#im sayin they couldve known

[iceandironbars]

Triskelion

The Triskelion was build along the Potomac river on Theodore Roosevelt Island, Washington DC and served as the headquarter and operating base for SHIELD, and unknowingly, also Hydra.

I think they could've known.

Lemme explain-

Alexander Pierce was recruited by Hydra after the incident in Bogotá where he met Nick Fury. He became Undersecretary of the World Security Council in about 1980.

The triskelion was built/under heavy construction in 1989 as shown in the Ant-Man movies when Hank Pym left SHIELD.

So it is very very likely, that Alexander Pierce, at the time already in high position at both SHIELD and HYDRA, was involved in building/reconstructing the Triskelion.

Why a Triskelion? You will laugh.

Triskelion/triskele symbols are associated with a bunch of different beliefs and attributes, including celtic and greek culture, several paths of history and christianism, going all the way back in time to the iron and bronze age.

Among others the triskelion held and still holds meaning in Nazi/neo-Nazi culture and beliefs, where the symbol was especially used after WW II, because former symbols (swastika) got banned/were too easily recognized and the use was prosecuted. So instead of them, the Triskelion symbol took their place on flags and as a way to recognize them.

Furthermore the triple spiral of the triskel is used within BDSM culture, symbolizing the three roles of top/bottom/switch and also being utilized as a telltale sign among BDSM members to recognize each other without outsiders knowing, wearing triskelion accessories to spot each other.

So. The triskelion was literally named and shaped like a sky high monument to Nationalism/Nazis and BDSM culture.

Everything about that building screamed HYDRA. Are you fucking kidding me-

(NOTE: This is not me dooming or shaming BDSM culture. A lot of aspects and practices used inbBDSM are implemented in HTP storylines. Healthy BDSM is consentual and not tied to brainwashing.✨)

[im-a-lil-bitch-boi]

gods i hate when my mom gets mad, cuz she'll basically turn into a giant toddler and throw a fit and yell at anyone and everyone that she sees is "in the wrong" or "did her dirty".

like she got mad at me bc she couldnt find her work clothes and instead of simply askin for us(us bc she began to blame my lil sister too) to go and check if thdy were hung up or still in the washer or even if she didnt put them in the dirty hamper, no. she had to yell about her clothes bein missin(keep in mind, when my clothes go missing she tells me it doesnt matter even tho its usually clothes i bought. and ion make a fuss abouf the clothes she bought me bc im so used to her takin stuff she bought me and givin them to my siblings, usually my lil sister as i "dont need them anymore").

she literally threatened to kick me out(which is legal as im an adult, however ik thats not gonna be the case cuz a couple of months ago she told me to take my stuff and leave and do nothin else but also refused to allow me to go and kept on snatchin everything outve my hands and told to to deep clean instead, AND THEN kept yellin at me to leave), and im honestly surprised she didnt yank my around by my hair like she did last time. then again she wasnt drunk this time so that might be y.

im so fuckin tired and stressed and now i cant even sleep bc im wide awake after lookin for a stupid shirt that she quite honestly couldve got up and looked for herself instead of sittin in her room amd throwin a bitch fit over it not bein where she wants it.

its so fuckin exhaustin to be continued to be pushed to my limit jus bc she can do it. my limit is not the same as ur lady, especially when u cant even get up and walk to the damn store for urself. idc if ur sick u sent me when i was sick, u sent me multiple times when i was sick and injured and didnt care. u sent me to get smth and got mad when i got it sayin "u shouldve known that not wut i wanted?!" then y was it on ur mimd? y'd u tell me to get it?! jus except u misspoke and stop blamin me like i can read mimds. i cant so leave me tf alone

[thingsdontgetbetter]

yeahh anyway part 2/x

end of that rant and onto basically i guess my suicide note for my dear friends! i left a note for the apartment people that is intentionally very vague because my past attempts have always failed and its the worst feeling in the world to try and explain the note to whoever stops you or finds you, and i dont want that at all, which is why i can delete this if i live through this somehow, and on top of that, i dont think most of the people i know will ever find this. its basically to just you three. if you want to share this to anyone i guess go ahead because if this gets posted i dont think im around to care about it

ive thought about where ive been this exact day each year for the last 10 years, and each year its with someone i had i was super close to that i dont have anymore. and for this entire time i can say specifically this person was really bad to me, this person was harmful to others, what we had was temporary, or whatever, but the idea it is a theme that keeps repeating until i have no one left and no ability to let someone like that back in, i think more than anything is a signal of me, in the possibilities of like, maybe i am not a good person to be around, maybe i attract these kinds of people, maybe i in a way are also these people, maybe i cant keep anyone around, maybe i am the common denominator in way you cut it. and i think one if not all of these is true. i think i have some kind of deep dark evil hatred like super deep ingrained in my heart that will never be gone. i think i find comfort and similarity in finding things to hate because thats all ive known growing up, i think i am happier when im upset, i think i use that to manipulate people to whenever i need something to hate making them think im a victim somehow, and i dont want to and i dont mean to, but i know my elder relatives were like that and im never in my head to verbalize in my mind thats what im doing, i dont do it consciously, but in that way still, i take and i hurt everyone i care about. i wont let myself or others be happy. it will eventually always happen that i make a falling out with someone because if that doesnt happen im unfamiliar with whats going on i dont know what is happening.. and i make whatever needs to happen to feel that cycle again. in the period before i do this i get seriously codependent on a single person, to where i live my life for that person, and my being is made to cater to whatever that is, and i do that i think in response to the feeling of not wanting to be alone, to finding a person that makes me happy and wanted, to never ever wanting to let that go, selfishly, until it finally boils up to constricting that persons abilities, and when they start freaking out for needing space, i cant take the rejection of losing that, and make myself the victim. i wish i couldve broken this down in therapy, but the last 6 months have been mostly figuring out short term disability. i figured out i was not getting paid for the disability about 1-2 weeks ago, sometime at the beginning of june, and i knew then there was no getting out of needing to off myself. the reasoning for their rejection is that i didnt provide my hr with all the documentation for my leave, which they never said they needed, and i did provide my hr with that information, but the way short term leave works with my job is in periods of 2 weeks at a time, and since i missed sending them the same paper that they requested for 2 weeks in februrary at a specific time (i sent it to them after when i realized it worked this way but it was too late for it to be recognized) they never accepted it, they just had it under a status of documentation not found. and im technically still with my job, but if i said ok stl over im coming back tomorrow, my manager would say we dont have that documentation youre fired. i cannot go back, i cannot send them the documentation, and im stuck in this kind of limbo. ive honestly been waiting for that email saying "youre fired!!" if it had come especially earlier i couldve at least applied for unemployment benefits or something, which would not have been a lot a week, but it still wouldve been something.

[xecat]

been watchin a playthrough of scarlet and man. they dont lie. the extremely buggy game with lots of flaws has some really cool parts and looks really fun . ramblin under cut

i honestly like most of the character designs and how the models look w textures n stuff (the dodgy rimlighting isnt great but the rest looks good imo) . the cutscenes w unique animations are really cool especially in the ending areas !! and the story is actually good from wht ive seen.

it feels like the team working on it put passion into it despite the time crunch. obviously theres a lot of bugs and the open world environments/textures feel a bit empty and bland. but just from wht ive seen and heard abt scarlet/violet. i really feel like this couldve been the best or one of the best in the series if they had more time to work on it and were unionised . it feels like they did put care into some parts of the game and i wish tht couldve translated to the rest of the game (like the fuckin eating animation lmao even sw/sh had a better eating sequence than the sandwich one)

also take everythin im sayin with a grain of salt or whtever. this is mostly my opinion as someone who has only properly played one poke game (watched playthrus of some others) and i am known for liking most media like enjoying "bad" games and "bad" movies and "bad" music lol

[bookns]

Maia you are an absolute angel. You are just my favorite person right now. This is the best debut gift anyone has ever given. You understand how hard I work for my writing and you saying that - all that - it gives me strength to know that I can write and people like you will support me. I will be fully honest with you, I saw this and just broke down crying. For years this blog has been my tether to people like yourself, Maia, and it gave me you Maia and I'm forever grateful for all this. The first wallpaper made me cry even harder, cause that's me. I don't know how you managed to even include you are in love there but let me tell when I saw the "one look, dark room," I- just it was all tears. This wallpaper having the Darling ST (my special nickname for anyone that follows me) is just an inside joke between us and it just meant THE WORLD. the books. When I tell you this is my new home screen because it is me. It is me just as much as would've couldve should've and yoyok is which by the way WHAT THE FUCK. You did a WCS one and it had a 7 which there is no way in hell you would know that the reason I love WCS is because when I was in year 7, there was this boy who is my devil. You would've never known that and yet it being there brought even more tears to my face. I can't even EXPLAIN to you how much I love the pure pain that has somehow been shown in my screen - you get me Maia like legitemenly, like these are me. The yoyok one is just me personified how the actual fuck you managed to make these so beautiful and accurate. In the yoyok the girl in the window- you gotta understand I started this blog looking out a window as loneliness and desperation crept in, and now I celebrate moments like this with people like you. The Can I Be Him one. Thats the one that really HIT. no one in my real life (except my swiftie bestie) has supported me through this journey of this story. So many nights were spent reading and editing and laughing about how pathetic this story is, and yet you created this. you haven't even read my story and you already created this (which fyi I really want to make the cover if you'd allow that). Can I Be Him was this nameless (also im listening to yoyok as I write this and I CANT BELIEVE YOU MADE ME A WALLPAPER OF MY FAVORITE SONG), (as I was sayin-) it was this nameless story that has just become a daily part of my mind and a transfixation of my thoughts and this was the result. This made all the "blood, sweat and tears" worth it. Thank you Maia. Your my favorite Moot. ((also how the fuck did you manage to make it so accurate to Can I Be him - girl your a magician) thank THANK thank you.

Hi Lola!! Your surprise is here!! (@bookns) 💜💜

SURPRISE!!! Happy un-birthday!! ⭐️⭐️

You are one of my favorite mutuals and this is really because I just wanted to show you how much I appreciate you and to support your work debuting today!! You’re always so kind, genuine, and truly wonderful. You write freely, write well, write with such passion and dedication. It’s truly admirable. I would write you something beautiful in return for your friendship, but this will have to do for now.

What these are supposed to be, in order:

general purple Taylor swift wallpaper based off the vibes you give me <33

wouldve could’ve should’ve wallpaper ^_^

yoyok wallpaper :0

percabeth wallpaper trying to give can I be him, but it was made before I actually read can I be him, so it ~probably~ doesn’t. It still looks cool imo ;)

I really hope you like them!! I made all of these with you in mind based off of things you post about that I thought I could capture the feeling of with a wallpaper. (they’re not especially WOW!! but i make things I like with the intention of other people liking them bc that’s part of my love language!! I worked really hard on these so I hope you like at least one ^_^)

have a good one!! ⭐️⭐️⭐️

[bloodydamnit]

Have you or anyone you know lived in Baltimore? Was Nora right??

Hello there! Omfg im terrible at answering my inbox. I’m getting there!

Okay, so I lived in Baltimore. I’m not sure if Nora did. As soon as I heard, Baltimore and Wesninski I was like, okay makes complete sense. Baltimore has a huge Polish population - namely in Hampden, Camden*, Fells Point*, (as well as some parts of harbor east*). So I thought it was high key perfect??? Idk if she meant it to be this way??? or if Wesninski, to her, was even supposed to be a polish name??? 

As for if she was right, I’m not sure what you mean by that. Baltimore is crime infested with a crumbling infrastructure and guilty of complete negligence to most of its citizens. I can COMPLETELY see a ‘butcher’ living and operating out of this city. As well as COMPLETELY being able to GET AWAY with it. Lets be honest - Nathan is a hitman… I’m not so sure I would qualify him as being a serial killer (but also like… a hitman is just a paid serial killer isnt it?) and he is white, in the affluent areas of Baltimore. People dying and disappearing out of this city is literally nothing. We celebrate if there were no murders that day, you know? I think Baltimore is the perfect place for someone like him to be. Especially with the theories of the dozens of sneaky deals coming out of the higher ups in the city 👀

There are a SHIT ton of condemned, old, and vacant buildings throughout the entire fucking city. Imagine all the fucking places Nathan could have met people in… killed people in… Imagine all the places he couldve fucking dumped bodies and gotten away with easily…

Here are a few of my favorite locations that coincide with not only AFTG, but also places I’d imagine Neil being terrified of / trained in / shit going down around:

• The motel - there is a creepy fucking motel 6 right on North Ave - which is a long street that, to the best of my knowledge, runs through the entire city of baltimore. It’s known for being ridden with crime and crumbling buildings. Theres a Motel 6 directly across the street from the MICA Studio and Graduate building, and every time I see it now, I see Andrew dragging Wymack across the fucking parking lot to get to Neil. It’s also creepy as fucking hell at night. 

Theres another street right around the corner from it, where I’d imagine they hid the bus. 

• There is this creepy fucking park in Baltimore called Leakin Park. If you know the story of Hae Min Lee, or Adnan Syed, then you know this park. It’s KNOWN for body dropping, murders, etc. Fucking creepy as hell. Sometimes we’d drive past it and I swear to fucking god, you jsut wanted to get away from it asap  - especially at night. There are few streetlights and its just… no. fuck no. 

You cannot fucking pay me to drive by there at night. Also, if you look closely, one of those paths is called ‘dead run’ and um im sorry excuse me!? 

• I’m pretty sure its canon that they lived in Bmore County. Which can mean a lot of things. So I wouldn’t be able to point you in any which direction, or know what is considered a bougee area around there. I’m pretty sure Towson, White Marsh, Perry Hall, etc, are fairly middle class. If I could see them living anywhere tbh, it would be in Annapolis, but thats a bit of a drive so it doesnt work. Nonetheless, its not impossible. If I could pick where their order of operations though in Bmore would either be in either Harbor East or Camden, which are pretty fucking affluent and hella white (ie. wouldnt it be weird to see this creepy fucking ginger man stomping his way through Baltimores neglected areas? feel like people would notice…).•I’m a firm believer that Mary took Neil to the aquarium or port discovery in the inner harbor and he loved it. And its an extreme shame that Neil cant set foot in baltimore because him and the monsters would have a hella good time at Power Plant. I’m just sayin. I hope this answered your question???? I dont really know what your question was, but heres this.. whatever nonetheless!

* all pretty much in the same area lmfaoooo

OHHHH EDIT: 

okay so there are warehouses around bmore and i cannot for the fucking LIFE OF ME REMEMBER WHAT IT IS CALLED.  but its near hampden?? or maybe hunt valley???? fuck i cant remember. 

also the road i was fucking talking about is called Falls Rd. and if you can avoid it at all fucking costs, do so. fucking christ its the creepiest fucking place. WHICH NOW THAT IM LOOKING, IS TOTALLY WHERE THEY WOULD FUCKING LIVE

[jimmythedonut]

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[god-is-a-womyn]

Othello and Lily bc I’m indecisive?

I was trying to decide if I wanted to wait to talk about Othello until after we read part of it but I’m just going to say a few things now and maybe delve deeper into it a little later. First, and I know this is something that people in other classes mentioned, I’m not entirely sure how much I liked the modern day take on this Shakespearean classic. Some parts were cool and the modern moments worked, however, others made it seem slightly inauthentic. One aspect, in particular, is when the actors would appear on stage recording with their phones. This reminded me of something that an obnoxious audience member might do, so it felt weird to have the actors doing it. Secondly: the use of phones as flashlights. There are plenty of other light sources that they could’ve used. Real flashlights, lanterns, or even fire of some sort would’ve worked (I’d just go for some actual flashlights but there’s preference there I guess). With all of this, I did still enjoy the show and thought it was quite captivating, as sometimes it can be difficult to become invested in Shakespeare. the only thing that I will say is that I wish I had known just a little more about the story beforehand. That is largely my fault as I probably didn't use the A Noise Within study guide as much as I should have, but even people who have read most of the play were slightly confused.

As for Lily, or should I say Lady Lu... I’m almost struggling with what to say because I was just so appalled at her behavior. While this was something that we could kind of see coming as we noticed changes in Lily, I was still shocked by Lily’s immediate isolation from Snow Flower as well as her complete destruction of Snow Flower’s life, one that already has many issues. We will probably get more into this in class, as it will definitely be the main topic of conversation, but this whole relationship development shows just how toxic newfound power can be. There were plenty of times in this novel when I felt bad for Lily or even winced at her pain during footbinding, but she has lost all of my respect. Maybe this is a little much, but I’d argue its no more than how she responded to Snow Flower. Plus, she brought it on herself. Just sayin’

[irregodless]

okay readmore time

feel free to contact me to discuss theories or general plot

so this is gonna be hella segmented but just deal okay

my thoughts are never very organized so im just gonna talk about some disappointments and other stuff

why does homeworld have a court session for rose quartz i mean i get theyre bureaucrats suddenly but like. um? kinda feels silly. why would they give her a chance to defend herself? also have they advanced like humans? bc blue diamond sure af didnt give garnet a chance to plead a case when she fused ON ACCIDENT

that being said what happened to all the stuff about like moon goddesses and stuff. i wasnt really counting on the diamonds being like. actual goddess figures but i was kinda hoping for more than ceo bosses in pantsuits

where he hell is white diamond and why wasnt she present. was she out conquering new planets? the symbol represents her so she appears to still be around. so where is she? i honestly think its suspicious that shes not present. i figure given her color and gem placement she is a cold calculating unfeeling machine who is only concerned with purity, structure and justice. so like the anithesis of what steven fights for: feeling for each other, empathizing etc

kinda disappointed there were so few off-colors but maybe well find some more later

also kinda disappointed steven and lars didnt fuse but i mean maybe later. also there wasnt really a need to so far nor was it implied they would

why did everyone run away from rutile when they emerged? the fact they were not INSTANTLY captured and shattered for breaking the mold suggests that all the kindergartners ran too. now they might have been around MUCH LONGER AGO but to me that would mean imperfect gems were MORE COMMON to find. the gems dont seem to be too put off by strange appearances. im just saying its weird that they would all run from a defect gem. im not crying plot hole, im actually saying i think something ELSE happened to make them run away. not a mutated rutile.

i was kind of hoping to find a secret society of garnets of other rubies and sapphires who followed our garnets example lol. they couldve helped steven feel more at home or something

im kind of sad it wasnt set up more like a movie, but again it wasnt SUPPOSED to be. understand i can identify things i was expecting incorrectly and things im genuinely upset by. this was just my expectations being in the wrong place.

im also sad there isnt more of a prospect of there being like. a season of being stranded on homeworld. but now it feels like in the two years itll take for season 6 to show up till just be a bunch of “””filler””” where lars is just stranded on homeworld and not spoken about until a stevenbomb halfway through. id much rather learn about homeworld!!

we also got no new information about the war or homeworld, really!!!! :( not even a flashback

yellow diamond is guilty af. she didnt want to hold the trial and she was ESPECIALLY outraged by the “crazy theory” that she did it. also, im just sayin, eyeball ruby (the only known witness we know of atm) also couldnt tell that the jasper she had ALSO SEEN WITH HER ONE EYE AND LVOED SO MUCH was really amethyst. like she didnt even notice her chest gem OR her coloration. so i mean. the rose quartz that shattered pink COULD HAVE BEEN yellow or COULD HAVE BEEN a shapeshifted gem. esp since her sword isnt supposed to shatter. so someones murder mystery unravels by getting a core detail wrong. i still kind of like the theory of like. pink transferring her consciousness a la lars and steven to a rose and shattering herself so she wouldnt have to conquer and destroy. so our rose is actually pink diamond but in the body of a rose quartz (making steven still a rose quartz but not a pink diamond like his mom... ‘s personality. which is what matters over physical form. esp with gems. itd also make the rose is pink diamond theories hilarious true but also false lmao)

kind of disappointed in lions new origin story too! i think the pink pearl theories were interesting if not always positively RIDDLED with holes. (some people thought he was a gem monster but um we would have seen pearls gem on his tummy. and steven has pet his tummy MANY A TIME)

I KIND OF DONT LIKE THAT THE HAPPY ENDING WAS JUST STEVEN REUNITING WITH HIS FAMILY BUT LARS GETTIN FUCKED OFF LEFT ON HOMEWORLD LOL. i mean i know he told him to go and tell everone and stuff but its like. look everythings back to normal and theyre back together!! oh except lars who isnt alive and will live forever as an organic lich servant to steven but dont worry l m a o o o. i jsut didnt like that whole lars thing a lot in general... nor do i feel like turning pink instantly redeems him. not that i hated him. but i dont think turnign pink was the character development we needed.

WHERES TOPAZ IS SHE OKAY DID AQUAMARINE RAT HER OUT

DO ZIRCONS GET SHATTERED IF THEY LOSE A CASE

WOULD BLUE ZIRCON HAVE BEEN A PARIAH FOR DEFENDING ROSE QUARTZ DESPITE *HAVING TO*

YO BLUE DIAMOND EY WHAT UP LIKE LITERALLY WHATS GOING ON BLUE PLZ TELL ME IN THE DARK A LIL

plz tell me well get more homeworld adventures and lars will smuggle gems in his hair

are they going to send pumpkin to homeworld as rose or something and sacriice him lol (i actually just wanted to ask why he was relevant at all but then i imagined just like. replacing him with lars)

are the crystal gems gonna go to homeworld and start shit princess marco style teach those gems about rock and roll pearl!! liberate them form the oppressive THE MAN, AMETHYST

can i mention that while it was funny but also irrelevant to this special, i kinda didnt like the like. garnet just drawing herself “i like me” bit. like it was funny but also like. almost too off-focus and too self-absorbed for her character. i could imagine sardonyx doing that but not garnet. idk it was just a single silly gag but i didnt like it

are the zircons okay tho

but like seriously whats homeworld even like like whats going on. especially since they dont seem to have an actual culture (if gems dont know what jokes are i really cant imagine them having a purpsoe outside of militial. how does a civilization survive on being NOTHING but war machines?)

i kinda feel like were coming to the tip of excitement here i feel like theres very little more that can be done in the show. idk. like what happens next anyways

do i have any MORE questions or musings to ask/muse????? yes. but i cant think of any rn. so later. 

EDIT: so i was thinking and i wanted to ammend the lars things. he DEF had character development and it was DEF even before he turned pink. i think i felt that the only thing being addressed or taken away was that he was pink now? and i kinda dont like character development thats done like completely suddenly as a heelturn and is heretofore ooc. lars however was written WELL. he developed REALLY WELL AND I LOVE IT. there was just something at the time that made it seem like it was all about him turning pink that almost made me forget he literally saved everyone? and i realize him being left out of the happy ending was of his own accord and sacrifice it just kinda rubbed me the wrong way. just a personal thing i guess.