#im rly goin thru it

[singlecelledbutch]

hiii i decided to animate the urusei yatsura meme ft the Guys,,, this took soo long and i had to learn like 10000 new things butttt im rly happy w it!!!

[vampiregerard]

past lives // ls dunes

[majorasnightmare]

once i get to malenias phase 2 with regularity its OVERRRRR

[tarblooded]

Disembowelment disembowelment disembowelment

Crushed handbones hung contorted on their tendons

Do unto me as i have wrought upon myself

[lottieratworld]

how the hell do u meet ppl irl. how do ppl do that shit

[rinhaler]

the fall of the house of usher AU with the todorokis

[irl]

google search results for how 2 stop bein INSANE ovr a crush tyty

[orcelito]

Now two nights in a row, when left without a fan for sound padding, I have set IAMX music on shuffle to do it instead

My own personal lullaby... the really depressing and often quite sexual music that is just low-key enough to be Perfect to put me to sleep.

My stats for this artist at the end of the year are going to be insane. I don't know if I've ever listened to any one artist this extensively.

[soupkiddo]

y'all ever feel like you don't have the bandwidth to be a human? I feel like my brain was mean to be in some form of deep sea fish. I am not built to make phone calls and check emails. I am meant to swim around and subsist on marine snow and the occasional whalefall. it is cruel to make a snailfish schedule appointments.

[pctaldrunk]

hnnn emo for no reason again but like good? bad? idk??

[sarcasmic-skies]

currently high as hell rewatching fight club B)

[plaidos]

i just wanna say thank u for like. defending the femboy somewhat as a concept just cuz like a couple years ago i was goin thru a lot of despair just as a transfem enby abt clothes n my interests coming across as being transmisogynist to real trans women (tm tm tm) and seeing a shifting attitude towards femboys at the time gave me a rly good couple of years where i felt safe n confident n hot as fuck to like... go out dressed like that? im kinda shoved back into just goin out lookin like a dude again now but. seein you talk about this stuff helps thinkin back on those years feeling less... like a waste or a fluke? idk what i rly mean to say n this is so scattered but i feel reflected in a lot of what ur sayin tonight

people like you are the exact reason i'm a stick in the mud about this topic. idk people like you have been my sisters & siblings for a lot longer than anybody who's willing to cast the wrong type of TMA person aside as "living in the safety net of being a cis man" whenever their identities & material circumstances are outside the yellow lines. stay safe 💘💘💘💘💘

[peacheenie]

ohhhhh groundhog day on tv downstairs rn . . . it is one of my fave films plot wise so im letting myself be a bit indulgent and thinking abt larry goin thru that in the middle-aged opposites ex event . . . let me have this ok . . . . .

his whole day of "oh god i dont wanna fucking be heerrrreeee. i dont wanna talk to these kids abt stuff i dont care about. i need to leave so badly." then bumping into kabu near the end of it but thinking nothing more of him turning into an everyday cycle of becoming more and more unhinged as hes forced to do the same mundane shit he just does Not want to do, over and over. but also simultaneously sloooooowly getting to know kabu and his peers more, mostly against his will, the more out of his routine he goes every day when he finds the courage to do so. ultimately it turns those days into moments of genuine interest when he and kabu end up bumping into each other....

that or diff version where the event happens normally throughout a singular day; they end it in the hot springs eating hoenn delicacies together but then after all of it they end up hanging out at the hotel in larrys room, accidentally talking all night and falling asleep with their hearts and heads full of joy only for larry to wake up the next day and kabus straight up just gone; he isnt in his room with him when he wakes up.

that isnt even the worst part tho because when larry confronts him again the next day, kinda giddy and Very not his usual self because hes actually... yknow... allowed himself to just Be with someone else As himself for what feels like the first time ever.... kabu doesnt remember any of it!!!!!!! 💥

i think hed go a little bit insane abt that tbh....

like. imagine for the first time in probably over a decade; genuinely opening up to someone and showing interest in getting to know them better (despite telling yourself to not bother because youre probably not even worth their time) only for the next day they turn around, look at you and act like it never even happened. and just after having been so casually and genuinely accepting of you to boot. i think hed just kinda deflate after that. argh. 💥💥💥💥

groundhog day just makes me think so many things guys,,, it is rly rly good and fun to explore the concept i think,,,,

[celestie0]

your kickoff gojo is just too sexyyyy.

So bullyable and submissive, exactly my type😔😔😔😔😔 i NEED to fuck him till he sees stars omg Im sorry for being so unhinged but your series has done things to my brain😭

and hes such a simp too omg (in a good way)! your writing is amazing

😭😭😭 thx bb im so glad u find him bullyable n submissive that is literally my only goal when writing anything gojo related LMFAOKDJFHF (my exact type too. i want a man thats so stupid n lame but hot that i just want to shove his face in the dirt 🤧💀 LOL i may have problems)

i NEED to fuck him till he sees stars omg

HAHA IM SURE HE WOULD RLY LIKE THAT TOO SO PLS GO RIGHT AHEAD n do not apologize for being unhinged this blog is very much an unhinged safe space loool

n yessss im excited to fully write for kickoff gojo’s down bad simp era lmaoo he’s gonna be goin thru it fosho (ps ive officially decided the next chap is gonna be in his pov so i think it’s gonna be a lot of fun hahah)

THANKS MY DWEAR I LAUGHED OUT LOUD AT THIS ASK I RLY NEEDED A LAUGH SO TY and also ty for the compliments 🥺 <333

[false-anachronism]

ur the person i know who has the most knowledge on trans stuff so sorry if this is weird. isn't it supposed to feel good when you figure yourself out? whenever i think about gender stuff i just feel on the edge of a breakdown so i wanted to know if that's normal or not. really sorry if this is a weird question!! you don't have to answer!!!

being trans has a lot of complicated feelings!!!! sometimes figuring out ur not cis can come with like. a sort of grief, i guess??? that ur not who u thought u were. breakdowns will happen!!!! god does it happen!!! it happens so much!!!! it can be breakdowns over dysphoria (if u experience that), it can be over the idea of telling ur loved ones about it, it can be about feeling like you've failed your younger self because you're not going to grow into the kind of person you wanted to, general confusion about your identity and what labels you want to use (if any), figuring out how you want to present to try to feel more at home in your body and your identity, feeling like you're faking being trans somehow (which is impossible btw, even if u decide ur cis later, your identity is up to you and you alone) and like. so many more things!!!! being trans is not a walk in the park!!! if u break down when u think about ur gender, that is so normal actually!!! genuinely!! the amount of breakdowns i had in the shower over this shit especially when i was a teenager is fucking. uncountable i think!!! figuring urself out will often come with crises, and maybe you'll settle into it and find something that works for you and work out whatever's bothering you soon, or maybe it'll be more of a slow acclimation to being who you want to be and the breakdowns about it will become less and less and eventually you'll just kind of look at urself and realize hey. im trans and im happy about it <3 it's rly complicated!!!! and it's different for everyone!!!! i hope u can figure things out soon and feel better about all of this, but many many trans ppl know what ur goin thru and ur not alone <3

[ashes-hearts]

intro post after a whole month is a lil cursed but tbh i wasnt expecting to interact much so 😅 anyway!!

ash, 30, they/he. usa. english, mostly passable spanish, some japanese. just bc i look like this doesnt mean u can she/her me. ik this is a kink/nsfw blog so - i prefer "tits" n "cunt" for myself, i love "tdick" even tho im not on t, "boypussy" is fine but u dont have to do all that. rly just b normal abt trans ppl or get out thx

queer n trans/nb n wld love to get to know other queer/trans ppl esp cardiophiles!

mainly a place to put cardiophile stuff i like but ive been into posting my own stuff more lately so u might see some og ash content if im in the mood 😂 my stuff will b tagged "ashs heart" and/or "ashs words"

anons r on n dms r open! that being said, im p bad at keeping up w them - i have notifs off for tumblr n im not always regularly active, n even when i am sometimes msging is too much for me. pls dont take it personally! also, b cool pls, i can n will block u/turn anons etc off if i have to ☺️ im rly bad at rp but might b willing to try some depending, n im always happy to just chat too if u dont wanna get feisty in the dms!

i have a lovely gf!! im here to indulge a kink she doesnt share n play around a lil but thats it ☺️

p mentally ill, might ventpost sometimes but usually delete later, will tag as best as i can - pls ask if u want a specific thing tagged!! also im in treatment n im fine i promise im just also goin thru it lately lmao

i dont have other social media rn but ill update if that changes

HARD NOs: watersports/scat, detrans/misgendering, incest/fauxcest, feederism/weight gain, receiving anal, pregnancy (including mpreg), lactation, rape kink, foot kink, inflation. ykinmkato! just dont wanna talk abt these n prob wont follow back if u post alot of them, sry

more under the cut!

my hearts boring (read: healthy afaik 😂) but i love to fuck w it so i rly only record if i get a good reaction. rn im only working w my phone camera n mic - if u have any suggestions for (the literal cheapest) tech or how to make better recordings by all means lmk!!

in terms of my own content i mostly use caffeine, my meds (they raise my hr/bp), weed, breathplay, pressure, n good ol' fashioned pleasure to try n get my heart to react. i try n post audio/video if i get anything good. i have 2 steths (1 rly cheap 1 half decent) n a blood pressure cuff rn n thats it 😭

i wont do video/audio calls or post/share my face/voice so pls dont ask esp if weve never spoken before. im open to requests for pics/vids/recordings ig but i cant guarantee anything 😅 fyi im partially physically disabled so exercise is hard n some video angles dont work.

i use alot of emojis, my autocorrect is off, i abbreviate everything, n my lack of social skills is clinically significant 😅 sooo... sry...lmk if u need me to change it up for ease of understanding n ill do my best!! (also sry for typos when im high...)

cardiophile stuff im into: fast heartbeats, visible hearts, exercise heartbeats, irregular heartbeats, resus/cpr/defib, monitoring (ecg/ekg, other imaging) n stething, breathplay, mlm/wlw/t4t art n stories esp, dark cardiophilia*

im just broke enough that if theres sth u wanna see, i cld prob b persuaded to make u a video or whatever u want 😉 (possibly even for stuff thats usually a hard no!) i cant afford the time/tech to make lots of content unless its the quick easy stuff ive been posting til now but i love recording n i wanna share my heart (n body haha)! dm me 😉

oh also if u use ai to generate ur "stories" and/or "art" im not following u n might even block depending on how petty i feel. if u dont even care enough to make ur own niche fetish art a) i dont care enough to see it and b) why r u even here. cmon, make imperfect but human art that doesnt use enough energy to power a city block for hrs or w/e like the rest of us. miss me w that slop.

other kink stuff im into: praise kink, knife play, blood kink, weed intox, cnc, choking, hand kink, voice kink, D/s, shibari/bondage, being a completely useless sub. im also rly into whump so that might cross over some 😅

non-kink stuff abt me: im a pro musician n amateur fiction writer, i love hockey (go avs!), i like outdoor naturey stuff, im into scifi/fantasy media (books, movies, podcasts, video games, tv, anime...), i like to play d&d, n i love listening to basically all kinds of music! id love to chat about any of that too!

*IN THEORY im into p much as risky as it gets - needles, electricity, pressure, defibs, poppers, stimulants, etc - but IN PRACTICE this kink can b v dangerous n even deadly. pls do ur research, talk to ppl, know the risks before u consider trying anything u see here or any other blog urself. at the end of the day its ur body n ur life to put at risk but pls pls b careful. if u feel like the risk doesnt matter bc its just u, pls msg me n we can talk 🤍🤍