#im scared im not gonna grt in

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

i dont usually like to post work pictures but... sand tiger over my head 2day >:]c

[skitskatdacat63]

For some reason I suddenly thought it was a good idea to try and cut my own hair. It remains to be seen if this was an actually good idea. If not, maybe it'll give me incentive to finally get a haircut

[nomaishuttle]

also did you all notice. that im off work b4 4 😊

[crazysodomite]

I genuinely dont understand why i cant fall asleep right now and why im scared so im probsbly gonna grt up and cook

[volcanicflowers]

fallout 76

hell yea black and white tv moment!! could use more needless violence tho

fallout has so many scary concepts like what if a rich cowboy actor survived a nuclear war

MATT BERRY!!!!!!!!!!!! okay now i know why the mr handys sounded so familiar but also not quite like their game voices

oh boy! (nonspecific) courier mention! i am so scared!

help what is happening here

genuinely cant tell if its gonna turn out the vault experiment here is some kinda sex pollen thing or if lucy and maximus are just actually like this. either way im uncomfortable

okay ive heard that it gets implied if not outright stated later that vault tec launched the nukes but this guy is here explaining exactly why vault tec wouldn’t want to launch the nukes or bring peace bc either option would mean selling less vaults. like after the world is over you’re not selling anymore vaults ever again

help “it was a huge bomb” actually made me laugh, i love vault 4

tbh tho i dont hate the idea of lucy/maximus if they go harder on the loser4loser angle

fallout 4 theme playing as lucy looks at the ncr flag.. game that the ncr wasnt even in

“take him out back and feed him to the hogs” i bet the hogs dont want him. they have better taste

ooh big fan of this car door that slides directly into the car thats very nice

GIRL DONT TAKE OFF YOUR PIPBOY.. THE MOST USEFUL THING ON GODS BROWN EARTH. CMON. YOURE GONNA GRT THAT SHIT STOLEN!!

aw i was kinda hoping for children of atom

girl just tell him that you saw them do a human sacrifice? do you think hes gonna be like “ok and?” i mean he might

oh btw there was no sex pollen these two are just like that for real

live blogging the fallout show under here. episode 1. im a hater by nature btw but its not all negative dw

is this guy like the vault tec ceo or spokesperson or something? NO WAY HE IS NAMED MR HOWARD...... todd howard's self insert the vault tec ceo.

i think todd saw the "did you know vault boy is actually holding up his thumb to check the size of the mushroom cloud" thing on reddit and was like "oh shit... thats a good idea. we should use that"

no way they have time for this conversation AND GETTING ON THE FUCKING HORSE???? GIRL THE HORSE?? NOT THE CAR??? GIRL??????????? RIDING THE HORSE DOWN THE STREET?? HELLO? actually i understand. save the horse. bringing my horse into the vault.

HOORAY no vault incest 🥳🥳🥳

GIRL WHY DID THEY HAVE TO MENTION THAT SHE'S BEEN "DOING COUSIN STUFF" FOR 10 YEARS AFTER ESTABLISHING THAT THEY DON'T DO INCEST IN THE VAULTS????? i hate it here.

i will say the room in the vault that looks like an outdoor farm goes hard i am a very big fan of that

DEAD WIFE BACKSTORY COUNTER: 1!! LETS GO PEOPLE!!!!!

NOT MORE OF THE COUSIN INCEST.. I FUCKING HATE IT HERE.

her dad is either going to super die or be evil

husband guy isnt even going to call her platinum in the sack? or pussy cat? what about her charlies? literally unwatchable.

my husband is taking a very big gulp of water, i think hes a serial killer?

"you're from the surface" girl how else do you think he got there from the other vault

i feel like this is a lot of effort for these raiders to go through to take over a vault but i guess they were there for the party

she'll be fine just start spamming stimpaks

okay her dad survived the raider attack which means hes definitely going to turn out to be evil later

i like maximus he seems fun i hope he leaves the brotherhood and i hope hes kinda a loser

oh so new vegas exploded but not the prydwen which i blew up personally?

aw maximus not anger issues cmon

"we've never opened the vault door" how were you getting people from the other vaults for this arranged marriage thing???? if it actually is secret tunnels why werent they just sharing the vaults from the get-go why was the cousin incest necessary

loving lucy's cringefail brother btw i hope he shows up more

YESSSS CRINGEFAIL BROTHER COMING ALONG!!

NOOO hes staying behind :( why tease me like this

cmon maximus couldve been a fun loser why we doing this. throw him off the prydwen I Guess

ghoul moment. i have to go to bed now

[milkteacore]

i don’t come on here as often anymore but anyways i just wanna rant bc i’m in a Summer Depressive Episode

[jaakey]

Is his weight not your business because he's thin therefore looks good? Being underweight isn't healthy and should be a concern, if he gained a lot of weight and was fat would it then be your business bc he'd no longer look "ideal"? If his leg was broken it'd be your business, why isn't him working himself to the Bone and becoming unhealthy not? You only don't care bc he's thin

omg what .. im saying its not my place to speculate if hes unhealthy??? like ure just looking at him and saying hes unhealthy?? do u know him? no u dont so who r u to say what his health situation is like . yoongis smart and im sure he knows how to take care of himself? his weight is never my business how could u possibly get this from what i said

[delightful-dragon]

Ok we’re home and safe now!

[veil-needs-sleep]

That moment when im trying to put on makeup and start crying 🙃

[vissenya]

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[nomaishuttle]

im done now im ready 2 go home ^_^

[msookyspooky]

Ngl just seeing the “my 14 y/o cousin...” on the answer preview made me think i was gonna grt dunked on SKSSKS LIKE “my 14 yo cousin watched and they thought it was fine”

But that DOES help !! The 2nd movie looks so interesting tho, specially cause one of the posters was a nod to the breakfast club poster and you can never go wrong with that

I’ll check the first 2 then the remake !! And see from there what others i wanna watch, hopefully before this weekend but i take night classes and watching scary movies in daylight is laaaaame (i will get spooked by it at any time tho 😩)

I should probably also use a wheel of fortune kinda deal to choose the movies for me so i can actually you know,,,, watch them for a change

Oh no, not at all! ACTUALLY me and my mom forgot the part where she crawls down the strairs backwards and my cousin yelled "OH MY GOD! 😨" and we ALL jumped 😭😭😭 But trust me I'll never dunk on anyone cause I rewatched the conjuring and kept looking behind myself expecting some demon to be standing behind me 👹

For sure the second one has such a different vibe than the first! It's like a dark comedy and Stretch was up there with Sidney Prescott on survival skills tbh look at her and what a badass hotty she is!!! 😩💞 She did more than Sally did in the first but barely gets any recognition istg

And fyi 3 has this pretty mfer named Tex

And 4 has this other pretty crazy mfer (If cannibal Im supposed to be scared of, then why have Matthew McConaughey play him being all sexual and shit? 🤨)

4 was fucking wild man omg it was entertaining but lowkey felt I was going crazy watching this family ☠️☠️☠️

As you can see I'm trying to convince u to watch this crazy ass series 🤣 Honestly the only ones I didn't like was 2022 (IDC that was a hot mess and felt like it was trying WAY too hard to be relevant to Gen Z. "MoVe aNd YouLl bE caNceled" PLEASE) and 2013 3D was OKAY it was better as a teen but now as an adult? Ehh it was okay. Not bad, not good, just okay imo

Yeah I'm the same I have a whole list I'm checking off but idk where to start 😮‍💨😑

Let me know what you pick next babe!!! 🖤🖤🖤

[mazqueen]

Hey I apologise because you'll prob grt multiple asks on this. I was impartial to raf v michael, but I'm mad after that ep! Raf was a bastard to Jane. Excuse my language. He didn't show any empathy towards her with her mixed feelings considering the love of her life is back from the dead. Having champagne ready after he think she posted the divorce papers 😖 he makes it like jane is the bad guy especially when michael just wants jane to be happy and tbh I feel he would have more right to be 1/2

2/2 pissed considering he got attacked and presumed dead and his wife is with someone else. I really don't get jennie tho! With raf at the end talking about being 2nd choice it's clear he's gonna be 1st this time, but why don't they write him as a good suitor for Jane? I understand being upset as he's scared Jane isn't going to choose him, but he's so selfish. I saw people stanning him and saying Jane is selfish. He literally chucker her out the house and used Mateo against her! 😵

so I MEAN. okay. this ask is pretty loaded, my answer might get a lil long lmfao so. here we go.

first. re: people saying jane is selfish. because i’ve been seeing this too and it’s the one huge thing that’s been annoying me to no end and here’s why: jane and michael never broke up. michael DIED. “died” whatever. the way you get over someone you broke up with for normal reasons is different from the way you “get over” someone who died. that’s just... i feel like that’s kind of a given. so i don’t know why anyone expects jane’s feelings for michael to be completely erased because realistically? it makes sense that she still does. let me put it this way. now that alba has feelings for jorge, does that mean there won’t be a part of her that’ll always love (her dead husband) mateo? that there won’t be a part of her heart that’ll always belong to him? having that part of her that’ll always love mateo doesn’t mean that she loves jorge less, or that her love for jorge is of less value than her love for mateo or anything like that. it’s just different, and each has it’s own value. and i feel like that’s just how it is when people lose people to death? you don’t just forget about them, you don’t just stop loving them. you move on, you learn to live without them, you learn to find a new normal without them, and maybe even find new happiness but that doesn’t mean the value of the person lost is gone just because they’re gone. the only difference is, michael turned out to not be dead, and so those feelings are getting rehashed. i feel like that’s expected, and idk. all shipping aside i just feel like it makes more sense for jane to be confused than for her to not be confused? 

which leads me to: two. rafael’s reaction. i mean listen, i feel like his feelings are understandable. being scared he’ll lose jane, wanting to protect himself from being hurt, etc etc. but i really feel like it could’ve been written better in a way that doesn’t make rafael come across as an asshole. i’ve already said this but: when rafael found out michael’s memories were back, this could’ve happened instead: raf asks jane if this changes things, jane says i don’t know. raf is visibly disappointed but doesn’t say anything about that and gives her a few days to let it sink in and process her feelings and he tells her they can talk about this again then. the few days pass by, jane and rafael have a huge talk. jane says she’s still confused, and rafael is sad and nods, and says he understands that this is difficult for her and he wishes he could sit and wait for her to decide, but that he’s so sorry because he can’t, that as much as he wants, it’s just really hard for him. and then maybe offer to sleep on the couch for the night and not make jane leave immediately...? idk i feel like that’ll still have given people all the feels without raf coming across like a pos who kicked jane out after her mom was just hospitalized. idK MAN BUT I FEEL LIKE I COULD WRITE RAF BETTER THAN JENNIE. lOL. her choices when it comes to raf are just .. idek. 

anyway, idt he ‘used’ mateo against jane or anything like that, and tbh i don’t think rafael actually believes jane will choose him (i wanna throw up even saying the word choose like jfc im so sick of this damn triangle and all the choosing)... i mean listen. this is rafael. he was insecure about CHUCK when he was dating petra. chuck. anyone who can be insecure of a trashcan of chuck’s level like that has some seriously wild insecurity issues. raf has always been insecure. but i still wish they’d addressed those insecurities in a different manner. not like this. it looks bad. and this is coming from a person who has always rooted for rafael’s growth... but like. the writing is making it so hard, damn. i stand by this: character growth would be rafael realizing his worth on his own, and that he doesn’t need to compare himself to anyone. character growth isn’t bringing back jane’s dead husband so that jane can choose raf over michael in the end. that’s not the way to address insecurity. like. that’s... ?? it’s not. like i’m sorry i’m just really not about this whole comparing yourself to the dead guy storyline nonsense. 

but yeah. idt rafael wanting to protect himself is selfish. it’s the way his feelings were translated into action that’s the problem for me. the feelings are valid. the way he went about expressing those feelings, on the other hand, was a lil cringe-y for me, personally, and like i said, could’ve been written way better.

[demoninc]

gyus *grts scared* im gonna go wash my hair see you all in about 20 minutes

[strawberryspeachy]

I was so scared he was gonna hurt me.

Why did he have a picture of another girl in his wallet after telling me that he hadnt had a girlfriend in a year. Why did he hum when i asked about it. Why did he take over a day constantly to respond. Why did he have an excuse as to why he couldnt talk on the phone everytime it wasnt planned. Why didnt he message me asking about me and barely even responded to my messages. Why didnt he seem to want to see me. Why was he able to go to a salan with pink eye but not see me or call me. Why did he saying crazy nice things the same night that he met me. Was he really sick. Did his phone rlly break. Was he really sleeping

I was paraoid and asked him if he was talking to another girl and if thats why he kept taking so long to respond and told him he gave me a yeast infection

I said mean things when he responded to a fake account instead of me

And again got confrontational when he cancelled the date that i had planned to use to see if he actually cared about me and if i could trust him

Writing is all shortly here i sound so stupid. Like. Why did i try to beleive him? Obviously he was rlly just cheating on me all along

But i have been blaming myself over and over. Wondering if i caused him to eventually cheat on me

That last time. The date he cancelled and i confronted him to break up. And he conned me out of money instead. I was mad and upset and confrontational. He said it was ok. He wouldnt let me go back to his house to cuddle or anything- but said if i paid for a hotel then he wouldnt be tired! I didnt. And the manga cafe he took me too ended up being more expensive than he said because they wanted a card made. And i was so stressed and upset. That i just got emotional and didnt rlly use words. He took us from the front desk and i asked if he had even just 5 dollars for it

And im supid. Im stupid im stupid im stupid.

We talked about our birthdays on the first date cause mine was soon. He said his bday passed recently. And he said he wanted to celebrate my bday with me. I suggested we celebrate his late too and asked what he wanted to do

He immediately told me as though wed been together for a long time already - that he wants something from an expensive brand he likes and that clothes bags or accessories from there would make him happy.

I thought it was a lot to ask of someone you just got together with but didnt comment and asked what his favorite food is. He told me he wanted to eat yakiniku (rlly expensive japanese bbq)

And when i said mean things and afterwards apologized and asked if he could forgive me. He said he would if I bought him an accessory.

And that day he just kept pushing to see how much money he could grt me to spend on him and made sure to spend as much as possible on food no matter where wed go

And i knew all along but yet just let this shit happen

The manga cafe

We went out and i was sulking. I expected him to actually start walking away. To threaten to leave me there... he didnt. Hed walked ahead but came back and took my hand.

The mood became good again with some affections

And why im writing this is.... i told him before the day that i wanted the date because as id told him several times - the lack of affetion he gave me made me feel bad and i wasnt shown that someone cares about me i cant beleive it. If i know it i can have faith and trust. But ive been hurt to often to blindly trust.... and it shouldnt be that fucking simple - i shouldnt be.

How many people in my life have actually looked at me get emptional. And just walked away. Legit left me. I dont mean after the fact. Like out somewhere. I do or say something someone doesnt quite like - they just leave me - i have to chase after.

And he didnt... (physically)

So despite the fact that his story was even mor suspicious

I enjoyed my day with him...and i rlly thought maybe he rlly cared...

Two days later i made myself a salad for lunch. Right as i took it out if my fridge it exploded out of the container and all over the floor

I had sprayed bug spray on that very spot a few days before.

I threw the salad back in the box and angerly cleaned - now late when i had been early to leave for work

And so i ate it at work - for the first time a bit worried about poisoning myself.

And i probably started having a panic attack but I attributed the dizzyness and heavy chest and shorg breathe to

Maybe. I ate the bug spray

Usually in a situation like this i think - good. I hope it kills me.

But i thought myself thinking no - i dont want to die - i hope i didnt poison myself. Im not ready - i wanna see where this all goes with my boyfriend

I actually hoped not to die over him.... for just that moment. I was happy for a moment

[orange-plane-boy]

He filled the baby bottle and handled it to Panna

"Ehy, im scared too, this is all new for us, and she is so tiny..." He helped him to raise her head and put her in the right position ti be feed

"Do it slow or she is gonna get hiccups, and she grt scared of if" He giggled "Silly little thing was in a trashcan and then gets scared of her own hiccups"

@orange-plane-boy

on a day that seems like any other day where Narancia is off on a mission and Fugo is stuck with paperwork, the elder's phone rings on his way back.

"Narancia, are you nearly home yet? please don't make any detours, it's urgent." Fugo sounded somewhat anxious, but not panicked.