A booming crack of thunder, and a whimper.
“Don’t worry – it… won’t hurt you.” Despite everything, Dan was sometimes still quite new to the role of 'comfort’ in their relationship.
“I know, just loud.”
Dan wished he was like Phil. He wished he could just pull out an intresting story, a funny idea.
“Sorry.”
He wasn’t like Phil, though.
“Want to play a game?”
“What game could we possibly play through a phone call?” Dan could practically hear Phil rolling his eyes.
Dan wracked his brain for quick ideas.
“Eye-Spy?”
“We’re… not in the same room Dan.”
“Yeah, true.”
Dan’s room suddenly felt rather empty and uninteresting.
Dan felt empty and uninteresting.
“What do you want me to do?” He finally muttered.
He held his breath.
“I just like hearing your voice, it calms me down. I like when you rant about things you love.”
Let it out.
“Oh. Well – want to hear my never-ending thoughts on WALL-E then?”
“Definitely.”
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[Sunday; 02.04.18; 04:12]
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“Phil?”
“Mhm?” He rolled over and rubbed the sleep from his eyes, “What’re you doing up?”
“There was a moth.”
“A moth?”
“Yes!” Dan looked around the room nervously, rolling on his heels, “It’s in the lounge somewhere and I can’t sleep knowing it’s out there — lurking.”
Phil groaned.
“Fucking kill it! Or set it free, I dunno. I just need it gone.”
“You are truly the perfect mix of 'needy child’ and 'angry businessman’, Danny.”
“Fuck off.”
“Mm, lemme get a cup then.”
Phil shoved on his glasses and stumbled out of bed into the kitchen, Dan following closely behind.
“Where was it again?” He asked, grabbing a wine glass from the cupboard.
They hadn’t really drank much alcohol these past few years– since Dan had gone on antidepressents— but they still always kept the glasses, to drink Ribena and seem fancy.
“No! You’ll need a bigger cup, it’s huge.” He whined.
“Okay,” he grabbed another glass, “where is it?”
“In the lounge last I saw.”
“I’ll go look, you get a piece of paper.”
Genuine terror painted over Dan’s face, “I don’t want to be alone.”
“Christ’s sake Dan, it’s a moth, not an armed burglar. I think you’ll live.”
“You don’t know that.”
“I do. Now, just go a minute.”
He then ventured into the lounge, still half-drowned by sleep, when he heard a shriek.
“Dan?”
“Phil! Fucking help!”
Anyone else might’ve thought Dan was being held at gunpoint from the panicked way he was yelling.
“Coming!”
He went into the hall; Dan was standing there, paralysed with fear, as a giant moth flew circles around him. He had tears threatening to fall.
“Oh dear,”
Phil went over to the closet and grabbed a broom, spent a few go’s waving it around– and almost hitting Dan in the process— before smacking it head on.
“Aw, now I feel bad for killing it,” He whispered.
Dan was on the floor now, shaking, tears stained down his cheeks. He was in only pants.
And Phil was there.
“Well, the moth’s gone now isn’t it?” He crouched down next to Dan, putting his hands gently on his shoulders.
“Mmm,” Dan had his head tucked in his knees.
“Are you okay?”
Silence.
“That’s fine. Want me to make you some tea?”
“Yeah.”
“Okay.”
A few minutes later, in the kitchen, with dried cheeks; “I can’t believe how much of a wimp I am.”
The kettle rang, and Phil took it off the stove carefully.
“No —”
“I know, I know, my therapist told me. 'It’s never weak to have fears’. But I cried over a fucking moth. In our hallway. It’s late and –”
“– and that’s okay.”
“It’s not okay Phil!”
“It’s fine in the moment, that’s what I mean.”
He grabbed a NASA mug, and poured the boiling water in a teapot.
“I must be exhausting.”
Phil dropped in a teabag.
He still remembered. It was a promise made at 4am; a promise over Skype to a more-than-slightly-terrified eighteen year old.
A promise made to a bunch of pixel’s with a name and a face and fear.
A promise his Dan probably didn’t even remember, honestly.
“No, I promised that much.”
“Mhm,”
He poured the tea.
“So, two sugars or three?”
“Two.”
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[Friday; 02.16.18; 05:12]
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Dan was on the sofa; snuggled up in blankets and watching the winter Olympics through his small Iphone screen. His eyes were heavy, he yawned.
Their bedroom door squeaked opened.
“Hey,” Phil spoke quietly.
“Up so late?”
“You’re up too.”
“Well — I’m watching the Olympics. You know it’s on late in the UK.”
“Alright.” Phil shuffled into the kitchen, grabbing a glass and leaving the cupboard door wide open.
“Why are you awake?”
“Just another nightmare, s'fine.”
“Then why did you come out here?”
His voice might’ve been read as upset – he was just tired. Half the time Dan honestly didn’t mean to come off so rude.
“Dunno,”
“What was it about?”
“Uh — I think my family was trapped, you included, and I was the only person who could save them. But I had to do something… I think, I had to open a lock to somewhere? But I was too nervous. I saw everyone die; I knew it was my fault. I saw – you know, blood. Not too much. But it’s fine.”
As he spoke, he went over to the sink and got a glass of water, adding iced-cubes; his tone was unnaturally cool and casual.
“But I heard your skull shatter –”
“What the fuck —”
“Sorry! You asked though.”
“No – I mean, that’s horrible. Jesus christ, are you okay?”
Phil shrugged, “It happens, it’s okay though. Just a dream.”
It was only at that moment Dan noticed Phil’s eyes were a little too redded, his words a little bit shaky.
Phil started back to their room.
“Are you going back to sleep?”
“Probably.” His reply was tired.
“Oh – uh, well, why don’t you stay with me and watch the Olympics? I know you’ve never really cared, not your thing, but still I think that —”
“Sure! I’ll stay, yeah.” Phil quickly answered.
“Okay.”
Phil put his glass of water back down on the counter, and walked over to the sofa. Dan opened up his blanket fort and invited Phil in.
“These are the men’s single runs.”
“Mhm,” Phil nuzzled his head into Dan’s neck, which usually would’ve bothered him, but he didn’t mind so much.
A few minutes pass, “So what’s that guy supposed to be doing? I need your commentary; you know.”
I just like hearing your voice, it calms me down.
“Well, that’s the Japanese lead skater, which means —”
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