#im scared i will crash rhe car

[mindself]

Im literally forgetting what im doing from one room to the nwxt. I tell myself to do one thing and the next mkmet im doing something totally different.

Can this be explained by bejng extra tired (only on 6 hours sleep... not yhat bad, but even loaing that much sleep affects me a lot especialy when it adds up and im doing a lot of other things) or is it something else?

How kuch of a losr am i for feeling thia way when it wouldnt phae3 most people?

How can i get any sort of respect from anyone if i cant do anything? Mentally or physically... and i dont even have a disability, im just made wrong

[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

Beau Layne & Kevlar

I began identifying NHRA car crashes with Brittany's sister Courtney.

So once she left I requested they stop or at least change because I was tired of developing bad news, like a photograph on a camera roll... In a dark room. Not saying they were human caused purposely, possibly human errors or just God himself.

Jesse developed a prototype suit for motorcycle riders made with bulletproof material. I specified to leave a small place pn a finger on the glove and a place on the arm but to keep the feet, legs and face safe.

I preferred a small space near the shoulder to be clear but he chose a larger space in rhe inner arm because people would chose thar area to run cheaper material because its thought to be safer.

Jesse left a lot more space than i intended.

However Baloooth purposely wrecked his motorcycle.

The reason for the larger spaces was to show the difference on the old material and to show general public street racers how dangerous it is (courtesy of Alex Laughlin)

So there are no more because you're a bitch accidents and if there are, you cannot tell much difference between the material. And so if you're a bitch and told to break into a barrier to test it...

You would be locked in a car on fire unable to open the door. And in a suit made of non flammable and non bullet proof material. Couldn't you be?

So this is good news.

Top Fuel and other racers will also have this material available to them at an affordable cost.

Jesse knows the sport and people in it. Used to be bums nearly they say of themselves and have risen because they have worked hard.

I hate watching motorcycle racing. I try to find something different to do. Im so scared someone would fall like Balooth did. And so when he did, i was absolutely amazed he was okay.

He's one bad ass mother fucker I would trust with my life.

The people I really trust and will defend are rare indeed. And so I make that my absolute duty. To protect even their feelings.

Steve Torrance is next to try his landing on the road. But his is full suit cause, face it, not many top fuel cars are on public streets.

That said, Alex Laughlin was the first to try the full suits and then gave them for free to all of the Outlaw Racers on TV.

Thank you, Balooth for risking Your skin and entire arm for awareness of public safety on the roadways. We could never repay you, but i think 5M USD from your favorite charity would be nice, Dad. And 1M USD for yourself from me. Because that was super important to me. And i know it hurt bad and I was so scared Your hips were broke and all. So now i cam at least watch NHRA motorcycle racing without ever having to worry what if.

And not only did you do a public service. But also you showed all of NHRA how safe they will be. It was easier on a bike to try it, first going that fast.

Steve's car will be prepared to purposely fall apart.

Of course I helped pave a road to jesse to start on. By telling him to use liquid Kevlar. And of course my motorcycle worries and then to make a car fall apart. He told me I was nuts 4 years ago, today I am the Miracle Maker.

And so is he.