#im scared fr bc i know some side effects are like

[chryblossomjjk]

taking steps to get on antidepressants tomorrow besties 🤧

[haedgaf]

we will get barricade im so serious... saving starts now haedgaf. omg but i got barricade for other cocnerts but i never have those funnt witty banners that everyone have like wdym Haechan laughed at ur banner... the best i can do is a quick 'i love u fuck sm' ... I WISH I WAS FUNNY BROOO and wishes album is so fucking good cutesy i need that cute star immediatley... and fuckass neo center just hates 127 i swear because those season greetings.. they are so lucky the members are fine man.. i will give nct wish creativity team the best time of their life i WILL have my hands on them by the end of the week def, nd i fucking hate the prices like 500 euros for a fuckass 2 hour concert like bro... even if i see haechan or jungwoo if i pay 500 dollar they better hand me some type of NDA bcs for that much money i want personal dates with them both.. I will try to get even noticed maybe fucking nctzens are crazy bro im scared of them esp 127zens... SM def in debt like the way they have been overwerking markhyuck too like they have to pay someone 120K at the end of the month... pls let those cuties rest ughh AND ALSO THE RECENT RENJUN HATE PISSED ME TF OFF everyone hating on him needs to die omfg but yes thank you! ALSO HAVE U LISTENED TO THE NEW ALBUM... THEY LITERALLY RELEASED NASA FOR ME HFHKSK fucking hell i love them so much ughh sion my aegi... writing out his name i remember the vid of the ppl pushing him in his back i hate these ssngs i swear on my life haedgaf i will hunt these ppl down and kill them i think yes thank u for listening confession of the day : i do daily prayers to get sion and jisung on awsaz

can saving start next month bruh i’m not mentally ready (i suck at saving money… tips would be appreciated…) 😅 AND TBH YOURE VALID FOR THAT trust me 50% of the time the banners aren’t even funny just some weird shit like show your abs that will go ignored so don’t worry sis you’ll be fine, but that has me thinking myself what would i write on my banner if i went 😭😭 lowk i don’t even think i would have a banner HSJDHSKFJDK i’m here to party and get LIT i’m sure if i get lit enough i can get that haechan notice 🌚 FUCK SM AS THE DEFAULT I LIKE THAT!!!!

HSJDHSKD BRO THE WAY I GENUINELY DID NOT REALISE THE ALBUM WAS OUT ALREADY i saw that the mv got released but for some reason my brain convinced myself that it was a random release anyways i will be listening soon we love you wichu 🥺 ALSO IDKKKK I ACTUALLY FUCKED WOTH THW SEASON GREETINGS THIS TIME like the whole fight club concept went hard, dream management however have gotten lazy as hell i fear can they go back to the candy gaggery 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️ let’s all just start copying wish’s management!!!

the more i deep it the more ridiculous it gets like 500 for a singular ticket… that could’ve paid someone’s rent 😭😭😭 i hope you get that interaction fr and yeahhh nctzens lowk parasocial and territorial AF be safe out there and pray you’re with the tame bunch hsjdhskfjdkd / BRUH DONT GET ME STARTED ON MAHAE AND RENJUN if i speak i’m gonna het suspended but just know i have sent SM’s and renjun’s haters personal information to a voodooist. tread veryyyy carefully @ EVERYONE. i will avenge my aegibaobei renjunnie you’re perfect 😭 like mind you he is taking anti depressants BECAUSE of these fads and now they’re confused as to why the side effects are showing…?

FARKKKK STOP DONT MENTION SION GWTTING PUSHED WITHER I WAS READY TO BRAWL SEEING RHAT Facking hell 😭😭😭 wallah i was on twt sending death threats from priv like don’t ever put your hands on kingie like that… AND DID YOU SEE THAT THEY BROKE INTO FHEIR HOTELS TOO??? these HOOLIGANS omg free wish.. anyways inshallah that sion x jisung aswaz happens soon, they’re both too shy to initiate a conversation i fear 😭

[ambitionsource]

S1 Rewatch: Lena’s Take [1.07]

whew! what an episode! also, i hope it’s no trouble that i send my rewatches in a day late... sorry!

favourite scene: this episode has SO many good scenes... my god. I have to say the paint balloon war scene, though, just for the a) pure chaotic energy and b) good character moments. farkle getting absolutely HAMMERED with paint balloons. isadora screaming war cries (if you imagine this scene without music it would be HILARIOUS), riley being so scared of getting hit she pulls a me back in third grade playing dodgeball. dylan taking a dramatic slow mo paint balloon to the chest. zay and charlie working perfectly together as a tactical team 🥺, ending with both of them absolutely MUCKING lucas as he tries to choose between the revolution and his blooming feelings for riley.... they have NO time for straight nonsense. plus charlie having an ANEURSYM when zay literally HUGS him is so funny (i literally said out loud “charlie sweetie”)... the “intricate rituals that allow you to touch the skin of other men” energy it has... WERE YOU AWARE THAT I LOVE THEM? a good scene on so many comedic and emotional levels! it really demonstrates the boxes the students are stuck in, and how hard they’re going to have to work to get out of them by the end of this ep, and, on a larger scale, the end of the season.... the Nuances.

favourite performance: the amount of ICONIC performances this episode makes it SO HARD TO CHOOSE! maya leading the performers with team.... riley’s melodramatic but still heart-wrenching rendition of cry and you cry alone... farkle’s emotional struggles showcased in control... honestly, it’s a so close for me between thnks fr th mmrs and come out and play... but despite the incredible power of thnks fr th mmrs and the fact that i LOVE the techies’ family dynamic the MOST, especially when they perform together because it’s so few and far between, i have to give it to come out and play. a) i LOVE that song, b) it undercurrents my favourite scene in the episode.... and c) its a zc duet. im SORRY but like i think it serves REALLY well to highlight the frustrations and core of the scenes: a taunting, frustrated battle between two sides who want nothing more than to be kept separated. also, for two characters who still don’t know each other SUPER well... zc really work excellently as a team, directly contradicting the isolation and separation from others they both discussed feeling last episode... They CLICK... n that hug.... i love them so much. however i must point out the POWER thnks fr th mmrs has to be led by dylan and asher. like PLEASE. theyre baby. i love them so much and the joy pumped into my soul whenever asher gets to sing? unmatched.

favourite character this ep: lucas fucking friar ABSOLUTELY RULED this episode. king stomps back into school in his giant stompy boots and stages a giant stompy revolution. lucas’ ability to just show up and throw places into chaos is WONDERFUL, and focusing on it means he ran this episode. outnumbered by enemies and returning late, he staged a full-fledged week-long revolution... and it was successful. he also had some of the best lines this episode, and i love how, despite the fact that he pretends not to care about ANYTHING, he has such a dedication to his friends that makes it only obvious how much he actually cares about everything. this episode was lucas in his element, showcasing the way he’s softening around riley (i LOVE they) and how steadfast and determined he is in his beliefs, stances, and endeavours. lucas cares, okay? he cares a LOT. i love lucas a lot and if i had more energy i would go into an unnervingly deep psychoanalysis of him... but i don’t, so i’ll say i love him the MOST and i’ll leave it at that.

favourite line: lucas: It’s like they say, you know. “If we burn, you burn with us.” That’s classic literature, right? jack, deadpan: The Hunger Games. | also “white nonsense”. EXCELLENT, zay.

an underrated moment: yindra and nigel being absolutely iconic this episode. the two of them plus jade are the three side characters i feel unfairly attached to. the moment where they go to meet lucas and isadora to straight up say they’re tired of the bullshit.. they were actually real standouts this episode and it really goes to show how much main character drama effects the sise characters, which isn’t discussed very much and is ALWAYS nice and refreshing to see. plus nigel as mulligan made my little heart sing.... HIS BREAK DANCE JUMP UP!! get nigel on america’s got talent, i DARE YOU.

something i missed the first time around: FARKLE STARTING TO RANT AT ISADORA WHEN HE FEELS UNFAIRLY TARGETED, FORESHADOWING HIS DIVA MELTDOWN IN THE FINALE... BRILLIANT. ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT. we get a subtle warning that we do NOT heed. i also think i overlooked how clearly farkle’s mental health issues are showcased this episode, which improve as he gets friends later on, but are ripped wide open again in the finale.

first impression vs your reread impression: loved it both times, more this time. this episode is a major turning point for the main conflict of the season (techie & performer divide) and is SO goddamn intense, especially with the end scene... the bit where we get shots of EVERYONE alone on their phones, ensuring it could be anyone at school? INCREDIBLE. SHOWSTOPPING. love love loved this ep.

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literally NO TROUBLE AT ALL lena dear, we love to read them regardless of when you send!! the fact that you’re being so diligent about participating is like impactful as it is <3 and lucky us bc your thoughts are always so GOOD. i literally don’t even know where to start because you just said so many good things. what i WILL say is that you may get the chance to talk to nigel or yindra or jade v soon... and also i WILL be looking forward to that deep psychoanalysis of lucas james sometime in the future,, but SHOUT OUT to you pointing out another foreshadowing moment... but also ma’am your descriptions of things are just so poetic. like where is your aaa fandom blog in the fake aaa universe so i can follow and reblog all your meta posts as the seasons unfold being like damn... yeah... points were made,,,,